I think I need to take a break from osrs again, I loaded my misc up with another 7 mil and I might just misc log
Mostly every time I load it up lately I feel guilty about not doing literally anything else, but especially not doing creative projects or practice or playing games in my backlog.
That's lead to some unhealthy thoughts tonight, and while taking a break from constantly grinding on art has been needed while I had my 6 month long mental breakdown, I need to keep watching out for what I want to do and what is actually mentally healthy for me to do.
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enjolras was a charming young man who was capable of making u cry
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So when your friend Jonathan Harker goes on a trip and tells you all the details about the places he visits, he's an "adorable dork" and you "can't wait for his next email", but when I, Victor Hugo,
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I know some people find it cringey but fuck I love the word enby.
It's so cute, it's fun to say, it implies nothing about specific gender identity while holding the seed of a shared expression. Referring to myself as a girl is nice, sometimes, in certain situations, but enby always makes me feel good.
I've seen people turning their nose up at its use in fiction but I don't care. Use it in contemporary, use it in fantasy, whatever.
Totally valid if a given nonbinary person doesn't like it! But, dang. That's a good word to me.
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Before writing Les Mis, Hugo’s beloved 19-year-old daughter Leopoldine tragically drowned. As a result Les Mis is full of drowning imagery— drowning as a a symbol of impossible grief and loss, drowning as a symbol of being left behind by a society that doesn’t care about protecting your life, drowning as a method of suicide.
The les mis letters chapter today is the first chapter where Hugo highlights the drowning imagery that becomes central to the rest of the novel. The horrible symbolic death Valjean suffers as a result of being entirely isolated and forgotten by a society that doesn’t value his life is also foreshadowing of Javert’s eventual death.
Throughout the novel, Eponine also frequently talks about her desire to drown herself in the Seine; Thenardier monologues about how “the river is the true grave” and when bodies fall in it “justice makes no inquiries;” later Valjean escapes prison by faking his death by drowning, and so on and so on. There’s this emphasis that drowning doesn’t just mean death, it means erasing yourself from existence. It means you’re forgotten.
One of the saddest references to the death of Leopoldine is the way Valjean and Javert learn about the other’s death (or “death.”)
Hugo learned about his daughter’s death not from a family member/friend, but by reading about it in a newspaper. He was on vacation away from his family at the time. He was reading the news in a cafe and happened to stumble on an article about Leopoldine’s horrible tragic drowning, which was how he first learned that she was dead.
When Javert learns about Valjean’s “death” in prison (when Valjean pretends to drown in order to escape), he learns about it by reading it in the newspaper. When Valjean learns about Javert’s death by drowning, he learns about it by reading it in the newspaper.
So…yeah :(. Les Mis is full of all these agonized metaphors around drowning (as a metaphor for death/grief/being entirely forgotten by the people around you) and part of that comes from Hugo’s own deep personal trauma around the death of death of his daughter.
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