remember the episode when castiel hugged sam and it felt like home for the both of them. the hug wouldn't leave their minds. so, the next time the brothers were working a case where sam stayed in the hotel to do research while dean went to the morgue, castiel couldn't take it anymore and went to the hotel. sam got surprised and stood up to greet the angel but then castiel pushed sam until he was pressed against the wall and kissed the daylights out of him. yeah, me too i remember it. stays in my mind all the time. pff, no i am not delusional. this was totally an episode.
Somewhere in the alternate universe Cas falls out of love with Dean after being treated like shit by him and slowly falls in love with Sam instead and they have the slowburn of the century and all of them work their issues out and live happy ever after. Girl can dream
sastiel valentine and they give each other tiny kisses and they go for a picnic and they watch the starry night on a slightly too thin blanket so grass keeps pricking them and there's a tiny stone that's just a little too hard under them and there's definitely ants! but it's okay because they can't stop giggling to each other and castiel tells sam about which angel created which star and sam tells castiel about all the things he used to secretly draw on motel walls
no matter what anyone says, i want the relationship sam and cas have. like what do you mean that sam was able to still want castiel to be safe even after destroying the wall in his mind. and what do you mean that cas was a ride or die for sam from the beginning. even going as far as to tell lucifer to his face that he won't take sam. they are so important to me. i can't fathom them without each other. the trust they have in the other is so rarely talked about. like please. just friendship wise, let alone actually shipping these two, i hardly ever hear anyone talk about it. my two soft and sad boys (with chaotic energy inside for sure) trying their best in a world that doesn't understand them.