#mellohis depression

[mellohiscave]

Someone just told me that they didn’t regret trading me to end a war and they’d do it again- that fucking hurt do I mean nothing? I don’t know anymore? The disk war fucked me up, and JUST as i started to get better from it I was traded again, and told that I was worthless- am I worth less? I don’t know anymore I just hurt

[stemms]

Sometimes I like to think about how in the beginning of L’Manberg, when c!Wilbur was president and all of that. Whenever c!Tommy was super stressed out, c!Tubbo hummed the melody of his discs for him. Cat and Mellohi, it never failed to calm him down, relaxing him. It soothed him being something he was able to ground himself with.

Fast forward to exile when c!Tommy’s stuck alone with c!Dream, stressed and depressed. He hums the melodies like c!Tubbo used to but it never was the same. After c!Tommy became more conditioned to what c!Dream wanted him to be, c!Dream gave him his own music disc. (I personally like to think they went with Wait or something along those lines, great disc btw) So whenever c!Tommy was stressed, c!Dream was hum it for him, maybe after a brutal punishment or something like that.

On the other hand, whenever c!Tommy tried to hum the melodies of Cat and Mellohi, c!Dream would punish him severely, trying to get it into his head that all he needed was c!Dream and his gifts and friendship. He didn’t need to think about his past.

Hehehe, I love it so much! The idea of c!Tubbo humming the melody of Cat and Mellohi for c!Tommy is very sweet, and I personally have a similar hc, except c!Tubbo is replaced with c!Wilbur.

GRGRGRGRRRR YESSSS, c!Dream humming the melody of Wait for c!Tommy hits so hard because it basically shows that c!Dream replaced c!Tommy’s friends, family, everything he cared about, and home :) :) :) Also, I have an identical hc lmao, I’m pretty sure I even briefly mentioned it in my fic :) I’m obsessed with the idea of Wait becoming Their™ disc :)

Ohohoh, c!Dream punishing c!Tommy for humming the melodies of Cat and Mellohi is painful in the best way :) After all, if he already has an amazing friend like c!Dream, why would he need anyone else? Didn’t they abandon him? :) :) :)

[doomsdayradio]

number 18 of the ask game?

18. what has your experience with therapy been like?

VETERAN THERAPY PATIENT RAHHH🦅

no but we've been in and out of some form of therapy since about 2nd grade, so about 7-8 years or so?

it started out as school appointed therapy. according to our mother (and the host has no memory of this nor do any of the alters they've talked to about it so far), apparently we told a teacher our father had hit her and that started a whole thing with the school and CPS and therapy and counseling n shit.

our first therapist was nice i think, we had the same name (or well i guess she had our deadname) but we really don't remember much about her other than she assessed us and found us moderately depressed (in 3rd-4th grade no less). we couldn't keep seeing her after we moved to 5th or 6th because, well, she was school appointed and we had to change schools.

we went without a therapist until some point into 6th grade because we had started self-harming and our mother found out. our second therapist was nice as well, but again we don't remember much about her and i'm also guessing we didn't tell her much considering we were in an actively toxic friend group and relationship that as far as i remember she never encouraged as out of.

COVID hit and sessions with the second got less frequent until we decided we just wanted a new therapist. our third therapist was actively toxic! horrible at her fucking job! "trauma informed" my ass! she literally watched our mother gaslight us about physically abusing us in front of her and then called us dangerous! but anyways, don't want to go too deep into that lest i front trigger mellohi (trauma holder).

we stopped seeing her in 2022 and got our forth and current therapist. we really like her honestly. she's professional but still treats us like a person instead of some kind of case study like most of the others did. we struggle with opening up but we've told her about the system and she's been very accepting and curious of it so far.

soooo yeah. whole fucking thing. but we finally found a good one lmao💀

[ao3feed-crimeboys]

Are You With Me?

by theorem

When piano prodigy Theseus Innes finds his mother dead in their tiny Logstedshire apartment after committing suicide, his entire world is torn apart. Suddenly, Tommy finds himself in the small town of L’Manburg, living with his mother’s estranged brother and his family. The musically gifted teen struggles to find his place among a family who he didn’t even know existed, trying to come to terms with his grief amid strangers. But when Tommy is saved by the owner of the local music store, Tommy begins to find solace among the instruments and records of Mellohi Music and maybe even begins the process of healing.

Words: 2356, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Dream SMP, Minecraft (Video Game)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Characters: TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), Wilbur Soot, Technoblade (Video Blogging RPF), Phil Watson | Philza, Kristin Rosales Watson, Clay | Dream (Video Blogging RPF), DreamXD (Dream SMP), Clay | Dream's Sister Drista (Video Blogging RPF), Henry the Cow (Dream SMP), Clara the Astronaut (Dream SMP), GeorgeNotFound (Video Blogging RPF), Sapnap (Video Blogging RPF), Toby Smith | Tubbo, Ranboo (Video Blogging RPF)

Relationships: Technoblade & TommyInnit & Phil Watson | Philza, Wilbur Soot & Technoblade & TommyInnit & Phil Watson, Clara the Astronaut (Dream SMP) & TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), Wilbur Soot & TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), Technoblade & TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), Clay | Dream & TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), Dream SMP Ensemble & TommyInnit, Toby Smith | Tubbo & TommyInnit, Ranboo & Toby Smith | Tubbo & TommyInnit, Ranboo & Toby Smith | Tubbo

Additional Tags: TommyInnit-centric (Video Blogging RPF), TommyInnit Angst (Video Blogging RPF), Traumatized TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), TommyInnit Needs a Break (Video Blogging RPF), Wilbur Soot and Technoblade and TommyInnit are Siblings, but not really, they're cousins, surprise, Clara's Tommy's mother, and she's dead, sob, Phil Watson is Wilbur Soot's Parent, Phil Watson is Not Tommyinnit's Parent (Video Blogging RPF), he's his uncle, Good Clay | Dream (Video Blogging RPF), Alternate Universe - High School, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, hybrids do exist in this, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Suicide, Depression, Depressed TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), No beta we die like Clara, idk what country this is, so just imagine its a fake fucking country, and all the popular minecraft SMPs are its cities, will add tags as i see fit

[dsmplorehistory]

Season 2/ Part 2 of the DSmp Lore/history

=> Tubbo, now President, commits to rebuilding New L’Manberg. It’s on stilts, leaving the crater below as a memorial of the events that went down. Wilbur’s ghost appears, a friendly ghost who can only remember the good things from Wilbur’s life. He commits himself to rebuilding L’Manberg, wanting to make others happy. => Quackity wants to go after Technoblade in revenge for what he did to L’Manberg. Technoblade has retreated to distant lands but Quackity fears he will come back again if they do not stop him. Tubbo shoots his suggestion down, emphasising that he wants peace above all. Fundy, also part of L’Manberg‘s Govt, sides with Quackity though they listen to Tubbo as he’s the President.

=> Tommy, now Vice-President again, moves into his old house. He meets several of the new members of the SMP, including Philza, ConnorEatsPants and Captain Puffy - while he’s not involved in rebuilding, he does make an effort to bond with some of the new members. After so long in exile, he wants to focus on his own goals and have fun now that L’Manburg is safe.

=>BadBoyHalo organises a funeral for Jschlatt, who is now deceased. Rather than being respectful, everyone messes around, stealing his remains and making fun of the former tyrant.

=> Vikkstar and Lazarbeam also join the server. Tommy makes a bit of a bad first impression. Next another new member joins, Ranboo. Tommy invites him to go prank George’s house: they dress up in disguises and go rob it in the middle of the night, grieving it some for good measure. After Tommy logs off, Dream logs on.

=> Dream builds a huge obsidian wall around L’Manburg - notably with far harsher borders. Everyone is confused and appalled. Dream indicates that Tommy’s to blame. Dream’s using George’s house as an excuse to challenge L’Manburg’s authority by taking offense to Tommy’s grief.

=> The next day, the cabinet speaks to Tommy and, feeling attacked, he denies everything. They take him and Ranboo to court with Dream threatening to build the walls even higher if Tommy is not punished. Tommy eventually confesses when they start blaming Ranboo too and Tommy insists that Ranboo had nothing to do with it.

=> They hold a meeting. Tommy is to be punished. Tubbo tries to argue for probation where Tommy is stripped of his power and must be on best behaviour for 3 weeks. Dream would prefer exile but listens. If Tommy were to break probation, he would double the size of the obsidian walls, trapping L’Manburg further, and have guards patrolling the walls, preventing the citizens from leaving. Tommy is outraged at this, finding Dream’s actions entirely unfair.

=> He realises that Dream doesn’t have that much on them where Tommy still has Spirit - the remains of Dream’s dead horse which he once traded Tommy’s disc to Skeppy for. He threatens Dream - take down the walls or he destroys Spirit. Dream goes silent… then doubles the obsidian walls, stating he cares about nothing anymore except Tommy’s music discs and that he’s going to trap L’Manburg forever - it can be independent but never free.

=> They have another meeting. Tommy wants to call Technoblade and fight Dream as he’s oppressing them. Quackity and Fundy agree with this plan, not wanting to comply with Dream. Tubbo refuses, wanting to avoid a badly thought-out war and agrees to exile Tommy. Everyone’s shocked. As Tubbo is the President, it was his call. Tommy is lead away by Dream, accompanied by Ghostbur. Dream promises to take down the walls, now that L’Manburg has complied.

=> Quackity says that they need to get respect back as currently they have no power. He again suggests a ‘butcher army’ where they go after Technoblade as justice for L’Manburg and, this time, Tubbo agrees.

=> Meanwhile, Tommy is lead to a faraway land; his exile forbids him from going to any already inhabited land in the SMP. Dream destroys all his things, and he must start fresh. Tommy feels betrayed by everyone despite Ghostbur’s attempts to cheer him up; they call the land Logstedshire.

=> BadboyHalo visits Tommy and gives him a new music disc - chirp. (He wants to offer more, but Dream stops him.) Dream arrives to watch Tommy, making him destroy his iron armour and follows him around while Tommy tries to mine and build his new base. Tommy makes a tent as he doesn’t want this to be his permanent home. Ghostbur gives him and Tubbo compasses pointing to each other.

=> Exile takes a toll on Tommy. His humour grows darker with more references to death. Others visit but it feels disingenuous to Tommy. He feels lonely. Dream keeps visiting and destroying his armour and other things. But Tommy appreciates the company all the same. One time he has a hallucination of Tubbo visiting. (Tubbo’s too guilty to visit.)

=> Tommy decides to have a beach party so people will visit to see him, but he only tells Dream and Ghostbur and Dream secretly sabotages the invites, sending Ghostbur away. When only Dream shows up, Tommy gets extremely depressed and angry, destroying the bridge he built through the nether. He decides Dream must be his only friend and even convinces Dream to give him a trident.

=> Jack Manifold visits while Tommy is feeling depressed and Tommy spleens him into lava in rage before regretting it as he realises this dark mindset is unhealthy. Jack begins to hate Tommy, secretly wanting revenge.

=> Tommy is losing hope, feeling like he will die. He makes a secret room from Dream full of stuff he never wants to lose including pictures of Tubbo and other keepsakes. Dream discovers this room and grows furious, blowing up Logstedshire and destroys all his things, his armour, his diamonds, everything. The only thing Tommy keeps safe is the pictures of Tubbo. Tommy apologises repeatedly, begging Dream to stay his friend, that he’s so lonely as Dream forbids anyone from ever visiting, destroying the nether portal.

=> Tommy nearly decides to end his life but reconsiders as he realises that Dream was just here to watch him, not be his friend. He cannot give up hope and let him win. So, he runs away, and eventually ends up at Technoblade’s house in the wilderness.

=> In L’Manburg Quackity sets off his Butcher army plan and they force Philza to tell them where Techno lives, placing him under house arrest for helping a known criminal. From Philza they take a compass that leads them to Techno’s house. Tubbo, Quackity, Fundy and Ranboo all fight Techno who is prepared with potions and gear. Thanks to Dream, he also has a totem of undying. Quackity threatens Techno’s horse, Carl, and Techno surrenders, giving them his weapons and armour, letting them lead him to L’Manburg where they immediately execute him, skipping a trial. Thanks to the totem, Techno lives. He escapes into the sewers with help from Dream and Punz. Quackity finds him but Techno kills him with a netherite pickaxe and flees home on Carl. He swears revenge, determined to absolute destroy L’Manburg for daring to attack him.

=> L’Manburg decides instead that their true enemy is Dream and plan a festival to catch and kill him. Ranboo visits Techno and gives him back his armour. Tubbo visits Logstedshire and thinks Tommy is dead.

=> Tommy sees Techno who takes pity on him given that Tommy was exiled and now he’s on the run from Dream. Techno shows him his vault containing 150 wither skulls with which he wants to use to destroy L’Manburg. Tommy is horrified and doesn’t want to destroy his old home despite his conflicted feelings. He just wants to get his music discs back. Techno suggests working with him and he’ll help get the discs back if Tommy does some minor terrorism with him. Tommy agrees.

=> Dream turns up, looking for Tommy. Techno hides him but notes that he does owe Dream a favour for saving his life. Tommy is very confused about Dream - seeing him as both a friend and enemy, obviously emotionally vulnerable after exile. He fixates on the discs as the one goal that looks achievable. He is reliant on Techno for protection and looks to him for what to do, having no confidence of his own. Techno lets him have armour and golden apples.

=> Techno and Tommy commit acts of terrorism in L’Manburg. They kidnap Connor, torture him a bit and get Tubbo to exchange him for Techno’s crossbow. Tubbo was shocked to see Tommy was alive while Tommy calls Tubbo a monster, after hearing that he tried to kill his new friend Technoblade. He is conflicted though even as Techno shares his negative opinion on L’Manburg. Dream confronts them and Techno protects Tommy, though he offers his favour. Dream refuses, saving the favour, and leaves Tommy alone for now.

=> More terrorism, this time Techno releases a wither while Tommy threatens Fundy and Ranboo, getting back Techno’s sword and axe while accidentally scaring Fundy so much he drowns and even Techno is alarmed at his aggressiveness. Only afterwards does Tommy reflect that he’s going way too far, and this might not be right. Techno says he’s beginning to respect him where originally, he was useless and tells him his real plan to destroy L’Manburg. Tommy is scared. He reluctantly agrees, then backtracks and says he only wants the discs, not to hurt Tubbo but he is very uncertain.

=> The festival occurs. Tubbo and co. host it, waiting for Dream to arrive. Tommy and Techno head over, seeing a scary prison Dream commissioned on the way. When they get there, Dream appears but rather than take off his armour, he starts rebuilding the obsidian walls. It’s apparently because of Tommy again.

=> The community house has been blown up. Dream blames Tommy and everyone seems to believe him. He says that he considers L’Manburg responsible for Tommy’s actions unless Tubbo gives up Mellohi, which Tommy gave to him as a sign of trust.

=> Tommy appears and says that he didn’t do it. He’s hurt that Tubbo doesn’t believe him and angry at everyone. He and Tubbo and up fighting while the rest of the server watches. They’re screaming at each other until finally Tommy says that the discs were worth more than he ever was. They both freeze, digesting what he just said.

=> Tommy regrets and says to Tubbo to give up the disc to Dream, saying he’s becoming worse than everyone he hated. Then he says he’s on Tubbo’s side, on L’Manburg’s side - because all his violent behaviour was wrong, and he should not let his trauma justify anything.

=> Technoblade says Tommy should come with him, that he’s siding with the enemy after all he’s done for him. Tommy’s mind is made up. Techno accepts this and demands his axe back, saying he’s no longer worthy of it. Tommy refuses, saying he decides that he is worthy. Techno leaves, saying either way he’s going to destroy L’Manburg, and that Tommy’s made a mistake.

=> Dream calls Tubbo the worst president ever, explaining how he was pretending to be friends with Tubbo for it and now that he has the disc, he’s going to destroy L’Manburg with Techno tomorrow. He also says that Ranboo is a traitor. Dream leaves.

=> Tommy is in an awkward spot but apologises to the surrounding crowd. He swears that he didn’t destroy the Community house and that everyone needs to put their differences aside for now because they don’t have time to argue or hold grudges. They need to band together to save L’Manburg from Dream and Technoblade. Settle their differences afterwards. Everyone has to work together to save the day. He believes in L’Manburg still.

=> Quackity talks to Tubbo, saying they should punish Ranboo, Tubbo refuses, saying he will not punish an innocent citizen and will not be pushed around by Quackity anymore. He’s going to be forgiving. Quackity says he’s going to leave L’Manburg for this though still agrees to help in the fight tomorrow.

=> Niki is angry and doesn’t believe Tommy. She does not want to work with him and doesn’t care about L’Manburg anymore. She’d rather watch it crumble than work with Tommy. Fundy notes that no one likes Tommy, but they should band together just while they have a common goal. The next day though, he reconsiders. Why bother trying to save a nation that’s never done anything? Why bother helping others?

=> Ranboo is frustrated saying that this whole fight is stupid and having sides caused the problems in the first place. Having a nation is the problem. He’s friends with people regardless of who they’re with. He says Dream is the enemy but is too scared to fight Dream as he’s too powerful. It’s pointless.

=> Punz says to help L’Manburg but he’s secretly a spy working with Dream to gain people’s trust.

=> Sapnap is conflicted as he doesn’t want to side against Dream. Tommy speaks to him the next day after searching the ocean for his lost fish Mars. He returns Mars to Sapnap saying he wants them to be friends and put aside all the betrayals and wars of the past. Sapnap agrees to help Tommy. Getting Sapnap to release Mars was wrong as hurting other just because you yourself was hurt is wrong, Tommy has decided. Tommy likewise forgives Tubbo for exiling him, saying it was justified and he should never have hurt Tubbo and teamed with Technoblade just because he was hurt and traumatised.

=> The war happens. Few turn up to fight. Fundy has sabotaged their supplies while Niki burns the L’Mantree. Techno starts his assault. Half a dozen Withers are released, and they wreak havoc. Tommy and Tubbo fight together, helped by Sapnap, Ponk, Quackity, Punz, Jack Manifold and Eret. They are no match for Techno, Philza, Dream, a dozen withers and a huge pack of dogs.

=> Finally Dream releases tons of TNT, obliterating the nation. Tommy screams at Techno, saying how he never really considered him a friend, and this was a betrayal while Techno counters that Tommy betrayed him, seeing him as a weapon rather than a person where Techno helped him and would have fought anyone for him. Tommy calls him selfish for being unable to compromise his views even a little, that he couldn’t have just let them live in peace but had to destroy what he loved.

=> Dream talks to Tommy too, saying that this was just fun for him, and wants to continue toying with Tommy. Tommy swears he won’t give up and Dream says he looks forward to doing this again. L’Manburg’s story is over, but theirs is not.

=> Quackity says to trust no one; all this was too far. Tommy agrees, planning on going after Dream and the discs once more to finish things. They agree that L’Manburg is beyond repair.

=> Ghostbur appears, he asks Phil why he did this, why he would destroy all that Ghostbur built and let his blue sheep, Friend, die. Phil just says he’ll understand some day. Ghostbur wants to die. Bringing back Wilbur will end his own existence he believes.

=> Tommy and Tubbo move in together, planning to fight Dream together after all he’s done to manipulate them.

=> Ranboo is anxious, he is hearing a voice that sounds like Dream but might just be a memory he’s trying to repress - the voice says that it was he who destroyed the community house. Ranboo goes to live with Philza and Techno, who offer him a home after destroying his house in L’Manburg, now just a crater.

=> Jack and Niki both want to make Tommy pay. Jack plans to get close to Tubbo in order to hurt Tommy.

=> Philza, Ranboo and Eret try to resurrect Wilbur - Tommy sees and is very conflicted as it means killing Ghostbur, who Tommy is very fond of and he’s wary of who Wilbur became. Their first attempt fails but they’re going to try again.

=>Dream destroys Tommy’s house. He asks for Tommy and Tubbo to meet him. Alone. It’s about the discs.

=> Punz has been feigning loyalty to the SMP but was a spy for Dream. However, Tommy had secretly dropped off a chest of valuables in his house, realising he’s suspicious, and ask Punz to help him.

=>Tommy and Tubbo meet Dream alone on a mountain. They fight but are overwhelmed by Dream who makes Tommy choose between Tubbo and his disc. Tommy chooses Tubbo (and the disc turned out to be a fake anyway). Dream continues threatening Tubbo, saying he will kill him if they don’t both comply and makes them both drop their armour and items before destroying it all. (This is the Disc Confrontation)

=>Dream takes them to a secret vault he has made, containing items of attachment from everyone - it has the discs, Beckerson, Friend the sheepand spaces for more things he wants to collect, such as Sam’s dog Fran, Punz’s shulker box and Techno’s horse, Carl. He also adds the axe of Peace to the wall, which he had taken from Tommy. He then reveals he needs Tommy to be alive and get attached to things and make others get attached so he can collect those things and gain power. Dream has removed all attachments form his own life and believes taking others is the way to gain absolute control. For that he needs Tommy.

=>Dream plans to kill Tubbo and throw Tommy in an inescapable prison (Pandora’s Vault). There’s nothing they can do. Then Punz arrives, having heeded Tommy’s message, brining with him the cavalry as a dozen other players come with him, such as Sapnap, Eret, Jack, Niki, Antfrost, BBH, Ponk, Hbomb94, C. Puffy, Callahan, Sam, Ranboo and Quackity. They protect Tommy and Tubbo, leaving Dream in trouble.

=>Tommy goes up to Dream, makes him drop his armour as he’d done to Tommy so many times and gets Dream to reveal how he blew up the community house and his manipulative plans, even talking about his exile. Then Tommy kills Dream twice, (taking two lives as he’d once done to Tommy) and considers killing him a final time so they’ll be free forever.

=>Dream begs him to let him go and offers the secret to bringing someone back to life - which means they could bring back Wilbur. Tommy reluctantly agrees and Sam and Sapnap take him and throw Dream in Pandora’s Vault.

=>Finally free, Tommy and Tubbo return home. They have the discs back ad listen to them at the bench. Wilbur talks to them - the real Wilbur from beyond the grave, apparently briefly able to communicate after their brush with death, not Ghostbur. He asks about them and they tell him how they want to bring him back. Wilbur is angry, having been content with death. They’re not quite sure what they might have done…

THIS INCLUDES ALL EVENTS UP TO THE 21st OF JANUARY 2021

[sixteenth-days]

tommy and tubbo + comfort

It’s the quiet, more than anything else, that catches Tubbo’s attention. Tommy is rarely quiet and never still, always big and bright and larger than life, but Tubbo rounds a corner and there he is, sitting against a wall and humming something under his breath, low and soft.

Tubbo pauses, listens for a moment, trying to place the song. It sounds like it might be familiar, but he doesn’t think he’s ever heard it before; it’s not the familiar notes of Cat or Mellohi or any other disc, nor the L’Manburg Anthem, which would have been his first guesses, and the curiosity is enough to pique his interest.

“What’s that song?” he asks, stepping up to Tommy’s side and leaning against the wall.

Tommy blinks up at him, then laughs and ducks his head to rub the back of his neck, sounding almost self-conscious. “Oh, it’s- er, it’s one of Wilbur’s, actually.”

The air shifts, just a little, like it seems to do whenever Wilbur is mentioned. It feels like even with his ghost no longer hanging around, he can’t stop haunting them. “I don’t think I’ve ever heard it before.”

“Yeah, you wouldn’t’ve,” Tommy agrees, leaning back a little and resting his hands between his knees. “He, uh- you know, after we got kicked out, we had, uh, lotta free time, and he wrote a bunch of songs. Absolutely depressing shit, honestly.”

“Yeah?” Tubbo prompts.

“Yeah. Fuckin’ miserable, if I’m honest,” Tommy says, chewing on his lip for a moment. “But I wound up- in exile, you know, I wound up thinking about some of ‘em a lot, because I was pretty fuckin’ miserable, too, then, and- yeah. So… sometimes they still get stuck in my head.”

“Oh,” Tubbo says. The word exile throws a knotted tangle into his lungs; he takes a moment, breathes past it like he always does, and sits down next to Tommy, shoulder to shoulder. “How’s it go?”

“What, the song?”

“Yeah, the one you were humming just now.”

Tommy hesitates. “I don’t- man, you know I’m not really a singer-“

“Yeah, I know. I just- I’m curious,” Tubbo says, and waits.

Tommy is quiet for a long minute, and it’ll never stop feeling wrong- Tommy being quiet. And then he sighs, and leans into Tubbo’s side, and starts to sing Wilbur’s song, a little quiet, a little halting and a little off key.

“Wasting your time… you’re wasting mine. I hate to see you leaving...”

And Tubbo sits, and wraps fingers around Tommy’s wrist just to be sure he won’t disappear, and listens.

[the-fridge-is-on-fire]

Got any ghostinnit hcs?

Ghostinnit hm

Well wilbur died a pretty sad death right? He wanted death and accepted it, and ghostbur is overall a very sad character with memory loss and all. That makes me wonder if Tommy won’t remember some things like the exile or dream manipulating him as a ghost which is going to be beyond depressing. He also died a death because of blind rage from both dream and him. Meaning ghostinnit can always be very angry or easily irritable. Yk how everyone is putting down flowers for him and all? I think that could be incorporated in his ghost form. Maybe wherver he walks nature just starts blooming because of the aftermath of his demise. Also, I think it would be hella funny if he would just taunt dream from time to time; just to fuck with him. Also yk how Tommy was very scared of lava? What if he was immune to it. What if he could just kind of rise of of lava and scare people shitless. So many different theories can be proposed here cause we haven’t met ghostinnit yet. Wait actually when I mentioned the memory issues earlier, what if he had the opposite? Because Wilbur wanted to forget, but Tommy did not. So what if he would just tell people all these things after he came back? Idk if that makes sense

Another theory: the discs. They are forever locked in his ender chest as we all know. So what if when he’s around u can faintly hear one of them playing at all times. And the music can change based on his mood? Like when he’s just vibing he might have mellohi playing around him or when he’s feeling annoying/funny he could have pigstep play? I think that could be super cool.

[ghost-chi]

How we feeling ranboo people.

Today's stream... It hurt me.

I'm hoping the disc in his chest is not the real one.

Also the whiplash from dark and depressing to phil with eyeliner was funny.

Now if you excuse me, I shall be listening to an hour long loop of mellohi so I can cope with this stream.

[bugsinthebayou]

yeah in our headspace there's only two actual people. there's ficitives of quackity, tubbo, and tommy, and there's the host, who runs the blog im asking from. i'm the protector, my name's mellohi. no clue why brains do that. i guess its like "oh you probably wouldn't want early onset depression from the trauma, how about we store it away?" no clue though. i'm just here to stop us from getting hypothermia

mmm looks like we share a name.

a protector, hm? the protector is a, well, protector of the body or system, yes? I dont want to be incorrect on any information, so correct me if I ever get something wrong :]

[mellohiscave]

I miss the friendship I had in source with Tommy and Tubbo, it was amazing and then the fucking disk war happened and everything changed I hardly felt anything, it was so fucking dehumanizing