#rbs are staying on for now but i don't want people to take this SUPER seriously because like. this is a joke kinda

[autistickaitovocaloid]

Autism flag I made that definitely doesn't have any specific colour palette meaning.

[0oolookitsme]

The Thigh Tattoo

Type - One Shot

Verse - Baker!Harry x Florist!Y/n

Word Count - 2.1k

Warnings - None! It's all smut!

A/N - Not super proud of this one -- probably my least favourite so far. But it's here, and I just hope you guys don't hate it as much as I do hahah <3

Kinks - Thigh Riding, Teasing.

KINKTOBER MASTERLIST | MASTERLIST

Please rb to share!

Y/n loved being a florist, she really did. But, some days were so busy and full of people rushing inside her shop to buy flowers, that it resulted with her standing on her feet for the whole day. It always ended with her feet pink and a bit swollen, causing her to climb up the stairs of her flat hissing and groaning. 

And, today was no different. She had texted Harry while unlocking her door, asking if he could come over to which he had replied by asking her to give him 15 minutes to wind up the bakery. 

In the meantime, she had turned on the geyser and took out the ingredients it'd take to make pasta. She didn't have it in herself to make an actual dinner, and she hadn't eaten that in a while anyways.

When Harry finally chimed in, she practically glued herself to him, hugging him for longer than normal. She suggested that while the water was heating up, they could make dinner and catch up with each other about their days.

As they chatted, Y/n didn't realize as the time passed them by. It'd often be like that with Harry – she could be doing anything, Harry just needed to start talking and she'd completely lose track of everything. It was like time would stop everytime she looked at him. And this time, it ended with Y/n jerking when she accidentally dropped the pasta too suddenly and the hot water splashed, slightly burning her hand. 

It was such a mild burn, that it soothed only a second after and the both of them couldn't help but laugh at her wild reaction. 

When she climbed down from the slab, the pain shooted through her feet again. She sent Harry to fill up the bathtub, telling him that she'd be there in a little as she shifted the pasta from the pan into a big bowl, the sputtering soup staining her april. Placing the bowl inside the oven, she cleaned up as fast as she could and ran to the bathroom. 

She slipped out of her clothes, and finally into the bathtub, where Harry had already settled himself in with his hair tied up in a man-bun. 

Y/n sighed as she dipped her toes in the bathtub, goosebumps rising on her body as the lukewarm water already started working its magic on her muscles. 

As she brought her other leg in, Harry spread his arms wide to make sure she didn't slip and hurt herself. He stayed put like that until she lowered and sat between his legs, her back immediately leaning back to rest on his chest. 

The bathtub wasn't huge, but they both managed to fit every time.

"This feels so good," she murmured, her eyes closing as she dropped her head back. Only after a deep inhale she looked up at him, her head on his right shoulder, just beside his jawline. She pressed a light kiss to his jaw that had a day-old stubble, "thank you for coming over."

"Of course," Harry smiled, kissing her temple. 

Closing her eyes again, she took a big yawn, feeling like she could sleep right there. A grin formed on her mouth when she felt Harry's chest rumble due to laughter behind her. 

"You cannot seem to stop yawning today," he chuckled, brushing her hair strands and weaving them somewhere among the rest of her hair that had been twisted into a bun. 

Y/n hummed in response. "You smell like you're a baked goodie and now I want one," she laughed, and only squeaked harder when Harry's hand slid on her belly, his fingers tickling the soft skin there. "Har-Harry stop, my hair will get wet!" She yelled on top of her laughter, chest heaving as she rose back up from where she was about to go below water in order to escape his hold. 

"I'll bring you some tomorrow," Harry spoke, smiling at her softly from above as spurts of laughter fell from her mouth.

After she'd calmed down, she felt less tired. Yes, she was still going to be out like a light the moment her head would hit the pillow, but now at least her head wasn't going to drop in her plate full of pasta while the snores left her mouth.

Deciding to stay in for a little more, she absentmindedly started tracing the tiger tattoo on Harry's thigh. The tip of her index finger grazed the skin where black ink was imprinted onto his skin forever, following the path it lead. 

Once she'd returned from where she had started, she brought her hand back to herself – tuning her head to look at what Harry was doing considering there wasn't any sound in the room.

He was already looking at her, his lips rolled in under his teeth. "Why did you stop?" He asked, a mischievous glint in his eyes. 

Y/n only shrugged in response, getting up to rinse off the soap from her body because her stomach was starting to make louder and louder sounds as each minute passed. She didn't want to give him the satisfaction of admitting that she was turned on already, so she pretended as if she hadn't caught up with him. 

Harry followed her out, his towel wrapped loosely around his hips. She had stopped to do her skincare and tossed the bottle of moisturiser at him. He caught it, and went behind to her to look into the mirror as he rubbed it in his skin. 

"I love your whole body," she mumbled, looking up at him while she dropped some serum on her cheeks. "But I think if it came down to favourites, I would choose your legs," she continued. 

It was always impossible to guess what she would say next – her mind ran a million miles per minute. And, she was unpredictable even for Harry, who knew her like the back of his hand in only a few months. "Why?" Harry chuckled, eyebrows starting to frown. 

"See! Even I don't know!" She exclaimed. "Maybe because they are so… toned? And sweet God, that tiger tattoo? It makes your thighs look mouth-watering," laughing she said, feeling good at the sight of his eyes darkening. 

She turned around then, placing her palms on his chest. "It has to be my favourite," she whispered, her hand lowering towards that tattoo. "The one that's here," her hand lingered over the spot.

"Really? Don't think you've ever shown that much interest in it before," Harry feigned being clueless, pushing his thigh towards her core, stopping just before he could brush against her. 

Y/n's skin was starting to feel tingly, excitement rushed through her. She could feel her arousal slipping past her vaginal-lips and when Harry didn't push his thigh into her, she felt disappointment sink inside her. 

So he wasn't going to be easy.

"Oh yeah? Then let me, right now." She said, searching for some kind of approval in his eyes. 

"Let you what?" 

She held her forehead for a second, before crossing her arms in front of her chest. "Let me ride that thigh." 

"Which one, hm?" Harry asked her, the tone of amusement gone from his voice. He was able to tell that she was getting impatient now, and who was he to delay things further? 

"The one with the tiger tattoo, please" she whispered, her eyes set on his lips. 

That's all Harry needed to hear before he smashed his lips onto hers. She tasted just like the strawberry lip-balm she had rubbed on her lips minutes prior. Licking her lips, he pushed his tongue through, his nose pushing against the side of her mouth as she pushed towards him. 

Her tongue kept licking into his mouth, her teeth grazing his tongue as she kept pressing into him. She had shifted her thigh in a manner that the muscle of his thigh brushed against her crotch everytime they moved.

"Desperate, hm?" Harry heaved, breaking the kiss and teasing her when she reached for his mouth with her eyes closed and opened them when she couldn't find them.

She punched her fist into his chest before pushing his head toward hers with her hand in the back of his neck. A grin played on both of their mouths as Harry pecked her upper lip. 

Y/n was the first to push her tongue in his mouth this time, her fingers tangled up in the hair strands as she started pushing him backwards, out of the bathroom. They kept walking until Harry's knees hit the foot of the bed. 

His hands slipped from her waist as he fell on the bed. Harry slid up on the bed until his bed rested against the headboard of the bed. Before he could ask her to come, she was already on the bed and moving towards him on her knees, the rest of her body remaining upright to maintain her balance. 

Harry removed his towel before she settled herself on his thigh. His cock was hard, but he asked Y/n not to focus on that right now. 

He placed his hands on her love handles, drawing her hips in and then sending them back. "Already so wet," Harry groaned as he felt his thigh get slick in just two slides of her pussy over it. 

Y/n's head was thrown back as her clit rubbed against the pulsed muscle of his thigh, her tits moving with each sway of her hips. "Oh fuck," she choked out when she felt him push his thigh further up.

She placed her hands on his shoulders as Harry moved one of his own and kneaded her left boob while sucking on the other one. He twisted her hardened nipple with his fingers before flicking it, causing a moan to leave her mouth.

Licking the bud with a flat tongue one last time, he moved to play with the other one. He looked up at her when she undid his bun and clutched his hair in a tight grip. He moaned against her skin, the vibration of it moving along the current in her body. 

Sweat started lining her skin as she kept rubbing on him, looking down to make sure she was still over the tiger tattoo. But the sight of the black ink covered in her arousal and the white strings that were still dragging along her pussy sent a different kind of rush through her. 

"You like that, don't you? My tattoo and my thigh covered so well in your arousal that it's starting to slip down on the mattress?" Harry asked her with a smirk on his face, the mess on his thigh making him harder. 

When her pace started breaking into arrhythmic drags, Harry gripped her hips with a tighter hold and weighed her down on his thigh, tightening his muscle. 

He moved her hips in sync and kept on moving his thigh. "Know you're close, c'mon," he mumbled, sitting up right to nip at her collarbone. 

The only sounds in the room were of Y/n's moans, Harry kissing her skin and the bed slightly creaking under her movements. The sound of her wet pussy rubbing over its own slick could almost be heard if it weren't for Harry's heavy breathing. 

"Fu- fuck, Harry-" Y/n stuttered, rubbing faster and whimpering over the burn of Harry's nip. He licked at it and then shifted his attention on her boobs again. 

She was starting to shake and whimper, and as Harry sucked on her breasts, she started to groan his name – her pull on his hair getting harder and harder. 

"Fuck, fuck, fuck- I'm coming, Harry," she yelled, but not so loud that the people on the streets would be able to tell. 

"C'mon, come for me," Harry urged her on, holding her down with one of his hands as he left a mark close to her nipples. "Come all over this tiger tattoo," he told her and her nails dug into his shoulders as she wetness gushed out of her. 

She was gripping the hard muscle on his shoulders so hard that she knew that not only her nails were leaving their mark, but her palm was too. "O-Oh, my god- Harry, please-" she begged him as he kept rubbing her against him, running her throught her high.

Slowly and slowly, he decreased the pace until he finally stopped. Y/n was breathing heavily when she finally looked down at his thigh, only to find her arousal shining on the tattoo, and the bedsheet around drenched - whether in sweat or her juices, or perhaps, both. 

"God, I don't know if I love the tiger or your thigh more," she heaved, laughing breathily. 

Laughing, Harry helped her roll off of him and lay on the bed. "Let's call it the thigh tattoo for you," he said, grinning as he wiped the sweat off of the top of her upper lips. 

[lemony-snickers]

I don’t think anyone here believes you to be pathetic. I certainly don’t leaving anon hate is pathetic. I imagine it was more of what you said that no one wanted to continue to perpetuate that hate and start a fight. I on the other hand will, I just didn’t see these until right now.

wherever that anon is now I find it absolutely disgusting to leave a comment like this on the page of someone you consider yourself to be a ‘fan’ of. You never know what people are going through and struggle with so really who the fuck are you to come in with your unfounded opinions?

I don’t know any creator that doesn’t struggle with their work and or self image in relation to that work—some are just better at hiding it than others. what do you mean promotion? Sharing here or on ao3 is promotion, and yes it clearly is a problem other writers are facing in which a work will receive 40likes and 2reblogs. Or 500 hits and 10comments. People don’t want to engage when they can read it and leave it, tiktok only reenforces that, so I don’t understand why you mention that here. How about you share some of the works your a “fan” of instead?? You’ve read the comments but have you left one? On lemony work or others?

That anon must not be a creator, as they clearly do not know how difficult it is to first find the time and drive to write and second find the courage to share those works.

Lemony do not listen to them no one who is a true fan here thinks this of you 💙

let me be clear about a few things:

no bashing or negativity aimed at an anon is ever necessary to still show support for a person who receives a less than ideal ask;

when i rb a "tell me honestly" ask game, i do not expect every response to be positive;

however, i also only rb those things when i know i am in an emotional space to take potential criticism.

so i was pretty fucking blindsided when i woke up on tuesday morning and the very first thing i saw was a long, fairly aggressively worded diatribe about how i am a "nagging girlfriend" fishing for attention in response to an ask game i had reblogged a whole week prior.

TW: talk of animal death in next paragraph.

and not that it's actually anyone's business, but it was particularly awful given that i spent monday night cradling my cat in my arms as he was euthanized after developing sudden & unexpected heart failure. so i wasn't in the headspace to deal with criticism at all. i could barely fucking get out of bed & was actually considering offering commissioned fics out of desperation to go toward the huge vet bill i had to suddenly pay out of pocket.

and then, to receive another anon ask insinuating that i sent the fucking thing to myself to garner... what? attention and sympathy? (lol if i wanted to do that i would've just talked about my dead cat, thanks!) really fucking cut deep. especially when not a soul voiced any support - publicly or privately - that that is not a thing i would do. because, true or not, the way my super cool nagging girlfriend brain works is to take that as confirmation that people agree:

(see anon # 1, i don't throw all of my insecure complaints onto this blog and here, anon # 2, a preview of what a mean ask i sent myself might actually sound like.)

i spent the whole of tuesday crying - at my desk, on the bus home from work, during my therapy session that afternoon, and long, long after. and maybe it's stupid to feel so attacked by meaningless shit on tumblr or lonely because of the lack of response in its wake, but goddamn, y'all. there are nicer ways to air your grievances with me than to be insulting. and if you think i'm the kind of person who would send a lengthy hurtful message to myself for fucking likes or kind asks or whatever (lol joke's on you, i guess), honestly, why are you even here?

tbh, i don't know why i'm here at this point. maybe another hibernation is overdue or maybe i should've stayed gone, idk. what i do know is i didn't login all day yesterday and it felt pretty great. because it just fucking hurt to watch countless folks like and rb all the fanart from my queue that day with nary a, "hey lem, saw those asks, hope you're doing all right" in the same span of time.

(i will acknowledge that one mutual sent a totally unrelated ask re: an opinion on food & drink to change topics which i answered privately because by that point in the day i was so fucking depressed the thought of trying to be fun & lighthearted made me physically ill & i was of the resolute opinion that not a single person would give a shit what i had to say about it anyway.)

i'm sorry to vent on your ask, anon. i probably shouldn't post this but who even cares at this point, lol. people will think what they will of me and i'm too exhausted to attempt a curation of something better or more well-adjusted or self-assured.

i hope you're having a good week, blue heart anon. for better or worse, i hope the anons who made me cry on tuesday are, too. but i'm down in The Pit now (which is what my therapist and i call my deep dark depression spirals) and idk when i'll claw my way back out.

hopefully soon. take care of yourselves in the meantime, yeah? <3

[allpromarlo]

since the important part of you (my mutuals) asked, here's rose oc wank: nfl edition

this is gonna get a lil unrealistic and of course if you (for some fuckn reason) have a problem with ocs for a real life sports league then GET OUUUTTTTT

n e ways

so i already spoilered some of the things this peculiar group of Sad Wet Men have to offer but i wanna start with the running back or as i (the name generator i ran through 437 times.) called him, duane cameron. he's a rb who got drafted in 2011 in the 2nd round bc i just can't let go of my senior citizens (terms and conditions apply i KNOW 34 isn't old) to the panthers. i don't know if they were actually in need of a rb at that time but fuck it they have one now and he's gorjus.

he's known cam (1st ovr pick yannooooo) since high school (after moving away from canada...but that's a whole thing i don't even wanna get into that) and when they got drafted to the same team cam was more enthralled by it than duane but hey he'll have to live w that now. no eli manning shenanigans you are STAYING THERE

n e ways he played for the panthers for a couple seasons and he was always in the top 10 rb conversations (from 2012 onwards bc the only thing people remember him for in 2011 is getting batista bombed by jj watt). he won opoy in 2014 for the first time and repeated in 2015. yk what also happened in 2015.

bc i am chronically living in the past and i'll never stand for the injustice that was dealt on that particular day in 2016, of course my 6'7 babygirl (don't question the dimensions. just Don't.) was the missing piece to the panthers super bowl and they do win that shit fuck you and your big ass forehead peyton. duane also wins sbmvp bc of his outlandish 377 yard performance (I FUCKING WARNED YOU) but you could expect that

n e ways after an easy repeat in 2016 (julio i wanted you to have this so bad but...the Narrative) and some drama in 2017 (mainly due to cam making the bail for no fucken reason) my boy finally hung up the boots in carolina and signed with the ravens because i am a biased little fangirlie and i want my team to have everything. he won the chip in 2019 w the murder birds and maybe sorta somewhat did it again in 2022 but shhhh

n e ways this was a LOT for just one guy and trust me he's the only one with that much history. movin tf on

so in my last post i did mention a 2nd oc who's a social experiment. well his name is ansis knight (that was NOT my idea btw i asked my brother to give me a name for a cornerback and this is what he came up with) and he's a social experiment in the sense that he's literally german. like his dad is american and everything but the dude grew up in Heidelberg, schönste Stadt im Land.

as i said he's a cb & plays for the eagles as of right now and he's very. idk. he's a dumbass and he does things he shouldn't do a lot of the time but Never On The Field. on the field he's the most annoying little bastard (especially for qbs bc for SOME FUCKING REASON he's everything everywhere all at once and they can't escape him) and wrs have a burning hatred for him (so do i). but off the field he's just this very Peculiar Personality and nobody knows what his deal is except amon-ra bc out of all the wrs he bothers every week amon-ra gets the most of it. you can imagine how he reacted when he saw his week 1 matchup last season

not a lot of history on him bc he's still fairly new but i'll just say he's my weirdest saddest wettest football guy and i love him very a lot

AND NOW. FOR THAT MOTHERFUCKER THAT WAS PART OF THE FUCKING NBA OC POST (which is so outdated by now you don't even know)

cole grAnt.

i'll take away first that he's shrunk a bit (6'10 is ENOUGH, jfc) and he's an edge rusher now which means he's the biggest menace to society the world has ever seen. he was drafted by the colts in the 6th round after a solid college season (UNDERDOG STORY RAAAAHHHHH) but they traded his ass to baltimore (eheh. hey) after an...interesting 2021 season. let me explain por favor

basically, he was tackled pretty fucking hard at one point (however hard you can hit a 6'10 dude who's built like a fucking wardrobe) and hit the ground awkwardly. @ the beginning he thought it was just a concussion and bc it was right ahead of bye week, he came back the next game. in THAT game tho he collapsed on the field and when they did a scan on his ass they found that a blood vessel exploded in his brain which caused intracranial hematoma (inner bleeding in the brain for all you non googlers). my man basically died for a second and he didn't play another game afterwards, but in 2022 he came back w a vengeance and he made joe burrow's life HELL in week 5 (and the wildcard game)

i don't know why i went THAT hard on cole's injury i just thought that i was coddling these men too hard and needed one of them to SUFFER. i mean duane already did for the duration of the 2018 season but i needed PHYSICAL SUFFERING i needed there to be BLOOD.

anyways that would be all i hope you understand at least some of it goodnight goodbye

@heyitswolfman pls accept my humble offering + apology i had some bs to deal w today so this comes late <3<3 sawry

[moonlightchris]

𝕾𝖚𝖓𝖉𝖆𝖞 𝕽𝖊𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖗𝖘~

hello this is admin with a small ~Sunday Reminder~ (small also translates into I'm about to rant and I'm not sorry about it mhm)

truth be told I've been fucking inactive lately. it's been super hard to get to many of my chats, I keep pushing my yns further and further, and this week especially for some reason I've just been feeling really down. cry out of nowhere down. feeling unmotivated and worthless and annoying down. not wanting to talk to anyone and just slump on my own down. which sucks because as much as I hate socializing at a certain level I do enjoy being here and talking to yall and interacting and just yknow fucking around. it's fun and it makes me happy and it keeps me going. you guys make me so happy. and I did try to push myself to stay around and at least active at some degree but we can all agree that empty rb's and plain asks are not the same as being actually active lmao I'm guessing the main reason why I've been feeling like this is because I do feed a lot out of everyone else's energy and lately people that means a lot to me has been super stressed and down for their own motives and just not even 50% and it makes me sad because bro yknow that feeling when you see everyone sad and you wish you could just do something to change it for everyone like just you wish you could suck in everything and anything that is upsetting and pushing down the people you love and you just wish you could make things better for everyone like you wish there was something /more/ to do because what you're doing isn't enough? but sadly theres just so much we can do as people and we gotta live with that so that's like :\\\ I've been tired and stressed and just bad on my own and seeing everyone else like that too made it maybe worse? so I had to give myself time and space and even though i still forced myself to be around people i did bring down replies a lot and sometimes even just wasn't really there at all, just got myself into some Netflix shows, eating lots of sweets, cuddling my cat. even though I knew maybe some people needed me, I needed me too so I prioritized that because, how can I help anyone if I'm all over the place right?

and so

then suddenly the other night someone messaged me like hmmmm about chris post right and it's super stupid because sjsnsjs I mean I know that person is around anyway but I just didn't want to bother them cuz I know they're going through enough so getting their message !!!!!! and then I messaged someone a small cat and they replied and I !!!!!! and then someone I was missing a lot popped up like hewwo and we talked a lot and I just !!!!!!! and then last night two people I love so much were having so much fun together on our server and I !!!!!!

i guess what I'm trying to say is that, I am already feeling worn out for a lot of things, there's so many things going through my head and so many not nice thoughts and situations and feelings that have had me just yknow not here, not being me, but I've come to realize how small things yknow like a message or a comment or just a little check up or reminder from people that they are here have such an impact??? dude i saw two dogs playing earlier today and whenever I remember I just SMILE it's so stupid but giving yourself time and then just taking and appreciating little things is so important guys. so so so important.

and I know I'm not the only one feeling like this and sadly I do not have enough time or energy yet to dm every single one of you but I think its important that you guys know and hear that

I love you so much and you mean lots to me

so today's reminder is to choose yourself, you can't give people things you don't give yourself. respect your own boundaries, it's ok to push yourself sometimes but don't force it. give yourself time to grow and learn to accept that sometimes things will happen and you have no control over them whatsoever. distancing a little from others to find and heal yourself its ok, its valid, and people around you will have to understand and respect that just as you do with them.

also here ^^^^ are some pics that I like and I want to share with you

now its Netflix time goodbye

[past-present-future-collective]

INTROS!

Alright, so we're just gonna do this in alphabetical order because thats how our pluralkit list is set up and we don't want to forget any of our less verbal headmates. Will RB with new intros when we get new headmates!

Aimsey: Hey! I'm a factive, not super connected to source but I'm really cool I swear! I'm the only one who misses having long hair after Toby and Chorus cut it 😨

Billzo: Waddup I'm also a factive, and Aimsey is my bestie,,! I aim to piss off the most amount of people and be as inclusionist as possible because acceptance is swag and based, so yeah. PEOPLE ARE SWAG!! Also Ranboo is swag??? Bro literally I'm the only one who remembers he's here because he's barely verbal and never fronts.

Chorus: Hello, I'm a host and caretaker here! I actually created this blog so we could all share our experiences and find community. I'm in the process of working with Toby through his trauma and I take care of our syskid, Michael.

Gene: hey, im gene. im a fictive whos like half-connected to source, same with sasha and zenix. theyre who im closest to tbh. were all from the same source so it makes sense ig. sorry for lack of punctuation i really dont gaf.

Lucis: I'm like that one tiktok sound "I have absolutely no fucking clue what's going on in my life, I'm just in charge of the outfits." I also have a very cool accent sometimes. Love <3

Michael, supervised by Chorus: Hi 👈👈 I'm Michael,,, I'm a syskid ageslider, usually between 6-13. Um. I'm not very verbal so Chorus talks or types for me a lot. or helps me. Ily!

Mick: We listened to the Creeper Rap by Dan Bull too many times and I manifested. I respond to music, and tend to front if certain types of songs are playing. I'm fairly chill, probably the most likely to start doing drugs or committing crimes if the hosts would let me.

Nick: I'm a protector, former host, and current co-host alongside the hosts Toby and Chorus. I think I'm chill. Probably a bit rash sometimes and deffo judgemental but working on it. Have a hate/hate relationship with our algebra teacher because he is a dick and seems intent on having the most sensory issues unfriendly classroom and demeanor as possible. But whatever. Fuck him. Im not an introject, clarifying because my name is the same as like 12 fictional characters and people.

Omni: Omni is nonverbal except occasionally in headspace, so I (Chorus) will tell a bit about them. Omni is our creative person, basically. They write and draw and get lost in maladaptive daydreams that can impact our day to day, but they also dont front alone very often so that helps.

Paint: Full disclosure; I exist solely because theres a system here called the paint water system and I formed as a personified factive of that despite knowing hardly shit about them. I'm just here to vibe, have no filter, and fuck shit up wherever I can.

Pie: Pie is nonverbal so I'll do the same thing I did for Omni; Pie is a very touchy time bomb, essentially. Pie is the reason we experience tics and they worsen the closer pie is to the front. Pie's been quiet lately so we haven't had as bas or as often tics.

Ranboo: Hey. I don't do a whole lot. occasionally I'll observe when Bill is fronting but generally I stay deep in headspace. Not much sure what this is all for but was told to introduce myself so I read up a bit. Gonna go back in headspace now, I hate fronting.

Sam: Ello, obligitory not and introject. Just your average obligitory british alter who really wants to drink tea for the aesthetic but hates the taste. Which reminds me- Mick is the reason we got addicted to Monster, little twat. Anyway, hello, I am utter chaos.

SamPonk: OHMYGOD I GET TO FRONT- Fuck okay shit sorry I'm usually not allowed to because I'm embarassing but- aaaa! I'm a fusion fictive/fucktive of Awesamdude and Ponk, but not at all connected to source. I'm like????? AaaAaaaAAAA- Sorry I'm so excited to be allowed to SPEAAAK for once!!!!!!!

Sasha: heyyyy. im a fictive, same source as gene and zenix. i also miss the long hair, so i feel aimsey on that one. lowley highkey just want my source hair but the majority of us are male or ftm (unfortunately for us femmes) so i was greatly outvoted.

Toby: I'm the host with Chorus. I'm struggling to do a lot of mental rewiring and healing from my OSDD-2 and childhood trauma in general. Lots of relearning ahead of me, but Chorus has got my back the whole way and I love her for it. I'm not an introject of Tubbo, I get asked a lot so I feel the need to state that. My name is just Toby by coincidence.

Tommy: Factive of Tommyinnit, not at all connected to my source. Hes really annoying tbh. Dont know why Toby likes him, although I guess thats good(?) for me since we're together. I dont talk about it much because me and Toby get really worried about cancelling and backlash and crap because my source is an MCYTer and MCYT "ships" are a hot topic. Again, I'm nothing like source. So I hope it doesnt fucking matter. Love you Toby ♡♡

Zenix: yada yada sasha and gene. bye.

Zxandre: I'm fairly new, not quite sure what I'm supposed to be doing in this place(headspace) but it looks cool. The hosts seem to have their own drama and everyone has, like, a group I guess. Hope I find where I fit in!

[kanmom51]

You don't know Korean, and I assume you are not a lip reader, so how can you trust what someone else tells you Jungkook said to Jimin? Why would they be that reckless to be using 'husband' at an event where they know cameras could be on them? I don't know what they said. It hasn't been proven or disproven. Do you think they would be so free and easy when they know they can love everything and know that their freinds and colleagues cpuld lose everything? Do you know what its like to he gay in a country that isn't into it? I know we all live in an echo chamber, but this seens like a giant leap to make. You are a person who knows how to think critically. Unless Jikook personally tell you that they are gay and refer to themselves as husbands out loud and to their fans, you shouldn't rely on a lip read of a fan cam of a language you do not speak. I also believe they are together, but I can't speculate about someone's gayness based on what some other jikooker claims. It is not ok for anyone to call Jikook gay if they havent said it why is it hard to say I think or probably? It means the same thing. If Jikook haven't come out like that yet or if they are in a glass closet, you can recognize them but you can't label them as gay. That is called outing them. I don't understand why you would want to out someone you care about. I don't understand why you would want to label someone who might be in the closet even if its glass. Not everything is about conforming your beleifs are fact. Sometimes people need the closet.

Thank you so much for your question.  It’s a great question and I really wanted to talk about this.

2018 MMA rewards.  For me it was a huge Jikook eye opener moment.  

I will start with the obvious.  I am not a lip reader.  I don’t speak Korean.  I don’t work with a lip reader whom I trust that speaks Korean and that I can sit down to watch that specific short clip and tell me what they think was said.  I am also not a fly on the wall that could hear what they were talking about, and even if I was I wouldn’t know what was said because I don’t speak the language.

So, after clearing that up, we can surmise that I don’t know, and basically don’t really care what JK said.  For all I know, they were talking about the weather.  

Do I think JK or JM would speak freely knowing how they are being watched and filmed from every single angle?  Well, yes and no.  Like you said, they spend most of the day together.  On a super tight schedule, not always having that free time to just sit down, relatively disconnected from the other members, and just hang or have a conversation.  These award events are soooooooooo long.  The idols sit there for hours upon hours, waiting to perform or accept an award or just to sit and watch this ever so long event.  Have you seen footage in the past where JK is so nervous and JM has to calm him down?  That wait can be nerve wracking. So, and I stress this again, I have no idea what was said, but I can see it happen - I can see them being there for so long, that they seem to forget, for a second, that they are being filmed from every single angle and that people are obsessive to the level that they will go to every length, even lip read what they say.  

One language I do speak though is body language, and boy, did they supply us with plenty to talk about from the 2018 MMA’s.  We have JM and JK’s little kiss in the air moment.  Not a big deal within it’s self, although JM shyly covering his mouth following the kiss is a bigger tell.

As a whole there was an overpowering level of intimacy between them.  It was oozing.  This was one of the first clips I saw of the two.  Way before RB.  And watching this I just knew there was something there.  The way they are sat, ever so close together.  The way JK is singing that song while looking at JM, lightly touching him (at the time I had no idea what it was, only to discover it is a love song, one that JK recommended, if I’m not mistaken, back in 2016).  The way JM looks at JK when he talks to him, the way he touches him (again, not your usual run of the mill ‘skinship’).  But the creme de la creme is just the way JK is looking at JM.  It is oh so telling.  You can’t see that and not see just how in love that man is with JM.  The way they embrace, the eye contact, those looks and attentiveness, that’s when it clicked for me.  It makes no difference what so ever what was said.  

To top all of those up, have you seen the reaction of the idol sitting next to JK to those two next to him?  OMG, that within it’s self is all telling.  Those eye rolls, that sideway look at JK, especially after JK says something to JM.  Without knowing what was said, you can see, by the reaction, that it was something unexpected, maybe unconventional, and at the very least, their interaction was brow raising to him.

Now this reoccurring question about ‘outing’ Jikook.  I get where you’re coming from, I really do.  This is the way I see it though:   I believe Jikook have been ‘outing’ themselves way before any of us realised it.  There are so many ‘Fuck you - I am who I am’ moments orchestrated by them.  They have been silently screaming this out to everyone for years now.  They want those who understand to love them for who they are.  And we do.  And we need to show them that we love them no matter their sexuality or whomever they choose to love.  

So to keep hiding behind this wall of “we shouldn’t out them” is a double jagged knife.   We can just ignore it.  Not talk about it.  And then what?  There are so many haters out there.  So many ‘fans’ that are seeing what we are seeing and being vocal about it, but negatively vocal about it.  They are abusive and aggressive, especially towards JM.  If we stay quiet, will that stop?  No it won’t, I can tell you that for sure.  Do JK and JM see and hear these voices?  Oh, they most certainly do.

On the other hand if we talk about it,  acknowledging the fact that we believe that they are gay.  But doing that while we are supporting them.  Doing that while telling them that we love them for who they truly are, that they can take their mask off and we will still love them, that we won’t perceive them as a ‘ugly’, and that we won’t ‘leave’ them.  We are telling the rest of the world that their love is beautiful and ‘normal’ and not something to hide or be ashamed of.   

[franeridart]

hi. hello. this is a bit embarrassing but i'm trying to buy my bf a tablet sort of thing so he can draw his arts. he's been wanting one forever but hasn't rly shown me which one he wants. i want to surprise him n buy a good one worth the money n was just curious if you had any suggestions. i've looked into wacom products, but i'm just such a noob to these things n was hoping you can help... i understand if this is silly, you don't have to reply! ur just so amazing, ur opinion is trustworthy 😅☺️

Okay, so, this is just my opinion and since it’s based completely on personal experiences it’s gonna possibly be incredibly different from other people’s opinions, so I just wanna make clear from the start that this is a personal preference and isn’t in any way meant as an absolute truth

Anyway, as far as I’m concerned when you’re just starting out you don’t need anything fancy at all. As an aspiring digital artist your bf might have looked up tablets and cried tears of blood over how much he’d like a cintiq or anything similar, but my very personal opinion is that fancy stuff is gonna be pretty much useless to you and be generally a waste of money? You’re just learning, you don’t need anything more than the basics. My suggestion is that you pick something simple and easy to use - I own this wacom intuos, had it for a long while and I like it a lot, but there’s also less expensive options you can go for too that people seem to like just as much! I’ve lately read on my dash about the Huion H610, they say it doesn’t cost much at all but it’s just as good as the Intuos, that could be a good option for you~

Anon said:  Hey!!! I was wondering if its ok to rb your oc art? I realized a lot less people rb those and i get anxious easily so... also i really don't want to disrespect either! But i always thought of rebloging as a way of saying "i appreciate your art" and i really really (really ) like yours (both the style and itself in general). (I hope you dont mind my bad english ha ha) i hope you don't mind this stupid ask! Im still kind of new to tumblr

It’s 100% okay!!!! *O* Thank you for liking them enough to want to reblog them ;A; !!!!

Anon said:i miss ur bokuroteru so much 😭💕 i love ur art but whenever i see ur header, i just remember ur bokuroteru comic and my heart cries storms for them to be seen again.

Aw anon I’m super happy you like my stuff for those three but as of now inspiration in that department is... super low... and tbh the haikyuu fandom is being incredibly unresponsive and non-vocal about their appreciation of fanworks in this period so even when I do have ideas for that fandom I sort of. Let them go. Or just sketch them out and never finish them.

Like, you know the whole deal about having to draw for yourself and not for others? That’s what I do 100% of the times when I’m starting a drawing, but to draw for myself I don’t exactly need to finish a drawing, you know? Sometimes there’s a scene I wanna see and I sketch it out in a super rough way and as far as my personal desire to see it goes I’m satisfied with that, and everything after that - the cleaning and lining and maybe even coloring - I put the effort in it because I want to share it with people. And the deal with the Hq!! fandom lately is that they don’t share my excitement for it. They either only like it, or don’t comment on it, or comment only to complain about this or that thing. In the worst case posting hq!! only ends up with people asking me to draw something else (ie I feel like drawing Karasuno so I draw it and post it and no one comments/rb/says anything about it but there’s 20 asks in my inbox asking me why I haven’t drawn any bok*ro lately)

When I think about posting stuff for hq lately I automatically compare it to posting stuff for bnha where I could draw a background character that appeared once 120 chapters ago and there’s still gonna be people that go “yes! that character!! I love that character!!! can’t believe there’s actual art for it oh my god!!!!” - that’s... that’s the sort of reaction that makes you wanna share stuff

I dunno, maybe I’m just expecting too much out of the hq fandom. But anyway, sharing for bnha makes me way happier and glad I decided to finish a drawing lately, so I guess that’s what’s happening there.

Anon said:Every time your soft doods art shows up on my dash I have to pause and take a deep breath and just thank god for all the good in the world because I'm blown away every single time

This is s o s w e e t oh my god ;A; thank you so much!!!!

Anon said:Johnny is a fucking angel dammit. Have you read the new DGM already?? I'm in tears. I love this manga so much. The frequency of the releases are killing me... it has such a great story and great characters. It needs more love

I did read it!!!! And yeah the fandom used to be way bigger, but honestly I’m glad it’s just the couple dozens people it is. Like a small town where everyone knows everyone else. No drama, no discourse. Everyone ships what they want and we all pass each other tissues to dry the tears. The only argument that happens regularly is people complaining about the relase schedule and the old fans telling them to let Hoshino live. A good place, this fandom’s a good place.

DGM was my playground for most of my experimenting as far as creating art goes, I really did reach in all directions with it through the years and it helped me shape myself a lot, so I really want it to stay quiet and nice and peaceful, that’s my dream for it haha smaller fandoms have a better chance to keep that freedom

Anon said: Oh man, I live for that Togata x Amajiki interaction

You talking about the color spread cause yes that was adorable!!! ;A;

Anon said:I look a little, and do you still draw Bakugo x Kirishima x Kaminari?

Sure, it’s still my main ship for Kaminari and my main ot3! Just wait for Denki to start being relevant in the manga again, I’ll probably fall headfirst into it all over again haha

Anon said:Your art is so wonderful you're wonderful everything's so wonderful i'm crying omg

SOB no anon you’re wonderful!!!!

Anon said:Due to my brain not wanting to cooperate with me (ever), Bakugou Katsuki is now Batsuki Katsuki in my head.

This is the funniest thing I’ve read today and I’m in t e a r s hahaha

Anon said:Artistic!Mina making pop art and colorful paintings :o what are ur thoughts

HELL YES that’s my main headcanon for Mina, she’s definitely an artsy girl!!! I like the idea of her sharing it with Bakugou t b h

Anon said:I'm still just repeatedly looking at your newest KiriBaku because hot damn.

I’m super glad you liked it!!!!!!! oh my gOD!!!!!!!

Anon said:Heyy please rec Kami comics please! I'm in a Kami art shortage and I currently can't find art as awesome as yours...

I’m so sorry I wish I could help you with this but I don’t know anyone who draws lotsa Kaminari either ;---;