Life’s not a song. Life isn’t bliss. Life is just this: it’s living. You’ll get along. The pain that you feel only can heal by living. You have to go on living. So one of us is living.
Once More With Feeling | Buffy the Vampire Slayer, 6x07
OOOkay, so the pic says for bookworms, but this is tumblr, home of multi-media fandoms, so the rules are you can pick any character from a book, comic, TV show, movie, etc. You only get to pick two of your pills at the end, and then tag two friends.
AMNESIA PILL - You have the chance to read a book as if you had never read it before: A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith
LOVE PILL - You can make a fictional character fall in love with you: Don't judge me, because I recognize these are both terrible choices, but Spuffy is my OTP, so I can't choose Spike. Either Tommy Shelby (Peaky Blinders) or Uhtred Ragnarsson (The Last Kingdom).
SACRIFICE PILL - You can revive any dead fictional character: Oh gosh... it's a hard call between Finnick Odair (The Hunger Games) or Fezco (Euphoria), but I would have to pick Fezco because that would mean that Angus was also still alive. 😥
LIFE PILL - You can make any fictional character come to real life: Katniss Everdeen, because I wish the Mockingjay was real and she could be the catalyst to fix the fucked up society we live in.
TRAVEL PILL - You can visit any fictional world: Not one specific world, but the USS Enterprise so I could check out multiple worlds (in theory).
BODY PILL - You can change bodies with any fictional character: Buffy Summers (Buffy the Vampire Slayer)
THE TWO PILLS I CHOOSE: Sacrifice Pill (Fezco/Euphoria) & Love Pill (Tommy Shelby/Peaky Blinders or Uhtred Ragnarsson/The Last Kingdom)
1 - What ship were you completely obsessed with when you were a teenager, but now you don’t care about anymore?
Hmm, I’m trying to think. I don’t have the best memory of my life as a teen, it was pretty hectic and I didn’t get my first personal computer with internet access until I was 18 years old. So I wasn’t really into the fandom spaces yet, I guess I’ll go with Buffy and Spike? I loved them as a couple so much and now I’m just like; meh, whatever.
2 - Which ship would you consider your first one?
Sailor Moon and Tuxedo Mask, I was just kid but I was very very invested in them finally kissing lol. Me and my older sister used to watch the English version that they aired in the West in the 90’s, so it wasn’t even a dubbed Anime it was legit changed for American audiences.
Note: I am not American, but you get my point.
3 - Your first fanfic belonged to which couple?
The first fic I ever wrote I think might have belonged to Willow and Tara 🤔 I’m trying to remember, I’m pretty sure it was Willow and Tara.
4 - Do you remember the first couple you saw fanart of?
Not really, I was never on the fanart side of fandom spaces because of my total and absolute lack of talent lol. So I’m not really sure what fanart I came across for the very first time, knowing my luck it was something cursed on Google that I accidentally stumbled upon and thus blocked from my memory.
5 - Did you ever get into ship discourse?
Not really, I once stopped interacting with an entire fandom when I started getting attacked because I happened to like a bisexual character with a character of the opposite sex better than with a character of the same sex. Basically I was being called homophobic and other terrible things because I was reblogging het gif sets and pics instead of lesbian gif sets and pics. The fandom for this series was extremely toxic and I actually stopped watching the series because of how much the fandom tainted it for me, all because I thought the het couple had better chemistry then the sapphic couple, that’s all. The character was canonically bisexual and had dated both of the other characters at one point or another on the show, I just thought she happened to work better with the male character. Sigh, people are weird.
6 - Did you used to have a NOTP or have any currently?
Yes, back in the day when I was very active in the Whovian fandom, I was very much against shipping Gwen and Jack from Torchwood. They were my NOTP, not gonna lie, they’re lowkey still my NOTP lol.
7 - Who were the couple in the last fanfic you read?
AlanJeff, I’m still very much stuck in my ‘Alan and Jeff live happily ever after’ phase of mourning Pit Babe’s ending lol.
8 - Currently do you have any OTPs?
Oh man *cracks knuckles* let me just hop onto my AO3 history, my current obsessions OTPs are;
SeanWhite, ToddBlack, AkkAyan, AlanJeff, PhayaTharn, KaranAchi, PheeJin, Tae Myungha x Cha Yeowoon, Sangwoo x Jaeyoung and Lan Wangji x Wei Wuxian.
Those are the ones that I can confidently say I consider OTPs atm.
9 - Is there any couple that to this day you are extremely mad about them not getting together?
I mean, does it even have to be said?
10 - Is there any ship that you used to dislike but now you think are kind of interesting?
Hmm, I don’t think so. Chances are if I disliked the ship before, I’d probably still dislike it now.
11 - Do you have a ship that in the past was considered ‘normal’ but now you would be cancelled over?
Ginger and Bridgette from Ginger Snaps, it’s an incest ship because they’re sisters but to be fair to teenage me, the writer and director both talked about how they purposely played up the fact that the pair were borderline incestual. Especially as Ginger became more and more feral (it’s a werewolf horror trilogy), she sexualized her relationship with her sister because that’s what her animal instincts were telling her to do. As she crawled over her talking about masturbation before whispering in her ear; it’s like we’re not even related anymore. I’m pretty sure teenage me has a glitch as my brain tried to figure out why that was so hot.
They continued to play up that whole ‘animals fuck their own family in the wild’ angle in both the sequel and the prequel, the story purposely was saying that there was no one for them but each other.
So yeah, I fell for it. I was a horny and sexually confused 15 year old who had a crush on the main actress of the trilogy lol, of course I shipped them.
12 - What’s your favourite crack ship?
Crack ship? I don’t really know, I mean what even is a crack ship anymore, ya know? In this day and age, most fandom spaces allow you to ship whoever the fuck you want, rule 34 was long ago blown past by shippers and now it feels like crack ships are a thing of the past.
13 - Who is the couple you’ve read the most fanfics of?
Probably Sterek, Destiel is a close second but I’m going to say Sterek with like 88% certainty that I’m correct lol.
14 - What do most of your ships usually have in common?
15 - What do you absolutely hate in a ship?
Miscommunication! I absolutely loathe it when a ship is on the rocks or breaks up because no one would just fucking talk to each other! It drives me insane, because like just speak to one another, why is that so impossible!? I’m in a poly relationship IRL, I have been for over 16 years. When you’re dating more than one person, the idea of not communicating is just baffling! Communication is key! Like, what? Is this just a monogamous thing!? Why can’t the characters just talk to one another, open and honest dialogue. Arg!… so yeah, miscommunication gets me a little heated lmao.
Tagging! I’m not sure who to tagged so I’m going to go and pick the last five mutuals in my notifs and hope you don’t mind me tagging you lol. @oh-goodness-loki @crapyouknowme @jdotsodomite @jeonghanurl @italianpersonwithashippersheart
~ 3 ships: Only 3!?! Bughead my OTP, LoVe before the season 4 Veronica Mars revival ruined everything and Delana from Vampire Diaries 💛
~ first ever ship: Probably Buffy and Spike from Buffy the Vampire Slayer....my first ship I was passionate about...or Joey and Pacey from Dawson’s Creek too ❤️
~ last song: I’m Good (Blue) by Bebe Rexha and David Guetta
~ last movie: Some romance movie on Prime TV
~ currently reading: some fanfic and online books, but i just finished a romance called North by Vanessa Vale and I am going to start a book by Lauren Landish soon
~ currently watching: the only show I am currently up to date on is Walker. But i am watching many to catch up. I also watch crime documentaries quite often
~ currently consuming: coffee....surprise surprise
~ currently craving: chinese food, specifically chow mein...but that’s normal for me lol
ANGELUS: Don't mistake me. I do love the ladies. It's just lately, I've been wondering what it'd be like to share the slaughter of innocents with another man. Don't... don't think that makes me some kind of a deviant, hmm? Do you?
~~Destiny~~
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[Drabbles & Short Fiction]
Banshee by EllieRose101 (Buffy/Spike, T)
At the Heart of It by ifonlyiwaswittier (Xander, Scoobies, G)
Banshee by EllieRose101 (Buffy/Spike, T)
Banshee by EllieRose101 (Buffy/Spike, R)
[Chaptered Fiction]
Dig Your Teeth Into Me, Chapter Two by kindofadeviant (Spike/Angel, E)
When in Rome Ch. 74 by OldGirl-NoraArlani (Spike x Dawn, Andrew, OC, T, in French)
Next Time Won't You Sing With Me Ch. 12 by Willow-98 (temporary Buffy/Angel, eventual Buffy/Spike, T)
This took much longer than expected. I should have expected it though because I always write too much. Thank you so much for the ask, @dottie-wan-kenobi! I enjoyed getting the chance to ponder and flail about fandom!
U - 5 favorite characters from 5 different fandoms
Persona 5: Goro Akechi. My poor little meow meow. His duality fascinates me: who he presents himself to be vs. who he really is, who he wanted to be as a child vs. who he has become now. His slow realization that he’s merely the puppet of more powerful forces in the game (Shido, Yaldabaoth (though he doesn’t quite know this), and Maruki) is heartbreaking, as are the choices that he makes to break free from that control.
Yuri on Ice: Yuuri Katsuki. He is so important to me. He’s so wrapped up in his head, striving for acknowledgement, for success, for Victor, that he doesn’t see his own talent or how bright of a light that he is. His blossoming over the course of the show is lovely. I desperately wish for a season two of the show (or the long delayed movie) because I want to see more of Yuuri’s journey to discover life and love.
Bungou Stray Dogs: Nakahara Chuuya. I am in aesthetic lust with his design. There’s just something about it that calls to me. The red hair, the jaunty hat, the even jauntier grin, the choker and the coat. He’s a pintsized powerhouse and so achingly human (despite his less than human origins). His dynamic with Dazai is fascinating, and I wish we got to see more of him in the anime & manga.
Final Fantasy XV: Prompto Argentum. See above re: Nakahara Chuuya being so achingly human despite his origins. See above re: Yuuri Katsuki and his anxiety and lack of belief in himself. See above re: Goro Akechi and the power of Robbie Daymond as a voice actor. He’s an anxious ball of sunshine just trying to keep up with royalty, and I love how he helps Noctis to feel human, despite the literal weight of the world on his shoulders.
Game of Thrones: Sansa Stark. Sansa for queen. I found her story the most compelling in the show (it’s been too long since I’ve read the books for me to comment on them). She has such a hard, relentless reality check. The little songbird is nearly crushed by the cruelty of the world, but she finds a way to survive in the figurative lion’s den, without any physical or mystical prowess. She should have been Queen of all Westeros at the end, not just Queen of the North.
V - 3 OTPs from 3 different fandoms
Persona 5: Goro Akechi x Akira Kurusu (Ren Amamiya). Because, to paraphrase Hegel, advancement cannot occur without both thesis and antithesis. Because they are two sides of the same coin. Because in other circumstances they could have been great rivals, maybe even friends. Because Akira is the one person that Goro refuses to lose to. Because Akira held on to the glove. Because Goro being alive & his real, angry, jaded self is Akira’s greatest wish.
Avatar: Katara x Zuko. Because one rises with the moon and the other rises with the sun. Because Katara offered to heal his scar. Because Zuko went with her to find her mother’s killer. Because Katara went with him to confront his sister. Because Zuko threw himself in front of lightning to protect Katara.
Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Buffy and Spike. Because they are my first online OTP. Because Spike would rather be fighting her (and because the feeling is mutual). Because Spike knows that he’s a monster, but Buffy treats him like a man. Because Buffy asked him to stay. Because Spike made a promise to a lady. Because 147 days yesterday and 148 days today.
W - 5 favorite ships and 5 kinks you like best for said ships
Yuri on Ice: Victor x Yuuri. Yuuri & his stamina just wrecking Victor
Trigun Stampede: Vash x Wolfwood. Wolfwood calling Vash ‘angel’
Bungou Stray Dogs: Dazai x Chuuya. Emotional honesty
Game of Thrones: Jon x Sansa. Jon going down on Sansa like a champ
Persona 5: Goro x Akira. Philosophical debates as foreplay
X - top 5-10 characters who are yoUR PRECIOUS BABIES AND YOU WILL DIE DEFENDING THEM