#pray for me lul

[mothwingwritings]

Yooo i missed your posts so much so glad your back can’t wait for the taiju chap <3

TY darling!!! I am trucking along-the chap is basically written, now I just have to get through the finishing up part and editing. I MAY have underestimated how much more I wanted to add on to it which is why it isn't posted yet and I apologize for that. :( Thank you all for your patience, I know how obnoxious it is to be told a date and then still have to wait, but I promise it's coming soon!

And Happy late Halloween!

[melancholy-of-nadia]

[LUL5 UPDATE]

hi everyone! not sure if anyone is waiting for the next chapter of LUL, but just wanted to give an update regarding this next update since i didn't upload a new chapter this month ;-; i had sudden health issues occur for the first two weeks of this month and then once I got back on the writing roll despite that, I got sidetracked with a minor car vandalism incident (which i still haven't taken care of since I've been visiting my sister since 2 weeks ago).

I am almost done with editing the chapter (thanks to rae who went and edited a lot of the chapter to make it more concise!!). I am sorry I didn't deliver a new chapter for you guys this month, but I will do my best to get you guys a new chapter in December and hopefully LUL6 if there are not any delays (please pray for me).

[iphig3nia]

Oh yikety yikes! Belated Intro & Requests & apology !

Hello hello good friends! I’m very sorry for disappearing like that, wow omg omg. First it was finals week, then dormitory move-out, and then vacations for the summer, and add applying for scholarships and life on top of that and it ends up being I accidentally forgot I had a tumblr. Did not mean to leave you all hanging like that and with such a shoddy excuse for it. But now that everything is calm again, I can only HOPE to not forget this blog again, and to write more frequently if I expand on what I can write for.

So what does a girly write for

Girly writes for:

Hogwarts Legacy (i WILL write for Ominis soon. However my ideas are waning for these sweet guys)

Red Dead Redemption 2

Valorant (do people write for Valorant?)

Ghost of Tsushima (underrated, and so I will write for Jin Sakai)

Bloodborne (I can only hope and pray to get requests for this…I could also just write them anyways lul)

Dark souls 1 & 3, Elden Ring (if anyone is wanting this…just to put it out there)

Currently that is all that comes to mind, a little sparse but I’ll also be writing whatever comes to my little head so things just might appear. So if anyone has sweet sweet requests to fill my end of summer schedule, please do! I’m not sure if its customary to still make little posts like these for readers, but I felt bad and wanted to at least post something about me. Once again sorry sorry! And request request!

- Iphigenia xoxo

[benefits1986]

yassesss

When the yes comes after a legit "akala mo" no, that's magic.

Have not been shitting out here lately because I'm still trying to contain one of the best YES I got this year. Chenen! Answered prayer #1, DONE. Opaqqqqq ol ye f8ful vibes because that means, 'yung simbang gabi, puwedeng ibang wish 'pag na-complete 'yung 9 mornings with feelings.

The YES came nonchalantly last weekend over my simple pa-HBD sa kapatid ko na ka-bday ang asawa niya. LELS. While I wanna reveal this bit, I'll put it off kasi it's not my story to tell since nga 'di naman 'to prayer for me. HIHIHI. Siguro, badly put, this is a birthday pa-surprise ng kaitaasan sa kapatid ko saka sa asawa niya.

Why do I share this? Proof of concept that totoo pa rin talaga ang isa sa mga faves kong pa-passage: Walk by faith, not by sight. And patunay din 'to na even when mother dragon, the OG taga-pray ng matitendeng intentions for a crazy fam ay expired na, kaya na namin. I joked dad nga na ang galing niya mag-pray. HAHAHAHAHA.

Gah. As a mainipin and madali ma-bore na sentient being, sobrang pakak neto. Kasi timebound din 'tong thingggyyy na 'to, kaya naman, prayer #2, ano na? CHZ. Hahahahaha.

Baka YES na rin sagot para maiba naman? HUY. NKKLK. It's actually a crazy intention kasi naman mhiemaaahhh, kadire. 'Yung parang 'di lang come from behind. Parang out of this galaxy na talaga siya. Lampas milky way, ganern. But, wait! There's more. Mag-add ka pa ng plus points kasi naman mhieeemahhh, JIC matupad 'to, choogadoog na talaga me because... abangan.

2024 has been a crazy good year because andaming naganap at hindi naganap. Totoo rin talaga na when the universe hits you really hard with a legit NO, that means some things are not meant for you. Even when you feel like, eto na 'yun... NO e. Periodddtzzz. And looking back, since September is halfway through na, I must say that this year is pivotal from the kaibuturan.

I remember having a "gratitude" list ages ago when I was in a super dark, delulu walang solulu era. So, let's try to unearth this. What am I grateful for apart from the solid YES na YES?

Dad and I healing galing emyyyy together, thanks to biking, kanin with ulam, doggos, him driving me around, atbp

Seeing my brother shape up even when it's not his cup of tea at all

My "isang pindot ka lang" washing machine

Witnessing how my mid babe, Vidi, fighting his advanced stage skin cancer

Feeding Vidi human food na gusto niya after 12 years of restricting him (LOLLOLL)

Accepting the fact that Vidi's days are bonus days, but trying my best to be with him in "YOLO" way

Hirit na baka kaya niya pa ng 5 years pero joke lang 'yun, but, malay mo naman, 'di ba? LELS. LUL.

Pagkarga with feelings ng mga Gen Alpha like E and McQueen. JUSQ. And pagpapatunay na kaya kong kumarga ng bata na kinakakagulat ng madlang people kasi nga, totoo pa rin naman na I fucking hate kids, however...

Vidcall every other week with my soul sis even when super introverts kami since 17 y/o na 'di talaga kami mushy at clingy sa isa't isa. In fact, this year lang namin 'yan ginawa as diesel girlies

Rediscovering food na 'di na siya lasang papel. HUY. Hahahahahahaha.

Back to red hair na akala ko naman jump from mom's legit kakulay hair color since June; but no, sabi ko deep red, then poof, my current color is exactly mom's shade of red hair when she was in her prime. Ending: Ayoko masyado na naman tignan sarili ko sa mirror, pero 'di naman na dahil spiral. More of takot me kasi kamukha ko na naman siya lalo. LAGOTTT. Mag-bait na raw ako. EMMMYYYY.

Found matcha peeps na legit na gusto ng nanapak na matcha. Apaka babaw neto pero basta happy ako diyan kasi usually talaga, coffee peeps ang earthlings. May comparison pa anong level ng matcha ang pinaka vibe, so pushhhh.

Pag-kalma kahit syempre, overthinking is lifer. Though, masasabi ko, may legit progress na ako dito.

Pagpili na iwas-iwas avoidant era kahit syempre, CTRL + ALT + DEL feelings = pak pero ayun nga, because of a reconnection with this ka-thing noon friend, eto na tayo

Biking. Biking. Biking. With a wonky B kahit paminsan lang talaga

Accepting this aging-defy-gravity-mo-mukha-mo body bit by bit; again, not insecure. Since pa-40 na tayo, nag-iba talaga siya and may bago na akong mission na sana ma-accomplish natin in the name of, slay-vage road to 4.0 kahit munti. Nothing fancy. Lahat natural at walang halong kemikal. KIMMMYYY.

So, what?

Let this be a tiny yet important note that being grateful beats the shit stick's hardest hits. I used to hang onto to this list, but I stopped kasi parang wala namang epekto noon. HAHAHAHAHA. Parang baliw lang ako na choosing to see the light even when my era is dark ages levels with bubonic plague na walang cure. That silent pandemic called "not dealing with grief"... you, bitch. Pero, as I choose to come in peace after 12 years, eto na tayo. Grief is a gift after the curse. And that gift is meant to be shared with people. The worst part of grief is not the permanent and unforgettable loss. The most fucked up part is the shame that I associated with it because all I saw was the irrevocable adios to my mother dragon, my deepest connection, to date. What's even worse than this is that I shut down people, places, and paganaps where I should have allowed grief to transform itself to stories that are super worthwhile. Why? Walang forever, so why bother?

What I'm slowly learning mala-biking with training wheels these days is that... shemay. Kaya ko ba ilapag here? Wait lang. Wait.

Even when forever is but a myth, the deontic truth remains: Time is but a construct, but stories, ought to live on, along with the lessons that make new stories more alive in full color. And that pain is part of a life well-lived by those who fought and those who choose to love. LUH. LUL. Kbye.

PS: Alsoooo, orchestrating 2 events in 2025. Both na personal projects 'to since super duper close ko mga 'to. One of them is in my legit na legit dream destination sa Pinas sa szn na pakak doon kaya naman, good luck and don't fuck it up. Sobrang taas na lalo ng costings ngayon tapos andaming EMYYYY NKKLK fine prints sa contracts. LOL.

[maceingeweihter]

the LORD made different adversaries to the righteous. just inside the mind of evil, they felt they were "necessary" Evil. a poster child for the Bad Guys. but recall, Evil was separated from Good. And Good saw that Evil (being kicked out) was best! LUL toward the villains. useless as a menstrual rag. to be displayed as trash and thrown out.

Quest? To celebrate the death of the wicked? Proverbs 11:10-20 (When the righteous prosper, the city rejoices; when the wicked perish, there are shouts of joy. Through the blessing of the upright a city is exalted, but by the mouth of the wicked it is destroyed.) Although the Script said, "love neighbor as yourself" at a point, I'd pray that the neighbor would either die or reform. after all, I don't want to perpetually get trampled by a neighbor that gets shitted against children. terrorist. And even other neighbors could see me and say, "Wow. do you have any self respect? Any self love? Either;

A. Break their Face B. Cast their Devils C. Pray their End D. Let it Go E. None

Would have, without Moses, mauled him at this point. Especially after what my small children went through. and he threatened to attack me that day. And is this disrespect yet? I've asked the LORD the same...just without Remedy. It's symptom of Gaslight. "Oh. the money. it's in a vault." 16x chat about it and now it would feel better (love your neighbor as yourself) with pursuit of Justice. even neighbors would say, "Dude this shit your birth dad did and does, just isn't right for your health."

at a point, even the LORD decided court was required to settle disputes. And TBH? I want to sue him for 100% his land, home, cars, possesses, effects. few would understand the level of betray. bit of Indiana Jones? Instead of "it belongs in a museum" would said, "it belongs at the bottom of the Ocean." just the same, he doesn't deserve a ketchup popsicle.

(honest? it dawns, they are afraid i would hire the children a PI (Private Investigator) and that I would hire a man to track his Fat Fuck Boy deeds. he seemed to think detectives were a "waste of money." wondered why a man would have such a distaste towards detectives?)

digress...

In that regard, if one of your neighbors were being abused, the Remedy could be the advice that they (under mind control,duress, threat, ect) will not accept: "Get out, they don't need you, don't do business with evil men, ect". Just, after 7 years with court and the small children felt burned out. thought guy would bend. But when a bull won't stop bullying, they should either get shit "on" (fight, brawl, scrap) or break. and the guy isn't doing much of either.

Statute of limitations is 5 years. And the fine / penalty for attacking a vulnerable adult (Unicorns too) comes with 10 - 20 year jail sentence. since the ammout disputed went above $25,000 it would be Financial exploitation of a vulnerable adult, check forgery exceeding $35,000 in stolen property or services, identity theft with either eight or more direct victims or losses exceeding $35,000, environmental crimes involving pollution and disposal and transport of hazardous waste/harmful substances, or arson : 5 years and

Whoever commits theft may be sentenced as follows:

(1) to imprisonment for not more than 20 years or to payment of a fine of not more than $100,000, or both, if the property is a firearm, or the value of the property or services stolen is more than $35,000 and the conviction is for a violation of subdivision 2, clause (3), (4), (15), (16), or (19), or section 609.2335, subdivision 1, clause (1) or (2), item (i); or

Honest, wished that the Lord would already end my birth parent.  (Correction is grievous unto him that forsaketh the way: and he that hateth reproof shall die.) prayed that they wouldn't perish but they hate the Word. And you know, wouldn't shed a tear at the funeral. maybe 1 tear that they are pathetic. You get to understand that it was all a facade as a child. And for a parent to robber their children? it's the saying that even fathers won't give their children bad gifts, but this guy breaks the mold. anyway, forward. another day

[theloveofloves]

It's like the gentle sea,

soft swaying motion,

A lul to your soul,

Like the first light when you open your eyes after a good night's sleep,

With kind blue eyes looking at you,

Such kind gaze and a soft peck on your cheek,

And the first word, promising a better day,

"Good morning~"

I can stay in this state forever,

Even if the world collapses,

Millions and millions of fragments of stories of peace, love and battles won plays in my head,

And even if the world is noisy,

I am calm in here.

Because I listen to only your voice,

And when my eyes are closed,

Your eyes are open,

Looking down at the smile framing on my cheek,

And your grace fills me from my head to my hands,

When I say, "I'll see you soon."

My eyes flutters open and you are there,

Looking at me all along.

I love this so much,

I love you so much,

There's nothing better than praying,

I want to talk to you all day.

Time stops for a while,

And you are all I see and feel,

And suddenly all the worries turns into comedies,

And my tears starts streaming down,

But you know me,

And I know you.

ㅡ 21st March 2023

[divineharc]

@wornkindness sent an inquiry : ❛ please just hold me. ❜ from amelia ━ ( meme. )

it was her tone that caught the roman first . that warm light dimmed , nearly extinguished , a troubling state . hands idle from tending to the dried herbs at her table , golden gaze rest on amelia . what troubled her ? had someone spoken cruelly ? thoughts raced through her mind of the possibilities , the countless reasons amelia could be clinging to priscilla's side . arms instinctively wrap around the other , motherly kiss pressed against the side of her head . the world could use more hugs , especially the young and the children .

❛ alright , i've got you . ❜ a gentle sway of her movements , a lul hum in her throat to soothe the troubled girl . pray for any who may have wounded amelia , they would have to deal with her mother's wrath . ❛ would some tea aid you , my dear ? maybe even some cake or biscuit . ❜

[the-church-of-nepeta-leijon]

[cryptid-crusader]

I looked at an apartment today that I really like and is promising. 💖💖💖

[nationalharryleague]

The Busy Bean

Pairing: Harry Styles x Reader

Genre: Coworkers to lovers AU

Word count: 5.6K

A/N: Hi all! This is my entry for Sadie’s (@meetmeinfleetwood) To Lovers Fic Challenge!! As always, many thanks to Mia (@hardcandy-harry) and Lu (@meetmymouth​ even tho shes taking a little break lol) for being wonderful betas!! I really love it and I hope you enjoy it too! You can find more of my writing in my masterlist and I would love to hear what you think (or anything else lol) in my ask! 

***

The first day at a new job is a universally terrifying experience.

You can’t sleep the night before, head full of nightmare scenarios of evil customers and mean bosses, and a swirl of anxiety continues to bubble in the pit of your stomach, refusing to slow or calm. There's a part of you that prays they will call and tell you that they don’t need your help anymore, despite how bad you need the money. But the call never comes, and the next day you stand in front of the building, desperately trying to take deep breaths and slow your heart rate, bracing yourself for whatever is to come whenever you enter.

This is where Y/N was today, in a mess of shaky palms with slight blue bags under her eyes from a lack of sleep that wouldn’t disappear no matter how hard her concealer tried. She stood in front of the large plate glass window of the cafe, sneaking glimpses and trying to prepare herself for whatever awaited before she actually reached to take the door handle. With a glance at her watch that signaled it was time for her to arrive, she took one last deep breath and entered the small but cozy space.

The cafe itself wasn’t open yet, devoid of customers with only a few lights behind the counter on, but it was full of the delightful and familiar smell of coffee that swirled around her head. The wall to her left was an exposed brick that had been painted white with a long table running along it with stools tucked underneath and a long cafe counter ran the length of the shop to her right. The far back wall of the shop was a giant book shelf with books stacked from the bottom of the top, arranged in a rainbow pattern along each shelf. The store was unbearably charming.

“Hello?” she felt herself call out softly into the empty space. Her voice came out slightly timid, her anxious mind not giving her lips full permission to speak.

She listened to a shuffling and a distant voice muttering “shit,” that seemed to be coming from a door that sat behind the counter where the few lights had been turned on. Before long, a man with curly hair popped his head out from the back hallway, giving her a wide dimpled smile. “Just give me a minute!” he said, holding up his pointer finger for a second, before disappearing back into the hall. After a few more moments of shuffling and muffled cursing, he reappeared. His face held the same dimpled grin as before.

“You must be Y/N,” he said, reaching out a hand for her to shake across the counter. “Boss man said you would be starting today.”

“That’s me,” she spoke gently, still apprehensive in the new surroundings. She placed her hand in his and he shook it with a friendliness she hadn’t expected from her first couple minutes in a new work space. His hand was warm and his nails were painted a bright and sunshiny yellow.

“I’m Harry. It’s great to meet you!” His voice was deep, but light and enthusiastic, far too excited for the early morning calm that she had been reveling in on her walk to the shop.

She decided quickly that he looked like a ‘Harry’ and that his name matched his cheerful disposition. His green eyes shined, even in the relatively dim early morning light that illuminated the room through the front window, and they held a disarming and calming quality that slowed her heart rate for the first time since she had woken up.

“You too.” She forced a smile onto her lips, hoping to conceal the first day jitters that ran through her system.

“Don’t worry about your first day,” he read her like a book. “Everyone here is very nice and you have the best trainer in the world.”

“I’m assuming that’s you?” she questioned, letting out a light chuckle.

“Well, of course it is.”

She was slightly taken aback by the peculiar, yet undeniably charming, man that stood across the counter from her. He was dressed in a loose fitting black sweater that looked cozy and soft, paired with wide-legged tan slacks, all covered with a dark green apron that had the cafe’s logo on the chest. The Busy Bean was embroidered in a light yellow sitting above a mug with a bumble bee on it; it was charming and cute, fitting in well with the plethora of plants and flowers that filled the cafe.

He must have noticed her staring at the logo. “You like the name?” he asked her, pointing at the logo that sat on his chest. She nodded softly, a smile finding its way on to her lips. “We’re going to be very busy beans in about,” he paused to check his watch, “thirty minutes when we open. So put this on,” he slid her very own apron across the counter, “and let's get ready.”

Harry wasn’t lying when he said they were going to be busy.

While the shop had intentionally started her on a Saturday morning when it was usually a bit slower, the morning rush came in and threw her for a tizzy. She took orders and ran them to tables for what seemed like hours, kept far away from the coffee bar as she was unsure of how to make all of the drinks yet. But thankfully, she wasn’t alone.

Soon after opening, another woman arrived, wearing the same dark green apron that matched Y/N and Harry’s. She had long dark hair that fell to the small of her back and in gentle waves and glowing mocha skin with golden eyes. She introduced herself as Isla, with a warm and friendly smile, and stationed herself behind the counter, making drink after drink that smelled intoxicatingly delicious. Y/N thanked god, or whatever was out there, that she and Harry had someone else to help them out while customers flowed in and out of the shop.

Harry hung by her side for the entirety of the morning rush, carefully watching her every move, and gently redirecting her when she seemed to make a mistake. He was kind and she could tell that he genuinely wanted her to learn, not just to do a job well for efficiency’s sake. There was never a trace of frustration on his features, just patience and good will.

Around noon, the flood of patrons looking for their morning coffee began to slow, finally giving Y/N an opportunity to rest. She flopped herself down on a stool that sat behind the counter and released a long sigh, stretching her neck and slumping her shoulders. She was met by sympathetic giggles coming from her two new co-workers.

“Honey,” Isla began with a hint of pity in her voice, “that was nothing.”

“What did I get myself into?” Y/N chuckled through a groan, putting her face in her hands out of exhaustion.

“I promise it gets easier,” Harry chimed in, always one to calm someone’s anxieties. “You just need to get into the swing of things.”

“What I need to do is learn how to make all the fancy coffees that people keep asking me for,” she said, peeking through her fingers at her still amused coworkers.

A look was passed between the two of them, Isla eventually moving out of the way and motioning for Harry to take over the coffee bar. “Come on Baby Barista, lets teach you some of the basics.”

His nickname for her made her release a loud laugh, immediately stifling it to a few giggles when she realized she had caused a few patrons to look up and over at her. Her cheeks warmed instantly, embarrassed for disturbing them, and she added another item to the list of things she was learning never to do again with customers in the store.

He guided her over to the counter full of machinery including pots of coffee, hot water, an espresso machine, and more equipment she couldn’t even identify. He spoke to her gently and gave her all his attention, carefully talking her through how to make a few of the most ordered drinks. Other than almost burning herself a couple times, she was starting to get the hang of it. She had a very hard time wiping the smile off of her face after Harry taste tested each one and gave his seal of approval.

“Not bad, Baby Barista,” he complimented with a dimpled smile and a slight nod after she handed him what she believed was a caramel latte. She reveled in his praise, wanting to do her job well, but also loving his approval and the nickname he had now assigned to her.

They did this coffee lesson for a few more hours, as the shop slowed to almost a complete stop as they got closer to closing time. Isla had headed home and there were only a few stragglers left that had spent their days working or reading in the cafe as the sun began to set around 5pm, with closing at 6. Harry diligently continued to teach her as much as he could in one day as they began to close up the shop and get ready for the next day. He was easy to talk to and their conversation seemed to flow effortlessly as they swept and did dishes.

“So, what brought you to London?” he asked after a short lul, looking at her with an inquisitive look, the ever present dimple on his cheek and grin on his lips disarming her easily.

“Oh, you know,” she stumbled over her words slightly, “I just needed a fresh start.”

“No mysterious or heartbreaking backstory I need to know about?” he quipped, a questioning eyebrow perched on his forehead. She let out another loud laugh, deciding not to quiet herself this time as there was only one customer left in the store.

“No,” she chuckled, shaking her head as she swept. “I got dumped in a small town and needed to get away from them. It was like they were around every corner.” She wasn’t sure why she was telling him this, but he just had a way of pulling the truth from her. “I always dreamed of living here and the breakup was the kick in the ass I needed to actually do it.”

“I’m glad you made it here, but I’m sorry about the breakup.”

“Don’t be,” she smiled. “Definitely for the best.”

“Okay, then I won’t be.” His eyes had a mischievous glint behind them, but she couldn’t exactly place what he was getting at.

They worked together in a comfortable silence after that, making sure everything was ready for the morning to come and clean from the day that was leaving. Y/N covered a yawn as Harry told her that she was done for the day.

As she clocked out and gathered her things, she heard Harry’s voice as she moved towards the exit. “Do you live close by? I can give you a ride if you need. Don’t want you having to walk too far in the dark.” His offer was sweet and made her smile.

“I’m pretty close and I like the walk.” She grabbed onto the handle of the front door but couldn’t make herself leave just yet. “Thank you for being so patient with me today, Harry,” she said looking back towards him and connecting their eyes. She tried to convey her emotions to him on her face, something she wasn’t always very good at.

“No problem. We’re happy to have you here, Baby Barista.”

With a final nod and a light flush to her cheeks, she set off down the street towards her new flat. It wasn’t a long walk, just long enough to get a little chill in her bones from the cold winter air and to turn her nose into a small icicle.

She reflected on her first day as she walked. She liked Isla, and really liked Harry. And while she was very busy, it was good busy, not the type of busy that depletes your energy and makes you want to fall over at the end of the day. It was a kind of busy that kept her on her toes, ready to learn, and develop a skill.

Her thoughts were broken through when she noticed the old beat up red car that seemed to be following her down the road. It drove slowly, as if it didn’t want it to see her, and took extra long at intersections like it was hoping to stay behind her. She took a turn she didn’t need to at the next block, and another after that, and when the car continued to follow, her heart began to race.

She thought about running, or going up to a pedestrian and asking for help; she even considered calling her mum just to stay on the phone with her until she got home. It wasn’t until she recognized the green eyes and dimples behind the wheel that her heart began to slow. She turned around fully then, making eye contact with the man who had been following her, and crossing her arms in front of her and shooting a questioning eyebrow up at him.

He wore a look of shame as his car slowed to a stop in the street next to her.

“Excuse me sir,” she said sarcastically, bending over to look in the window and get a better look at his embarrassed rosey cheeks. “Why were you following me?”

“I wasn’t being a creep, I promise,” he quickly defended. “This neighborhood gets a little dangerous at night and I just wanted to make sure you got home safe.” He looked panicked and frazzled, clearly not planning on being caught. It was the first time she had seen him without a smile on his face all day.

“Harry, you were the thing that was making me feel unsafe,” she said, playfully scolding him through giggles. She watched as his face fell in a flood of relief that she wasn’t angry with him. “If you told me that you were going to follow me home anyway, I would have taken the ride.”

“I’m sorry.” He hung his head and ran a stressed hand through his curls.

“It’s okay, Harry,” she smiled softly. “I appreciate you caring enough to make sure I got home.” She rested a hand on the passenger side door handle. “And now you’re going to drive me the rest of the way home to make up for making me get off my normal route,” she laughed as she pulled on the handle and settled herself into the passenger seat.

The car was old, but clean and it smelled like the cologne he wore that she had picked up on a few times throughout the day. He was quiet, hanging his head like a child who had been caught with his hands in the cookie jar, as she directed him towards her flat. “I’m sorry, again,” was all he said when he pulled up in front of the building.

“Don’t be,” she smirked, using the same words she had earlier in the day when discussing her breakup. She exited the car, giving him a wave, and a call of “I’ll see you tomorrow,” before entering the building and shutting the door behind her.

***

Over the next few weeks, Harry and Y/N became fast friends.

After about a week of begging, she finally broke down and allowed him to pick her up and drive her home from work every day. Their morning rides consisted of the perpetually peppy and excitable morning person in the driver's seat blabbering on about something he saw on the news while he was getting ready or going on about a new book he was reading, while she would settle her still sleepy head on the window and rest her eyes for just a few more minutes before their day was forced to begin. At the end of the day, Harry was the quiet one, letting her recount the day (usually complaining about unruly customers or people that would sit and steal their wifi all day without ordering anything), while he drove her at a painfully slow pace to her flat. He always waited until she got inside the building, even asking her to text him when she got inside her tiny flat.

“I just want to make sure you got inside safe,” he would argue when she teased him about it.

“I’m perfectly capable of taking care of myself,” she would rebut.

“Then I’m not coming to help you anymore when you can’t figure out the milk steamer, Baby Barista.”

“Don’t threaten me with that stupid milk steamer. It has so many buttons you need to work for NASA to understand it,” she would groan, only to be met with a teasing glare from the curly man next to her. “Fine, I take it back,” she would always concede.

His protectiveness was not unwelcome to her. If she was being honest with herself, Harry was the only real friend she had made since she made the move to London and she was quickly becoming heart crushingly lonely. She took any care that anyone in the new and scary city was willing to give her with open arms.  

He was her only friend. They got on so well, she couldn’t deny that she enjoyed the extra few minutes she spent with him every morning and evening in the car. Maybe even a little too much.

At work, there was usually a chorus of laughter and giggles coming from their direction as Harry had taken her under his wing while she learned the ropes. There were days they would stay late after they had been off the clock making drinks over and over again; him patiently teaching, and her desperately trying to learn. There were definitely a few failures along the way, but they were always met with a teasing joke and then careful step-by-step directions on how she could fix it.

Technically Harry was her boss, store manager to be specific, but they worked alongside each other seamlessly, him never barking orders at her or using a harsh or authoritative tone.

Until today.

Y/N had been talking to one of their regulars, Robby, after she delivered an Americano to his table in the corner while it was particularly slow. Robby came in often, always shooting Y/N a bright smile and peppering compliments into their quick conversations. He was gorgeous, she couldn’t deny that; he had deep brown skin and an athletic build that she was sure was muscular under the thick sweater he was wearing to protect him from the cold. But he wasn’t her type, a little too arrogant and self-obsessed for her liking, always figuring out a way to turn their quick conversations back to himself. While it was fun to flirt with him, she knew it would never go any further than that.

“When do you get off?” Robby had asked suddenly, derailing their conversation away from the drink she had just delivered him. “I would love to take you out and see you in something other than that god awful apron.”

“Hey! I quite like my apron,” she playfully feigned offense, reaching to lightly swat him on the arm. “And while I appreciate your offer, I just got out of something pretty long term and I’m really not looking for anything right now. I’m sorry, Robby.” She forced a friendly pout onto her face, pretending like she was actually sorry for denying him.

Before he could respond, she heard an annoyed voice call her name from behind the counter. Whipping her head around to see who it was, she found Harry wearing an annoyed and frustrated face she had never seen him make before, especially not directed towards her. “We need some help back here. You have a job to do, remember?” he scolded, eyebrows furrowed and jaw steeled.

Her cheeks flushed white hot, embarrassed to be reprimanded like that in front of the whole shop. She hung her head in shame as she quickly walked back behind the counter. She was beyond embarrassed, suddenly uncomfortable in a place she had finally begun to come into her own in. She was learning and doing a good job, at least that was what she had been told, by both Isla and Harry; but the uneasy feeling in her stomach kept her from feeling comfortable for the rest of the day.

She carefully and quietly navigated behind the counter for the rest of her shift, sheepishly doing her best to stay out of her coworkers’ way and just do her job.

For the first time, she was slapped in the face with the reality that Harry wasn’t just her friend; he was her boss. He had an authority over her, and could probably get her in trouble with the owner, or even fired if he really wanted to. Navigating a business-like relationship was awkward and abnormal for them both, but Y/N decided she needed to learn how to quickly.

There was another reason his silent treatment seemed to hurt, one that Y/N had been trying her best to ignore. An undeniable crush had begun to build in her for the bright and bubbly man, despite however hard she had tried to fight it.

Harry made her feel safe, always keeping an eye out for her and trying to make sure she was alright. He made her laugh more than anyone she had ever known and their chemistry together felt electric. But what warmed her heart, and what now hurt the most, was that it felt like he cared about her just as much as she cared for him.

But now, it all felt like a fairytale she had built up in her head.

Their usual banter and giggles fell quiet for the rest of their day, reducing to curt directions from Harry and understanding hums from Y/N, following his orders without question or comment. Even Isla was quiet, not daring to breach the tension the pair had created between themselves.

The car ride home was quiet and strained that day.

But she still texted him when she was safe inside her flat.

***

While she had prayed that the next day would be like any other, their morning ride to work was filled with much of the same silence.

Harry fiddled with the heat and the radio in an effort to avoid her eyes or having to make conversation, eventually settling on a station that was playing old classic rock she didn’t recognize. He drove like she wasn’t even in the car, staring silently ahead at the road. She sat stiffly in the passenger seat fiddling with her fingers, not daring to get comfortable in a space that was all his.  

At work, they both held tight to the tension, only muttering at each other when absolutely necessary. She kept her head down and just did what she was told to do.

She was at the counter when a woman approached the coffee bar, seeming to bark her order for an extra hot cappuccino with extra foam at Y/N. Her face was twisted into an angry pout, like she had just smelled something bad, and spat her words out her words. Y/N just nodded and breathed a “yes, maam,” unable to fight with any nasty customers today while her head was so occupied with Harry. She was off her game.

The woman hovered at the counter, watching intensely and tapping her foot impatiently as Y/N fought with the dreaded milk steamer attachment to one of their large industrial machines. She would have sworn that she pressed the extra hot setting.

Passing the full mug to the woman at the register, Y/N watched as she took a long sip of the drink before paying, something that wasn’t really allowed, but Y/N just didn’t have the fight in her today to reprimand her.

“That will be £2,” Y/N spoke softly with as much sweetness as she could muster, afraid of what could come out of the woman’s mouth. She watched as her face turned even more sour than before after she finished the long drag from the cup.

“I’m not paying for this,” she declared, nose stuck high in the air.

“I’m sorry?” Y/N asked with confusion clear in her voice. “Is there something wrong with it?”

“It’s not extra hot and there is no extra foam.”

“Okay, I’m very sorry about that,” she said apologetically, even though she knew for a fact the drink had both of those things, and released an exhausted sigh. “I will make you another.”

The woman’s eyes flicked down the counter in Harry’s direction, rudely snapping her fingers at him to catch his attention. He was hunched over the back counter, somehow worsening his already terrible posture, trying to eat a sandwich as fast as he could before his break was over. “Are you her boss?” she shouted at him, even though he could have heard her without raising her voice at him.

Y/N’s eyes were already filled with anxiety when Harry connected his with her’s, seeming to wordlessly ask what was going on and Isla watched on in terror. She felt her body try to shrink away from the woman before her and Harry as he came closer.

“I’m the store manager. Is there something going on that I could help with?” His eyes kept flashing back and forth between Y/N and the woman, trying to decipher the situation without words.

“I want you to remake my drink.”

“I’m actually on a break-”

“No,” she cut him off mid-sentence. “If she makes my drink again, she is just going to fuck it up all over again. She’s obviously incompetent.”

Y/N eyes flew open at her words, a mix of shock and hurt running through her. With her heart beginning to race, never one for confrontation, she wanted to melt into the floor and disappear all together.

Harry’s face hardened at the woman as she hurled insults towards Y/N. Stepping in front of her, as if putting his body between her and the woman could protect her from her harsh words, he took a deep breath before he began to speak again. “First of all, you will not speak to anyone who works here like that,” he defended her. “Second, I’m sure she’s completely capable of making your drink again if you give her a moment.”

“I don’t want her to make it and I have places to be,” she continued to fight. “I don’t have time for some pathetic newbie to give it another try.”

Her comments hit Y/N hard in her existing feelings of inadequacy and before she knew it, her vision was beginning to blur. She felt like this woman was repeatedly kicking her while she was already down.

“You have to leave.”

Harry’s voice was angry. It wasn’t the frustration or annoyance she had heard the day before, and it was a far departure from the kind and patient tone she had grown to love since she began working at the shop. It was full of anger, something she had never heard from him and an emotion she hadn’t even been sure he could feel before this point.

“I’m not leaving until I get another drink that’s correct and free.”

“I will call the cops if you don’t leave right now.”

Y/N couldn’t stand to watch this unfold before her any longer. An anxious weight had settled on her chest and she had felt the tears begin to roll. She was gone from the counter, running towards the soundproof walk-in fridge in the back hall. She planned on shutting herself inside and sobbing until she froze.

She stood in the freezing chill, holding her arms tight to her frame, desperate to keep herself warm and shield herself from the wrath that was playing out in the cafe. The cold seemed to ground her and the distance she had put between herself and the woman eased her stress, but the tears continued to flow as her eyes ran over the stock of the fridge in an attempt to distract herself.

A knock came from outside the heavy metal door that startled her, a soft and patient voice that she knew so well called through. “Y/N, are you okay? Can I come in?”

After doing her best to wipe the tears off her raw and cold cheeks, she choked out a small “yes.”

The door carefully opened and she was met with a soft and empathetic gaze from the only person she wanted to comfort her. He breathed a soft “come here,” before he opened his arms wide. She bolted into them, letting his giant frame envelop her whole in the warmth that always radiated from him. Y/N let herself weep softly into his chest as the dizzying scent of his cologne took over her senses.

He held her close to him for a few moments, letting her get all her emotions out, before releasing her body and taking her face into his somehow still warm hands, using his thumbs to swipe away a few more tears that had managed to escape.

“I don’t think that I even messed her drink up,”she broke the silence, feeling pathetic as he held her in his hands.

“I know you didn’t. She won’t be coming back.”

“Thank you for defending me,” she said, hiccuping as she stared into his comforting eyes. “I feel so stupid. I’m sorry.” She went to pull away, but he continued to hold her close.

“No, this is all my fault,” he shook his head slightly, eyebrows drawn together in concern. “If I hadn’t been such a dick yesterday then none of this would have happened. I’m so sorry.” His eyes held honesty, determined to be granted absolution by the girl before him.

“I don’t like it when we don’t get along,” she squeaked. “I really don’t like it when you yell at me and make me feel like I’m not doing my job well.”

He sighed hard, his face looking like his brain was going a mile a minute. “I have to be honest with you,” he confessed. “I wasn’t acting like an asshole yesterday because you weren't doing your job; you were just doing fine. I was upset you were flirting with that guy.”

She felt her lips fall into a small ‘oh.’ While she hadn’t meant anything by what she thought was harmless flirting, Harry hadn’t known that. The frustration and annoyance she had heard was in actuality all jealousy.

“You were jealous?” she asked softly, bringing a hand up to hold over one of his own that were still holding her face.

“Well, yeah,” he said with an awkward shrug. “I just thought that there might be something between us.”

He looked so adorable like this, slightly uncomfortable and shy. She looked at him intensely as an excited bubble began to form in her stomach at the idea that this massive crush had been mutual the whole time.

“There is.”

She couldn’t hold back her smile any longer, a grin breaking out onto her face as she nodded at him. The cold of the fridge was no longer nipping at her skin, her whole body radiating a flattered and excited blush of heat. The screaming she had just endured felt long behind her although it had only been a few minutes.

He mirrored her giddy expression. She watched as all the tension in his face began to melt away in relief and it reminded her of the look on his face when she teased him after he followed her home that first day.

“Oh, thank god,” he breathed. “I was so worried that you were going to friendzone me forever.”

“I thought you were going to employee-zone me,” she chuckled.

“Are you going to kiss me or keep staring?”

A wide cheeky smile stretched across his lips, before she reached up and connected hers to his. The kiss was caring and sweet, but it felt like it sealed something she had been feeling since the first day they had met.

Their lips moved smoothly against each other, interrupted occasionally by a smile one of them couldn’t contain or a giggle that slipped from one of their mouths. She wasn’t nervous or overwhelmed by his proximity. She was so comfortable in his embrace. He was her best friend, after all.

They broke apart after a few moments, giant grins plastered on their faces that neither of them could manage to wipe away. “I liked that a lot,” Harry beamed, a boyish flush to his cheeks.

“Me too,” she mirrored him.

They spent a few more minutes in the fridge, swirling in a daze of infatuation and affection. “Do you think anyone heard us?” he asked softly, looking over towards the large metal door that had been left open a crack, before it flung open and they were met with a thrilled Isla.

“Yes, I heard you!” she exclaimed. “It’s about time!”

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[wolves-and-stars]

Part One: 'The Beginning Of The End'

Sirius was running super late for class, but the sitter had cancelled and he had no one to take care of Harry. 

He tried really hard to make sure all of his classes could be taken online and in the evening but this professor insisted on taking a class offline once a week, like a pretentious bastard, Gilderoy Lockhart, the only reason Sirius even took this class was because it was mandatory. 

The guy didn't teach anything important and made the TA do all of his work, the wonderful wonderful TA, Remus lupin.

 Who secretly gave Sirius deadline extensions and never put him in the bigot group for projects. 

If Sirius had the time, between dropping Harry off at daycare, going to work, making sure he was spending enough time with Harry and taking classes when he was asleep, he would ask Remus out. 

But he didn't, so he settled on wistful looks once a week and semi-formal texts. 

Back to his present problem, Sirius had a giggly Harry and no sitter to watch him, reg was out of town, and Sirius couldn't miss the class, the last person that did was failed. 

So, he pulled on a baby carrier and strapped harry to his chest, praying to the gods above that he would be able to pull this off and not traumatise harry. 

Sirius never lets himself think about the event that got him to this point in his life, the point where harry called him da and Sirius didn't have the heart to correct him. 

but in the back of his mind every time he does something like this, he begs for forgiveness, tipping his head upwards. Hopefully, they would understand. 

The train ride was barely 20 minutes but thankfully it was enough to lul Harry to sleep, resting his cheek on Sirius's chest, softly fisting at his sweater. Sirius brings his hand up to cradle Harry's head holding him close and steady. 

He managed to reach class 5 minutes before it started, grateful for the seat in the front. He carefully shiftsed Harry to a comfortable position glimpsing up only to find Remus looking at him curiously, there it was, the beginning of the end. 

He knew Remus didn't give him those extensions because he wanted to be best buds, but as soon as he found out about Harry, it was back to on-time submissions for Sirius. 

Rightly so, Sirius didn't need that kind of energy in his life "it's just you, me and reg, bud" Sirius thought. 

Looking up again to see Remus glancing at him furtively he didn't see an onset of the usual signs of fear that people had when they realised he had a kid. Instead, he just looked curious, choosing to ignore the slight soar in his heart at the chance. Sirius pulled his books out trying get this day over.

Gilderoy finally walked in slamming the door in a flourish before beginning the lesson not sparing any of them another glance, it was clear from the way he behaved the only reason he even bothered coming to class was for tenure. 

If it wasn't compulsory Remus would take over that part of the class too. 

After 45 minutes of him droning on, Gilderoy finally assigned work and asked Remus to continue the rest of the lesson because he was quote-unquote busy with his newest book. 

They all knew he was going to go loaf around while a ghostwriter wrote it but they were glad to be rid of him and Remus taught better anyways. 

Remus pulled up to the board and everything was going swimmingly until Harry started snuffling, Sirius jolted knowing he would be awake soon. 

and if he didn't start strolling Harry would have an outburst, it was so like James' kid to want to be moving every second of the day, honestly. 

Pushing back his chair he slowly ran his hand down Harry's back hoping he wasn't going to be grumpy. 

Walking out into the lobby he stared into Harry big green eyes slowly blinking open, peering up at his godfather, his heart bursting with how adorable his kid was. 

When Harry seemed to wake up fully instead of drifting back to sleep, Sirius resigned himself to missing the class.

That was until Remus walked into the lobby. 

"Hey" Remus called out softly

"Hi," Sirius waved awkwardly, trying to figure out why he was out here instead of inside the class.

"Um, I just wanted to...." He trailed off unsurely "Why are you out here" Remus blurted out instead.

"Oh, uh, my kid got up, and he likes to move around when he's waking up or he'll have a meltdown. and I was trying to avoid it."

"Oh," Remus voiced.

"yeah"

"So, you're going to leave?" Remus asked.

"Can't very well sit inside can I?" Sirius quirked, slightly endeared. 

"I could hold him?" Remus suggested hastily.

"What"

"Uh...I could hold him, while you sat, cause I'm up anyway, and moving around... you know" he offered lamely.

"Why," Sirius asked eyes narrowed

"So you could stay in class? and I wouldn't mind, especially not with a kid as cute as him. plus you'd be right there so you could keep an eye on him. and if you feel uncomfortable you can leave."

Sirius considered this for a moment before relenting, if Glidroy found out he left it wouldn't be great and Remus was right if he wasn't comfortable he would leave. 

"Okay... but if you do anything weird. I will report you" he said menacingly.

Remus raised his hands in surrender "I'll report myself" he joked lightly. 

Sirius let himself laugh only lowering his guard slightly before slowly unbuckling the straps of the carrier and passing it onto Remus carefully and very very reluctantly. 

He was handing over his baby to a stranger, albeit Harry wasn't leaving his sight, he was still allowed to be nervous. 

Remus pulled on the straps carefully cradling Harry to his chest, who thankfully seemed perfectly content to nuzzle into Remus' soft jumper, sighing softly. Sirius rand his hand softly through the boy's curls before asking Remus to turn around. 

Pushing the clasps in securing the carrier. Accidentally, 'accidentally', brushing his fingers against the other man's waist.

The both of them blushed furtively before looking away and heading into class. 

Sirius couldn't stop looking at how truly adorable the both of them looked. Remus was always in his element when he taught the classes, his cheeks flushed as he smiled, eyes sparkling passionately when he talked. 

But today it was accompanied by Harry's bright smile and giggling when they moved every so often. Similar blushes tinting both of their cheeks. 

Sirius might as well have stared at a wall for an hour because nothing registered, although it wouldn't have made him this happy to stare at said wall. 

Harry seemed ecstatic around Remus, giggling brightly at every little movement, loving the soft jumper, grabbing it every so often. 

Remus seemed slightly preoccupied with Harry, where he'd never been distracted before he kept glancing at the baby, handing him his marker, brushing his curls softly. Forgetting what he was saying because he was looking at him too long. 

Eventually, the both of them got a hold of themselves Harry seemingly the only one content in acting a fool. Sirius managed to learn at least a few things and Remus managed to teach at least a few things. 

Finally, the bell rang and Sirius, having packed everything 5 minutes earlier, rushed to Harry. 

[imworkingonitokayyuh]

I was definitely a mess. I'm not going to delete any of what I've already wrote on here. But man. I was quite something wasn't I. Annoying and obsessed.

Well. Right now I don't have much to talk about with other people. I really don't care about their life or what they did last weekend. I want to talk about why you feel the way you feel. Idk yaknow. Some people get so ramped up about certain things and it's annoying.

I can ignore people now. As in. I don't care to flirt with anyone. I enjoy my company and man it takes up so much energy to talk to someone. Especially if they don't even interest you. I can see it as omg he likes me to it's nice to have a friend to be bored with. Because I'm around just guys. And yes it's awkward sometimes but seriously. Not everyone is hitting on you. And if they do. They are dumb as fuck. Lul. I can take it as they just want to be friends. And I know now when to shut it down. Even if it hurts because we were good friends.

I've never been so desperate before. And reading my past makes me want to unalive myself at that point. I pray to never be that girl again. Even if it was just an act. I believe i can and will do better. And I can let go.

And that means not acting that way ever again. Even at home. It's not cute.

[ornerycrab]

Southpark taught me how to feel I pray to elon musk before every meal, in the name of the pogger, the lul and holy kek amen

[deqdyke]

Guess what bitch has to go through nicotine withdrawal :I

Pray for me lul

[jsy-c]

October 17, 2018 // Wednesday

Time for some life updates. Somehow I feel like I’ve barely studied for my classes. Not even sure where all my time is going LMAO I do spend a lot of time in lab and I’ve been filling out some apps too but I definitely could be studying faster. I think it’s mostly because I gave up trying to study late and just go to sleep instead LOL. Also I got a plant for my desk and looking at it makes me so happy. I went home last weekend and got my eyes checked and both got a little worse ): I was expecting it though because it was getting a little hard to see the board in lecture. Ahh I’ve still been meeting some new people every week so this is nice lul I really shoulda tried harder last year but it’s okay because I’m making up for it this year. Also I’ve been keeping up my running streak; I try to run 1-2x a week with my cousin. OH I also made hella skincare purchases last week for some very good prices so I will have more products to share later. Lastly, I just got out of an interview for something I really really wanna join but I don’t hear back until next Tues so now I’ll just pray~

That was a mess of updates LOL but enjoy this pic of my cute plant

[sapphirebluestars]

GET TO KNOW ME PT. idk i lost track of how many of these i’ve done

tagged by @irregular-mark thank you!! i love doing these hehe

➳ Relationship status: SINGLE and surprisingly really happy and really okay with it too

➳ Favourite colour: sapphire blue 

➳ Lipstick or chapstick: chapstick all day, i’m crusty lul

➳ Three favourite foods: raising cane’s chicken yum yum, sushi which is ironic bc i work at a sushi place and eat too much of it, and warm chocolate chip cookies with milk

➳ Song stuck in my head: that one song with the little girl who sings way off key??? bet he wouldn’t miss ya? bet he doesn’t kiss ya? something like that

➳ Last song I listened to: I.P.U by Wanna One!! 

➳ Last Movie I watched: Mickey’s Twice Upon a Christmas hehe

➳ Top 3 TV shows: Criminal Minds, The Good Place, How to Get Away with Murder!!!!

➳ Books I’m currently reading: I don’t even read my textbooks for class rip

➳ Last thing I googled: “when does choya expire” in relevance to an in house plum wine we had at work and whether or not it was safe to serve to a customer after sitting on the shelf for 2+ years LOL

➳ How many blankets do you sleep in: two with like eleven pillows LOL

➳ Time: 3:47PM

➳ Dream trip: T H A I L A N D

➳ Anything you want: currently i really wish i didn’t have this cold, also praying i get blessed with both GOT7 and NCT 127′s repackaged albums

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