#never stop the madness ja kohta vedetään taas

[violasmirabiles]

lipsahti

[catfur-and-greenscales]

[lennisti]

Update as promised

I have been sober for a week or so! But there is also the bad news;

I have been hallucinating every day, it started when i smoked some weed without taking my antipsychotics first... I was in a mental hospital for 3-4 days, and there they gave me some sedatives and haloperidol, they've helped. Soon i'm going to run out of sedatives, they only gave 3 of them with me... but. Back to the good news

We have been over 2 weeks without hard drugs!! Sooo proud of myself and my darling. <3

Also, i'm feeling the positive effects of being sober, and spring feels a lot more beautiful when im not high all the time🍁❤️🌷I feel like myself again. I can feel my feelings :)

Tomorrow is 4/20, but this year, it's going to be one without drugs. I'm quite happy actually 😍

Thank you @asiantuntija and @hidasnistiswaga for supporting me! We can do this, we have gotten this far, it's getting easier every day. The only way is UP!

[haahka]

i check käärijäs insta maybe like once every 2 weeks for funsies and each time. theres something. what is that repost of a tiktok fanvid of himself and other selected individuals set to grindr mayhem jere can u pls not not.

[allergekko]

en kommentoi

[johnnyporko]

got a ticket to the möysä gig 🥰 not sure i can even make it there but got a ticket anyway

[unlimitedhorsepower]

It's like day 3 of not being able to draw bc I'm not at my PC and I feel like I'm going to finish writing one of my fanfics or something else crazy. AND I'm making text posts on tumblr smfh

[wayfarersblog]

What the fuck is happening in here :D

I just accidentally logged in with my old account name and password, and what you know, it’s all back in here. No notification from Tumblr staff or anything. I love and hate this fucking hellsite equally.

I could have done without the extra stress, though.

[arctixout]

Jessus fucking Christ on a cross what a first night. The new songs slap. Plastika is the best live song they have. My soul accended and my body feels like it's ready to be put in a grave. Was happy to spy some familiar people from here despite me being undercover 🤭 anyway never stop the madness ja kohta vedetään taas

Oh yeah and Kris' pants. Sure were tailored to fit. I had to make myself actively look away. Bro.

[drugsforaddicts]

Sunny side of London is full of are you's

Jere wore his are you bracelet in the mv

⫷ °⧭° ⫸

RIGHT??? Never stop the twinning madness ja kohta vedetään taas!! *honks my clown nose*

[violasmirabiles]

fucking Hate how i can never start anything on time ive a deadline tomorrow by which im . supposed to have written like 8k ish words. masters thesis theory section, THE part i hate writing the most. (i am not going to be able to turn in Anything tomorrow even if i work on it all day. luckily i know mr professor man probably wont be able to read it and Definitely wont be able to discuss it with me till like january. do want to be done with this by christmas though i hate that this alwaysssssss happens) like. i know What im going to write, i know all the things i need to include. i have pretty good sources. its like. the Finished Product is like this polished gem thats rotating in the center of my brain. but theres a ton of crap between me and the finished product and i have to pour all that crap into 28523804 draft files before i reach the stuff i REALLY want to say. a million tangents that go nowhere. soooo many instances of im totally blanking on one (1) word of this sentence so i cannot form it At All so i cannot continue working on this because no. fucking hell. i KNOW this is an issue. the PROFESSOR knows this is an issue. he also knows damn well i wasnt going to be able to do anything last week (thats why the deadline is tomorrow instead of last friday - i had choir stuff every day from monday to friday). fucking hell. mentally bonking myself on the head with a cardboard tube. repeatedly. also earlier this week at a peer support group (theres four of us and all have adhd and/or are autistic) we talked about this exact fucking thingggggg

today i somehow created six (6) separate draft files when i was trying to like. convey one (1) idea. every single one of those files looks like i just threw up over the keyboard. really truly fucking hope that when i wake up tomorrow i have a Thought in my brain that i can Word so i can. get this thing to work. cos i know its In there. theres just. so much fucking shit separating it from whatevers floating on the surface. 

also this posts just the equivalent of screaming into the void cos if i dont Let This Out i wont fucking sleep cos ill be Thinking about it. sighs for a thousand years

[vvampirebat]

never stop the madness ja kohta vedetään taas

[lennisti]

Jes kohta q🥰🥰🥰🥴

[frikatilhi]

UMK tickets aquired! Never stop the madness ja kohta vedetään taas!

[asiantuntija]

oon keskittyny koulussa vittuna kertoja. ainaki neljä

[sitruunainen]

The whole tumblr vs twitter discourse is so absurd to me because I use them both quite equally and for different purposes 😌 tumblr is about 99% reblogs and 1% personal posts, twitter is my personal daily diary that I decorate with retweets