#mdd dx’ed

[astralsys]

Intro post?

I made this account for fun maybe? fun as in I just wanted to fuck around and vent a little into the void under an account that's not much connected to my other ones idrk. dont have much of an online presence really wanted to see how this will play / work out. even tho I already have an account on here that I use personally to gush about things cause I can't help it probs not gonna use this that much.... probably cause I'll forget this exists, anyways comma!

collective info about me:

💫 ✨ | Astral System | ✨💫

Either call me Astral or K!

They / Them ( NO plural prns / &!!! /srs I hate it fuck off people who use that )

Trans Non-binary Aroace Bodily Adult

Masc / Neutral, System, Alter, Human / Person

Proff Dx’ed w/ D.I.D. ( adult dx'es ) in recovery since 2018, dx’ed also w/ MDD, ASD & ADHD ( childhood dx'es ) [ not recovered ]

( I'm only saying this cause one of my parts may leak that info out by accident, dont know better dont have a consensus with privacy atm, and I would rather just say it now instead of worrying about it being outed later idrc if you think I'm faking or not I've been dx’ed for over 6 years now idc what rando’s on the internet think about me tbh )

❌ ❌ Other Info Never Disclosed ❌ ❌

DNI: Minors, NSFW shit, Queerphobes, Racists, Ableist, Pedo’s / Zoo’s, Proship / Anti’s discourse

Mspec “Lesbians” / “Gays”, Male “Lesbians” Queer ID’s based off people, Rad Inclusive, Transmed, BaB ( + all other queer exclus )

Any "System’s" ( No Matter What "Type", I dont want to see you fuckers fuck off with your “plural community” all of you are fucking bullshit ), “Endogenic System’s”, / “Mixed Origins System” / Tulpa, Pro “Endogenic” / Pro Non Traumagenic “Systems” Whatever Fucking “System Origin” You Fuckers Keep Coming Up w/

“Medically Recognized System” / “Dx”, Self Dx’ers, Pro Self Dx, “M.U.D.” / “M.U.I.”, ( Medically Unrecognized Disorders / Illnesses )

Anything on Pluralpedia! Any Discourse!

I dont wanna see it or you I will block you on sight. I dont care, i am not your friend I don’t want to be your friend leave me alone and out of this shit.

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specific info about me:

K or Astral ( not giving you my full name )

They / Them, Fey / Fem, Ae / Aer ( + other neo’s )

Trans Non-binary Otherkin / Alterhuman Agender Aroace

Host of Few ( also not giving you their names who fucking does that? ) I'm an adult ( id w/ body age not getting closer than that )

interests / dislikes / triggers private fuck off idc I'm not trying to make friends here

I hyperfixate on a lot of things due to both having asd and adhd and it effects my life way too much it’s annoying af I actually fucking hate it… having both is a fucking mess istfg, also chronic depression that’s so cool who doesnt love that? been dealing with that one for years and it sucks it really sucks I dont wanna keep feeling this awful my entire life, but its not gonna stop for me i think atp.

having D.I.D. isnt something I am ever gonna get into specifically, cause why the fuck would I? why do people have the need to tell others about their extensive personal med hx "oh you have to know all about my / our "system" and everyone apart of it! and every single disorder I / we self dx'es myself / ourselves with too!" ( just had to put the plural pronouns cause that's how these people talk ik I've had personal experience with these kinda people ). do these people not understand anything about internet safety omfg do you not listen to yourself at all? you’re not going to know anything regarding my med hx that I havent already given you cause to be honest I dont trust any one of you with me and my fragmented self and you don't really need to know. my alter’s are not something I talk to anyone about online or irl really. my trauma also isnt something I am ever gonna talk about honestly me even typing all of this out is insane to me what is wrong with me….

credit: banner @/Suyasuyabi427 pfp @/muku_69.0

[baconcolacan]

How would Tord react if Tom became dull? Just avoid of emotion, not care at all anymore? Would he try and fix it somehow?

Yup! He’d probably try to throw Tom into situations that would elicit some sort of reaction. He IS still human after all, emotions can’t be so easily discarded.

[historyofshipping]

Calling domestic terrorists “mentally ill” is not only wrong and problematic - it is downright dangerous to innocent people

As an American, this is old hat. Every few weeks there’s another mass shooting. Turns out it’s a white guy so it’s labeled mental illness, Republicans send thoughts and prayers and Democrats demand action that never happens. Meanwhile, white supremacy is not only alive and well, it is thriving. especially under the rule of Trump, Republicans, and Fox News. We are seeing a resurgence of white supremacist attacks and domestic terrorism that we haven’t seen in generations.

Most mass shooters are not mentally ill in any kind of diagnosable category that we currently have. They are the results of a white supremacist, deeply misogynistic culture who have unrestricted access to guns. This last part is important because most of Europe and the rest of the global north is also filled to the brim with white supremacy and misogyny. But the reason those countries don’t see mass shootings is simple - they don’t have guns.

So not only is the mental illness bull shit wrong, it is problematic. Mentally ill people (of which I am one - I’ve been dx’ed with MDD, GAD, and BPD - take your pick based on what the given diagnostic criteria is at any one time on any one visit) are much more likely to be the victims of violence rather than the perpetrator. But they’re much more likely to be feared by the general public since we see this rhetoric over and over again after every single mass shooting.

But here’s where it gets the most dangerous - this rhetoric is and is increasingly dangerous for the mentally ill. Today and yesterday, the POTUS* has even floated the possibility of institutionalizing people who are deemed to be a threat to themselves or others. (Which, by the way, is already legal - 72 hour holds). Here’s the problem - we do not HAVE the facilities to do that. Even putting aside all other problems with this, the simple fact remains that laws and policies are going to be passed across the country taking away rights of the mentally ill that have been fought for for over a century. Involuntary institutionalization when there are no “institutions” translates to stays in jails and prisons because there’s literally no where else to put people.

I’m a historian and my dissertation is on the century+ long history of mental health hospitals and training schools (for the “feebleminded”) in Michigan. I am terrifyingly, intimately aware of what happens when the solution to the mentally ill is to lock people up and forget about them. Disability rights activists have fought and won battles since the 60s to give rights to the mentally ill - and we’re seeing them being taken away because this country refuses to do something about the real fucking problem - access to the fucking guns.

I know people who have been forcibly institutionalized, including one of my closest family members/best friends. It is horrific and it is something that needs to be addressed and reformed - but NOT as a response to mass shooters. And the solution isn’t to further marginalize these already marginalized populations.

[astralsys]

I'm kinda just not been feeling that great my episode just keeps getting worse and worse and idk what to do to make myself feel better. feels like no one really likes me as a person just feeling really bad and lonely…. I have a vacation coming up hopefully things will get better. also memory’s still been getting worse not a good sign.