#oh well too late now lmao

[rememberthelaughtermp3]

I've got 3 separate projects I'm working on rn and a minimum of 3 tests next week that I haven't yet studied for. I am so fucked.

[yoonstudios]

the prettiest smile on earth. | 🍊 | for → @sopekooks ↳ suchwita episodes #1 and #2

[hotcheetohatredwastaken]

Local writer bullied into drawing, it is now 11 so you get the full story.

Anyways the prompt was draw your blorbo looking in a mirror before and after trauma. I drew fanart of my own fic in the hopes that it would motivate me to write (it did not). Anyways, in BDOR, Wild already had trauma, but he gets more trauma by the end of the story. So uh, spoilers? He smiling now he eventually becomes happy. Probably.

Anyways, here it is. Might color it one day if I figure how to color digitally. I don’t draw XD I was told to scan it, and I did, but I don’t know how to upload the scan itself so I took a screenshot of the scan, sorry for the bad quality. Wow, that is blurry fr XD. If anyone knows how to upload a scan to tumblr, tips are appreciated

[preseriesdean]

STIRB NICHT VOR MIR — RAMMSTEIN

[purgaytorysupremacy]

oh nuts. a life experience has given me a new layer of perspective on Cas's homosexual declaration of love to Dean.

recently I had occasion to tell a person I had feelings for them knowing full well they didn't feel even a twinge of the same thing for me. while the whole thing was a decidedly unpleasant experience, I kept laughing at myself internally bc I didn't want to say "the happiness is just in saying it" like fucking Castiel over here. (we don't need to talk about it, it's fine.) (I am happier having said it and it's kind of bullshit, but I digress.)

because the thing is, the happiness isn't in just saying it, right? the happiness is in the having. I made a whole TikTok "proving" that the Empty didn't come for Cas when he confessed his love, but rather when he realized Dean loved him back. even for Cas, the happiness was in the having, not in the saying, however brief it was.

and I've always been one of those people who rolled their eyes at the whole concept. why would the happiness be in just being, in just saying it, if it's right there in front of you to have. and then it hit me like a tonne of bricks (as I was washing my kitchen counters).

Cas really didn't think he could have Dean.

at all. in any capacity. he really, truly, and honestly felt to the depths of himself that Dean did not have any twinge of similar feelings, that this really was a Hail Mary shot-in-the-dark. and I think me, personally, really didn't understand that about Cas. that his belief in his love being unrequited was that unshakable.

something else I've been pondering is how audiences have so much more empathy for fictional characters who share traits that IRL they find objectionable and unappealing. but the thing is about fictional characters is that we follow them around in their most private, vulnerable moments. we see Dean mourning Cas when he dies, literally killing himself because he can't live without him, but it's so easy to forget that we're the omniscient ones here.

Cas never knew.

Dean's whole thing was pushing him away, keeping him at arm's length, making it seem like whatever heroic thing he does for Cas he'd do for anyone. he downplays how important it is for Dean to share the Deancave with him, to show him his favourite movies, share his favourite songs. he acts like the things Cas does for him don't mean that much to hide how much they do mean. he uses "we" whenever he even gets in the vicinity of expressing a feeling. "We were worried." "We're glad you're back." "We needed a win." "You're our brother." The audience knew the difference. We saw how he'd clench his jaw or swallow hard or make a face that said "God, I'm being such an idiot". Because we saw him in those little moments. We got to see the cracks in the mask.

but Cas never knew.

the self-hating angel of Thursday was never going to think it was all a way for Dean to protect himself. obviously, that's the delicious tragedy of it all, but what I think I realized at the end of all that is Cas confessing his love to a Dean who didn't love him back wouldn't have worked. Because the happiness really is in the having. If happiness was just in saying it, then The Empty would have come before Cas even finished getting the words out of his mouth.

so Cas's plan wouldn't have worked if Dean didn't love him back.

this is just me yapping on about my own nonsense, but I do think it's really interesting. there's contentment in "just saying it". there's freedom and relief and an unburdening. I think one can argue that it makes being happy in the being easier. there is certainly some joy in telling a person you think that highly of them. but true happiness?

nah.

true happiness is always going to only be in the having. Cas didn't understand the difference until he experienced it, and by then, it was too late.

[moregraceful]

max and i are closing in on launching [redacted sports rpf charity fest] and i am once again pondering how do i write "experience with writing form emails and manipulating google forms in ways no one has dreamed of" in a cover letter without saying "i did it for the rpf grind"...like there's no way unless everyone in this microsoft teams meeting gets really cool about a bunch of stuff really quickly. you know

[archivesweats]

Since I just write my pens dry instead of doing some kind of weekly or monthly setup, I decided to do a currently inked page in my ink journal when a significant number of them has switched up. But I like the little grids so much and I like seeing how the colours interact, so I’ve decided to make slightly larger scale currently inked grids on loose leaf tomoe river paper every time I switch an ink out. I just feel like it would be so satisfying to flip through them and see the colours switching out gradually. Not sure how long I’ll stick it out, but we’ll see. Still very much figuring out what I like

[sunlethes]

[rowanisawriter]

me 40k words into a story i wrote originally thinking i ate: wait a minute is this…. Shit…….??,

[shortcakelils]

Lily maybe you can try make cuphead jealous like when mugman makes chai jealous. (Give a kiss to a stranger)

[just-call-mefr1es]

how i draw freedom

how i also draw freedom

[beevean]

I find the "Early Hint Card 3" exploit in HoD very very fun

I don't think it has an official name, but it goes way beyond collecting that hint card lol

As early as getting the double jump, in the fifth area in the game, you can backtrack to the Entrance (best done by saving before the Giant Bat boss, never saving again, then quicksaving to go back there) and do the Ice/Fist glitch to get to an area you're supposed to access after collecting the Griffin Wing. A late item game. The reward for defeating Death.

Your immediate rewards are a candle that keeps dropping 400 gold, the Platinum Tip (the last and strongest tip for your whip, giving you a whopping STR+20), and the aforementioned Hint Card 3.

Which for a while won't do anything, but then you meet Death, who unlocks the portals... and suddenly, instead of just being able to teleport from Clock Tower A to Clock Tower B, you can also teleport to Entrance A... and from there, to Entrance B.

In the same room where you find the Platinum Tip, now there's an early Lure Key to collect. This fixes one of my biggest grips with the game: locking most warp rooms until the end of the game. No, with this one, you can access them earlier! Such as the ones in the Luminous Cavern, or the ones in the Top Floor.

But then, if you want to, you can explore Entrance B, Marble Gallery B, and Wailing Way/Shrine of the Apostates B. The very last areas of the game.

Sadly, it's not very convenient item-wise. To get the Crushing Boots in the Wailing Way, necessary to get the Rib of Vlad in the Entrance, you need the Griffin's Wing anyway. However, exploring those end-game areas can still be useful: you can find late-game items that make you even stronger, such as the Twilight Cloak, and you can level up to dizzying speed, because you're so underleveled that enemies will give you around 500EXP per kill! That means you can more or less level up every 4 enemies!

And to go back, you can either hold onto your Fist and reattempt the Ice/Fist glitch, farm the 0 enemy in the Room of Illusions until it drops one, or you can do a quicksave and then basically do a No Death Run. This is excruciantly hard: enemies can kill you in two hits, or even one in the case of the Cyclop. But if one wants a challenge, there you go :P

And yeah, this is what makes it fun. It's a nice challenge in an otherwise very easy game. It's also fun to do things out of order (in a limited fashion): it makes HoD look more like a Metroid game than a Castlevania game. I think this is effectively why this is one of my favorite titles in the series :)

[deus-ex-mona]

new chuutan illust!!!

[halfbit]

i want to wait till i finish up all of the first three comms and post them together so full pictures will have to wait but! i am very proud of these wings so sharing a little peekaboo :>

^ mr-orion's ray

also i thought this character suited a rougher feel so i'm going wild with the manual hatching for the hair

this one isnt a comm its a sketch of solei </3 i like the hair but i want to redo the face so its Very cropped but yeah. im trying to draw my characters with the same energy i give comms more so that i have nicer art to show of them thats not just sketches but it is HARD when you arent in the habit of it

ive also got some more monster practice sketches and doodles to share but ill confine those to their own post later aaa

[oysters-aint-for-me]

i feel like my mental/behavioral health has gotten to the point where i don’t just need therapy, i need treatment. ykwim

[saintadeline]

Finally got to work on something I've been wanting to do for ages, the research hall patients' harness :)

(for context/ingame 👇)