i saw some tweets of yours about being a mirrorsoul, and it deeply resonated with me. i felt reborn, and i need to know more. i need to understand myself. is there more to know? or somewhere to learn? i want to understand
i think i will try to make a zine on this subject later, but if you uhave any specific questions please ask
This is my first time posting again since. I said my first time because the last time i posted here i had with what i thought my twin flame. He was the false twin though. And now hopefully, the person i am with right now is the true.
- So far, i can say he is the real deal because he is also seeing synchronicities and signs like me. He feel me. We share the same feelings, everything is parallel with our lives. The people around him, the people around me they are same ages, almost the same situation.
Physically i feel him when his near, or approaching. He won't get off my mind its like he is always watching me hawkeyes. I can feel his energy. I don't need to seek outside sign, my body will tell me. Like i feel hot all of the sudden or kind of dizzy when he is coming. I feel tingling in my hands. When i got headache, sore throat or stuffy nose, it is also happened to him. Like we share the same body, we are both affected with what happen in our physical body.
And so on.. Everything is magic. It hard to explain everything but really really worth it.
Right now we are in separation but i think its for the best so we can do our healing for us to have our union.
Sometimes discussed in terms of a โmirror soulโ or โsoul connectionโ, a twin flame is the other half of your soul. It is theorized that a soul can split into two after ascending to a high frequency. Thereafter, the soul lands in two different bodies. If you compare a twin flame vs. soulmate, itโs important to note that a soul mate is someone who is made from the same kind of energy as you, but who has never existed in fusion with you. So, although soul mate connections are highly significant, an encounter with a twin flame is on another level entirely.
Stage 1. The Search
The search stage involves a strong sense of yearning and an acute awareness that something is lacking in your life.
Stage 2. The Awakening
This second, awakening stage is where you physically meet, and the awareness of your compatibility hits you head on. Sometimes, you wonโt be together for very long, but even brief contact is enough to make you aware that something special is happening
Stage 3. The Test
The test stage of a twin flame experience is defined by trying to understand your relationship with this other person. It is all about establishing boundaries, testing your limitations
Stage 4. The Crisis
While twin flame love can be euphoric, it also inevitably involves a crisis stage. While this is often unpleasant, the good news is that it can also catalyze a deeper, more stable bond in the longer term. This stage involves significant anxiety and worries about your bond with your twin flame, and the crisis can be just about anything.
Stage 5. The Running Or Chasing Stage
No matter what form the crisis stage takes, it is always followed by a running or chasing stage. You may be in either role, and you and your twin flame may switch back and forward between the two roles. This stage revolves around one twin flame distancing themselves, often out of fear of confronting the level of intimacy that the two of you are capable of experiencing. The twin in this role will be in pain and will feel very defensive and resistant. Meanwhile, the other twin flame will give chase, believing that the bond is worth fighting for and working on.
Stage 6. The Surrender
In the surrender stage, both of you will start to give up on a previous need to control your relationship. In this context, surrendering isnโt about giving up on your connection, but rather about accepting that neither of you can escape from destiny.
Stage 7. The Reunion
When you and your twin flame move on to the reunion stage, youโll have a sense of relief at the fact that balance is being restored.
In going through the previous, challenging stages, youโll have learned a lot about yourselves and about the potential attached to the unique kind of love you have found.
As my โnew lifeโ began to take shape, I couldnโt help but notice the signs and synchronicities that came with my journey. Myย โaha momentsโ where always in spaces where I felt like i was exactly where I was meant to be. I began to truly believe that everything happens for a reason and struggles lead to triumph. It was a powerful shift for me which contributed to a heightened sense of freedom and growing independence. I was limiting myself less and experiencing real happiness and love within nearly everyone and everything.ย
As I challenged myself and learned to let go, opportunities began finding me. I focused on ridding myself of the old and making way for the new. The hardest thing to clear away was expectations. (I continually have to remind myself of this when I cling to the past or struggle to trust the universe.) But finally, I was exercising my boundaries with less fucks and finding myself among the people and spaces that allowed me to feel safe being vulnerable. It was around the time of this initial awareness and practice that I met my twin flame. I didnโt know at the time that he was my twin, but I couldnโt deny the force that seemed to exist between us. I was able to be my true self from day one and felt secure and free being me around him.ย
I will never forget the day we met. My heart was buzzing while synchronicities seemed to accumulate like kernels popping in a microwaveable bag.ย I simply felt that I was where I was supposed to be. As we started to spend time together, I remember feeling caught up in the moment. My soul could sense that this person was home for me. My mind and emotions had not entirely caught up yet, but I recall feeling present then. I tried not having expectations and felt so lucky and grateful for all of it. I was simply soaking in the new and basking in the abundance of my budding life. We shared a few magical weeks getting to know one another, when it was time for me to leave for the rest of summer. So much was up in the air and the distance started to change things between us.ย
I wasnโt quite sure how to let out and express what I felt in my spirit. I saw tik tok creators telling their stories of meeting their divine counterparts and their own journeys. I made a very feeble attempt of my own to do so and found it nearly impossible to speak on camera. I could not speak openly, and authentically. But I can do that when I put pen to paper, or at least fingers to keyboard in the instance. I have long been a writer. A storyteller. Telling my own story and writing about all that I have born witness. I plan to continue doing so, here.ย
I must be frank and say I am not a fan of the termย โtwin flame.โ I have found that this term has become equated to some crazy love affair and a destiny for grand romantic partnership. It is a phrase that I do not think does the journey justice properly. There are those who use it to describe partners, the ones who have simply met a soulmate. It is a term used by those who are in fact not on the twin flame journey. God bless them though. because this journey isnโt one that I would wish on anyone who didnโt already sign up for it. In all honesty, I am often jealous of the ease in which these other people live and how quickly they seem find love.ย
And love is the very thing I have been waiting on my whole life. Growing up as an adopted child, I always felt out of place. Like I didnโt belong. Like I was wrong or a mistake. I felt as though something in me was missing and I chased masculine attention my whole life. My father wound was strong. I was deeply fearful of being abandoned by anyone, but mostly men. I know that on this journey, one can explain lots away by psychological reasoning. It is easy to say that a wound was simply activated by someone just like your Dad or your ex partner or friend and that you are simply staying in a pattern of bad behaviour. I see the logic in that and hold space for it to be true in the end. I also believe that these psychological reasons are meant to expose you to your wounds. To the parts of you that need healing. The parts that reject attention and love and space to leave you so that you can fill those spaces with truth. I myself have spoken to therapists and friends who are more practical. I never even believed in any of this until a few months ago. I have tried time and time again to be rid of this phenomenon and the feelings and experiences that I have had. I have tried to prove myself crazy more times than you count and yet the consensus is this. There are things that cannot be explained away by mere therapy or a diagnosis. That despite my acknowledgement of things outside of what I can see in the physical world, I am deeply present and grounded in reality. I am aware and not the type of crazy I have wanted to believe I am. That there is no cure or treatment, no matter how much I pray for one. Sometimes, we simply have to accept that we will never be able to explain away certain things.ย
I feel the need to share my experience in some way. I believe that writing about it and my thoughts and feelings is a release and also important. I feel it will be a freeing space and healing for me and hopefully anyone else feeling much the same. I donโt know where the end point of this journey is, but I am excited to continue it and see the unfolding of my life and my purpose. I have met my mirror soul and he changed the course of my life, but it is up to me to continue on that course.ย