#negativity for ts

[screechthemighty]

I am only just now seeing "Consulting Producer: Brian Michael Bendis" and wow, that explains some of the bad vibes

[lestappenwdc]

Max lost the championship today and I need time to process.

I hate it when I'm the one to bring down the room with my pessimism (I call it realism) but this is the day that Max lost the championship. I see everyone being hopeful that Lando will bottle, that the McLaren is illegal (it's probably not, let's be real they would have caught it by now), that Piastri will divebomb and so on, but one thing is certain - that Red Bull is not getting any faster in the next few races. Even all those things mentioned above, we're looking at p1/2s vs p7/8s for the rest of the season. This is now 2 very different tracks in a row that the McLaren is miles ahead of the Red Bull. It's over. My pessimism is not only based on Monza. It's based on the fact that it's not even close. That it's not even in Max's hands. I just wish it was taken by someone other than Lando Norris. I wish.

[merrilark]

being a people pleaser and learning that another person's feelings aren't always your responsibility to "fix" or "soothe" is very hard.

but unfortunately necessary. :/

[beanarie]

me on august 26, 2019: years from now, decades even, whenever the name joan watson is uttered, someone will pipe up “IT WAS SO IMPORTANT THAT SHE NEVER FUCKED HER SHERLOCK”

me on april 15, 2025, seeing multiple reblogs of a post with 11.6k notes that says exactly fucking that:

[rogue-bard]

I loved Doctor Who (at least until it transitioned into a Stephen-Moffat-jerks-himself-off show) but this encapsulates my gripe with it so much.

[saawek]

Twt is exhausting for real

- 16yo does a bullshit callout thread against a public person (calling them things that are diffamatory, wrong, and without proofs)

- Public person qrt saying "lol whatever"

- 16yo cries that ppl want them dead or idk

Idk for you man, but back in my days we used to say don't dish out if you can't take it. And better to learn early the weight of your actions and words I guess

[dyed-red]

okay very short mini rant time but -

not having emotions isn’t a thing. or at the very very least, it’s not a thing for soulless!sam. the writers hand-waved “soulless doesn’t feel” but that makes no sense and they’re wrong and it falls apart if we so much as poke it with a twig, let alone a proper stick.

emotions are information that act as input into decision-making. the very limited cases of human beings lacking the ability to feel fear or any other particular emotion, or lacking emotional input into their decisions? yeah, it’s not good. either wander into danger they can’t handle because there is no input into the decision-making process that says No, Don’t Do That, or at the extreme end, they can’t make decisions because they have no insight into what they might prefer or want or desire, or even not prefer or not want or not desire, so each minor choice is paralyzing because the part of the brain dedicated to do the choosing doesn’t exist.

if soulless really didn’t have emotions, he wouldn’t be doing much at all.

you can say “he’s making choices based on physiological stimulus” and that desire (like a desire for sex, or a desire to get a hunt completed and kill the monster) isn’t a feeling, but i promise you that it is, and that we can’t fully or truly disentangle physiology from emotion either.

in fact soulless!sam seems to have no issue whatsoever experiencing positive emotions like desire, enjoyment, contentment, satisfaction, pride, etc. He seems capable of vexation and irritation too. We don’t really see him angry in the same way sam would be, but he does sort of go into a violent rage and beat someone with his bare fists in a flashback, right? i promise that without emotion, exerting that kind of energy on a task just... wouldn’t happen. because you’re incapable of caring about the outcome of the task, no matter how ‘rational’ or ‘logical’ that outcome may seem (because what’s rational and logical depend on what we care about and what goals we have selected, which again, occurs in the context of having emotions to guide us toward what those desired end states might look like).

soulless!sam seems, as far as i can tell, to lack two things: 1) the ability to experience bonds with others, and 2) the ability to intuit or experience conscious insight into his own emotions.

on the first, his lack of connection to dean despite understanding he prefers to have him around, his willingness to kill bobby, his complete and utter lack of care for lisa and ben despite knowing on some level that he should care about them, or would if he were his usual self, even if only as an extension of who and what dean cares about. soulless just... doesn’t experience that deeply human need for social connection nor the automatic way it manifests nor any bonding toward others. some failure of oxytocin going on there (the soul is stored in the oxytocin receptor site?).

on the second, sam doesn’t know what he’s feeling when he hasn’t got a soul. he equates that with not really feeling anything, or at least that what we’re told as shorthand pretty quickly, because what he actually says when asked what he’s feeling is “i don’t know”. because - he doesn’t. but that doesn’t mean he’s not actually feeling anything, it means he has no conscious insight into it.

his feelings are just feelings to him, just information. they are understood in terms of how they impact his end state aims (i want to finish this hunt, i want to have sex with this hippie chick, i don’t want to put up with this fairy lady, i don’t want to suffer by having my soul put back in) but are not understood in and of themselves (i don’t know if i feel angry or sad or happy in response to setbacks or steps forward toward these desired ends. at most i know i experience a sense of satisfaction when my aims are accomplished, but this is understood mostly through checking that aim off the list and being able to direct my attention and resources toward new goals. i don’t know why i do this, i just do).

the lack of bonding means he doesn’t feel interpersonal guilt or remorse for hurt and harm he has caused, nor a sense of loss or grief based on his connections (or lack thereof) with others, nor an anticipatory sense of guilt, remorse, grief, or regret at pursuing interpersonal harm, so long as the harm is deemed as needed or even just helpful in furthering one of his desired end goals. this increases our perception that he doesn’t have feelings at all, when what he’s really missing are mostly a subset of social emotions, and that’s not even unique to soulless people! (and look, i don’t want to go down the rabbit hole of how fucked up i think it is that the writers, intentionally or not (but i suspect intentionally) more or less equated sam’s soullessness with some clinical features of psychopathy.)

anyway that’s more or less my rant. the concept of soullessness and how it manifests bothers the shit out of me, the explanations for it in-universe are misleading (though understandable in-universe even if i’d expect cas to provide a clearer explanation tbh), soulless!sam feels a lot, and i still haven’t managed to do a proper/full s6 rewatch as a result of my vexation.

[fieldsofbone]

the phd is literally the hardest thing i’ve ever had to do and lately i feel so defeated. i have a dissertation idea and i’m having weekly meetings about my prospectus (basically a 10-20 page outline of your dissertation that you have to defend before advancing to candidacy) with one of my advisors, but he’s limited in how much he can help because he isn’t an expert in the literature like my other advisor / mentor (ben) is, but ben is super hands off so i have to ask every time i need help rather than him checking in with me (even semi-regularly!) and asking what i need. he’s super helpful when i do reach out but when i’m constantly the one who has to do so i end up minimizing it to myself or thinking that i don’t actually need his help and i can figure it out myself which i can’t! because i’ve never done this before!

and whatever maybe someone would see that as an exercise in learning to advocate for myself, but it’s frustrating when i’ve literally had to fight for myself since i got here. i had to fight to take up space and be heard in classes and to be respected by my peers and professors and to be fucking believed about being assaulted and to be given time off when i had to recover from the trauma and to be employed when the department fucked it up etc. etc. and then i see this other friend who defended her diss and earned her phd the other day and she’s engaged and beautiful and smart and that feels so far off and impossible for me when i’m still in these early stages of the process. and i know it’s a marathon and it ebbs and flows but right now i just feel super demoralized and sad

[screechthemighty]

Reducing Matt's very complex issues with trauma and abuse and mental illness and how they intertwine with his religious beliefs (and how all four of those things are often poorly misrepresented by bad writing that's been getting worse by the season) down to "lol Catholic guilt" gets you blocked by default. If you even care.

[lestappenwdc]

Im not too fond of some wags either but am I the only one who thinks creating accounts and discussing other people's relationships like they are your own is kinda creepy.

Like making an entire timeline and writing an entire fanfic in your head about how a situation developed and just presuming how each of the "people involved" felt? Idk it gives me a weird uneasy feeling.

I think sometimes we should remember we're discussing real people here and not characters in a TV show. How the drivers do or act, and their facial expression on a photo does not answer questions about the plot twist later on, or about what the characters are feeling deep down. These are people living their lives and you're invading their privacy by pretending to know exactly how they feel about something when even they probably don't know 100%.

Especially if we're talking about it like we have some right to speak on their feelings and explaining those feelings like they are our own. Idk it bothers me and im probably gonna get blocked but I had to say it.

[merrilark]

I feel like such a Debbie Downer when I see the majority going head over heels for certain romances in shows, and then there's me who really dislikes it and can't see the brilliant writing everyone else is seeing skgslkgs

Like. For Doctor Who, I look at Doctor/River and Doctor/Rogue, even the teasing we had with Doctor/Amy, and I just... I can't see the depth or intrigue there. They all feel shallow to me. Same with The Umbrella Academy and Diego/Lila or Klaus/Dave. People are nuts for those ships and I always feel like the show suffers for them because they're either not believable, have too little substance, or they have glaring issues that get brushed aside and treated as romantic.

I'm aware these might just not be my cup of tea, but sometimes I can't tell if the writing actually is bad and my thoughts about it are valid, or if I've just turned into a grouchy sourpuss who can't be satisfied.

Sometimes worried it's the latter LOL.

[spockasmr]

do they literally only ever ask you for a routine blood test 2 days after you have a horrific relapse or something. help lol

[rogue-bard]

The only Aziraphale hate I see is when people complain about alleged Aziraphale hate. And it makes me just as miffed as seeing actual hate, so kindly stop tagging that shit or tag it with "negativity for ts" or something

[heirceleste]

feeling insecure about reaching out for plotting after recent events. but will be in a car for most of my day if anyone does want to plot.

[jo2ukes]

man. im soooo tired of ppl hating on g // ale but also esp like. when they're doing it, they're blatantly showing off that they don't understand basic bee gee three canon. it's all just wild mischaracterization and shit they made up.

[pinkpunkdotpng]

happy easter or something