genuinely about to pass out from all the kind wishes. my heart is so full right now 💓 thanku so so much for the overwhelming love on my birthday! i’m out and about enjoying my day so i can’t reply to everyone, but just know that if i could send a dozen kisses to each of you, i would! wishing you all the gentlest day/night ahead. adore u all <3
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Being Art Donaldson's girlfriend at Stanford when he is still madly in love with Tashi...
I'll never forget how stupid in love I felt / I'll always regret how I couldn't ever tell
You're head over heels for him. You met him during your first couple months at the school, and were instantly enamored. He could tell, because shortly after meeting he asked you out. Before you knew it, you were in a relationship. In retrospect maybe his eagerness to be with you should have raised concerns. Maybe it should have indicated he was trying to push someone else out of his mind. You never realized it during that time. You were too happy to. Even years after you break up, this always makes you feel stupid. How could you have not seen?
That you walked a little faster, left me behind / Kissed me with somebody else in mind
You vividly remember the moment you met Tashi. While he had brought her up once or twice (always in passing, always about tennis), you only actually met her months after you got together. With the time clarity has given you, you realize he probably kept both of you apart on purpose. You met her by accident, running into her on campus while walking with Art. You could tell what he felt for her, from just the way he looked at her. The way he tried to be in step with her when they walked. You knew it the moment you saw them both interact. Your boyfriend was in love with Tashi Duncan. Nothing about your relationship would feel the same again.
I loved you so much / That I settled for less
You knew the truth. You knew he didn't love you. At least not in the way he loved Tashi, but did it matter? You loved him. Couldn't that be enough? That's what you told yourself for the rest of your relationship. It never felt like those first couple months anymore. His behavior hadn't changed. He still treated you the same, but with knowing what he felt for Tashi it felt hollow. You realized it wasn't enough. You stayed regardless.
Oh, you were my everything / I was your second best, mm
It's been years since then. You're older and wiser, but your heart still aches for the girl you were. A girl so in love with Art Donaldson that she didn't leave the minute she learned he was in love with someone else. It wasn't surprising when he broke up with you after her injury. By then you knew the relationship was doomed from the start. He always loved Tashi. He may have been your world, but you were just a place holder. It's been five years since then, but you still think of him. You think of the relationship and feel silly and stupid and wish you could change the past, but you know you'd do the same thing all over again. Regardless, It's no surprise when you see the news of his marriage to Tashi. It was always going to end like this anyway.
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Happy birthday, gorgeous!! I hope you have the most hedonistic day (or week or month even, no one to stop you really) of the year. And I wish most of your days to be gift wrapped in good booze, good food, and mind-blowing orgasms 💫💫💫
thank you babe! i’m absolutely taking that as permission to make this a hedonistic birthday week if not month ;-)
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maybe I'll grow up to be multifaceted but for now why don't I just be two-faced
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