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bluelillac · 1 year
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Strange
You never really thought if this could happen, falling in love, something strange that you hadn't had the chance to experience, it felt weird but right. He never tried to get romantically close but… That seemed so attractive that he wouldn't mind looking for a girlfriend a bit like the others did. He only focused on himself, on his goals, on his ideals.
The way he looked when he was enjoying what he was doing caused indescribable things in you, it's like listening to someone you love about something they love, that feeling that you could be there forever just watching and trying to understand why he likes it, even if you never understand why.
It was strange the way you softened your heart for someone who was unaware of your existence and someone who never considered you more than a nuisance.
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aheckinmess · 2 days
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Boom! Goes the Dynamight [Bakugo] (Angst)
(One-shot 10/? in a collection of My Hero Academia one-shots posted regularly on Saturdays - and sometimes Sundays.)
Read on AO3.
Tags: Bakugo x OC, Katsuki Bakugo, Dynamight, Pro-Hero Bakugo, Pro-Hero OC, Pregnant OC, Some Angst with a Happy Ending, One Explosion Boy, Live Grenades, You'll Understand When You Read It, Bakugo Sometimes Just Be Feelin' Feels, And OC Does Too
Word Count: 1,056 words
Summary: When Ichijiku finds out she's expecting, she worries about how her boyfriend, Bakugo, will react to the news and how it will affect their hero journeys.
Content Warning: An "f" bomb is dropped and there is mild foreplay (but it doesn't get very far).
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Ichijiku (Tigress)
Bakugo always says life is like a live grenade, ready at any moment to explode and see whether or not you’re worth your weight in nitroglycerine.
In a lot of ways, he’s right. We’ve gone through hell together with "grenades" that have tested the very sweat of his palms.
Looking at the two lines on this specific test feels like the most daunting of all. A thousand different worries trickle through my mind but the most immediate concern is having to tell Bakugo. Being his girlfriend, I get to see many different sides of him, but even knowing he’s capable of gentleness and emotions like the rest of us, I have no idea how he’ll react to this news.
I pull out my phone and debate just getting it over with. I should just tell him. He deserves to know. But my fingers hover over the keypad. I exhale and tears drip onto the screen.
How can I expect to tell him when he’s fighting so hard to be the number one hero right now? I’m already going to be rendering myself useless and putting my life on hold for a bit. But how will he respond to that? Nausea begins turning in my stomach again and I slam the bathroom door to go hurl my lunch into the toilet.
I have to pull back and rest my head against the back of the toilet and let some more tears drip down. What am I supposed to do, God? A choked sound echoes against the porcelain.
Just breathe. I remind myself. We can get through this. And if he wants to leave and be done with me because of it, he wasn’t worth the effort in the first place.
. . . . .
Bakugo knows I’m hiding something as the weeks pass. I’m a little more shaky around him, a little more skittish. I can’t seem to find the right time to tell him the news.
But there’s no escaping him after a challenging day of hero work. He’s always more needy after a hard day. When he goes feral there’s no keeping my distance. We barely make it into my apartment when he’s got me flattened against the door.
“Tonight, Tiger? You’re gonna beg for it, baby.” He grounds out in my ear, already putting his moves on and fumbling with my leggings and lifting my dress.
“K-Katsuki, I need to tell you something.” I breathe, knowing that I have to tell him now before he pulls off my clothes and figures out himself. I’m hardly showing at all, but a little bump is visible under my clothes.
And I know Bakugo. He’ll notice.
“It can wait. Fuck, I’ve been waiting all day.” He kisses along my thighs and gives me a lick between my folds, nearly breaking my resolve, but I clench my thighs together to stop him. “Hey!” He growls, before he catches my terrified expression and his eyes relax again. His muscles remain tense. “What’s gotten into you today?”
My eyes fill with tears by the time he asks. I don’t want you to hate me, Katsuki. I don’t know what I’ll do if you leave… Have a little faith, Little One, he’s been loyal and compassionate thus far.
“Did something happen?” He interrogates as his hands rub circles under my shirt. “Whoever it was I’ll…” Abruptly he stops, and I freeze.
I expect the shock on his face and it terrifies me. He lifts my shirt and I let him; it’s so quiet I can hear the throbbing beat of my heart. His thumb rubs over my stomach. Looking at it, there doesn’t seem to be much change, but feeling it…he looks up at me with recognition in his eyes.
And then the grenade explodes.
“WHY THE HELL DIDN’T YOU TELL ME SOONER?!”
“DON’T YOU YELL AT ME, KATSUKI BAKUGO!” I roar, pulling my legs up to my chest and scooting away from him. Tears wash my hands and the comforter. Bakugo seems so far away even though he’s right beside me. “I didn’t tell you because I knew that you’d get angry like this! I knew that you’d yell at me! I know this gets in the way of your hero journey…that it wasn’t a part of your plan!” My breathing elevates, my body starts shaking, and my voice raises a few octaves.
I don’t notice any of it. I don’t give Bakugo any time to respond, even when I see him getting fired up again.
“Well what did you want me to do, Katsuki?! I couldn’t tell you because I was scared that you’d tell me to leave or to get rid of it. And I won’t!” I rake my hands through my hair, bearing my teeth at him. “So break up with me if you’re going to and get it over with!”
The room is silent for a few moments. Fierce, protective and maternal instincts still boil through my veins as I watch with feral eyes for what Bakugo does. My burning instincts mix with cold panic as my mother’s voice in my head reminds me of all the reasons I’d be a bad mother. Of all the reasons Bakugo should feel the same.
“Are you crazy?!” He grits his teeth at me. “I’ve told you once, I’ll never take an action that ends someone’s life! YOU THINK I’D GET RID OF MY OWN KID?!”
He’s so fast. Always has been. In the next moment, he’s got my arms pinned at my sides and my lips trapped in a frantic, hard kiss. When he pulls back, his eyes are softer but he still snarls.
“Stop talking nonsense. I’m not leaving you and you’re not getting rid of me.” He puts a hand at my neck, sending my pulse thrumming underneath him as I start piecing his response together. “Don’t you dare think I’d be too weak to take on the challenge of my own child. Do I look that pitiful to you?”
Relief rushes through me as I finally meet his eyes and cup his face in my hands. Then I pull him close and bury my face in his neck, giving myself a moment to regulate, before I answer.
“No, Katsuki. You don’t.”
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megansabode · 3 days
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Will You Remember Me?
“We have a mission. For the two of you.” The man set the carrier on the table and Katsuki swore he heard something move in it.
It must’ve been one big fucking cat. The carrier was huge.
“A cat?” Katsuki asked, unamused. To his surprise, the official shook his head.
“A child.” Katsuki looked at Izuku, who seemed as confused as the former was. “A child who has a very, very powerful quirk that you two need to work together to raise.”
“I’m fucking sorry?”
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After the war, Katsuki lost all memories of what had happened, including apologising to Izuku. But Izuku remembered everything, in every detail. So when they're given a kid who can steal their quirks and have to share a room together, they might just get back to their relationship they had during the war.
OR
Katsuki has amnesia and Izuku remembers everything in HD 1080P and they have to raise a kid.
wc: 7876
bkdk oneshot. also posted on ao3 @megansabode
(war au is slightly changed, oneshot written after 419 and before 420 manga chapters)
contains: swearing, (slight) gore, soft katsuki, katsuki being a good dad, izuku being very (not) subtle, angst, hurt/comfort, katsuki centric (can switch to izuku centric in some paragraphs)
Katsuki groaned as he rolled out of his blanket, crushing his alarm with his fist. He looked up, groaning as he blinked multiple times to open the one eye that still worked to see that his alarm was now broken.
“Fuck’s sake.” He muttered. “It’s too damn early for this shit.” He sat up, rubbing his eyes, flinching at the sudden twinge of pain from the scars on the right side of his face. Sometimes, when he was feeling stupid, he’d stick a finger into his empty eye socket. He didn’t know why, he guessed that sometimes he wanted to see if this shit was still a fever dream or not.
It wasn’t. His eye was gone. And so were, still, all of his memories from the war.
To say that he was confused when fucking Deku was wrapping his arms around him was an understatement. And the fact that Deku had said he’d apologised? When the fuck did he do that?
He couldn’t remember doing any of that shit, that was for sure.
Apparently he’d killed All For One. Great. And where was his reward? Nowhere. They didn’t even give him any funds when he plunged straight into debt after graduating.
If he was such a great hero, why didn’t they treat him like it?
“Deku!” Katsuki yelled. “I need a new alarm!”
“Again?” Izuku’s voice was slightly muffled, Katsuki guessed that he was brushing his teeth. Yes, again. Katsuki had broken his last alarm. And the one before that. And the one before that.
And he definitely was not going to use his phone. He’d just buy alarm after alarm until he got used to waking up at five AM easily again.
But after spending the past two years in and out of the Hospital, he doubted that would be happening anytime soon.
“You need help?” Izuku yelled from his bathroom.
“I’m fine!” No, Katsuki wasn’t fine. He’d only just realised the amount of fucking glass in his hand. After what must’ve been hundreds of trips to the hospital, he guessed that he must’ve been at least a little immune to pain now. And this was no different. He didn’t feel pain, there was just a shit ton of blood dripping onto his floor. He groaned and pulled on his clothes, making sure he didn’t get blood on his shirt, then walked out into the hallway.
“Kacchan, you’re bleeding.” Izuku said from the other side of the hallway as Katsuki attempted to pull the glass out.
“No fucking shit.” He said bluntly, grunting as Izuku grabbed him by the sleeve of his shirt and pulled him into his room. He sat Katsuki down on his bed and grabbed some tweezers, then started picking the glass out. “I’m fine, it’s just glass-”
“And?” Izuku asked, looking up at Katsuki. “I don’t care if it doesn’t hurt. Do you want to lose a hand like me?” Katsuki pursed his lips as his eye caught on the prosthetic arm Izuku had in replacement of his right arm.
Katsuki had lost his arm too, but the doctors had been able to reconstruct it, as they did with Izuku’s left arm. But his right one was unsalvageable.
If that idiot didn’t just fucking stay where he was and didn’t get sucked into that time portal or whatever it was, none of this would’ve ever happened. Well, Katsuki still wouldn’t have his eye, but Izuku wouldn’t have to get used to having no left arm anymore.
At least Katsuki was close to 18 when he died on the battlefield. When Izuku was on his deathbed, he was basically still freshly 17.
And now he was 20. And Izuku was 19. And the two still woke up to each other screaming from nightmares every night.
They never talked about it. Never. They didn’t need to. Their small, “Are you okay”’s in the morning were enough. And they would both nod to each other. Then, they’d move on from it.
Katsuki could never remember what he was even dreaming about. How could he–he didn’t remember anything from the battlefield. It just felt…weird. And he always felt like he needed to know whether Izuku was still alive or not.
But he’d pushed that out after his therapist, Recovery Girl’s daughter, had suggested that he actually cared about Izuku. Because he didn’t. Why would he care?
They heard a doorbell and Izuku looked up. He grabbed bandages after pulling out the last shard and then wrapped bandages around Katsuki’s hand. Then, he got up and walked out of his room, over to the apartment door.
Katsuki flexed his hand as he waited. He was still a little iffy after Izuku’s comment about not having a hand. Did that nerd really have to remind Katsuki about that? Or was it just because he didn’t remember anything else?
“Is your roommate home?” Katsuki heard a low voice travel from the kitchen. And soon, his name was called by Izuku. Not his name, just the stupid ‘Kacchan’ Izuku always yelled. But to Izuku, that was basically Katsuki’s name.
He groaned, getting off Izuku’s bed and walking into the kitchen to see a Hero Commission official with something that looked like a cat carrier in his arms. “Yeah?” The official looked down at Katsuki’s hand and frowned, then looked at Izuku.
“We have a mission. For the two of you.” The man set the carrier on the table and Katsuki swore he heard something move in it.
It must’ve been one big fucking cat. The carrier was huge.
“A cat?” Katsuki asked, unamused. To his surprise, the official shook his head.
“A child.” Katsuki looked at Izuku, who seemed as confused as the former was. “A child who has a very, very powerful quirk that you two need to work together to raise.”
“I’m fucking sorry?” Katsuki stormed forward, but Izuku held him back with his metal arm. “Deku-”
Izuku flinched at the name. “Shush.” He looked at the official. “Why are they in a cat carrier, then? If they really are a child?”
“They are too dangerous-”
“So you want the kid in a cage? Move out of the way.” Katsuki pushed Izuku’s arm out of the way and attempted to open the carrier. It was locked, but Katsuki pulled the door off and tried to pick the kid up. He could barely see them, but he could see them moving further back in the carrier. “Hey. It’s okay. I’m not going to hurt you. I’m here to help.” He said in a soft tone. The kid slowly crawled forward and he smiled.
Their face came into view and he saw she was a girl, with dark brown hair and violet eyes. Her hair was choppy, her lips chapped, and she looked around six or seven.
She reminded him far too much of Eri. With the scars on her arms and face. With the stupid hospital gown she wore. The official stepped back as the girl crawled out of the carrier and Katsuki glared at him, then picked up the girl. “What’s her name?” He asked, holding her in the crook of his elbow.
“Dynamight, I advise-”
“What. Is. Her. Name?” Katsuki repeated as the girl wrapped her fingers around tufts of his hair.
“...005.”
“How old is she?”
“Seven.”
“What’s her quirk called?” Katsuki asked as the girl giggled, wrapping her arms around his neck. He couldn’t help but smile as she played with the hairs at the back of his neck.
“Steal.” Izuku’s jaw dropped and he reached out to stop Katsuki, but Katsuki just moved away. He didn’t even seem to care.
Because he didn’t. In all honesty, he hadn’t used his quirk in a fucking year. He didn’t need to and he didn’t want to. The last time he’d used his quirk it had fucked him up so bad that he didn’t think he was even able to use it anymore.
He still wanted to be the No.1 hero. In other ways. And if that way was raising a girl who had a stealing quirk, then so fucking be it. That was what he was going to do.
“Kacchan-“
“Shut up.” Katsuki looked back at the official. “Is that all you needed to say?”
The official nodded. “Good luck with…it.” Katsuki would’ve fucking killed that official if Izuku wasn’t holding onto his arm like a vice. The official left with the carrier and Katsuki turned to Izuku.
Izuku gulped. “Are you sure about this?”
“Set up my room as hers. I’ll clean up the glass on the floor.” Katsuki smiled again as the girl giggled again, pulling his hair slightly. “Ow, Kiro.”
“You named it?”
“Her.” Katsuki bit back.
Izuku shook his head. “Not my point! You named a kid who can steal your quirk? Kacchan, this is on a whole other level! I could lose One For All! You could lose your quirk!”
Katsuki rolled his eyes. “Then don’t get near her.” Katsuki set Kiro down on the counter. “Be a good girl and stay here, okay?” Kiro nodded and he smiled, ruffling her hair before he walked out, going to his room. Izuku followed him quickly, keeping his eye on the kid as she sat down on the counter, playing with some scent beads on the side.
“You’re out of your mind, Kacchan!” Izuku yelled as Katsuki grabbed a dustpan and brush. “Are you serious?”
“Yes.” He said bluntly, picking up the glass on the floor.
“Well—where are you going to sleep?”
“The couch. Obviously.” He said, standing up and throwing all of the shards of glass into the bin. He grabbed what remained of the alarm and chucked it in there, too.
Izuku sighed. “No.”
“No?”
“You’re sleeping in my bed.”
“I’m what?” Katsuki asked, turning around.
Izuku stood his ground (for once in his fucking life, Katsuki thought) and glared at Katsuki. “You are going to sleep in my bed while we work out what to do with our child, okay?”
“Fine. But don’t expect me to fucking cuddle up with you or some shit.” Izuku rolled his eyes but moved around the room, picking up everything that was Katsuki’s. “They could’ve moved us into a bigger place.” Katsuki mumbled as he took down his posters.
Izuku rolled his eyes again. “They won’t do that. They don’t have enough funds.”
“Don’t have enough funds, my ass.” Katsuki muttered. “They have billions, Deku.” Izuku flinched at the name again and Katsuki wanted to fucking kill himself.
Maybe Katsuki should’ve taken that swan dive off the roof.
Katsuki grabbed his clothes and shoved them into a suitcase. In all honesty, he didn’t mind having Izuku’s bed. It was much comfier than his, as Izuku had arrived at the apartment first.
“I’m gonna go check on her.” He said, walking out of the room and going to the kitchen. To his surprise, the girl was still sitting on the counter, giggling to herself. “What’re you giggling about, huh?” She squealed as he picked her up and held her in one hand, as if she was an airplane. Then, he pulled her to him and held her in front of him. “You stink.”
She giggled again. “You stink.” So she can talk. Katsuki gasped dramatically as she laughed and brought her into the bathroom. She let out a small ‘oof’ as he put her down on the side of the sink and started to fill up the bath. “What’s your name?” She asked.
Katsuki turned around. He didn’t really expect her to be that fluent speaking to anyone, before she had just laughed and giggled. But she sounded confident as she spoke, even if she did have a slight lisp hidden behind her words. Maybe she just didn’t want to talk in front of the official. “Katsuki.” He said.
“Kat-shu-ki?” Katsuki laughed as she struggled to say his name. “Kath-su-chi?”
Not just a slight lisp.
Katsuki smiled. “Katsu.” He said.
“Katsu.” That was a lot easier for her to say.
“Just call me that.” She nodded, looking around the bathroom as he filled up the bath. He didn’t want it to be too full—she could’ve drowned otherwise—so he filled it up so it would cover just up to her waist while she was sitting down. “Test it with your foot.”
She nodded and got up, then put her foot in the bath, smiling. “Is that good?” He asked. She nodded and he started to take off her hospital gown.
He’d bathed female baby cousins before, so he knew what he was doing. He lowered her into the bath and she grinned, splashing.
“Okay, don’t get it all over me.” She laughed as he cleaned her with a smile.
“Kacchan—what are you doing?” Izuku asked, standing in the doorway.
“Giving her a bath. She stank.” Kiro laughed even more as she splashed around, and Katsuki let out a laugh as she got soapy water all over him.
“Kacchan-“
“Shut up. Give me the shampoo.” Izuku sighed and grabbed the bottle, then handed it to Katsuki. “Close your eyes.” He told Kiro. She nodded and closed her eyes, and he put shampoo on his hands, then rubbed it into her hair, creating foam. She reached her hands up to touch it but he pushed them back down, making her pout. Some of the foam went inside her mouth and she gagged for a couple seconds, until she stopped, looking up at Katsuki.
“You’re mean.” She said.
“Oh, am I now?” She nodded, then giggled when he forced her eyes shut so the shampoo wouldn’t get in them. Then, he grabbed the small bucket from the side of the tub and filled it up with water. He tipped it over her head and she giggled as he pressed the side of his palm against her forehead.
Katsuki could’ve sworn he heard Izuku laugh a little, but when he turned around, the green-haired young adult just stood there, crossing his arms. But his large, veridian eyes were softened and wide, which was something that Katsuki hadn’t seen much since he had woken up in that damn hospital bed, not remembering anything about how the fuck he’d gotten there, with a missing eye and an arm that felt like it wasn’t his.
“Kacchan, when will you be done so I can talk to you?” Izuku asked.
“When you make yourself useful?” Katsuki suggested. “Conditioner.” Izuku sighed but handed the hotheaded young adult the bottle, and he sat down on the floor next to Katsuki as the latter started to apply conditioner to Kiro’s ends.
Kiro’s hair was long, and it fell down her back. She was also thin, very thin. Too thin to be a healthy seven year old. “Kacchan, we need to talk about this whole thing.”
Kiro tilted her head to the side, and Katsuki (as gently as he could) moved it back. “Are you talking about me like I’m not here?” She asked. Katsuki snorted and looked over at Izuku.
Izuku shook his head quickly, swatting his hands in front of him. “No! Not at all! I was just, uhh…trying to talk to…” Izuku looked at Katsuki, as if asking what he should call him.
“To Katsu?” Kiro asked.
He smiled. “Yeah. To Katsu.” Izuku looked at Katsuki, who rolled his eyes.
“What’s your name?” Kiro asked, leaning forward in the bath. Katsuki pulled her back gently and she pouted again.
“Izuku.” Izuku smiled.
The girl nodded. “Izuku.”
Why couldn’t she just fucking say my name as easy as that? Katsuki wondered, side-eyeing Izuku, and groaning when he saw that the ‘old friend’ to the side of him was grinning.
“Yeah! Izuku.” Kiro splashed again in joy and Izuku laughed as she got water all over him. “Kiro!” Katsuki forced back the smile that threatened to show on his face as he heard Izuku say the girl’s name.
And Izuku continued to make small talk with Kiro as Katsuki bathed her.
“Goodnight.” Katsuki smiled, tucking Kiro into the bed. She giggled as Izuku walked in, and handed her a plush. Katsuki deadpanned at the All Might plush from years ago.
The one that Katsuki had bought Izuku for his fourth birthday.
“Thank you!” Kiro mused and Izuku laughed as she held the toy in front of her.
“You’re very welcome. Goodnight, Kiro. Don’t let the bed bugs bite!” Katsuki rolled his eyes at Izuku’s words, then walked out with him, turning off the light. Kiro grinned at Katsuki and Izuku stayed by the doorway, watching as Katsuki looked at Kiro.
The girl giggled and Katsuki laughed. “Night.” He walked out and closed the bedroom door behind him, then stared at the door, his laughter fading into a frown.
“Kacchan?”
“Move.” Katsuki said, going into Izuku’s room. Izuku sighed and walked in after him, then closed the door. “What do you want?”
“Well, you are in my room.”
“Yeah, because it was your idea for me to be here. So spill, Deku. What do you want to talk to me about?” Katsuki sat down at the end of the bed.
Izuku sighed again. “Do you really not care if she steals your quirk?” He asked.
“I…” Katsuki groaned, falling back against the bed. “I don’t know.” Izuku sat down next to him. “I mean, yeah, my quirk’s great and all, but the last time I properly used it I almost fucking died.”
“You did die.”
“Yeah, but not entirely because of my quirk, dipshit.” Izuku rolled his eyes. “I just…we don’t even know how she steals quirks. How are we supposed to be scared if she’s actually just extremely calm?”
Suddenly, Izuku stood up. “What’re you doing?” Katsuki asked, sitting up. Izuku grabbed his phone out of his pocket and started pacing. “Deku-”
Izuku put his phone to his ear after calling someone. “Aizawa-Sensei.” Katsuki narrowed his eyes as Izuku pulled his phone away and put it on speaker.
“--Don’t have to call me Sensei still, kid.” Katsuki heard the end of Aizawa’s sentence. “What do you need, it’s midnight.”
“...Me and Kacchan have a kid. Do you know anything about her quirk?”
“005?” Katsuki’s blood boiled at the mention of the fucking lab name. “Yeah. Why, did they not tell you anything about the quirk?”
“Nope.” Katsuki said.
Aizawa sighed through the speakers. “Alright.” He said. “The kid’s quirk works when the people around her use their quirk and she feels threatened. They chose you because they thought that, for one, Bakugo doesn’t use his quirk, and Midoriya, your quirk is one that’s barely visible and the kid won’t see it as much of a risk–”
“Why is she treated like a fucking lab rat?” Katsuki asked, making Izuku stop pacing and Aizawa stop talking.
“Huh?” Aizawa asked.
Katsuki rolled his eyes. “Why is Kiro treated like a lab rat?” He asked.
“Kiro?”
“That’s what he named the kid.”
“You named her?” Aizawa shouted.
“She’s my fucking kid!” Katsuki yelled.
“Our kid.” Izuku confirmed.
Same thing. “Whatever.” Katsuki said. “Why is she treated like a lab rat? What the hell happened to her?”
Aizawa sighed again. “This is confidential information.” Izuku sat down next to Katsuki again. “She was born about two or three years before your first year at UA.” Fuck, had it really been that long already? “The Commission believes she was a backup plan in case Tomura was never good enough. Which, well, in the end, he wasn’t. But after the war, they searched through every single base and found her in one of them. A frail, thin, malnourished child.”
Yeah, she was thin all right. “They’ve been keeping her in a lab for years, chained up so that she can’t do anything.” Katsuki gripped the sheets below him. After her bath, there were some marks on her wrists that were probably covered in makeup before she was brought over to the apartment. “...She’s stolen around six quirks so far. She can use them, but she only really uses them when she’s scared.”
“...Okay.” Izuku said, but he was just staring at Katsuki. “Aizawa-Sensei, how…do you think we should go about raising her?”
“Treat her like a normal kid, Midoriya. She’s been through enough. And be nice to her, Bakugo–”
“Actually, Kacchan’s been surprisingly good with her.” Katsuki scowled at Izuku’s comment.
Their old teacher laughed a little. “Really?”
“Mhm. He made her laugh, hugged her, gave her a bath and gave her his room. He–he’s a good dad.” Katsuki pursed his lips. He’s a good dad.
Thanks, Deku. He thought.
“Good. Now, can I go back to sleep?”
“Yes! Sorry for waking you up!” Izuku said.
“It’s alright, kid. Goodnight.”
“Night!” Izuku hung up, then turned to Katsuki. “Kacchan? Are you okay?”
Katsuki grinned. “He’s a good dad?” Izuku looked to the side, a pinkish tinge on his cheeks. “I’m a good dad?”
Izuku shrugged. “I guess?”
“Alright. So who’s going to be dad and who’s going to be dada?” Izuku groaned at Katsuki’s mocking tone and threw a pillow at him. “Hey! I’m serious!”
“No, you’re not.”
“No, I’m not.” Katsuki grinned as Izuku glared at him, but the latter soon had a smile on his face. “What’re you looking at me like that for?”
Izuku put his phone back into his pocket. “You haven’t smiled in a while.” Katsuki immediately had a frown on his face again at that. “Oh, c’mon Kacchan, smile!”
“Nope.” Izuku laughed as Katsuki got into bed, throwing a pillow at the former. “You haven’t laughed in a while, Deku.”
Izuku stopped throwing a pillow back, the soft white rectangle dangling above his head. “...That’s not my name.”
“Eh?”
“I’m not Deku. Stop calling me that.”
“Actually, it’s your hero name-”
“Call me Izuku!” Izuku yelled. Katsuki narrowed his eyes as Izuku threw the pillow to the floor. “Kacchan, I know, I know that you don’t remember anything. And I’m not trying to burden you with anything, but if you can say it once, you can say it again! Call me Izuku!”
Katsuki stared at his old friend. And for a few seconds, he genuinely considered calling him by his first name.
“...Go to sleep, Deku.” Izuku just stood there as Katsuki laid on his side and turned off the lamp on the right side of the bed.
“Izuku!” The new adult in question gasped as he heard Katsuki yell his name. Katsuki sat up, breathing heavily and sweating. “Fuck.”
“Kacchan?” Katsuki just got up and went into Izuku’s bathroom. The latter grimaced at the sound of Katsuki throwing up in the toilet.
Katsuki walked back into the bedroom, pushing his hair back with a hand. “Fuck’s sake.” He sat down on the edge of the bed, his hands on either side of his face, his elbows on his thighs.
Izuku pursed his lips. “Kacchan, are you alright?” He asked.
“I’m fine, shitty Deku. Go back to sleep or something.” Katsuki looked down at the ground, trying to stop his hands from fucking shaking. He had a knot in his stomach, which only tightened when he heard Izuku move closer to him. “Deku–”
“You’re obviously not okay.” He said. “What happened?”
“Do you really expect me to fucking remember?” Izuku sighed and sat next to Katsuki. “I don’t know what happened. I can’t remember what happened when I have a shitty nightmare, I just feel like fucking shit after it.”
Izuku cocked his head to the side. “Really? You just…don’t remember?” Katsuki shook his head. “Well…considering you yelled my name, it was probably about me…from the war–”
“Cut it, Deku. As if I’d dream about you.” Katsuki scoffed.
He pursed his lips. “But,” Izuku started, “you did reach your hand out to touch my chest–y’know, where my heart is-?”
“Yeah, I know where a fucking heart is-”
“You were checking that I’m alive, Kacchan.” Katsuki stopped and turned around, to look at Izuku. To look at the boy with green hair. To look at the boy with the freckles. With twenty-six freckles. Katsuki always remembered the number, remembered the sound it made when he said it, remembered the way his lips felt as they pressed together as he echoed it. The boy with a robotic arm, the boy he wanted to hold hands with. He wasn’t an adult–Katsuki didn’t want him to be an adult. He didn’t want to be one either. He wanted to be a kid again. The kid in the woods, the kid on the wooden bridge, the kid who fell into the river, the kid who had a hand reaching out to him.
And then he stopped.
Was Izuku holding his hand out to me this entire time?
He moved forward. And he didn’t punch Izuku. He didn’t grab him and hurl him at the wall. He captured the boy in his arms and just hugged him. “Kacchan-” Izuku gasped.
“Shut up before I regret this.” Katsuki pressed his face into Izuku’s shoulder. “...Izuku.” He ended. He heard Izuku gasp again, before he wrapped his arms around Katsuki too, and Katsuki heard his damned sobs. Those sobs he always heard when he hit Izuku before, when he berated Izuku, when he was a fucking asshole. But this time, it wasn’t because he was being an asshole.
It was because he was finally accepting Izuku for himself. Not for the boy that chased after him for half of his life. Not for the boy that desperately tried to climb up the ranks to succeed him.
The depressed, fucked-up adult Izuku had become in spite of all of that. And Izuku didn’t mind what version Katsuki accepted him for. Izuku didn’t even mind that Katsuki didn’t remember apologising for his actions.
He didn’t care. Because his Katsuki–his Kacchan–was back. His Kacchan that he fell asleep next to in the Hospital. His Kacchan that he’d slept beside one night in the middle of the war because he couldn’t sleep without waking up from nightmares. His Kacchan Izuku’s back had once pressed against while he slept to ground himself when he felt like there was nobody left who knew him for who he really was.
The quirkless boy with a big dream.
The boy that Katsuki had known since he was two and a half years old.
“I’m sorry.” Katsuki muttered. “And I know that doesn’t mean fucking anything, but I’m sorry.” Fuck, he was going to cry. He sniffed into Izuku’s shoulder and Izuku stiffened. Katsuki had only cried in front of him once before.
“Kacchan–”
“Shut up.” Katsuki murmured, his bottom lip trembling. “Fuck–Izuku–” Izuku felt himself shake at that word. Just a name. A name that meant so many things. “We’re gonna be dads. And if–if we’re going to be dads we have to talk. About things. Things I’ve probably talked to you about before but you don’t remember but–”
“It’s okay, Kacchan. Let it out.” Izuku whispered, stalling his crying for Katsuki. And to his surprise, Katsuki didn’t bite. Not like he always did. He grabbed Izuku tighter and cried into his shoulder, making the sleeve of his shirt wet within seconds.
“I’m sorry–I-fuck!” Katsuki yelled between sobs. “Izuku.”
“Say that again.” Izuku muttered.
“...Izuku. Izuku, Izuku, Izuku, Izuku, Izuku.” Katsuki chanted it as if it was a lullaby, to keep himself grounded. To keep himself in the right mind. “Fuck, I’ll say it a million times if you want me to.” He kept on muttering Izuku’s name, his grip on Izuku getting tighter, as if he was afraid Izuku would decay if his grip was too loose. “You have twenty-six freckles.” He said suddenly.
Izuku looked down. “Huh?”
“You have twenty-six freckles. Twelve on the left, fourteen on the right. Your favourite food is Katsudon, you call me Kacchan because you admire me. You–you became a vigilante, apparently, and left on my birthday. On my fucking birthday.” Izuku sighed. “And your birthday is on July 30th. You celebrate July 4th even though we live in fucking Japan because All Might celebrates it and you fucking love All Might. You–you sat by my side every fucking day in the Hospital even after you found out that I didn’t remember anything from the war. You have nightmares every night but you don’t say anything in the morning and I don’t know what they’re about–”
“You.” Katsuki stopped crying and looked up, making eye contact with Izuku. “I dream about you. On the battlefield. Your heart ravaged and your body unmoving. Your eyes are white and rolled back. And–and you’re dead. Every time. It replays in my mind, Kacchan. And I never know if you’re actually alive or not because I always forget you’re in the room next to me. So I cry myself to sleep. Until you break your alarm. And then I’m reminded that you’re alive. And it makes me want to live even more.”
“...Kacchan, I can’t remember the last time I lived for myself. I lived for everyone else. I lived for All Might because I honestly didn’t think he’d make it another month without me. I lived for you even when you didn’t remember being nice to me because I just…I need you. And you’re weird with that kind of thing. You act like you don’t need anyone but you do. And…you probably don’t even need me. But I need you. And I live for you. And if that’s a crime, put it on my record.” Katsuki just stared into those damn wide eyes.
Katsuki and Izuku were complementary. Red and green. His vermillion eyes and his viridian eyes. And so Katsuki just closed his mouth and stared at the man in front of him. At the man that the boy had become. At the boy who had chased after him, At the man he now needed to chase after.
Katsuki couldn’t remember the last time he lived for himself, either. It must’ve been before the war. But ever since then, the one thing he could remember was Izuku. The person that he lived for.
There were segments. Fractions of their time together during the war. He remembered a back pressed against his. He remembered someone’s hands in his hair. And an all-too familiar phrase.
“Kacchan, I forgive you.” Izuku said. And Katsuki just grabbed Izuku and hugged him again. “Kacchan–”
“Don’t make me go all mopey again, Izuku.” Izuku chuckled. “I–I remember some things.”
“You do?”
“Did we sleep next to each other once?” Izuku nodded. “I remember a moment from that. Just a couple seconds. I remember your back against mine. And then–then I remember your hands in my hair. And I remember you saying that you forgive me. It’s familiar, you’ve probably said it so many times before-”
“I have. It used to be the only way to get you to sleep.” Katsuki shook at that, not out of sadness like the most recent times, but out of slight amusement. That sounded like something he would’ve done. “Kacchan, I’ve missed you being like this.”
Katsuki moved away to look at Izuku again. “Like what? A crying mess?” Izuku shook his head.
“Talking to me. Hugging me, being close to me. You haven’t been like that in three years.” Three years. It had been three years since the war. Four since they had gotten to UA. Five since Katsuki had told Izuku to take a swan dive off the roof. Six since the last time Katsuki had felt a smidge of respect for Izuku until he got to know him again after their fight in Ground Beta. And seven since their now kid, Kiro was born.
Katsuki didn’t know why he chose the name Kiro. It was just the first one on his mind. The perfect name for a kid that was a fucking bundle of joy. “Hang on.” He muttered, pulling his phone out.
“Huh?” Katsuki searched up something and a small smile came on his face when he read the first result. He tilted his screen so Izuku could read it and the latter read it aloud. “The name Kiro is originated from many languages including Japanese, Latin…it means…oh.” Izuku looked at Katsuki. “Did you really name our kid a name that means light?”
“She’s our light.” Katsuki looked at Izuku. “She’s our light that we needed to find to find each other again.”
“You said find too many times in that sentence.”
“I said it twice.”
“Mhm. And?” Izuku grinned. “You should smile more.” Katsuki’s expression quickly changed into a frown and Izuku laughed. “Kacchan–whoah!” Katsuki tackled Izuku down and Izuku laughed as his back landed on the bed. Katsuki rolled so he was laying down beside Izuku, and he grabbed his hand. His right hand. Not his robotic hand that Katsuki could barely look at.
“Our light.” Katsuki repeated. “She’s our light.”
“Our light.” And the two fell asleep with their arms wrapped around each other, just as they had years before.
“Dad!” Katsuki grunted as Kiro jumped on top of him. “Wake up, wake up!” She jumped in circles on his chest as he heard Izuku chuckle to the side of him.
“Kiro–get off, I’m gonna run out of breath.” Izuku laughed and picked Kiro up, letting Katsuki sit up on the bed. Katsuki looked at Izuku and smiled as he saw Kiro pulling at Izuku’s hair, the latter of which laughing and keeping her held up in the crook of his arm. “I’m gonna make breakfast.” Izuku hummed in approval and Katsuki got up, leaving the room and going to the kitchen. It was only then that he realised what Kiro had called him. Dad.
Not father. Not Katsu. Dad.
Maybe he would be able to live for her too.
He grabbed a frying pan from the cupboard and poured oil into it, then turned on the stove. Kiro probably hadn’t had a proper meal before, if she had grown up in a laboratory. So he would make a first meal to remember. Last night, they’d just had a couple sachets of instant ramen, too tired to do anything else. Katsuki, however, planned to give Kiro a full breakfast, akin to that of a full English breakfast. He’d never had one of those before, but he knew how to make it. An egg, bacon, toast, sausages, beans, and that was it. A full and hearty meal that was also simple to create, especially for someone as experienced (at least he deemed himself experienced) in cooking as Katsuki.
“Kacchan–what’re you making?” Izuku asked as he walked in, sniffing to catch the smell of what Katsuki was cooking. “What’s for breakfast?”
“Sit down.” Was all Katsuki said as he pulled out a pan for the baked beans. He grabbed everything from the fridge and got ready, grabbing everything he needed. He started with the bacon, something he wanted to get perfect. Izuku watched as he moved quickly around the kitchen, grabbing spices, missing out salt (that was something Katsuki never did) and cracking some eggs into a pan.
Is Kacchan really trying that hard to make Kiro breakfast? Izuku wondered to himself. Katsuki still moved around the kitchen and Izuku was left to deal with Kiro, who was currently walking around the table.
Unlike Katsuki, Izuku didn’t have baby cousins to model his care for Kiro after. In fact, he had no cousins at all, even though he did call Mitsuki his Aunt when he was younger. But as Kiro jumped around the table, Izuku tried his best to calm her down and keep her occupied. She still held her All Might plush and he attempted to ‘play hero’ with her.
Him and Katsuki used to do that when they were younger. Playing hero was their favourite game. They would fly All Might in the skies and make him fight against other heroes, or they would get animal plushies to be villains. All Might would run after them and always win.
All Might always won.
“All Might always wins!” Kiro shouted, giggling as she followed the flying All Might around the area behind the table. Katsuki turned around and looked at them for a few seconds, watching Izuku laugh as Kiro tried to grab All Might from midair.
“Breakfast’s ready.” He said, grabbing the plates and setting them down on the table. He made Kiro sit in her chair and pushed Izuku’s plate closer to him as he gave Izuku his coffee. Katsuki moved around the table to be on the other side of Kiro and he started eating.
At some point, he just helped Kiro to eat so she didn’t poke herself with her fork instead of picking anything up. Izuku watched as he taught Kiro how to use a knife and fork, then fed her food, making her giggle as she ate it. “Eat, Izuku.” Izuku stiffened, then nodded and started to eat his food.
Soon, everyone was done with their food and Katsuki scraped the plates as Izuku drank his coffee. Kiro sat on the counter of the kitchen, moving her All Might plush through the air and looking at Katsuki. “Where did your eye go?” She asked him. He turned around and looked at her. How the hell was he supposed to answer that.
“...It fell out.” She laughed. “What?”
“I once saw a man with an eyepatch. He called himself a pirate.” Katsuki knew exactly who that was. His old teacher was always good with kids. “And he didn’t have a leg, either. It was metal, like Izuku’s arm.” Katsuki expected Izuku to stop drinking his coffee at Kiro’s comment, but all he saw on Izuku’s face was a small smile.
Maybe Izuku didn’t mind when Kiro talked about his arm. Just like how Katsuki didn’t mind when Kiro talked about his eye.
Izuku finished his coffee and got up. “I thought you were going into work today.” Katsuki glanced at him.
“I can stay if you don't want to-”
“Go, Kacchan. I’ll look after Kiro.” Katsuki nodded and walked out of the kitchen, then got changed in the bedroom. He could faintly hear the sounds of Izuku playing heroes with Kiro again, and Kiro’s laugh was so loud that the sound travelled around the whole apartment.
Katsuki put on his hero costume and then walked out, a faint smile on his face at the sight of Izuku chasing Kiro around the living room as a villain, while Kiro swatted the All Might plush through the air. She giggled and squealed as Izuku picked her up, holding her high in the air as the victor of the fight. “I got you!” Izuku yelled.
“Put me down!” Kiro squealed, laughing. “Katsu, help!” Katsuki rolled his eyes and went up to them. Izuku quickly moved out of the way and grinned when he looked at Katsuki. For fuck’s sake.
It ended up with Katsuki chasing Izuku around the apartment, with Kiro in Izuku’s arms, still squealing and giggling. Katsuki tackled Izuku down and took Kiro back, laughing as Izuku leaned his head back, laughing too. Kiro giggled, grabbing the back of Katsuki’s head as he got off of Izuku. He held out his hand and Izuku took it, pulling himself up. “Don’t abduct the kid again while I’m out.” Izuku laughed and nodded.
They went back into the main room and Katsuki put Kiro down. She smiled, running around in circles while Katsuki pulled his jacket on. “I’ll be out for a couple hours at most. Call me if there’s any problems.”
“Alright.” Katsuki went to the door and looked back at Izuku. He felt like he should’ve done something at that moment, but he didn’t know what. Hug Izuku? Give him a shitty kiss goodbye or something? Instead of overthinking it, he just nodded and left.
An office job was something that Katsuki had never thought he would’ve ever had to work at. But due to the fact that he didn’t use his quirk anymore, he just sat at a desk in a lighter hero costume than his usual one and filed paperwork.
“Bakubro!” Ejiro yelled. “Weren’t you supposed to come in yesterday? Where’s Izuku?” Ejiro wrapped his arm around Katsuki’s shoulders.
“Dealing with the kid.” Ejiro’s jaw dropped. “What? They didn’t tell you?”
“Did you hook up with a chick, Katsuki?”
“Wha- no!” Katsuki yelled. “It’s a kid given to us from the Commission to look after. Like Eri.” Ejiro’s mouth formed a small ‘o’ and he nodded.
He grinned. “Alright! See you at lunch?” Katsuki just nodded, not bothered to tell Ejiro he would only be there for three hours at the most, and took the elevator up to the fourth floor.
He passed by old classmates and pro heroes as he made his way to his office. The only reward, in his eyes, that he had gotten for defeating All For One was a shitty cupboard to himself. And a computer, but that barely worked half of the time. And I.T just told him to turn it off and on again.
He sighed and sat down, pulling up his emails and leaning back in his chair. He’d forgotten to get a drink, but the runners usually did that for him every half hour anyway. They’d run up to every office and ask the heroes if they needed any food or drink.
Katsuki didn’t know if he could call himself a hero. He didn’t use his quirk. He sat and filed paperwork all day. His younger self would’ve beat his ass if he could see him today.
But, he would probably want to be here instead of on the field if he did work as a pro, anyway. He’d heard the stories from his friends about the war, and he himself had learnt a lot from how bad the nightmares made him shake. He’d seen the tapes. He’d read the books.
And still, nothing matched up. He didn’t know why he felt this way, and he didn’t know why he had fucking amnesia either.
The runners gave him a bottle of water ten minutes later and he downed it before he responded to emails and filed some paperwork for other people. That was all he did now. To think that his prime was when he was 16-17 was fucking depressing. Why the hell was that even a thing? A hero’s prime was after their quirk had awakened, usually when they were in their early to mid twenties. Izuku’s prime was also at that time, strengthened by the fact that at that point in time he had nine different quirks. And now, he barely used them.
At least Izuku went on patrols. Katsuki didn’t do anything like that. The two of them weren’t even in the top ten. Yeah, it had only been three years since the war, but that didn’t mean that Katsuki could just sulk and mope around all the time and not do anything. But that’s exactly what he did. He just did nothing. And even if raising Kiro would make him a hero, he wanted to be a hero to more than just one person. And their apartment wasn’t big enough for more little kids running around, playing hero.
Just after an hour had passed, Katsuki groaned, having only gone through about fifty emails out of the three hundred he’d missed. He was on a tight schedule, though. He needed to be back within three hours. That was his limit.
In the middle of the first and second hour, Katsuki got a call from Izuku. He quickly picked it up and took it as an excuse to get up and stretch his legs, pacing slowly in his tiny office. “Yeah?” Katsuki asked, pulling his phone up to his ear.
“It’s Kiro. She–she activated her quirk. Not her steal quirk, one of the ones she stole, Kacchan, you need to come back–” Izuku sounded out of breath. He sounded scared.
“On it.” Katsuki said. He grabbed his jacket and ran out of his office, moving straight into the elevator and pressing the button to get down to the ground floor. He left the office, ignoring Ejiro calling after him and got in his car, driving back home.
After disobeying the speed limit (and pissing off a lot of drivers), Katsuki made it back to the apartment complex. He ran up the stairs, opened the door and–oh.
Fucking butterflies? He stepped into the apartment, looking around as different colours of butterflies flew through the air, filling the apartment. And in the corner of the room was Izuku, grinning as Kiro laughed, running around and trying to grab the butterflies. One landed on Katsuki’s shoulder and he looked down at it, raising an eyebrow as Izuku walked over to him.
“You like it?” Izuku asked.
“You’re a good actor.” Katsuki said. “So…you made up a lie that Kiro activated a really dangerous quirk to show me butterflies?”
Izuku nodded. “Well, they could be poisonous.” Katsuki swatted the butterfly off of his shoulder quickly. “But, yeah, this is the first quirk Kiro’s shown me. She was just sitting down, then asked if I wanted to see a magic trick. I said yes and suddenly the apartment filled up with butterflies.”
“Did you just ask me to come home so that I wouldn’t be at work?”
“...Maybe.” Izuku laughed as Katsuki shoved him, lightly, towards the wall. “But honestly, it is kinda bad that our entire apartment is filled with butterflies.”
Katsuki rolled his eyes and kneeled down next to Kiro. “Hey, Kiro? You think you can turn off your quirk? I’ll get you some butterflies tomorrow.” Kiro pouted but nodded and soon all of the butterflies were gone. Katsuki stood up and looked at Izuku. “See? That’s how it’s done.”
Izuku rolled his eyes and grabbed Katsuki by his arm, pulling him down the hall and into his bedroom. “It’s too quiet when you’re at work, even when Kiro’s around.”
“Oh, really?” Izuku put his hands on Katsuki’s waist and Katsuki narrowed his eyes, looking down. “Izuku, what’re you doing?”
“What do you think?” Katsuki looked up, and then his eyes widened. “If you don’t want to, then that’s fine, but–”
Katsuki cupped Izuku’s face in his hands and brought him closer. “You talk too much.” Izuku smiled and leaned in. Katsuki leaned in too, and their lips met in the middle.
They’d kissed before. Izuku had failed to mention it. It was a quick kiss before, which had turned quickly into a rough one. The night before the war. The last time that Izuku thought he would ever be able to kiss Katsuki, in retrospect.
But this was so much better. It wasn’t rough. It wasn’t something two boys shared because they were scared of what was about to happen.
It was a slow moment they shared in spite of what had happened. Even if Katsuki still didn’t remember anything from during the war, they could remake those memories of just the two of them.
All because one light had arrived on their doorstep. Their light.
Kiro.
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ilikefandom · 3 years
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Masterlist
Created: May 18 2021
Last updated: August 21 2023
Total Works:
Harry Potter
Oneshots
Severus Snape
Snape's Secret
Protection
A Death at the Shack
I Loved You First
Snowy Day Lovers
Insecure Love
A Midnight Waltz
Salamander Love
"Not Guilty" Pt.2 Pt.3
The Science of Magic Pt.2 Pt.3
Altering Reality
Broken
The Tower  Pt.2
Eight Months
A Selfish Trauma
Welcome Home
Siruis Black
I Loved You First
I'll Pick Up Your Love
Neville Longbottom
The Student Queen
Series
Percy Jackson/HOO
Oneshots
Series
Hunger Games
Oneshots
Caesar Flickerman
Healing the Stars
Series
Divergent
Oneshots
Series
Sweeny Todd
Oneshots
Judge Turpin
A Bookclub From the Bench Pt.2
Series
School For Good and Evil
Oneshots
Series
Gotham/DC
Oneshots
Series
MCU
Oneshots
Natasha Romanoff (Black Widow)
The Crash and the Crush
Series
Disney
Oneshots
Series
Hetalia
Oneshots
Series
Night at the Museum
Oneshots
Ahkmenrah
The Sarcophagus Pt2.
Series
BNHA/MHA
Oneshots
Series
Good Omens
Oneshots
Series
Attack on Titan
Oneshots
Series
7 Deadly Sins
Oneshots
Series
Crypt TV
Oneshots
Cakeman
The Cakeman
Series
Hazbin Hotel
Oneshots
Series
Helluva Boss
Oneshots
Series
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bluelillac · 1 year
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Lab Rat
To be honest, this was what you wanted, right? Being by his side will cost what it will cost, how stubborn you are, you never understand, no matter how much he shows you, you always came dragging yourself along. Why would someone like you mess with such a vengeful villain like him?
Perhaps it was his arrogance and flirtation that caught you, but you were not the only one, you never were, you are not, and you never will be. He has a choice, knowing him will conquer any girl to satisfy his most twisted desires. He uses them and then gets rid of them, that was the only thing he didn't do with you, oh poor thing, the little mouse feels special because they treat it differently. Big mistake.
don't complain now, you're the one who has endured the most by her side, you've taken all her tantrums and outbursts you end up with some burns but it's not something that can't be cured with a couple of bandages, you should be happy, happy to be sick of love for someone who hardly recognizes you. You let yourself be carried away by pleasure and here you are, on the floor with cuts and your medications all over the room, everything is spinning and after a long time your mind becomes lucid.
The day he gets tired of you and you no longer serve him, he's going to leave you to your own devices or maybe you'll end up like all the others, remember your place, Dabi said, you're just a simple laboratory mouse, when he finishes experimenting with you, you're going to die for all the side effects of the devotion he showed him and the "love" you thought he showed you.
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bluelillac · 1 year
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Heart Eyes
- hey, what happens to your eyes?
- "Nothing, they are as always, full of my love for you," kirishimq said with a smile. That damn smile that he only dedicated to me was no longer the same, it felt plastic and false like your feelings in the last two weeks.
- Yes, I'm glad that it continues like this- I knew that it was fake, I realized that your eyes were not the same ones you had when you were in love with me, it's better to finish this before I hurt myself seeing who the person is for which your eyes are heart-shaped now.
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bluelillac · 2 years
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SOMETING BETTER  (SHOTO TODOROKI X READER)
''Spring came and showed more than its flowers with bright colors
with it came a thought that ate at my brain and made me spend my sleepless nights
I don't know if I was overthinking or exaggerating but every time he walked by my side I felt insufficient as if my existence did not meet the requirements to be his partner
a feeling that made me fill with sadness and made me wonder
am i good enough? why did he choose me? Is he making fun of me? No, he is not like that
He would never make fun of a person, his heart is too innocent to do something like that, but... why does he treat me like that? being that there are people much more qualified to be with him, why would he have to settle for me?
If this continues like this I'm going to go crazy, I can't deal with this anymore, it hurts me to see that he has to settle for anyone just to keep up appearances''
at night when everyone was asleep a shadow slipped to the boys' wing looking for a certain family room and without making any noise left a note in front of the door
the morning came and the birds sang a beautiful day to begin, a young man with straight bicolor hair prepared to leave opening the door of his room, seeing a letter on his carpet, he picked it up and opened it with intrigue
"dear shoto todoroki, I want you to know that you are the love of my life but my bitter feelings and afflicted thoughts have done nothing but wear me down little by little to the point of questioning what I should do"
Todoroki read the letter now having an idea of ​​who sent it but he was surprised at the purpose of the letter, he continued reading line by line until something caught his eye, it was not good and he knew it, he opened his eyes and his heart beat strongly for him pain that he felt to the point that he grabbed his chest trying to calm the tears that warned him to come out to continue reading what would be his ultimatum, finally breaking his heart
''I don't feel enough when I'm with you, I always think that you should be with someone better and I only wait for the day when you break my heart, but, I decide to free you from the chains that you have tied, I really love you shoto but we have to end it this''
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megansabode · 1 month
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CAR LIGHTS
Shoto's father would never let him be with a boy. Never. And definitely not the one with black hair and sparkly eyes and a hand that Shoto wants to hold and-
Shit.
Shoto's got it bad.
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Shoto invites Hanta to a house party to try and work out his feelings. But it just makes him think more about how his father feels about boys with boys.
Inspired by the song 'Car Lights' by James Marriott.
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Seroki oneshot (also posted on ao3 @/megansabode
TW: homophobia
contains: endeavour bashing, confused shoto, flirty sero, kissing with tongue, a house party and a first kiss
Am I allowed to feel like this? Shoto thinks whenever he looks at Hanta. Sero Hanta. The boy with the flat hair. The boy with the tape in his elbows. The boy with the grey eyes. The boy that, for whatever reason, Shoto thinks is the most beautiful boy in the world.
But Shoto isn’t allowed to think that. Hanta is a boy. Why should he feel like this about a boy? Someone who’s the same gender as him?
His father will hit him if he ever finds out. So Shoto intends to keep it a secret. A secret until his father inevitably finds out. He will find out, sooner or later. It’s only a matter of time, Shoto thinks. A matter of time until his father finds out that Shoto isn’t as straight as he thought he was.
The thought makes Shoto want to bite his fingers off. Because what if his father does find out? And what if Hanta then finds out what his father is really like? What then?
He jumps when his phone goes off and he picks it up. It’s his older sister, Fuyumi.
Fuyumi
Hey Shoto, Dad wanted me to ask you if you wanted to come back home for a house party? You can invite one friend xx
Shoto smiles at the ‘kisses’, as Fuyumi calls them, at the end of her message. He pulls up his keyboard and messages her back.
Shoto
Do I have to talk to him?
Fuyumi
Not at all Sho x
Shoto
Okay. I’ll think about it. Thank you.
She sends a red heart back and he puts his phone down. Now he just has to work out who to ask. He has an idea, but whether or not he’ll have the courage to ask, he doesn’t know.
~~~
The roof of the Class 1-A dorm building is probably the only place that Shoto really feels safe on. It’s weird–it’s a roof, but with the wind blowing through his hair and the view of the city of Hosu below him, it’s comforting.
And someone else comes up here every night.
“Shoto!” Hanta shouts, grinning as he sits down next to the boy with the two-toned hair. “I didn’t think you’d be up here today!”
“Hello, Hanta.” Shoto looks at him and immediately feels it again. The twinge in his chest. The urge to lean in. He sees the sparkle in Hanta’s eyes and fuck, he’s got it bad. But he looks away and tries to think of a conversation starter.
The party. His brain tells him. Right. “Hey, Hanta, my father’s holding a house party soon.”
“He is?” Hanta grins and Shoto wishes he could be blind. “That’s so cool, I wish my dad would do something like that.”
And Shoto wishes his dad wasn’t Endeavour. “I can invite one friend. Would…” Shoto, compose yourself, damn it. “Would you like to come with me?”
Hanta’s grin reaches both sides of his face. “Seriously? I would love to!” Thank the Gods. “But…isn’t your dad a…rough spot?”
“My sister said I don’t have to talk to him. And I know the way up to the roof of my house. Nobody will find us up there.” Hanta nods. “I’ll find out the time and date and then send it to you, okay?”
“Sounds good! I’ll keep my calendar free!” Shoto nods and silence falls between the two boys. Silence between them is never bad or awkward. They just…understand each other.
Hanta has two sisters and a brother. They play a game called ‘Minecraft’ together, which Shoto had never even heard of before until Hanta made him play it in his dorm.
Shoto died. Multiple times. But it was all worth it to feel Hanta’s hands on top of his as he showed him how to use the controller.
Shoto instinctively moves his hand to touch Hanta’s, then pulls it back. No. He isn’t allowed to do that. His father would hate him for it.
Then Hanta moves his hand. And interlocks his smallest finger with Shoto’s.
Yeah. Shoto has it bad.
~~~
He lays on his bed for around an hour, wondering how the fuck to phrase a message to Hanta. Hey so I actually like you more than my father would ever like me to like a guy and I want to date you? He doesn’t even know how to date him, how is he supposed to know what it truly feels like to love someone?
Or should he just say, We can’t talk anymore because I like you too much and my father will actually kill you because he hates gay people and I don’t know why I’m saying this because we aren’t even dating and I don’t know how to feel about you because this is so confusing and you probably only see me as a friend.
His hand hovers over the send button for a few seconds until he sends a single word.
Shoto
Hello
The reply is instant.
Hanta
Hey! How are you?
Shoto
Good. The party is in three days at 5:30PM
Hanta
Okay! I’m free then!
Shoto
Good.
Shoto thinks that if he says the word, ‘good’ one more time then he’ll rip his fucking hair out. Why does he have to always say the same thing? Why can’t he just say something normal?
Hanta
You good?
Shoto
Of course I am.
Hanta
You just seemed a little tense earlier haha
Shoto narrows his eyes. A lowercase ‘haha’ from Hanta is never a good sign.
Shoto
Well, I could ask you that question. Got anything on your mind?
Hanta
A lot of things ;)
What is that supposed to mean?
Shoto
Elaborate?
Hanta
I’m just playing with ya Shoto. See you at the party
Shoto
Okay.
And Shoto falls asleep with the image of the winking face on his mind.
~~~
After an agonising three days of waiting, Shoto stands outside Hanta’s dorm. They’ve barely talked since the text messages a couple days ago, but that just happens with them. Their meetings are short but stay in Shoto’s mind for weeks.
Hanta grins when he walks out of his dorm, dressed up in a black tuxedo. Shoto clears his throat when he sees it, trying to keep the heat at his cheeks away. Hanta laughs and just grabs Shoto’s hand, pulling him down the stairs.
Now Shoto’s cheeks do heat up. They wait outside the school together until a black cab picks them up and Shoto sits in the front while Hanta stays in the back. Occasionally, Shoto catches Hanta looking at him in the rearview mirror, and he quickly looks out of the window to the side of him.
Fuck. Why is he still fucking feeling like this? He’s not supposed to. He can’t–he’s not allowed.
He should’ve just brought Bakugo with him so that he doesn’t need to worry about any of this. Bakugo can just talk to his sister and Shoto can sit on his roof. Simple.
But Hanta? Shoto doesn’t think he can last five more seconds in the same room as him.
Shoto catches Hanta staring at him in the mirror again. And this time, Hanta winks.
Fuck.
They manage to arrive at Shoto’s family house before he fucking dies and he steps out, going to open Hanta’s door before the boy opens it himself.
Okay. That’s fine. Shoto didn’t even need to open it anyway. It’s completely fine. Shoto definitely hasn’t maybe, definitely made himself look like a fool.
His sister grins when she sees him and runs up to the two. “Oh, Shoto, I’m so glad you could come!” She wraps her arms around him.
“Hey, Fuyumi.” She pulls away and looks at Hanta, still beaming.
“And you must be Sero! Shoto’s told me all about you!” Hanta smiles as he greets Fuyumi. “Now, come inside!”
Shit. Shoto doesn’t want to come inside. In fact, he’d much rather stay out here. But Hanta looks too eager. He walks forward, before he turns back. “Shoto?” There are too many people inside. The world sways under Shoto’s feet. “Hey.” Hanta puts his hand on Shoto’s shoulder.
“I’m fine-“ Shoto says quickly but Hanta grabs his hand and pulls him to go into the house.
And now it doesn’t seem that scary anymore.
Hanta pushes through the crowds, gushing ‘excuse me’s’ and apologising whenever he bumps into people. The guests don’t seem to mind, though. “You got anywhere we can go?” Hanta yells over the loud music that Shoto has drowned out as soon as they had walked in. Shoto nods and leads Hanta to the back of the house. “Phew! I thought I was about to lose a leg in there.”
Shoto almost laughs before he stops himself. No. His father could be anywhere. He can’t risk it. Not now. “We can get to the roof from here.” He pulls down a silver ladder and starts climbing up it. Hanta follows him. The flashing, colourful lights of the party fade away once they’re on the roof and they perch on the overlapping tiles, looking around.
“It’s beautiful up here.” Hanta whispers, looking at Shoto. “But, hey, not as beautiful as you.”
Shoto feels his cheeks burn. “Are you flirting with me, Hanta?”
“Maybe. What’re you gonna do about it?” Shoto almost turns before he stops.
“Don’t.”
“Don’t what?”
“Don’t say things like that.” Shoto says. “It’s not safe here.”
Hanta purses his lips as he looks around. “Why not?”
“My father. He’s- he’s not very nice about these things.” Hanta doesn’t look mad. If anything, he looks concerned. “Aren’t you mad?”
“Shoto, have you really let yourself believe him?” Shoto makes eye contact with Hanta. “Seriously?”
“He’s my father-“
“Just because he’s your father doesn’t mean he rules your life. Just because you’re related to him doesn’t mean his opinions matter.” Shoto stiffens at that. “Shoto, I’m going to ask you one question. Are we friends? Or are we more than that?”
Shoto opens his mouth to protest but Hanta cuts him off. “Don’t think about your dad. Think about you.”
Shoto looks to the side. He wants to be more than friends with Hanta, he just knows it. He knows it from the way his pupils dilate when he thinks about Hanta, he knows it from the love letters plastered on his walls that he wrote, he knows it from the thrill he gets from sparring with Hanta, he knows it.
Shoto nods. “I want to be…more than friends.”
“Then stop being so tense.” Shoto looks at Hanta, the latter of which is smiling vaguely. “Loosen up.”
The boy with the multicoloured eyes and hair, the boy that Hanta can never take his eyes off of sighs. “How do I loosen up?”
“Let me teach you.” Hanta cups Shoto’s face and starts to lean in. He stops when he’s close and waits for Shoto to do something, anything.
Shoto stares at him blankly. Then, he leans in and pressed his lips against Hanta’s.
Their first kiss isn’t pretty. Teeth clash, tongues collide sloppily, and neither boy knows exactly where to put his hands. But after they pull away at first, Shoto puts his left hand at the back of Hanta’s head and his right hand at Hanta’s waist, then leans in again.
Hanta moves his arms to wrap around Shoto’s neck as their lips press against each other’s, and this time the kiss starts out slow. They ease into it, and soon Hanta pushes his tongue against Shoto’s lips. Shoto instinctively opens his lips, and Hanta pushes his tongue through, making Shoto gasp as he feels it against the top of his mouth. “This okay?” Hanta mutters.
Shoto nods, then leans in more, his hand on Hanta’s waist moving to the boy’s chest. His other hand grabs a fistful of black hair as he presses his tongue against Hanta’s. Shoto grins as Hanta gasps, then the former tilts his head to get a more comfortable position.
They’re learning. They both try to stay at a steady pace, but soon get too eager and just make out until one of them needs to take a breath. But before either boy can pull away, a voice behind them makes Shoto pull away quickly.
“If you’re going to make out with a boy on the roof, could you at least do it where I can’t see it? I don’t need to see your tongue down his throat.” Natsuo. Shoto’s older brother. Shoto sighs as he sits down next to them. “And you’re lucky dad hasn’t seen you yet.”
“He won’t.” Shoto says. “He doesn’t know the way up to the roof.”
“Yeah, because his fat ass would break the ladder.” Hanta laughs at that, then stops when the two siblings stare at him.
“What? It was funny!”
“Shoto, is this your boyfriend?” Shoto’s jaw drops at Natsuo’s question, but Hanta is quick to respond.
“Mhm.” Hanta grabs Shoto’s hand. “He is.”
“I am?”
“You are.” Hanta laughs at Shoto’s sudden shocked expression. “What? You thought after we made out it was just nothing?”
Shoto looks back at Natsuo to see him fake-gagging. He shoves his brother, then turns back around. “No, I just-“
“Okay, I’m leaving now. Go make out more if you want, but don’t choke each other.” Shoto rolls his eyes at Natsuo’s comment and Hanta cups his face again.
“We need to find a place where we won’t be found.” Shoto nods. “Come on.” Hanta tightens his grip on his hand and they go back down the ladder, then start to run.
“Where are we going?”
“You’ll see!” Hanta laughs as he runs, causing Shoto to laugh too. “I’ve never heard you laugh before!” Hanta looks over his shoulder and smiles.
Yep. Shoto still has it bad.
“I don’t do it much.” Shoto says in a quieter voice, almost crashing into Hanta as the latter stops. “Where are we?”
“Use your fire to light up the lanterns.” Shoto nods and shoots fire into the lanterns that he can see, which soon light up the landscape around them.
They’re on a wooden bridge, over a river full of coy fish. Shoto’s eyes widen when he looks over the edge, holding onto the railing of the bridge. “Holy shit…” He whispers. Hanta laughs and grabs onto the railing next to him.
“I found this a couple years ago and wanted to reserve it for a special moment. Nobody really comes here, the area around it is all overgrown.” Shoto looks at the darkened trees on the other side of the bridge to see that it is, in fact, overgrown. Very overgrown.
Hanta smiles and leans his head on Shoto’s shoulder. “Promise me you won’t listen to your father’s opinions again?”
“Promise.” Shoto mutters.
“Now come here.” Hanta grabs Shoto’s face and leans in, stopping just before he hits Shoto’s lips. And when Shoto leans in, he smiles.
The cars lining the road behind them light up the moonlit sky full of the constellations both boys would steal for another in a heartbeat.
this is like the first time i’ve written kissing with tongue because when i write it in an x reader it just weirds me out idk why
but this was so fun to write i love them so much omg
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