#she's so irresponsible im so mad at her she always does this

[i-may-be-an-emu]

hiiyyyy!!!

also, trans HCs??

TELLL ME MORE!! :DDDD

HELLOO!

Gladly. (This will be a very long post btw)

(I know I said this at some point but idk when so sorry if im not answering this properly)

My ftm headcannons:

Peter Parker (Marvel Universe)

He knew ever since he was little

The spider bite gave him free testosterone

He also has adhd (hc) and before getting top surgery would hyperfixate and forgert he was binding

Because of this Aunt May would have to check on him and set timers ect

the scene where Tom's spiderman is like "I'm not a girl I'm a BOY- I mean I'm-I'm a MAN" is pure trans-ness

he's also bi (hc) and really terrified of getting a boyfriend and then having him not see him as a man and is actually a straight dudes

So he only dates girls

(mj/the girl Andrew's one was in love with is mtf [but she doesn't really care about her gender but knows its feminin and calls herself mtf] and always reminds him he's a real man and when he goes "but what if-" MJ hits him with a "well then aren't you saying I'm a man then?" or something)

Luke Patterson (from Julie and the phantoms)

Part of the reason his mom and him fought so much

his parents said that the band made him trans and hanging out with boys was turing him into one

But after he died they saw that he was a guy and dedicated the rest of their lives to helping (especially young) trans folk

He wasn't diagnosed as autistic or with adhd (hc) because he was seen as a girl which gave him problems in having to get his parents to listen to him about both his brain and gender

Hates sleeves = trans

The beanie. No I will not elaborate. He wore a beanie. He is trans.

The way his hair is styled is like it was grown long and cut short instead of grown short and cut to stay that way, meaning that he is very likely to have had long hair and probably cut it short himself

When he became a ghost his soul was a guy so his ghost form became a guy, meaning he had a cis guy's appearance and "biological" situation or whatever

My Name Is Luke. He wrote a song called my name is Luke.

Jake peralta (Brooklyn 99)

Gina helped him come out to his mom

Did you SEE how he looked in highschool? The long hair and earring? Litterally in denial. Plus he was best friends with a girl (not saying straight guys can't have female friends but c'mon)

He wears about 3 layers

He met Rosa in the academy and i like to think that it was transohobic and put him in a dorm with her

she didn't care but was really mad about the academy being transphobic

prison was difficult, but Caleb was also trans and it made it easier (they look down in the shower and jake says samsies, I refuse to belive it's about circumcision and think it's trans instead.)

When Jake came out to Holt they had a kinda father-son type moment and Holt said that he understood and if Jake ever needed anything to come to him

He was still wearing a binder in the first few seasons (screw the scenes where he's shirtless) and the pain is unbearable because he's irresponsible (cue Gina and Rosa basically grounding him and everyone finding out he's trans)

Hiccup Haddock The 3rd (How to train Your Dragon)

He's 15 in the first movie. 15. My boy looks like he's 12

He's not as buff as the other guys his age and in one of the episodes where he's 15 bucket does a painting of him and Stowick and makes him extra buff, Stowick likes it more and Hiccup feels like crap (because he's trans)

Everyone sees him as a screw up and won't even let him ououtside

We never see him shirtless

"But he grows a beard eventually!" Yes but how long did that take him? My guy invented a flaming sword i think he'd be able to get testosterone from sosomewhere.

Kids? Sperm doner! (yes i know they're vikings but they could always just like... yk)

He doesn't have a bulge in his pants

He felt like an outsider and seeing toothless be the only nightfury made him just feel really connected to him

He didn't change his name

When he meets his mom she's obviously suprised but understands what's going on

My mtf headcanons:

Carrie (Julie and the phantoms)

Trevor understood fully because of Luke and asked her if she wanted a new name and what pronouns to use

He sometimes messed up with her pronouns at first but he tries really hard to get them right

When she came out he game her his credit card to buy new clothes with and quickly learned that was a very bad idea

She figured out her gender but was still figuring out her sexuality

She started dating nick as a power move to try and gain popularity (it worked)

She went on puberty blockers at 13 and it meant she was able to get a high voice but still does voice training as well (i dont know much about mtf voice stuff im sorry 😭)

After season one the boys were able to become visible to lifers when they want to be and she and Luke become trans bff's

loves pink

(I'm sorry I cant think of anymore mtf ones mainly because im ftm and those hc come from projecting onto charichters)

Nonbinary:

Oh my gosh I forgot their name 🤦 (from jatp)

(The member of dirty candy who Reggie likes)

Idk. But they are. She goes by they/she pronouns too, and I cant really say much else because they're a side character.

And also MJ from the Tom Holland spidermans is a genderfluid girl

Im sorry im too tired to elaborate any further I will think of more tho C:

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[nny11writes]

im amused at how well you nailed everybody's character with so little context... season 2 hadnt even come out yet??? but scorpia would ABSOLUTELY cry over anything, and her lil baby lying to her would probably get a nice shedful of tears. she would somehow think it's her own fault for not being a responsible mother that makes her kid feel like they can tell the truth.

the idea of entrapta being the semi responsible parent despite irresponsibly creating life is funny to me. she built her own parents like you said, AND she actually has looked after kids (emily.... imp... wrong hordak...) so it makes sense shed be quite paternal even without actual role models to go from.

catra thinking shes never going to get attached to the kid and then being the most insecure parent xD

i love how you just straight up made a scorptra baby because why the fuck not (i love how entrapta just straight up made a scorptra baby because why the fuck not)

lol, thank you! It's a weird one because I started it so early on so I feel like I can see which parts (because apparently not ALL of the parts are posted like I thought they were) I wrote early on and which have been added since :p

I stand by Scorpia isn't an easy crier, but my god when it's her own kid she is nothing but water works! Absolutely she'd be like, "What have I done that make her not trust me????" While Catra is rolling her eyes like, "Scorpia she's a child, she can and will and should rebel." Meanwhile Entrapta sagely is nodding along, "Everyone does and is allowed to have secrets. It doesn't reflect on you."

They still talk with her later and make sure she knows they love her and she can tell them anything.

Look, Entrapta may be banned from the history museum because she kept sneaking a group of kids into the back to see the real dino bones, but one on one with a kid she will default to parenting rules imo. She programmed her own parents and I feel like she would want something to go by for it, so her rules are all very reasonable and she follows them well. If Clawdeen ever feels strongly that Entrapta is being unfair, they 100% sit and discuss it. Clawdeen knows if she can convince any of her moms of her point they'll change their mind lol.

Look my parents negotiated with me when I was about 4-6 years old that I would never have to wear dresses again and I could choose my own clothes from either the boys or girls section as long as I understood that my uncle's wedding was THAT DAY and there was no time or money to get me something different so I had to wear a dress instead. I am biased and SPT is like my parents. No curfew, just let us know if you'll be coming back after we're asleep. You broke this rule that you knew about, and this is the punishment we'd already told you about, does this still seem fair to you? No mandatory chores, but I was not allowed to leave a mess in shared spaces. So if I insisted on not doing my own laundry that was fine but I had to suffer with stinky clothes lol. There was a lot of negotiating, discussion, and checking in with them.

One time, I forged my dad's signature for a while in Elementary school and really thought I was slick, then when I got in trouble I forged it on that and my teacher crossed it out and told me I had to get an actual signature and explain why there was one already on there. My dad just let me cry about it for a while as he assured me he wasn't mad, and the first thing he checked was why I forged his signature. I did it because I always forgot to get it for my homework so I'd sign it before class when I remembered, and I didn't want him to be mad at me for getting in trouble at school. He was understanding and we came up with a solution so I wouldn't forget.

I base SPT on this kinda model where if one of them just knows they're the wrong person to handle it they make sure Clawdeen knows they love her and then have someone better set up for it do it.

Eventually all three will share basically all responsibilities, but at the start Entrapta holds the responsible parental reins. Once Catra isn't scared she'll over react and Scorpia is less of a push over, then the chaos can really kick off!!!

Catra is just really like, "Well if I say I won't care about this person, then I won't!" when in reality she will become so protective of them it's almost hilarious. Catra doesn't latch on easily but once she's decided you're one of her people, fucking good luck try to not be.

Catra: I wish we had super soldiers to back up the bots :(

Scorpia: Ooo, that would be so cool!!!!

Entrapta: I can do that, Hordak has cloning stuff anyways so I just need some DNA, like hair or nails.

Catra, who does not know what cloning and DNA are: And you'll make a super soldier!? Heck yeah, permission granted! I shed all the time. >:D

Scorpia, wildly misinterpreting what's happening: Yay, Super Pal Trio!!!!! <3<3<3<3

~

Clawdeen: How are babies made?

Entrapta: Well, you see, when you have at least one willing donor for genetic materials and access to a state of the art lab, you can grow one!

Catra, thinking she's being funny: Or two people can just fff-

Scorpia: KISS AND THEN THEY FIND A BABY IN A CABBAGE PATCH!

Clawdeen: Science or magic garden, got it.

Catra: Wait- no-

Scorpia and Entrapta: YES

[cringe-car-guy]

Need to vent here because I feel stuck af. I met my buddy Steve last summer after grid life. His brother Chris ran a shop down in canon city. At the time my 240 was running and driving.

Well as ls swaps go. Some issues arose with the car and Steve recommended I send it to his brother. Me trusting Steve with alot of things said ok.

I began sending Chris 500 bucks a month. For some parts for the car. I also started recording for their YouTube channel at the shop. I've only put out a few videos but it's starting to take off.

Shortly after this started I began working at ford and made some great friends while I worked there. It was super convenient since it was right off the highway. At the time I was still on leave from the army. The management was terrible with their communication with the techs. Eventually techs started dropping like flies and I left as well. I asked Chris if he had a position open and if I could fill in and Learn some stuff. He let me come on and I started work right away. I had issues finding a place and he helped me get into one. I had to wait a week to move in so a coworker let me stay over. This coworker is also a key player in all this. (M)

I finally get into my place and. Check it out. The place was a dump but It had enough room for my stream set up so I sucked it up and dealt with it.

Immediately after I moved into town m began spilling the beans on her relationship and how many boyfriends she had. Personally I didn't care for this information but I let it carry on. Her husband was racing rx7s and I thought that was cool but that's about as far as my relationship with them went. But I noticed more at work that she was always giving idle threats and very real ones that affected how all of us techs worked.

Note she was only the office lady and she was only in charge of repair orders. But she always had a dog in the fight whenever someone messed something up down to the smallest level.

Recently I had a spill in the back because I was unfamiliar with the oil tanks we used.

Context: the tanks come from the factory only using 15 pounds of pressure to dump the oil. The one that blew up in my face had a regulator that had a setting for 150 pounds of pressure. This tank was already set to max pressure and I had no idea what I was in store for.

So on this day the tank had made a massive mess and I was covered in oil. At this point there was no way I was sticking around. I had to get clean as soon As possible. My coworker Josh took me home and waited for me to shower. Well after I put my boots on I got a call from M she told me I was irresponsible for leaving oil in the back lot and for leaving my mustang. In the front. (I didn't have the key for it at the time) and I was off the clock for leaving and showering. All of this information had already been addressed but for some reason she felt the need to actually call me about it over the phone. And when I say this lady is disrespectful I mean it. She threatens to beat the mechanics regularly. Personally I don't take any threat lightly. Playful or not. It's not cute and personally it pisses me off.

So when I got back to the shop I told her how I felt about the way she talked to me. I definitely got loud about it because this was a serious situation. I had josh in the room as a safety.

Afterwards Chris came back to the shop and I told him what happened. For some reason he agreed that I should've stayed and cleaned up. (I make minimum wage/ not for so little money I wont).

So now I'm mad.

The next day josh gets in her shit too.

Wednesday she pouts all day because her feelings got hurt

I go to lunch with Josh this day because we're both pissed and wanna get away from the shop. He tells me about an incident a few months before I showed up.

Nick was working at the shop and was party❄ buddies with another mechanic and chris (the owner). Im like cool what does this have to do with me.

According to Josh Chris had made alot of money on a job and decided to get some dope with nick. Some events happened and the split ways on bad terms. Alot of money was involved and some of it was mine.

Same thing ThursdayFriday. But this time I know Chris is doing dope in the bathroom.

Friday rolls around and I'm balls deep into a 64 grand prix at the end of the day I have to leave for the army. As I'm leaving I hear in ear shot "yea he's a great guy but he's a shit mechanic" at this point I wanna start whoopin ass. But I decided to leave and wave as I go.

Today is Sunday and I realized he didn't even sign the check I got friday.

I'm really torn and I feel stuck. Just gonna wait this one out and see how the chips fall. This is definitely a cry for help but I know it'll be ignored.

[ventingbaybe]

1/16/24

I did end up moving out after that last post, two or so years ago.

Im on my second year break from school, the whole point of the gap year was to save money for school. I got kicked out though, so there went that.

My parents dont like when i word it that i got kicked out, I was “heavily implied that I should move out so that I can thrive away from my family because they didnt sign up to start taking care of me again because I couldnt go back to school” but not kicked out.

I got a second job, worked 80 hour weeks for a while, quit one, work the other. Moved from one apartment to another and then another. I dont have any roommates, just me. I cant get an animal because it would be irresponsible when im planning on going back to school and wouldnt be able to bring them with me.

Every month I pay $1000 in rent, $500 in my loan repayment, and whatever other shit i get roped into.

I have a boyfriend. I had a crush on him at the beginning of last summer, we met at work. I ended up getting over him at one point. But sometime in October I got drunk and flirted with him, we went on a couple dates and made it official. Its awkward. We dont have anything to talk about and dont have anything in common. I feel bad that I cant be the partner that he deserves, but we just arent fit for one another. We need to break up but we havent had any free time to see eachother and actually have a talk about anything. Hes a great guy, but romantically we just arent compatible at all.

Were having a winter storm in my state and just my washing machine pipe froze, so last night at 2am I got to spend hours cleaning up my overflowed washing machine and hand wringing out and emptying the machine. I feel constantly overwhelmed and like Im drowning, but I dont have a solid enough support system to feel helped. This isnt to diss my friends or anything, I just need professional help at this point and cant keep burdening my friends with this kind of constant badgering of venting.

I need to make some more friends, like actual friends I hang out with who are on a similar level of being grown up as me. I need other people who are moved out that I can find some relation and comfort in. I just dont feel like I have anyone solid in my corner that I can turn to at this moment. Its my own fault which is even more frustrating.

I wish i could just go home and curl up on the couch and be comforted. Im a grown person whose fully moved out, supported completely by myself, but I just want my mom. I wish her and I were close. But neither of us are willing to let down our egos enough to ever talk without fighting. One time my mom told me she likes me better when Im drunk, because Im quiet and sweet. So everytime i go over, I have a drink and pretend it affects me more than it does.

I was a functioning alcoholic for most of my senior year of highschool. I’d drink nearly half a bottle of vodka every night. It hurts to see people compliment how I act when im drunk more than when Im sober. I wish I was a likable person. I dont know why I lash out, why I cant not have the last word, but I also wish i didnt have to fight everyone at any given moment.

I dont know why i fight but I dont know why everyone around me loves to rile me up.

My family has always known I had anger issues, and nothing made them laugh harder than seeing me lose my temper, if i got mad i was laughed at. If i got sad I was laughed at. If i stayed sat at that dining room table and went quiet then i was laughed at. If i excused myself to go to my room or hide in the bathroom, I was laughed at. There was no way to get away from the ridicule besides being an asshole back, and then someone else was always allowed to storm off. No one else was laughed at when they left. The table would go silent until everyone else excused themselves and it was just me.

Theres nothing quite like being left alone while everyone else comforts eachother. Why wasnt I included. Was it my own fault? Was I that repulsive of a kid? A teen? What about me was so fundamentally wrong that I couldnt be included.

I remember being young, maybe 9 at this memory. My brother had said something, I said something back, he stormed off and told my mom. I remember feeling excited when my mom came to my door. I remember thinking maybe it was my turn to be comforted. To be held and rocked the way she would to my brothers. I remember standing there while she screamed at me, hearing my brothers doors squeak open so they could tune in to the show. Being ridiculed for being such a horrible daughter, a horrible sister, just a base level horrible person to be around. How much my brothers would complain to my parents about how much they hated me.

Watching my mother stand there with this blank face as I would stand there, tears welled up in my eyes being told that if it wasnt for being family, I would be unloved.

She would hug me after, let my tears soak into the shoulder of her shirt, and say nothing as Id choke out apologies for being how I was. She’d stand there and hold me, telling me that all I could do was change.

So I tried. I tried so hard. I distanced myself from my family so they wouldnt have to deal with me. I got criticized for hiding away and hating them.

Now that I dont live there its easier. I dont see any of them often and they seem happy. My older brother is also moved out but he was still over there constantly, having dinner with the family most nights. I would tell my mom I would swing by later and come over to an empty house. Id wait for an hour, thinking maybe they were all just out, but they wouldnt be back. Id put away whatever Id brought over and leave, a silent drive back home to throw myself into an empty apartment and sit there. Not even a text to acknowledge whatever Id brought. Who knows if they even noticed.

I know my parents care about me, at least on some level. My dad comes over to help me set up my wifi, he drove me to work during this snow storm. I can see that on a base level he cares. But I hate that ill never know how much. Some people you can just sense it when you meet their parents, how they interact, how their parents look at them so fondly.

I feel embarrassed when my friends meet my family, not because Im embarrassed of my family, but because I know that the way I talk about my family isnt reciprocated. That no matter how many stories of my family I can share to my friends, how fondly I talk about them and their achievements, how every eyelash I wish on is spent wishing for my family to receive only the best, I know that when my friends look at my family and I, they dont see that fond look that their parents give them.

No matter how funny I can be around my friends, it will never translate over with my family. How I get quiet and move to the background around family.

I wish I was something and someone that could be talked about.

I wish I was worth bringing up in conversation when Im not around.

I wish just once in my life I felt like I was worth putting up with.

[itsays]

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[fishtre]

Oh lord your work has honestly has got to be one of the things that truly cemented me into being a Jason fan when I started to enter the fandom. I just wanted to ask; Has Dick or Bruce ever seen Jason (or even Jessie; im a fuckibg lesbian for her) while they were at a low point? Or have they ever seen something in Jay's behavior that seriously made them stop and think for a moment?

Oof-!!! o-okay. I wasn't ready for this. So many responsibilities??? Thanks and welcome!  XD 

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> Have they ever seen something in Jay's behavior that seriously made them stop and think for a moment? 

This goes for Jay and Femjay 

For Dick: No. Dick and Jason aren’t close. They know each other through Bruce who is this deforming prism between them: lingers even in his absence. This + a lack of a relationship = Dick's empathy sleeping where Jason is involved since day one. Meanwhile, Jason just doesn't trust Dick nor expect his sympathy as the replacement goldfish Bruce picked up (or the outlaw Jason later become). They avoid/ignore rather than seek/antagonize each other (unless the situation demands violence). Hence, it’s not granted Dick could recognize the moment for what it was and not chalk it up as “classic Jason”. 

As for Bruce: short answer is YES. Their whole history is paved with moments where Bruce has (usually late) epiphanies about Jason and himself. And this’ pretty much how Jason got benched after a rapist went flying through a balcony to meet the concrete twenty floors lower.

More to say, so long AF rant below the cut. Mostly about canon interpretation I use for characterisation + some side notes about Femjay at the very end. The essential is above tho.

Starts with “Batman the Cult”: 

Aka Batman goes missing while investigating an underground sect that kidnaps homeless people. When Jason finally finds him, Bruce is a drugged, tortured, half-raving mad man on a pile of corpses who've been living in the sewers for weeks. Jason tries to bring Batman to his senses and at the surface but he's so damaged in and out that Robin has to guide him back home like a lost child. Eventually they get surrounded by the cult members. After a "it was an honor to meet and fight with you sir" Robin got outflanked. Begs Bruce to help as a crowd of drugged hobos tries to literally tear him apart. Jason is like 14-15yo and it takes these three "adult fears" in a row (child going “yolo” + child protecting the powerless adult + watching child get almost killed) for Bruce to finally fight back and save the day.

Which brings us to the following event: The rapist and the balcony :p. Bruce can't prove if Jason committed the crime or not so the act in itself isn't the point. Jason admitting he didn't try to catch the falling rapist, no feeling remorse to potentially causing someone's death is what alarms Bruce here.

Between the Cult and this, for me it's definitely when Bruce first gets blessed with many epiphanies; 1) Jason’s attitude toward death, his or the crooks' lives, his soldier-like devotion to Bruce during the Cult is alarming. 2) Turns out Jason have different opinions regarding Justice, the right to redemption or vigilantism. Opinions that are pretty irreconcilable with Bruce’s. 3) He's not shaking the grip Gotham has on the boy at all (his reason or excuse to take Jason in at first.)  4) Jason's indulging Bruce and playing by his rules because love and respect (he hopes), not because Jason understands or believes in Bruce's methods or share his creeds. 5) He may had been emotionally compromised when he took in Jason (as Dick accuses him to be) and had been making thing worse for the boy, failing Jason as a mentor/guardian and an adult.

As the “greatest detective”, it weighs on Bruce that he ultimately failed Jason in knowing the boy and providing what he needs; his guilt and irresponsibility catching up to him all at once. From Bruce’s perspective, this has cost a man's life and Jason’s “innocence”, simply because he (or anyone) didn’t manage to see Jason for who he is; a more troubled child than he or Dick ever was, and that despite having all the clues in the world to figure it out.  In result Jason and Robin are benched. Jason dies before Bruce can find what he should do. That's it. UTRH could be seen as Jason at a low point I guess. But special mention to when Bruce "walks away" to not choose between Red Hood and Joker before aiming a batarang at RH's gun, Jason sits down in silence and simply gives up; resigned to wait for the bomb to blow up, not caring if Bruce or Joker get away or die with him. A stark contrast to how determined and mouthy he's been until then. Jason "accepts" what he sees as Bruce's choice: that Joker is more or equally as important to him than Jason. Bruce has to pull him away from the worst of the blast so it's fair to say that he must notice. It doesn't manage to make Bruce stops and thinks, but the conclusion to that story on Bruce's side this time is that while Jason is back and alive, the event in UTRH achieved to kill the boy he knew and lost. 

As for femjay, here a bit more trivia just for her AU:

Dick first thought after discovering that new Robin was a tomboy, whom Bruce also addresses or presents as one 90% of the time does alarms him a bit in the midst of his confusion. But when he half-questions Jason about it, she mocks him about this incident and shuts him off with a "none of your beeswax". Fuming, Dick brushes it off as being some kind of pervert game between Bruce and Jason, be it Bruce trying to replace and hurt him, introverted misogyny, lesbian culture or whatever. None of his beeswax. He doesn't look deeper into it. He leaves Gotham and only comes back for her "funeral". As a general rule, looking into Jason- related stuff and not minding his business when she is involved, always ends up biting Dick in the arse.

Bruce never really brushes the subject of what Jason may have done or not in order to survive on the streets for two years or why her parents gave her a boy name. He takes what Jason gives him on this (which is little) and doesn't pry into it further since Jason's medical checkups are fairly good and promising. Jason is a girl who prefers to blend in as a boy and Bruce plays along, secretly relieved because Bruce has no idea how to deal with a pre-teen/teenage girl. So yeah; he's scared and this is a blessing for him and she looks happy like that. Bruce avoids using pronouns to avoid confusion himself (which is partly why Dick got so confused by Jason's gender when they first met).

Nobody but Alfred realizes she starts corseting herself with bandages and a sports bra by the end of second year at the manor. Or that she buys pads and razors on the dozen with who knows what money since she asks for nothing. Old-fashioned Wayne's British butler is barely more at ease with Jason's womanhood than Bruce, but Al does take the initiative to give her an allowance so she can buy underwears when she first arrives. He simply raises that allowance to cover her new needs with a cryptic and awkward explanation. But because Jason doesn't know how to choose a bra she sticks to what she knows, aka; keeps wearing a sports bra and flattening her chest as best as she can while residing at the Manor. By the time she comes back as Red Hood, Jason is too curvy to hide so she doesn't. Also; Talia... While she still was only trying to use Jason against or to win Bruce back, she's appalled to learn what Jason used to do to her breasts, and took pity of her. She forcefully take Jason out shopping for her first actual bra at 17-18 yo and teach her some more basics.

[unionwitch]

May I offer you some general Albedo headcanons?

Okay, bear with me. I now that there's close to nothing about Albedo but!

Albedo is mentioned as a Captain of the Investigation Team. So either he leaves the city a lot, or his subordinates do - each time he leaves, he makes sure to bring back a little souvenir for his assistnat.

Rest of the team picks up on in and if sometimes he has to stay back, they'll bring back a bone of some weird creature they found, sometimes strange looking fish, or a crab and give it to Sucrose.

Each year around her birthday, Albedo takes a free day and goes on a trip with Sucrose. They go wherever she wants and she's allowed to take back anything she wants: surprisingly small or mutated skull of a mitachurl? Sure. A chunk of electro slime sealed in a jar? Just make sure it doesn't break.

He's down to tracking any strange creatures and just keep watch when Sucrose observes it and takes notes.(sometimes he brings back some flammable materials for Klee)

The trip day usually ends with him buying her a small cake.

If anyone dares to mock his assistant or her appearance (Archon forbid you make a rude comment about her ears), he becomes cold and gives the person a verbal onslaught, and makes them apologize.

Sucrose found out by accident that Albedo has a sweet tooth, so she always makes sure to make a bit more of her sugar candies and sneak it into his desk's drawer.

He pretends that he doesn't see her sneaking into his office and always acts surprised when his box of candies is magically full again.

The only person he shares those with is Klee.

Before taking Sucrose as his apprentice, he used to constantly forget about eating and sleeping, too absorbed in his work. Afterwards, either Kaeya or Lisa makes a comment that he's giving the young girl a poor example, and it's no wonder that Sucrose is staying up all night, since thats what he does. After that he does a full 180 and sets alarms on his pocket-watch, which is his cue to check on his assistant and make sure she doesn't miss any meals and doesn't stay up all night. It also improves his habits, so he's not as much of an overworked mess when he becomes Klee's guardian.

Since Albedo puts a big emphasis on safety during experiments, Sucrose tends to divide her research into low/high danger probability. All experiments classified as highly dangerous are prepared in advance to make sure that Albedo will be present around her lab during it.

Albedo is absolutely the "I'm not mad, Im just disappointed" type of man. Sucrose hates disappointing him because of that. Klee is torn whether it's worse to disappoint Jean or Alebdo.

There are times when Albedo can't help his assistant with already planned out project, because of some last minute issuse. She's always just smiles sadly and promises to switch to a different project.

(Every time Sucrose is sad Alebdo's heart just breaks and he hates himself.)

Sucrose would sooner fling herself of a cliff with one of her Anemohypostasis than admit it, but with time she begins to see the older alchemist as an older brother.

Albedo has a special armchair in his office reserved for Sucrose. She unofficially has a spare key so she can go there whenever she needs some quiet moment during the day (some days everything is just too loud for her ears and Albedo put a lot of silencing spells on his office).

He has the silencing spells, because he's prone to getting migraines. He despises being seen as weak so he always tries to power through the pain.

He also has a box of coloured pencils and a few children's books in his desk, in case of having to watch over Klee, whilst working.

Sometimes he gets overly excited when he makes a breakthrough in his own research and the first person he spots becomes his victim. He'll either go off about his projects or even drag the person to his lab to show it to the poor soul. Kaeya was once a victim of such event, to this day he's lowkey terrified how a man half his size was able to drag him all the way to the laboratory and keep an iron grip on him during the whole speech (the Cavalry Captain tried to pry his fingers off and failed so many times, that he runs whenever he sees a spark in Albedo's eyes the blonde is basically the conspiracy theory meme at times like this)

He once saw Lisa in combat and since then he's kind of afraid to refuse whenever she asks him for a favour. Mona finds it ridiculous and is low-key salty, since he's not afraid to refuse her in the slightest and she's the most powerful astrologer in whole city.

He has weekly tea-parties with Mona. He also never refuses a reading from her, even if he sometimes suspects she's just making things up just to mess with him "oh I see a big failure coming in your life, you should enjoy your peace while it lasts" "gdi Mona can you be any less specific?"

He has an entire speech prepared for Alice when she finally comes back, about irresponsible parenting.

I think that's all of it for now. I'm really hoping that he gets released soon 👀 👀 👀

[femmedesyeuxnoirs]

I am so fucking fed up with this family. My aunt is the most irresponsible, stupid, racist, rude, annoying, loud, abusive, emotionally immature, hypocritical, deranged person I have ever met in my family. I am literally ashamed to be related to that woman. She lacks so much emotional self awareness its actually unbelievable. Im not exaggerating. Think about that person you know who lacks the most self awareness of anyone youve ever met in your life. Thats her but at least ten times worse. Every day when I hear the garage door open at 5 pm I just think okay. Alright. There goes the peace and quiet. Not only does she yell at her kid, she is as of late always taking her anger out on the dog?? I havent gone a single day in this household where I havent heard screaming. She literally never taught her child how to wipe either. Like just basic life skills. She is one of the worst parents I have ever had the misfortune of observing. So of course this kid is growing up to be just like her. His trash and toys are all over the floor and after leaving used toilet paper all around the toilet he doesnt even wash his hands. Whenever I hear that inevitable flush and then immediate sound of the door opening, I know that it was him that just used the bathroom. I let him use my laptop to play minecraft too and he leaves it turned on the entire night as if I hadnt told him like 3 times to turn it off when hes not using it because it destroys the disk. And every time he gives it back to me its somehow smeared in grease and crumbs on the screen and keyboard. I dont even know how thats possible. LIke not to be hating on a child but I cant fucking stand him. He leaves messes everywhere and no one in this house tells him to clean it up. Like every time he showers he leaves his dirty clothes literally spread out all over the floor, and then leaves the floor and rugs completely wet. Last time I showered after him he had spent like an entire hour in there, and apparently had slathered conditioner or something all over the bathtub. Like why does nobody say anything??? And then my aunt is constantly having to tell him to stop being violent to the dog because he reacts to it the way his mother has always reacted to him. Im gonna be honest once I saw that she got him that dog I knew it was going to end in disaster. When he was younger he used to throw rocks at choco and make our pets angry and harm them for literally no reason. Me and my sister would tell each other that the way he behaves is some future serial killer shit. My imediate family has always had that kind of icky feeling about him. So now that he has this dog he takes his anger out on it daily. I dont even know what my aunt was thinking. I think she probably regrets getting him one because every now and then when they think i cant hear them she tells the kid “one day youre going to kill that dog...” i honestly agree with her for once. Just the other day he was running around carrying chewy lifting him high off the ground and swinging him. And he dropped. The puppy. It wasnt on purpose but that is still extremely fucked up. After that the dog got really quiet and stopped playing. I just hope he didnt cause the thing any permanent damage. Including this, these are the other ways that he mistreats and neglects his dog: he purposefully neglects feeding him, neglects cleaning his area so that hes wallowing in his own waste and urine(though this can be attributed more to my aunt being a lazy irresponsible cunt), he washes his bed and doesnt put it in the dryer so that the dog is forced to sleep in a cold wet bed, he shrieks at him to try to scare him. Like screams at the top of his lungs. It drives me completely fucking insane. He also puts on sound effects of dogs barking and growling on full volume to scare him, and is constantly hitting him while hes trying to play with him. To try to get him mad and get a rise out of him for no reason besides his own amusement. My aunt has to keep reminding him “dont hit him!!!” like several times in a row before he actually listens. This whole puppy for christmas thing is the most irresponsible thing my aunt has done. She knows that her kid is prone to abusing animals and incapable of looking after a living thing and still she gets him this dog. As a poor attempt to try to mend her horrifically broken family which is entirely her fault. I remember the day she got him chewy she recorded his reaction and posted it to facebook, which is like yeah thats what parents usually do. But the entire night you could hear her rewatching the video constantly. And I couldnt help but feel that she was doing it out of a fucked up act of self congratulation to try to convince herself and everyone on the internet that she actually isnt an abusive cunt of a mother. One of these days he is going to cause serious physical harm to this poor dog or even kill him. So you understand how I feel like this is inevitably going to end in tragedy, for the kid and the dog. Its a miracle i havent killed myself during the time ive spent here really. I might actually do it honestly. If my family doesnt forcibly commit me to the mental asylum first

[serararku]

A Modest Proposal

Back straight. Eyes down. Book open.

Mizuna spent the first half of her shift a hair's breadth away from the overnight beds. K'vyna was able to eat solid food despite her broken ribs and collarbone, but Mizuna didn't want her moving around until she was absolutely certain her bones were healing correctly, especially with that shattered leg; otherwise it would be up to her to break them again to start the healing process anew. Dawn could sit up and hold a conversation at least, yet getting used to her two foreign eyes will certainly be a challenge, especially with one of them with the signature Auri limbal ring. That cerulean eye staring back at her was unsettling. Mizuna felt like two strangers were looking at her when Dawn met her gaze, but she would never tell her that; she’s been through enough, and adding to her insecurities would help no one. Nijah always stayed longer than the allotted time for visits, but Mizuna always let it slide- Dawn needed someone to talk to. Speaking of which, even Osric himself checked in to pay her a visit once. With luck they could close the rift between them sooner than later.

While K’vyna was broken physically, Dawn was broken emotionally. It pained Mizuna to see them both in such shattered states… yet they remained better off than Conobharo.

The Lalafell had his arm severed right across the ball-socket joint, and it was not with him when he arrived to the clinic. The  blood loss made him lethargic for the first few days, but after enough rest he could talk and move around on his own- at least until he was struck with phantom pain in his missing limb. With just a pinch of nightshade essence and a tonze of gloomroot, Mizuna had Conobharo's head swimming in anesthetics and bedridden until the agony would pass. Worse still, he was still struggling to accept the fact that he was now handicapped, and it was taking its toll on him, both physically and psychologically. She was convinced he could kiss the mercenary life behind; how could he survive out there with only one hand? Surely he couldn't swing that heavy sword now. Perhaps he could find fulfillment in helping around the clinic? Khair and Mizuna could certainly use the help, plus his sense of humor would always be a welcome diversion.

She kept a monitor on their vitals with her so she could rush to their aid at a moment's notice, even during her smoke breaks; dark circles sagged from her eyes while she read, unwilling to rest until her shift was over. Dawn, K'vyna and Conobharo were all counting on her for a safe and swift recovery… yet some would recover sooner than others. And one may never truly recover at all.

Boom!

There it was again, easily the queerest thunder she had ever heard. There were no windows in the main lobby of the clinic so looking to see the storm clouds herself required more effort than tilting her head. The weather report made no mention of a shower, but Thanalan was infamous for its sudden storms; she was almost ready to return to her book and continue reading Life as an Amputee: A Beginner’s Course before she was rudely interrupted again. Boom! “That does it.” She muttered to herself, rising to her feet. The magitek device keeping tabs on their vitals was wireless and mobile at least, allowing Mizuna to pluck it off the table and carry it with her- and carry it she did, all the way straight to the front door.

She was greeted with the blazing glare of the Thanalan midafternoon sun: no rain, clouds, or thunder. K’thalen appeared next once her eyes began to adjust, his back turned and smoke rising from the barrel of his rifle. He stood alone in the center of the courtyard, or so she first thought; S’era appeared atop the arch over the entrance to the estate with her katana drawn. “What’s going on out here?”

“Ah- heya Doc.” K’thalen turned an ear toward the woman but kept his gaze focused on S’era. “Gigglefits over yonder claimed Hadriel is the greatest swordsman in the world. So I tell’r; what good is all that skill when a drunkard with a clear shot can kill ‘im? So she says he can deflect bullets. I told her there ain’t no way he can move that fast, and even if he could, he can’t parry a barrage, yeah? So now she claims anyone with enough practice can deflect a bullet, so…” He raised his rifle and fired. BOOM! Mizuna flinched at how loud his boomstick bellowed. She glanced up frantically to see S’era wave her sword in the air, then stomp her feet and curse under her breath. “See? If I was aimin’ center mass n’not over your shoulder you’d be dead, darlin’!”

“I just need a few more bells of practice!” She insisted, preparing herself for another attempt. “Do it again!”

"This is incredibly dangerous, reckless, and irresponsible." Mizuna scowled, feeling that dreadful sound ringing in her hollow horns. "You both should stop before someone reports suspicious gunfire in the Goblet."

K'thalen couldn't argue with that; he was already on their watch list for public intoxication and disturbing the peace. "Aye, she'll never be able to deflect 'em anyroad. Come on down, Era, before you fall off n'break your ankle. Goddess knows the Doc's gotter hands full already." A groan slipped from the Samurai before she hopped down, still certain such a feat could be possible. Mizuna, content with handling this situation swiftly, checked the vitals one last time before she turned on her heel to flee this muggy heat.

She didn’t make it ten paces before S’era came trotting in behind her. “Oh Doctor Kusakari? Can I ask you something? I know this probably isn’t a good time, but I need a huge favor…”

Mizuna glanced down at the vitals again before giving the woman a warm yet faint smile. “What’s the matter?” Just as she finished speaking, K’thalen came strolling in as well, with one hand holding his rifle upright, and the other clasped around his old flask.

How could she tell her? How could she convince this woman- who on all accounts was practically a stranger- to risk her life to help people she couldn’t possibly be invested in. Risking her own life in Mor Dhona with friends willingly volunteering to help was one thing, but now she was older, fairly wiser, and far less willing to act on emotions alone. It was a big request, but it was better for Mizuna or Khair to come along than Dawn, especially in her state.

“S’era?” Mizuna repeated, snapping her out of her daze. “What’s wrong?”

“Ah… I… well you see…”

“Is this a medical question?” The Raen woman asked, glancing over at K’thalen who was busy chugging more liquor. “Should we go somewhere private to talk?”

“No, it’s not a personal-...” S’era began wringing her hands before she took in a deep breath and stood up straight. “My tribe… the Zu Tribe, needs help. I need a medical professional and I don’t know Dr. Himaa at all, so…”

At last K’thalen made a noise as he coughed and choked on his drink. “Guh-...! Huck…! What?! You wanna bring her to your tribe, S’era?! Have you gone mad?!”

“The Zu Tribe is infamous for killing anyone who enters their lands.” Mizuna calmly explained what K’thalen was alluding to. “I would love to help your people, but I don’t want to be strung up and flayed. I just don’t see how I could even get close enough to help them.”

“My Nunh has agreed to let outsiders in… on my watch.” S’era explained, ignoring his remarks. “Please, Dr. Kusakari… our kittens have some sort of disease that-”

Mizuna didn’t even flinch. “I’ll do it.”

“Huh?!” Both S’era and K’thalen exclaimed at the same time, before looking at each other.

“I’ve only seen a handful of Miqo’te children in my travels, and none that were younger than nine or ten. This is an opportunity of a lifetime.” Mizuna glanced down to check the vitals again- still safe, still stable. “If you can guarantee my safety then I’ll gladly help. And if Miqo’te kittens are as adorable as they claim… then I won’t soon regret this.”

“The mention of kittens was all she needed to change her mind?” S’era thought to herself, nodding confidently at Mizuna. “This is all going better than I originally planned!”

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[mrsalenko]

. stupid shit under cut not worth reading just musing

tripped out today on lack of sleep and got very focused on finding my split ends (as some of you may remember when i was sick when i was grieving i suffered from extremely bad trichtiliomania from anxiety and distress and caused bad hair loss. i’ve recovered a lot from it but suffer from time to time when run down and stressed but nothing that is noticeable anymore. it’s amazing what the brain will do to you sometimes. anyway dyeing my hair frequently helps it because triggers are my greys and damaged hair.) but fixed that problem up by having a shower and washing my hair and tying it up, and i’m not really stressed just a bit wound up with some worries about house and life. and i find an irregular sleep pattern and too much time on my hands also contributes. loving my time off though, not to knock it.

then i imagined a really vivid short fic im gonna write in me2 about joker and sadie being sad because kaidan is a shithead lmao. it was very ‘only i can pick on you’ vibes from joker. like he finds her crying in secret and is horrified? like only he can be mean to her because she gives it back just as bad. and he’s like ‘do you want to take selfies together and post them on the extranet and pretend we’re wildly happy together to piss alenko off?’ and she’s like ‘nah thanks that probably won’t help but thanks man’ and he’s like ‘you look like shit, go have a sleep.’ and she’s like ‘fuck you too’ but really it sounds more like ‘thanks’.

joker and sade have a wildly mean relationship sometimes and he’s the only person who’s allowed to burn her like he does because she knows deep down they’re good friends and he cares. not to say both don’t lose their tempers sometimes and go too far. my long standing headcanon though is after me1 where they were previously friends, kaidan and joker really don’t like each other anymore. not hatred… not to wish each other ill or anything. just too much water under the bridge and resentment. kaidan blames him for getting sadie killed and never quite lets that go, joker always bristled slightly over kaidan’s personality not being to his liking and opposite of him. then he started being really angry after kaidan essentially blamed him for killing sadie when joker was already torn to pieces over it and deep down knew he did the wrong thing and it is partially his fault but he won’t admit that. and then joker is mad at him for sadie’s hurt feelings on horizon and he also slightly thinks what they did in me1 was wrong, having a relationship, being selfish. it led to situations they got into around sade’s death.

he thinks kaidan is a bit unprofessional in the worst way, not the way joker has fun with being unprofessional. he thinks he’s irresponsible to commit to sade, blow her off, and then want to get back with her. he doesn’t like to see her sad, like ever, because it’s unnatural to him when she isn’t trying to… well when she isn’t vibrant, and joking with him or having fun.

joker is being a hypocrite not holding sadie to the same standard because she was just as capable in breaking regs if not more so, and kaidan did go through a lot of suffering and is entitled to his feelings… but he just judges him harsher because he gets along better with shepard and they (kaidan and joker) just clash post me1. joker has never wanted to date sadie and she never wanted to date him but if they were both like 3 years younger maybe they would have hooked up and regretted it. luckily they’re both a bit smarter to not go there.

[afanesyevo]

I cant think of a headline but this is about Catra’s redemption

Catra's stakes were always based on personal relationships or experiences. She wasnt pure evil, she was reckless and immature when she was young and selfish too, the action she took throughout the series was based on her personal stakes, her arc was about overcoming years of learned behaviour, learning to trust and love again. She’s important because everyone can make bad decisions, everyone can fall deep into them to a point of no recovery (s3 and s4) but the thing is, there is. There’s a chance. 

Catra tried to use her ways this season, it wouldnt work on Prime and I dont think she wanted them to work. Thıs was different than before. She had no personal attachement to Prime her failed manipulation was only to stay alive a little longer but in the end (in her heart) she chose to get tortured maybe killed for Adora. Her decision may not be for the greater good or for sending Glimmer home so she can save everyone. She is not doing this for Glimmer, not for world. The world she calls home wasn’t even home without Adora. So she chooses Adora over herself. A truly selfless act, she had no gain, no hope for survival, nothing. There was only a relief in her heart that Adora would live, peacefully without Catra in her life because what had she done more than hurting Adora. But its not exactly how family works. Catra had done terrible things, things no sane person would ever do but those things are never how Adora’ll remember her. When she looked at Catra before she had to fight her, she had to classify her as the enemy because like Catra; Adora has personal stakes too. If she cant be what the world needs, then what good she is? Its not bad to some point and even heroic too but even Adora goes too far, not even thinking or caring about herself anymore. She doesnt believe she can be loved if she’s not what she’s supposed to be, without a destiny, without a mission. Because even Catra stopped loving her when she left their imagined destiny together(at least she thought that) The same Catra she shared her childchood with.

The same Catra who would sleep with her because even when she’s sleeping she’s upthight, stressed, on a mission. But with Catra she’s home, she’s with family. How could Catra not come with her? This is the thing she does not understand. But in her mind Catra has a good history, has good memories with her and in a silver lining she wants to hold on to them, then there comes Catra’s sacrifice.

Adora was always ready to make them stay together but after s3 and s4 she thought she lost all hope in Catra, there was non left. Which wasn’t the point. Adora only needed another moment of hope to try to reach for Catra. How can she forget after all those years together? Catra is her archenemy now but was she always? She knows what Catra had done, she knows why she cant be with her again, they both chose their sides. But you wouldn’t remember your family by their worst moments. She has to learn to let go of Catra, never willingly but for the destiny she has, for her friends.

 Catra went downhill in s4. She was the leader, she won, She-ra was gone. She made that but she also destroyed herself in the process. No more reckless, goofy, irresponsible little girl who’d mock her best friend all day, no more laughs, no more smiles, no more tricks she can pull. All of this, everything she had done came to hit her, she was ready to die then too. May be she even wanted to but no, she never wanted it to end like this. Everything she had done was to survive in Frightzone be the best in there so she wouldnt be in danger anymore. She had to be strong, fearless, undefeated. She had to show them that she could survive on her own but she did the opposite of that. She chose to sacrifice herself for Adora. Dying for Adora. This wasnt her redemption not yet,  but it was her most vulnarable moment and people cant act who they are when they are going to their end. That was the first time in a while we had seen Catra speaking from heart. No manipulation, no gain, not some ulterior motive. Just Catra, finally realized, finally knew.

“Adora... Im sorry, for everything!”

And there she was, not a villian who went mad with power but a girl who’s full of regret.

[demonic-ungaikyo-dragon]

The tundrigo (pt.1)

(My clan lore will play like this. My characters shall find urban legends and either befriend or battle them. They will vary between monsters, ghosts and demons. Also despite my main chars. Being eastern like, my lore will have national urban legends and creatures. Oh and no, the story does not take place in a modern setting. Its more of a traditional one. But there are going to be modern terms. Oh and dragons are feral, not anthro)

(Long post warning. If anyone knows to make a read more post on mobile i would highly appreciate it.)

Today was like any normal day for rodune. He woke up, kissed cloud good morning, ate breakfast and went off to work. As he walked, he admires the sight, as he always does. Bamboo sway in the fresh wind. The sun was starting to rise now. Rodune likes to wake up at around 5-6 am. But today he woke up at around 3 am.

He also took some time to look at his clothing. Cloud recently bought him a nice kimono for him. It was a bright blue, with the desing of some white gooses in a pond. It was very pretty. "Will need to give cloud a twice as beautiful gift. I owe her."

He stopped walking, as he felt his wings already ruining his kimono. 'I need to go to the local tailor. One day my wings will make a hole.' Rodune thought as he finally fixed his problem. He then rushed before he had to fix it again.

As he finally arrived at his destination, he took a break and sat down at a nearby stone bench. "You look tired. Your early so why you came running like that?" He heard a voice. He looked down and saw lorimer, the store's greeter. He too, was wearing a kimono, but was much longer than rodunes, practically having to drag it in the ground. It was pink, with a cherry blossom petals desing. His golden wing drapes complimenting his colors. "Gravel has not even opened yet. Your not waking up earlier than you have too, are you?" The tundra continued somewhat worried. Rodune simply chuckled. "I much perfer to be exhausted and be early, than be irresponsible and late." He said as he looked at the other tundra besides lorimer.

It was gravel hide. Instead of a kimono, he wore tattered cloth and a tengu mask. His skeletal genes making look like a ghost. As gravel saw me looking at him, he quickly looked away. "Hi..." he said notably shy. He has a tendency to be like this, even with the other workers. I was about to greet him back, but a voice screamed at us. The 3 of us look surprised at the source of the voice.

A rather bloodied, fluffy tundra was coming running towards us. Whe knew who it was. "Wait!" He screamed again. Once he reached he started wagging his tail excitedly. "I arrived early today." He said between pants. Marco is a very odd dragon. He may seem like a serial killer, with his tattered clothing and demonic mask, but he is just a puppy. He uses his looks to intimidate, but he is a good fighter too if needed. "Oh and tanwen is coming too! He has yet to catch up to me-" marco is cut off by the sound of wings flaping in the air. A very large blue tundra landed with force next to marco.

Said tundra wore a hood made of blue leaves and white cloth, which his gloves are the same. A half-mask covered one of his eyes, while his other was free. His wings were butterfly like, and wore a white kilt to cover his private area. "Goodness marco, run slower for the next time please?" Did i forget to mention that he is very old? He may look young, but his raspy voice and wrinkles under his eyes, well, eye tells a whole different story. Marco, responds with a smug smirk, his mask preventing to see his full smug glory.

"Umm, why are you all here early?" Gravel says as he opens the lock of the door to the store. "I mean, not that im mad! Its just unusual...". Lorimer looks at his brother confused, "you did not know? Kaja and abernathy have something to tell us." Gravel looks at lorimer surprised. "Oh i did not know! I need to clean the shop!" Gravel replied with hurry in his voice. "Ill help!" Marco said excitedly as he trutted inside to help. "I will assist as well." Rodune said following the two tundras.

* moments later *

"You know, next time leave the cleaning to me..." rodune said as he finished cleaning the rest of the mess lorimer caused by accident. Everyone looked at him as he scratched the back of hos head in embarrasment.

"Sorry for asking again? But why did kaja want to meet woth us?" Gravel asked as he put some potions on display in a shelf. Lorimer shrugged. "I really dont know. Maybe he wants to take marco for himself again. But he did suggest its about another dragon."

"Gossip? Thats weird, even for kaja." Tanwen commented. "I mean, why does he need to meet woth all of us then?" Just then, the door to the shop opened wiith the sound of wind chimes (which are used to know when someone leaves or enters the shop.) They thought kaja and abernathy arrived, but they saw instead a panicking imperial. It was flora. She wore a similiar

She was gasping, lorimer quickly running to her to check if she is alright. "Im fine dear." She said between pants. "Whats wrong then, you look like you've seen a ghost." Marco asked clearly worried.

The young imperial looked to the ground, now breathing normally. "Remember that kaja and abernathy were going to met with us? I found them on my way here." Everyone nodded to let her continue. "We decided to go together, kaja offering to tell me some of the info he was going to tell us. It was about ursus." At this, tanwe perked his ears up from the holes of his hood. "Kaja said thet yesterday at 8 pm. He saw ursus attacking someone."

"Ursus attack someone? Thats imposible. He looks creepy yeah, but he would not hurt a fly."

Gravel commented in disbelief. Flora nodded. "I thought that too, but something that we saw is why im scared. While we were talking, abernathy saw ursus in the distance. And then... oh windsinger... we saw ursus eating another tundra..." flora began to cry as she remembers the scene. Everyone looked and gasped in horror. "After we saw that, ursus looked at us, and we saw that he was emitting a cloud, cold like mist from his mouth. He than rushed at us screaming thing like "food!" We ran, and i decided to come here to tell you that-"

"Kaja and abernathy are in trouble!"

Everyone screamed in unison and quickly ran outside the store. They all took flight in search of the brothers.

This is one weird morning, rodune thought.

(Cliffhanger😋 also thank you for reading!)

[shippeh]

i stg hbt is one of my favorite hot takes on abo. like the ways laws work in most abo’s are always so loose or like rapey if they’re even there at all & i’ve just gotta give you props for writing drama w/o fetishizing rape culture (if that makes sense?). ANYWAYS i have Questions! accidental bonding=accidental pregnancy levels of social stigma i.e. dumb&irresponsible? how DO kiri’s parents react? actually how do their friends react, while we’re at it. why did kiri think his hero career was over?!

HEY SO IF U HAVENT FINISHED HEARTBEAT THUNDER STO P READING THIS

actually stop everythign ur doing and go read my fic bye

anyway hhhnnnn you are so kind to me i die. this is way long so here’s a read more

accidental pregnancy is like nothin compared 2 accidental bonding,,, when you got so many people just have super fertile sex all the time in so many different ways sometimes pregnancy just happens and like u just go abort it if you dont want to have it, its not a big deal really, people gonna give you a lecture like “you have been taught about birth control since u were ten WHAT are you out here doin”

sex ed is like a huge thing in hbt really so pregnancy isnt like, the MOST common thing in the world but it happens and barring irritated parents its not a particularly big deal cuz like. well for one you can just terminate the pregnancy and ur fine, but for two adoption is so huge and there’s so many willing parents out there that you can go that route too

i was gonna write a scene with kiri’s parents but then decided it didnt really add anything to the plot but im pretty sure one of his moms says something like “why couldn’t u have just gotten him pregnant instead’ so. 

like straight up it’d be less weird for them to come back and say they’d eloped and are married

accidental bonding is. like. kind of pretty taboo and not something that happens often. its mostly just drama for soap operas for teens and their grandmas to watch together and gasp behind their hands “i would NEVER”

muzzles are (meant to be) pretty fool proof, bakugou’s just.... too much pride and self confidence and lack of fear while at the same time being skilled enough at maintaining himself during heats that he even is ABLE to undo the latches

. its really rare for couples to do do rut/heat shares without like, explicitly talking about it first because it’s not like anybody is surprised by heats except for weird circumstances so it’s almost never ever that there aren’t muzzles or other barriers in the way (i mean its quirk society so who knows, if ur alpha has six mouths then there are blocking collars so) and also it’s not always that an alpha feels compelled to bite like that in rut anyway

all that to say that kiri’s parents are Not Happy At All especially his mama because she’s been sitting here the whole time just kind of waiting for them to break up. mom cycles between ‘oh its so ROMANTIC’ and ‘how did i raise my son so wrong’.

it’s rougher than w bakugou’s parents for sure. the bakugou’s are actually weirdly chill about the whole thing and that’s because they know their kid and they know that with anything he does he’s All In so they’ve long accepted kirishima as part of the family forever. mitsuki panics because she thinks kirishimas gonna be mad enough to do something stupid and leave bakugou (which. he can, technically, but it’s p much a form of psychological suffering for both of them after that.)

bakugou’s parents didn’t do their bondmark until katsuki was like, already ten, and a LOT of couples never even do it at all, so, it’s not taken lightly 

they also do NOT tell them that bakugou took the muzzle off himself and let them think that kirishima managed to tear it apart with his quirk. that’s an executive decision made before talking to them about it

kiri worried that his hero career was gonna be over because like. the publicity of trying to be a new aspiring hero while having a bondmark at 18 is not easy. there are a lot of agencys who would fire a hero or demote them to sidekick for that kind of thing. 

BUT izuku obviously isn’t gonna do that. gang orca doesn’t give a shit either as long as bakugou gets work done and also bakugou’s suit hides it, so

as for their friends uhhhhh first reactions are not always Great but everybody loves them and know they’re good together so they get over it and it’s just another fact;

kaminari literally refuses to believe it’s not a joke until he sees the mark and even then he’s like ‘wow haha really good makeup effects’ in a wobbly voice

uraraka says loud and fake “IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU” while covering her mouth because she’s horrified

mina’s always wild and is like “DAMN boys hahahhaha bet i can get one that’s bigger” and then bakugo tries 2 explode her

tetsutetsu just like Quiet and Wide eyed like “yooooooooooo,,,, bro,,,,, wtf bro,,,,,,’

and everybody else is just like variations on similar themes. 

except izuku who legit just collapses onto the floor and talks to himself for a good five minutes while kirishima watches patiently, then he stands up and is like ‘alright. congrats ei i hope you two are very happy and i mean that for real’ and he’s hte nicest one about it

[hippityhoppityyourenowmyproperty]

Reset! Rant (part 3)

Chapter: 16

That familiar feeling of rage returned to him. His fist and teeth clenched and he had the urge to hit something, preferable someone. Bart was the first thing that came to his mind, but he had better control of his Impulses than his brother did. He couldn't let Thawne win.

This is another big hypocrisy moment. He is not better at controlling his impulses than Bart is. Whenever he gets angry, he starts insulting and picking on Bart. He hurt Bart before because he couldn't take Kon making fun of him, and while doing so, he made the mission more dangerous and more prone to failure. He let's his anger out on Bart every time, and he had multiple agressive outburst. He's not as in control as the story leads on.

Bart hopped to his feet and rocked on his heels. "I screw up all the time. Everyone says so. That's why I'm not supposed to do the hero thing without an adult. That's why I wasn't invited to join the Teen Titans."

"Are you kidding me?" Thad's tone was sharp and angry. "What business does anyone have in telling you you how to help people? What business do you have in even listening to them? I don't see you calling yourself Kid Flash and running at Wally's side like and obedient puppy. You're not a side kick."

...................................."In any case, we're more than capable of operating on our own. We don't need some nosy busybodies lording over us and expecting obedience just because of the legacy we inherited."

At the first glance, this looks like Thad trying to emotionally support Bart and make him feel better. At the second look, not so much. Let's untangle what exactly is happening in this conversation. Bart is explaining why he is still supposed to have adult supervision, namely because people think that he can't handle missions on his own and that he'll mess up. Then Thad argues that he's not a side kick and therefore no one should tell him how to do the hero thing. Which...doesn't really makes sense. It was said that the reason why people are convinced that Bart can't be a hero without some guidance is not because he's part of a legacy, it's because they think that because of his impulsiveness and trouble at focusing he will screw them up. They're not expecting obedience because Bart is part of a legacy, they're expecting a willingness of Bart to work with a mentor because he's not experienced enough and will mess up at being a hero, otherwise.

Thad is self-projecting here. If he didn't misunderstand the situation for being about legacy, he wouldn't have tried to make Bart feel better. I'm certain he's just saying this because he's angry about the legacy he is conected to. The only reason Thad rants about Wally is because it reminds him of his situation with his legscy, and not becaus he's mad at Wally for being mean to Bart. Again, Thad is doing this for himself.

Remember when I told you to keep in mind what Thad said about Bart somewhere in Chapter 11? "Bart lacks the capacity of forethought that is requiered in an operation like this"? Also remember how Thad is always insulting Bart's intelligence, criticizes him and says that he won't survive without him? So what about the "In any case, we're more than capable of operating on our own"? This is not Thad suddenly making a turn around and seeing the flaws of his thoughts he had earlier. Thad's always saying what fits his interests best. He changes his opinions on whatever suits him best at the moment. He's such an obvious hypocrit at this point. He's bending his opinions on whatever he needs them to be. This is one of the most in your face instance of Thad gaslighting Bart. Through denial, controdiction and lies relating to his actions and words, he's planting seeds of doubt in Bart. Thad is making Bart question his own perception of memory, perception of reality and his sanity, whether Thad is intentionally gaslighting Bart or not doesn't matter. It's still damaging.

Chapter: 17

Thad thumped his fist against the garage door. "At least I had Craydl before. Now, I'm stuck with you." He glared at Bart again.

Gosh what a horrible fate, Thad. I feel so sorry for you. No really, I can't fathom what an awful nightmare this must be for you! He can never be satisfied, can he? He can count himself lucky that Bart is tolerating his toxic behavior. He is stuck with Thad. Bart is the one who has to put up with his constant belittling and verbal abuse. No one forced Thad to stay at Bart's home, Thad just decided that it now be that way. If it bothers him so much he could've asked to stay with the Garricks. Which would've also made more sense for everyone involved because Jay has superspeed and can look after Thad in case he would try to kill anyone else again.

Also note how Thad is threatening Bart through his gestures.

"Besides, mom said I'm the big brother and that's what big brothers are supposed to do." Rolling his eyes, Thad snorted, "Thanks for the touching moment, but it's not making my situation any better."

This is a form of withholding. It's also condescending demeanor.

Thad clenched his jaw and fists and said nothing in return. He stalked back into the house, punching the doorframe as he passed by.

He threatens Bart yet again.

I'm pressing buttons", Thad snapped. "What does that accomplish? This-" He pointed at the television, "is frivolous. It does nothing!" Bart tilted his head, looking at his brother then the controller. Then, without a word, he punched Thad. Startled, Thad stared at him, and then noticed the surprised expressions on Jay's and Helen's faces. Bart stood up. "Well, aren't ya gonna hit me?" Thad eyed Bart warily and stood. "What is this? Is this a trick?"

"No I'm serious. Hit me." When Thad hesitated, Bart insisted, "Fighting game im real life. Right here." Helen sucked in a breath as she realized what Bart was up to. "Not in the house." Bart nodded and grabbed Thad's arm. "C'mom! I know a place that's still in Manchester." When they ran off, Jay tipped his head to Helen. "I'll keep an eye om them." Once the boys were sure that nobody other than Jay was watching, Bart faced Thad with a combative stance.

Thad struck with a punch and Bart blocked with his forearms. Jay stood aside and watched, ready to intervene in case the fight got out of hand. Every now and then, a particularly solid strike by either boy, he tensed up and stepped forward, but they would continue on as if there was nothing to worry about. As Jay watched, he saw Thad smile for the first time. It was a wicked, predatory grin, full of bloodthirsty pleasure. Bart wasn't smiling. Instead, it was taking everything he had to hold himself against Thad. Sparks of static and stray speed force lightning trailed after them. Then Thad slipped past Bart's defenses and slammed down with an elbow and up with a knee. The next thing Bart knew he was looking up at Jay's concerned face. The elder speedster held out an arm to halt Thad. Thad's yellow eyes gleamed and he was still smilling, spoiling for more. Jay held out his other hand to help Bart to his feet. "You all right, son?"

This whole scene is so wrong, in so many ways, for so many reasons. Yes, you read this right. Bart suggested that Thad beat him up in order to let Thad get rid of his anger. Jay and Helen hear this offer, and say fucking nothing about it. Once again, they're irresponsible and neglectful. Helen shows absolute zero concern for Bart's well being. For crying out loud, the first thing she says after she realizes what Bart's suggesting is: "Not in the house." I repeat, the first thing that comes to her mind after she hears that Bart offers getting beat up by Thad is: "Oh no! My poor house! Everything will be so messed up!" I mean, damn. You have to be a really neglient, bad parent when you're more concerned with the state of your house than with the physical and mental health of your child. Helen and Jay should have been disgusted and put off by this offer. Helen should have said something along the lines of: "If Thad has anger issues, then that is his problem to work through, not yours. It's not your responsibility to keep his emotions under control. You are not his personal punshing bag, and you shouldn't put his well being before your own. No one expects you to make sacrifices like that for him." But nope, she is more afraid of what will happen to her precious kitchen than of the fact that Thad might break every bone that Bart has in his body because he feels like it. They both know what Bart is suggesting, and they don't see anything wrong with it whatsoever. They should have been horrified by this suggestion.

And keep in mind: This all happens after Thad killed the clone and almost killed Max and Bart. Helen knew of both altercations. She knows how brutal and vicious he can get. She knows that Thad is quick to violence, so why isn't she more concerned? Wouldn't she be at least a little scared that Thad might kill Bart because he can't control his brutal urges again? The only resonable explanation I can find is that she doesn't care about Bart. That's why she let's this happen, that's why she allows Thad to emotionally abuse Bart and call him names right in front of her eyes. She never makes Thad apologize for what he does to Bart, not even once. I don't like accusing her of favoritism, but that is what it looks like. Seeing how dispicable Thad's actions and words are is not that hard. Helen should have noticed by now. Jay isn't much better in this. He watched until Thad hit Bart so hard that he fainted and collapsed. I know that I couldn't stand idly by while watching a kid beat up another kid until he lost his conciousness and still feel like a good person.

If you think that we've hit rock bottom yet with this scene, think again.. Jay's and Helen's complete lack of concern makes Bart's actions seem like this was a healthy, acceptable way of helping people deal with their anger. That this is something normal in a sibling relationship. Worse, that offering someone to hurt you so that they can relieve their anger is something that is expected of you. A relationship where one part is expected to take responsibility for the other's negative emotions is a twisted, damaging one. You get what this is saying? "Someone's anger justifies them hurting and beating you up." This is just as bad as "abuse justifies abuse" (Which is also being taught here.) God, those are terrible, atrocious morals to teach to people. What Helen should have done with Thad the moment he moved in with them was taking him to an anger management class and getting him a good therapist, not ignore/encourage Thad's abusive tendencies.

Jay sat down at the table. "He's not as mean as his brother though. That kid...For his own grandfather to make him like that..." Jay shook his head with a frown. "If I ever get a chance to meet that man..." He clenched his fist on the table. "I hope I never do."

"Same here", Helen replied.

Seems like Thad's not the only one who takes a liking to being hypocritical and two-faced. This makes total sense, talk about poor Thad and all the abuse he went trough, but completely ignore the fact that he is abusing and actively inflicting pain on Bart right now. They're furious about what Thawne did to Thad, but when Thad does the same things to Bart it's totally okay and fair. In case you couldn't tell, this is a shit moral. Stop trying to justify abuse by saying that the abuser has been trough a lot and just needs an outlet. Having been abused does not give Thad the right to ruin Bart's life. It does not give him the permission to be a toxic jerk to him. He should be held accountable for his actions. Abuse doesn't justify abuse.

Chapter: 18

"So, you don't know anything on how to properly maintain it." Thad snorted and rolled his eyes. "Wonderful. Do you know where engineering is? Take me there. I'll do what you neglected to do and actually learn about the mechanics of this ship." Bart opted to ignore Thad's nasty tone, brushing it aside as just how Thad talked.

....................................

"If I'll get lonely, I'll come visit." Thad snidely assured. Not wanting to listen to another degrogatory rant, Bart decided to just let Thad find the room on his own.

This is critizising and judging and a put down, delivered with a very very condescending tone and manner. Do me a favor and take a shot everytime you read the sentences "Thad snorted" or Thad rolled his eyes." You'll be drunk in no time, trust me. Bart has been exposed to Thad's emotional abuse so long that at this point he is willing to accept Thad's verbal abuse as normal.

Chapter: 19

Thad:"They probably got distracted by with something shiny."

Thanks again Thad, for enforcing hurtful insults and exaggerated stereotypes about people with ADHD.

Thad:"Moron! Can't you come up with something that simple?"

Again with the name calling and the put down linked to Bart's ADHD.

"He's a nuisance" grumbled Thad.

"Not that I've had much first hand experience, but that's what siblings generally are, from what I've heard."

"So wanting to strangle Bart is normal?" Cissi laughed. "Everyone's wanted to strangle Bart at one point or another. That's just him."

Oh now it all makes sense! It's Bart's own fault for being abused because he's so annoying! Remember folks, if you've been abused, it's your own fault. If you hadn't been so burdensome, they wouldn't have treated you this way. They can't be responsible for their actions, it has to be you! How can we expect them to control their impulses and get a handle on their anger? That really would be too much to ask of them. The victim is to blame for being abused, that's obviously the logical conclusion here, right? God I hate this fic so much.

This whole conversation serves one purpose: Normalizing and rationalizing Thad's repugnant behavior towards Bart. Look! This is how healthy sibling relationships work! This is how they're supposed to be! Except not really.

This conservation is actually very cleverly done, because it only shows Thad's oppinion while stimuntaneously making it seem like Cissi agrees with his values about relationships when she's really not. They're coming from two completely different points of views, but that is concealed here.

Starting with the "He's a nuisance."

"That's what siblings generally are."

I get her statement, there will be many times when one can get annoyed with their sibling and not find themselves in an abusive relationship. Every sibling pair fights and argues, that's in the nature of things. It only gets problematic when that's literally the only thing you do. When the only thing you are to each other is an annoyance and someone to get mad at. When every encounter with them ends in hurtful words and accusations. Indicating that your brother/sister is sometimes a nuisance in a playful, teasing way is fairly common in healthy sibling relationships. "Those 5 minutes before you were born? Haha, those were the best 5 minutes of my life." Something like this is normal. The problem here? Thad doesn't mean what he says in a sarcastic or playful way. He's completely serious with this. This is all he sees in Bart. An annoying idiot who always stands in his way. There's no sympathy and no compassion for Bart. Only unjustified resentment and hatred. See, in a positive brother or sister relationship the individuels really love each other. Despite the jokes they sometimes make about not wanting the other around, they see more in their sibling than an annoyance. Thad doesn't, and that's what Cissi misunderstands. Thad is dead serious about his feelings towards Bart in this conversation. All he sees in Bart is a nuisance he has to tolerate. He has nothing but contempt for him. He doesn't try to see more in him than that. Thad has no right to complain about Bart. He has been nothing but nice to him. Despite all the shit he put Bart through, despite Bart still tolerating and trying to support Thad in every way he could, Thad somehow still has the audacity, the arrogance to make himself out to be the victim in this situation. Thad is an abusive jerk to him, if anyone has the right to vent, it's Bart.

Moving on to the "So wanting to strangle him is normal?" argument. Feeling a desire to hurt your sibling 24/7 just for existing isn't normal. Cissi means what she say in a more playful, harmless way. None of Bart's friends would go through with harming Bart because he was annoying them. There's a big difference between wanting to do something, and actually doing something. Moreover, Cissi doesn't get that Thad would like to hurt Bart all the time and not only when he was being annoying. Thad wants to hurt Bart even when he is nice to him. Thad means it in a "If Bart looks im my direction one more time I might strangle him and I really don't care if I accidently suffocate him and he dies." Cissi doesn't. Thad is aggressive and violent to him for absolute no reason. The emotions Thad feels towards Bart aren't normal, not in the least. Stop trying to justify his abusive behavior.

And, I think this goes without saying, hurting someone solely because they're annoying you isn't okay, either.

[chimswae]

Chapter 13

Foreword:

Some stories are better left unsaid.I couldn’t change anything for the world, although the fame part of this industry is tough to handle.Do i have a life? Yes I have my fans.Do i have friends? Yes the members that I cherish. Do i have love? No I have to let go.Life always offers you a second chance. It’s called tomorrow. But do i have any tomorrow?

Pairing: Jimin x OC (Other characters: BTS, OCs, Lee Taehwan)

Genre: Idolau, Fluff, Romance

Word Count: 3,680

Author Note: I crosspost this story from my Asianfanfic account. Mind you, clicheness OVERLOADS

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Chapter 13:  Infinite gratitude, infinite hope

“Why didn’t you tell me about this girl existence and that you have a son with her Jimin?”

 “I…am..”

 “ANSWER ME PARK JIMIN!” his loud voice echoed throughout the hallway shaking the building. They had never seen Bang Pd this furious, and even worse he never yelled at them like how he did to Jimin at the moment.

 Others shrunk in their seat afraid to meet Bang Pd fiery eyes, this was not all about Jimin keeping the truth from him but the members were at fault too. They knew about it but chose to keep it to themselves. With that they were ready to face Bang Pd’s wrath at all cost.

 “I…don’t know what to do. I thought I can handle it as long as I don’t get caught” Jimin hung his head low too timid to face the older man angry face.

 “You think you can handle it but you don’t. So much to celebrate your Billboard winning, the press out there are finding the perfect moment to drag you all down. It is so happen you just won your first global award and they release your dating scandal to public” Bang Pd frowned in his seat, rubbing his temple.

Namjoon stepped in trying to ease the dreary atmosphere in the room, and as a leader he had to say something to protect his members, “Bang Pd, don’t blame Jimin. He just found about his long lost son few months ago. If I were in his shoes, i would do the same. His utmost priority is to protect the girl and her son from medias. He tried his best to keep it low” he squished Jimin’s shoulder.

 The members understood the pain that Jimin experienced, along with his insecurity and fear. All he ever wanted to protect his family. It turned out irresponsible human out there decided to invade his privacy and made fun of his life to gain money and fame.

 “And you all knew about this from start?” he slammed his desk while eyeing each of the members.

 “Y..ess.. Bang Pd.. we knew” Namjoon muttered.

 He yelled “I CANT BELIEVE YOU GUYS ARE BEHIND THIS TOO!This is a serious matter, do you think im a joke?” everyone flinched. No one dared to speak, it was not a good time to defend themselves it would make things went from bad to worst.

 Glaring at Jimin, Bang Pd hissed under his breath “To protect the girl and that kid, and hurting Bangtan in the end? Are you even sure he is your real son?She could be after your money, why did she appear after five years hiding? ” his question triggered the anger in him.

 He had so much respect for Bang Pd and he was well aware the older man was mad so everything that came out from his mouth should be ignored. However, Jimin was offended mainly because he hated people insulting his girl. And, it seemed like they were trying to find someone to take the fall by cornering Yeoul.

 “Dont disrespect her, she is the mother of my son. And I trust her with all my heart, if you were to find someone to blame, I am here. I am ready to take the full responsibility “ he clenched his fist holding back his anger.

 “And what is exactly your plan?” he let out a sarcastic laugh and kept his poker face which sent chill down their spine.

 Jimin raked fingers in his hair, exhaling heavy sigh “I will tell them the truth, that is the only way to stop the medias from spreading malicious rumor”

“You do know this will affect your career right, you might lose your fans. Most importantly, things might just get ugly” Bang PD shook his head.

 “I know, that is the risk that I am willing to take. I cant afford watching my family living in fear, they invaded her homes, hurting my child and Yeoul. I will protect them no matter what because..I am the father of this child, that is my responsibility ” he croaked, fiddling with his fingers.

 The room was dead silent as no one dared to speak, Bang PD whom seemed in deep thought finally broke the silence “We will do damage control without jeopardizing Bangtan and your family” his lips were pressed into thin line.

 He continued “I have nothing against any of you being in a relationship, because that is the freedom that the company gives you. I know you dated this girl during your trainee days Jimin, but this isn’t simple since it involves a secret child. Let me meet this girl first, I will get our staffs to fetch her” the boys included Jimin turned their eyes to Bang PD with a glint of surprise.

 “Are…you sure?” Jimin blinked confusedly, so Bang PD nodded while giving him a light pat on his shoulder. That was surprising since few minutes ago the older man was not convinced whether the child is his or not, and now he wanted to meet Yeoul for some kind of confrontation. The members nodded with a small smile encouraging Jimin to take the offer.

 “Can I ask you a favor?I… can you make me go and get her instead of sending the staffs? I mean..I have to check on Minyeol too..” he mumbled timidly.

 He seemed reluctant to let Jimin out in public considering there were many eyes on him from now on “We will see about that and for now get enough rest. It has been a long week for you guys, we will be having a press conference in conjunction with your winning. So be prepared mentally and physically” he assured.

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 Peeking through the window, Taehwan scowled lowly “Why cant those people leave” it was indeed annoying to watch press from different companies camped outside Yeoul’s resident. It had been like that ever since the news spread. Not to mention Yeoul and her family had been staying inside the house for three freaking days. Only Taehwan would go in and out from the resident to buy food and most of the time he would stay indoor with them.

 Bighit had not released any official statement pertaining to this matter since they focused on Bangtan’s Billboard press conference. Jimin anxiety might reach his limits by anytime soon, bad sign indeed. Meeting Yeoul and Minyeol, that’s all he asked from Bang Pd and for some reason he was delaying it. How unfortunate.

 It was unmanly for his side to let Yeoul handled the situation alone. He supposed to be there for Yeoul.He couldn’t even get a wink of sleep without worrying about those two and his members, the news really hit him hard. Any communications between him and outside world had been cut off temporarily, just in case irresponsible fans or medias who obtained his phone number illegally tried to reach him.

 A loud buzz from the living room cause Yeoul to jump from her seat, she answered the call in hurry “Jimin?” every single calls that she received these past few days, she really hoped one of it would be Jimin. Leaving her with no news at all after a call from Namjoon few days ago was driving her up the wall. Taehwan tore his gaze to Yeoul as his heart clench in pain, how he wished he could be Jimin.

 “Hey, love.. Are you alright? I am so sorry that I just got to call you now?” upon hearing his voice at the end of the line, her dam broke. Was she supposed to cry? But she worried to death, it just happened this way.

 “Oh my god, Jims I thought something happen to you..” muffling her sob, Jimin could sense she was crying and he grew panic.

 “Yeoul..are you crying? Are you alright? How about Minyeol? The press.. they are still there? Please tell me you are okay…” he bit his lower lips. Jimin was considering to take an emergency flight to Busan right way now. He didn’t give a damn about anything right now.

 Her deep sigh echoed as she tried to calm her racing heart “We all alright, Minyeol is a little scared after the incident. But he is doing well. We are staying indoor, don’t worry. I wont get any near the press. They are doing crazy things outside, and it has been three days” Jimin palmed the wall beside him with a low scowl.

 “Jimin… how are you holding up? I apologize.. This is because of me.. I should be more careful.. I hope this does not affect you and Bangtan.. I feel really bad for tarnishing your image” she continued. Her voice was a mixture of guilt and pain, she hated the idea of jeopardizing Bangtan’s image. These boys worked so hard to reach this far only to be ruined overnight because of her.

 Jimin flinched in disapproval “ Never blame yourself. I am warning you Na Yeoul…” his stern voice silenced her.

 She heard him continue “We are okay, this is not the time to worry about others. You are in a tougher positions with no protections. Bang Pd requests to meet you personally, and I will head to Busan tomorrow after our press conference” her eyes widened in fear. Why would Bang Pd summon her to Seoul?

 “Why.. I mean.. will it be okay for you to be out in public? They are tons of medias and angry fans outside Jims.. this is really bad. You cant come!” her high pitch voice drove Taehwan attention to her as he tilted at her direction curiously.

 She turned pink knowing Taehwan curious eyes penetrated hers, Yeoul mouthed him ‘I am alright, sorry’ he then gave her a soft nod and continued with whatever he was doing. He demanded nothing from Yeoul, because she would eventually tell him everything.

 “What do you mean I am not allowed to meet you? I want to make sure both of you are okay! Besides, there is no turning back, sooner or later they will know about us. So I have nothing to lose, I will come and get you by my own” he frowned.

 One thing about Yeoul, she worried about others more than herself. Sometimes, way too much.

 “But.. Jimin… I am worried…The comments from the public are nasty and I do-” Jimin cut her before she could finish her remaining guilty speech. He knew what she was planning to say, Yeoul being Yeoul.

 “Na Yeoul. Quit being gullible. You cant give in this easily, they are pressuring us because people love to see us crumble apart. And I am not going to let anyone hurt you and Minyeol” his voice was low but enough to reach the deepest core in her heart.

 Only Jimin.. Only Park Jimin.

 “Dont read comments from the internet. Those people are a real coward, hiding behind the screen to torment us. Never let their words get you alright? Wait till I come, do not do anything foolish. I will make things right for us” she touched her beating heart with a small smile. At time like this, he still had this magic which could swoon her over the moon.

 “You too.. Please don’t get hurt. Don’t worry about me and Minyeol. Taehwan is here to watch after us for the time being. Let me know if you reach here tomorrow” she mumbled softly.

 Jimin finally broke into a genuine smile “Is he playing a bodyguard now? Glad he is there to watch after you two. I’ll let you know, got to go now. Seokjin hyung will be furious if he finds out I am using his phone. Love you, baby” he whispered hoarsely.

 I hate you Park Jimin for having this spell on me, she groaned in her head.

 Listening to Yeoul sweet chuckle put his heart at ease at least, “Love you too, Jims..” she puffed her cheeks, trying not to blush but she failed. A phone call with Jimin even for awhile was enough to get her mind back right on track unlike before.

 Taehwan chewed his lips to surpass any sound coming out from his mouth ‘Stop being jealous Taehwan…she loves him’ he clutched his fist, clearing his throat awkwardly.

 Taking a deep breath, he finally found courage to inquire Yeoul “Was it Jimin? What did he say?” he avoided any eye contact with Yeoul at all cost this time. Or she could see his burning eyes and heart. Jealousy slowly took over his mind and emotions.

 Sunk beside Taehwan with a relief sigh “He said he’s doing okay. And, Bang Pd wants to see me so Jimin is coming to get me to Seoul as soon as possible” her fingers fidgeted the hem of her dress.

 Raising his brows in confusion “Who is Bang Pd? Is it safe to go out in public? Both of you being seen together?” he disliked the idea of course, whose brilliant idea was this after all.

 “He is their boss. I don’t know what he is planning to do just yet. This thing with the medias outside it cant be undone. If we lie, they still throw shade at us. I am following the flow as long as it does not hurt Jimin, Minyeol and Bangtan” she glanced at Taehwan hard face. He seemed to be holding his anger or jealousy, something along the line.

 She reached out to his hand, holding it tight “I know this is insane Tae. You are important in my life, I need your support. I hope you are with me and respect my choice” he pondered about it whenever he had free time. As much as he wanted to deny it, this bound to happen. The truth prevailed in the end.

 “Yeoul..” instead of squishing her hand, he enveloped her into a warm hug “ I am with you until the end, no matter what you do..Just remember that” he whispered.

 Touche by his patience and kindness, she unknowingly cried in his shoulder “Thank you Tae.. for being here with me now and then..I am sorry that I only know how to break your heart instead of mending it” he squished Yeoul close.

 “Foolish girl. Your happiness is my happiness. Do not feel bad for me, that makes me feel ugly” he joked. He knew the joke was very unfunny but Yeoul laughed softly at his silliness anyways. Taehwan randomness was one of his charms, so no complains.

 Cupping her cheeks, he stroked his tears away “You are strong. You can face this, trust me” with that he planted a soft smooch on her forehead.

 Faith and hope are not a mere word. When there is hope, there is faith. When there is faith, miracles happen.

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 BTS’s Billboard Press Conference

 “Remember to calmly answer questions from the floor. Any questions being forwarded to you guys will be filtered by the MCs so don’t worry”

 “And don’t answer questions that is not related to you experience in Billboard Award. Do you understand?” their manager reminded them before walking out to meet the press. They were ready with any possibilities today following the Jimin incident, so things might just get out of hand at some point.

 The boys nodded while having getting final touch up of their makeups. Jimin decided to take part in this press conference even though he was given choice to not attend the event. He had no reason to hide and shouldn’t he be professional? This press conference was supposed to highlight their success, so be it. The scandal had nothing to do with this.

 Others were worried of him but they admired his persistence to join this conference despite all the shits being thrown to him right now. Jimin mental condition was made of hard rock. Frankly speaking, this was not the first scandal that they faced back then they were others major scandals that’s as worse as this one. They got through it though it took time. Bangtan managed to face it and still survived the tornado. Their strong brotherhood bonds is the utmost strength and of course overwhelming loves from Armys.

 “We can do this” Namjoon smiled as all of them gathered in circle and did their usual group chant before walking up the stage. Flashes of camera and faint mumble from the audiences died down as soon Bangtan made their way to the stage with style. They politely greeted audience before them and took their respective seat.

 As the MC did his part to introduce the group and the main agenda of today’s press conference, they proceeded with Q&A sessions. The first 20 minutes went smoothly as the members took turn to answer questions and shared their thoughts and experiences during BBMAs award. There was no sign of medias trying to bring up the scandal occurred in that particular week.

 Jimin finally got to breathe normally, he could feel his stomach churned in fear. He was very wary with his surrounding, since he expected at least one question relating to the scandal.

 “Yes, the one at the back” the MCs announced.

 The man arose from his seat and started to ask question “Hi, I am Jaye Kim from The News Daily. My question is open to any members of BTS. My question, BTS comeback in the second half of 2017 will there be a slight change in the group after the major scandal?” the audience murmurs as Jimin face hardened at the question from the man earlier.

 He knew, everyone knew what he meant by major change.

 Namjoon immediately answered him with a polite smile nevertheless “I believe Bangtan will continue just as we are. Our major change.. I can say that our music concept will be different this time. I hope it will be stronger than ever” he chuckled to ease the awkwardness. Jimin glanced at Namjoon giving him a thankful look and he nodded with a genuine smile.

 As the MC thanked the reporter from The News Daily, he then opened the floor for next question.

 A woman in her thirties stood up, taking the microphones “I am Shin Nayoung from MSC News, I would like to address an important question to Park Jimin-ssi relating to the scandal broke earlier this week. Is it true the woman in the footage is your secret lover?” her confident smile was pure evil. Indeed, Shin Nayoung was that kind of reporter who dug up celebrity’s dirt as their article bait and make money from it.

 The tense in the air could be felt by everyone, up until now no one dared to address the issue until this Shin Nayoung woman brought it up. It triggered others’ curiosity as they almost forgotten about the scandal happened this week. Still fresh in mind so everyone was boiling up to get a definite answers.

 Jungkook who sat beside Jimin noticed the change in his expression, he reached out his hand under the table holding onto his hyung hand “We are with you, don’t worry” he whispered lowly. Jimin shot him a small smile as he tried to not make any eye contact with the audience down there, it was suffocating.

 The MC took counter measure before things got heated “I apologize Miss Shin, I believe this conference is strictly for BBMAs related questions. No other issues shall be arose except BTS winning in Las Vegas last week. Please respect their privacy” he smiled.

 This Shin woman did not give up just yet “Oh? When is the company planning to respond to this scandal. I am sure the whole nation is dying to know the truth, don’t you think so Park Jimin-ssi” she darted her gaze to Jimin.

 Yoongi snapped as he tried not to wear off his cool expression “Excuse me Miss, I think the MC made it clear that we don’t take personal question at the moment” he defended Jimin.

 No one messed with Bangtan Sonyeodan, you have to face me. Yoongi cussed in his head.

 “Yoongi-ssi, I believe Jimin-ssi has a mouth to talk” Yoongi let out a low snicker but Jin held him back, signaling him to keep calm.

 Jimin shifted uncomfortably in his seat and bowed politely “ I am sorry, I cant say much. Further information will be released when the time comes. I hope you understand” he met her slightly arrogant gaze who’s burning to get answers from him.

 “You are just avoiding us Park Jimin-ssi. Don’t you agree, we deserves at least a closure?” she smug.

 Thankfully, before things got out of hand their manager stepped in replacing the MC place to sort the problems.

 “Thank you for coming out today. And we are overwhelmed with the support that we get from all of you lads and gents. An official statement pertaining to the incident occurred earlier this week will be announced soon, until then please respect BTS’s privacy. Thank you again” he signaled the members to stand up.

 Bangtan shot up from their seat giving another polite bow and let the press to take few group photos before leaving the stage. Jimin heaved a relief sigh, and he didn’t know a simple press conference exhaust him this much. Not to mention, their manager stepped in just the right time before the bubbled burst due to that Shin Nayoung’s foul mouth.

 Everything was okay not until she stepped in. A wicked witch.

 Namjoon being a concern leader he was, he made his way to Jimin hugging the younger boy “ You did well back then, holding back your anger. I know you are ticked off and nervous” he patted his back as encouragement.

 “Thank you hyung. Thanks for standing up for me” he sighed gladly returned the hug.

 Pulling away, he smiled softly “We are brothers.. Don’t thank me” others surrounded Jimin giving their unusual so called encouragement speech which he gladly listened to.

 Whenever he sought comfort, his members will always be there for him. He never regretted even once. Being in BTS meant the world to him, he cherished their friendship with all his heart.

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[lovestill-exists]

money

currency. that thing we chasing. i literally told a kid today that i needed to get a covid test so that i could eat tomorrow.

really, thats just an exaggeration though. To be honest, BrUTALLY so-- i am awful with the stuff.

I lost my wallet while running down the beach bed, flirting with the waves up to my ankles. the bitch stole it. ive been feeling that itch of something taking it the entire day. but what did i do? I pushed that sense out of the way, finding it really annoying. but it wasn’t wrong, was it? it never is

i felt like an idiot. especially when i was whispering wishes to the ocean, asking her about something completely different.. i trusted it was listening, answering my questions in its own, vague way the universe typically does.

instead, it swept up my wallet and gave me false hopes. im livid. genuinely mad

also, the job i took the covid test for isnt responding back to me. probably cos theyre on location and i was meant to look for a breakfast place for 40 people, but i didnt.. cos i told them i needed the address. “please send me the address to your location for tomorrow and i can get right on that” but nope. my hiring location scout told me a sad story instead over the phone, where she had awful reception and i couldn't hear half the words she said.. tried to tell her i couldnt hear her very well, that if she could quickly text me the information id need, then i can start doing my job.. but i doubt she heard me.

i called her again after getting back to my apartment to ask for that information

three hours later, she calls back but doesnt leave a voicemail

i call her back half an hour later and she answers, then hangs up.no call back.

and at this point, im not even mad if i dont work tomorrow. free covid test. ill get my results and have these days off again. I can make my doctor’s appointment.

will i be able to pay for the damn appointment. yes.

will it hurt to do it? only my ego..

I only have the foresight to be able to save a shitton of money if i need it.. call it a cautionary evil, quite necessary but.. its not as big of a basin as id like it to be. sometimes i wonder if im good at anything else.. make money on the side doing.. something else besides being a badass on set

cos set life isnt how it used to be. safe, that is.

I’m not above taking pictures of my feet, for instance.

but maybe.. i should look a lil deeper. I’m also not above working a 9-5 again

at least, until i find this thing im meant to be doing, besides rescuing dogs or something.. at least rescuing someone else, instead of someone rescuing me.

My boyfriend had enough foresight to lend me some money so i can get back home safely. i wasn’t even thinking about it. he mentioned how calm i seemed over losing my wallet, how no one could be blamed for going completely insane over it. but im used to it. how much worse does that sound?

Losing your wallet is losing your identity. your name. your address that isnt the one you reside at anymore but the one that felt closer to home in a long LONG time. your totem, the one your mother printed for you to assure that "abundance is always there for you". ha. my two debit cards.. probably my insurance card ive never used. a membership card for go karts in the bay area.. and 23 dollars.

what a loss. and at the same time.. i dont feel it as badly as i should.

like im lost. truly. like why dont i follow my inner instincts ushering me to just shut up and pay attention to it for once? i walked around, paid for things the entire day and everytime my wallet was in my hands, i had a sinking feeling of dread. that i need to keep it safe. and i felt stupid for feeling that way. so conflicted. money never meant so much to me. why was i worried.. was i overspending? was i depending on it too much? 

but now i just feel stupid i hadnt listened.. i do that all the damn time. i get a sense of something before it happens and i ignore it. im.. worst at listening to myself than my actual financial responsibilities.

i felt that stupidity every time i stopped at a gas station on the way back to my apartment from LA. The act of taking out cash and walking away from the pump inside to let the guy behind the counter authorize the transaction for me.. I only stopped twice.. the second place i stopped at, i convinced myself to stop simply cos i knew the place well and it would be the quickest stop id make on my trip. i kept second guessing my route back home solely as to whether id be making the right choice to go there.

it was at this gas station that a kid came up to me, mask no where on his face, but swearing he wasnt homeless.. just a lil scared. he needed gas to get home but his card was declined. asked me if i had any cash or if i could cash app him some money, just enough to get home.

I hesitated, thinking in the back of my mind if i was going to be alright to give him anything. i had no cards, no more cash than what i had to get home, and i still needed a covid test to get to, where i was unsure if id had to pay for it out of pocket. told him “Sorry, i dont have an iphone” and hes like “shit.. can i please ask you to pay for at least five dollars, you can stand by the pump-!”

“sorry, i lost my debit cards.. haha”

“oh shiiit.. hahaha..”

“yeah.. but i do have a bit of cash my dude. let me get it for you”

“Oh shit, really?? thank you so much!”

This kid, obviously young, a teenager, looked so relieved. cos the more i said something unhelpful, the more panicked he started to look. and i was gut punched by it. i was this kid, worried about his next paycheck, wondering why i was so bad at money, why i couldnt be responsible.

and im not trying to say that was his deal today, his card could have declined for any real reason. but i was that panicked once. its stupid to feel that way over something so.. fucking stupid. something that rules over everyone a little too much.. when we should really not be worried about our next meal, or when our next job will come. i handed him the cash, booked my covid test and booked it out of there. all so “i could eat tomorrow”

i use money to make things just a lil easier. i dont try too hard to be irresponsible. but definetly dont make myself too responsible either. its just habit otherwise, which could be the only thing keeping me afloat. but there is another lesson im missing too.. maybe still not money related. or if it is.. i clearly dont have the answer for it yet.

still learning that one