#my literal dream couch

[silasea]

New couch finally got delivered 😍

[doe-prince]

Lately my dreams have been bloody

[lottieurl]

avoidant tendencies whispering sweet reassurances in my ear like "you'll just wing it" or "put it off. there's pleny of time"

[stabbingandorbeingstabbed]

not carrie bradshaws bisexual date in the gerard way 2002 bullets cowboy shirt !!!

[mewhenifreakit]

tumblr I've had a non-stop headache for 3 days, there's a big spider in my room and I am getting up early to go be a gay nerd n cosplay a video game lesbian

[curiosity-killed]

while i lie here melting, i am noodling on tcp edit things without actually. editing. so:

Contemplating the nature of calsir's relationship bc i've been struggling a bit with like. why DO they get together when, as callebero says, what he feels for sirion isn't really so different from what he feels for jisel (aside from the fact that i like them together and they're cute) and i THINK the thing is like

ultimately callebero wants so so so badly for the people he loves to want to stay. he belongs in ancelm, he belongs to arradine, he doesn't feel like he has a say in this (and in some pretty real ways, he hasn't had a say in it when he was named Alir's heir without his knowledge when he was literally a child) and part of him is always scared of trapping the people he loves with him and because of the nature of his station (ESPECIALLY by b3 when he's sort of. literally viewed as a god on earth), he can't ask people to stay and rlly feel like it's a totally fair, uncoerced answer so he just. doesn't ask.

and with sirion there's some extra uhhhh awkwardness considering Sirion is literally sworn to Callebero in service and Callebero like, pays his salary. basically.

which like! is partially resolved by the fact that sirion forfeits his position literally in b1 but i just had him get it back when they return which im now realizing is maybe not the answer both because a) him refusing the title makes callebero feel extra rejected (both because it's in his opinion the only thing he has to offer Sirion + because Sirion would presumably no longer live in the palace unless Callebero shuffled him into one of the empty family suites like he did with Jisel which. is a possibility i guess? Sirion's just over here thinking he's living a bewildering but lovely househusband life while Callebero is so so sad about everything), b) puts him in a position to be asked to stay (to an extent), and c) could potentially mirror the Fran/Anharad romance that sort of...set off the catastrophe and downfall of the Soko house

(ALSO like realistically...Sirion did get the position because of favoritism and while there are in-universe arguments to be made about his qualifications and deservedness, it is also like....he would have probably deserved the position in about 5 years but that doesn't mean he should have gotten it when he did)

(this is very much like when i was complaining about how much i didn't want to cut off callebero's arm and then talked myself into it)

but then i'm like! sirion is very much not actually househusband material this boy is a working dog type and if he doesn't have Activities and Responsibilities he will eat the drywall. so he needs SOmething to do and it has to be outside of the like. palace org structure

[andwewerehappy]

🥴

[taeyongruinedcitylights]

how the fuck do yall remember what u were doing at age 2-3 😭😭

[kuffy]

i can't share last nights dream with my friend who i share literally every dream i have bc it was a dream of us kissing 😳

[makedamnsvre]

there are things abt me that i dont talk about not because im being secretive i either just forget to mention it or think no one wants to hear about it but i think it gives like important context to whats wrong with me 💖

[mugoki]

MLQC fandom on FB: You guys 📢 Victors new ASMR "Return at Night" is JUICY AS HELL !!! Yes it's a new VA but you HAVE to listen to it 'cause you're seriously missing out!

Me: pshh.. what's juicer than the older ones where he is washing your hair, or serving you tea all cutesy? i doubt it, let me listen...

Victor: *MOANS*

Me:

[always-aqua]

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[quarklynx]

Apparently I've woken up at 6 am on accident? Completely unplanned, no alarms or anything, what the fuck.

[witchblade]

i took such an awful agonizing nap the entire time i dreamt i was dying

[thornedswan]

Sometimes...dreams give me...such strange things...

[milo-is-rambling]

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