#might wait to post the others until tomorrow bc sleepy

[kareenvorbarra]

Summary: Kamet and Marin are nearly caught when Nahuseresh returns home early.

Characters: Marin, Kamet, Nahuseresh

Rating: E

Warnings: Rape/Non-con

Notes: The first of three fics I wrote for the Queen's Thief fandom event @weirdthetag!

I had the idea for this ages ago, but WTT 2024 gave me an excuse to actually start writing it, and I'm pretty pleased with the result. Basically, a consensual sex scene between Marin and Kamet is interrupted and immediately followed by a very, very dubiously consensual sex scene between Marin and Nahuseresh.

[cherryhanji]

when you love someone

drabble. day6 young k x reader

this is for the district nine writers' guild writers' room week#12! (confessions + featuring other group members)

genre: pure fluff, college au, best friend to lovers au, female reader

words: 2.4k

warning(s): foul language. (but not too much tho)

alexa's note:

my love for young k and the song when you love someone is overflowing i need to make this drabble. (It's rlly a good thing the guild made this idea for writer's room) If you haven't listen to this song or the band itself, pls give it a try! All their songs are great and relatable uwu

•••

"You busy again?" you tried to peek at what your friend's writing in his notebook where he writes most of his own lyrics, one that you're dying to read since last week.

"Yeah, I need to finish this soon, so go away." You pouted and glared at Younghyun while he turn his attention back to his notebook.

"Seriously, Younghyun, I know that it isn't even for a certain subject. Why you won't let me see it?" You whined and the pout never left your lips, hoping that Younghyun will give up and let you see what he's writing.

"Yeah I know, but-- Y-you don't need to read it" realizing that he really won't let you take a peek at what he's writing, you just let him much to your chagrin. After all, you never won against him.

"Right, I guess that one's really important, and confidential I think?" You said and grabbed your bag, fishing for your books instead to make yourself busy since your vacant time just started and you're not hungry (yet). But when you heard Younghyun called you after closing his notebook and fixed his bag, your stomach started to grumble.

"Let's eat? My treat." You can't help but to smile and nodded at him, fixing your bag. Of course, who wouldn't say no to food? Take note, you won't spend a dime.

___

You met Dowoon after you eat from the nearby diner. Telling each others' greetings. Dowoon was an Economics major, and he's part of Younghyun's self made band together with Sungjin, Jae and Wonpil.

"Hyung, is it done?" Dowoon asked Younghyun, while you just listened to them, not having any idea with their topic.

"Uh, oh y-yeah. Tomorrow?" Their ambiguity makes you so curious, but you were shy to ask since you were really not that close to Dowoon, so you excused yourself and waited for them to finish, grabbing your phone from your pocket to check the time.

You were a bit shock, well not really because of the time, it is because your birthday is almost next week, but truthfully speaking, it didn't excite you. You're used to being at home or just do normal things on your birthday. Your parents keep on telling you to celebrate but you just tell them you're too lazy to do so. In the end, they don't have any choice but to just visit or send you a birthday cake and greet you. You were fine with that, after all you were not a party person and you know how busy they are.

On the other hand, Younghyun just barges in to your apartment with pizzas, chicken and soda with him. A dinner with unhealthy foods and movie marathon is the best birthday celebrations for you, and also you get to spend your special day with him.

____

"Sorry, I can't walk you home. I have something to do. I'll make it up to you, hm? Really." You nod in response, while Younghyun patted your head. This is the fourth, since last week. You understand that he's busy these past few days, but you can't help but to get a bit peeved. You know you don't have the rights to because you are just his best friend for God's sake, he can do what he damn well please.

"Oh, o-okay. I'll wait for it. And- and don't worry, just take your time. You don't have to be sorry, though. See you then?" He just nod and bid your goodbyes before separating ways.

___

After taking a shower, you plopped yourself down on your bed, planning to scroll on your phone until sleepiness find its way to you. You don't have classes tomorrow, much better for a birthday rest.

You received a message from your mom, tapping the message icon to check it.

from: Mom

What are your plans tomorrow dear? Your turning 21 now.

to: Mom

what else mom? Of course laze around the whole day tomorrow. That's the best gift I'll ever receive from myself after the hell week mom.

from: Mom

Okay then. What else we can do? We know how hardheaded you are.

to: Mom

i luv u mum.

from: Mom

don't wait for me to throw a kiddie party just for you.

to: Mom

not funny mommy

from: Mom

whatever you say girl. just take your rest or do whatever you want. We'll just send a cake bcs we're gone tomorrow, for work. Love you hun. And we missed you. Happy birthday!

to: Mom

thank you mom, i miss and love u too!

After a conversation with your mom, you opened your Instagram just to see posts from everyone. Your hands never stop its duty to scroll.

After a long ass scroll, it stopped on a video posted by Wonpil. A video of Younghyun playing his guitar. You smiled while your eyes were shooting hearts as you watch him play his guitar and humming in to the music. He's so ethereal. No wonder why every girls from your major envied you. You're one hell of a lucky girl, being best friends with someone like Younghyun, the sweet, talented Younghyun. And that is the problem. Being best friends. You never want to be just best friends with him. You like him for so long. But can you blame yourself for thinking that he might not feel the same way? And you can't stomach yourself being rejected. You hate rejections, how immature of you. But isn't it too much if you'll get rejected again? You got rejected so many times already when you confessed. Maybe it's enough. No confessions, no rejections. No harsh feelings, I guess.

___

You were not expecting. You really aren't. But Younghyun should be here at this time now, right? You groaned in exasperation. You really hate yourself with passion. It isn't his duty to go here and bring foods for you, stupid. You keep on convincing yourself that he is busy. But greeting you a Happy Birthday won't eat all of his time, right?

Woah, you are indeed a hopeless case now.

It's almost 7 in the evening, and you were just lazily sitting on your couch, your eyes glued on the television, but you weren't focused on what you were watching. You don't even have an idea on what's the title of the movie. You jumped when you heard your phone ring, your mind automatically registering Younghyun's name. You smiled like an idiot as you tapped the icon open. But your smile disappeared as soon as you read the message.

from: Younghyun

Where are you?

Not even a happy birthday? Wow, what an amazing friend.

to: Younghyun

apartment. why?

from: Younghyun

Can you come over? I'll send you the address.

You don't even get the chance to ask him why when you received the address. It seems so urgent, but what does it have to do with you? You checked the address and it isn't somewhere near his apartment. You just shrugged and decided to change your clothes to a decent shirt and pants, with your shabby pair of sneakers. You really need to buy new ones now.

You hailed for a cab and gave the driver the address. A half an hour of travel and you finally arrived at the place. At first, you hesitated because the driver stopped at a fine looking diner, where your attire seems off from everyone who walks inside. But the driver says that the location was right. So you apologized and gave your payment, thanking the driver before hopping out of the car. Why will Younghyun gave you this address? You grabbed your phone from your pouch and typed a message for him.

to: Younghyun

Why did you gave me this address?

You tapped your feet against the floor while waiting for him to reply. You immediately opened the message as soon as you felt the buzz.

from: Younghyun

go inside. and by the entrance, you'll see a hallway leading to the garden. go there.

to: Younghyun

Seriously Younghyun?? I'll go inside looking like a shit? bet they won't let me in!

from: Younghyun

Just go inside. They don't really give a damn.

You just groaned and put your phone inside. You faced the mirror from the diner and fixed your hair and everything to make yourself at least presentable. You just wish that they won't look at your shoes. Your oh so good looking shoes. God damn it.

"Good evening Ma'am. Welcome to Haven Diner. A seat for two, Ma'am?" A sheepish smiled crept up on your face as the lady attendant asked you.

"Uhm... Actually I have a friend here. And he said that I need to go to that hallway heading to the garden." The lady gasped and nodded enthusiastically.

"Oh, yes, yes. Please take that way, Ma'am. It'll lead you to the diner's garden." You mouthed thanks to her before heading to the said hallway. You don't know why you feel iffy about this situation. But you decided to brush it off since you don't want to have false hopes. Maybe his band have a gig and unfortunately he called you for some errands.

And you weren't wrong. The instruments are there. But what's confusing is no other people from the five boys. You turn your head to Younghyun, together with his bandmates.

"What-"

Younghyun smiled at you, and he seems so edgy.

"Just, just stay there and watch. Okay?" You just nodded slowly, the situation is still not sinking in to you. Dowoon started by beating the drums, before Jae started to sing.

It was a really hard day today

My heart aches for you

The only thing I can do for you

Is to be next to you, I’m sorry

While Jae was singing, your eyes never left Younghyun. He looks so nervous a while ago, but it seems like it all went away when he started playing his guitar. You feel like he took your breath away especially when he started singing.

You’re so pretty when you smile

So every time you lose that smile

Even if I have to give my all

I want to give it back to you

It's like he's talking to you, his eyes were sparkling as he sings, your heart never stay calmed when he looks directly at you.

I want to cry for you

I want to hurt instead of you

I don’t want any scars in your heart

Ever again

When you love someone

So much that it overflows

It’s so amazing

Because this is how it is

Younghyun sang once again, and this time, he is smiling, and your lips instantly form into a smile, too.

This is a song for you

I'm singing for you

I'll give you my everything

You clapped after their song ended, your face will almost rip at how wide your smile was. And the beatings of your heart is still not in normal state. Can you? After Younghyun sang for you? It's not that you never saw him sing with his band, but this one feels utterly different from all his gigs that you attended. It's like this one is especially for you. For you only.

"What was that for?" You can't think of anything to say when Younghyun went near you, so you asked the first thing that came to your mind. Your heart skipped a beat when he hold your hand. His hand was so cold, telling how nervous he is.

"happy birthday, Y/N. and--" he stopped mid-sentence when you hugged him.

"You're so annoying! You- you don't have to do that, you know. But really, thank you. That was so beautiful. I really liked it." You said, and squeezed him more you can already feel how his heart beat so fast.

"I-I'm glad you liked it. But I still have something to tell you." You hummed and pull away from the hug, he sighed as you cock your head, encouraging him to continue.

"I... I like you Y/N." Your eyes flutter as you register what he said. It feels like you're in a dream. This feels so surreal.

"A-are you serious?" You know how much he hates lying. But you just can't believe that this thing was happening. You don't think you deserve any of this.

"Yeah. I won't lie about it Y/N. You know how I hate lying to people. And I don't want to hurt you. I just want to see you smile. I just want to see you happy. Just like the message of the song. The song's for you. That's my gift." You pouted as you try to stop your tears from falling , but it is to no help because it automatically fell. You can hear the sincerity in his voice. Telling that he isn't really joking around. Younghyun just smiled and hugged you once again, rocking your body side by side.

"I hate you" you mumbled while smacking his arms lightly making him chuckle.

"Why tho?"

"Because I like you too, you silly." You told him making him gasp in shock.

"Did you just confessed to me?" He said making you frown. Now he's joking around.

"You confessed first." You remarked and rolled your eyes. Wiping the tear stains away from your face.

"So what are we now?" You asked even if you already know the answer. You just want him to hear from him.

"We're dating. I can see you want to hear it from me." He said and pinched your cheeks. But the grumble from your stomach made Younghyun bursts into laughter. That's surely a mood killer.

"Come on, you need to eat. The celebrant needs to eat." Younghyun said and grabbed your hand, pulling you to sit on the chair. Your eyes wander around to see if the boys are still there.

"But where are the others? I thought they're going to join us?" You said as you wait for the waiter to come.

"They're already stuffing their mouths with tons of food. Don't mind them. This is our time, okay?" He said and winked making your heart jump out.

"Whatever you say, Kang Younghyun."

___

this got me like iiiichk omg i hoped you like it! i really enjoyed writing this one🖤

[3x3racha]

Dating Kim Seungmin would include:

A/N: The original post got deleted and I didn’t save the finished product so I tried my best to modify my last draft of it. I apologize for any spelling and/or grammar errors. I hope it’s still as good as the first one.

The OG A/N: You’re actually the first person to request this sadly. He needs more love ugh but I was already working on this on the side bc boy needs more content and I love him so much. Anyways thanks for requesting! I hope you like it!

~Admin Yeong ☾

Crush Phase:

He wants to talk to you he thinks you're absolutely stunning 

But he’s scared he might mess upHe would try to hide his fear and nervousness as best as he could

You start to notice he slowly keeps standing closer and closer to you until one day he’s shoulder to shoulder with youTries to sit by you often The boys tease him a lot for it 

He’s shy about starting a conversation but once he does he can’t stop smiling and the conversation becomes super easy

This makes it easy for you guys to become closer friends

He starts becoming the friend you can rely on and he’s always there for you when you need him

He’s had a crush on you since the start but now you’re close friends and he doesn't want to ruin that so he pushes his feelings for you aside not willing to take the risk since he doubts that someone like could ever fall for him poor baby

Confession:

Confession you ask him for relationship advice or about a crush and he puts himself in the guy’s shoes describing to you how he would treat you Then he accidentally lets it slip that he’s in love with you

He realizes that he totally outed himself and he just sits there silently, not moving an inch, his eyes wide looking everywhere but at you.

He starts rambling and apologizing out of his nervousness 

“Oh god. Y/n I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it. Well I mean it I just didn’t want you to know. I didn’t want to ruin our friendship. I’m so sorry. I know you don’t feel the same so we can just pretend that it didn’t happen. I’m really sorry-”

“No-no-no. Seungmin, I like you too. I just thought you didn’t feel the same.” 

“Oh. Wait, really?”

“Yea, I’ve liked you for awhile now.”

“Then uh, do you maybe want to go on date with me tomorrow.”

“I’d like that.”

Then he nods and quickly kisses your cheek and blushes. 

Dating:

He doesn’t really know what he’s doing but somehow he does everything right and you can’t tell that he’s freaking out on the inside 

Shy baby at first but becomes less shy as the relationship progresses

He’s honestly such a hopeless romantic

Cafe dates 

Dates where you can do fun things together like roller skating or ice skating 

Picnic dates

Ice cream dates 

Cute bookstore dates 

Just starting out in your relationship he’s nervous to do close affectionate things out of respect for you

You fell asleep while watching a movie in the dorms and he carries you to sleep in his bed and he sleeps on the floor 

Kisses all over your face

Long sweet kisses

Holding hands but him being shy about it in front of others

So you discreetly hold pinkies

He’d trace your fingers

and compare his hand size to yours while cuddling

Nose kisses and lots of them

Cups your face when he kisses you 

Loves it when he rests his head on your chest as you run your fingers through his hair and vice versa

Cuddles you like a teddy bear

Buries his head in the crook of your neck

Strokes your face admiring your features when you fall asleep in his arms

When you hug he’d gently lift up and sometimes spin you around causing you both to giggle

Calls you angel or baby or princess/prince

HE LOVES TO CALL YOU LOVEBUG

You guys always falling asleep on the couch in a tangled mess

Him setting up a blanket fort in his small bedroom so you two can cuddle and feel alone in this whole world.

Stealing kisses randomly

Like you’ll be in the middle of working on something and he’d just come up and kisses you then walks away blushing

ESKIMO KISSES 

HE DOES THIS TO YOU ALL THE TIME ESPECIALLY WHILE CUDDLING

Making you flustered by backing you up and puts his hands on the wall and presses his forehead against yours (kind of like what he does with Jeongin) but then he gets super flustered too  

His face lights up when he talks about you

It’s so cute

Having such a close connection with each other like

Automatically knowing when something was off with the other people

Sleepy pillowtalk 

Sleepy ‘I loves you’s

It’s like 3am and you wake up to seungmin explaining all the reasons why he loves you 

Constantly reminds you how much he loves you

Loves to get you flowers

Gets you obnoxiously large plushies 

Getting you random gifts bc 

“It reminded me of you.”

Adores you with all his being

Staring into each other’s eyes completely in love

Acts starstruck over you like he looks constantly shocked that he’s actually with someone like you he’s so in love

If you’re ever cold he’d offer himself like full on ‘let me cuddle you then you’ll be warm’

A parents’ dream future son-in-law

He’s so sweet, caring, and respectful towards you

who wouldn’t want a boy like that for their child

Being so encouraging and inspiring towards you

The boys teasing him calling him ‘lover boy’

He always looks at you like you’re the only person in the world

Wants to know everything about you 

Being so comfortable with another to be vulnerable to one another 

Matching lockscreens

Likes to get you random meaningful gifts

hiding small notes into your backpack so you can smile if you’re having a long day at school.

Plans the future

Wants to get a pet with you

Like any animal, he’s down as long as you raise them together

Planning trips together 

Wanting to travel the world together

Lowkey pictures your guys' wedding in his mind all the time

Then y’all get into some serious conversations about how you guys will spend the rest of your lives together

Secretly has your contact info with his family name 

You being close to Jeongin and Hyunjin

And they thrive on teasing you two

 Binge watching tv shows

Binge watching crime tv show which leads to in-depth conversations on who’s the perpetrator 

Watching romantic films together

Is one hundred percent down for an 80s’ movie marathon 

He’d probably steal cute date and romantic ideas from them too

Like it’s your birthday and he recreates the final scene from Sixteen Candles where Sam and Jake are sitting across from each other with the birthday cake inbetween them 

“Happy birthday, Y/n. Make a wish.”

“It already came true.”

Then you kiss

OMG SEUNGMIN BEING YOUR LLOYD DOBLER I HAVE LOST IT MY HEART HAS BEEN EVAPORATED 

I love 80′s movies so much you don’t even know

Takes photos of you when you’re sleepy bc he thinks it’s adorable

One day he just random grabs one of his large hoodies and shoves it over your head 

He takes cute photos of you when you’re not paying attention And posts them everywhere

Being everyone’s relationship goals

You’re like a trending instagram couple 

Y’all are cute and aesthetically pleasing together 

Him feeling comfortable with you to be loud with and it’s something to cherish Sometimes he will act super animated it’s cute

Him serenading you randomly

Like if you come home and you feel like garbage cuddle up with this boy and he’ll sing to you 

You say that you love a certain song

And later he’d start singing you that same song

Remembers everything about you

Asking you random questions

Like when watching a movie

“Who’s your favorite character?” 

Or “if you were in their position what would you do?” 

Or just hang out and he randomly asks what you have and haven’t done 

He’d love to learn what you love to do 

He’d make an attempt to try it

He’d also love it if you wanted to try singing or dancing he’d be so excited to teach you even if it’s a trainwreck

Teasing him about his diary IM NOT EVEN SORRY HE HAS A DIARY THAT SHIT IS TOO CUTE TO NOT GO A SECOND WITHOUT MENTIONING IT

He gives you the puppy eyes whenever you’re mad at him

Trying to make one another flustered but while doing so you make yourself flustered too

Hums you to sleep

Him being insecure and you are constantly reassuring him how amazingly talented and beautiful he is Stan him seriously!

May not look like it but he’s a strong protector when it comes to you

SUPPORTIVE BOYFRIEND

Gives you everything he has

So dedicated 

Remembers your food orders

Notices the smallest things about you that no one else, not even you would notice them, until he brings it up 

Y’all being overly happy together

THE STEREOTYPICAL NO YOU HANG UP FIRST 

Occasionally chasing each other around

Playful like a puppy

Values your opinion 

Jeongin singing “Seungmin and Y/n sitting in a tree” 

Which then causes the other boys to join in

Seungmin is so sweet to you 

Highkey moms you a lot 

Takes care of you 

If you're sick he’d cancel everything to come take care of you 

Even if it was just a headache

Constantly make sure that you’re eating and taking care of yourself 

He’s such a sweetheart who’s head over heels for you

Honestly husband material af

Send your requests here!

~Admin Yeong ☾

[bookwormbambi]

WELP

(08/28/2018)

OKAY. So it’s the second day of classes and I’m just so very irked :-) I think I talked about this before but I spent weeks planning out the perfect schedule so I could have the most organized semester of my life. I converted half of my room into an office space so I could have a classroom setup, I planned out healthy study snacks and whether it was better to make coffee right when I wake up or wait until after my first class, I planned everything down to the last detail so it would all be perfect.  THEN MY INSTRUCTORS HAPPENED.

First, as a disclaimer for those of you who are new to college, your instructors do not have to send you information about the class until the first day of instruction - and most of them won’t. With online classes especially, the course does not have to be posted until the end of the first day, and if you schedule your life to do all of your classes first thing in the morning like I did, it can put a damper on things.

So I meticulously planned everything to the last detail - except for binders, which I wait until the class starts to do so I can model it off of the class setup (post on that probably coming on Sunday) - went to bed on time, got my butt up before the sun was even up and was at my desk ready to go at 7:00 am. I logged into the LMS and right off the bat noticed that still only 3 out of 5 classes had been posted, but I at least had math up, which was my first class of the day. So I get out my materials, log into MyMathLab and breeze through the first section, even finishing about twenty minutes early. I’m feeling good and ready to go, so I jump back into the LMS to start Pharmacology, but it still hasn’t been posted. Okay relax, it’s like 8am, maybe it’ll be up later. So I wait, and refresh the page. Over, and over, and over. Get some other work done, clean the house, do the laundry, hitting refresh every couple of minutes, waiting. Textbooks haven’t been delivered yet so I really have nothing to do. Then around 1 o’clock, I jump into the course page. Sociology has been moved from future courses to current courses, but hasn’t been published yet. Okay, well I’m doing soc tomorrow and she doesn’t have to post it until tonight so no big deal. Pharmacology, however, is still sitting in future courses. Then it clicked. Is this a late start class?? So I jump into my registration log and, sure enough, the freaking class doesn’t start for almost two months. I overlooked it. I spent $115 on the book that I could’ve waited two months to buy and used the money to increase my food budget, or put in my savings, or anything. So Day 1 of classes, and I sat around for five hours waiting for a class that doesn’t start for two months.

Then it clicked a second time. I have to rewrite my schedule. The one that I spent weeks meticulously planning out. Because there is one less class and an extra 3 hours a week I can use for my other classes, or my personal life, or something. So I flip out, grab some graph paper and pens, and start color coding. (I color code when I’m stressed, really it’s where my best work comes from) So I get a rough edit of my schedule, decide to see how Day 2 goes and finish it up.

THEN DAY 2 HAPPENED. A little bit harder to get out bed this morning, but I still got up on time, made my coffee more for the sake of warming up than waking up, and once again my butt was in the chair at 7:00 am, ready to go. I log into the LMS to start psychology, and right away notice soc still hasn’t been published. It was supposed to be up by the end of yesterday. Okay dude, the sun is barely up, this lady might not even be awake yet. Get through psych first and hope that it’s up by 8:45 so you can work on it. So I read through an incredibly boring psych lecture without my glasses (sleepy child forgets to wear them), got about 2/3 through the lecture before the alarm goes off, and got ready for sociology to be published because school started yesterday and it had to be published by then. But NOPE. Still not published. At this point the coffee kicked in so I proceeded to spend the next hour bouncing off the walls and planning the rest of my day since I don’t work and my sister’s birthday is tomorrow and I want it to be perfect (long story but she went to so much trouble for me on mine) then eventually realize I’ve been bouncing off the walls for an hour and not actually doing anything so I sit back down and, like yesterday, keep refreshing the page, waiting for the course to be published, which it still isn’t. I started goofing around on the website and found my graduation checklist. There are problems. I proceed to have another meltdown and conclude that my life is over (h you college), then almost impulsively bought a train ticket to go to campus (two hours away) so I could crash a ballet class and get an add code to add a sixth class and force myself to travel all the way to campus twice a week for one stinking class. Then had a second meltdown because I miss dancing so much but there are studios here that will cost me a lot less and stop my from dropping $200 for one class twice a week. So now it’s just past noon, I’m overly caffeinated and have been awake for almost six hours already, bought a really pretty leotard, and am now waiting for my textbooks to be delivered (most likely sometime today if not tomorrow bc I paid extra for rushed shipping which I wouldn’t have bothered if I knew pharmacology didn’t start til the end of OCTOBER) so I can read the sociology text and hope to god I’m learning the right thing because now I’m behind and have no clear schedule bc everything fell apart and I’m super irked :-)

(This overly-caffeinated rant was brought to you by Dunkin’ Donuts French Vanilla Roast ty for enduring)

[lolbtsaus]

Ice Cream (Youtuber!Jungkook)

Plot: #87: “There was a power outage and now we have to have dinner by candlelight.” + #88: “Our AC is out and it’s the middle of the summer.” with youtuber!Jungkook as a father

Word Count: 1381

A/N: so werewolf!chim as a father is in the works, it’ll most likely be out tomorrow but until then, I have another drabble bc I’ve been loving drabbles hopefully you guys have been liking them as well, I know some people prefer AUs some people like both AUs and drabbles so hopefully you guys are liking both of them, if you’d like to see more of one of them, plz let me know and I’ll try to balance it out more in that one’s favor!! The link for this is youtuber!Jungkook (here) but I decided to add in father!kook (all of the father related posts are here) as well bc I was planning to do a youtuber!BTS as fathers soon and then I got an idea for it when I was reading the prompt and I had to

If there was one thing that could never annoy you, it was being woken up by your children. If it was anyone else waking you up, it might be a different story but waking up to hear their giggles, to see their messy hair, their energetic smiles, it made any annoyance of being woken up disappear. You woke up to your daughter’s hand pressing against your cheek, squishing it under her palm. Your sleepy eyes were slow to open but you couldn’t see much besides her hair, a tired smile appearing on your face when you heard Jungkook’s groan muffled by the pillow as your son walked across his back. You hugged her waist, pulling her down to your height in both an attempt to get her hand off of your cheek as well as giving her a good morning kiss.

Mornings went by a routine. You woke up, you and Jungkook brushing your teeth before you ushered your kids into their bathroom so they could get their teeth brushed. Then it would be time for breakfast, one of you keeping the kids entertained while the other prepared the meal to avoid any hunger tantrums. After breakfast, they would get dressed for the day and you would officially start your day. Jungkook would film for a while, sometimes just an hour, sometimes several. 

At first, Jungkook had tried to keep your children out of his videos and streams, for privacy reasons, on top of the fact that it was difficult to film when you had two toddlers asking you questions about what you were doing or wanting to be included in whatever it was you were doing. He had been using the spare room to film, normally leaving the door open just a crack in case they needed him. But he was quick to realize that plan was failing. They were both extremely curious, especially about what their parents were doing. They both wanted to know why Jungkook went into that room after lunch, they wanted to know who he was talking to, what he was playing. He didn’t have the heart to force them out of the room and they soon became a staple on his channel, especially in his streams where he couldn’t edit clips in or out. 

He had always had a gaming based channel but it wasn’t unheard of for him to do the occasional non-gaming video, sometimes posting a vlog, sometimes a Q&A, sometimes just a video where he talked. So when he made a video explaining they may be frequent guests, no one was really all that surprised. They didn’t want to play the games, not yet, they just wanted to sit with him, normally coloring or building a Lego structure. Jungkook did have to bite his tongue at moments, holding back certain words that they were too young to hear.

He had been playing a game that day, thankfully not recording or streaming but just replaying a game he loved. His son was in his lap, his daughter laying next to him with a chocolate bar in her hands, both of them rambling in their typical toddler talk that no one fully understood but could most often grasp the concept of. You sat on the other side of your daughter, all four of you loving the feeling of the AC cooling the house down. You were having a day off, a day to just relax with your family and get better. The kids were both getting over a cold, a cold that spread to both you and Jungkook. They weren’t in the greatest mood due to not feeling well, their noses stuffy and their throats sore while they waited for the medicine to help. They were getting hungry, they were tired because they hadn’t been able to sleep well during their nap, they were just not feeling the best.

Obviously, the last thing that would improve their mood was the electricity going out. The house dimmed, the setting sun providing just enough light to see the shapes of the the furniture in your room. You heard your daughter sniffle first, her eyes tearing up as her hand grabbed your arm.

“It’ll only be down for a little while, it’s okay.” Jungkook comforted, rubbing your son’s back. “The dark is fun!”

“No it isn’t!” your son argued back, shaking his head quickly. “It’s scary, all of the monsters come out in the dark!”

If it wasn’t for the fact that you knew your son wasn’t feeling well and that he was scared of the dark, you would’ve thought the scene was adorable. The way your son slumped onto Jungkook’s chest, seeking out the comfort of being in his arms, the way his bottom lip slightly pouted, his brow furrowing, his nose a light shade of red. All you could do was kiss his forehead, hoping that if you toyed with his hair long enough, he wouldn’t be so afraid.

“But we’re safe in the house.” your daughter pointed out, rubbing her watery eyes. “Right?”

“No monsters here.” Jungkook confirmed, leaning down to kiss the top of her head. “Since the ice cream could melt before the electricity turns back on, why don’t we go make some sandwiches for dinner and then eat the ice cream for dessert? I’ll light some candles so we can see.” 

If there was one thing you loved about Jungkook, it was his ability to make you, and your kids, feel like everything was okay. When you had gotten so nervous you could barely talk on your wedding day, he had been the one to lean against the other side of the door and talk to you until he had you excited to give your vows, rather than be nervous about them. When your daughter had caught her first cold and had given it to her brother, he had been the one to make them laugh and keep them laugh and keep their minds off of their sickness. He had always been there for the three of you and you knew he always would be, just like you all were there for him.

He had turned what could’ve been a horrible night into a fun game night. He had helped you make sandwiches the best he could while having a toddler in his arms, the other on his shoulders. He had set up candles all throughout your bedroom, lighting the room up as best as he could. You had all sat on your bed, using your laptop to play a movie while you ate your dinner. You had spooned the ice cream into bowls while Jungkook set up a board game, smiling to yourself when you had your children’s giggles at whatever Jungkook was doing. Your smile only widened when you walked in to see that he had placed the board on top of his head, trying to set the pieces on it while keeping it balancing, all to keep the children from paying any attention to the darkness outside of your window.

Your son sat in your lap, your fingers brushing his fringe back, your daughter sat in Jungkook’s while he fanned a piece of paper in her direction to keep her cool. The night began to grow cooler thankfully, the ice cream helping as well. You hadn’t even been paying attention to the fact that the electricity was out, too distracted by the antics of your toddlers and your husband. You knew they weren’t paying attention either, their giggles too loud and too frequent for them to be worried about it. You leaned against the headboard of your bed, rubbing your son’s stomach gently as you helped him take his turn.

“See? That wasn’t so bad.” Jungkook whispered to you as he carried your now asleep daughter into their room, gently setting her on her bed before doing the same with your son.

“Thanks, Kookie. You really helped tonight, this could’ve been so much worse.”

“That’s what I’m here for, to keep you and them happy and healthy.”

You looked over your shoulder as the lights began to turn back on, a sigh of relief escaping your lips. “How about tomorrow morning, I make breakfast in bed for you to say thank you?”

“I would love that.”

[revisingpotato]

1:28am thoughts [pt.1]

academic and personal goals for the year, also plans for the future and uni in general?

i was going to do a first ib finals report bUT i figured i’d wait until i receive all my scores + sem 1 report..... so far my grades are v nice but whenever someone mentions uni i’m left in a state of ~utter confusion~

p.s. my studyblr is going to be in semi-hiatus mode? because keeping up with actual schoolwork is more important than studyblr-ing lets be real (add in cas, ia + ee proposals, ah the beauty of being in ib....). it’ll also be less reblogs and more personal quality posts. feel free to unfollow me if you’re just looking for aesthetic reblogs ahh the sole purpose of this thing is to document my academic journey, maybe, somehow (?)

p.p.s. studying japanese intensively for this year so my blog is now a mix of studyblr + japanese langblr ;; and in the next few months, i feel like it’ll be an appblr as well.... :’)))

so i just finished adding my appblr page to keep myself accountable!

this might change in the future but yes....,, my heart is dead set on the monbugakusho scholarship ;_; it’s highly coveted, and out of thousands of applicants each year, less than a hundred is chosen. HOWEVER it covers full tuition fees, living costs, monthly allowance.... cherry on top is that you can go anywhere in Japan. fully funded.

studying in japan is a lifelong goal for me. however the requirements to just get pass the screening of this scholarship is either pass national exams with an average of 8.4 - THIS IS WHERE I GET FUCKIN scared because i’m already used to ib-style questions. aka. what are multiple choices!!!1! and how do i do a math paper without a calculator!!1! what science exam should i take bc i’m doing ess!!!

on top of that... the added stress of doing national exams AND ib exams simultaneously. life is looking Good /laughs dryly/

going back to the ‘either’ - if in case i fail (oh God no BUT) national exams or decide to not take it, i can submit a JLPT N3 certificate (pass obvi). THIS is my way to go because hey,, i’ve been studying japanese for 2~3 years now,, and getting the jlpt would be an edge when applying and living in japan later on!! however.... HOWEVER....

my school would usually make national exams prep classes compulsory AND even if i decide to not take it, i’ll still study, so...

national exams are FREE tbh if i have studied (such as the case above) might as well go for it...

JLPT is paid. the exams are only run twice a year. NO WAY I CAN FUCKIN GO FOR N3 RIGHT IN JULY, so december would be my way go. i’d already be in ib2 right then, drowning in apps and coursework... dec 2017 is my only chance.....

my jlpt level. self-evaluating, i’m an n5 right now. jumping a level would not be an easy task FFFF

jlpt n3 in ~10 months is actually pretty realistic but then i have to intensively study ;__;

and this is more of a First World Problem but guess who’s parents doesn’t let her daughter take jp tutoring... so i gotta rely on all the jlpt prep books and free resources HUFFFHJD

i might do n5/n4 in july 2017 though. for the taste of it before n3 OTL

after the screening itself, there’s still a scholarship test WHICH is probably similar to nationals... so national exams would be a good training as well

are u even still following me at this point because i am Probably Not

anyways there’s a huge chance i don’t get the scholarship... not that im pessimistic but realistically looking at myself. my grades are nice. but I REALLY DONT POSSESS LEADERSHIP QUALITIES N STUFF THOSE SCHOLARSHIP PPL LOOK FOR. so i’m working on it. and EXTRACURRICULARS TOO. GOD FKDdkjf

in the end of the day, here’s my tentative Masochistic Plans of 2017

take JLPT N5/N4 in july 2017. PASS THAT SHIT. also for the experience

take JLPT N3 in december 2017. PASS THAT SHIT TOO.

take national exams.

i’ll ganbarimasu in order to not die thx

there are other scholarships i’m eyeing, this time from hong kong. hk is near japan, it’s a nice place!!!

and this time there are two pools - HKSAR and Belt&Road. they’re both like monbugakusho bc they cover full tuition costs; not sure about the living costs and monthly allowances though.

Belt&Road is especially something i shouldn’t miss BECAUSE THE POOL IS B/N MALAYSIANS AND INDONESIANS IN HK... it’s smaller...

the thing is;; there’s not much information about these scholarships that are comprehensive alike monbugakusho. but i’m sure they’re looking for leadership traits, extracurriculars, yada yada

so here’s another tentative list of Being A Well-Rounded Student in 2017. one of my goals is to finish my CAS requirements this year because by 2018 i’ll be drowning in college apps and exams

CAS i’ve done : career day volunteer, isci picnic organizer

CAS ongoing : learning japanese, practicing yoga

CAS i’d like to do :

something that’ll demonstrate leadership hhHH

business competitions!!

debate stuff

yearbook....,,

VALENTINE’S BAKE SALE. let’s make this happen again

participate in environmental activities

volunteering @ smth more meaningful ahh. give back to local community.

be part of a publication (applying to a zine rn CROSSES FINGERS)

i’m sure with this i’ll be able to do all the 7 learning outcomes fucking thrice and probably come out as a good scholarship applicant yeh

about universities, personal goals and other things

it’s actually half past 1 am and im sleepy so,

i’ll be continuing this post tomorrow lmfao.

- an original Haiku

[haeroniel-doliet]

i need more money to buy little art

honestly tho feeling like for that ideal goal existence i’ll try get to someday, i’ll needa be making proper money comfortable and good so i can spend all i like on society 6 and other to buy shirts and bags and just everything to a house all in different art prints (mostly florals) bc just those pictures are  like everything i want but just so expensive. i’m trying to sum down like 10 to stickers, bc i wanna do up my laptop, but dedicating to a single decal (thats like 25 ON SALE) is too much esp since i love so much. so ive kinda decided to get a hard cover for the laptop just in case i break it, and just in case i do break my laptop that i can keep the stickers on the hard case and dont lose them to replaced parts. idk seems smart. ill probs buy a kinda shady cover off of ebay for 5 or 6 pound and then spend 20 on stickers for it :] since theyre on sale till 8 am today and its 3 am im probs just gonna settle and order them. might order cover tomorrow w my dad bc i need trust assurance. hes not all on board on the stickers so im just gonna go for it. theyre gonna be like my post cards. i buy so many every place. and no. not trashy postcards. i want art. i have so many postcards of paintings in galleries and so many from comic con art valleys (guess who wants to get so much more and 100% will) i love original art the most when its pretty to me and like everyone who sees it. simples okay but i prefer soft and detailed. excited now i can go to con and also be looking for stickers bc maybe ill get a few cool ones that wont cost me as much as the society 6 ones do. and then my laptop can replicate my walls, displaying all the art ive loved that ive been able to take with me (bc theres so much i obviously dont have on my walls) anyway im looking at these and making some small bc i suddenly realise this laptops got realestate. and the saddest thing w stickers (literally why i had one of those waxy paged sticker books as a child) is that i cant dedicate stickers to a single spot. its so much dedication. what if i buy a bigger sticker and it wont fit? what if i get the perfect sticker for that spot and it wont fit? (over lap i guess) how can i be sure i put them in the right spots to start with? augh i dont really wanna cover just half of it and obviously leave space bc that puts pressure on finding stickers and i might get ones i dont love. i cant get sick of any one bc itll be there  (joy of having multiple mean theres less getting sick of anything). anyway i think im happy w the sizes of these 10 stickers and can work w them (also for now i think im just gonna be going around the edges and leaving the apple logo as it is, esp bc it glows and theres already this shitty old smiley face sticker from my old psych teacher and i kinda dont wanna get rid of it, i just wanna add things around it so it doesnt look so: clean (actually dirty) laptop that a child marked as their own) 

anyway society 6 has random discounts all the time which is p rad and maybe the day im ready to invest in my own living space and dont feel obliged to check w my parents about just about any purchase, i’ll then subscribe to something thatll tell me what discount is on. that in mind, i think i’ll only get the 9 now, that hopefully wont cost too much, and leave a bunch in my wishlist, bc there’ll be another discount (this is 20% off everything)  and maybe that’ll be like 50% off stickers and boy then when my collection is underway you bet ill go for it. and like maxx sticks on their sketch book, if i dedicate to a new book maybe ill get more for that and have a pretty thing to keep and reminisce over (tho knowing me, ill not use it much bc i have a need for pretty things to stay perfect and presentable, and i have a need for everything that i might show to others to be like near perfect otherwise its sucks and ill feel bad bc i dont wanna show it off to people. like my art book, sure i couldve made it all experimental and crap and then edited the real pages together on the computer. but no. i needed everypage to be presentable and pretty and handwritten and creative. and they must go page after page, its so awkward showing someone something and then going “oh wait now these few are empty sorry yeah heres the next page” so i baasically have  a book with mhmmm 20-26 pages of beautiful spreads that im quite proud of inside beautiful covers ( i knew id want to be presenting it for years to come) and the back pages are just...empty. and theyll probably stay that way bc i no longer have projects to be doing to fill them with. maybe one day ill grow into myself and grow out the fear of ruining what ive achieved and fill some with new projects to please myself and be an indepenednt artist not just a teacher pleaser. you know its like that with my work too, like it has to have a direction and a plan that will be achieved, and its terribly frustrating when that vision doesnt happen. but i think thats the same with everyone. 

anyway on a side note, dont you guys think its so fun and cool how ive not done my post labs that were due last friday? how every night ends up being 3-4 am until i go... mhmmmm yeah i guess nothing is happening. like i hope id bloom and do work at that 11pm-3am window and then i get here, suddenly having lost all track and sense of time and just sigh. its wasted, its basically tuesday already. have to keep telling myself dates bc it moves so weird. i planned on getting shit done two days ago. here we are regardless. and the most ill get done is get those stickers ordered bc that is i guess what ive been half focused on for mhmmm5 hrs. then ill save my 7 dollars or whatever, have stickers on the way, tomorrow order the case and thats one insignificant thing done. then the question will be have i looked at summer jobs? no of course not ive looked at ballet courses. shush. i havent showered for days bc theyve just slipped by too laying in bed, maybe tomorrow ill take a shower and pick up all the trash and tissues on the ground. maybe i will. i know i wont get real work done tonight, and already ill be sleepy till 1 pm and by then mom will be again on me abt sleeping to latesoo... yeah no point. and here i thought id make a quick totes relatable short post about how i need more money to buy stickers and maybe a brief my ideal life is to have enough money to spend on art being in every part of my life and all this  being unique so people love coming to my house and go wow its so original and cool. and that turned into a word vent thats so far taken me over half an hour. hi my batterys dying. 

lng story short, i’ll order the stickers currently in my basket after so much though, suck it up and do it and know that i have a bunch over in my wishlist for that next maybe even better sale when it happens. the only thing is im taking all the rest as transparent which for sure dulls them down (yeah white background looks sick but for some its just more classy w transparent, then theres this one bear i’m 100% naming wojtek thats in white bc i feel it’ll be best for him, and i guess having him in white will set that theres no clear rules to follow and worst case if it doesnt fit he can come chill on the keyboard side next to my mouse pad thing) honestly i cant tell if i should be getting them all in white and just hope that theyll look gorgeous no matter what. yikes 3 dollar shipping for stickers, ok itll actually be 19.62 pound and using euro card 22.50 in  euros.... am i dumb? maybe. and tho im supposed to be saving money up so i have some, i also did get birthday money sorta recently soo... birthday gift from them. first set of stickers. deep breaths ok. my parents told me when i bugged them that i just have to make a decision and not ask them all the time, and he said to get 3 stickers i told him id pick 12 so i think getting 9 is reasonable. also oh shit realising that the delivery time is 1-3 weeks and im staying here only 1 and a half more so i should really order it to scotland even tho it might get ther ebefore i do bc my parents might not rly want to send them up to me. idk ok order to scotland, thank f at least one of my flat mates is staying and tbh i should really bring her some chocolate... shes done me faavours. 

[katherine-rambles]

so apparently i am just Really Wired all of a sudden so i'm going to write down one of my long-winded everything i think of posts because those usually calm me down by the time i've written a couplea pages worth of words today started out Funky because i couldn't wake up and i had meant to do some video-ing for the application thing but i guess it was just as well i slept b/c the power has been out all day at my dad's place. i'm surprised i didn't notice sooner, but i guess i was just internetting on my phone until i emerged out of my blanket nest. going to work was Cold because i was a Foolish Fool and forgot to bring my outer shell jacket because yesterday was "alright" outside foolish katherine you need All your Weather-Foiling Equipment At All Times in oregon. and it was raining and super windy and just really unpleasant. once i got to work tho it was alright. relatively slow day but i was still busy with all the backed up orders we have PLUS some idiot put the used printer drums back in with the new ones so when i went to change it out the printer gave me an inscrutable error for half an hour, then i called the help line and waited for another fifteen ghatdang minutes, and THEN i spent the next thirty minutes after that actually fixing it and getting magenta toner everywhere b/c that happens when you put a bonk drum back into a printer i guess. but it was... soooooo nice to be semi-caught-up for once. just blissful. the counters are mostly clear and it is gorgeous. anyway so after that i went home and i started texting the person i met on okc and??? good stuff!!!!! plus i took a ton of pics of the sky bc it was a super witchy-lookin' night and i am down to clown with that aesthetic. but it was still so COLD goodness gracious and then when i got home the power's been out and i got curious and that's how i learned i can hook up this blutooth keyboard to my phone and do so much on my phone and i'm in love with my new setup haaaa. might need to buy a stick-on stand fr my phone so i can set it up at a good viewing angle but other than that.... i am blessed by the technology deities tonite and now i'm writing this post and man i was right these summary posts really get me Sleepy for some reason. maybe it has something to do with narrative structure and societal cues and whatnot. or maybe it's just a good place for my brain to Offload thoughts and feel like it's okay to quiet down because the thoughts are Here for Recalling and it doesn't have to Hyper-Replay Them to access them later?? that's an interesting hypothesis. i wonder if there's any truth to it, aside from my conjecture. but now i am actually sleepy lol so i better ride this to dreamland so i can wake up tomorrow morning haaah