#she undoubtedly still is...

[foxcassius]

just thought abt furuya sensei for a little too long. god she was infuriating.

[tchaikovskaya]

I gotta say. I think people are being like…. wildly unempathetic re: the chappell roan discomfort with newfound fame thing

[abirddogmoment]

this is a good angle to show off her fat little tummy

[bugsinshoes]

this idea has been rotting in my brain ever since my lovely mutual @nellandvoid made this post with my ocs !! i HAD to make some sort of follow-up scenario sooooo here it is !

laurie also got into her fair share of fights with her bullies in high school, so i can imagine her and silvia bonding over punching people and getting into brawls and whatnot (she wouldn't ACTUALLY fight silvia, i just thought this was a funny haha hypothetical situation)

also bonus live silvia reaction:

they're freshmen, silvia. ignore them 🙄

[scarlettfevor]

Just started watching this video of someone who played through the flipside and not even 30 minutes in I'm realizing that everyone on twitter was right and this game is ass

[stormy-days-27]

I have two emotions when it comes to the new ghosts episode

isaac and nigel are everything to me

and flower nooooooooooooooooo

[butchbarbieagainstterfs]

kellie jay keen (“posie parker”) is now advocating against contraception and abortion for teenagers, to the absolute surprise of no one 🙃

[acediscowlng]

honestly says a lot about egeria that both fontaine and furina think that "acting like a god" means "acting like a fifteen-year-old theater kid brat"

[butiamjustaperson]

How do you learn to grieve someone who isn’t dead?

Someone who didn’t leave you against their will but by it?

And how do you learn to grieve in that specific way when you haven’t learned to grieve yet in any way at all?

When it’s your first time?

When Grief hasn’t yet had the chance to gently introduce herself with a batch of cookies welcoming you to the neighborhood?

When Loss breaks your window with a softball and Grief has no choice but to go up to your door, knock, and apologize for her daughter?

When Grief offers to pay for the damages?

When Grief says she wishes she’d met you under different circumstances?

When Loss hides behind her mother’s skirt?

What if Grief never arrives?

What if Grief is absent and all you have is Loss herself come to apologize?

When she holds out her piggy bank do you take it?

Do you look at Loss’s missing baby teeth, the gaps in her hesitant smile, and think she’d like a cup of orange juice?

Do you offer that to her?

Do you introduce her to Forgiveness?

[sheddr]

It's a shame I didn't get a chance to fight with you

Run away

Stop loving you

It's so funny —

I don't see you

Every single day

Like I intended to

[e77y]

Long but relatively unserious vent/rant below the cut (sorry I added this in bc I realized how long this post is oops)

Being at the center of some kind of internet witchhunt (which ik is kind of buzzwordy but) is literally my biggest fear ohhh my god. Even a small scale one… I think I would Die. Maybe it’s because I had a similar thing happen with my friend group in high school where one of them convinced the others I was like evil and spread all these rumors about me… 😭 He was splitting on me but still. That’s an explanation, not an excuse. And it basically confirmed all of my intrusive thoughts about myself, and my personality completely self-destructed and changed, and I haven’t interacted with any of those people the same way since. I isolated from them for MONTHS and just loathed myself. Bleh

The reason it’s on my mind is bc I’ve seen this happen to friends and mutuals and even just people I’ve followed in small fandoms, where the whole fandom hates them bc of this little drama and like. I KNOW that fandom drama is not the end of the world, but truly I think that would destroy me for months. And I would never be able to set foot in those spaces again :’) Getting a handful of rude comments about a fucking transfem hc I had at like 14 made me stop writing fanfic for YEARS 😭😭😭 sigh. Just bc they said it was ‘out of character for him to want to be a girl’ 🙄 (<- character who canonically felt confident when dressed as a woman btw. initially for a disguise but then she grew to love it. BUT I DIGRESS KNSHFJW)

All this to say I think that’s why I tiptoe around everything I say online… I am SO scared of ruffling feathers, but I know that fandoms are places for like! Having fun! And it’s not a big deal! And it doesn’t affect my real life! But like idk.. I just hate the idea of being hated by anyone. I’m sure that I ANNOY some people, and that’s whatever; I talk a lot and make overly personal posts sometimes (like this lol) but I don’t wanna be HATED yk? And idek if it’s better to be hated and ostracized publicly or resented in secret by people who still interact with you… :( Agh. If you ever have an issue with me, please DM me instead of letting it build up into something worse!

ANYWAY LIKE.. with fandom stuff. Idk. I want to have fun! I want to write and post things on Tumblr and AO3 etc but I am just very scared of peoples’ opinions, especially now that I have a decently popular/well-liked longfic in DnDads. For some reason I have convinced myself that writing bad or self-indulgent NSFW will make everyone hate me lmao. Like girl the POINT of fanfic is to be self-indulgent……….. sigh I need to get out more

^ light-hearted… but also kinda true haha. I stay at home a lot just bc I don’t have many reasons to go out atm and only a handful of close friends to go out with. Hopefully that will change when I move next semester lol. And whenever I get interests, they’re VERY strong and long-lasting, and fanfic writing is one of my main hobbies, so I get REALLY into online communities. And rn that is kind of my little niche fandom Tumblr bubble… which is embarrassing and probably unhealthy but whatever. I just inevitably get a lot of anxiety about things that are important/fun to me (bc OCD), especially bc I’ve never really had mutuals/‘friends’ in a fandom before this, excluding my irls

Anyway this got longer and more vent-y than I intended so I will tag accordingly, and sorry to whoever is reading this lol; I just wanted to get my thoughts written down in a public forum bc idk… Makes me feel less insane when ik other people can see it, too. Helps me not take it too seriously and spiral lol.

[benevolentvampire]

(bit of a dark meta post here but)

if i had to pick a single song to represent ruby rose as a character, it would be My R (specifically the version by annapantsu)

like... it's a song about a girl, who goes up to a rooftop with the intent of jumping off. When she's up there, she finds another girl preparing to do the same, and after hearing her out, actually manages to talk her out of it, while internally wondering why this girl could possibly think her reasons are better for this than her own. they both come down from the roof.

she goes up again another day, and the same scenario happens, and she feels the same about it again. but they both come down together.

this happens again and again, time after time, with so many people, and every single time she talks them out of it, coming down with them, then returning another day to find someone else. and every time there's a nagging feeling of, "would anyone do this for me if I got here first?"

until one day... there is no one else up there. she's up there, on her own, with nothing to stop her, and she immediately starts wrestling with her feelings, wondering if she actually wants to go through with it, and then deciding, Yes, she wants to.

now the ending of the song can be interpreted multiple ways, some less hopeful than others, but I think the one that applies best to ruby is that the girl suddenly sees herself in all of the people she's stopped before, suddenly essentially thinks "there doesn't need to be anyone to do this for me, I can do it myself, for myself" and.. turns around at the last second, leaving her plans to jump behind, and moving forward.

and on top of all of that, the song is extremely upbeat, and sounds very cheerful if you don't listen to the lyrics. Much like ruby, hiding her own fears behind a wall of optimism and hope that she shows to others, that makes her into such a beacon of light to everyone around her. To everyone but herself.

In the beginning of the series, she's a limitless source of hope and determination, fuelling herself and everyone around her onwards and upwards. Until volume 4. She desperately tried to never let on to anyone else, but the fall of beacon deeply affected her. When penny died, so did so much of ruby's trust in herself to be the hero. She still had her hope, and she still had her attitude of "let's do the best we can", but that very slowly started to be for everyone else's benefit, and that difference became more and more apparent as the show went on.

Volume 8 was the tipping point for her, and all of her hope and trust in herself was hinging on - A, protecting the relics. B, saving atlas. C, saving penny. and D, warning remnant enough to prepare them.

And then... they fell. And in the ever after, she had no way of knowing what was going on in their own world anymore, except what RWBYJ collectively knew already. And what did the group know as a whole? They had no idea whether B or D had succeeded, but they knew for a fact that A and C had failed. And so, with penny dying Again, so too did the rest of ruby's hope.

Volume 9 is her, up on the rooftop, with no one to stop her.

[theheadlessgroom]

@beatingheart-bride

"Oh, I dunno," Randall ventured to say with a tiny smile, saying, "I, uh...I got a good feeling that, if you went back and picked it up again, it'd be like old hat to you...like no time had passed at all."

He couldn't explain why he felt that way, he just did-it was so funny, how certain he felt of these little things when it came to Emily; he hadn't known her all that long at all, and yet, he felt as if he'd known her all his life. It was a funny feeling, strange, but altogether not unpleasant. It was sort of pleasant, really, feeling this sort of connection with her-he still couldn't decide if they'd met before or not, but even without that confirmation one way or the other, he quite liked that connection anyhow.

"I, uh, I went to the ballet only once-it was a field trip when I was a kid," he continued, volunteering this memory with warm cheeks and a flustered, fluttering heart. "I don't think I really understood what the show was supposed to be about, but...I do remember the ballerinas being very beautiful. The leader of them, the, uh...prima ballerina, is that it? She was the most beautiful out of all of them, all dressed in pink with a great smile and golden blonde hair..."

He trailed off, realizing how closely this description skewed towards his hostess-he probably had that ballerina to blame for his eternal affection for blondes...

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

am i going crazy or do i remember you having a polls prediction tierlist about the-constant-battle-2023? if you do/dont have one, could you show us? Im curious as round 2 is ending

I did have a tierlist about the polls but it wasn’t predictions on who would win it was specifically about which survivors would hurt the most for Wigfrid to lose to, with willow being the best possible option because it’s so obvious it lets her down easily, instead of it being up against like. Wendy or something and having it be an absolute massacre

However I do have predictions just in general. I think willow has held the lead for long enough that she’s going to win. If WX wins their poll, then either one of them could take it to the end. Personally I think that willow may come through, but I also know after being thoroughly crushed by every other poll wx has entered are going to turn them into a bloodlusty mob

But if Wendy wins it’s willow no question. Willow’s taking it home if Wendy wins the poll

[scientologisabethmoss]

i get it, I GET IT, i truly do. BUT [gets loudly booed by my lovely mutuals] if over-therapized speech in our vernacular reaches at least one woman and gives her the perspective to not “stick it out” in her dogshit marriage, i can deal with this kind of talk and just, like, zone it out when i come across it in the wild.

i understand that for lots of people, this sanitized therapy-speak is akin to communicating with empty platitudes, but there are also lots of women who will literally pledge at the altar “til death do us part” and don’t get that an inequitable marriage is a bond that they can, and should, break. 

marriage for women is already such a raw fucking deal and not actually this sanctified thing, so if “for as long as this feels healthy, safe, and meaningful for both of us” does go mainstream - which it WON’T - i don’t really give a shit! who knows, it could save a woman’s life at some point. 

[oakwolves]

I keep forgetting Train Chasers is written in past tense because I'm used to writing in the present tense