#really really hoping ur out there living your best life💘💘 i love u!

[bbael]

hello my love <3 i know it's been a while but i hope you're doing well <3 love and miss you lots !!, pls take care, m' sending u many kisses too c: and this tiktok <3

I hate that tiktok so muchh shsndkf im still ugly laughing😭😭😭

But also HI hello emi my love, how are you?? i've been missing you like crazy.... I *am* doing well fortunately & hope u are as well hon, what are u even up to?

Thank you so much for dropping by, i love u and im kissing u as I type this, hoping you are having a great time && also taking care of yourself❤❤❤

[gatual]

hiii bom my beloved!! 🥰❤️✨✨ i’m so happy to see you, how have you been lately? what are you up to? i’m going back to work tomorrow after spending the vocation at my parents’ house which was very lovely! i tried to battle the anxiety by binge watching breaking bad but it was a poor decision because i’m going to sleep really late rip hope your day is going great!!! ଘ( ੭⁰̷̴͈ ᵕ ˘͈)੭* ✩

omg hii tasha ⁽⁠⁽⁠ଘ⁠(⁠ ⁠ˊ⁠ᵕ⁠ˋ⁠ ⁠)⁠ଓ⁠⁾⁠⁾☆ﾟ⁠.⁠*⁠･⁠｡ﾟ!!!! I've been doing v well ^^ college keeps me busy but im (not pretending to sound like a freak) actually enjoying it lots aksjdjdn🥰💘❤️🫶🏻 i enjoy going to class, i have a really nice group of classmates and i like what i do - also really like living alone again and being independent, having my space and organizing my everyday schedule to my desire is the best of the bestest,,,,, ive also been feeling more confident w myself, been trying to reach out and be more assertive and hhhh everything in general is going p well🥹❤️🍓💞💕im currently at home, came for the long weekend for my mom's bd and had a great time🫶🏻🥺✊🏻 tomorrow morning i have to go back and it'll be a suuuuper busy week bc i haven't done much he during the weekend lmAo anyway enough life updates dumping im glad to hear u spent such a lovely vacation at ur parents'🥹❤️ well if sleeping late was worth it then i see no wrong 🧐 (honestly here i am super late too bc i just finished packing aksjdjd high five)BUT YEAH ITS SO NICE TO HEAR FROM U kiss take care ily♡⁠(⁠˃͈⁠ ⁠દ⁠ ⁠˂͈⁠ ⁠༶⁠ ⁠)

[starjxsung]

Missing you all the time <333 We're all here for you Star - I can't imagine what it's like to go through something like that - please be kind to yourself as you recover and know that it's not your fault !! and even if things don't seem to be getting better or it's going slow, be patient with yourself and remember that we all love you so much regardless of how you feel youre doing and want you to take all the time you need <3 It really does suck that vile people exist and I pray that you stay safe <333 How is the rest of life? Work? Hobbies? Cat??? As for me... SUMMER YAAAAA and yesss making BANK!!! I have a bit of time off before the speech arts academy opens for summer and I'll be working two weeks full time in July!!! More money!!! (I need it cause I'm saving up for my first tattoos!!! I have enough saved up ... but like, it's always nice to have more money for security ... esp as a uni student...) and YES hehe South Africa... I had so much fun learning and birding and ID plants and collecting data - my prof is amazing and said I was one of the best students despite being the youngest hehe (a total ego boost) and im hoping to go back in the future with his support to do research on scholarship!!! and the hook up was certainly unexpected... it was mostly based on a deep emotional connection and being similar people despite having vastly different life experiences if that makes sense (but also, he's hot like 6ft and like alsjdfkjd idk how i managed to pull him but as he said himself... I got that 'tism rizz 😎). we probably wont be entering anything committed and probably reeling things back to a close friendship b/c our lives are pretty different. BUT hes a great person and im really glad I met him. (we're having a studio ghibli day this week!) WAHHH STAR ILY SOOOO MUCH thank YOU for being there and being such a light ✨🌟💖 I will continue to pop in every so often - however, summer is looking HECTIC with work and family trips... BUT I WILL UPDATE YOUUUUU!!! Please take care ily ily 💕💕💕 🌱

I love you I love you I am making mental note of your words and keeping them in all 4 chambers of my heart foreverrrrr 💓🤞👼

LIFE IS GOOD….. work has been insaaaaanely busy for me these past few weeks and I’m literally so exhausted I can barely even stay awake on my phone sometimes. so I either crash super early or stay up until like 5am. there’s no in between (it’s literally 5am right now RAHHH) hobbies are good TOO (spoiler alert it’s writing) and my cat is doing better than ever (just as spoiled and insane as ever) so things are feeling a little more back to normal !!! now that I’m back at my apartment I’m w my kpop stuff again and my family and everything feels good <3 I’m so excited to publish stuff again soon and get on main blog at some point

MY GOSHHHH YOUR SUMMER SOUNDS SO BUSY I AM SO EXCITED FOR U THO…… where are you working in July??? I hope it all goes well also UR FIRST TATTOOOOOOOS GASP I AM SO EXCITED TO SEE THEM EVENTUALLY

I’m so so so glad South Africa was so memorable and productive!! It sounds like you got so much done (in more ways than one LMAO) and I’m manifesting so hard you can go back for research on scholarship!!!! not surprised at all that you were the best student bc ofc you were. you lil smartie 🤓💓

Ahhhh I’m glad you guys seem to be going about it in such a healthy way!! It’s not easy to admit when you’re on a different path from somebody you’re super into but it sounds like you guys have great communication with each other and I’m glad you’re staying good friends 🫶 also studio ghibli day YESSSSSS I love all the ghibli themed dates in the summertime like it’s the most wholesome sneaky link activity out there

I LOVE YOU SOOOO SOSOSO MUCH I LOOK FORWARD TO MY UPDATES WHENEVER YOU CAN PROVIDE THEM RAHHH I LOVE YOU SWEET ANGEL 🤞💘💞🫶💓👼 take care of yourself !!!!!!!!!

[saintobio]

Saint.

Yn's death scene broke my heart. I'm ngl, I didn't cry bc I'm already used to saint level angst but the fact that she just wanted rin to believe her and the way rin was screaming ugh, it's just so tragic that he finally had a wife who he truly loves and it ends this way 💔 for my peace of mind, I'm imagining them living their best life in heaven and having the happy family that they weren't able to start 😭

And rin was so smart for choosing to torture hera and c'ian instead of killing them, he definitely knew how much it would affect them to witness his death. Also, on that note of c'ian and hera being kept in the dungeon, what has happened to demie? Is she staying with the empress or being looked after by someone else?

Also, when 'samu and the knights kneeled in respect for rin and yn, it's kinda sad that she was finally shown some sort of respect by the people of Faren and she wasn't even alive to witness it. I feel like if she didn't eat the berries and rin saved her, everyone would've been able to see that she's not who they thought she was and would definitely have some respect/love for her 😭

This play was so beautifully written Saint. I really do appreciate you taking the time to write this masterpiece bc I can imagine that writing in that language and in a format that doesn't allow for a lot of description, is difficult. Thank you saint, you broke my heart once again and I love you for it. 😂💘

this is just a 6 on saint level angst sdjsjs and yeah there’s no other way to put it — suna knows that his death would be traumatizing to hera and ci’an. the answer to demie is on a previous ask :)

thank u for reading tho 🥺 it was definitely hard since i’m so used to descriptive writing but i’m happy to know that you liked it <3

Anonymous said

what’s totally crazy about the ending is that if the MC had only held out for like 5 minutes, she and rin could’ve been alive together ☹️. i am happy that they get to be together in the afterlife tho. i think it’s kind of a morbidly funny trend in tragedies that if they had just a tiny bit more streets smarts, most of their problems could’ve been solved in like a week. anywho this was a great story, and i think you deserve all the flowers for writing in such a difficult style, and still being able to convey such intense emotions. you truly are amazing at what you do, and i’m very grateful to be a reader!

omg yea ik what u mean !! HAHA when i read r+j for the first time, i got sooo upset like why can’t they wait just a few more mins dammit 😭 and thank u very much for ur sweet words anon <33 i appreciate it sm :’)

Anonymous said

SAINT R U SECRETLY SHAKESPEARE 😭😭 THIS IS PAINFUL I CANNOT. IM VV EXTRA EMOTIONAL BC OF CYCLE SO THIS IS 10X HURTFUL.

It’s so sad it had to end that way but i can’t say that i did not like it bc it’s so amazing yet tragic 😭

Anonymous said

oh my god saint that was so good?? it would be wonderful if it was an actual play! you should really make some of your stories actual books people would love them

WAAAAH thank u!! that makes me happy :’) i’m actually glad i turned this old play of mine into a fanfic. i didn’t think anyone would appreciate but yay <33 when i submitted this for my class before, my professor said we can’t have it on stage bc it was too dark gahahaj

Anonymous said

“Keep this image with you forever as I reunite with my true love, far away from the spiteful ladies of this household.”

i read the tags for olal but i thought it was just gonna be yn unaliving herself, but when i came to that line i was shook

was rin able to reunite with yn in the afterlife at least where they’re both finally at peace together

Anonymous said

I was hoping for Hera and c'ian to die but I guess it was too good to be true 😭 but at least now rin and mc can be happy and free in the afterlife

@andreavasquezz said

Romeo and Juliet moment😝😭😰😭😭😭 that was so sad but I know that they will be reincarnated and reunite and live happily ever after.

@evcrgardn said

i hope rin, yn, and their baby are happily together in the afterlife :((

Anonymous said

Me hoping for Suna and yn getting reincarnated in modern world and finally getting the happy ending they deserve😭

AFTERLIFE IT IS :P but u guys,,,, doesnt this remind u of a certain someone from a zombie apocalyptic world *coughs* maybe they’ll reincarnate again since it’s a common manhwa trope 😹

@sunareign said

… why you gotta do that to me ? i thought zunarin was enough? WHY YOU GOTTA BREAK MY HEART A SECOND TIME?

shut up u love angst u know that :p and i never said ur mans won’t die the second time bsjsjds he never gets a happy ending from me 😹

[iwaasfairy]

♡ asks ♡

What is your artblog again btw. I was supposed to follow you last time but I lost the connection and I forgot to do it later on. 😭

@/fairydoesarts !!

oh no if u leave, it will be saddening but i know it’s for the better! take a time for yourself! ill miss ur cheeky answers and you will always be a memorable writer for me thank u!

thank you so much love! i'll definitely miss interacting with you guys bc you always made my day! thank YOU 💝

@tnu-ree You need to do what you think is best for you so please don't feel pressure for what other people say or do, do what you need to do, I really enjoy your writing and you made me happy every time you posted something, so thank you. 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

And you made me so happy every time you were in my notes! You're a blessing sweet baby, take care of yourself!!

hey homie,, if you leave that’s completely okay just here to thank you for being such a big comfort creator to me and a big inspiration in my own writing. i really appriciate you so i hope you feel better soon much live (platonically ofc<3)

ty ty ty lovie!! you're so sweet! i hope i can come back better than ever and i hope so too! mwuah all the love!

@abluberrypie Even if you do end up deleting your blog just remember that you have caused joy with it and that you'll be missed by us. Though I do hope you'll not delete it and stick with us more, please know we'll support any decision you make (っ˘̩╭╮˘̩)っ

I LOVE YoUUUUU very very much bby, you've been here with me for so long and i'm ever grateful! i won't delete!! even out of spite for those who want to see me go i wont ufyguyrgiyreit 💘💘💘 i'll be back

We all love you a lot!! Don’t feel guilty because you think you’re “not posting enough” and don’t deserve new followers because of it. This is your blog and posting on it should be fun and for you before anyone else. This is a hobby!! You’re allowed to have periods of inactivity that’s a part of life!! The fact that you’ve shared your writing with us is more than enough!! Just remember you do this for yourself and you should never have to feel like you need to post more to make your followers happy!! We follow because we love the work you’ve already done and we want to show our support and and join you on your journey!! If you don’t feel like this blog is serving you anymore that’s ok!!! We’re all just so great full that you shared your work with us and let us love and appreciate you. It’s also more than ok for you to leave for a period and come back!! You don’t owe us anything!!!!!

thank you so so much my sweet angel this really is so sweet and it means more than you know ♡ this is going to be one of those messages i'll cherish forever <333 i'm so so grateful for this kind of love and support, this really is the reason i do it (aside from just enjoying it very much)

[kyunsies]

Hi Mädch 💖💖

Let me apologize this once and say Sorry it's been like nearly two weeks since I said I would get back to you, and I will! But also I just wanted to say hi and tell you how much I appreciate you and seeing you on my dash!! Your gifs are always lovely and I'm so so happy for you being able to see mx live in your hometown!!! Anyway things have been an extremely mixed bag for me lately, which is why I haven't gotten back to you properly yet :( some days I'm good and doing stuff and can't seem to find time to write you, and other days I'm just so bogged down I can't do much of anything... but things are settling I think. Anyway thanks for being you! I'll try to get back to you properly soon 💖💖💖 Minji 🌟

[ @dkbtho ] HEWO LOVE <3 super sorry this is a couple days late, i haven’t really bad time to myself this week so i’m all over the place ndndndn :’) but in any case PLS PLS never apologize for being late !!! i’m never upset about that stuff since being in nursing school i know how burnt out and just busy you can get with everyday life !!! pls ur real life is more important than me so always prioritize that first <3

i appreciate our friendship too angel and THANK U for saying all those sweet things to me 🥺 you’re so so kind :( and i was really blessed and thankful to attend the mx concert and i can see how these concerts get addicting LOL especially at smaller concert venues like mine !! but anyways, bub you just get back fo me whenever you can, i am the same way !!! some days it’s east to find the energy to talk w others online and answer asks and other days it’s like, i said i would get to it later but GOSH why can’t i 😭😭😭 you do your best and that’s totally enough and i will always understand !!! ily so much and i hope you’re taking care of yourself this week 💓💕💖💘💗💞💕💖💘💘💗💞

[taeminie]

oh hi dream girl! well i def missed your lovely replies, but i figured you were busy 😇 and would be back around when you weren’t! aw, your day sounds rough 😔 i’m sorry, i hope you get to get off this rollercoaster soon!! i’m sending you tea and cookies and little lovely things in my head! ✨

ah, i thought it would be fair of me to share more about myself! though i don’t really know what to share 🤔 y’know that ‘i didn’t think i’d get this far’ meme? that’s me, in shock and awe we have a correspondence happening. um but besides hiding on anon, i’m an open book! 😅😅 i’m sure opportunities to Reveal my Secret Identity will happen organically hehehehwjakkd

anyway, i can’t imagine a place with even less rain than us! i would miss it too, rainy days are so lovely ☺️ besides not raining, what’s it like where you live? what do you like about it?

oh 🥺 you’re the absolute sweetest! it’s my humble goal to add even a touch of sparkle to your day, because it’s very clear to me that you deserve it. so! i’ll try my best!

and i’m right there with you about leaning into cooking and baking during the lockdown. it’s nice to feel accomplished, while we’re cooped up inside, and to share something lovely with loved ones! omg you’re so cute, that def doesn’t make you a loser 😂 it makes you just!! so sweet! (i would *love* to share this apple pastry with you, you have no idea 😊 sharing the recipe will suffice, for now)

aw thank you!! today was nice, i actually had an excuse to be outside (it’s the little things)! i got to wear my new boots which are very like cute and lesbian-y and make me feel like i’m taller than everyone 🥰 and i got honey green tea 🤤 which is the power that fuels me. that alone brightened my day!

before i sign off, i have a very important question 🥺 do you have any petnames you like? i called you ‘sugarplum’ in my head, which makes me ridiculous, yes 😂 but i feel like pet names are like a personality quiz? everybody has their own preferences, and this way i can correct the one in my head ☺️🙈 i feel ridiculous asking you this so on that high note, goodnight 😴 🌙 , rest well and i hope you have a beautiful day! 🌺✨

p.p.s i have never used the 🥺 emoji so much in my life since sending you these asks!! you’ve made my recent emoji’s list sweeter, just by existing! proof you’re the sweetest person alive! 😌🍰💘

i can finally reply hii hii omg i had this ask on my inbox and i felt so bad for not replying ur so sweet for this 🥺🥺🥺 and i love tea and cookies (im more of a tea than coffee person)

things have gotten better since i replied to ur ask so thank u for checking up on me as well ❤️ and thank u for the recipe i will make sure to try it out one day and let u know hehe

i’m really glad u got some time to enjoy outside and ur new boots. looks like that made u really happy. and as a lesbian i enjoyed reading the description of them fjdkkdkdkd and YAY FOR TEA I LOVE IT

i live in peru in the coast so its very humid but rn its summer so its super hot, i live in front of the ocean but not technically that near to it. you can go to the beach by car and its a 30-40 min drive (of course not right now bc of the pandemic all the beaches are closed 😭) but i usually go to visit my grandma’s beach house in summer or i just stay here and go for walks. right now im teaching english online to some kids but i cant do it in person bc the covid cases are still high... but yeah i love summer and the heat isnt unbearable rn thank god 😥

about the pet names.. i love love pet names i guess u can call me anything u want ☺️ but my faves are “honey/sweetheart/baby” ummm too personal sorry 🤭 but feel free to use any ones u like i cant believe u were really thinking it through in ur head thats so cute 🥺💜

I hope u have the best day and u get some fresh air again like last time. sending u hugs thanks for taking the time to do all this ps: i saw the blog u really dont have to i feel so fjdkkd idk how to react but thank u 🥺🥺🥺

[darkanddirtyknb]

ANSWERS|REPLIES

iwatobiswimbros said: I'm so sorry for your niece and all the terrible things happening in your family 💐 I wish for the best for everyone and take as much time as need. Since it's hot, drink plenty of water and put some clothes in the fridge it feels nice hehe take care. Love you!!!!!! 💕            

Thank you so much. I just might do that. That's not a bad idea. I have a ton of water on me at all times so at least I have that covered. Love you too, sweets! 💙

titlemesenpaii said: I miss you, Kaiiiiii~! Sorry if I keep spamming you lmao. I miss seeing you in my newsfeed. Hope everything is getting better!! xoxo 💜

I miss you too! I miss this blog! I miss writing! I miss things being normal and drama-free. Things are okay at this moment. That's all I'll say because I'm trying to live each day one at a time instead of jumping ahead too much. It gets overwhelming. 😘

poisonapplenecklace said: You should just take care of her before coming back. We can wait. We just need for you and your family to take care of everyone and yourself.

Thank you, love. I appreciate your support and understanding. 💜

tinybabyhalfghouldidnothingwrong said: YOU BETTER STOP BEING SORRY I S2G YOU DESERVE THE TIME YOU DESERVE THE LOVE THE WORLD IS JUST SUCKY AND BY GOODNESS GRACIOUS DONT YOU FEEL OBLIGATED TO UPDATE US TAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF DAMMIT ILL FIGHT YOU UNTIL YOU ACCEPT But on another note, I'm glad things ended (generally?) well and nothing catastrophic happened. And please for the love of goodness take the time off don't apologize you need that time for more important things. We all love you and will respect your situation, I promise ❤️

I'm sorry! Haha. Okay, I'll stop calling upon my inner Sakurai. Thank you so much. Yeah, they did and I'm grateful for that. I'm still worried about my mom. She isn't quite herself yet, but she seems to be doing better. I just can't help but feel like there's something going on with her that the doctors aren't catching. I'm going to. I promise. Thank you again. I love you too. You're all amazing. 💞

Anonymous said: Hello Kai, i recently found ur blog but i've already read all the stories in here (they're amazing). I just wanted to tell u that you're an amazing writer and an incredibly strong person, lots of love!!!

Hello! Thank you so much! That's really sweet of you to say. Thank you for reading and for showing your support! 💘

Anonymous said: Kai, please take a break and don't worry about putting out content. Your health--mental and physical--always come first. You don't need to excuse your sharing of your personal life; it's something that we as your supporters definitely empathize with. To be honest, I would still follow you if you stopped writing, because you have shown us how strong, kind, and wonderful you are.

I'm going to. I want to put out new content and I'll work when I'm able, but I know that what you're saying is true and that if I don't take care of myself it's only going to hurt me more. Thank you. Your words mean a lot to me. 💛

Anonymous said: I'm sure you've gotten a ton of these but I just want to say how incredibly sorry I am for all of your struggles....I can't even begin to imagine what it must be like going through all those losses in such quick succession, and then having the stress of worrying about your niece and her mental state on top of your own. Please please take care of yourself, and know that you have support and love from all of us !!

Thank you so much. It's hard but I'm getting through it. I don't know how and I am worried about my future. Maybe I'm using up all of my strength now and by the time I hit my 40's I'm going to be all used up and then I'll have turned into an emotional mess but for now, I'm holding my head up as high as I can. I'm going to do my best. Trust me, knowing that helps me a lot. ❤️

Anonymous said: You're so strong. Keep fighting, and I hope things get better for you soon. <3

Thank you! I will! 💚

Anonymous said: When my ac was broken for a couple of years, I used to walk to my nearest convenience store/small cafe/department store etc and literally stay there for hours, because it's air conditioned and they usually have wifi! I always found that the hot sweaty walk was worth it, rather than just sitting at home in the dark, at least I could waste my time on tumblr in an air conditioned place!

I totally get that. I hate Walmart and the grocery store, but I'm there on a hot day. I'll do anywhere I can to get cool. It can be so miserable. I wish I could walk to places but unfortunately where I live that's not an option. However, now that I'm with my girlfriend I finally have air. I can actually sleep at night which is a blessing. 😊

Anonymous said: I honestly think you must be super human, you're dealing with some many things yet you still are able to run this blog and write incredibly. As for the next character vote thingy maybe Hara or Taiga? But please take as much time as you need, you honestly need and deserve it. I hope things start getting better for you!! Because you're a marvelous person who deserves the best!!

Oh, thank you for that. I'm going to answer this here just so people know that I did take the votes into consideration. I have them written down but it's going to be a toss up between Midorima and Akashi. I guess it's because I haven't written them in a while. I'll go through my requests at some point and pick a story to write and get to it as soon as I'm able. Thank you for understanding and for your well wishes. 😍

Anonymous said: oh my gosh youre going through so much right now honestly you dont have to put out stories at all, ever again, we all just want you and your family happy and healthy!! please take care of yourself, and know we're always here to listen and support you!

Thank you! I'm going to do my best. I know you are. I know I’ve said it before, in this message even, but my followers are amazing. I love you guys so much. Seriously. ❣️

Anonymous said: Please please please don't apologize for not being able to write. That doctor was a real jerk and I really hope your mother feels better. And you too. Please take your time and relax and rest. Thank you and sorry for the crappy grammar.

He was. I actually pushed my mom to report him and she did. I hope that no one else has to put up with his arrogant bullshit. He doesn't care about his patients. He just wants a paycheck and I can't express how angry that makes me. If you can't treat people with compassion then get the fuck out of the medical field. You're just fine. Thank you for the sweet message. 💕

Anonymous said: You are seriously one of most brave and loyal person I know. You're so sweet to take care of your blog and let us know what is happening even if your mama is sick and you are sick too. You do not leave us and you let us know when you are having bad times and not leaving us to be alone. You are a seriously nice and great person and I hope things are going to get better for you in the future. Take care,and I am sorry about my English it is not the first language I speak. Be safe❤

Thank you. It's important to me. I feel like with the support my followers give me I just need to give back, even if that means giving an update to keep you in the know. You're too kind. Your English is fine! Don't sweat it. Thanks again, lovely. Take care. 💖

Anonymous said: Hi! I really love Your work, and i'm wondering what gender you are? Of course it doesn't matter, i was just curious^^

Hello! Thank you! I actually never give out my gender. I'm sure some people have found out by mistake or default, but I let people view me as they please. I don't really put much into gender roles so you can think of me how you wish. 🖤