#my famix

[the-cat-at-the-theatre-door]

the past experience revived in the meaning an old deuteronomy fanmix  [listen]

01. Lux Aurumque - eric whitacre | 02. This Little Light of Mine - a covering | 03. Der Nussbaum (The Chestnut Tree) - london promenade orchestra  | 04. I’ve Been This Way Before - neil diamond  |  05. Carry That Weight - the beatles   |  06. Libiamo ne’ lieti calici (live) - plácido domingo | 07. someone new - hozier  |  08. Homeward Bound - bryn terfel | 09. whispering - alex clare  | 10. Dear Fellow Traveller - sea wolf  | 11. Hey Brother - the mayries & dan berk | 12. Return - james newton howard  | 13. Now Sleeps the Crimson Petal Op. 3 No. 2 - roger quilter, thomas allen & geoffrey parsons | 14. Soave sia il vento - miah persson, angela brower & alessandro corbelli  | 15. Annie’s Song (instrumental) - james galway | 16. Songs My Mother Taught Me - Paul Robeson  | 17. Golden Slumbers - josh young | 18.  silhouette - aquilo | 19.  I Tried - rory campbell  | 20.  Eclipse - john denver | 21. Yearning - carl moir   | 22. The Secret Garden - aurora  | 23. Keep On - michael nesmith | 24. All The Faces - creed bratton  | 25. Constellations - the oh hellos  |  26.  Willow Tree March - the paper kites |  27. Memory (instrumental) - jian wang & göran söllscher | 28.  This Is A Changing World - noel coward  | 29.  When It’s Time - lotte kestner | 30. The Sands of Time Are Sinking - the scottish festival singers  | 31.  100 Years (Acoustic) - five for fighting | 32.  The Prayer - helene fischer & andrea bocelli | 33. I Wish I Had a Hundred Years - fernando velázquez  | 34. The Long Road (Acoustic) - passenger  |  35.  Across The Vast, Eternal Sky - the choir of royal holloway |  

Semi-explanation below the cut

Feel free to ignore this one, if you care not for context, but let me see if I can explain this because I am not completely pleased with the order *but* it’s a lot like Gus’ in that it isn’t necessarily always fully lyrically applicable, but rather tells the expanse of a life lived. 

The opening few songs are mostly free of lyrics - Deuteronomy was slow to talk when he was a kitten. He spent a good majority of his young kittenhood non-verbal and late to talk compared to his fellows, but he was still blossoming incredibly quickly developmentally, particularly in mental and telepathic capacity. He started understanding things that were odd for kittens to understand (and his second mother indicated that there was...a light behind his eyes that was difficult to place that signified a wisdom far beyond his years). The first few songs lack lyrics (or have very few) to illustrate this tentative step into a life that is celebrated (being the heir), and how he is valued but comes into himself slowly.  

“I’ve Been This Way Before” is when Deuteronomy finally starts to speak - and when he begins, he skips right over his babble and the present. He speaks about pasts he knows - so many of them - in great detail, remembering places he’s never been and cats he’s never met. He goes from being non-verbal to talking *non-stop*, often cryptically and with little reason. At this point he speaks *beyond* his own past lives; he speaks about the lives of other cats as well. And it’s at that point where it’s realized that Deuteronomy’s life isn’t going to be an easy one - he won’t just be carrying on his own life; he’ll be carrying on the lives of hundreds - thousands - of others. Not only is he meant to lead the Tribe (and after the death or disappearance of his later siblings, the *only* one left to lead), he’s meant to keep their memories as well (an ill advised combo).  

Though a relatively wise, empathetic-to-a-fault, and even tempered child, and willing to attended his training dutifully, like most young cats, Deuteronomy doesn’t take all too kindly to the promise of responsibility at first - as he entered his maturation years, he began to act out. Along with his foster brother, Gus, he settled into his “devil may care,” “sowing his wild oats” era, not quite wanting to dwell on how heavy his life was about to become, flitting from cat to cat (that’s where the “buried 99 wives” rumour comes from - there are plenty of notches in the old tom’s belt and plenty of other kittens, much as most cats lives are wont to be), experience to experience, theoretically place to place (he never leaves entirely), longing to drift off and explore the world before inevitably being tied down to his responsibilities (knowing still that he did need to return to them and never thinking he never wanted to - he always did want to). They have their fun (to a just about alarming level), but those whispers and visions he has just don’t...stop. He can ignore them all he likes, but they just get louder and clearer and begin to teach him things that he couldn’t quite grasp before; things you cannot really *be* taught. His venturing outside of the Junkyard shows him the extent of things he never experienced. So, though he longs for a continued adolescence free of the burden of his gifts and responsibility, he quickly realizes that he cannot have one. He has too many cats depending on him - there are too many wrongs in the world that he can’t run from. His father is old - Maladeen has passed on - he is the only one left. So, though it’s not entirely what he wants, he returns to his family fully, hangs up his belt, and takes up his mantle.

For the first little while, things look up for Deuteronomy. He reunites with a queen from his past, meets another, they fall in love, they build their life together in spite of knowing that, ultimately, it will never be an easy one  (”Soave sia il vento” is a cry for the sea to be calm; much like a cry for life to be easy - though Mya, and Ginny - brain children of the always brilliant @theimpossiblescheme -​ know it might not be and Dee *knows* for certain it won’t be). Still, they are happy; they have their sons, Deuteronomy thinks on his mothers and passes their teachings on to them, and it seems perhaps he’s got a grasp on everything at last. 

But, as always, nothing good lasts for too long. Deuteronomy starts disassociating far more frequently - some nights it’s hard for him to recognize himself; understand where he begins and ends. He struggles to keep from turning inwards - as his father had as he struggled with his own underdeveloped psychic abilities - and it’s just as difficult for other cats to recognize him in tandem. It’s all just...too much. Too, too much. He feels like an exposed nerve all the time; everything hurts. Everyone’s feelings burn in his throat; all of their pain becomes his, and he just shoulders more and more with seemingly no end and it’s overwhelming.His cup runs over. He loves them too much - he cares *too much*. The only way he can quiet it down it to distance himself - try to be that unshakeable calm that his training demanded of him. It works. Kinda. The rest of the Junkyard notes this change. 

Things beyond his control start happening - defects and illnesses and power struggles and threats; and others within his control start slipping through as a result. He tries to hold onto everything but he’s only one cat. He loses his eldest son to the lure of powers beyond his understanding, Mya to her sympathetic heart, then Ginny to the Heaviside- almost in succession. At this point, Deuteronomy is at a loss; the pain of others mixes with his own - it doesn’t stop. It gets so bad, that it begins to run over through the cracks in his consciousness he is barely able to patch; being around Deuteronomy can just as easily be uncomfortable and emotionally painful as not. It’s a hard time for everyone. 

But one evening, at the pique of what seems like a never ending well of suffering, he sees something (whether it be a vision from the Everlasting Cat or her servants, he’s never been certain). He tells no one of what he sees (he takes that to his grave), but whatever it was, like a switch, it gives Deuteronomy this sudden, quiet feeling of...calm. It all falls into place; he is no longer struggling against his gift, he is working with it; he *understands* it, at long last. And with this new found sense of purpose, in spite of his loss, in spite of his grief, he continues on. 

Deuteronomy ages, becomes wiser, shares his wisdom with his family. Cats leave - cats come back - he gains a whole gaggle of in laws and grandkittens and grand nieces and nephews.  He teaches his family the importance of unconditional love; the act of forgiveness, both on oneself and towards others. Mya eventually returns to him; life has finally settled. But eventually things must come to an end; the great immortal - who was thought perhaps never to die - is a mere mortal after all. Deuteronomy’s final Ball is an entirely bittersweet affair and filled with lessons overlapping one another, the old cat hoping he’s passed everything he needed to onto his family. “The Prayer” is illustrative of a final duet with his dear Sillabub, who will take the mantle after him and has the honour of sending him up, passing on the final message he imparts his cats with. 

And he is sent off in the same way he was brought into the world - with a dramatic choir swell and then silence. 

[sunnydaleherald]

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[smags3d]

Here is a old DbD portrait that I made for the Postal Dude from POSTAL. This one was made in SFM about two or so years ago, so it doesn't reflect my current abilities. At the time of making this pic, I used my own model for it, but a fellow artist named Famix made a enhanced version of the model that is available to download here. https://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=2863540470

[markosep2001-blog]

[SFM] Postal Dude Talks About His Tuesday

I wanted to try HL2 lips syncing on Postal 4 Dude model by Famix since that model has enough expressions for that lips syncing. I also played with string and color which you can get by adding override materials and click model in showing model.

YouTube can't post this massapiece faster than my grandma

[thegaysonice]

to go romancing • eruri

finally some more light hearted songs for this ship cause we need it

1. Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy by Queen

2. Soldier, Poet, King by The Oh Hellos

3. A Love Like War by All Time Low 

4. Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy by Queen

5. Video Games - Remastered by Lana Del Rey

6. Me and My Husband by Mitski

7. I Will Wait by Mumford & Sons

8. Eyelids by Saro

9. I Think I Love You by The Partridge Family

10. Honeybee by Steam Powered Giraffe

+ much much more

listen here

[thewinterarcher]

Winter Soldier Playlist

I like to make fanmixes. And I like to force my fanmix opinions on others. As such, I will now be sharing them. These are constantly evolving. First off, we’re going with the Winter Soldier (not to be confused with Bucky Barnes, who has his own, much angstier, playlist.

Anyway, enjoy!

1. Every Breath You Take - Chase Holfelder

2. Come Closer - The Glitch Mob

3. Unexist - Black Sun Empire

4. Out of the Black - Royal Blood

5. Retribution - Blue Stahli

6. Becoming Harmonious (Nadastrom Remix) - The Glitch Mob

7. Into the Fray - Henry Jackman

8. Are You There - Black Sun Empire

9. Awaken - Blue Stahli

10. Invaders Must Die - The Prodigy

11. Broken Boy Soldier - The Raconteurs

12. Futureproof - Blue Stahli

13. Seven Nation Army - The White Stripes

14. Unusual Entities (Cryptex Reglitch) - The Digital Connection

15. Beside You - Marianas Trench

16. Come As You Are - Nirvana

17. today I woke to the rain of blood - Combichrist

18. Secret Agent Business - Blue Stahli

19. I Come With Knives - IAMX

[izumisays]

come as you are as you were *whistles* 

so i guess you already saw the lovely mix @defeateddetectives put together - and if you haven’t yet, then go give it a listen! it was my pleasure to draw for it, and now i’m just putting up the fullsize the cover picture and its simpler reverse twin, for the dubious pleasure of sharing fruits of my mad decision making skills with y’all

(your who looks better on top joke could have been here)

[wardens-oath]

a tavern of rats: a dishonored fanmix

for the empty pubs and taverns of a plague-ridden Dunwall, where nothing stirs except for the faint echoes of music

LISTEN HERE

[featheredrecall]

....You have no idea how tempted I am to make famixes for my ships with frien

[popkin16]

Do you know where I can reliably contact kaaatie from livejournal/dreamwidth? I would LOVE to listen to her McShep famixes, but they are unfortunately friend-locked, it seems. Thanks!

I don’t know anybody off the top of my head, so I’ll post this publicly to see if anyone responds.

I have a bunch of McShep fanmixes saved, but I’m not sure how comfortable I am sharing them without creator approval...

[badwolfh]

[polaris: a Liz famix]

"I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul" - William Ernest Henley.

8tracks // playmoss

[clowninvestigator]

changed my mind forgot how good some of these playlists are. just the right amount of pretentious that yt famixes could never have

[chiauve]

Watch me put “Karma Chameleon” by fucking Boy George on my Chris/Wesker famix.

Just watch me.

[magictavern]

hey, check out my playmoss for a ridiculous amount of hs famixes

[doge-w-a-bloge]

Ohhh vocaloid favs?

Fav whats? Favorite songs? artists? voicebanks?

I used to have a huge favorites folder of vocaloid videos – with an especial focus on non-crypton vocaloids – but then my computer died, and I’ve been struggling to build my vocaloid playlist back up on my new hard-drive.

Here’s some favorites I do have on hand, though:

Sect (producer Mah, vocaloid V1) is a pretty big favorite of mine. I love both the song itself, and the visuals of the video. I’ve considered putting it on Undertale famixes before…but I’ve never gotten around to making even one…

Alone (producerHurihuri, vocaloid SeeU) and Arirang (producer GaGain, vocaloid SeeU) are my two favorite SeeU songs.

Double Melody (producer Shopanya, vocaloid Lola) is technically just a cover of Double Lairiat, but I don’t care. I like Double Melody better. I wrote about my feelings about the song back in 2015, and then…earlier this year, in 2017, Shopanya submitted a response to me.

[theragingthespian]

can you recommend some nice supergirl blogs?

i dunno if you mean in a writing or reblogging way? i only follow like twenty but they’re the best so it’s okay. i don’t think i follow any supergirl only? so i’m just gonna list what i think againreblogs, flooding my dash with those good gifsets: @youngbloodbuzz (who also makes the best famixes!!), @randomthingsthatilike123, @queerbird, @capricious-windwrites, i have read everything they’ve written time and time again and then some: @tomas-abe, @forlornlyoptimisticreblogs and writes, amazing spectacular: @lynnearlington, @mooosicaldreamz, @proudlyunicorn, @karalovesallthegirls, @nationalcitykara, @jennyquill, @banrions, @ratherembarrassing, @c–and–b, @ifyouresure

arts:@bleachitwhite- who i love dearly and who’s been with me since the beginning of rare pair hell- and @comickergirl who makes the cutest danvers sisters art. i die. @plastic-pipes is doing the lords work out there crafting all these new suits for kara and giving us the lena/alex brotp we deserve

that’s a good majority of who i follow, i know i’m missing some though sorry. all these folks tho are wonderful, wonderful people who i would bear hug in a parking lot