#property. he probably is very unhappy and doesn't know what to do rn | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

inazuma-fulgur · 1 year

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Feeling so bad mentally, I don't wanna go to work tomorrow

But also I need full time employment

But also the state made it possible for me to change my status to searching work but not to change my status regarding that I'm technically jobless + can't afford a flat + I have to move soon + I have no idea how I would get the financial support the state technically offers

I hate the state, why you offering services but not offering useful explanations of your services?

#lashed out at my dad honestly #but he's been asking for it for weeks #constantly calling and sending useless messages #not asking a single shitty question and not offering a single shitty answer for the things I actually need answered #at worst getting my mom in on it as well #both steal my time and energy for no reason and make me worry about how I should tell them that #so instead I today gave him his update he was craving so much. and told him to shut up and stop treating me and my siblings like #property. he probably is very unhappy and doesn't know what to do rn #I don't feel good about it. but at least he can now work on his own shit and start contemplating how to be less of a failure of a dad #yeah maybe I'm not like the version of me he has in his head and he should definitely know that #still feeling terrible about this. because I'm generally feeling terrible #but also actually it's not like I lost anything because I didn't have anything. he didn't help me no matter if he tried #which sucks for both of us #but I told and was explicitly about the exact problems for so many years and so many times #it's time not just I start working on my person #yeah he's working a lot. but only for money not on himself. you can't buy love with money and I frankly don't give a shit about money #i wanna live and dream and be happy #i hate myself and my life. i wanna cry #actually I am #vent post

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