#note to self: keep learning
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9 October 2024,
The unexamined life is not worth living, I guess.
At the end of the day, everything is part of the learning process.
There will be little nuggets of knowledge and experience to bring home, as always.

#tagitables#note to self: keep learning#on why i keep subjecting myself to further examinations always ._.#syntaxError#algorithmn the grey area#it's almost like a black box
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A little promo with my little obsession on the side...........
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#klance#halloween au#im projecting on the internet my own impostor syndrome#i feel that im awful and should be learning how to draw instead of writing shitty fics#and when i want to write a post and share a little doodle or smth - 'sorry' is right between the lines and its so frustrating#like???? nobody probably cares#im either here or im not#and if i need to finish that little abomination of a fic then so be it you'd think people wouldnt mind too much#and would still want to listen to my captions and see whatever silly doodle however silly it is as long as its true#..............but what if its all redundant#what if i cant draw after i had to flip my entire routine upside down#and will forever chase a thrill of feeling like a prolific artist and it will be always out of reach now#what if people scroll past my art and feel nothing now#what if world is filled with people who kinda hate klance but stay out of reflex and not bc its their deeply routed source of comfort#what if i reached an artistic plateau and will never be good enough#what if this is the limit of my 'talent'#what if i will forever love the projects i want to share but will always hate the execution of it wanting to fix it fix it fix it learn mor#i keep reading the little notes i get on orders#some screenshots i saved#i find good words and opinions and love letters to art as a whole#and i feel insufficient#subpar#i drew a comic about it to an old poem and still havent finished it#there is a point of trying your best when it stops feeling like a challenge and feels like a failure#its the moment where you keep going of course#and yet#there are emotions im sure nobody shares on social media bc we just try to get through them#but who else will take it better than tumblr tags#either way if im less around its because im dealing with creational self-hatred and artistic ambitions#but on the other hand arent all artists like that? i ran out of tag space btw have an awesome weekend
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first - series
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気楽 に行こう. (kiraku ni ikou) - Take it easy. だいじょぶです! (daijoubu desu) - It's okay! ご愁傷様です,弟. (go-shūshō-sama desu, ototo) - I'm sorry for your loss, little brother. あなた は 一人 じゃない. (anata wa hitori ja nai) - You are not alone. 弟 (ototo) - Younger brother ���戸リア (hamato lea) - Lea Hamato はじめまして, 弟. (hajimemashite, ototo) - Nice to meet you, little brother.
#itoko apocalypse AU#any version of leonardo looking at literally any possible relative: is anyone gonna adopt that#ROTTMNT#TMNT#leonardo#TMNT 2012#TMNT crossover#turtle cousins au#save rottmnt#unpause rottmnt#rhinociart#I really gotta start doing my research first I keep finding kanji I should have used after I've already made the comic#oh well it's a learning process#note to self water-based ink is the DEVIL for this kind of thing
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I will do the honour of asking you your timeline for how tamcien fell in love, please share 🙏
thank you for indulging me ily 🫶🫶
okay this is offensively long because I have thought about this a totally normal amount. (also i’m miserable and so this is not a happy timeline. at all. mainly bc 1) im incapable of thinking of tamcien as happy individuals and 2) I don’t feel like there is a lot of universes in which tamlin and lucien would actually get together and I feel like they are forever dancing on the will they won’t they line. so yk. miserable)
Tamcien to me is very much unrequited love but not in the way that you’re thinking, it’s more of a they were both in love with each other at some point but never at the same time kind of thing. like the times they were in love with one another never overlapped. not really anyways.
Tamlin was in love with Lucien in the very early days of their friendship. I almost like to think that the minute he saw Lucien at spring’s border, bloody and haggard and all, he was drawn to him almost instantly. And then the more he got to know him and the more they became friends, the more his feelings developed. But he never did anything about it because he was so painfully aware of Lucien’s tragic love story with Jesminda. He knew how much he loved her and how suddenly and cruelly he lost her. He never felt like he could match up to her. He never felt like he could compete with her and what her and Lucien had. He almost felt…awful that he even liked Lucien when he’d just lost who he thought was his mate. It just never felt like it was the right time. So, he never did anything about his feelings, spent years yearning and watching Lucien blossom into the male he is, and eventually being only friends with Lucien was enough. It had to be.
And then we have Lucien who fell in love with Tamlin way too late, right around Amarantha came around and all the cursing happened. Pretty tragic timing to fall in love with your best friend, really. At that point, Tamlin was too caught up with Amarantha to notice him and everything was just falling apart. Lucien lost his eye, Amarantha cursed Tamlin and his court, all their friends were dying all around them. It never seemed like a good time to say anything. So, for 50 years Lucien watched Tamlin lose himself with every friend they lost, every year that passed and the curse was not broken, and he watched feeling more useless than ever and still just as hopelessly in love with Tamlin as ever. And he was so in love with him that when Feyre came along, he was willing to practically hand Tamlin over to her if it meant he’d be free. He was so in love with him that he told him exactly how to woo Feyre if only it meant she’d have him and he’d finally be free. He loved him so much, he stood by and watched as he got with Feyre and smiled for the first time in years. His best friend was happy and so close to being free. It didn’t matter that he wasnt apart of that.
And now…well we know where they are now. It’s never the right time. (they’re just idiots actually but whose gonna tell them that)
#keep this at zero notes so i learn to stfu#but genuinely zee thank you for indulging me bc i got to freely run my mouth about this#kissing u on the mouth as a thanks actually#side note to this timeline: they absolutely did causally fuck every now and then but that still never led to them confessing#bc they’re idiots#if you haven’t noticed#acotar#a court of thorns and roses#lucien vanserra#pro tamlin#tamcien#tamlin acotar#most self indulgent post ever
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I don’t get why ppl keep saying bkdk is dead or Horikoshi broke off bkdk. If that were true, this extra would look very different as you pointed out multiple times. The extra was still heavily focused on them and I hate how ppl are letting one no dictate the entire relationship. Izuku asks him to be a special lecturer too. I think the no just needs more clarification but other than that it is mostly fine. If a ship were to be shut down by the creator, it would look very different. Same logic for if a ship were to be canon, it would look different than what we got in the end for izu///ocha. This extra was bad in different ways from ships. It was just a whole lot of nothing that doesn’t meaningfully add anything to the story but I guess we shouldn’t be surprised since it is an extra. It is still an ambiguous ending that can be pretty fixable by one shots by Horikoshi in the future or even better by fanfiction lol. Except for the Toga part. That is just inexcusable
himiko-chan :(
and yeah! like even tho 431 is terrible not only for pairs but also for the whole story, it only confirmed Katsuki feels something really strong for deku and he doesnt notice bc he doesnt consider himself to be that great; they keep talking, and they keep being in each other's lives with no problem -they also imply they will work on communicating their feelings, as the special lecture is about this topic and deku also thinks katsuki doesnt see himself in a high regard. This is actually something that could be used in the future, as their relationship and arc isnt completely finished -in the way that they arent at a point of no miscommunication, no yearning, etc. They still need something to work with in regards to themselves and each other in the process. When it comes to midoriya and uraraka, idk what exactly could develop from what 431 tell us -seems to be mostly about paying attention to the ppl in your life instead of just letting life happen I guess? But idk what conversation or arc they could have together that wasn't resolved already, it was a really weird choice to focus on them as if there needs to be more explored -which is why choosing to not make them talk to each other nor think of the other in these years is potentially interesting, like the only way they could actually need to talk things up or have a separated special moment is if they just stop being friends and want to talk more from now on. Like, if they kept their friendship these years and were part of the other's life, there wouldnt be a moment like this at all.
I think it hurt mostly ochako -and deku if we interpret it as "deku just wants to be teacher, he is super happy about it, and loveeees so much his ex bestie after 8 years of no contact and never thinking about her"-, more than the bkdk relationship.
It would be interesting to see those one shots, if he does them -I know he said he wanted to do more things and little drawings and content for it, but idk if he will do something elaborate or just one page of something silly. I think he still has to opportunity of working with the material and make something at least not this bad -or completely ignore 431 and just continue with their adventures like 430 implies lol If he wants to double down with the "romance" I have no idea how he could do it with what he has tbh, unless he just ignores the plot and their personalities.
#grrr talking#thanks bc I was getting a little crazy like wowowowow am I just making things up in my head???#I think bkdk keep having romantic connotation even if deku is so clueless#and while is sad to see them be insecure about themselves I think they do have reasons to do this more than ochako#she did learn her lesson with 429 and talked things with deku already -which is why you had to make them go no contact for them to even#have a “moment” -there was no need for them to develop anything with their friendship. and it still ended in a friendly note#while katsuki and deku never got to actually talk about their feelings alone#nor discussed all the trauma related to each other -the quirklessness the war shigaraki killing him the guilt over so many things#deku on another hand doesnt really have much to tell uraraka that would fit them as there wasn't a moment the war actually involved them tr#truly besides the himiko moment -which would lead to himiko's love for ochako and while this could be used to make her confess#its really... bad honestly considering thats the only thing that relates them -another girl who loves both#there wasn't a moment of him paying special attention to her in a romantic coded way and everything was just... pretty friendly honestly#while the war directly involved katsuki being targeted for being the closest to deku of them all#I makes sense for them to need to talk about this in comparison#what deku as a character needs is to consider why he doesnt see himself as important and why isnt he allowed to accept more for him than#what he got#and I just dont see how this could work with her considering they dont have a real friendship anymore#I cant see neither trying to push the other into being honest about hidden feelings for the other bc... why would they have that?#and why wouldnt they just talk about it before? as I said their arc was really done before the extra#which is why you had to make them lose their friendship and want to talk more from now on -bc if they keep being friends there wouldnt be#any moment that could be ambiguous enough#but with katsuki there are things left unsaid even when keeping in contact that involve each other and their self esteem#meaning they need to work in their communication#with 431 deku “going for” uraraka doesnt come off as “him choosing himself” and “living his life”#bc it was a decision that didnt involve any internal discussion about why he is the way he is#its not framed as him finally choosing for himself or being selfish -he just found her in his way home and wanted to talk more after no con#contact#he is still insecure about his needs and doesnt understand what katsuki means when he talks in such abstract ways#its not like he understood “oh I have to choose someone” or “I have to find my special person” bc he wasn't embarrassed about wanting to t#talk to her -he loves everyone yeah but he wants to talk to her more (they haven't talked to each other in so many years!)
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Liko, who gives and gives until there is nothing left VS Sango, who takes and takes until there is nothing left.
#thinking about their dynamics and they could learn a lot from each other tbh#anyway that small moment in the new ep when liko gave terapagos all of her cake and left nothing for herself#made me think about liko and her self sacrificial tendancies#though in this case it was a nice gesture and this word doesn't exactly apply but#liko and her tendancy to give and give and potentially disregarding what she wants in the process#being the type to say 'oh you can have this it's okay' while secretly wanting the thing but keeping quiet about it#because she doesn't want to inconvenience others etc#i want someone to share with her when she ends up with nothing left for herself#hz047#liko#sango#character notes#episode notes
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After considerable time on hiatus for the flash animation... it is time.
Thank you for your continued support for my webcomic!
#author's note#there's something in the woods#tsitw#mspfa#tsitw comic#yes its a glorified powerpoint presentation i didnt think id be able to learn how to animate in time for my self imposed deadline#yes i keep forgetting this blog exists
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It has been quite an intense week 🤞
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If you want to be happy, I hope it comes true.
I hope you will be happy too.
#ploy's yearbook#1x10#jaochan#pongtawan dejdamrong#kapook ploynira#joong archen#gifset#*brace's#//#congratulations on the divorce 🎉#this was one of the most BEAUTIFUL break-ups I have ever seen everybody SHUT UP 😭#they have so much maturity and respect for each other#it didn't work between them because of xyz (Tawan sacrificing his life and dreams for his family/previous lover)#and the only reason she was still by his side was because he was afraid of being alone with no purpose#but none of them deserves to live like this. they deserve to be happy.#to keep Jao tied to him when there is no more love between them is a selfish thing to do#she finally tells him that. they need to move on and Tawan is holding them back. they deserve better than this.#///#side note#it's in moments like this that I really appreciate the process of growing up‚ learning‚ and changing ideas/beliefs#younger me would probably have been offended by the idea that love can expire#or at very least looked down on a love that ends for not being strong enough to perdure#but the thing is#sometimes the love is there and the love is strong and the love lasts for a long time#and the love still expires. it becomes something else. or it doesn't become anything. it just stops.#and to insist that it should continue to validate the love you felt before is disrespectful to your past self#it's gone now‚ but it was there before. it was as real as the love that doesn't stop growing.#love may not last forever but every bond we create with another person leaves a mark‚ and the mark does.#the experience and how it influenced us. the memories‚ the good and the bad ones‚ all of it‚ is ours. it doesn't expire until we do.
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fascinating revelations out of my dad's professional coaching of the whole family today
my mom scored astonishingly high on empathy and caring for a woman who seemed to find it next to impossible to express that to me
my dad has done an insane amount of work to be so warm and personable considering that his natural inclination is towards strong reserve rooted in anxiety (just like me!!)
my sister shocked - SHOCKED 🙄 - to learn that she scores almost zero in empathy AND very high on manipulation
actually shocking reveal that my sister always knew she was my mom's favorite. like I kind of assumed she was mean to both of us but apparently most of the biting comments were for me
#in regard to number 3 I'm like bestie. you think you're the protagonist of the world. you tried to get me to come out to our parents#as a way to manipulate them into being happier for you for your engagement#you have a movie script in mind for your life and you try to get others to fit it#of COURSE you're low in empathy and high in manipulation#the mom's favorite thing was actually very surprising to me to hear bc i've never thought about it that way#mom's attitude towards me was so pervasive to my experience of childhood that i never considered that i had it worse than her#vis a vis getting chewed out and in trouble and snapped at and criticized constantly#the impression i got was that mom thought i was a crybaby and fragile and forgetful and dowdy and needy#my sister by contrast was the kind of girlboss my mom could like more easily#(i do wonder then that mom's bestie is a lot like me)#i know my sister got some Mom Comments and impatience and fighting too but it doesn't seem to have stuck with her so much#i dunno how i feel about it all#a lot and i mean A Lot to consider#also learned my sister doesn't really remember our grandma on mom's side and picked up a vibe that she's sad about it#i was a little dismissive in the moment of the idea that she was doting bc i remember her being very brisk and exacting#but i think like my mom she cared a lot but found it hard to express it in ways that weren't like. providing. keeping things shipshape#not very demonstrative and pretty intimidating to a kid#but i still do remember a few good things about her; note to self to tell T those stories#looking at cardinals on the deck. the roofing project. her painting my sister's nails. watching lion king and the old cinderella with us#good moments#it makes me think of the way mom used to really put care into giving us thoughtful gifts but she'd hardly ever play with them with us#i think it would have gone a long way with me at that age if she'd been willing to take the initiative rather than wait to be invited#i always thought that she knew so much and what she could do was so cool; i just never felt comfortable asking#bc she didn't seem like you could just ask her to come have fun#meanwhile my dad Knew a lot less stuff and had fewer cool hobbies but he was goofy and fun and willing to get on the floor#i think i understand why they were the way they were but still im frustrated#bc like t was saying today. now that mom's retired she's actually fun?? she's not stressed and angry all the time and she has time for us?#or at least for my sister anyway... but i will agree; she seems a lot happier#and i wish she'd been able to be happier when we were younger#neither me nor my sister came out of that with anything close to secure attachment
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33. Something that you want to learn?
Sooo many things:
Languages — I already speak English and Spanish, and I took a Japanese course in college. But I’d love to go deeper into Japanese and also start Mandarin Chinese.
Instruments — I grew up playing piano, various percussion instruments (snare drum, tenor drums, marimba, vibraphone, etc), and in recent years I’ve picked up ukulele, kalimba, and lyre. I’d love to get even better at the lyre and also start learning the harmonica (I got a set recently to try!)
Other skills/hobbies — I really love trying out and exploring different skills and hobbies, like a recently I made a few sculpted canvas pieces for my apartment. But a few others on my aspirational list rn are DJ-ing, flair bartending, and swimming (really just getting better/faster/learning the proper techniques for all the main strokes).
All in all, love learning! :)
ask me stuff
#I keep a notes app page with various things I want to learn#and then each year I usually test out a couple#some have really stuck and some were nice to experiment with#but it’s a fun way to learn for the sake of learning/self-development#haafuaki
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Saw the tags on the Toshinori post and do you have more to share?? Any insights? If so I’d welcome hearing them 😭 He really is so self-sacrificial and it hurts but it’s truly at the core of who he is
This has been sitting in my inbox for almost a week because I needed to make a futile effort at organizing my thoughts into something coherent--but this is as organized as they're going to get for now! Thank you so so much for the ask though bc I do love to yell about MHA <3
(Obligatory reminder that I'm watching this show in such a confusing order so if what I'm about to rant about has been addressed before and I'm harping on it unnecessarily I Am Sorry.)
(For anyone curious, this is the post btw)
SO. It feels relevant to mention that my sister and I were talking about All Might in the first place because we were talking about MHA Moments That Haunt Us. For me, it's the 'I am not here' sign hanging around the neck of the All Might statue in Kamino Ward after the Paranormal Liberation War. It literally lives in my brain rent-free 24/7 365 days a year, especially with the AM vs AFO fight being relatively fresh in my mind. The reversal of All Might's catchphrase and all it represents hurts, but to display it at the site of his 'last stand' in Kamino? That's brutal.
All Might vs All For One and how that rematch plays out is so so important to the story for so many reasons, but one of them is that the fight itself is a sacrifice. Toshinori gives everything he has, short of his life, to defeat All For One. He gives up his physical strength, his public image as the unbeatable Symbol of Peace, and, effectively his Quirk ("Goodbye, All For One. Goodbye, One For All" haunts my every waking moment, still!)
This battle is also the culmination of years of All Might's life and heroic philosophy (because Toshinori has been both practicing AND preaching self-sacrifice in the name of the greater good since we met him. It's what he thinks a hero does). Kamino is the sacrifice to end all sacrifices, if you will. Yes, he does get to walk away from the fight with AFO, but he walks away irrevocably different, almost unrecognizable. He's forced to totally change his focus and his mindset and his life. Everything he has given up is made literally visible in the deterioration of his body.
But most most importantly, All Might's sacrifice at Kamino was... all for nothing. Even if AM defeated him in that moment, All For One is free less than a year later. The world is in shambles. People are afraid, and their faith in heroes is crumbling. Heroes are afraid, and this time, they have no idealized symbol to rally behind. When Dostoevsky wrote "Your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing," he was talking about All Might btw.
Toshinori gave this fight (and his career, and being All Might) everything he had, and it still wasn't enough. He sacrificed so much of himself, and so much of how he perceived himself and his purpose, and he didn't even save the world. He just bought them time--and not much of it. I think that's why he's so desperate to keep fighting, no matter the cost, no matter what condition he's in--even 'quite literally half-dead.' He can't let Kamino be the Symbol of Peace's final stand, because Kamino was ultimately for nothing. Instead of saving the world, it has been reframed through the sign on the statue as All Might abandoning the world. And ever since then, he's been scrambling to prove that he is still here.
(There's also probably something here about Sir Nighteye telling him that he was going to die. Since Nighteye used his Quirk on him, Toshinori has been anticipating sacrificing his life for good. Knowing that his entire hero career is effectively a fight to the death has probably maximized his self-sacrificial tendencies.)
#ask#yagi toshinori#bnha all might#mha all might#love of my LIFE#i had more bullet points to include about all might's philosophy of self-sacrifice as both a hero and a teacher#but then i was writing random notes about all might as a product of hero society as opposed to a pillar of it and i felt like that one vide#of the old man going '90% of the time i have no idea what the hell i'm talking about'#it wasn't strictly relevant to this ask but maybe one day it will be it's own post bc toshinori messes me up when i think about him#for longer than 0.5 seconds#this is so word vomit i'm so sorry#liza blather#AND ANOTHER THING. a lot of the pros are self-sacrificial to an extreme (i made a web weave abt it) but all might is one of the few#who actually makes it his PHILOSOPHY. like he passes on the idea of setting yourself on fire to keep others warm as a Good Plan#which is NOT a criticism of him OR his fault it's what he LEARNED to do just like#i can't really blame the ua faculty for the sports fest as messed up as it was bc like. half of them are probably ua alumni. they#probably had their own sports festival. this is just like. not registering as abnormal to them.#okay now i will stop#one thing about me is if i'm not talking about kamino i'm talking about the sports festival#and on the off chance i'm not talking about either i'm talking about the joint training arc
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if you have a question, it is wholly okay and arguably important that you at least sometimes look up the answer. if you aren't sure about information you want to share on social media, you can also double check its veracity prior to sharing. if you still aren't sure after searching for more information yourself, then asking strangers on the internet is fine, but confirm any answers you receive prior to internalizing them. (which you can do by using key terms from others' answers in your subsequent search strings.)
this won't stop you from interacting with others on tumblr dot com. instead, it will deepen those interactions, improve your digital literacy, and prevent me from manifesting as your sleep paralysis demon.
#sorry i just. i'm trying. but i just saw a reblog asking questions answered by the listicle linked in the post. like in the intro.#and several notes/replies doing the same. i'm sure people just skimmed the text at the beginning to read the listicle.#which is fine. but if you have follow up questions re: a list. the intro/preface to the list is a great place to start.#and conjecture isn't necessary when you can like. look things up. and find out why or how or when or where or what.#you don't have to just make up facts that you can look up. you don't have to spread facts you aren't sure are facts either.#and like this is just like a mild and recent example of an ongoing issue that is measurably impacting information flows#if you make confirming/following up on info a habit for the things that don't matter#you'll be better equipped for when it does matter.#btw if you wedge yourself into my notes solely to cauterwaul that the enshittification of Google precludes any self guided learning#then I will eat all of your fingernails right out of your nail beds.#so. factor that into the substance of any replies/reblogs.#(I will gladly offer resources if asked.)#(I will eat your fingernails if you have only defensive justifications for your own refusal to seek out info)#(ignorance is not a problem. Never bothering to even try to learn & refusing self direction is a choice you should keep to yourself)
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I was always under the impression that you are Dutch.... Succesful dutchification
ah huh! i have fooled another one (jk jk).
i am not, i am very much still a humble australian, last time i checked. and unless this ancestry dna test on my desk proves anything otherwise, i remain very much Not Dutch.
#i do think something to note is i have never actually um. claimed to be dutch.#people have always just assumed !?#i am Never beating the allegations people are shocked when i say im not dutch#my dutchification actually intrigues me and i think it should be studied for science#like i fully understand that the netherlands is a Choice but here is my bed i made so i will go and sleep in it#there is a reason i keep that ask pinned on here.#even when i let my mutual who knows who she is read goud i mentioned how i avoided mentioning anne-fleur and merel's high school years#like in depth. bc like. i dont know and thats complex and i could research it but its better not to#it also means i would have had to choose what high school type they went to like ? i have an idea but i didnt wanna do that#anyways long story short she was like to me 'yeah i think you know more than you let on based on this alone'#even though i avoided it because ... i didnt really#anyways idk why thats relevant right now but it came to my mind#but i think that alone is also a sign of success n the dutchification department#now all i need to do is get back into learning dutch and we swell.#also funny is that i can pinpoint the start of my dutchifcation to 2020 and now its been weird to see a bunch of joost fans#essentially go through what i did#i see my past self in some of them. its weird#thanks for the ask i chuckled
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So ofc I have plans to move out once I am able to, but I don't think I can live alone. Ever.
a) I will get scared that there is a Slender-Man-like creature always watching me
b) Shifting from living with 5 people, 3 of who are the shriekiest and loudest gremlins ever encountered, to just living by yourself doesn't sound like a good plan. I will drown in my loneliness.
But mostly because
c) I will not sleep. Ever. If no one reminds me. And I will not eat either. Probably would die out of starvation and dehydration (/nsrs)
Because my dad has to keep reminding me at around 12 that "Hey, it's 12, go tf to sleep" and I scrunch my eyebrows and go "Really?? What??"
Because I looked at the time, 11:30pm, today, and realized that I forgot to eat lunch and dinner. And I hadn't had breakfast either. Just pasta and a couple Tim Tams while at school and iced coffee & a handful of mini sugar biscuits after coming home.
So, to my future roommate: I apologize. Just a tad. Idk how you're gonna put up with me, but I am excellent at looking after other people's healths and will make you warm soup and lemon, honey and ginger tea if you so much as even blow your nose thrice around me in one day.
Call it a mutual symbiotic relationship.
#quotidian convos#i will probably have to keep a shitton of alarms and sticky notes to remind myself of the most menial things#like EATING#how could i have forgotten???#i am so bad at self-care#i wish they taught it at school#cuz at least then i would be looking after myself even if it was for a grade#how do i learn self-care#someone please help me before i forget gravity exists and accidentally fall off a cliff#quotidian is a dumbass and a hazard to herself#but somehow an important player in society#y'all i have a public speaking thing in two days and i'm excited akdjje#SEE I'M GOOD AT SPEAKING TO HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE ON STAGE AND TALKING TO GOVERNORS BUT NOT REMINDING MYSELF TO EAT AND SLEEP???#i am confused with myself#and also sleep-deprived lol its nearly 1:30am#looking for roommates who will put up with my confusing self-preservation skills#any of y'all wanna be the jason to my tim? XD
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i no longer want irl friends, i wanna be bitchy instead
#you see perry the platypus i grew up being gaslit and manipulated so now everytime i see a red flag i assume it's me who is being a bitch#like... i think that objectively this is a red flag... but on the other hand... what if my standards are just way too high?#what if i'm just too judgy? what if this is normal behavior and i'm the one in the wrong?#what if i'm truly a prissy brat who can't take a joke?#what if what if what if what if#and i'm tired of the what ifs#but what if it's my fault i can't never keep friends?#note to future self: this is how she makes you feel please stop letting her back in#these have been a really triggering couple of weeks#i have been having constant auras due to the stress#so... learn something and stop allowing her into your life#now i need an exit strategy tho#txtjessefantastico
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