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[summerofonenine]

Middle Life Crisis

Self destruct, self destruct, I hit the button

I didn’t mean to do it, I was hurting

Mid-life crisis, but I’m not old enough

Crying out for help-I’ve had enough!

I woke up & my life was in shambles

I quit my job, gave up on my family

I haven’t eaten in four days

I don’t feel hunger, I just feel rage

I found myself looking for love elsewhere

It’s whatever I want now, what do I care?

If I’m looking for trouble, I’ve certainly found it

Not to mention, a couple drug habits

I look in the mirror, I can’t recognize myself

I DON’T HAVE TO DIE TO EXPERIENCE HELL

[summerofonenine]

Up late in the middle of the night, wishing I could hear from you.

Can’t sleep ‘cause I got you on my mind, baby tell me what should I do.

In the morning after finally dozing off, I know I’ll have dreamed of you too.

But do you feel the longing?

Does it make you sad?

& do you feel the wanting?

Does it make you feel good or bad?

Is this just a tragedy?

Am I stuck between right & wrong?

Can we just love each other casually?

Or is that chance long gone?

When you’re up late in the middle of the night, I know you’re busy with work.

But do you think of me, do you miss me, does it make your heart hurt?

& when you can’t sleep because your mind is racing, is it racing with thoughts of me?

Fast forward to the morning light, did you dream of me?

But do you feel the longing?

Does it make you sad?

& do you feel the wanting?

Does it make you feel good or bad?

Is this just a tragedy?

Are you stuck between right & wrong?

Can we just love each other casually?

Or is that chance long gone?

I wonder when I’ll see you again.

You’re busier now than ever before.

Sometimes I think this is our end.

I can’t bring myself to ask you for more.

Even though each time it seems final,

This isn’t the first time we’ve been through this.

Am I just in ice cold denial?

Was it ever this serious?