#sadandmad

[celestepaige-blog]

So it’s been awhile...

I don’t much feel like talking to anyone so I figured you’d lend an ear...

I‘m getting that feeling again, like a craving for something I haven’t yet felt.

Sometimes I picture being in the ocean, I drown out the pain and the sorrow.

Since we’re getting caught up, I should mention last night was the third this week- that she’s been in my dreams.

What am I to do when all my best pieces are brought out by you?

[ramyeonupdates]

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[0ut0f-this-w0rld-blog]

A terrorist creates another!

I have no words! Three men and one woman are responsible for New Zealand’s mosques shooting. It was a mass shooting by four terrorists which killed more than dozen people peacefully praying in their mosque and injured several more. 

The shooter’s excuse is that he felt like there were too many Muslims taking over? Are you effin kidding me? If for instance we say that Muslims were taking over, this POS still lived and is still alive. They didn’t harm you, did they?!

I pray that you and your team rots in jail and in hell in the after life. No decency, no humanity. 

Just remember you POS, you can record killing people live, you can go around killing people. But it’s POS terrorists like you who create more terrorists. Hope you get the severe punishment that you deserve. 

[divatheawesome]

My parents pressured me into meeting a suitor shortly before my exams . A random guy my Aunt met in a chat room who wouldn’t go for her daughter because he wanted a doctor ? Like huh

I agreed to get it over with . I know I am single and bla bla not getting younger and that I can end up alone . My mom went all out. She was cleaning the house for a whole day with the help . She went and bought fancy chocolates and gateau . She bought fruits and she even got out her good China . I felt pressured and mad that she got her hopes up when I told her to not make a big deal out of it .

My parents sat with him and they talked medicine , a topic lost on non doctors i am sure and boring to death . My brothers tried to break the ice by talking non doctorish things . The guy seemed so nervous . He kept stealing glances at me . That went on for about an hour .

Then they left me with him. That was even more awkward . Then he kept asking me about my work and his experience with dentists and how much do they charge and asking me on my rates . like hey dude did I ask you how much money do you make ?

Then we talked about his job and summer and winter breaks . He asked me if we owned a summer house ? Where did we own it ?

Then he told me about his sister sitting and quitting work , because it’s far . He asked me if I owned car . Since I didn’t what public transportation I used ?

It was just so awkward he was trying to assess my socioeconomic status and lifestyle . And my mom kept offering him fruits then cakes then drinks all different kinds like an open buffet . I felt embarrassed that she kept doing that .

I told him my mom is hospitable and likes cooking and hosting . He’s kind but you are not , do you cook ?

It just felt like an ice cold interview .

I started getting bored .I answered truthfully that I do know how to but not the classic meals that I enjoy . We talked about our experience living in Saudi in the past . I think that’s the only thing we have in common and the single thing . Anyhow , he left after awhile .

They asked me what I thought , I told them I don’t see how it can work long term . He is more interested in social status and the economics of it . And Guess and behold he never asked for a second meeting the next day . My mom and aunt think they should go after him and call him . It’s like here is out daughter on a silver platter , please marry her . I hate these set ups . This one and all the ones before . They are impersonal interviews where people are judged on material things , their cover and it’s demeaning .

It never ever fails ti make me feel bad . Even if I know it’s right to take risks and put myself out there . I just think it’s not working for me . It is my type hard ? Or I need someone to love ? Maybe I don’t fit in here . I feel like my parents have been traumatised by my previous relationships and now they are really desperate to have me be in a better one or anyone I don’t know .

I could really tell this time that this affected them too . And it made me realise all this crush shit and waiting on men with mixed signals or whatever . That shit is not real . Life is too short to spend it waiting for someone to realise my worth or to fall in love and profess to me or something . It’s just a waste of time and emotions 🤦🏽‍♀️. It’s not real.

[vidyadeepthi-blog]

A Beautiful Evening

One evening when I was in a bad mood my best friend came to me and made me to get ready and said we are going out. Though I was not in a mood to go out, I got ready for her sake. And we went to shilparamam near by. It was my first time there. We have walked all the way and finally sat on the cradle. And we can listen to some bollywood songs from concert. Then we checked and came to know that it was KK concert happening there. We sat on the cradle and we sang along with him, without any fear of people looking at us. Some thought we have gone mad, some just ignored as usual. But it helped me to get back to normal. I felt better being with a good friend. And even went to all the stalls there for shopping and bargained in a way that if the shopkeeper sees us next time he will not at all allow to see his goods. We watched all the folk dances in the open auditorium and also asked for selfies making them celebrities. And now when I look back to those pictures of us it feels very happy. When you are in a bad mood just call your best friend. One best friend is enough for all your happiness. 

#allaboutfriendship #Hyderabaddays #sadandmad #friendship #eveningsinhyd #happymemories #lifeisprecious #happy #songs #KK #bollywoodmusic #singing #people #shopping #bargaining

[garveystudios]

Postbank blues 😫 @lord_louiz 📸 @reefer.maaaadness #needtolearngerman #duolingo #sadandmad #streetstyled #streetphoto #photoshootfresh (at Berlin, Germany)

[thegaymama]

There you have it This is what you wanted me to do To write about you A mention A tragic story A heart broken I hope you can bear my sarcasm Radiating of the walls As self hate takes over And it's no longer about you Just about me And my lack of capability With dealing my emotions and yours Yaaaay lets have a pity party My stupid pity parties I wish I was more cool head and mature Maybe then this would make sense Instead of writing it down And wondering what exactly does the word mean friend.

Sh0kimama (There you go)

[iambaddha]

"Decide to be fine until the end of the week. Make yourself smile because you're alive and that's your job. Then do it again the next week. Do it right, with a smile. Or don't do it."

-Frank Devereaux, Supernatural Season 7 episode 11

[belovedthewaythatgodmadeus]

I feel like screaming because I am frustrated, sad  and bored simultaneously and don't know what to do. How do I live life knowing that is so pointless. There is just this gaping void in my empty shell and I don't know how to fill it. I always feel like this around this time but I always had S to talk to. I really take things for granted. I really miss her, even though it's been half a year since we split. fuck loneliness curses me like a vandal blight

[divatheawesome]

I just don't feel like seeing human beings at the moment . I know we have not been in touch in forever . No one has called to invite me so why bother ? If it were up to me I would lay in bed in absolute silence forever I don't think I'm antisocial It's just that I don't have anything interesting to say . And everyone is pairing up and it's another reminder of How terribly alone I am .

[0hwellokay]

I'm basically listening to the soundtrack of Sucker Punch. It makes me depressed and angry. But it's too good to ignore.

[iambaddha]

Sometimes i really feel like i'm screwing everything up in my life. And i can't even do anything about, because that is just how life is.