#my brain sometimes doesnt like to work with me

[othergrave]

hello and welcome to my jumbled blog of rambling hyperfixations, you're in for a hell of a ride. you can call me OTHER or GRIMM [or any other variation of my usernames you may know me by]. i go by all pronouns, so you can refer to me however you like (he / she / they / it, etc.) you can find my main blog at @ghoulfoole, most of my non-afiliated fandom art will be posted over there. my ask box is open if you want to pop in and ask me questions about my ocs, or even to direct questions towards my ocs. please be sure to specify who the questions are for, thank you! my interests can sometimes bounce all over the place, so i'll try to keep everything up to date. below this little intro i'll keep a masterlist of my various ocs and aus and such with their appropriate tags, and update this list as regularly as possible.

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LAST UPDATED: 5/11/23

[icewindandboringhorror]

sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

[tododeku-or-bust]

I think the funniest part about having a cat is that sometimes Jojo will meow, and I'll turn around and unironically be like "what?" As though what he said will be any clearer upon repeat. And not, you know. Spoken in Cat.

[deoidesign]

wdym by "see" them? Do u have that thing where u cant see pictures in ur head?? 👀

oh, yeah, I mean I can see vague shapes but there's no color and it's like blurry and tunnel visioned at best

I can "taste" in my head pretty well and hear in my head even better though!

I think it makes me more satisfied with my art, because anything I draw will always be the only way I can see it... I've never struggled with the classic artist pain of it "looking so much better in my head" I'm always like oh hell yeah it looks so cool now that I can see it!!!

I also think it's why I have so much desire to draw. I have a lot of ideas in my head, and I want to make them real! I want to see them too!!!

[itspileofgoodthings]

tags continued from prev post.

[arinmoss]

collection of monochrome pieces

[slowips]

faithfully yours or haunting sounds interesting 👀 - Mimikyu

@andromeda-nova-writing

faithfully yours is an office!AU where reader notices that kaeya brought lunch and the cuisine is... unique. turns out they grew up in the same town, and as they start to grow closer, they learn more and more on how their lives intertwined... (sort of).

the term faithfully yours was adapted from the prompt that stared the story.

haunting is a canon compliant piece that takes place after the inazuma's war. kazuha goes to sumeru to meet with an old friend who he somehow got connected to, and as reader walks him around town, it becomes increasing clear that to reader, kazuha never left.

this story was inspired by how i misread one prompt, and then it took a life of its own, haha.

[kate-m-art]

Keep seeing Zelda movie news reactions and like feel like my only contribution right now is I'd much prefer live action to an illumination style animated movie...

[todayisafridaynight]

i miss how they used to model teeth

[happyk44]

Does anyone think the whole of cluster A could be included as part of the schizospec, or should it just be limited to STPD? Both PPD and SZPD seem to present commonly with a good deal of the negative symptoms associated with the spectrum, but lack the positive symptoms. However, STPD doesn't have the positive symptoms either - rather they're considered much more mild (e.g. ideas of reference vs delusions). Maybe some level of psychosis and cognitive distortion/deficit needs to be included to count under the spectrum?

I see SZPD being included in posts referencing the spectrum sometimes, but not PPD, and I wonder if it's because SZPD references the "schizo" prefix in the name so people automatically link it to the spectrum even though, as far as I can tell, it's not included medically. Maybe it's the lack of understanding for PPD that makes it excluded? Or maybe I'm still limited in my understanding of how PPD typically presents (curse the limited info on Clusters A and C). STPD does seem to be a mix of the two as well, re the social deficit and suspicion of others, so maybe there's some factor in that.

It would be nice if I could find a clear reasoning for exclusion. Like I'm not arguing for their inclusion but I am curious about what classifies as part of the spectrum and what doesn't, given STPD does not seem to meet the full scope of positive symptoms.

[dallonwrites]

reblogs off bc i dont want to start Conversations based on other peoples posts but re the whole "who is in control you or the character" question, i find it SO interesting because it's by letting myself discovery write that I (for me personally disclaimer) found the perfect balance between intuition and intention. which to preface "intution" is the easiest way to describe how the inside of my writers brain feels bc often i just get vivid characters/stories/images/scenes with little control at first and i have to figure out what they mean. anyway discovery writing is what works for my brain to make intentional decisions because i need to be amidst a draft to get the Story Cogs working, whenever i try to outline before a draft it's always been just throwing things at a wall bc it feels too far away, but because im also using the discovery element to do that it's like. that's where i think the whole i feel like my characters reveal themselves to me comes from. because im always discovering small bits about them even if i've written them for years just but because discovery writing is also what prompts me to be intentional about writing as i write something it's like both are happening at the same time. so the whole "who's in control" it's like...i don't think control is the right word for me at all because its not Me or the Character it's me trying to understand the character to understand + then write my intentions. like neither me or the character are in the drivers seat because there's no car we are in the middle of the story forest and at first i won't know what it means at all except that it is a Story. and my character will start going one way and sometimes i'll follow and pay attention to where they're taking me to figure out if this is the right path/where to go next. and sometimes i'll figure out how to read the compass first and realise i need to drag their ass in another direction

[lastoneout]

sometimes I don't think I could be autistic and/or like all that neurodivergent and then other times my fiancé makes a practical and logical argument as to why we don't need a tiny colander that's too small for most tasks and that to save space in the sink/cabinets I should learn to use the medium sized one and honestly we should probably just get rid of the small one and I am filled with such an immense rush of panic and discomfort and grief that I can't even explain it properly until I am saying shit like "the tiny colander is my friend" and "using the big one just FEELS wrong, you know, like going to albertsons instead of safeway" and "next you're gonna tell me I have to use the big soup spoons instead of the little ones and I'll pass away" and I can tell while he does love me and isn't actually mad he def thinks I'm being super illogical and can't fully understand why

like yes I KNOW I am being illogical I am well aware of that...however!! If things are different I will die and if I have to get rid of object that is my friend I will ALSO die, and the only explanation I have is "I like to have things a very specific way even if it doesn't make sense or is less convenient or wastes time and space and changing it is REALLY hard I can't just go "oh you're right" and then change it just doesn't work like that" which is like.....not a great explanation I don't think but that's literally all I've got so???

and like this is legit the only thing we ever "argue" over(bcs we aren't actually fighting we're just talking) it's just him being like "hey the way you do things is inefficient and doesn't make a lot of sense, wouldn't it be easier/make more sense to do it this way?" and then me scrambling to try to articulate "that's fair, but this is the way I do things, I can't change that" in a way that doesn't make me sound dismissive or insane or something which doesn't really seem to work all that well, or like...isn't really getting what I mean across correctly at the very least

[bittwitchy]

see the reality is i post on my rps usually when nobodys been there a bit and nobody is probably online, but the mental illness in me keeps saying its bc everyone secretly hates me and i dont deserve love, and when i tell a gov doctor that, they basically just say ‘take your antidepressant’s and shut up’ which is also funny when said gov doctor wont refill my fucking antidepressants in the first place

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[dockaspbrak]

I don't think i feel ashamed of anything as much or often as i do insomnia....weird. Annoying. Nothing wrong with it i wish i felt less ashamed

[nbmudkip]

the mortifying ordeal of opening up about myself to someone i look up to is coming for me i need to dye my hair and leave the planet