one little situation I'd love to see would be nothing really happening between Buck & Eddie through the bachelor party sequence, sure handsy as what we've seen in promos, but that can be platonic affection.
BUT after the wedding, Buck is in bed going through the camera roll on his phone from the night before. random blurry photos, videos of karaoke, towards the end they're doing little video shout outs to Maddie and Chimney.
the night goes later and later until it's only Buck and Eddie left. at the end of a recording, Buck says he has to go to the bathroom & hands Eddie the phone. they're both drunk as all get out, so Eddie says something to the bride and groom, but once Buck shuts the door Eddie then hits the stop and start button, starting a new video.
Buck swipes to the next one.
"Buck, this one is for you, you handsome man. you are my best friend, my partner in crime, and I'm so proud of you for coming out. I love you man."
and Eddie keeps rambling, singing praises, referencing key events in their friendship, how much Christopher loves him, and then says way too casually, "seriously Buck, I'm so in love with you."
then Eddie's face drops, because he said not just I love you in a friend way but I'm so in love with you. committed. romantic.
"gotta delete that one," Eddie says looking obviously flustered.
But then Buck re-enters the room, yelling in jubilation "Eddieeeeeeee!". Buck slams down next to him on the hotel couch, his body weight causing Eddie to shift against him, and Eddie has the faintest smile, as if just their shoulders brushing causes him to blush.
Eddie hits the end record button, and the video stops. he forgot to delete it.
and then there is Buck, just staring at his phone, what the fuck? was that some drunken pointless rant, or did his best friend just admit he's in love with him?
Tommy steps into the room from the bathroom, shirtless looking sexy as hell, but Buck's guts twist. not from the beautiful man in front of him though, but being told he's loved by someone who he never knew could love him like that.
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thinking about "you have a life" / "i don't know what i have" + "what do you want, dana?" / "i want everything that i should want at this time of my life" + the perceived shame in scully's loss of normalcy... "unlike you, mulder, i would like to have a life" + "do you believe in the afterlife?" / "i'd settle for a life in this one" + "don't you ever want to just stop? get out of the damn car? settle down and live something approaching a normal life?"
her friend ellen saying, "well, first you have to get a life." tara, pregnant with their christmas gift, saying that life before one grew inside her was "somehow...less, just a prelude," while barren dana cries in the kitchen. "i know you and dad were...disappointed...that i chose the path that i'm on."
thinking about how mulder said, "this is a normal life," and how she smiled. (he doesn't know any different). how, in the end, he said, "hey, scully? i know it's not your normal life, but thanks for coming out there with me."
(christmas before quantico, "i guess i'm afraid of making a big mistake. dad thinks i am." and missy's response: "it's not his life, dana.")
her application to adopt emily was rejected: "you're a single woman who's never been married or had a long-term relationship. you're in a high stress, time intensive, and dangerous occupation."
bill's reaction: "sounds like something your partner would say. this isn't about any little girl, dana. this is about you. it's about some...void, some emptiness inside you that you're trying to fill."
and mulder to the judge: "the fact that she can adopt this child, her own flesh and blood, is something i don't feel i have the right to question, and i don't believe anyone has the right to stand in the way of."
(that last christmas with missy before everything: "there is no right or wrong. life is just a path...just don't mistake the path for what is really important in life. the people you're going to meet along the way. you don't know who you're going to meet when you join the FBI. you don't know how your life is going to change, or how you're going to change the life of others.")
and ultimately, it all leads to a leather couch. and after contemplating that sacrifice of normalcy, what she should want, the decisions she could have made, she says, "i once considered spending my whole life with this man...what i would have missed."
she could've been a doctor, like her father wanted. she could've settled down, married waterston, had a normal life, like her friends and brother wanted. but what would she have missed?
"what if there was only one choice and all the other ones were wrong?" / "and all the...choices would then lead to this very moment. one wrong turn, and...we wouldn't be sitting here together."
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Shaking your hand and kissing you with tongue or whatever. God your so fucking right about it. It really does seem like some people see trans men and just go "oh! Here's a way I can have my piv straight missionary sex so my fic can have mpreg babies without having to write abo!" And it just seems so fetishy? If that's the right word. Like the possibility that there are trans men A: who have cocks or B: don't desire to use their vagina even IF they haven't had bottom surgery for whatever reason never seems to cross their minds! All trans men seem to boil down to in popular fandom is a vagina that a cis man's penis can go into. And Jesus there seems to be a hardcore demonization of bottom surgery in both fandom spaces and in online LGBT spaces in general. People salivate of scars like facial ones or even top surgery ones (the weird fetishization of top surgery scars is a whole nother thing...) but think that bottom surgery ones are disgusting?? It really just shows the true face of these people. I've heard people (even trans people!) express their disgust at phallo/meta/vaginectomy because trans boys (only ever referred to as boys) are only hot because they're "natural cuntboys made for bottoming". And it's not like this sentiment isn't harmful either! It can pressure people who would like to get bottom surgery away from it! It's especially egregious if you request a fic or something with a transman in it because 99.9% of the time people include a trans man with no bottom surgery, a fully functioning vagina and no bottom dysphoria. Not that there aren't trans men who use/want to retain their vagina but it really says something about fandom spaces that there's a conspicuous absence of trans men with bottom surgery in fic especially porn fic. I'm sorry this is long but your comment/tags struck a chord with me. Good on Ghost for getting phallo. What's the point of being on a special task force if you can't make the military pay for your surgeries?
this is a very specific conversation i end up having a lot. fetishisation is a whole Thing but ultimately it feels extremely narrow-minded to only ever present trans men as the bottoms (typically submissive as well, very rarely the doms but even then it’s dombottom. which. fucking fine i guess). it’s this idea that if you have a vagina then clearly you should only be using that thing one way, right? i just like. how did we bring bioessentialism into this. in the extraordinarily rare chance you find a t4t fic it ALSO somehow turns into reskinned straight sex but the guy with the strap is the “real” man. why are we doing this. is there anybody out there. can anyone hear me.
it’s also aggravating that there’s some shit like forcefemming that you hardly ever see for cis men but for trans men the ratios are off the charts. and like. hey, if it’s trans people writing it, i’m not judging how you get your rocks off. but considering how often it’s cis people writing it, it does slip into some territory that has me grimacing at my phone more often than not. i believe in respecting people’s kinks and fetishes but there is so fucking little variety it’s like the perception of trans men in these fandom spaces (EVEN LARGELY POPULATED BY TRANS MEN) is for the trans men to be the smaller, weaker, “passive” partners in these relationships. every time i get excited to see a fic where there’s a polycule with one character being trans somehow it always ends up with the trans guy as the like. ultimate bottom. why are we doing this, guys.
if i get into how trans women are treated by fandom i’ll start throwing things. “man in a skirt” jokes aren’t fucking funny 👍 stop.
but anyway.
fandom homophobia, transphobia, bigotry in general, is something that’s been drilled into the goddamn earth but it really doesn’t matter how loud you shout because you know some people will never listen anyway. it’s insane to me that shit like “the tall one is the bottom” can be seen as a trope inversion. “the bigger one is the bottom.” “the stronger one is the bottom.” have none of you ever talked to bears that are queens. have none of you talked to trans men that are tops. trans men can have dicks. trans women can have vaginas. the inverse can be true and it does not matter. jesus christ, what was the point of dismantling the gender binary, again? fucking hell.
sorry if this is becoming a long, circuitous ramble. the way trans characters are written usually drives me up the wall. trying to discuss what transgenderism would even mean for that character is inconcievable. i know part of fandom is for escapism, but it shouldn’t JUST be for escapism. and also please start treating trans characters like characters, not walking genatilia. please.
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Jeez Az...it was just a joke...I'm sorry. Also. I did not dare you to pick any flowers. That was someone else. *this chara looks a bit hurt but you can tell from the look on their face that they know they deserve it. They sigh and leave*
Frisk sighs sadly and Flowey resists the guilty feeling that's attempting to bother him, Chara leaves before he can get a chance to speak and explain himself anyway.
Before Flowey gets a chance to get mad, he gets very distracted by Frisk's reaction, finally noticing the golden flower on Frisk's head.
Frisk grins and laughs nervously: "Oh?! Was I?! I guess I was just a bit flustered and embarrassed by the teasing! Not to mention Flowey was yelling very aggressively! I'd say blushing is a completely normal reaction!"
Flowey finally remembers himself and gets mad again.
Flowey: "Frisk is right! And I have you know that I was going deny it, I just had to lecture you nosy fools first! Nothing is going on and no one has any romantic feelings!"
Frisk: "Yeah! Nothing! We're majorly and exclusively PLATONIC BEST FRIENDS!"
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