marcinzk

[nostalgia-tblr]

one of my general multifandom problems (and i accept that it's a me-problem) is that there's not many pairings where i usually want to read a lot fluffy fic about them. i don't know why that is, and i'm also not saying it's bad if other people do (because like i said there are pairings i want to read mostly fluff about), i'm just setting the scene here, okay?

so anyway, fanon lokius is really fluff-focussed (in both fic and discussion) and partly it's that there's been a point where someone's decided it's "the wholesome pairing" that's much healthier than "the selfcest" and leaving aside the issue of whether or not selfcest is Bad, it means (at least as i interpret this) there's a certain amount of fannish investment in there not being any darker or less wholesome side to lokius. it's a happy healthy loving zero-red-flags relationship in a good 99% of fandom takes. which is fine obviously (gosh i'm really disclaimering this one aren't i!) but i like the darker side and the "actually this was pretty fucked-up" readings so even though i am in theory interested in lokius, i'm not much into fanon lokius (which i'm sure people will tell me is canon lokius and i disagree there but whatever) much at all, to the point where i barely interact with that bit of fandom really.

it's like when you read meta about some pairing you just Do Not See and you're thinking "WTF is this? when did this happen? how did they arrive at this apparently common take that is new and confusing to me?" only i do see why people would be shipping them so i'm more like "yeah that bit was very shippy! they should kiss! no wait where does the torture fit into all of this? are we just not... well, that's fine i'm sure someone else has... no? oh okay."

so that's where i am on that one. i'm not mad i'm just disappointed. *locks you in a torture-loop until you're willing to agree with me* (*in a wholesome and very pure way obvs*)

[butmakeitgayblog]

"Thanks for make lexa a cripple there arent enough fics of lexa on a heelchair or clutches ( sarcasm ) its official lexa is the new raven 🙃

Dude, at least tag this properly for ppl who dont want to read another depressing fic where lexa is disabled"

"Three brains and you don't make one. I bet you were inspired by the super love story, who you love and support, of the scammer snake and the abuser.

Readers loving a cheat story because the ones who do it are clexa, but then when they are cheated by finn, costia or one cheats on the other there cheating is the worst thing in the world and

shouldn't been condoned. hypocrites mf romanticing cheating and ruining clexa in the process. You all are turning clexa into bellarke.

Add in the tag clexa's burial. That tag should be in most clexa's stories now.

Jroth who? I only know clexa's writters and their supporters."

There's more but eh...

Jesus fucking christ.

Ok let me say I am so sorry you're recieving such bullshit. None of that is called for nor is it ok to send to anyone. I will never, neeeever, understand people who do that. But I do hope you know without a single shadow of a doubt, they are trash. Complete trash. I have zero fucking patience for people who go on fanfics and spew negativity. If you don't like the story, back out. No one gives a flying fuck what hateful tomfuckery you have to say or what subjects you think should or shouldn't be portrayed, so keep your galaxy brained hot takes out of the comments.

Write the story you wanna write, don't let that stuff deter you. It's obvious these people (if they're anon comments it's probably 1 person spamming hate, they do that because people like that have no damn lives) just enjoy being nasty and try to think of the meanest things they can say. When in reality, all they're doing is showing how fucking ableist and deluded they are. Cuz obviously no disabled people would enjoy reading about their favorite characters living a life and experiencing things they go through. Nope, not at all. And yeah no, people never cheat so no one should ever write about it. No taboos allowed. No character flaws allowed. Real smart there, AO3Karen

[shippin2electricbindu]

Getting those out of my head so I can sleep cause I'm vibing with a friend tommorow so I kinda NEED to sleep. While I also just kinda want to... brainstorm ideas about how my sona would effect the timelines. Also facts because I came up with a couple funky ideas / other sona things. This might change but who the fuck knows. I’m gonna write whole ass timelines involving my sona ( and change the shit I don’t like: say goodbye all the shit I hate muheyusfhsufshuf. CANON IS MINE TO TAKE AND CONQUER TO MY EVERY WHIM!! ) 

Also tw ho.mest.uck :)) and spoilers. Feel free to ask questions via asks too !!

Making me a dual dreamer ( partly because self indulgent fun for now: I’ll come up with an ACTUAL reason later - Probably some sort of thing related to my god tier, but also cause technically if I’m joining in on the kids adventures: It just... makes sense since there would be five of us lmao. ) 

Mixed shit from Sk.aia and the furth.est ring. It’s just.... a big mix and kinda weird. Like mix of visuals from the clouds and whispers from the hor.rorter.rors that I can’t discern. Although it STARTS like this, It doesn’t end that way as soon: I just kinda learn how to discern as time goes on and ascending as a page of light or whatever. Like putting visuals to whispers as they get louder or just figuring out how to place them in an order or something. I don’t know I need to think about that but at first I'm just like: ?? Fuck is this ???

Also I seen stuff about the Page of light glowing like a fucking night light / rainbow drinker. So I think that would make for some fucking hilarious shenanigans. 

I've looked into it and both hus.sie's ultimate gosteir quiz said I was a page of light and the true sign quiz literally said I was light [ as I've learned: Kinda fluctuates between derse and prospit which is why I've just decided to make my sona a duel dreamer:) ] and... I don't wanna say my god teir is op but.... from shit I've read pa.ges of li.ght are just op. We basically go from being dumbass bitches to gaining all the braincells you can imagine and then more some. I'd basically be like an a.i. which is scary but... jgjdhdjgj I'm all giddy. Cause wow... me?? An op class?? 😳😳 oh how.mest.uck you REALLY shouldn't have. Because that can go one of two ways WHICH OF COURSE I'm going to yhink and write more about when I can be assed

Also for plot stuff I’m gonna add some interesting details and create SEPERATE timelines depending on the relevant ship. for funzies and shit to see how I can flesh my sona out and experiment. Once I do though, I’ll write whole ass separate paragraph stories stuff, Maybe have tags for separate timelines so it’s not as confusing

Also for screen stuff: Like those four screens. Just gonna say mines appears on the chimney. It’s just smaller since via the start: Since I don’t exactly pay such a LARGE “ role ”.. at least in the beginning dun dun dunnnn. It’s funny like that and I think it shows interesting plot development / potential maybe... 

Plush bunny shit: I had a relevant thing actually so I decided to add it to my sona. Since I have a plush rabbit. Backstory; only recently moved back into my house. The house before had a fire and I had to move out for a while but I moved back in 2 weeks before John and co. Start playing Sburb. It’s been sewn and patched up via shit during the time in the medium but it’s been given to me. Kinda trashy since it got half it’s fucking face burnt off and I had to fix it... I did a piss poor job but y’know. FUN FACT: actually based of a toy rabbit I owned. I named him Cuddles and he was the shit. I don’t have a clue how John will get his hands on it but... I’ll figure it out somehow lmao. 

As far as patron trolls go I’m not sure. Like yeah, I could use those calculator thingies but... eh. to be fair Pat.ron trolls are actually just who, By their own choice, helps the players the most. Leaning between So.ll.ux and Ga.mz.ee for obvious reasons but... ah maybe that’s too obvious and I should try someone else? I’ll make the choice when it comes I guess but all I know is I’m probably the only human that DOES talk to So.ll.ux - Since he doesn’t want to interact... but somehow. I grabbed his attention via something I did. I would say I did coding stuff ( look I really wanna learn how to but I do NOT have the attention span :[ ) but it’s my sona so I decide my hobbies and talents sooo uoehfsuofhisfhuisf.and then since I’m really nice to Ga.mz.ee and to be fair: besides T.av, He doesn’t really have anyone who likes it during that time frame. I think... I’m still re-reading and haven’t even gotten close to the troll bits. or maybe I just finished Act 4. I don’t remember much anything, let alone homestuck - I have the memory of a fucking hamster.

Going off the calculator tho w/ maths shit I'd get Ne.pe.ta. ( Since 2 + 1 + 1 + 1 = 5 ), and I really like Ne.pe.ta! So maybe jdhghg. I'll work on that idea later. Or maybe T.av. i really wanna call him my bestie so he is. Tell me otherwise and I'll probably just blow you off tbh.

Also this convo is going to happen. Because I want me and T.av to be friends >:)) I really like him and we'd totally be besties since we have same MTBI and I think his interests are cool and interesting!! :DD

[AT]: sO,,, aRE WE FRIENDS OR,,,,

[AT]: uHH,,,

[AT]: oR ARE YOU JUST BEING POLITE,,,, lIKE YOU SAID EARLER?

[CC]: Well yeah, I’m being polite but I’m polite to everyone including my friends! so we’re friends dude! no worries :) !! that is if you want to be.

[Cc]: No pressure homeslice since either way, I’d say your a pretty swell alien Toreador! 

[CC]: Also is it cool if I call you that? I don’t really know your name so lmao

[AT]: oH,,, uH,,, yEAH THAT’S FINE,,, i’D REALLY LIKE THAT ACTUALLY }:)

[AT]: i’D LIKE TO BE FRIENDS.

[CC]: whoooaaaa!!!!! :DD

[CC]: Let's fucking gooooo!!!!! /p

[AT]: uH,,,, wHAT'S /P ?

And then I explain tone tags to him or some shit like that. I’ve got LOTS  of fun stuff planned for my sona! Including SPOILERSSS FOR ACT FOUR - their prospit tower breaking when Ja.ck no.ir attacks pro.spit before of like. How he slashed the fuckin thing and my pro.spit self goes flying away from Sk.aia and the planet all together, Not sure EXACTLY where but it’s an idea to be developed and its interesting cause I'm not sure where they'll land yet 👀