man especially having now read the flashbacks i think about how hard xie lian always tries and how many people have told him that he tries too hard, that he never should have bothered and that doing so made things worse, or even more commonly just hating on him for not fixing things or being arrogant or whatever they think his problem is. and some of those people are probably even coming from caring places!
but before hua cheng, had anyone ever sat next to him and said, you tried and that's good, it matters that you cared, you did your best. nobody could have done better than you.
how badly must xie lian have needed that?
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Can I just talk about why I’m so utterly devastated that Aziraphale chose the job in Heaven? Over being together with Crowley? First, I feel like Azirapahle should know that heaven is 100% trying to use and manipulate him by giving him this position. He has seen time and time again what literally all of the other angels think of him for remaining on earth, associating with Crowley in anyway, and literally stopping Armageddon. He is the most hated angel to exist (perhaps besides Gabriel), and he should know that none of the angels will ever truly like him or care about him. Not in the way that Crowley will. Also, he really should have learned from what happened to Gabriel. This was Heaven’s Chosen Archangel, and when Gabriel dared to choose a demon, when he dared to have a different opinion and decide that Armageddon wasn’t such a good idea after all (which is exactly what Aziraphale has done throughout the entire show), Gabriel was immediately cast out, threatened with destruction, and had all his memories erased. It is completely beyond me how Aziraphale doesn’t realize he is dangerously close to following that same path and that taking this job will leave him under the threat of such punishment for basically eternity. Gabriel was the Archangel, and even he was not safe. I know Aziraphale wants to do good, I know he wants to make a difference, but it just seems so inadvisable to do it by taking such an obviously dangerous position.
Second, another thing Aziraphale should have realized is that there’s no way Crowley would ever want to go back to heaven. Crowley said in season 1 that he won’t ever be forgiven. “Unforgivable, that’s what I am.” Crowley has been trying for the last 6000 years to convince Aziraphale that in all the ways that count, heaven is no better than hell and being an angel doesn’t actually mean you’re good. Crowley has been extremely vocal about his distaste for the Ineffable Plan, the wrath and punishment of God, and his hatred for Gabriel and any other angels that have threatened Aziraphale in the past. He’s just expressed so much dislike for heaven and God and angels that it absolutely blows my mind that Aziraphale would think Crowley would be excited about being “restored.” It just seems like such a fundamental part of Crowley‘s character: he will never be content to follow orders and he always asks questions when he knows something isn’t right. And Aziraphale is the one who should know Crowley best, and has known him for thousands of years, and apparently Aziraphale doesn’t even understand that about him. I’m not sure if I think that Aziraphale really should have known this and wouldn’t have offered the choice to Crowley, or if I’m just disappointed in Aziraphale because he did. I know Aziraphale has all the brainwashing and toxic culture of heaven to deal with, but Crowley has been trying to show him for 6000 years and Aziraphale would probably know better than anyone about the suffering that has been caused by heaven and God. (Not to mention the fact that Gabriel was able to do this and overcome millennia of brainwashing and toxic ideology in just 4 freaking years) So it’s really hard to accept that Aziraphale would be excited and take this position at all since there’s just so many reasons why it’s the absolute worst thing for him to do right now. His options are literally: the worst choice imaginable, or, be with Crowley and get everything he (or at least Crowley) has ever wanted. I know that Aziraphale still has to get to the point where he wants Crowley more than he wants heaven but damn does it hurt while he takes literal millennia to figure it out.
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I’m watching the older ii3 episodes and UGHH there was SO MUCH good buildup between Balloon and Nickel being friends and it seemed like such a GENUINE friendship where they really did care about eachother (episode 6 always will be my favorite example of their friendship)
And the fact that was all scorned and scorched in the most recent eps for just like?? Drama??? When they could’ve been an actually good duo (even trio with Bot!!) that stuck by eachothers sides through the merge (and tbh eventually got picked off by the other alliances). Which would’ve been a lot more interesting considering Nickel’s development through the season
Instead it felt like they took two steps forward in Nickel’s arc and then like, 10 steps back! I get change isnt linear but he!! Literally apologized in episode 5 for being overprotective towards box and devaluing the sinkers!!! That’s a step in the right direction!!!
In later eps he could possibly struggle with working up the courage to apologize to Balloon for s2 and that could’ve been a finality to his arc and it would’ve been decent!! He could’ve gotten eliminated some time after that too, and then there could’ve been a cut to indefinite island at the end of the Ep (like there usually is) where Nickel decides on leaving the island, remarking that “there’s someone else I have to say sorry to”
But no apparently not!! Apparently Nickel believes that what he did wasn’t so bad and Balloon and Suitcase should just get over it!! It’s just so frustrating bcs there was a lot of build up for nothing
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YEAH........... YEAH..... LIKEWISE, NO NOTES AT ALL, THAT'S EXACTLY IT... Main antagonist deaths are often treated as "comeuppance," but that would be the ultimate comeuppance for Aoki. As it stands, the only people who actually suffer for it are Ichiban and Jo, and Ichi didn't even do anything wrong. Also please I'm positive there's more to wring out of Aoki and Jo for an essay 😭😭at the very least, I always love to hear your perspective!
"he'd made a social circle for himself where people predominantly liked him for the power and influence" <- incredibly Mine-core of Aoki btw (I also feel the rest applies a little in terms of Mine probably being very quick to write off people who Do care about him as not caring about him, as with Katase, but it's nowhere near the extent of the Arakawas)
Wait actually it's kind of funny... for both Mine and Aoki, I was so sure their endings would go a certain way. Mine and Kiryu'd fight Richardson off together and Ichi'd, I don't know, shield Aoki or hug him so Kume couldn't get to him in the first place, or after that INSANE direct parallel to Arakawa running to the hospital with Masato, he'd miraculously pull through like he did on New Year's. Tormented with visions of the better timeline... With Aoki in particular, it makes me want to tear my hair out because the moment of him choosing to put the gun in the locker was REVOLUTIONARY for the series, looking at the characters he was most heavily based on.
Anyway. Bottom line. These bitches need to hug it out. It was so evil Arakawa didn't hug Ichi at Omi HQ or on the waterfront like bro stop being """manly""" for five seconds you're ruining my life you're ruining your own lives
There'd genuinely be nothing more painful yet more satisfying for an antagonist than being confronted with the consequences of their actions and having to navigate life after having making those decisions, ESPECIALLY when it comes to mending the bonds that- for anyone else- would have shattered long ago. With Aoki being motivated by the want to be loved and appreciated for himself, it would've been nice to see him finally acknowledge that he did have that love and start to better himself as a result (however much he'd be able to while in prison anyway lmao).
The Mine and Aoki comparisons are so real though, I remember joking to myself about it days after beating the game but it just fuels my mental illness every time I think about it ☠️ I LEGALLY AM NOT ALLOWED TO GO OFF ABOUT THE Y7 ENDING I'VE DONE IT TOO MUCH it makes me so mad every time I think about it 😭 ESPECIALLY THE PARALLELS WITH ARAKAWA AND THE LOCKERS UGGGHHH IT COULD HAVE BEEN SUCH AN EPIC CONCLUSION WITH THAT... Arakawa running from the lockers at the start of Aoki's life compared to Ichiban running from the lockers and getting Aoki to the hospital so Aoki can restart life I'm Going To Kill Someone (myself) (in Minecraft)
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Trying to explain my hopes for unhinged chaotic murder Player TWO for Missing Link is hard without falling into the quicksand pits of Drakenier color symbolism.
IT IS SO UNCANNY THAT THE DEFAULT PLAYER FOR MISSING LINK HAS NO COLOR IN THEIR OUTFIT
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Psst. Just wanted to let you know that you're cool and I hope you have a really nice day today! You seem to be Goin Through It™ and I just wanted to let you know that we (your followers) like you no matter the quantity of stuff you're able to make at any given time (though we most certainly do like what you make, but that's not why most of us stay, I believe); you're very funny and have insightful opinions about writing, and you're always super nice when I stop by to say hi! Please remember to be kind to your mind and heart this upcoming Spring. I hope The Delights come into your life in leaps and bounds, and that you'll receive good news soon!!! <33
ooh...ohh.h.....th.ank you for the kind words........
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https://www.tumblr.com/afsaneh-jaan/178972755049/goretober-day-9-infected-so-hmmmm
*stabs you with angst* >:3
You wound me, Rai. I thought we were friends 😭
Beautiful art, tho! Painful, but very beautiful.
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look i know I KNOW its time for ides of march jokes n dont even get me wrong they ARE quite teehee funny haha,,, but damn if “... and you, child?” doesnt make me TEAR UP-
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