#school starts monday . and im SOO not ready

[cariciapadre]

tumblr didnt let me post for a while and i thought i was gonna end it all slash j

[whoseafraidofliloleme]

Invisible Chapter 13

Summary: YN YLN has always been third in Class 2-5, right behind Lee Su Ho and Kang Soo Jin but with both of them having left Saebom Highschool, this is her time to shine. That is until Han Seosangnim asks her to tutor Han Seo Jun. A guy who doesn’t even know she existed.

Ship: Han Seo Jun x Female Reader.

Word Count: 2489 words.

Sorry, it's been so long since the last chapter... Im in my third year of university and that ish is hard. No idea when I'll be writing and posting the next chapter. Sorry for the very sporadic update schedule this fic has.

Thank you to everyone who is still reading this. Hopefully, you all enjoy this chapter.

Likes, comments and reblogs are appreciated with any reactions or whatever you want to say. Again I really don't know where I am going with this.

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Chapter 12.

Chapter 13:

From the high of the weekend. Monday was a different story. As Seo Jun looked at YN, Hyun Ji and Si Woo sat together eating lunch in silence. This was quite a departure from when the trio would sit with the group and eat. Loudly chatting, being annoying and just having fun. This whole day the three of them had been acting weird. Feeling someone tap his shoulder, he looked at Ju Kyung, she nodded her head in their direction.

“Something is definitely wrong with them. Hyun Ji and Si Woo just started dating but neither are acting like it. YN should be over the moon but she’s just upset” Ju Kyung said looking at the three of them sadly. Soo Ah, Seo Jun and Cho Rong all nodded their heads.

“It’s almost like we’ve gone back in time with Hyun Ji and YN being isolated from our Class but worse because none of us knows why they are being like that. At least before we could blame Hae Sung but who knows the reason this time.” Soo Ah sighed, she hated what was happening today. From the moment the YN and Hyun Ji stepped into class this morning, they looked sad and like they hadn’t slept all night. In YN’s case, she looked like she had been crying. When she saw Si Woo, he seemed just as depressed as the other two.

“Well, we’ve got to get to the bottom of this. I can’t handle YN looking so sad and not knowing who I should be beating up for it” Seo Jun huffed out. He was annoyed. After that cheek kiss, it had taken the whole of Sunday, a video chat with Su Ho, Ju Kyung screaming at him and Cho Rong writing up a whole plan. For him to finally be ready to ask YN out today. Only for YN to come in looking like she had found out her whole life was a lie.

Ju Kyung whacked his shoulder. Making Seo Jun yelp. Which made YN, Hyun Ji and Si Woo turn to look at them. Seo Jun saw YN give him a small smile. Seo Jun smiled back at her happy that he at least managed to make her smile once today.

“You know very well Han Seo Jun, that the last thing YN would want is for you to beat up someone. She’s stopped you from beating up Hae Sung enough times for you to know better” Ju Kyung told Seo Jun angrily. While he agreed with what she said. Physically hurting whoever made YN sad would make him feel better. Yet finding out what was upsetting her was the first priority. The second was making YN happy. And if he could get away with it, he would beat someone up.

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The day had gone by pretty quickly. Unfortunately, School and the antics of your class didn’t help, in taking your mind away from thinking about what you’d found out about Hae Sung.

You felt guilty about ruining Hyun Ji and Si Woo’s first day as a couple in school. They were just as upset if not more about everything. They didn’t deserve to have their day ruined by Hae Sung and his manipulations. You knew they were angry on your behalf. You loved them for it but they should enjoy being a couple today.

They had slept over at your house and the three of you had come to School together. You had made up your mind to send them off to just spend time together, just have a date or whatever but anything that didn’t involve you being the third wheel. Also so they could just relish in the fact that they were finally together after so many years of pining after each other.

That plan of yours was thwarted the moment, you saw Cho Rong and Ju Kyung dragging Si Woo and Hyun Ji into the classroom where you were with Seo Jun for your tutoring session. Seo Jun stood up and stood at the front of the class. Cho Rong told Hyun Ji and Si Woo to sit next to you. Silently they took their seats, looking at you with questions in their eyes. You shrugged; you had no idea what was going on. Cho Rong cleared his throat and you three turned to look at him. He was standing with Ju Kyung and Seo Jun. All three had their arms crossed.

“Uh what the hell is going on?” Si Woo after it had been silent for some time, with them just looking at you. Making you squirm, Hyun Ji looking away and Si Woo failing to keep eye contact with any of them.

“We should be asking you three that, today you’ve all been acting weird, and we would like to know why,” Ju Kyung said politely. You exchanged looks with Hyun Ji and Si Woo. The three of you nodded in unison. Hyun Ji opened her mouth to reply but you cut her off.

“I’ll explain but can you guys let Hyun Ji and Si Woo go. They were going on a date after school and well the reason for us acting weird is all to do with me anyway” You quickly say. Despite their protests. Cho Rong escorts them out of the classroom. Once he comes back you take a deep breath.

“Uh before I start, I just want to know, why do you guys, dislike Lee Hae Sung?” You ask calmly. Cho Rong lets out a laugh while Seo Jun and Ju Kyung look confused.

“I’ve got a list of reasons, but my main reason is that the guy acts like he is so much better than everyone. He treats everyone, apart from you YNie his best friend like dirt” Cho Rong proclaimed. You nodded your head agreeing. Hae Sung didn’t know how to treat people he perceived to be beneath him. No matter how much you lectured him on treating everyone the same. He just didn’t listen. You turned to Ju Kyung, nodding at her to speak.

“I haven’t been here long enough but every time I’ve seen Lee Hae Sung, he has either been shouting at you YNie or he’s being mean to our classmates. Oh, and the time he almost hit Hyun Ji. That was the worst thing he could’ve done. So, I just stay out of his way” You sighed, everything Ju Kyung said was true. Hae Sung had made the worst impression on her. Ju Kyung hadn’t even been at Saebom High School for that long, but she knew to steer clear from Hae Sung.

“I’ve got quite the story. Sometime after we first started at Saebom, Su Ho and I heard this guy shouting in a classroom and then that guy stormed out of the classroom. We went to the classroom to see what was going on. We heard this girl crying but we didn’t know what to do. So Su Ho messaged Soo Jin to come to that classroom, we waited outside till Soo Jin came. Later she told us what was going on. I hated Hae Sung from the moment I found out that he screamed at her girl and left her to tears” Seo Jun told you.

You didn’t know what to say to that. You had no idea that Seo Jun and Su Ho had called Soo Jin when they heard you crying. To think that would’ve been your first meeting with Seo Jun. You with your eyes red and puffy from crying. Well, you’d cried in front of him before and you already liked the guy. But as a first meeting, it would’ve been disastrous.

“Uh, that would’ve been an interesting first meeting, to say the least right.” Why would you say that? What is wrong with you. You just looked down berating yourself for even opening your mouth after what Seo Jun had revealed.

Ju Kyung and Cho Rong looked at Seo Jun confused. Seo Jun was thinking about what you’d just said when it clicked in his head.

“You were the girl, Hae Sung made cry that day.” Seo Jun exclaimed shocked. You just nodded your head before looking back down at the ground, fiddling with your hands nervously.

You could feel the tears gathering in our eyes. You furiously started blinking, you were not going to cry in front of Ju Kyung and Cho Rong. Not in front of Seo Jun again. You’d cried enough yesterday, how did you still have tears left to spill.

Seo Jun saw you with your head ducked down. The anger that had built up in him left instantaneously. All he wanted to do was comfort you. Be the shoulder for you to cry on again. He looked at Ju Kyung and Cho Rong. Whispered for them to leave. They left immediately. Seo Jun knelt in front of you. He took hold of your hands in his. This made you look up at him.

As you two gazed into each other’s eyes. A tear slipped out of your eyes. Gently Seo Jun wiped that tear away.

“Hey, let’s not cry. Lee Hae Sung is not worth your precious tears. It hurts me to see you cry Princess” You smile softly at what Seo Jun says. It’s been some time since he’s called you that. You’ve missed it. It was supposed to be patronising when he first called you Princess but since then it has become an inside joke between you two. That Seo Jun only uses to make you smile.

“Sorry, I always seem to end up crying in front of you,” You say sadly. It’s not that you hated crying or thought it was bad. No, you like any other girl who liked a guy. Just wanted to show him the best of you. Not your crying face. You wanted Seo Jun to remember how you looked in your pretty dress from the Ball. Not for your crying face to be what he remembers. Only because he’s seen it so many times before.

Unbeknownst to the two of you in the classroom. Ju Kyung and Cho Rong were outside looking at the scene before them. They couldn’t hear what was going on but seeing was enough for them.

“Do you think Seo Jun will do it?” Cho Rong whispers to Ju Kyung.

She looks at Cho Rong before looking back at the two people in the classroom. From the way Seo Jun was looking at you and how you were looking back with the same look in your eyes.

“Honestly I hope so but at this rate, they might just kiss, and I’ll take that as a win,” Ju Kyung says quietly. Cho Rong nods his head in agreement, turning to look back at the two of you in the classroom.

“You have nothing to be sorry for Princess. I’d gladly always be the shoulder you cry on.” Seo Jun tell you. You look at him in shock. You had convinced yourself that Seo Jun must hate you for crying so much around him. To hear the opposite from his won mouth you were stunned.

Seo Jun can’t help but laugh at your shocked face. You were just too cute for words sometimes. Seo Jun gets you to stand up. You do and he hugs you. Surprised you become still. Then you relax and wrap your arms around Seo Jun, hugging him. After what felt like hours to both of you. You let go of each other. You smile at Seo Jun, who smiles back at you.

“How do you seem to know the right things to say to me Han Seo Jun,” You ask jokingly. Not really expecting an answer, you’ve started to get your things and are packing up when Seo Jun’s answer stops you.

“Well, when I see your tears YLN YN I just say the first thing that I hope will make you smile,” Seo Jun says. Seeing that you’ve stopped moving. He comes closer to you.

You look at him, as he walks towards you. If this was a drama, there would be some sappy song playing in the background. Alas, the only things you can hear is your heart pounding furiously and the shouts of the boy’s playing basketball outside the classroom.

Seo Jun smiles at you. He puts some hair that had fallen into your face behind your ear. He smiles when he sees your face heating up. You were too adorable and if he didn’t ask you out now. He would forever be annoyed with himself.

“Uh, the reason we were all acting so weird today was that yesterday we found out some stuff regarding me and Hae Sung which made me rethink why I ever considered him my best friend.” you blurt out suddenly. The tension was rising in the room and in a panic, you simply told Seo Jun what had been going on today.

Seo Jun blinks. Processing what you just told him. Makes sense that it would be Lee Hae Sung as the reason for you being upset. It was always that guy. Just once Seo Jun wanted to punch the idiot. But he knew how much that would disappoint you. The last thing Seo Jun wanted to do was disappoint you by picking a fight with Hae Sung.

Sighing, Seo Jun started to pick up his things as well. You were waiting for him. The moment was gone. No, that moment was gone but Seo Jun was determined. He did not spend the whole of yesterday being screamed at, talking to and being given a whole plan. That he doesn’t ask you out today.

As you were walking towards to door, Seo Jun grabbed your wrist gently. You turned to look at him confusion clear in your eyes. He smiles at you, and you smile back still confused.

“I wanted to know if you wanted to go out tomorrow. Not us studying outside of school. No. I Han Seo Jun am asking you YLN YN out on a date?”

You look at Seo Jun in astonished silence. You didn’t hear that correctly. You shake your head, look at Seo Jun holding your wrist. Your eyes follow his arm up to his face. You look into his eyes. Those eyes you could drown in. There is nothing but sincerity in his eyes. This guy you like is genuinely asking you out. You open your mouth to reply but no sounds come out. Taking a deep breath. You look at Seo Jun smiling at you. You can’t help but smile back at him.

“Yes, I’d love to go on a date with you Han Seo Jun” In his excitement Seo Jun picks you up, spinning you around. You laugh, telling him to put you down. He does and then takes your hand in his, interlocking your fingers you both walk out of the classroom.

Chapter 14.

[bryonnas]

Finishing school early!!

Welcome to my blog where I will be going over the advantages and struggles I went through trying to graduate early. Trust me when I say if you are a procrastinator this task will be very hard. 

First lets talk about what made me want to graduate early. Let me just say school is not for me and I was trying to find the faster way to get out of there. If you didn't guess I am a huge procrastinator when it come to things I don't want to do. This is what made the task very difficult and very stressful. I started by seeing how many credits I need to finish only to find out I only need 1 semester full to finish. My counselor told me last year that I will have to take my english class doing the summer. When I found that out I was that would be enough time but yet I put it last and ended up only finishing the first semester. I didn't let that stop me first day of school came along and I was first person in my counselor office to find one am I still able to finish early if so what do I need to do. 

So after meeting with her I was told I can still graduate early if I do 2 semester english for the 1 semester and also pass all my classes. I'm not going to lie this sounded kind of hard for me only because the english is online and I have to make sure I do the work. One thing I learned about myself while working online is if im not focus and really want to do the work it will not get done.

A side note from english is I have work everyday but Monday so image me working plus school when I really don't like school yeah you can I it was very stressful and at time I thought I couldn't do it. At this point in life it was more about proving people wrong because during all of this I had people telling me I'm not going to finish. 

During all of this lets talk about a person's mental health and how fast it can go bad when a lot if put on you. At this time I had to make sure I passed all my classes and make sure I had money for rent. Which meant I had to work mostly everyday because I was only able to work 4-5 hours doing the work because I am under 18 not only that I got paid less because I was part time and not full time. I am more stressed because since i'm not moving at the pace my parents want Im a ¨disappointment¨. Listen I know im doing my best and I will finish at my own pace but it still hurts. 

Now December 15th less then a mouth left and I'm almost done. Still behind but I know I can finish on time maybe even before. All I keep telling myself is to keep going you got this. I have been turning in more work in all of my classes and making sure I have at least a passing grade for everything.

I'm not going to lie a lot been going on but i'm pushing through. Today I made sure to finish all my missing work in my classes so I would be able to live a little stress free. Well until the teachers decides to post more assignments. Hate when that happens.

Trying my best to stay focused on my english work now all I can say is i'm ready for it to be over. Getting up school and right after go to work only to do more school work on your break is getting to be a bit much if im honesty. I guess if I didn't procrastinator so much the work would be done but hey what can I say a lot has been going on.

Heyyy guess what I just ordered my cap and gown soo ready to graduate and just be done!!!

[m3n4xo]

03/12/2022

i saw him today again. whatever. i hate school. my sister got her phone taken away by the school and she won't get it til monday lmaoo. i went to get a haircut. i regret it so fucking much. i hate my hair soo much. before it was a little bit past my shoulders and now its above my shoulders. i look like fucking lord farquaad. i hate it so much im gonna cry. i have to wear my hair up until it grows now. but i hate how i look with my hair up. my face and head shape look weird. everyone says i look good but i don't believe them. fuckk im gonna kill myself. there's no way im going to school. my cousins whom i don't speak to because they're fake invited me to go to las vegas with them in august. i honestly would've said no but the only reason i said yes was because we’re going for the sole purpose of going to the weeknd’s concert. ive been listening to the weeknd since 2015. he was my all time favorite artist for the longest. i listened to him too much and i got tired of listening to him. i listened to him for 5 years straight. i know all his songs and lyrics by heart. i still listen to some of his songs though. might start listening to him again. i just know something is gonna go wrong and im not gonna go to the concert. ive never been to a concert in my life. well kind of. ive been to dances with my cousins and met famous mexican bands. i mean they're not even considered concerts, they're dances. i don't really like going to those anymore. first of all i don't know how to dance and even if i did, i don't like dancing. second, those dances are filled with grown pedophile men who are just looking for underage girls to dance with them. and they don't stop bothering you. and third of all there's always fights breaking out. the ghetto. no thanks im good. but ANYWAYS what im trying to say is that i was supposed to go to 3 concerts in my life and something went wrong with every single one of them and i ended up not going. the first one i was supposed to go to a justin bieber concert with my cousin when i was like 7 or 8 but my dad didn't let me go. my aunt had already bought me a ticket and everything. the second time i was supposed to see one of my then favorite groups. i was 14. so basically they were coming to the city and i REALLY wanted to go and my dad said that he'd only let me go if i cut my hair. keep in mind that my hair was LONG. it was down to my lower back. i didn't want to cut my hair but i did it just so i could go. i bought the tickets to go with my cousins. the day of i was getting ready to go when i get a call from my cousin and she told me that the concert was 18 plus. i obviously couldn't go because i was 14. i was so fucking mad i cried. then the 3rd time was when i was 15 and the weeknd announced that he would be going on tour and he was going to be coming to my city in july of 2020. i was soo excited when my mom let me go with my cousins. again we had the tickets and everything but then covid broke out and we all had to go on quarantine. the weeknd kept postponing his concert to further and further dates and eventually he just cancelled the entire tour. i was disappointed but now surprised. now he's doing it again and we have to re buy the tickets and everything. i just know something is gonna go wrong and im not gonna go but i really hope i do end up going. ok ive been saying too much im going to shut up now. 

rate: 1.5/10

[whizkxy]

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Soo its been about a month since I left the toxic relationship I was in for three years, it still hurts, we still try talking as friends but honestly I don't think he wants me speaking to him at all, I've finally cleaned my room tho, so im starting to take care of myself, gotta start somewhere, tomorrow im doing all my laundry and im gonna get my backpack ready for school. I start school Monday, im not ready I dont know any of my classes, and I still have to go shopping for school clothes or I won't have anything to wear. Im gonna get my life together tho. Step by step, first I cleaned where I sleep, and im doing laundry making sure things are clean thats the first step, next is starting to learn how to eat regularly again without help, and then after that getting sober, or just going back to pot, no more drinking or anything else, and after I successfully go through that I can start working out again build muscle, and join sports teams at school, and try hard in school again and do my work, im not there yet, but I'm running, walking, or crawling idc whatever it takes to get there step by step. Follow my insta, tiktok, n add my snap to follow my journey through all of this

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[stopbreathego]

no one pays attention to me here or really knows me in rl, so im just gonna type out my feelings for a little bit bc it’s been a year and i feel like it. so i’m 25 now. i’m halfway to the 30. that feels awful knowing i’m still only halfway to my degree and i can’t ever take any classes bc they interfere with other things like my job that actually pays pretty decent for not having a degree. plus i’m married now. we’ve been married for a whopping six months, but i think knowing each other for 13 years kinda ruined the whole honeymoon thing for us. i do really want to spend most of my time with him, but i’m just clingy and constantly aware of how much i took advantage of him when we dated in high school. also he’s in jail rn. yay. so fun. love it. some stupid irrelevant probation violations in october, and we just finally had the court hearing last friday. honestly, i think they would have just let him go with a slap on the wrist, bc he didn't really do anything wrong, he just didn't get proper approval on a couple things, but they listed all the violations he’s had in the past 5 years of being on probation, and yeah, i understand. he just didn’t care for the first couple years. we weren’t really talking during that time. fun story the last time i talked to him before he got in trouble, he was telling me he didn’t love me anymore, that he’d finally moved on and was doing well living in san antonio, doing the musician thing. and i tried really hard to pretend lk idrc bc i was in a relationship, but i had this weird addiction to him wanting me. i ran back to him so many times after we broke up for good jr yr, but idk, i was dumb. hearts are so fickle. whatever. so yeah we’re married now. someday our kids will be so confused by our love story, but whatevs, hopefully they just learn from our mistakes. until then, ill worry about how to get them to shorten his probation that was just extended another 5 years bc i don’t want to have kids while hes on probation, and i also don’t want to wait until we’re 30. i’m doing surprisingly well considering i’ve been living on my own for the past week. i will be moving back to parents’ for the remaining 82 days he’ll be gone to save some money and give him peace of mind bc we live in a sketchy neighborhood. thankfully my dad owns the building we’re living in, so i can do whatever with our stuff here. it definitely sucks, but it could suck worse. when we first started talking again in 2014, it was only a month or so before he was back in jail bc a stupid technicality, which was really his po’s fault in my opinion, but who am i? and that time he was here in county for an unknown amount of time before they sent him to a facility in dallas. none of the time here counted towards the 90 days he had to spend there, so he was gone about 5 months by the end of it and i only got to visit him once when a friend and i made the drive to dallas and had to say we were his common law wife and adopted brother. whack. so he’s staying here in town this time, which means i can see him twice a week. it still sucks, but it could def suck worse. emotionally, the first couple days were hard, but really, i’m doing okay. just staying busy. we just went through a second downsizing at work, so my workload has doubled, so that’s been good for passing weekdays. rn i’m working on cleaning and getting ready to move, so weekends and evenings are covered for now to. we’re trying to focus on weeks/visits left, rather than days. it’s easier that way. only 12 more saturdays until he’s home. that’s not so bad. and really, i think this is good for me, i’m realizing how much i depended on him for really dumb things. i still haven’t gone to the grocery store by myself. he always makes me breakfast every morning. i didn’t even realize until monday morning came and i was like wtf i need to get breakfast. soo dumb. i’ve been making myself breakfast and really just being a normally functioning adult. no small potatoes, i’ve really spent a lot of time trying to press into God and figure out where He wants us, bc we’ve been on this train of mediocre contentment, and really it hasn’t been fun. and i also realized how co-dependent we really are. i still have avoided a lot of social things, but more so for the sake of money and not really wanting to answer when people ask me where he is. not really bc i just didn’t want to go. plus i really have been busy. i’ve started watching parks & rec from the beginning again before bed bc we were watching the office and he’d be upset if i kept watching w/o him. i forgot a lot of things, so it’s been fun. i really love p&r, and anything amy poehler does in general. hm. idk i guess that’s it for now. ima go get spruced up bc visitation is in an hour. lucky for him, my husband looks hot in yellow and his hair just does what he wants. this mess takes some work. 

[alwayssannoyedd-blog]

Mom keeps trying to accuse me of seeing her ex

So my mom was talking to this guy for awhile and they broke things off. After and throughout that time she has accused me several times and is still trying to accuse me of trying to mess around with him. The first time she accused me of being inappropriate when he was around because I wore my pajama shorts. mind you the times he would show up and see my mom was around 10pm and later. (When I would be getting ready for bed) And also some of the shorts I was wearing were ones she bought and suddenly she stated saying that they were “Too short”…When he would come around I would stay in my room unless I needed to come down to get something from the kitchen, take my dog to the bathroom, or use the bathroom myself. One time I didnt know she was coming inside with him and was bringing him upstairs (She accused me of knowing) I was going down stairs to get my food. Later on she revealed that he had "checked me out" and he said that I was being inappropriate by wearing shorts while my mom had company and if anything were to happen to me I brought it on myself. So I'm assuming ever since that day is the reason she has been trying to accusing me of stuff where he is concerned. So I started to wear longer pants when I would leave my room just in case he happened to pass the hall if I was going through so she could accuse me of anything.... So my understanding is that because he said something off the wall, I’m the one being accused of being promiscuous? She’s that worried about him that she’s ready to ruin her relationship with her daughter over a guy? The second thing she keeps trying to accuse me of is seeing him during my class gap at school. (Which I’m not, I don’t find him attractive and I do not like him, I never liked him, I only tolerated his presence and said hello to him when he was with my mom out of respect because she was with him and he’s wayyy older than me, I don’t do that.) I commute out of town. The city I go to school is 50mins away(without traffic) , but my first class starts at 8:20am, so I usually have to leave at about 6am to get there on time because of the work traffic. Sometimes it takes like an hour and 30+mins to get there because there are usually several accidents and just that much traffic. I started taking screen shots on google maps to show the time and where I was because she didn’t believe me that it took that long. I also have a dash camera and tried to show her footage and she refuses to see it. Anyway, I commute Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Mondays, I have my first class from 8:20am-9:10 am and my second class is 2pm to 4:10pm, Wednesday 8:20am-11:50am, Friday 8:20am-3:10pm. So On Monday and Wednesday I have a 5 hour gap between classes. I stay in the library and study/work on home work and I use that time to eat. And sometimes if I don’t have too much homework, I’ll work out on campus. She has a hard time believing that I’m doing all of those things in 5 hours. (It’s no different than what I would do if I didn’t have the 5 hour gap and was home) She always says something like this “If you are really doing homework within those 5 hours why do you still have some when you get home, that says you’re lying and really aren’t doing what you say you are and you’re elsewhere” ..Which I think is dumb because when I was at community college, I would spend my whole day doing homework and studying. I’m taking a genetics class, physics, and a required English class to graduate at university. I’m working on my undergrad. I have to make sure I have good grades for when I apply to medical school. I always tell her it takes me awhile to get my work done, I’m a slow worker when it comes to homework. (She knows and sees that herself when I home). I have a hard time focusing and I usually end up on my phone going through Instagram to take breaks between doing my work. I look at Youtube videos and review the lecture slides to help me with my homework because the examples in lecture don’t always explain how to do certain problems well. She’s even seen my homework and says it looks hard. Like fine, I can get the homework done, but I still have to go back and look at it to make sure I understand it. I swear she makes up scenarios in her head of what she thinks is happening and believes them eventhough I have proof that what she’s making up isnt true. She tries to say that I’m seeing him (whos now her ex) because the city he lives in now is like 20-30mins away from my school. She swears that’s where I going during my 5 hour gap between classes. It’s annoying, I have no interest I him and I wish she would stop trying to believe something that is not happening. I actually considered swapping schools so she would leave me alone about it. She also told him all of my business and where I was going to school when she was with him, which I didn’t appreciate. It’s my business. I told her that its sad that she thinks that little of me to think I’m trying to see him. She said that she can’t trust me and that Im lying, and a manipulator. She also said if she starts talking to someone else she wouldn’t bring them around me because she cant trust me. It’s dumb, she also revealed that he thought I had “checked him out” one time he was over. And apparently he was flattered. Like seriously!? I wasn’t, so apparently me saying hi, is me checking him out. My mom always got on my case for not saying hi when he came over. She said since he was the guest in the house, I’m supposed to say hi. So I actually did and look where it got me. Im so over this, she always says that she wont bring it up and next thing you know shes talking about it. She also accused me of having sex with him because apparently I came home with bruises on my knees, which I didn’t see. And one time I came home with a penny sized bruise on my elbow (I don’t know how I got it, I probably bumped it on something) and she jumped to the conclusion that I was having sex with him because when she was seeing him, apparently when he was “rough” with her when they had sex she would have bruises on her arms. I don’t see me having a penny sized bruise on my arm correlates to me having sex with him. Its soo annoying, Im so over this. Im sick of my mom constantly accusing me of something that not even happening when I have proof that I’m not doing any of those things she is accusing me of. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m trying to stick it out staying home so save money while in school. But I’m starting to think it’s not worth it anymore.