#r.i.p. you amazing woman

[thedepartmentofdiscoveries]

Tina Turner wearing Azzedine Alaïa Spring/Summer 1989 for Stern magazine in Paris, 1989. Photograph: Peter Lindbergh. 🇫🇷

[himitsusentaiblog]

Japanese Media that Helped Me Come Out

Hey, I wanted to make a post about the shows and movies from Japan that really helped me come to terms with my identity and made me more comfortable with coming out (even if I had a few early aborted comings out before I had real support). Before I begin, a special shoutout has to be given to Ranma 1/2, the first anime I ever saw that involved gender changing content.

I think one of the first foundationally important bits of media for me was Sailor Moon, the original animated series. Or more specifically season 5, Bishouji Senshi Sailor Moon Sailor Stars. This is a series I watched shortly after the episodes aired in four episode blocks at a time on rented VHS tapes from a local Japanese Electronics Store in Dallas, Texas. (R.I.P. Orbit Electronics).

For those not familiar with the series, this season introduces three major new heroic characters, the Sailor Starlights. In their civilian identities they are a boys idol group called The Three Lights and go by the names Seiya, Yaten and Taiki but in their heroic identities they are three women named Sailor Star Fighter, Sailor Star Healer and Sailor Star Maker.

The idea of three women hiding themselves in the guise of men was so fascinating to me and spoke to something deep down inside of me. This may be the reason why Sailor Stars is the series I decided to purchase on Laserdisc back when it was coming out.

The second major anime series from this time that was foundational for my exploration of who I am was 1997's Shoujo Kakumei Utena.

This is a series all about defying societal expectations especially of gender roles and sexuality. It's an amazing if sometimes very couched in metaphor and symbolism coming of age story about a young woman who refuses to conform to her expected role and seeks to become a Prince to defend others. It also contains dialogue like this:

Which, if you are familiar with Trans terminology just holds so much extra meaning. For those who do not know, trans people who have not come out yet are often referred to as eggs, as in they have not come out of their shell yet. Lastly is probably both the most obvious and most ridiculous entry here. the 1999 Rock and Roll, Zombie, Alien Invasion film Wild Zero. This is a movie about the rock band Guitar Wolf, their biggest fan Ace and a zombie apocalypse started by aliens (think Plan 9 from Outer Space but somehow even more wild and ridiculous and with an amazing soundtrack). In the movie, Ace meets and falls in love with a beautiful girl named Tobio.

However, as Ace discovers, Tobio has a penis. This causes him to have a bit of a crisis until his idol, Guitar Wolf appears before him in a bathroom to bestow these words of wisdom upon him.

So yeah, this movie helped me in some very strange ways when it came to accepting who I really am, even if it took YEARS for me to finally crack my shell for real and come out publicly. So, thanks for reading this and thanks for all of your support.

[titles-for-tangents]

In conjunction with @silvermoon424’s new project to scan and archive Mitsukazu Mihara’s 6-volume manga series Dolls: IC in a Doll, here is a copy of an interview Mihara gave in 2006 with Manga Magazine at Otakon, recorded here by Tokyopop!

What a Doll! An Interview with Mitsukazu Mihara

(On the left-hand side):

Goth Loli goddess Mitzukazu Mihara has garnered an impressive level of fan devotion in Japan, largely due to the intricate and inspired Gothic Lolita fashions worn by her characters.

A master of the manga short story, Mihara-sensei began her career as an illustrator, gaining recognition and acclaim for her distinct illustrations in the Gothic Lolita Bible. Going on to create such noteworthy titles as Happy Family and IC in a Sunflower, Mihara-sensei took storytelling to a new level with Doll, a six-volume anthology series about a world where humankind coexists with an intelligent race of androids called “dolls”.

Gothic Lolita enthusiasts and sci-fi lovers - Mitsukazu Mihara fans are passionate, dedicated and intelligent. And with the release of Mihara-sensei's Beautiful People in February and Haunted House and R.I.P.: Requiem in Phonybrain in the fall, they're about to grow significantly in number. Get on board while you still can.

Manga magazine sat down with Mihara-sensei at the Otakon convention in Baltimore, where she discussed fashion, fandom and some of her surprising influences.

-Tim Beedle

(At the bottom:)

MIHARA-SENSATIONAL: FIVE FLAWLESS FABLES

New to the work of Mitsukazu Mihara? For those looking to sample the best of the best, we offer a few suggestions.

"A Maid Servant" (Doll, Vol. 1) When Tokiko's fiancé leaves her for another woman, Tokiko assumes it's because she's ugly. But when someone starts defacing Tokiko's doll, we soon learn that ugliness has many forms.

"Beautiful People" (Beautiful People) Telling the tale of Mimi, a strong-willed woman who achieves beauty through plastic surgery, Mihara-sensei reveals where the true beauty lies, while serving up some of her most intriguing character design work to boot.

"Grave" (Doll, Vol. 4) Mihara-sensei gave life to the dolls, but in this story, she gives them death. "Grave" takes us to the SG Corporation's press room, where retired or illegally remodelled dolls are scrapped. A fascinating look at mortality, "Grave" is chilling...and life-affirming.

"Haunted House" (Haunted House) A very black comedy. "Haunted House" tells the story of Sabato, a hapless teenager whose attempts at romance are continually ruined by his outrageous family. Boasts detailed gothic art and plenty of dark humor.

"Home" (Doll, Vol. 6) An emotional story that serves as a denouement for the entire Doll series, "Home" is only fully appreciated when read after the stories that preceded it.

(In the center:)

Manga: Welcome to Otakon, Mihara-sensei! Is this your first time in the United States? Mitsukazu Mihara: Not only is it my first time in the United States, it's my first time traveling abroad. I'm having the best time!

Manga: What are you impressions of Otakon? Mitsukazu Mihara: I love it. All of these amazing cosplayers - I could sit and watch them all day long. This is something you just don't see in Japan!

Manga: In Japan, the vast majority of your fans are Gothic Lolita devotees. What attracted you to Gothic Lolita fashion? Mitsukazu Mihara: I just love the spirit of Gothic Lolita culture. When I first started drawing manga, Gothic Lolita was just taking off and I wanted to incorporate the trend. I think we've grown together. Actually, though, my first works were not Gothic Lolita - they were inspired more by punk.

Manga: Let's back up a bit. How did you begin your career as a manga-ka? Mitsukazu Mihara: When I was first starting off, I was very much inspired by the work of Yumi Tada (Yukikaze, Ludlow Garage, Sitting in the Balcony). I actually became her assistant. While working for her, I was scouted and asked to enter my work in an amateur manga competition and was very surprised when I learned that I won! I then went on to submit my work to Shodensha, who accepted it. I've been extremely lucky in my career.

Manga: Other than Yumi Tada, who are some of your influences? Mitsukazu Mihara: Kazuo Umezu (Orochi, Scary Books) and Junko Mizuno (Hansel & Gretel, Pure Trance). I also really love Tim Burton.

Manga: Really? He's an influence? Mitsukazu Mihara: Oh yes! He's my biggest. Edward Scissorhands is my favorite film of his. I find the way he balances dark themes with humor and heart to be inspiring. And I can't wait to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and The Corpse Bride!

Manga: What about the science fiction aspect in many of your books? Your stories in Doll and Beautiful People remind me of the work of Isaac Asimov and Ray Bradbury. Are you a fan? Mitsukazu Mihara: I'm a very big fan of science fiction. Blade Runner is one of my favorite movies. I'm also a fan of Asimov's robot books. In fact, the dolls in Doll actually follow the Three Laws of Robotics, even though it's never explicitly stated.

Manga: Let's talk about Doll for a moment. Aside from being a great piece of science fiction, there are a lot of social and psychological issues brought up by it. Did you intend for it to make so many statements? Mitsukazu Mihara: Yes, there were many issues I wanted to write about. Domestic violence, for one, remains a problem in Japan, and I felt Doll could be a good place to address it.

(Off to the left:)

Doll is fearless in its subject matter, tackling controversial issues such as spousal abuse, gender inequality, bulimia and sexual objectification.

(Center, continuing from previous page:)

Mitsukazu Mihara: However, it was never intended to be at the sacrifice of the story. Telling a good story comes first.

Manga: Your stories often cross into the fantastic or surreal, but the characters and their emotions always feel real and relatable. How do you pull this off? Mitsukazu Mihara: I take my inspiration from my own life and I only write about what I know. Now, I'll often take familiar things and exaggerate them for effect, but I have to stick to what I'm familiar with. For me to do it any other way would weaken the story.

Manga: How does Gothic Lolita fit into it? Mitsukazu Mihara: In Doll, Gothic Lolita fashion symbolizes eternal beauty. The perfect Ghotic Lolita never ages - she remains young. It's as if she's not human, but a machine - or a doll.

Manga: Do you have a favorite character in Doll? Mitsukazu Mihara: I like Ichiro, the Remodeler. Of all the characters, he's the most I like.

Manga: What has your experience been like working with an American entertainment company, as opposed to a Japanese company? Mitsukazu Mihara: It's actually easier to work with TOKYOPOP than with Japanese companies. Most publishers are not as concerned with quality, but TOKYOPOP pays extra attention to keeping the integrity of my work. I am extremely happy.

Manga: What are you working on now? Mitsukazu Mihara: I have a couple of projects I'm working on: Doku Hime and Shigeshoshi.

Manga: Do you have a message for your fans in America? Mitsukazu Mihara: Thank you for all your support! I'm so pleasantly surprised and grateful that the American fans "get it" despite all of the cultural differences! The fact that Gothic Lolita is so popular here in the States pleases me very much!

(End of interview and article)

[insistonyourcupofstars]

e, r, i, c for the ask game ;)))

Ah, I see what you did there 💛

E

- Evermore, Taylor Swift: No explanation, just emotion

- Evermore, Hollow Coves: I just really like this singers voice, and the song itself has really lovely lyrics.

- Easy, Camilla Cabello: It's a dair song through and through, but also I'm a sucker for songs about people who hate themselves and their s.o. is just like "stop it. you're fucking amazing."

- exile, Taylor Swift: AHHHHH!!! This is my favorite folklore song. It's so emotional and the lyrics are beautiful. The subtle crescendo the song has as it goes on gets me everytime, and the dual pov about the end of a relationship feels so natural and melancholic (and it's dair).

- Enchanted, Taylor Swift: Do I need to explain this one?

R

- Remember Fall in Montreal, Roo Panes: The soothing vocals and the theme of pain and wistfulness of long distance relationships is *chef's kiss*

- Rivers and Roads, The Head and the Heart: GROWING PAINS!!! The feeling of growing out of the people you once loved is always painful, and this song really captures the essence of that. It's understated, but powerful.

- Remember That Night?, Sara Keys: While I don't connect with this song on an emotional level, something about this song intrigues me. Maybe it's the instrumental music or the Vibes, but this song is, like, an enigma to me.

- R.I.P. 2 my youth, The Neighborhood: Something something kids experience the same situations adults do and it fucks them up. I remember sending @terrainofheartfelt something about this song and how I related it to gg. I think the lyrics are clever and that they resemble a lot of things that kids actually go through.

- right where you left me, Taylor Swift: This song. THIS SONG!!! It definitely hits a fear of mine about being left behind while everyone in my life is moving on. It's scary and it's soul-crushing. You want to move on with your life, too, and experience the world and all it has to teach, but you're just stuck in a singular moment in your life *shudders*.

I

- It's Nice to Have a Friend, Taylor Swift: I did this one on another ask, but it's just that good to me. I love everything about it. The lyrics, the instrumental music, the vocals, and the style of Taylor's lyrics (brief and abrupt, as if you were seeing the culmination of memories and history that lead up to the ending relationship). It's Perfection.

- invisible string, Taylor Swift: I find the song comforting, and I think it's just a good listen.

- In the Stars, Benson Boone: The song is evocative, and the crescendo to the chorus was impacting. A very nice song, overall.

- IDK You Yet, Alexander 23: The hopeless romantic in me just gets this song. Wondering about the person who you'll find in the future, and you can't help but slightly idealize this figment of your imagination. idk this song speaks to me on a romantic level (which is rare because not many songs do really. There are a lot that make me emotional, but not many that I relate to). Also, it has acoustic guitar. Automatic A+ from me.

- Ireland, Liza Anne: this woman UNDERSTANDS me. This entire song is like a daydream to me, and it definitely relates to my dreams of living in Ireland.

C

- Cherry Wine, Hozier: It's Hozier.

- Cambridge, 1923, Jóhann Jóhannsson: This is just instrumental music, but I love it so much. Generally speaking, I adore the music from "The Theory of Everything", but this piece was an amazing opener. It embodies wonder and light and it makes me feral.

- coney island, Taylor Swift ft. the Nationals: Amazing, on all accounts. Like with exile, the subtlety is what makes this song for me. It proves that you can have emotional breakthroughs without grand announcement. Also, it's a work of lyrical genius, and whenever the chorus comes, I start singing my heart out.

- champagne problems, Taylor Swift: Just typing this song caused a little watering in my eye. It's such a heartbreaking song where neither party is happy. The bridge is one if Taylor's best, and it hits the note of not being ready for that kind of change. Even though I've never gone through something like this, I do relate to it because I get pretty scared whenever a big change comes. The instrumental, the ENDING, the lyrics; it's a lot.

- Crazier Things, Chelsea Cuttler (with Noah Kahan): I really like the Vibe of this song. It's light and pretty and it makes me feel happy (and it's one of my few dair songs that I don't connect with Taylor <3). The style of the song is great, and I love the way the sing makes me feel. Also, I adore Noah Kahan and his music, so... there you go.

[growmydarling]

R.I.P. your vibrator 😫 I haven't had the womanizer but if you can't invest in another rn the satisfyer pro is solid, and has a good warranty!

thanks so much!! for those of you who do want an AMAZING vibe, the womanizer is so great. expensive but worth the money (until your rottweiler gets to it). i will definitely look into that 🥰

[thatspookyali]

About me

So figured I’d do a little post to introduce myself.

My name is Alison (friends call me Ali).

I’m a transgender woman. I've been varying degrees of out since Feb 2019, and have been on HRT and out publicly since June 2020.

I live in Los Angeles, CA (more specifically Burbank). Been here for over 6 years, so pretty much home at this point.

Originally from Tennessee. I grew up in a town called Cookeville, and went to college and lived in Nashville a few years before moving to CA.

I went to a small film school that no longer exists (r.i.p. Watkins). I've made 3 shorts (all horror) since graduating, with my latest just this year.

I work at Nerdist as a Platform Manager, which is mostly media management for video, but I also do graphic design and occasionally write and host videos.

I love all things horror and Halloween. Some favorites include Scream, The Exorcist, and Friday the 13th.

I have two pets, a very large cat named Oleg, and an older corgi I've had since college named Indy (after Indiana Jones).

I was married (briefly) before coming out. It was rough, and made early transition/coming out hell, but I'm now divorced and in the healthiest, queerest relationship of my life.

My partner, Howland, is nonbinary, a super talented actor and musician, and just all around incredibly sweet and amazing.

I’m sure there’s more I’m forgetting, but those are the basics. If you wanna know anything else just ask!

[lindsaywesker]

Good morning! I hope you slept well and feel rested? Currently sitting at my desk, in my study, attired only in my blue towelling robe, enjoying my first cuppa of the day. Happy Hump Day!

Yesterday, in an area between Newark in Nottinghamshire and Boston in Lincolnshire, the temperature hit 42C. 107.6 Fahrenheit. Is anybody ready to talk about global warming yet?

According to Network Rail, the hottest train track was found in Suffolk and registered at 62C. The workers keeping our tracks safe and our trains running are vitally important people. Offering them a pay rise below inflation (thus, a pay cut) is an insult. These are the people that Mick Flynn is fighting for.

Did you see the videos of the assorted fires? I saw an amazing one just off the A2 in Dartford Heath. And, very sadly, there were massive house fires in Wennington in Havering, and in Wembley and Dagenham which affected houses nearby, and one in Palmers Green that burnt-out one of our favourite restaurants.

The Trouble and I adopted a very philosophical approach. We did very little. Thankfully, we were both able to work from home. Our bedroom is at the front of the house, so it was cool early in the morning. She had the curtains closed and worked until lunchtime. I was downstairs in my study, at the back of the house. Yes, it was very hot but, you know me, if I have a job to do, I do it! I have deadlines. Next week, I’m sitting in for George on the breakfast show, so I’m trying to get work done in advance, because waking up at 4.00 and doing three hours of live radio will leave you with very little energy.

And, just before 9.00 pm, the rain came down in The Grand Duchy Of Harlesdonia! Music to my ears! The grass, the flowers and the plants really needed it! Our sticky pavements and our smelly bins really needed it!

So, how did you cope with the weather? Twitter was very amusing yesterday. One woman said, “ Anyone else overcautiously drinking tons of water today and needing to pee every 30 minutes?” I said to her, “Same for all of us but better then dehydrating! Keep drinking!” Naturally, there are countries around the world where 40C is common but I guess they’re used to it? As usual, the UK didn’t know how to cope. We weren’t ready. We’re never ready.

My Twitter feed was also full of The Forde Report. A document detailing the systematic discrediting of Jeremy by his own party members. As the PM hopefuls shot themselves in the foot in the TV debate, somebody decided to press the button on publication of The Forde Report. What a coincidence and what a great way to deflect attention! Following that, there was a massively powerful video posted on Twitter. It was merely a montage of Labour MPs and The Beastie Boys’ ‘Sabotage’ playing in the background. What were the saboteurs trying to protect us from? Inflation? Unemployment? Poverty? Food banks? Deportations? Sewerage in our rivers? Thanks for protecting us! No, thanks a bunch! A clear case of over-thinking! You had a winning candidate and you stabbed him in the back!

R.I.P. Michael Henderson (71).

Have a wonderful and well-endowed Wednesday. I love you all. Yes, a crazy, bald man loves and cares about you.

[anythingwriter]

I would like to take a moment of my time and day to appreciate the amazing work this woman did. Helen McCrory was and still is one of my favorite actresses. I have loved her work ever since I first saw her in Harry Potter. R.I.P to this beautiful angel, the world will never be the same without you.. 🙏🏼❤️😭

[tsuuuukiii]

BAT vs MTR live reaction (sorry for the long post but pls I have too many emotions right now):

WOW OKAY THEY ALL LOOK SO GOOD THOUGH?? HAMAYA LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE KUKO😭

Yuki and Kijima’s fits are also very nice and pretty🥺

YAY BAT IS FIRST

Hamaya stop being so cute hdks-

Wow you can see how much Yuki has improved in Jyushi’s solo since the 5th live! :D I’m so happy for him😭🥺❤️ I love the pink lights too, very pretty

1 & 2 & law!!!💕

THEY’RE DOING THE SAME DANCE FROM THE 5TH LIVE OMG I LOVE THAT DANCE SM😭😭😳 it’s the hips-

HAYAMI SITTING ON A THRONE TNXKSJDKSBX😭❓❓

Kijima did not just put the bat members in shinjuku style like that... YES HE DID OH MY GOD

Ahh yay Jakurai’s song! (*´◡`*) idc what anyone says this song is>>>

HIFUMIIII🥰 PARTY WO TOMENAIDE 😩✨✨KIJIMA BE LOOKING CUTE 😳

HE DID THE HEART SIGN AHH

YESSS KENTO GIVE US EVERYTHING KING💕💕

Hayami skipping in papillon🥺🥺 it made me smile☺️ they’re all adorable

HOLY SHIT BAT WENT OFF AND DIDN’T HESITATE 😭

OK BUT R.I.P IS ONE OF MY FAVE SONGS NOW😭🤚

Jyushi singing “nirvana”!!!! I LOVE THAT PART A LOT. Also HIM AND YUKI TOO💖

The queens themselves are here! I am a woman of faith🙇‍♀️🛐❤️ those platform heels... ah

TOMOSHIBI WOAH

It’s giving me chills but they look so sad :(

Another fave tho!! I love their vocals; peaceful yet dark(?) :,D

I am ONCE AGAIN expressing my love for BAT BC KAIGEN ALSO SLAPS SO HARD

*takes more screenshots*

Seriously they look so amazing😭 the pose at the end especially👌

“Light and shadow”: I think the name fits the 2 divisions, I like it

OH HERE WE GO

WHY THEY SO TALENTED WHAAAT

ALL THE NEW SONGS ARE SO GOOD AND FOR WHAT

BAT VERSION OF SURVIVAL OF THE ILLEST

JYUSHI’S “CITY’S ON FIRE”🥰

Wow... I don’t even have words. They are just so💕💖❣️

Okay but BAT posing together at the end... they really look like a found family🥺🤧💜 so cute :,)

Plus I got some cute kuujyu screenshots too🥺

ALSO JAKURAI SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RAMUDA OMG😭

Watching this live either made me go: 😳😳💍❓ or 🥰☺️ & sometimes 😀😭 the most common was the first one tho👀 I love some the seiyuus-

In my opinion, I think bat for the win😭 and I’m not saying that just because I’m a bat stan like THEY WENT OFF & SRY MTR I STILL LOVE YOU GUYS🏃‍♀️

Anyways, please let me know if you found this somewhat entertaining because I think I’m annoying y’all :) 💛

[soulvomit]

Looking back on my old Livejournal entries, I wanted to see what I said about my diagnosis, because I talked amply about ASD and ADHD stuff. I was curious what I had to say about it when I got my diagnosis in 2004, because my ex-husband and my partner after him both heavily implied that I had intentionally sought a diagnosis and that my existing belief that I had ASD (I didn’t even go so far as to consider myself self-diagnosed but I had been part of autism culture and done a lot of reading on the topic and interacted with a lot of spectrum people) had brought the validity of my diagnosis into question. I never underwent any testing at this point. (And it did not get brought up by anyone later when I went through an ADHD clinical study with a major research university’s well known neuropsych program.) But basically, my spouse and then partner both implied that I WANTED to have ASD and that this had all been too easy. I had multiple clinicians in a different health system, over the next few years, not contest the Asperger (clinical label of the time) diagnosis. But at some point - when my thyroid got stabilized and I was in much better health, and things were briefly in a better space - I got a new shrink and asked if instead he thought I had ADHD. (Because ADHD has always been the alternative DX. I have been identified as having ADHD for much of my life.) One thing I had forgotten was how much of a nervous wreck I was in the session where my psych brought up ASD (it was me at some of my most visibly spergiest, if I’m having to interact through nervousness/anxiety I will have a lot more weird movements) but I did apparently make note of this in my LJ afterward. To be fair, walking into the psych’s office with “the Binder” is a bit of a trope in autism culture at this point, though it wasn’t in 2004. I did provide documentation with school records (though I’m questioning my memory since this was not mentioned in the LJ. It is probably  not wise for me to scrutinize my memory.)

I guess one of the reasons I’m unpacking all of this is that I got to a point - especially once I was at a job pertaining to my Favorite Thing (R.I.P. 2004-2010), and in classes for that thing - where I doubted I had it, because I was functioning reasonably well, and having a Favorite Thing kind of fades into normality when your Favorite Thing gives you money. I especially doubted when I got onto Vyvanse (which confirmed to me ADHD-not-ASD, the idea of a comorbid hadn’t occurred to me) and later Adderall and the drugs worked (as in, now I could go full sigma grindset on my Favorite Thing and burn myself out on it... there is no feeling I’ve ever had for a Favorite Thing that matches a Favorite Thing + stimulants). Also, the period had the narrative for a woman who’s serious about her work but is socially and romantically rough around the edges. 

My partner definitely didn’t see my Favorite Thing as a “special interest,” it’s amazing how invisible that optic is when it’s your career and it has a culture of either “calling” or “grindset.” I feel like even tech has lost that optic because tech is not a hobby for unsocialized nerds anymore, it’s possibly how you join the Last Middle Class Standing.

A big thing is that my partner thought I couldn’t possibly be autistic because my early narrative was so different from his, because past a certain point I HAD friends (usually other computer kids) but what really strikes me is that the amount of poverty, neglect, and isolation in his background are a very stark contrast to my life and even though my parents were broke hippies earlier in my life and we lived in a shit neighborhood, I still had considerably more access. My parents were huge nerds about educational theory and alternative education and had basically back-engineered every possible intervention regarding teaching social skills, and provided me with as much out-of-school enrichment as possible, and encouraged my having a Favorite Thing, and also I got into computer culture early. Also, I had some degree of Pretty Privilege when I was younger and I think being a skinny, cute teenage girl in nerdy environments wasn’t exactly playing life in Hard Mode 

I really think sometimes that the thing I had that he didn’t have, wasn’t necessarily different brain juice or a different pattern of brain wire configuration, so much as... more privilege

[amoei]

Vikings Season 6

Loved it. A fitting ending for all the sons of Ragnar Lothbrok, great insight into how people communicated with each other with a language barrier.

Example: When Ubbe arrived to what is now America and meant the Natives. It was amazing to see how they communicated with each other through gestures like gifts and food.

Even though they could not understand each other.

Rest in power Bjorn Ironside.. A great warrior and greater leader.

R.I.P Ivar the Boneless. Your name will live on for centuries to come. You made your father proud. Valhalla welcomes you.

And the greatest female character in the TV show.

Lagertha. Mother. Wife. Shieldmaiden. Queen. Leader.

Rest in power with your husband Ragnar and your daughter and son Bjorn. She was truly a great woman and warrior.

I watched. I laughed. I cried. And then I cried again.

This show has been out since I was 14 and now I am 22. So it means a lot to me. Legendary amazing characters. That I will never forget.

Thank you Micheal Hirst. You should be very proud of your work.

[catastrophicloveblues]

MY RANDOM THOUGHTS ON AN AMAZING MOVIE

I absolutely love the upbeat song it starts with

And I love Millie’s accent

Can we appreciate the mother-daughter relationship in this movie?

I absolutely adore the scene of them reading together

Her gift is like super awesome

And makes me want to learn about the language of flowers

It’s amazing just how much Henry fills out his costumes

The most estranged family ever

Sam got so much into character with Mycroft that I have to constantly remind myself that is Sam Claffin

I love the Holmes dynamic so much

They all have such chaotic energy

And I absolutely adore Enola’s comments

The absolute disgust when Mycroft says “feminism” is absolutely hilarious

Eudoria completely fooled him for money

And I love it

I actually adore miss Harrison’s motor car

But I dislike her greatly

And am absolutely disgusted with her thirst over Mycroft

I STILL FEEL OUTRAGED WITH THE SLAP

MY BABY

I love caricatures

Bonding moment between my detective duo

First mention of Dash in the movie

I’m sort of curious about their father

They’re still not on the same wavelenght

My smart cookie

Is going to start figuring shit out

I find the money so odd

I literally did not suspect the grandmother

Even though she was shady as fuck

But I also thought the uncle was too obvious of a guess

Mycroft screaming “SHERLOOOOCK” with the sound of the train blaring

BABY BOY BABY APPEARED

His long hair looks so soft

But it doesn’t completely suit his face

That’s why I prefer the short hair

I just wanted to know his first name

THE HUMOR OF THIS MOVIE

Their chemistry is off the charts

Even the way they move around each other

Enola doing what teenagers do best

Not listening to their mother

In this case, I’m thankful she didn’t

“Terribly sorry” polite boy is polite

I would definitely not look down while the train was moving

Sherlock gets told off by the women in this movie a lot LOL

Enola in suspenders is everyting

HER EXPRESSIONS

They complement each other so well

Holmesbury seeing right through each other’s bullshit?

We love to see it

Why does the song playing on their sunset scene sounds like a fairytale melody?

It even has birds sounds

HER FACE OF ABSOLUTE PANIC SENDS ME

VOTE FOR CHANGE

Seems even more relevant this day

I love how everything is so intrinsically connected

Do you all feel like Mycroft has the potential to get better?

Even though I absolutely love his scenes like this

Money gets you eveything, everywhere

“a lady!”

This old woman is so greedy

If I saw a rat in the room I was staying in, I would just change places

R.I.P to Enola, but I’m different

Her not knowing what phase of the plan she is, is the most realistic thing of this movie

“This gentleman seems to be getting lots of attention” careful Enola, your attachment to the useless boy is showing

How old was Enola when Edith thaught her if even with her great memory she doesn’t remember it?

Everybody gives sound advice in this thing

My smart cookie at it again

I want to know more about Eudoria and her secret plans

I hate the coco hat guy

My daughter is badass though

And funny

And her loyalty to Tewkesbury is everything

Sounds like a busy day

Corset saving lives

My girl is full of surprises

I love how Viscount Tewkesbury, Marquess of Basilwether just became a priority in her life

They’re so filthy rich

My daughter is so very dramatic

And expressive

Lestrade is so nosy

It’s scary how I knew some answers to the Sherlock questions

The wardrobe in this movie is “chef’s kiss”

And the five pounds saga begins

That’s right, Edith, you tell him

Sorry, Sherlock, love you

All of the Holmes family is so dramatic

Enola becoming even more infatuated when she finds out how much of a nerd our boy is

Her trying to hide her little smile when Tewkesbury is called a “new thinker”

Millie looks absolutely stunning throughout the whole movie

BUT HER PINK DRESS LOOK

AND ALL THE FLOWERS

THE MOST MOVIESTOPPING THING EVER

AND THE WAY SHE JUST WALTZ IN FLIRTING WITH HIM

HIS EXPRESSION WHEN HE SEES HER

“CHEF’S KISS”

THEIR BANTER

THE WAY THEY JUST SUBVERT EXPECTATIONS

I love everything

The obvious mutual crush

The awkwardness

The vulnerability 

They have it all

The paralles and the differences

I’lL mAkE uS sOmE tEa

Love how casually she talks about his hair and smile

And how she realizes Lestrade is hiding

HIS DEVOTION TO HER

BE STILL, MY HEART

The scene between her and Mycroft is so raw

The laugh politely scene is ridiculous

“Then why did she leave you?” BITCH

Her face when she realizes the brother is Sherlock

I JUST WANT MORE OF ENOLA AND SHERLOCK

Don’t you just love how Holmesbury’s storyline is so completely connected?

DASH!!!

I JUST REALIZED THAT THIS WAS THE MOMENT SHE “LET HER MOTHER GO”

He came back for her just as she came back for him!!!

They stuck together after all

He pays so much attention to everything she says!!!

THEY HAVE SUCH DUMBASS ENERGY

WHEN THEY’RE TOGETHER

WHICH IS HILARIOUS

BECAUSE THEY’RE SUPER CLEVER

BUT PUT THEM IN A SCENE

AND THEY SHARE A SINGLE BRAINCELL

Little Enola is so cute

They are a WE

But like, how good is the final fight scene?

Her reaching out for him immediately after she takes Lintholn (is that his name?) down

The way I knew he would survive but my heart stopped anyway

And how Enola imediately runs to the grandmother in a rage

The handholding

Her hand is so small next to his

My clever boy

The tender brushing of hair

The forehead touch

Her touching the nape of his neck

Her holding his hand to get up

AND THE WAY THEY LOOK LIKE A POWER COUPLE

AND THE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE

Sherlock owning the room as soon as he walks in lol

PROUD BROTHER

SHE LOOKS SO BEAUTIFUL

The uncle actually seems nice

How adorable is it that his mother offered her their house for her to stay?

HE’S SO SOFT

Her reaction to the hand kiss

Can we talk about that?

She has to close her eyes and take a deep breath

He lets tears roll down his face

I love Sherlock’s and Mycroft’s scenes

Like, they just be casually talking with each other

Passive-agressively

And the way both of them support Holmesbury

LOVE IT

I love how awkward Eudoria can be

She’s though, but soft

Do you feel me?

I feel like I already heard the song that plays when they hug each other

DID I MENTION THAT I LOVE THE HOLMES FAMILY?

Love how the “I don’t have to be lonely” appears her and her useless boy

The message of this movie “chef’s kiss”

Well, this got rather long

But I think I’m finished now

[reimahowaido]

I’ll get to those Magic Crafter Dragons I sweeeear But first, fun stuff from Discord. Dunno who made the original, it was just posted on a server, but yeet I did it anyway First of all, I don’t play a lot of games. I like games and the idea of them. I enjoy people playing stuff, I love watching others play. It’s that little sibling culture. But lemme toss a word or few about all of these. Though first of all, I only own 4 of the 8 games listed and even still I’ve only played 3 of them xD R.I.P. Pokemon Cafe Mix - The game is just Super Cute. Like oh my god Aesthetics! Adorable, every pokemon looks so nice and I just want to go to the cafe and taste everything and just chill. Please. It looks so cozy and relaxing. Gameplay is fairly simple too. Sometimes things seem a bit BS but in one way or another I’ll get through every stage etc. so it’s not too bad. Most of the time relaxing, can be addicting because of how simple things are. But really I love the game and I hope one day they’ll add more of the pokemon I like xD Buizel is my current favourite <3 It’d be nice seeing Mienshao or Mienfoo for one, maybe Glameow as it doesn’t get a lot of attention. We got Gogoat, but I wouldn’t mind a Sawsbuck or Deerling Pokemon Black 2 - To keep the Pokemon trend going, this is my fave out of the mainline games. I’ve been a fan ever since the first generation, I’m older than Gen 1 at that. But yeah, we did buy games but Nintendo stuff was too expensive and so I never really got to play those growing up. Black 2 was the first game I ever bought, for myself, with my own money. It was my first game and I loved it dearly. Still do and man I’d Love to replay it, but the curse of only 1 save file is cruel. I don’t want to restart my first ever save file. Currently I have no way of transferring anything over and I even have a Shiny Gothorita there (as underwhelming as it is, it was my first ever shiny). I love these games~~ Lots of different pokemon to choose from, great story, the fact that it’s a sequel is so freaking cool and unique I Love It So Much. Of course it’d be cool to have some extra things to do in it, like cleaning my badges, contests would be cool, I loved the mining stuff in Gen 4 when I got to try it on my friend’s Platinum save file as a kid. Speaking of, Gen 4 games would probably be my favourites, if I ever had the chance of owning and playing any fully. They have soooo much to do in them! Gen 5 is good and certainly up there in faves, but bruh, Gen 4 had all sorts of extra stuff, especially Platinum, and in HG/SS you had Pokemon following you like bruh that’s Crazy and I’d love to have that for a game I own, it’s like a dream Honorable mentions to Mystery Dungeon and Gen 6′s Pokemon Y for some grand memories. Firstly Pokemon Y, the second game I ever owned I think, great fun. I played that game for hooooooooours and it’s the only Pokemon Game that I’ve both played as a Nuzlocke and actually reset to play again. Also the first gen where I actually really got into competitive stuff, breeding for natures and stuff, and I’ve caught so many shinies in Y and Omega Ruby (mostly Y, OR has 1 shiny in Pidove, while Y has Ninetales, Pachirisu, Burmy, Gligar, and perhaps some other ones I caught/hatched myself). Mystery Dungeon games get a mention for having cool stories and I like the idea of the personality test and stuff. I’ve never played or owned any of these games, but I’ve watched Marriland play a handful of the games and currently am enjoying MDB playing through the first games in the series. Also a quick bloop on Colosseum being Cool as heck, and Battle Revolution gets a shoutout for looking so freaking good, having amazing music and making me search up videos with my favourite pokemon and just looking and watching hundreds of videos just because they looked so nice

Fire Emblem has to be the 2nd series of games I’ve gotten the most into. Although I’m a fairly new fan and my experiences and knowledge are limited, I do still enjoy the series and games - both old and new - a bunch. I only own Awakening, Conquest and 3 Houses, but I’ve again watched others play the past games a bunch, so I have some knowledge and memorable moments from those games too. Now I haven’t actually gotten myself to play 3 Houses yet, I’ve seen playthroughs of the game already and know the story etc. But yeh. Still, I’d say that I’ll probably like 3 Houses more than Awakening and Conquest. Awakening is nostalgia galore for me, but it does have its things with the story and characters and stuff. It’s nice, but I dunno, I just feel 3 Houses has an edge on it in some way. Maybe it’s just... Less controversial? Less Flame Wars? Maybe? Fates games, well, we all know the big glaring thing here. The story. And some of the characters suffer from this too. I kinda do wish that the Player had a biiiit more control in how the story went and played out, like I feel you definitely could have saved Scarlet in some way still, and all that. But eh, there’s enough stuff for me to go and prefer 3 Houses over it. And yes, I like choosing the members of my team and playing however I like, so giving me the ability to class my characters however I want is going to be a mistake as I’ll just make everyone a mounted unit and get destroyed but hey! Options :2 Variety :22 Great tiiiiimes~ Also it’s Blue Lions for me, Golden Deer Second Now for the games I don’t own. I chose Radiant Dawn because the Tellius games are just so good. I love the character in them, the story is pretty solid and the worldbuilding is cool too :2 I like both of the games, and while Path of Radiance is more coherent and doesn’t give split the characters up a bunch, Radiant Dawn has More of the great characters :2 Yes I know, not all of them are as fleshed out and thought out as the first game’s characters, but yo I still love them. I love a good continuation to a story. I love a ‘hey maybe it wasn’t as Black & White as we were made to believe’ twist. Also just hella good memories from watching BigKlingy play these games. The audience memed Aran to the final levels. We did it, he did so well, Aran deserved to be there xD Radiant Dawn also brings us Nailah, who is just. Yeah, you speak to me on so many levels, I’m easily readable. But also, woman, wolf, strong, yasss~~ Also I love the idea of the Jaegan character being a Thief/Assassin. That’s just so different and cool to me after all these Horse Units. And I’m the one guy who likes Levail and would love to see more of him. Give us more of Levail, the man who almost made it to being playable. Man. Levail is probably the one reason I’d pick Radiant Dawn over Path of Radiance xD The other game I’ve watched BigKlingy play through (and that’s my only experience on that game) is Sacred Stones. Pretty solid game all in all. Story, characters, but speaking of that story, if you really think about it, it’s Hella Dark, and that’s actually kinda cool in a way. I’m not that into dark stories, but here it worked. Also watched PhoenixMaster1′s playthrough on the Echoes game. I do like the game, if i find it one day I Might buy it but I’m not like in a hurry to get it. It was cool though, different for reasons but hey~ Also, Berkut, yes. I’m one of those people who like this angry man. But come on, he was really good xD Spyro I’ve already talked about in my lengthy little thing that I’ll get to continuing eventually xD But yes, I freaking love Spyro, my childhood, still very enjoyable experience full of great memories Metroid Fusion - Oh boy here come the nostalgia~ I’ve actually never played any Metroid games myself. I got introduced to the series in the early 2010s through youtube videos. I’m fairly sure it was me looking through dozens and dozens of Top 10 videos, several of which were on ‘the scariest bosses’, either unexpectedly scary or something else. But guess what, Nightmare from Fusion was in there, and I Think the person in the video said something on not wanting to even show the final forms of Nightmare’s face because it was that horrifying to them. And honestly? The fact that they didn’t show how bad it got, mixed with my morbid curiosity and woop, here I go~ Down the Metroid rabbithole where I watched a lot of videos on people fighting Nightmare and the other bosses in the game, eventually going into watching full run-throughs of the game and enjoying my time. Game looked pretty good, soundtrack was really nice too. And so I ended up on listening to a lot of the game series’ music and getting more familiar with the other games and the lore too. Learning to know that Samus was a lady was also hella badass. Fusion started it all for me, and while Super Metroid is cool, people also just play it a loooot, especially the Speedrunners, there’s also plenty of hacks based on that game and yeah I get it the game is Good, but that makes Fusion all the more special to me~ Devil May Cry 3 - Ok so again, I’ve not played any DMC games myself. This one again though is nostalgia ocean for me~ 2010 or such, I’m on some forum, said forum has a forum game based around songs or such and someone links one from this game. I Think it was the Doppelganger battle theme, or then I just found that one and listened to it for hours among the other battle themes these games have because they’re soooo gooood~~ DMC 4 was fairly new at that time, but I remember Gredo’s and Agnus’ themes being up there in songs I listened to a lot too. My experiences and stuff on this series was fully based on the songs, images on said songs, bits and pieces of the cutscenes of these games I saw and comments I read. I didn’t get too deep into DMC back then though, but I did have a bit of knowledge here and there, even if my idea of the stories in all the games was, well, I wouldn’t call it warped, but I definitely had imagined the story going differently to how things actually went xD Still, as a few years back I returned to DMC out of that feeling of nostalgia, and discovered DMC 5 had Just been released, boi, I was In. And I watched through cutscene compilations, playthoughs and what have you on all the games (Except for DmC, boot to you ReBoot), and it was quite the hype time~ I enjoy the chracters, the story that there is around them, and just how carefree and fun stuff can be. The party sure did get crazy~ Lost Dimension - The last game I have on the list there. This might be a weird one and I get that yeah. How many have even heard of this game? I sure wouldn’t have ever known of it without BigKlingy’s playthrough of it. But that playthrough was full of memories, I should really rewatch it one day~ I may not remember an awful lot about the game, but I do keep coming back to it in one way or another. I liked the character designs, the fact that all of them were unique and had their own abilities, there was a bit of story around all of them, the traitor system had you thinking & made each run a little different... That’s some Cool Stuff! The game might be a bit obscure and seriously not known at all, but for what it was, it was great and I enjoyed it a bunch! And now for stuff that wasn’t on the list but I kinda still want to mention. Because why not~ IB - This Almost made it onto the list, but I felt a little closer of a connection to the other games on it. But IB is one of those games from the early 2010s that I also got introduced to through the wonderful world of Youtube. I have forgotten the name of the person whose playthrough in the game I watched. But I watched a ton of people play this game. It was just. So cool. The puzzles in this game were nice and the fact I myself could solve and understand them too was pretty nice to me, and for some reason I just enjoyed watching other people react to the game and try solving stuff. It also had a couple different endings so watching and seeing what the other people got was also interesting. Great memories~ Witch’s House / Ao Oni / Mad Father - And all sorts of other horror games that kinda fall under this grouping and style and stuff. Yeah, IB kinda opened a bit of a thing for me as I realized I greatly enjoyed the horror games with puzzle elements to themselves + a bit of story here and there. There’s definitely much much more than these 3, I watched soooo many of these games being played by others. Ao Oni I may have discovered through my Hetalia phase though, HetaOni, if any of you still recognize that name. Daym. Although at first I didn’t want to watch HetaOni because of the portraits. Pfffff I thought the person who made them was being mean to some of the characters, but nah, I’d later learn that those were simply just mimicing the ones from the original game. But yeah, Ao Oni had a dozen variants and things inspired by it so those kept me busy for a whiiiiiile Hades - Now here’s a cool recent game! Again, haven’t played it, but it looks cool. The story is nice, character designs are God Like (hehe), soundtrack is super cool, aesthetics and oh my god everything is voice acted oh my gooood. This game is just. So cool. And the team who did it seems really cool too and are seemingly full of nice amazing people. This is definitely some great example work on how things should be done :2 Definitely something to look up to, I love everything about them~ The only reason Hades isn’t up there is because of its recentness and my brain not managing to think of it somehow even as I struggled to come up with stuff (I was mostly trying to think of stuff I had played, so that’s one thing. I even struggled to remember DMC because my current hyperfixations are elsewhere and that’s freaking Wild considering how much I enjoy DMC) But yeah, Hades is Super Freaking Cool Crash Bandicoot - These games I did play as a kid actually, the 1st one was way too hard and the 3rd one was my favourite. I like Crash, these games were nice too and I have plenty of good memories with the game, just not enough to make it up there on my list. Yeah it sounds stupid that I’d take out a game I actually played and replace it with stuff that I didn’t, but... Hey, my list Minecraft - Watched several videos on other people pllaying this game, I know of it, I respect it, but I’ve never played it myself and stuff. It’s cool but didn’t make it on the list Animal Crossing - Riiiiiight, these games seem adorable and I wouldn’t mind owning an AC game one day. I’d probably reset continuously though to get Skye in my town/village/island, she’s my favourite xD If the recent game had cost lest I might have gotten it. 60-70€ is just, a lot of money Persona - I guess I’ll mention these too. My experiences are through Bigklingy’s videos again. 3 is a fave, 4 seems cool, 5 I don’t know a lot about but it seems nice too. I probably wouldn’t be able to play these games myself, since some fights kinda need certain things and strategies and you can’t really just pick whatever and whom ever and roll through with brute strength. I mean, I Guess you could, but that might not be as fun in the long run? Who knows, but it’s not exactly like Pokemon or Fire Emblem in those regards you know The big conclusion is that I like all sorts of different aesthetic looks, mostly probably natural with some brighter colors in it. Stories are good, I love stories! Good characters with nice designs and backstories are really nice too. Things being thought out and built nicely is great you know? A little bit of strategy, fantasy here and there. Nothing too dark and gloomy or ‘hyper realistic’ or what have you. I guess no first person shooters either, though combat is fine. Games where I can pick and choose what to use and what kinds of ‘teams’ I build and the ‘members’ I use in them is nice. I do love watching others play, but with games like Pokemon & Fire Emblem I have that drive of choosing who to use and having my own unique experience kinda gets me to buy the games.

[theogbadbitch]

I don’t even know where to start. I remember being so fuckin excited to see BP man. I always loved Marvel movies but I was the most excited to see this because the superhero was black. I didn’t see much of that. Even though I’m grown, representation like that is so important. All of the little black kids dressing up as T’Challa, Erik, Okoye, Nakia, & M’Baku was so amazing to me. I will FOREVER remember seeing that movie for the first time in theaters. I will forever remember how I instantly fell in love with Chadwick then was a little mad that he had a woman 😂🖤I’m thankful that we got to have that. Thank you so fuckin much Chadwick for portraying T’Challa and playing the hell outta that character lol🖤 It’s hurts to know he was filming these movies and dealing with cancer of all things. Also I thank him for playing James Brown, Thurgood Marshall, Jackie Robinson and so many other important black roles. I wish nothing but love and good energy towards his family🖤.

To all the people who write these amazing ass fics I love y’all and I’m so glad that I joined Tumblr & Wattpad and experienced quality content that was catered to us.🖤

R.I.P Chadwick Boseman 🖤

[nmikaelsonimagines]

Numb To The Feeling: A Klaus Mikaelson Imagine

Request from Anon: this is kind of a request but also sort of not... if you could do something inspired by/following the song “numb to the feeling” by chase atlantic that would be amazing! i personally think it’s a really good song for any of the mikaelsons but i just don’t have the motivation to write something for it myself. xxx thanks love! hope your day is well!

Hope this is okay for you lovely, and enjoy x 

Want to hear the song? Find a link to it just below:

Numb To The Feeling

Heard you got a heart, let me see I need you to split that thing with me

At this present moment in time, Y/N Y//L/N was struggling to see how Klaus Mikaelson could possibly be capable of loving anything. Then again, she didn’t exactly know what she had expected.

It’s not like she had never seen him kill someone before, never seen the blood coating his hands like a second skin, watching as he licked it off his hands, enjoying every moment as each drop sent a thrill through his taste buds. But it was the first time she had seen him do so since she realised she was in love with him.

He’d made her one of his a long time ago, using her as nothing more than his own personal slave for his own personal gain. Over the years, her hatred for the hybrid growing, she had contemplated turning off her humanity more than once, hating what he had made her, hating that she was now feeding on those whom she had once considered peers, hating that he found it amusing, telling her to lighten up and enjoy immortality.

But it was her friendship with his younger sister, with Rebekah Mikaelson that had swayed her. It was her friendship with Rebekah, the talks that they had shared, that made her realise that the adrenaline she felt when she was around Klaus, the thumping in her chest, wasn’t anger nor the desire to fight him.

It was love. Uncontrollable, unpredictable, impossible love.

For how could she possibly give into her feelings for him when he was the monster that she had spent years studying, the monster that cared about nothing than that that benefitted him?

Heard you're skipping meals, losing sleep Well, I've been doing the same honestly

At this present moment in time, Klaus Mikaelson was struggling to see why Y/N Y/L/N looked at him like she did. Then again, he didn’t exactly know what he had expected.

It’s not like he had expected her to embrace vampirism with open arms, wanting to give into the urges that accompanied the disease that was so easy to spread, the one that he had wanted to give her from the moment he had seen her. But it was the first time he had seen her refuse him when he offered her the food that she often desired with an urgent haste.

He’d made her one of his a long time ago, only because he had fallen for her in an instant. He had wanted to give her immortality, wanted her to be by his side for as long as they both lived. Over the years, he had noticed her hatred for him growing, learning from Rebekah that she had considered turning off her humanity more than once, a stabbing pain in his chest never quite dulling when he realised that where he loved her, she wanted nothing more than to see him dead.

Yes, he loved her. Uncontrollably, unpredictably, impossibly.

For how could he possibly give into his feelings for her when he was the monster that she had spent years studying, the monster that she hated with every fibre of her being?

Well, I look like a fucking walking corpse, girl Say the words, "R.I.P." 'cause Over the week, Y/N noticed that Klaus was behaving less and less like the psychopathic hybrid she had come to know and love. He looked tired, and as much as she wanted to ask what was wrong, she couldn’t ignore the nagging feeling in the back of her mind that he would kill her on the spot, having become familiar with the idea that she was nothing more than an object to him.  

So, she did as she was told, hating that she was fighting her urges to help, hating that she was in love with him of all people. Why couldn’t it be someone normal for once? Why did it have to be the most dangerous creature of all time? 

And so she stayed with her mouth shut, knowing the damage that words could do, knowing that they had the potential to put her in the ground for eternity. She loved him by herself, loved him in her dreams, in the silence of the night when she knew he couldn’t read her thoughts, knew he couldn’t laugh at her out of pity and amusement at her humiliation. My tolerance is going up And I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah

Over the weeks, Klaus noticed that Y/N was quieter than usual. She avoided his eyes, her usual tenacity gone; she no longer spoke back to him like the girl he had come to know and love. She looked tired, and as much as he wanted to ask what was wrong, he couldn’t ignore the nagging feeling in the back of his mind that she would start thinking he wanted something, that this was just a ploy to get her to do something for him, having become familiar with the idea that he was nothing more than an employer to her.

So, he carried acting like a tired psychopath, hating that he was fighting his urges to help, hating that he was in love with her of all people. Why couldn’t he be someone normal for once? Why did he have to be the most dangerous creature of all time?

And so he stayed with his mouth shut, knowing the damage words could do, knowing that they had the potential to lead to his downfall. He loved her by himself, loved her in his dreams, in the silence of the night when he knew she couldn’t read his thoughts, knew she couldn’t laugh at him out of pity and amusement as his humiliation.

And I've been abusing drugs I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah

It was surprisingly easy to become immune to unrequited love, as Y/N soon found out. All she had to do was bury herself into her vampirism, into her parasitic urges to kill and feed. Soon enough, she reminded herself of the man she loved, of Klaus Mikaelson and the horror stories that were his history. She found herself laughing, finally understanding why she thought he had turned her. 

Finally getting what she thought she had been missing.

She could pass him now without wanting him to push her against the wall, for his lips to clash against hers, for his hands to wander. She could speak to him without straining her voice, without pain cutting her to the core when he looked at her with cold eyes.

Abusing her supernatural side made it better. It made her forget how she felt.

It made her forget that she was destined to be with Klaus Mikaelson, whether she liked it or not.

I need you to show me love 'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah I'm getting numb to the feeling

It was surprisingly difficult to become immune to unrequited love, as Klaus soon found out. He couldn’t bury himself into his vampirism, into his parasitic urges to kill and feed. Soon enough, he reminded himself of the woman he loved, of Y/N Y/L/N and the gentle nature that were her history. He found himself dejected, finally understanding why he thought she hated him.

Finally understanding what he thought he had been missing.

He couldn’t pass her without wanting to push her against the wall, his lips clashing against hers, his hands wandering. He couldn’t speak to her without straining his voice, without pain cutting him to the core when she looked at him with cold eyes.

Abusing his supernatural side made it worse. He couldn’t forget how he felt.

He couldn’t forget that he was destined to be with Y/N Y/L/N, whether he liked it or not.

Masterlist

[lindsaywesker]

Good morning! I hope you slept well and feel rested? Currently sitting at my desk, in my study, attired only in my blue towelling robe and some rather tatty blue slippers, enjoying my first cuppa of the day. Welcome to the weekend!

R.I.P. Barrie Stone. When I started at Black Echoes in 1981, I must have typed his name a million times. He and his DJ partner Dave Collins were always opening a cool club night somewhere. I used to visit them and take photos, and their club nights were always full of party people. Barrie was right there at the beginning of all of this. His record collection must have been proper! Rest in peace, mate!

Yesterday was also the third anniversary of Paul Anderson’s death. Christ, how many memories do I have of that geezer? He used to call me Baldy Bill From Harlesden Hill. Again, way back in 1981, I remember meeting Paul for the first time at The Electric Ballroom in Camden Town, mixing up soul, disco and electro.

I’m still getting over the woman who, when she discovered I didn’t have a Spotify account, asked me, “How do you discover new music?” Still laughing about it now. I’ve been ‘discovering new music’ for almost 60 years without the help of Spotify. Naturally, I hear amazing things on Mi-Soul and, if I ask very nicely, the presenter in question will share a file with me. Secondly, very nice promotion companies send me files via email, and the wonderful cdpool send me CDs! Thirdly, I ferret around online. I go to iTunes and listen to new releases and, if there’s something I like, I download it. I put 79p or 99p into someone’s bank account. I enjoy supporting artists and, if you have some spare cash, I hope you will too! Artists can only continue making great music if we help them stay afloat. My 79p is not going to pay a bill but, if we all contribute, artists can continue giving us what we – frankly – couldn’t live without!

Look forward to the pleasure of your company tomorrow at 1.00 p.m. for ‘The A-Z Of Mi-Soul Music’ (The Letter D Pt. 6.) We’ll bring in more executive producers when we get to The Letter E. ‘The A-Z Of Mi-Soul Music’ will be three hours long and LIVE on both Christmas Day and New Year’s Day (1.00-4.00). Plus, I am covering the breakfast show on December 29th - 31st and January 3rd and 4th

If you’re looking for something new to read, check out the things I’ve written (via Amazon.) Have a fabulous and funky Friday! I love you all. You’re probably thinking, “You don’t even know me!” but, if people can hate for no reason, I can love!