#only to realize YEARS later that i had a fucking crush on her!!! 🤡

[goldennika]

met up with an internet friend for the first time last week and i couldn’t help but feel that maybe i was “too much” in some aspect and might have turned her off from wanting to keep in touch with me after our first live encounter

i was replaying our meeting in my head and started thinking “maybe i was too loud” “was i speaking too much?” “was i being self-centered and talked about my own experiences too much?” “did i monopolize the conversation?”

but i tried to remind myself that she said this won’t be the last time we’ll meet, asked to take photos of us together, and posted it online that same night saying she was really happy we finally got to meet (you can’t always trust social media since people mostly treat it as a highlight reel but i’ll take it as a win all the same)

we’ve also since continued to send each other memes and txt/kpop updates since we met up last weekend so i guess it’s still all good?

and she also shared some photos of her growing txt pin collection (i gifted her an a:sm pin) without me prompting her so i guess that’s also still really good?