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#mn. my dream tho was rly nice. yknow. in dreams its so nice bc i dont worry about the way things go or anything.
pizzapizzadickz
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Haaah. If yesterday is anything to base things off of I shouldnt use my headphones today bc my neck is fucked.
#friends
#diary
#personal
#i had too much caffine yesterday i think and it felt like i was just high all day. it was horrible. i hated it.
#seriously tho my neck pain made it so hard to sleep. and im so fucking tired.
#ahhh im so fucking tired all the fucking time nowadays
#mn. my dream tho was rly nice. yknow. in dreams its so nice bc i dont worry about the way things go or anything.
#all social interaction there feels so natural and calm. its like reading a book sometimes even. it happens
#or maybe even watching an anime? i never feel involved and i love it.
#as soon as i exist outside of my home tho it feels so surreal to me... i just blatantly dont belong.
#i feel awkward n out of place and worry that im doing something strange. and ive just given up really yeah?
#when i went to high school i was always so exhausted at school. i couldnt do any work in class and i never could rly explain why.
#during class i could sometimes. but i found it so hard to work. i always did. idk. i never did what i was supposed to and i got good grades
#...highschool was so hard. its odd to think of it so long ago now? its odd to think i started using tumblr then. or before then?
#ive tried so hard to make friends in the past. and ive given up now rly. im fine with what ive got. but anything new...
#im just tired. its tiring. everything is. its so painful to think where i could be if everything wasnt so hard always...
#im 23... and most of my energy is spent on barely being alive. im tired. so tired of this.
#haah. i wish i could live by myself in a lil cottage. wish i could just. exist in a place and feel at ease.
#rather than rn.
#...ive lost so many over the last few years huh. i dont think it was bad tbh.
#ive always felt like im playing at making friends.
#trying to do what others expect. or trying desprately to be friends with someone.
#but. in the end i dont think that was the best way. i like now better tbh.
#these odd. sometimes strangely distant friendships i have. but theyre so much more fun?
#rather than anxiously trying so hard. its much more fun to just be.
#somehow. i think these ones are longer than my longest?
#one way or another. these are better. i feel so much more calm and at ease.
#god. just thinking about others is terrifying.
#i think everytime i just get overstimulated for someone else. and while thats fine and dandy no one ever understood
#eventually if i hang out with other ill get to a point i just cant anymore
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