#please I'm so starving for the merch I have to make my own

[rjnkn]

shimada beans

[sciderman]

I love the white boxes even after I found out it was Madcap I was tortured and disappointed after marvel took them away and I harbor a conspiracy theory that they only did that because he was getting popular and they wanted to make him more normal/marketable instead of the wacky/extremely dangerous crazy guy he used to be it was a horrible day for me! Thank you for having them!!!!

i think it's misguided to think that making wade more "normal" would make him more marketable - i think the boxes were something popular at the time, and still the leading deadpool portrayal you see on t-shirts and pop-culture is that "crazy" version of wade – i see the boxes on deadpool merch all the time. it's a selling point. it's what makes him unique. it's very marketable. more marketable than boring box-less wade.

i think it's the worry about sensitivity – i think marvel might've gotten complaints, or anticipated complaints about the portrayal of mental disorder and realised they're too inept or too non-commital to actually write a sensitive depiction of it - so erased the risk. made wade safe.

i realise that this might sound like i'm saying "woke culture" killed deadpool - but - fact is, a lot of writers and companies are so afraid of causing offence that they make any representation so, so watered down and inoffensive that it's barely representation at all. any representation has to be "good" representation, and some writers are so afraid of getting it wrong that they won't even try and take the risk.

i mean - i write about things that i don't necessarily have a personal knowledge of - but, things that i think are interesting and i've seen in other places and in other people that i know - i try to write as sensitively as possible, from a place of empathy and you know - with my own experiences and understanding of emotions and brains and everything. and it resonates. i get such an overwhelming response from people who see themselves in wade and have experiences that align with his. and sure - there are topics i'm wary of delving into, because i worry that i wouldn't do it right, but you wouldn't get all this resonation with readers on a personal level if you don't take the risk and talk about the uncomfortable stuff. human minds aren't always a pretty picture - and representation doesn't always have to be good, and pretty and aspirational. sometimes people want to see something honest. and that's not going to be pretty, all the time.

that's the problem i have with present deadpool, i think - he's so, so safe. so, so watery. i kind of talked a little bit about it yesterday with someone - i don't know when it happened - but wade in present comics is such an empty cutesification of himself.

i don't... i don't know when he got so cutesy. but there's so very little going on with him. he's kind of just there to look cute and be the fan-favourite, with very little else going on with him. and it's kind of unsatisfying for me, who's always looking for something meatier. please... where is the meat... everything is vegan these days and i am starving...

[14thcommander]

Do you have any tips for making friends with people? I just moved to a new school and it's so scary trying to talk to people, I feel like they can sense my desperation cause it's so obvious but at the same time i can't rlly hide it cause I'm so desperate lol

hello, friend!

first of all, i genuinely hope you’re over the age of 18 years old — i’m only saying this cause you mentioned school and it made me suspicious. if you’re under age, please block me :)! this is for both of our safeties and well beings.

in case you’re 18+, and are still here: i’m personally bad with social norms and social cues, but something that usually helps me is being open to dialogue and polite. you’ll be surprised with how many people are out there starving for a little piece of social interaction!

look for people in a similar situation to yours, maybe you can start conversation over a mutual topic: being lost in a new place, complimenting someone who’s wearing merch from a band you really like, smiling, etc.

(please note that this works in my culture, and it might not work on yours! everyone is different and every place has its own diverse set of social norms. i hope you can find friends who are nice to you! good luck xx)

[publicstar0356]

I shall begin an all-new, all-homo blog! (I'm definitely not like 10 years behind on starting a blog lol).

I shall dub it JustSomeDude™! (I was gonna make it "Just Some Dude™", but when you Google that name you get a DeviantArt account that posts fat fetish art💀💀💀)

I talk about random bullshit here, basically whatever topic I feel like enlightening the masses about that particular day. And of course, because I am the most interesting man on earth, I'll also talk a lot about my life. You will listen to my whining, you will read my page, and you will consume product! Buy my merch!!!!!

Anyways, the inaugural installment of JustSomeDude™ focuses around the single most engaging, interesting topic of all the universes; The Big Sad.

Yep, I'm sad. Got broken up with by the woman I thought was The One, turned out she was the ½. Shit sucks bro. So please, all none of you reading this, beam to me your validation! Praise me this exact instant! I need all the shallow reinforcement I can get!

Ok, to drop the funni haha act for a sec and hit upon a more vulnerable note,a less funni, it truly is devastating to me. She was my first true love, I earnestly thought I would spend my life with her. Obviously, didn't play out that way lol.

It's been 2 weeks now. You'd think time would dull the pain, and what do you know? You'd be right. It's not nearly as bad as it was initially, yet I feel an agonizing emptiness inside my Self. I have navigated beyond grief over the idea of the relationship. I miss her and her specifically, not just the concept of having a girlfriend.

Truly and honestly, I have never had anyone else in my life comparable to her. I shared an intimacy with her that is beyond pre-relationship-me's comprehension. Obviously, having someone to do the sex with was cool and all, but beyond bodily pleasure, I miss her presence. I miss spending time with her, kissing and holding her in my arms, miss having my best friend, closest confidant, and favorite person all wrapped into one. I could go on an unbearably sappy rant about all the things I miss about her, like her freckles, beautiful brown eyes, her smile, her b- Wait a fucking second, I did again! Fuck!!!

Anyways, sorry about that. Just had to put my emotional side back where it belongs (locked and starving in my basement, right next to the 14 children).

Anyways, haha funni! Wanna hear a joke? My life! All you have to do is self deprecate to hide the pain! Afterall, if you refuse to acknowledge it, it doesn't exist. Much like Santa Claus, and the Federal Reserve.

I don't have a good seque into concluding this smattering of words, so I'm going to cheat and lampshade it. Am I being ironic? Am I using satire? Am I just being lazy? Yes.

Boom, instant segue. Basically, I will regularly add to this blog whenever I have something I feel like I need to express. I've found that expressing my emotions helps expel them, or otherwise they're remain entombed within my vessel, blighting the miniature clown people who pilot my body. I hope that people will read this, but honestly I just don't know. If a lot of people read this (which for clarification's sake, I absolutely don't expect to happen), I will be much more active and put significantly more effort into increasing the quality of my writing. I'm very good at revising my own work and drastically improving it, but it takes a whole lot of time, effort, and work. Anyways like, subscribe, and ring that be- wait, I'm a blog shill, not a YouTube shill. Fuck!

[mirkwoodsprinceofdoingtoomuch]

Check out my new merch shop on Redbubble!

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All I want to say today is if you're passionate about something, follow your dreams. Whether you succeed or fail, at least you tried. That's what this journey is for me.

If you would like to help out this starving queer artist of color, please visit my shop on Redbubble, or check out my page on Patreon where you will be able to follow along as I write my book, but also receive bonus content exclusive to Patrons.

The other side of the coin is this:

I moved back home to Washington state in January when I first had the idea to start a Patreon for my writing and art, but I knew it wouldn't grow as fast as I needed it to. So, I applied for State benefits and assistance right when I got home, and then our state went on lockdown because of COVID.

I've been without a job and therefore a means of taking care of myself, for about 3 months since the lockdown went into effect. I live with my cousin in a small farm town where the options for what I can do are extremely limited. And now I'm at risk of becoming homeless if I can't find a way to support myself by the time my cousin is ready to move again. She's made it clear that I'm not doing enough and need more to show for what I have done, and it's unacceptable that I don't have a job yet.

Last week was brutal, it was hard and stressful, and I was on the verge of just ending it all so I won't have to be a burden on anyone else. I'm still struggling with that feeling now. I've put in so many applications to places hiring all around town. But I also have physical limitations to what I can do, and all of the places that are currently hiring in my town, are either looking for people with more experience than I have, or for people who can do more physically demanding tasks than I can.

So, while I'm still out there applying for jobs and going to interviews, even the ones I know will be dangerous for my health, I am also taking my passion for writing and creating art into my own hands, and making it work for me.

(If you would like a glimpse into what you'll be supporting, head over to my Patreon at the link above, and check out the teaser post for my WIP novel, Realm of Light.)

Any and all support means the world to me, thank you!

Light and Love to all.

~Lia 💜✨

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