#not gonna put them all sory just who i mentioned

[one-strugling-bean]

I Finished the 1st disc of Homestuck!!!

Wohoooo, aleluiaaaaa

Points of note thus far:

Im surprised to realize that I think I can more or less comprehend what's going on

Dave and Rose have such sibling energy its ridiculous. I kinda wanna do an analysis on them, but dunno if i have the patience (that vent about Vriska reeeeeally tired me out)

Jade is such a sweetheart but she's a little far away from the rest of the plot i feel. Im gussing she'll get more involved in it during act 6

Out of the trolls, Tavros is still my favorite, and he deserved better than getting killed, decapitated, and smooched on post mortem (assuming I am correct in assuming Gamzee was kissing Tavros' head when he was texting Dave about Lil Cal)

Also, is it canon that Gamzee liked Tavros?? As in, being flushed for him. Because it's never stated explicitly, but it seemed pretty hinted at. Makes me wonder what would've happened if he was still chill(?) when Vriska killed Tavros - how he would've reacted.

The murder of the trolls confused me so freaking much. I'm still not sure how serious i should take those deaths. Are they gonna come back?? No?? Idkkkkkkkkk, and it's ennerving me so muuuuuuch

Ah btw - i still don't know what is the deal with that freaking puppet, but he creeps me out. So much.

Extra point just to mention: Kanaya is such a badass, my god. When she came back from the dead as a vampire just to kill Eridan and throw off Gamzee i knew she was the one. Never been prouder of my sign B>

Terezi surprised me in how much I grew to like her in this 2nd half of Act 5.she really grew on me. From her stupid chats with Dave, to everything about her rivalry with Vriska - she's amazing!

The cold blooded deaths of the guardians (Mom, dad, bro) surprised me so much. Though ig not being able to reunite with their kids before dying had to happen. Just to sprinkle that exyra little angst

Rose is such an anime character, i cant even explain why exactly, just *widly jesticulates at her*- John is too, tho. So is Dave and maaaaaybe Jade. But like, they would each belong in different anime, ya know?

Karkat is so harmless, man. Like, he just is. He starts yelling and saying he'll throw me out the window and i just giggle and pat him on the head. That kind of harmless. I think im starting to understand why everyone loves him so much, but I still prefer other trolls

Ik im still missing the other set of kids, which will appear now (Beta kids, i think) and im curious to see how that'll play out

Welp.

Now I just gotta get through the monstrosity that is act 6 :')))

Wish me luck

[nothorses]

Oh god, thank you, like if we did assume anon comes from a good place we understand where anon comes from but also like...yea nothings going to help if we don't like, Have A Replacement and you definitely know more than us about this one.

If it's alright to ask: we're wondering if you have any sort of knowledge that could be passed onto us (and others in a situation like ours) to mitigate that?

For more specific context, people definitely sing their praises to IEPs a lot and we saw someone mention them somewhere, but we have very unfortunately been on the end of it where it has been used as a vehicle for oppression and ableism anyways (WE PROMISE those twitter threads will be moved here to Tumblr we just haven't done it yet sory sksksk), because we had abusive parents who were "only" emotionally abusive if that makes sense.

We understand IEPs are helpful to lots of folks but it can be isolating as all fuck when praise is all people do rather than look at some of the tiny nuances or the ways people use it to keep the status quo instead of helping folks. Like how it was used as an extension of Autistic conversion "therapy" / applied behavioral analysis "therapy" when we had to put up with it.

Nutshell/TLDR: how do people use what they have learned to improve education when they didn't really. Learn anything. And how to bring attention to some of the things that nobody wants to talk about without sounding like we're being dismissive. We're so burnt out here when it comes to discussing any education system before university. Please share your wisdom (but only if you want to)!

I am not like, The Expert here, but I will offer some thoughts! Just take them with a grain of salt; I don't know everything, and I could always be missing things.

I will say that IEPs/504 plans are of particular interest to me right now, and imo, the problem is pretty broad and pretty deep.

My own personal context is that my brother was diagnosed with ADHD before even starting school, was put in SpEd early on, and had some pretty traumatic experiences because of that (we picked him up from school once to find him in an isolation room- a closet with one bulletproof window in the door carpeted floor-to-ceiling- because he had acted out in class. In first grade). He believed wholeheartedly that he was incapable of controlling himself, and he developed extremely low self-esteem. I don't know if no diagnosis would have been any better for him, but his diagnosis and "accommodations" (iirc he had an IEP) actively did him harm.

I, on the other hand, was not diagnosed with ADHD until I was 22, and I had to go out and do it myself. I had struggled with school my whole life, I had been in shouting matches with my mom about it, I have trauma about it, and I developed a different kind of low self-esteem around being told I was "choosing" to fail. Once I was medicated, my grades suddenly shot up, my GPA shot up, and I got into a pretty damn good grad school about it. I'm left wondering how things might have been different for me if I'd been understood as someone who was trying but struggling, and who needed support, rather than someone who was not trying at all.

I also don't think it's reasonable to expect that every disabled kid is going to be identified by the system, which is what most teachers seem to think is the issue: that they aren't good enough at armchair diagnosing 6-year-olds yet. It's just not gonna happen. Someone will be missed, and they shouldn't have to struggle alone because nobody else realized what they were struggling with.

Imo, what we need to be pushing for most urgently is universal accommodations, available without any need for diagnosis, disclosure, or anything else: Buckets of fidgets kids can grab whenever, alternative seating options, built-in breaks and frequent snacks, no penalties for late work/tardiness/absences, no graded tests, etc. (I would also like to see more project-based learning & growth-oriented grading, personally!)

As far as learning more: I can recommend some readings to start, and I'll link them here. They're also pretty dense; the grad school recommendation is to read the intro and conclusion in full, and just read the first and last sentence of every paragraph aside from that.

Here's the big folder (which I need to update) of all of the education-related readings I have ever been assigned. I recommend specifically searching "disability" and "democratic"/"democracy"; those will probably be the most relevant to what you're interested in.

Some good starting points:

Leonardo, Broderick (2011) - Smartness as Property: A Critical Exploration of Intersections Between Whiteness and Disability Studies

Carolen, Guinn (2007) - Differentiation: Lessons from Master Teachers

Alverman (2001) - Reading Adolescents' Reading Identities: Looking Back to See Ahead

Veletsianos, Houlden (2020) - Radical Flexibility and Relationality as Responses to Education in Times of Crisis

[seven-stars-in-his-palm]

august help rat and i are going absolutely feral over running minds au . i didnt even know anything abt fnaf before this but i have been CONVERTED homestly . i need to ficify it so bad . God . oh right thats why im here i was wondering if you have like any writing tips ?? because i have Zero Clue what im doing and you are By Far the best writer out of everyone i know Shoves microphone in your face whats your advice to someone who has like never written ever . actually i have an unrelated actually pretty decent quarter-ish of a fanfic sitting in my notes app but i barely remember how i Did That so it doesn't count i dont remember what wizardry i performed to materialize all those Words

OKAY OKAY OKAY ive figured it alllll out. its honestly not much but it's My process. LETS A GO

august's shitass guide to all things fanfiction and planning (which is near nonexistant!) 🔥

i will be using my current nano project for this because honestly this is the epitamy of writing i have right now and i love talkin about it. sooooo GOOOO

1: Bare Basics

the tagline. the who when what where why. why are u writing this fanfic. for me its the Talking: i want my angel and demon to talk about Feelings, so im gonna make them talk about FEELINGS. this is personal fulfillment. it might take a while to get there, but i want them to TALK. for you, i suppose would be for ford and michael to meet and go on whimscal adventures. basics!

2: How To Get There

so how are we making aziraphale and crowley talk. how are we getting ford and michael afton smushed together in the multiverse. you, of course, have told me how that works. now is it important enought to flesh that out before the rest or just needs to be explained in a quick flashback? your pick, but since my topic is so vague, i definitely need context before it. that, my friend, is up to you. nothing much more to it. if u dont know how to start a fic, just explain how we got to what's intriguing about it (the crossover :))

3: Notes.

now is where the process BEGINS. what happens in the story. i usually start with miscellanous bullet points--everything i want to happen, no matter the order it'll happen, in a little page. here's a picture of one of my pages ib my notebook, with things i want to happen in my titanic fic (handwriting reveal?!??!) (TEA, IF UR READING THIS SOMEHOW, DONT LOOK AT THE IMAGES🫵🫵🫵) (SORY FOR HURRIED SCRIBLES, I WAS TRYNA REMEMBER IT ALL)

there's literally no order. just stuff that need to be there, there. even if its as simple as the au coming to fruition, or even just one conversation, PUT IT THERE. its all the appeal. what you're doing this for. dontforget....

4: Outlines

now, before i tell you how to do this, there really isn't a way. here's a picture of my timeline for the fic mentioned earlier (not the titanic fic) (TEA AND OTHER READERS OF THE SERIES, ALSO DO NOT LOOK TYYYY ❤️❤️)

see? complicated as fuck. it doesnt have to be that way tho, obviously: each chapter or one shot could be as simple as "michael is fucking ZAPPED, and meets ford" it just has to be something to work with. (i, on the other hand, need extensive help. so. there's the thing above. theres eve more its just online)

there really isn't too much other than that in the planning department. understand why you're doing it, know how to get there, and PLAN. detail it out. idk if this is an adequet explanation actually. if u need more specifics i can try again, but is what i got. do what works for you, work at ur pace, and such like. it doesnt have to be at this level, or even close. have fucking fun, dude. if u need morehelp, pls ask, or even consult blogs that help out specifcally for that stuff. GOOD LUCK!!!!! <3

[legobatjoker]

omg ok very sory 2 complain abt like. ppl badly interpreting tswift songs (not in a realteing 2 taylors personal life way i like. do not give a shit abt tht lol) nd ofc songs nd music r like a lot more personal than like show or amth so ofc ppls personal expreince will relate more 2 how they interprate the song nd how they relate 2 it but like this has been bugging me 4 agess basically the other day i saw someone say that "afterglow has the same theme/meaning as daylight just less obvious" and like. litreally wtf does that mean likee. even as someone w their own personal interpretation or way or relating 2 daylight like beyond tthe personal aspect of my interpretation daylight is v clearly a song abt like. finding someone who genuinly loved u despite past relationships or ways tht either of u have messed up in the past nd afterglow is a song abt apologising after messinf up nd hurting the other person nd not wanting 2 loose them bc of it (stolkhome angst song btw. like not tht much but like kinda like. yea <3) like afterglow nd daylight r very different songs like i feel like if i was gonna compare daylight 2 a dif tswift song it wld prob cowboy like me nd like def not afterglow i do not know what tht person meant by that its so weird... i remember seeing a dif postalso abt atw the other day that also rly annoyed me but i am NOT going 2 get into that now oohh boy (i prob will some other day tho bc it rly annoyed me holyy shit)

oaky i lied im gonna get itno the bad atw post its so fucking annyoing sorry 4 complaining sm abt bad tswift song intepritations but oohh my god way so like. the psot (it wasnt even j an atw t like barely mentioned it but the way it did pised me of smm) basically said smth like "atw isnt "you damaged and fucked up me deeply" its "i dont know you anymore but i hknow all these things about you that i dont need too"" and like. ohh my fucking god it litreally checked i went all the way to check !! when the op possted it bc i thought the person putting this on my dash is j ignoring this inaccurate line bc they agree w the point of the genral post nd the og post is from pre ten mins atw nd theyre j talking abt the shorter version but no the og post was from !!! fucking de cem ber of last year !!!!! like mayb 2 give them the benifit of the doubt they cld have j been talking abt the shorter version but like no one consideres that 2 b the actual atw after the ten min version so seeing as they didnt specify i doubt they were and j !! thats suchh a like. bonkers thing to say like. yes atw is a song abt being deeply damaged and hurt by someone actualy wtf r u talking abt !!! like ig techinically its not entirly bc it does sometimes talk abt the good part in the relationship but thats only bc its talking abt how remembering both how the reationship damaged you and the few good part are painful bc of how much they hurt you likee. omg thats such a stupid thing 2 say like sorry 4 getting so worked up abt this but its j so dumb omg -__-

ok i actually hadnt heard afterglow and daylight befoee this ask so i j lostened to them and first of all ur 100% right ofc.. and second of all rlly into daylight now currently….. ALSO uhhh yeah whattt was that atw post on… like yeah its ab knowing a lot ab someone who damaged u deeply and holding those good and bad memories and j remembering. so much. but its also like?? very much ab that person damaging u and ab being fucked up in a relationship??? yeah mann

[unabashedrebel]

Top 10 Characters

In no particular order

1) Lara Croft (Tomb Raider) Can I just say that I love how the reboots, both the movie and the new trilogy of games were phenomenal as a long time fan of this character? They did her right. They focused on her origins, how she came to be this mythic Tomb Raider who delves into the greatest mysteries of the world while fighting against an evil Illuminati type organization.

But she always has tenacity. She always has grit. She’s not always sure of herself, or her abilities, but still continues to do it anyways because it’s the right thing to do. Not to mention I love the whole cultured rich girl who gets her hands dirty literally all the time. I’ve loved everything about her characterization in the last few years.

2) Really the entire FF7 cast but; Tifa Lockhart (FF7) Is anyone actually surprised by this one? Look at my blog. It’s pretty Tifa-rific lately. Honestly I have no good excuse for this, I can’t actually trace back what the reason was that started me on really liking her character. Basically because she’s been my video game wife since I was about 10 years old.

I guess, if I really thought about it, I enjoy her realness. She’s an optimist but not fully in your face about it, she promotes kindness, she’s the mom friend. Always looking out for everyone else at the expense of herself. They’re traits that I really admire in people, and you know what? It wouldn’t be a stretch to say that maybe those feelings were in part brought on by a video game character from my childhood. Not only that but I’ve always loved the story thread with her about the conflict she faces in doing what she believes is the right thing, and the fallout that ensues.

Not only that but she’s a fucking badass.

3) Spider-Man (Peter Parker, Marvel) Shout to to the most relatable super-hero ever created. I don’t think it’s a stretch to say that Spider-man is a staple of New York, even if he’s fictional. He’s just... boiled down to that essence of a Queens kid. It’s amazing as someone from around this area.

But seriously, I think I like Peter the most because he really is relatable. He really does worry about the same things I find myself worrying about. He really does shoot out quips like that’s his super power. He really does try and do whats right regardless of what others think. He’s conflicted, he’s unsure of himself, he’s been granted this great power and feels the need to go out and help people with it, and again at great personal expense. He’s, to me? What a hero should be.

I guess I like him so much because I see a lot of myself in him. I can relate and put myself in those shoes. I can relate my experiences to his, and i’m not talking about getting bit by a radioactive spider. I’m talking about the human side to Peter Parker. His stresses when he’s out of the tights.

4) Geralt of Rivia (The Witcher, and again I love all the characters Geralts just tops. Ciri was a close second.) Yeah, yeah call me out and say ‘someone just binged’. YOU KNOW WHAT MAYBE I DID FOR THE SECOND TIME YOU CANT STOP ME.

Seriously though. For a character who does not like being social? Geralt is so beautifully written for. Fun fact, I haven’t actually played the games save for the half way through 2 and the intro to 3. But I read the first novel and I’m working my way through the second, and Geralt? He’s a man of few words. But when he does speak? Everybody fucking listens.

5) Kassandra (AC: Odyssey) Uhhhh, first women to win the wrestling Olympics? How could I not.

As a long time fan of Assassins Creed and the wonderfully written characters that I have been lucky enough to get to know as protagonists? Kassandra takes the cake. She was blunt, sassy, smart, and took nobodies shit. Forever has she branded the word Misthios in my head with that Greek twang. To the point where I get excited when I hear it.

Maybe it was a mix of being in the Ancient Greek world with her, another one of my favorites. But there was just something about her character that stuck out to me. Something I haven’t seen in their writing since Ezio.

6) Joel (The Last of Us) How the fuck could I not love the gruff and sad dad?

Dude the characters in this game were so insanely well done. Like you could literally tell that, besides the fact that it was an amazingly fun game? The dev team TRULY cared about the story, the reception, and the buildup.

Lets be real. That first scene with him when everything starts is about as heartbreaking as it comes. It sets you up to really accept that this man has lost everything, that he no longer cares about anything but survival, because he’s already learned that when you care? Those things can be easily taken away.

He’s cold. He’s quick. He’s capable. He’s ignorant to everyone else. Right up until he meets Ellie and that little girl begins to peel back the layers and show that Joel, under it all, is actually a pretty good guy who has been dealing with his trauma by building up walls.

All and all? I would recommend anyone playing this game just to see the transition of Joel. Ellie, as well, by no small measure. But Joel’s growth was one of my favorite things to ever watch unfold in a game.

7) Revan (Star Wars) Okay so I know this ones a bit obscure. He was actually featured as a protagonist of one of Star War, in my opinion, best roleplaying games. 

Basically I love this character because I think he actually GETS the whole thing. The cults. He doesn’t really subscribe to either of them, rather he’s used them to further his own goals. Which you know, as an RPG you get to chose, usually I like to chose he did what he did for the right reasons. Because the Jedi were failing the people they had to protect. Because he couldn’t stand by and watch a war be fought while they deliberated what to do. He never fully reasoned with the Sith, and as far as I knew didn’t quite care to share their extremist values. Frankly, he’s by far been the best representation to what I feel is a very opinionated debate in Star Wars: Why chose either side? They both suck in their own ways.

He saw passed all that, started a movement, started a war of ideologies when the universe was still young enough to hear those kinds of debates play out.

His story will forever be one of my absolute favorites in Star Wars.

8) Ahsoka Tano (Star Wars) If you haven’t watched the Clone Wars animated series and you’re a fan of Star Wars? What the fuck are you doing. This character alone is enough to justify the 7 season watch.

The Padawan of Anakin Skywalker. How can that go wrong, right? Actually, Ahsoka is one of the reasons I began to like Anakin in the first place. The whole series shows a different side to characters we love, honestly, you got to see Anakin be the best Jedi general anyone had ever seen. You got to see him train this young woman into an incredible Jedi, and honestly? The younger sister relationship that Ahsoka has with Anakin is just so well done.

But beyond that there’s so much to love about Ahsoka. If you haven’t caught the theme, I really do love strong characters who still have flaws. Who still have a lot to learn. Who make mistakes. But even after she had, never once did Ahsoka give up on what she believed in. Her values, in the end, proving to be stronger to her then the values instilled by the Jedi, even if they aligned.

My favorite thing is that you got to see her journey, literally from a learning padawan to a fully fledged Jedi badass. 

If we don’t get an Ahsoka series on Disney+ I’m gonna be pissed.

9) Nathan Drake (Uncharted) Cheeky rogue with a heart of gold that often gets by on sheer luck alone.

Need I say more?

10) Tanjiro Kamado (Demon Slayer) Okay, so don’t really expect many people to know this one.This character is the main protagonist in an anime that has literally taken all my attention. From the animation, to the story, to the undeniable ways in inspires me to write Sori.

Tanjiro, perhaps, is the driving force behind this. I just love this kid okay? He started out as NOTHING. Literally, nothing. He fought against overwhelming odds, knowing full well he would die, to save his sister. And in that moment? The person he was fighting let him go. He then sent him down the path of becoming a demon slayer.

This kid, who as far as I know was part of a large family of commoners gave everything he had to training his body to fight demons. Every time he stumbled, he found the strength to continue. He never gives up. He learns, he thinks, he’s a smart kid with this absolute bottomless well of determination.

I don’t want to ruin the plot of the anime too much because honestly this has been my favorite thing since Dragonball Super. You should go watch it. I promise you will understand right off the bat why I love this character so much.

I was tagged by: @serelia-evensong​ @safrona-shadowsun

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I’m also not sorry this is a long post. How dare you ask me to talk about shit I love.

[yeppeojiwrites]

biggest fan epilogue//kang yeosang

warnings: mental health mention, kidnapping/abduction mention, swearing

word count: 1,929

so here’s the real, final end to my first ever fic,,,i hope you’ve enjoyed this series and that you aren’t too disappointed in my writing abilities but yee this was interesting to write and dare i say...fun?? idk

yeah he looks pretty here and what about it???

--

Yeosang stared out of the barred window from his place in his bed. Dark circles surrounded his dark eyes and bruises and scars littered his exposed arms from times that he took his anger out on himself. His lips were cracked from a lack of water; Yeosang refused to drink the water from the mental institution because of its taste. 

Outside of his room, Yeosang could hear the laughs, screams, and cries of his fellow patients at the Seoul Institution for Mental Health. Yeosang has been here for the past five months and would continue to be here until he was no longer deemed a threat to society.  Today is Tuesday which means that it is visiting day, a day that comes twice a week at SIMH (Tuesdays and Saturdays) but never seems to fulfill its patients’ constant need to see their loved ones.

Yeosang’s mom and brother always come to visit him on Saturdays. His mom always sits next to him and holds his hand and strokes his hair while his brother talks to him about his niece and nephew and things that are going on in South Korea. His brother always manages to dodge news about you but Yeosang understands. It’s probably for his own good. 

Yeosang continued to face the window, even when he heard someone walking down the hallway; even though everyone else was in the main room, Yeosang figured that the person who was walking around wasn’t coming for him. Suddenly, a soft knock against his open door broke Yeosang out of his trance. 

“Yeosang, you have a visitor,” Miss Sori, Yeosang’s favorite staff member said, a sweet smile on her face. Yeosang turned from the window to look at her, a confused expression on his face. 

“I do?” he asked, his voice weak from disuse. Miss Sori nodded and gave a sweet-sounding mhm. Yeosang moved from his bed and put on his hospital socks, meeting Miss Sori at his doorway. She bent her arm so that there was an open space for an arm to go through, offering the arm to Yeosang. “Shall we?” she asked, looking at him expectantly. Yeosang slipped his arm through the loop and gave a small smile. “We shall.” he said. 

Sori and Yeosang walked through the hallway and into the common room where there were many small groups of people visiting with their loved ones. Miss Sori pointed to an empty table that sat near the edge of the room. “Sit there and do not face the door, alright?” she said. Yeosang turned to look at her in confusion but Miss Sori looked at Yeosang with a certain look that told him not to object. Yeosang shuffled across the room and made it to the chair that faced away from the door and sat down in it. 

“Where is Yeosang?” Yeosang heard a familiar voice say. 

“He’s over there, he just sat down.” Miss Sori said. Suddenly, the sound of rubber-soled sneakers moving against the hardware floor filled Yeosang’s ears and became louder and louder. Yeosang kept his eyes low and looked at his hands which were laying in his lap. 

You sat down in front of him and leaned back in the weighted chair. “Hey,” you said. Yeosang’s head snapped up at the sound of your voice. You took one look at him and said, “You really look like shit, Kang Yeosang.” which caused him to laugh. 

“You look different too,” he said. In truth, you did. You had a new ear piercing, your hair was cut into a bob and was a newly-dyed dark red, you had a small heart tattooed on the outside of your left hand, and your style had changed. 

You nodded. “That’s what going home does to you.” 

“Why are you visiting me?” Yeosang asked. “I thought you were still in (your home country) and that you wanted nothing to do with me.” he finished, a surprised tone in his voice. 

“I was in a place like this for a few weeks after I got home. Everyone I’ve met in this country wanted me to go to an institution in South Korea but I didn’t want anyone to recognize me or try to talk to me or get information about me regarding what happened so I waited until I got home to get help. Here in South Korea, I’m a foreign K-pop idol who was abducted by a crazed fan. In (home country) I’m just a person who was abducted in another country by a stalker. No one knows who I am at home, and it’s nice.” you say.

“You didn’t answer my question-”

“I’m getting there. I feel like you should know not to cut me off by now but it’s fine. We haven’t talked in a year. As I was saying though, I suffered from a lot of PTSD and anxiety and after a really bad break, I was sent to an institution. I was put on some medicine and I saw a therapist and things started to suck less. This experience led me to a question which led to me wanting to seek closure regarding this entire situation.” you said before pausing to lean forward in your chair. 

“I remember in the trial that the defendant said that you stopped refilling your medicine and seeing your therapist and psychologist about a month after Paradigm debuted. You said that you stopped taking it because you felt like you didn’t need it anymore because you found a new source of happiness, me.” you said. “Yeosang...you weren’t just taking medicine for depression. You’re delusional and you were taking medicine to decrease the amount of delusions. Why did you stop taking your medicine? This whole thing could have been avoided if you had just taken your medicine.”

“I have a very unhealthy obsession with things,” he started. 

“Clearly.” you said, causing him to sigh. 

“I see you still haven’t lost your sass,” he said as he rubbed his forehead. You shrugged. 

“Sass keeps me alive.” you respond. 

“Like I was saying, I have a very unhealthy relationship with things. I depended on my friends to keep me happy after my medicine stopped helping my impulses but when they failed, Paradigm had just debuted and I saw you as a way to divert my attention away from my mental issues but because I wasn’t focusing on them, they got worse.”

“But I don’t understand why you didn’t just visit a psychiatrist to try new medicine or change something about the way you were living,” 

“Like you said, I’m delusional,” he sighed. 

“Like the prosecutor said during the trial, ‘Your mental health doesn’t excuse what you did to me. It might have helped create the idea but it was your true self who abducted me.’” you said as you rested your arms on the table in front of you. 

“I’m sorry that I did what I did to you,” Yeosang said, reaching across the table to touch your hands. You moved your hands to your lap under the table. 

“We aren’t friends, Kang Yeosang. We haven’t been friends and we never will be friends.” you tell him firmly. He nods sadly. 

“Yeosang...I just came here to receive an answer to my question. I...I don’t think I’ll be back here again. Maybe we can meet under better circumstances in a different life or maybe we have a better relationship in a different dimension. But in this life and in this dimension, I don’t want to build a relationship with you and I refuse to.” You stand up and pull your cardigan around yourself.

“Have a good life, Yeosang.” 

--

“Digmies! Look who’s back in South Korea!” Minami yelled into her phone. She turned the phone to face you and you waved. 

“Hello!” you said with a wide smile on your face. 

Comments began to speed across the VLive screen. 

“is that who i think it is?”

“(y/n)???????”

“we missed you!!” 

“are you guys gonna have an ot10 comeback soon??” 

“is a paradigm form debut coming???” 

“she’s back!!” 

“It’s been a while Digmies!” you laughed. 

“We missed her a lot!” Minami yelled and kissed your cheek, your eyes widening. 

“Hey! Minami!” you exclaimed as you chased her around the dance practice room. 

--

(four months later)

“Set the form! Hello, we’re Paradigm!” you and groupmates greeted your audience before sitting in your seats. 

“Paradigm is back with all of their members in their new title track ‘Got This’ and full studio album Re:Zume. Ladies, can one of you tell us about your new comeback as well as your concept for this album?” the host asked.

“I can do it!” you say you raise your hand eagerly. The host nods and gestures for you to speak. You turn towards the audience and smile brightly.

“‘Got This’ is an upbeat song about doing something that you’re afraid to do or that you feel that you can’t do. One of the central song lyrics is, if my members can help me,

‘You got this (”Got this!” your groupmates sang enthusiastically.)

Go do what you want to do!

Live your own life

And do the things that are good for you.’” you rapped lightly while smiling. Your groupmates laughed and clapped and the audience cheered along with them. 

“During the time that I was...apart from my group, I would say ‘You got this’ to myself very often. The second part of the song came from an interaction with someone while I was apart from my group. He wasn’t living his own life and doing things that would help him,” you stated. “If he had...we probably would have had a comeback earlier.” you laughed slightly.

“But overall, I feel like it’s important to know that everyone has the power to make a positive change in their lives. You can pass that test; you can lose that weight if you want to lose it; you can get that date; you can get that job; and you can love yourself, even if it seems like you can’t right now. Everyone is capable of great things. You got this!” you state. 

“I think that’s a beautiful statement, (Y/N),” the host smiles. “I think after that explanation, we should see the performance! What does the audience think?” the host asks. The audience cheers in response. 

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Breaking: Paradigm Member (Y/N) Has a Boyfriend

Paradigm’s fifth youngest member and member of the sub-unit Paradigm Form (Y/N) was in the press not too long ago after a heart-wrenching abduction court case. However, the young woman is in the press for a new reason, a relationship. Her boyfriend, Choi San, an up-and-coming choreographer who received his start from his YouTube channel, is very smiley when talking about her as seen in the videos below and (Y/N) seems to be just as happy when he is brought up. 

Her company as well her groupmates, fellow idols, and television personalities are very supportive of the relationship. However, there has been some negativity surrounding the relationship. How do you feel about the relationship?

Comment below!

Comments: 

1. [+ - 10392] I’m so happy she’s at peace now! After everything she’’s been through, she deserves to feel happy! 

2. [+ - 9942] Look at their smiles!! Young love still exists, what a miracle kkkkk! I’m happy for the couple!

4. [+ - 9523] wah, theyre so cute!! i’m happy to see her smiling again!!

1100. [+ - -5837] isn’t she tired of being around men? he’s probably going to take advantage of her like her abductor is kkkkkkk foreign bitches never learn

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this is the end of a biggest fan!! i hope you enjoyed it! 

ellie <3

[primeadv]

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(this came out way longer than I intended im so fuckgkdsdf sory)

How I feel about this character: EVERYONE WHO KNOWS ME KNOWS I’M IN LOVE WIHT RATCHET. I love him in all iterations of Transformers because he’s always the tired, pragmatic one of the group. In contrast, he’s also almost tiredly optimistic in some ways. He won’t get out of bed, but if someone gets shot in the head he’ll spend however long and beyond to resuscitate them. There’s 2 halves to this--the me who identifies with the beating exhaustion he exudes, and the me who’s in awe that he’ll still fight his way through life.  I won’t... get into each continuity...because that’s too much, so I’ll stick with probably the most unpopular version of him and that’s IDW (my impression, anyway). IDW Ratchet gets a lot of flack for being way too sour and like, maybe not selfish, but uncaring. He cares! A lot! He’s always thinking about everyone in really surprisingly thoughtful ways. Like when he’s 90% sure he’ll die due to Overlord and his last words are to promote First Aid to CMO (he’s ready!! god that’s sweet), and to give his hands to Whirl (though maybe a bit blindsided, he’s paid attention to some roots of Whirl’s trauma). Or yeah he’s hella mean to Drift in the beginning, but when Drift is dying in his arms he’s scREAMING at him “you’re gonna make it! You’re gonna be fine because I’m gonna make sure you’re gonna be fine”. He can be an asshole, but he knows the time and place. Death isn’t something to play with--he’s seen probably countless friends die, and he doesn’t want that to happen again. Even now, even after the war.  So I feel very confused when ppl act like he’s this mean, cold person. He’s exTREMELY emotional. He’s probably way too invested in everyone’s lives, honestly? He interrupts a round table story for Rung just to reminisce on the veery last time he, OP, and Roller were together in the same room (not even hanging out or anything, just being together one last time. who remembers that after 5+ millions years??). He started an illegal clinic in the bad part of town because he wanted to put his skills to better use! Like! LOL.  ALSO, a point that i think is unfair is that ppl think his atheism is just really mean. IT is! But I think it shows just how much of an emotional and extremely, deeply hurt person he is. It gets aggravating when he’s condescending of religion, because there’s no simple logic to it. He reacts the way he does because he’s a hurt person who’s gone through years of trauma and this is his way of coping. Is it healthy or right? Nah, but it’s humanizing. It’s why when he becomes closer to Drift he occupies this weird between space where he snarks but also tries to indulge more in perspectives outside of his own in his own dumb old tsundere way. He’s a person who believes in justice, ultimately, and religion to him doesn’t fall under justice.  ALSO, can I say that his inability to say good byes is so.. like relatable? I have rly bad social anxiety, and so I’ve definitely ghosted people who’ve been nothing but really supportive for me. It’s not because I wanted to burn them, but it freaks you out needing to, not even say goodbye, but communicate with ppl. And for Ratchet--how many times was he FORCED to say good bye to friends + patients who were dying beyond his help? Maybe, if he could help it, he doesn’t want to say goodbye. And it’s tragic the times he’s just left, these were people who ended up either dying for falling astray into insanity, i.e., beyond his help. But he learns. He chases after Drift, who he actually said, in a way, good bye to (helping him off the floor after being attacked, also I should point out that a very tiny handful of people were comfortable interacting w/ Drift at all, and how much Ratchet just doesn’t give a shit abt how other ppl think abt him. he’ll help drift off the floor bc t’s the right thing to do). He says goodbye in his old dumb way--First Aid calls him out on it. ALSO his trust in First Aid is super cute. ALSO he’s like.. genuinely nice to Ten (he helped him get a date with Minimus!!!). And he’s not afraid to call out on other ppl’s bullshit (telling rodi straight you dont deserve to be captain which, at the time, was really true). He’s also SUPER smart. Also there’s that post on tumblr that pointed out that Ratchet immediately goes to deescalate conflict. He’s willing to put aside pride and anything if it means ultimately coming to a resolution where EVERYONE involved is safe. The only time he doesn’t is FUCKING OVERLORD who he rightfully, immediately, tries to briefly incapacitate to lockdown his medibay (protect patients/information). Ok I gotta stop I can go on forever just going page to page. Also, despite my love, I can totally point out his flaws. He’s grating when it’s unnecessary, he’s abhorrently bad at communicating, he’s privileged, he’s narrow-minded at times, etc. ec. But again what I love about him is that despite all that, he’ll throw his own self out the window for others’s well-being bc he genuinely, genuinellyyy cares about other people. If only he could care for himself //cries All the people I ship romantically with this character OH god... everyone. He’s my bicycle.  ok look, ya’ll know I’m an intense dratchet shipper and I could literally write a god damn essay. ... here’s another essay???!! So, I’ma be real, I wasn’t a super dratchet shipper before. I wasn’t anti (i have no notps), but I was just “yeah they’re cute i guess haha”. But 99.99% the reason why I ship anything is all for super cute adorable fanart. and I kept drawing them because 1) ratchet’s my fav, 2) drift is super popular so I figured I should learn to draw him. And they became the only 2 mechs I could draw. I used to be way more into Scavengers + megarod. I used to only like 1 dratchet fanfic and that’s bc it was less romantic and more plot centric (still a fav tho). Then I kept seeing cute fanart, I would read posts by other dratchet shippers too about what makes them so nice? And I was yeah.. oh yeah. And it doesn’t help that in Lost Light, drift is CONSTANTLY by Ratchet’s side. He’s constantly checking up on him and holding him and touching him, like as if Ratchet is the thing that he needs to make sure, at all costs, is safe.  In Drift’s life, Ratchet is the one who appears to him when he needs support the most but is in the most denial of it. When Drift is at the brink of death, overdosed and about to be broken apart and Orion brings him to Ratchet’s clinic. Ratchet patches him up pro-bono and tells him that he sees something special in him.  like??? can you imagine how that feels? To have no one believe in you--you don’t even believe in yourself, and yet here’s this person who tells you “you’re gonna be great”. And it totally doesn’t hit Drift in anyway, at least in a way that’s tangible to him, until much later in life. Or maybe it does (hey, how do you weave character narratives when it’s been written by like 3 different ppl shrugs). And that statement means 2 different things to them. To Drift, it’s a reminder that he’s worth something, even if it’s a sliver of nearly nothing to hold onto. To Ratchet, it’s a reminder that the greatness he saw led to the deaths of thousands of people.  HEY can you imagine this person you saved, patched up, tried to encourage, ended up being a mass serial killer in the future? (have you ever read Monster by Naoki Urusawa). Ended up killing people you loved?  So it’s no wonder that a good part of Ratchet is absolutely mad at Drift. And I think if that was all, they probably would’ve ended up being amicable. But Drift also ended up being super religious and seeing the hand and primus in everything and oh my god is this person really waxing poetry on the value of life when he, himself, shot several bullets at me at one point?  I also believe they are uncomfortably similar as they are different. The reason why they constantly butt heads is they’re two people trying to escape a past they don’t want and found complete opposite ways to cope with their losses. Drift found religion, Ratchet is gratingly pragmatic, and they see each other and go “how could this guy choose to be this way?”. I’ve heard ppl like to cite the annual as the reason why they could never work out. BUT, can I point out, that they act around each other in a way they don’t with anyone else? Drift gets SO MAD. Ratchet gets extremely talkative and incredibly personal (pulled out an electro slug from someone’s spark, holy shit that fucking traumatized you didn’t it??). They challenge each other emotionally, and it’s so fucking difficult bc they’re both extremely depressed and suffer from PTSD and would probably rather just go on their dumb space adventure and look at stars--take 2 emotionally constipated idiots and you get them. And hell no, don’t tell me Drift is in-tune with his feelings bc he’s 10000% not. He uses religion to cope with a past and life that he doesn’t want to think about. He tries to re-contextualize himself because he hates who he is. OUCHHH. And Ratchet MAKES him confront the parts of himself he hates--bc Ratchet has seen his worst traits and isn’t afraid to make him think about it.  So why do they work out eventually? They realize how important they are to each other. Delphi, Drift saves Ratchet’s life while he’s barely holding onto his own because he probably feels like he owes Ratchet his own life. And that’s a huge turning point in their relationship--Ratchet sees that... Drift tries really really fucking hard. My friend Zig pointed out that post-Delphi, Drift is eating energon w/ chopsticks (what a fucking nerd), and you can see in a later panel that Ratchet (who chose to sit next to Drift) is using those chopsticks too. IT’s such a small thing, but they’re becoming closer by sharing and learning from each other. And then Drift takes the fall and leaves. And Ratchet realizes just how important Drift’s presence is in his life. I mentioned it already lol but the scene where Ratchet helps Drift up off the floor and it’s superimposed with the love message Rewind left for CD. They care about each other so much!! And Ratchet chases after him!! HOLY SHIT. If that isn’t romance, what is?? lol I kid, but it’s obvious just how important Drift’s presence meant to him. IT’s really because they became so so so close in a way that can’t be described as just friends. They deeply understand each other in really uncomfortable ways and bring out the absolute worst and absolute best in each other. And this point is where Ratchet again appears when Drift doesn’t realize he needs someone in his life. Drift thinks he can be a loner and just float aimlessly and voicelessly--hell no! He needs friends, he needs community. He NEEDs belonging, because he wants to belong somewhere. And Ratchet helps bridge him back to friends and found family.  And Ratchet slowly changes the more he’s with Drift. He reads religious text and tries to brag about it bc he’s a dumb tsundere lol but he’s trying to understand Drift’s interests more even if it takes a decade and more to get there. And Drift values him for being his rock. That’s why he’s constantly making sure Ratchet is safe and unharmed, because he owes at least that much to him. And yeah they eventually fall in love because they value each other in a way they haven’t anyone else. IM EMO I CAN GO ONE, this all probably didn’t make a whole lot of sense but yeah. I’m just so soft to the fact that they’re horribly hurt people who don’t know how to redirect their pain, but by being together they come out healthier and more confident. IT’S RLY ROMANTIC IDKKK My non-romantic OTP for this character As much as I also love OpRatch, they are also great best friend platonic ship. They know each other best, they’ve been through SO MUCH together. It’s honestly a shame they barely interact in IDW bc the small tidbits we have, they obviously deeply respect each other’s opinions and deeply value the relationship they’ve had over the past millions of years.  I’m also all for non-romanceOTP for dratchet because I can totally imagine they go to each other to talk about things they feel uncomfortable sharing with others (they’ve seen the absolute worst of each other afterall).  My unpopular opinion about this character I don’t... think I ahve one. Some ppl view my love for his as grating lol.  One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon. Medic spin off.

[marinette-buginette]

Slow realisation

A commission for @cheklmn . Sory for the long wait, hope you will enjoy it!

Adrien tapped his foot, more out of boredom than or out of impatience. He really didn’t understand what all this was about.

It all started with Nino almost jumping on him in the Lycée’s library. Adrie was minding his own business, working on some of his Mandarin homework when Nino came screaming. Well, not really screaming cause it was, you know, a library but he was pretty close. Adrien was almost knocked off his chair as Nino grabbed his shoulders and shook them wildly while whispering some unintelligible nonsense.

Adrien fell on the floor as if he was a rug puppet when Nino let go of his shoulders. Rubbing his lower back Adrien got up and raised an eyebrow, silently questioning his best friend’s weird behavior.

“What had gotten into you.” Adrien whispered. He wasn’t angry, but he didn’t appreciate the bruise he will get.

“I am the best friend in the world.” Nino stated proudly.

“I already know that.” for his part, Adrien wasn’t impressed. The fact that Nino was an amazing friend was no news.

“No, no, trust me, I am. And you are gonna scream it after I tell you the news. No, not scream it. You are going to tattoo it on your forehead. I can already see it…”

“Nino.”

“Oh, when we are going to the tattoo artist I want to come with you and pick the font for the tattoo and…”

“Nino!” Adrien tried to keep his voice low, but it rang a little bit louder than he intended. Luckily no one was around right now to scold him.

His friend seemed to finally snap out of his fantasy of Adrien getting the words ‘Nino is an amazing friend’ tattoed on his forehead. He cleared his throat and looked at Adrien with an excited smile. “Are you ready to hear it?

“Yes, come on. Tell me already.” Adrien leaned in, curiously. When he was preparing surprises, no one could beat Nino to it. Okay, except that one time when he was akuamtized, but Adrien wasn’t going to mention that.

“I got you a date with Ladybug.”

“You did WHAT?!”

Now if they would have been in a cartoon, Adrien was sure this would be the moment when the scene will cut to birds all around flying away because he scared them with his scream. But because it was only the real life which, sadly, had no cartoon-like emphasis scenes, the only thing Adrien managed to do with his scream was made an angry librarian come their way and scold them and tell them to take their conversation out.

Or he assumes so, he might have fainted after his brain finally processed the fact that Nino had somehow managed to get him a date with Ladybug.

Unknown to Adrien, Nino glanced down at him then gave the librarian an awkward smile.

“It is okay, madame.” he grabbed his fainted friend off the floor and started dragging him outside. “We are taking this outside, sorry for the disturbance.”

The next thing Adrien remembered was being splashed by water and waking up screaming.

So, in short, this is how Adrien found himself at Ciel de Paris, the whole upper floor booked especially for this date. Having connections in high places certainly paid off sometimes. His eyes wandered to the windows, taking in the sigh of Paris at night. For a second he wondered if Ladybug will come through the front door or through the window. If he would have a date with Ladybug while in the suit, he would certainly come through the window while doing a quadruple spin, double flip while holding a bouquet of roses in between his teeth.

Making an impression, you know?

But Ladybug was always a little bit more formal so he assumed she will just come through the door. Make it seem more serious. He wasn’t even sure why she agreed to this. Maybe Nino and Alya were pulling a prank on him.

“Monsieur Agreste, your date is here.” the voice of the waiter almost made Adrien jump out of his skin.

He turned around quickly. “ Hello, Lady… buuuuug.”

He wasn’t drooling.

Now, the thing about the suits they were wearing when they were superheroes was that… well, you couldn’t exactly change out of them. Apparently, he has been lied to by that stinking cat god he keeps feeding. Ladybug still wore a suit, but it seemed to imitate a formal red dress, with elbow length black gloves

Okay, maybe he was drooling. Just a little. A lot. Was that a puddle on the floor?

Ladybug smiled sweetly at him in a way that seemed almost familiar. Hm… it was probably because he was seeing her every other day as Chat.

“Hi, Adrien.”

“Hey,” Adrien said blushing. “Fancy seeing you here.”

Ladybug looked surprised for a second so Adrien did the only thing he could think of. He gave her finger guns.

She seemed amused. “Oh, and I thought we have a date.”

“We do. Yeah. Nino, my DJ overlord and future Cannes winner who the world doesn’t deserve, arranged it for us.” Adrien rubbed the back of his neck. “Sorry, he insisted I add that whenever I mention his name. So uh, shall we take a sea?”

Ladybug nodded and Adrien led her to one of the tables by the window.

“You are a true gentleman, aren’t you?” Ladybug asked when he pulled out her chair.

“I do hope so.” he smiled as he took his seat.

Adrien noticed Ladybug was gazing in the distance to the skyline. “They say it is the best place for looking over Paris, but I bet it doesn’t compare to what you see when you swing around.

She simply hummed, a soft smile spreading over her lips. “Wouldn’t say so. This restaurant has quite a nice spot.”

“Yeah, all view can eat.”

Ladybug glanced at him in surprise. Then she burst into a fit of giggles. Adrien almost fell out of his chair. Finally. She finally laughed at one of his puns. While they were on a date. Today was a beautiful day. Life was worth living.

“So shall we order?”

“So are you in the mood for a snack?”

Adrien jumped up, with a shriek, the cucumbers from his face mask falling in the process. When he collected himself, he was shocked to say at least to see Ladybug hanging on her yoyo, looking at him baffled while holding a bag of something that smelled quite good.

Adrien laughed nervously. “Hi. Ladybug. I was just doing my afternoon beauty routine, but sure, you can come in.”

She swung in, putting her yoyo back at her waist and placing the package on the table. Adrien sweets senses were tingling and his cat nose was telling him whatever she brought smelled heavenly.

“Oh, are you buying usually at Tom and Sabine’s boulangerie?” he questioned once he saw the logo on the bag.

It seemed that might have set something off in Ladybug’s head as she began to fidget. “Oh, no, no, haha, see I just stumbled upon it and uh… it had great reviews! So I thought yeah, I will just drop and buy some stuff and bring it to Adrien given I am dropping uninvited in his house, you know. Heh.”

Adrien blinked in surprise. Huh, the fidgeting was really adorable. And it reminded him of Marinette. Oh, speaking of…

“My friend’s parents actually own that place. I can guarantee for their tastiness.”

Ladybug smiled. “I will take your word for it. Sorry for ruining your facemask by the way.”

Adrien simply shrugged. "Don't worry too much about it. My skin routine can survive until evening when I'm supposed to do the next one. Also, if you need any face products don't hesitate to ask I have a whole collection. And this one ocean salt scrub works wonders." Adrien stopped himself abruptly, just realizing what he was implying. "Not that your skin doesn't look amazing or anything, I, in no way, even dare to suggest that and... mph."

Adrien crossed his eyes, noticing the macaron Ladybug shoved in his mouth has a pink shade. Hm, strawberries. Really good.

Ladybug giggled. "So, I see you have a  Dance Dance Revolution Machine here." he eyed his arcade corner. "Wanna bet I will break your record in the first try?"

"Oh, it is on!"

For the last couple of weeks Adrien and Ladybug had a constant game of "which game can I get my ass kicked at today?". Well, so far he got his ass kicked at pretty much every game they played from Dance Dance Revolution to Super Mario. Of course, he also won a couple of times on his fifth or so try. Maybe Ladybug was just letting him win out of pity, but he preferred to think she didn't. Or maybe yes. It would mean she liked him enough to do so.

He has been pulled out of his train of thought by a loud crash noise.

'Ladybug wins' was sprawled in big red letters across the screen. Oh well, what else was new.

"I would say I am sorry I beat you again, but I am really not," she said with a wink.

Alright, Adrien, don't spontaneously combust now, it is okay, it is just a wink. She winks at you a lot when you are Chat. Trying to distract himself Adrien grabbed a croissant from the table and started chewing on it. Ladybug got up and jumped on his windowsill. "Sorry I have to cut this short but  need to go back home before my parents realise I sneaked out."

Adrien lifted his pastry in the way someone might lift a toast. "I hope our paths will croissant again."

He realised he fucked up in the moment when Ladybug fell from the windowsill.

“You didn’t say much since we got here.” Ladybug broke the silence that fell between them. “If you didn’t like heights… “

‘No, it is not that.” he replied quickly. “I was just taking in the sights.”

It wasn’t a lie. He always enjoyed the view of Paris from above, it was always breathtaking, no matter how used you get to it. But he imagined Ladybug got him to the absolute top of the Eiffel Tower tonight to show him a sight she imagined he had never seen.

“It is a favourite spot of mine, you know.” Ladybug’s features softened as she glanced into the distance. “Beautiful sight, isn’t it?”

Adrien looked at Ladybug, the way her hair and ribbons were fluttering in the wind, the way the lights were reflecting on her features and her sweet, content smile. He took a sharp intake of breath.

“Yeah, gorgeous.”

“So I guess you enjoy this little date, right?” she returned her attention to him.

“I am especially enjoying that you decided to share this wonderful spot with someone like meow.”

Adrien covered his mouth one second too late. Ladybug froze for a moment before looking at him with realization.

“Oh!” her gasp as so low he barely heard it. “Chat?”

He lowered his hand, and held her gaze as his lips curled into a small smile.

“Hey, Marinette.”

[threeletterslife]

HII I AM READING THE FIFTH CHAPTER AFTER WAY TOO LONG BUT I WAS BUSY

I was genuinely thinking of waiting until my exams were over to read the chapter (they start on 7th March) but i was too impatient to see Yoongi (and y/n of course... but mostly Yoongi)

Please accept these reactions that i wrote as I was reading the chapter (that's why they're messy and unorganised lol)

First of all his hAND on her wAIST I can't bREATHE I will sink with this ship

I would die for Zeru. This beautiful Sol came for like two minutes but I'm ready to die for him. He is very pretty :)

NOT Y/N MAKING FUN OF HIS POSTURE PLSSS WHY DOES SHE KEEP MENTIONING IT. Let the poor man breathe he's doing his best 😭🤚

Soot, Soo, Sahn, and Sori. Such pretty names. I might simp over the spirits :]

No.... don't tell me the child is the king...

NO MY MOUTH FUCKING DROPPED YOU DONT UNDERSTAND MY JAW FUCKING DROPPED WHAT THE HELL

HELP I DIDNT THINK IT WAS POSSIBLE FOR MY MOUTH TO OPEN ANY WIDER BUT JIMIN????? JIMINNN HELP

"I love him uncle yoongs I love him!!" I AM SOBBING WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS

Okay I'm still crying but the way she's hesitant to say his name is so cute ahhh 😭 (still pissed off about jimin I mean their king is CHILD??? I WANT HUG HIM SO BAD 😭😭)

"Take care of uncle for me" NEVER MIND I'M CRYING AGAIN

Wait... so jimin... this sounds child... knows about the goddammit war he fucking knOWS I'M GOING TO PUNCH SOMEBODY

Yoongi? Family runt? Never mind I'm gonna punch two bitches today

Low-key simping over Sori though 🥵

Okay I absolutely LOVE how the mood changes. It goes from calm, to playful to straight up BADOOM (I don't know how else to describe it, it's like somebody suddenly struck a drum in the middle of silence). It's so cool how you do that

Yoongi playing with the kids is so adorable 😭 if y/n ends up falling for jungkook I'm going to straight up kill you, I swear to god/j

Anyway the chapter was very sweet, time for some ranting

Okay so I'm VERY excited that y/n is finding herself and her reason to fight. I'm glad the story isn't isn't about romance immediately and there's actually character development going on with y/n. She deserves the world and I will fight for her 💕

But speaking of romance... 👀 (lol talk about being a hypocrite)

As much as i ship yoongi and y/n i genuinely think jungkook is endgame for her. I mean I know he hasn't appeared yet and I am definitely overthinking but since Yoongi appeared first, I don't think he's going to be the one she chooses in the end (LMAO me and my logic)

Also I feel like Yoongis going to die??? Like its a gut feeling?? Please don't kill him :(

But if she seriously can't choose then going poly is an option :) just saying ;))) everybody loves a good three-way romance, come on. please. Don't kill them just have them all fall in love with each other it'll work out I swear

OR if you're not into threesomes then ditch y/n and have Yoongi and Jungkook end up dating. Who needs the girl anyway? We support ✊🙌

Thank you for putting out these amazing chapters, author 💕(can I call you chana?). I hope you're doing well, love you 💖

[SPOILERS!]

HI HELLO! i wish you luck on your exams!! take care of yourself while studying and most importantly, don't burn out!

I SHARE YOUR SENTIMENTS ABOUT YOONGI'S HAND ON OC'S WAIST AND ZERU 😩😩😩 AND PLSSS OC JUST WANTS TO TEASE A LITTLE I GUESS 😳😳😳

READING YOUR LIVE REACTION ABOUT THE KING MADE ME EVIL LAUGH PLEASEE

also yes yoongi is the family runt but he is still very lovable and i WILL protect him!!! >:(

(AND NOT YOU SIMPING OVER SORI?????)

ahhhhh and thank you so much! i spent a lot of time developing each character in this story, and of course, as the main character, i spent the most time on OC! i'm really happy that you see her growth as a character because it means i did my job!

AND LMAOOO LOD IS PART FANTASY PART ADVENTURE PART COMING OF AGE PART ROMANCE SO YES! OF COURSE WE WANT THE ROMANCE!!!

you'll have to see who's endgame with OC in the future 👀 (and who knows? what is there is no endgame? hehe) you'll also have to meet the other love interest first 👀 so until then,,, keep theorizing <3

and thank you so much! it's been harder and harder to write these days. i've lost a lot of motivation due to my academic life taking over all other aspects of my life LMAO BUT! i'm trying my best! thank you for reading lod and always having something so kind to say <3

and yes! my pseudonym is chana, so you can totally call me that :) have an amazing rest of your day, love!