it's getting to the point where I'm starting to miss cucurucho's "good morning" "what are you doing" I hate that stupid fucjing bear but like - when is it going to come back and plague everyone with the horrors again:((
the intense narrative foiling between the death of q!tubbo and the death of q!badboyhalo.
q!tubbo’s death felt like it happened so suddenly. many of those around him didn’t even believe it was real. one second he was playing around and then for a brief instant he begged for his life and then he was gone.
q!bbh’s death felt very slow. that he himself was stretching it out for as long as possible. there was time for him to prepare and for others to realize. to have the terrible feeling of grieving someone while they’re still alive.
and that’s not to say that q!tubbo’s death was random and out of nowhere because it wasn’t. similar to q!bbh, you could see his slow path to self destruction for months. but once again, those two were foils to one another.
q!tubbo was not one to hide it. the way he would say that he wouldn’t shower or change his clothes for brief periods of time. that he would willingly let himself get hurt without a care in the world. the thought that no one would take him seriously about things and he had said that thought out loud before. he spent his last moments gambling his own life away.
q!bbh would always try to hide it. although the evidence was clearly on his face and back, he would deny deny deny until those last final days. and even then it was only to those he trusted. he let himself get hurt by the soul vultures in his own home away from everyone else. he spent his last moments alone, panicking over old memories that still hurt him.
in the end, their commonality lays in that the kids were always the first ones to realize something was wrong. that they could see that the decline was slow but meaningful to them. the two soulhunters, bound together by fighting so fiercely to protect those who were not even their own, although it led to their deaths. the realm of the living waits for their returns and misses them in the shape of eggs
lukewarm take of the evening: y'all care too much about being ""outdated"". fellas this smp moves inhumanly fast. it is ok to CHILL holy shit CHILL. y'all are like "(posts BANGER ART) super late guys sorry" friend i am hitting you with a blanket i am snapping you with my metaphorical towel WHAT DO YOU MEAN SORRY. "(posts BANGER FIC) rip this is outdated now" WHO CARES???? I LOVE YOU, OK. ohhhh woe is us as the fandom at large for having MORE HAPPY PILLS ARC CONTENT oh no how outdated!! how could you be writing speculative fiction about how forever felt during happy pills :( slash SARCASM!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN!!!! THERE ARE SO MANY BANGER ARCS, WHAT, YOU THINK WE'RE COMPLAINING????? FOR GETTING MORE OF THE CONTENT WE LOVED????? oh no we're past the period where everyone thought green gay ninjas were like Dead Dead, my work is now outdated and noncanon :( WDYM. GIMME. A BANGER IS A BANGER IDC IF IT TAKES THREE MONTHS. you think rome was built in a day?? fuck you, baltimore, GIMME. my ass has been cooking a goddamn backflipo family fic since july when it was ALREADY outdated do you think i fear god??? "oh no, you're making an edit of slime's (attempted) egg murdering spree?? how could you, that was months ago it's irrelevant" SAID NO ONE EVER.
save your wrists kidlings ok carpal tunnel is no joke. CHILL!!!!! CHILL!!!!!!!! TAKE YOUR TIME SHEEEEEESH OK LOVE YOU <3
Bagi is taking a break from the qsmp for very valid reasons but honestly when she returns she now has a very convenient time frame for her character to have 'recovered' from a certain bite...
With the black concrete being removed, N.I.N.H.O being repaired, all of Roier's million photoshop waterframes being put back, Tubbos extensive factories being further expanded, Fit's gym adding a yoga studio, people once again waiting after the gentle thump of a wooden sign to read the words...
Tubbo: Maybe we play with hitboxes on, just in case there's anyone invisible around...
Not to sound crazy or anything, but seeing a Code attack after all this time on someone who doesn't know what it's like to feel afraid of them (yet) got me like:
"Don't forget to enjoy this, today. Cuz if you lose yourself in trying to hurt the people who took it, you might....just don't forget the good stuff, okay?"
"i cant. i've tried."
godddd cellbits recurring motif of "i cant. ive tried." whenever someone tells him not to lose himself, both the bad and the good is so.. the implication of a perpetual fruitless spiral of turning man to monster and monster to man, and failing at both because loves too deeply and instinct is ingrained into him deeper than the carvings in his knife. he cant fucking stand himself. he can't stand how he can't be normal and has to rely on drinking copius amounts of coffee to stay awake enough to not lose it. he can't stand how even in the depths of his desire for vengeance, he hears the pain in his loved ones' voices and still stops to listen. these two parts of him have to be incongruous, because he knows he was happier when he was one without the other. and yet, time and time again the people who care about him tell him not to lose himself like they view him as whole. and again and again, he tells them that he can't. because he's tried to break himself in half and it doesnt fucking work like that. and he'll continue until he destroys himself because hes fucking Tired of being whole.
a lot of this happened in early qsmp months (for... obvious reasons) but i think the hispanics relationships with eachother were so fucking insane because they clearly cared about eachother but like
qquackity fucked around and got qroier killed by qspreen. qmissa blames qroier for things qspreen did. qroier destroyed half of trumpet's island with qmaxo on it. qroier ruined qquackity's reputation. qluzu always blew up everyone's houses despite their threats agaisnt him. qmariana and qroier kept talking shit about eachother (specially qroier) qspreen betrayed qmissa and qroier for money. qmissa made fun of qmariana and his house (LOL) qmissa qmariana and qroier fought over trivial things. qvegetta put mines near all their bases. qrubius was the reason why a lot of conflicts between friends happend. qvegetta didnt trust qmaxo that much because of sofia
but at the same time qpol helped qrivers with everything she needed, qpol gave qroier an indexer, qroier and qquackity still get along despite the circumstances, qmissa and qroier are always excited to see each other, qroier still makes sure qmariana and his house are ok, qvegetta always checks in with qroier, qrubius still made sure everyone was ...finee...ish after his tasks. qmaxo still trusts qvegetta and qroier. qroier and qquackity helped qrivers build her house (in a way) . qspreen checked in on qroier before leaving. qmissa still trusts his brother. qroier wants to give qluzu his cat when he comes back