#screams and cries and throws up

[robertseanleonardthinker]

i will NEVER get over this screenshot from the c word. he is holding wilson so gently. he's never a touchy person but wilson is there crying and dying on his couch. and he's cradling him in his arms. GOD he's so in love i'm gonna throw up. he'd rather have his best friend, his soulmate die in his apartment than betray him, than break his promise. i can't i can't

[gelphiegifs]

Gelphie Femslash February Day 1: Shiz Era

[sappymix1]

unethical dnfing. they’ve basically built a nest on the couch because dream hasn’t let george out of his sight in the last week

[lasalebete]

Maggie's singing voice drives me just a little bit insane

[aroace-polyshow]

hi more me guessing hw songs.

i learned the lyrics to Snowman by halyosy (lyrics) and now can't stop thinking of it as a potential hw song- not as a song they would cover, but as a song their virtual singer would sing to them (kaito to tsukasa specifically). i don't think you've ever shared virtual singer lore so im making it up drawing influence from the feelings of both the nightcord and wxs virtual singers

""I told a lie to my mom", a boy began to cry. I am made to be all white so that I can take away the darkness in his heart". -> n25s miku's whole thing is to be there for mafuyu and help ease the pain in her heart. i'd guess the virtual singers of hw would have a similar motivation. (also, the lie in question was that the boy had friends and was talented at school and sports, so that his dying mother didn't worry about him. if this isn't tsukasa at its core.)

"I tried to warm your cold smile, but I can't make a smile with my artificial eyes" -> but the vs aren't actually real (i dont want to think about the implications of sekai so i will leave it there), so what can they do other than provide support? provide a word here or there, a wish of healing? but also- the wishes of the virtual singers have to come from somewhere, right? is this not also the wish of hw- "i want you to be happy, even if i am not yet myself"?

"Neon tubes and monochrome snow" -> i actually don't really know what this line means in the actual song but here- the neon lights of the theater, the colorful world of the stage, and the cold, grey feelings freezing them in place?

"I'll tell you how to do it, I believe you can do it, Soft snow covers our tracks" -> this again as the wish of the virtual singers- i can't change for you, but i can offer advice and push you forward because i know you can (oh also spitball other point- kaito's line in his 1.5 anni card- "when faced with a wall, i don't want to push them up over from the bottom. I want to climb it myself and pull them up with me, so that we can see the other side together"). i had a connection to the soft snow covering our tracks part but i don't know how to say it in words. but in colors it's a soft orange. which i know doesn't make any sense.

"You ran with your friends" -> emu nene rui do i need to say more here. (yes because it never gets old. because of the pain, of the things that tore them down, of the steps they took back up, they found their dreams friends family).

"He will be alright now, 'cause there's no winter that isn't followed by spring" -> yes

also raising the point of snow imagery- it alrealy exists in normal n25- mafuyu did chose the name "yuki". and i think there was an event about it. i think that theme also works in hw. but instead of the damp, blue sort of snowfall that feels cold and hollow, it's the warmer, sparkly snow of dawn. it's the snow that was lonely in the night, but beings to feel less so when the light first begins to break.

AADHWJJDNWKDNWKDUSQJOSHISKWUQNDOBWNSNSJ acey are you in my fucking brain. aroace wxs fanatics really do share a brain cell because HELLO??????/silly

i haven’t said shit about the virtual singers yet but ohmygod your guess is so fucking on point. awawawa. this is so fucking hw core and like it fits so so fucking well into the current thoughts i have for both tsukasa and the main story guhhhh explodes explodes explodes

firstly, might as well do a tiny bit of explanation for hw virtual singers. they both have the same overall personalities as canon wxs, kaito being the responsible older brother figure (representing what tsukasa wants to be like yknow) and miku being very childish and all (i. forget her symbolism w tsukasa. whoops). also given that the sekai and they were created from tsukasa’s feelings, they are well aware that tsukasa isn’t quite okay. even if he isn’t entirely aware of it himself. yknow how he is. anyway. you’re very right about hw virtual singers. their goal is both to ease their pain but also to like. revive the bit of hope they all had, and help them not lose it again. given it’s an online theater group, they of course want to help them do shows and find joy in doing again, because despite it hurting them so badly they still hold so much love for shows and the vs want to help them with it, but more than anything they want them all to find joy in living again. like they’ve all been hurt and vs is there to ease that pain and help them find joy and hope despite being given so much shit and having been hurt. yknow. and i don’t have much to add aside from that cause like. you got them so well. my god

"You ran with your friends" throwing UP. i hate these clowns and their stupid loving friendship and love and care they have for each other because who else understood them like they did each other who else did they have aside from each other because who else will drag them back up and cling to hope with them like they do for each other. they’re so. sobs.

"He will be alright now, 'cause there's no winter that isn't followed by spring" YES. YES INDEED. they’re all gonna be okay. they’re gonna be okay. cries.

tsukasa side note:

""I told a lie to my mom", a boy began to cry. I am made to be all white so that I can take away the darkness in his heart" -> also like you said TBIS IS TSUKASA AT HIS CORE and he’s exactly the same in hw. he wants to be that big brother his siblings can look up to he wants to make them proud and he especially doesn’t want to worry anyone Ever and saki and toya know something might be wrong but he won’t tell her (but to be fair. he hasn’t exactly admitted it to himself either) bc he’s tsukasa tenma!! he’s okay!!! he has to be okay!! he’s going to be a star!! and what kind of star would let a lot a few setbacks get him down!! so there’s no need for anyone to worry!! cause he’s a-okay!! (<- lying. to himself as well.) honestly at this rate i’m not even gonna need to do the tsukasa ramble since i’m just rambling about him in asks when i can /lh

[lilnasxvevo]

I know myself and I know I gotta wake up 45 minutes before I leave otherwise I’m never gonna make it out the door in time which means I have to get up at like. 6:45 tomorrow

[doctorguilty]

Shoots up in bed oh my god I left practically a whole bottle of kraken rum at my old apartment I never finished and I would do anything for it right now

[just-call-mefr1es]

i followed u on Spotify :3

HUH

WHAT.

OMG???

[eternityservedcold]

HELLOOOOOOOO?????????????????

[malhare-archive]

Victor was Gus' loyal employee for 8+ years and he was visibly upset when Gale died and he LOOKED AT GUS LIKE THIS

HE WAS SO PROUD TO BE ABLE TO COOK, he was so eager to please Gus and to make Walter pay for killing Gale aND THEN GUS KILLED HIM 😭

[diotimas]

@jimbob505

Emma D'Arcy as Romeo in ‘Romeo and Juliet’.

[p-riama]

truly ken/uno makes me so crazy insane i'm chewing the bars of my enclosure like every time a new angle of them is shown i feel my limbs gain sentience nothing i could come up with them will match just how perfect they're written

[sanguinaryrot]

you guys wanna see my fave pic of mister moo?

my mom took this :’) she called it “a boy and his dog” which is funny cause I’m not a boy and he’s not a dog. But we really were a boy and his dog….

[bdor1995]

ok time for another round of editing my resume

[cerneterydrive]

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[musesofthemoon]

Ortho doesn't say a word, as Idia speaks. He's so proud of him, that he's at least able to talk to him through this... It's always possible that this doesn't fix anything, that he's still stuck with that guilt going forward. But it's better than not doing anything at all, so he won't interrupt... Not telling him anything until he's sure Idia's done talking. It must have been awful... He wishes they didn't have to go on about it, but it's still important for the long run, so he keeps going anyway.

Nobody blames Idia but himself... He probably doesn't think that's the case, but it's truly not his fault. He couldn't have known, nobody made it clear what the security systems were even there for... Logically, Ortho knows this, but it's not like Idia would believe him when he says that.

So he doesn't use those words yet, instead shifting his position and holding his brother close. At this point, it doesn't matter to him if anything reaches past his plating. He can just fix it later, right now he just wants to help. The feelings he had from his own recollection of those events weren't important right now, whatever minor issues may arise weren't important.

"It's okay... Just let it out..." he finally replies, as gently as he could muster. "You really don't have anything to be sorry for, especially not to me..." Despite those memories still being there, he knows they don't belong to him, it never felt like they did. Even if they felt real sometimes, even if they were things he referenced like his own memories. If there was someone to apologize to, though there certainly wasn't, this Ortho wasn't the one to give them to.

"It wasn't your fault, even if that doesn't mean anything coming from me... You didn't know, you couldn't have..." Another thought almost leaves his speakers, but it dies before it escapes. The meetings in Tartarus are still supposed to be a secret, even if it could help for Idia to know that he's down there, that he'd say the exact same things... He can get over that part later...

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oh, that's... right. ortho has had facility-wide control before. ortho's files... hah... of course he knows HOW IDIA FAILED. idia's comforted ortho when nightmares involving snippets of the general incident emerged. even if idia had disabled a majority of security at that time for childish hopes, maybe it's selfish to think that ortho doesn't know all of it. quite selfish to think idia can protect him at all by withholding information on a topic that they're both unfortunately knowledgeable in.

idia is quiet. he's idly squeezing sections of his blanket between his hands. he barely registers any following changes in the surroundings. his heartbeat's loud in his ears again. he can't do this. he can't stare down that hall again. even after all the reassurances he's received and deductions, logical steps that have been laid out for him... he still can't do it. it is as if iron fetters are keeping his throat closed, chained to his wrists and ankles. his lungs feel tight. the chill makes him stagnant, holding a breath that won't ever be released.

idia knows he's downright hopeless and pathetic. he has no clue what ortho sees in him at times like these. idia is a coward and he knows it. to be fully cognizant of the situation, but to still run away: that is always the route he takes. he will hide inside his programs, his games, his college work, his manga, his anime, his engineering; some days he isn't sure if he has his hobbies because he enjoys them or because they're such a convenient distraction. he inhales sharply, flexing his fingers.

so, if he wants to run away so bad, why doesn't he? in this moment, he can't force himself to shrug off ortho's worries and observations in favor of working on some task that will assist him in compartmentalizing his terrors. idia swallows thickly. maybe, if he can try to talk a little... it might help ease his pain. even if only for one night. even if for only an hour. ortho wants him to try. idia wants to try for ortho, and that is enough.

"i jus'... it hurts so bad." his admission reflects his unspoken decision. hoarse and quiet as his voice is, it's still audible. his grip on his covers tightens. his eyes glass over. "my nightmare... one moment things're fine and then there's so much b-bl-blood. it was all over my hands an' it felt so warm and real. i'm h-holding him before t-the thing can... it's all blurry, but his eyes--no light but still s-s-starin' and..."

idia squeezes his eyes shut. his knuckles are whitening from how desperately he grasps his blanket. his heart's hammering. his nose feels stopped up. he's vaguely aware of liquid starting to retrace his dried tear streaks. his volume fluctuates and his throat feels thickened with agony.

" 'why'd you do it, idy?' " speaking it is enough to shatter his composure into fragments. his repressed sobs squirm out into full-on hiccuping cries. idia curls in on himself, grabbing his face-framing hair strands and tugging. he sputters words when he takes breaths. "and i don't know! i don't know and everything dims and i don't... i don't know what to d-do... i'm sorry... it hurts... it still hurts s-so much."