#shout out the fanartists drawing her

[hellofjanuary]

I really didn't know what to do for the background. Have the version I kinda settled on, the plain and the too much one.

[lowkeyrobin]

hello! can i please request hcs with quackity about being in a long distance relationship with him?

yes omg!! thanks for the request! ; I tried, I tried not that great

QUACKITY ; long distance relationship

summary ; you and quackity are online daters /j

warnings ; language

genre ; fluff

word count ; 686

y/s/n = your ship name

masterlist

you met at Twitch Rivals

you're both content creators which is obviously how you met

you guys bonded over shared interactions and the games you'd both lost

you got along so great that you exchanged information and decided you should stream together sometime

a couple weeks later you were invited to a jackbox stream with him, fundy, tommy, tubbo, bbh, and niki

shit went crazy

"Y/u/n, is there anything you'd like me to call you before we start? Like nickname or just y/u/n?" Niki asks

You graciously answer her, letting her know your name and proffered pronouns. Tommy makes a little, very lighthearted joke before pointing out someone in chat already making you and Niki and you and Alex ship names.

"Oh God, they've got us" You chuckle. "They're both mine, chat"

"AYO? SINCE WHEN?" Alex shouts

Niki giggles, covering her mouth.

"Since now" You shrug

you decided to try dating during the second north carolina meetup

you both had some fuzzy feelings about each other and mutually agreed on 'well hey, we like each other, why not try it out?'

being near the beach and with all your friends made it like a dream

but after two weeks, you had to go home

but you left your relationship untitled for now

Streaming together continued as per usual. So did long talks and phone calls, and hours spent playing video games (mostly Minecraft) together.

the next trip was to LA to visit Alex this time

you guys had your first kiss on his balcony overlooking the city

the way he giggled after omg

during that trip, you established your relationship and started to go on every day dates and stuff

but then you had to go home again

Honestly, both of you didn't really think about what to do with your relationship once you went home. You were taking it all in while you had it and weren't thinking about the very true reality of it all.

you thought talking was constant? it is now

sometimes both of you will just stay up late and rant about what you like about each other and corny shit

youre the one to softlaunch the relationship to fans

you probably guessed the password to his twitter/instagram and changed his bio to "y/u/n's bf 💯💯"

he didnt even know until people were flooding his dms and people on tik tok were talking about it

hed already said he was okay with telling people as long as you were tho

sends you pictures of flower bouquets once a week with some thought out, very loving paragraph or poem

he constantly complains about not being able to kiss or cuddle you

"y/n/n why are you so far away!?"

"i told you id be able to pay for you to live with me"

"UGHHHHHHHHH"

sends you good morning/goodnight texts and talks about what you'd be doing that day if you were together

cheesy little man

always spamming you w pics of Tiger

will religiously send you memes and blow up your phone if you're busy or ignoring him

yk the relationship is srs when even your qsmp characters are in love

the lore.

half of its heartbreaking angst and the other half is literally your bucket lists/daydreams of the future of your relationship

hes so down bad for you

will do anything to make you smile or make you flustered

will make the most suggestive jokes in front of friends, stay silent for a second or two and yell "im joking, im joking!"

orders you doordash/uber eats when you're doing subathons or generally long streams

will always join through vc/greenscreen when youre doing cooking streams

you'll do greenscreen dates (like the fiances stream) once a month and gossip over takeout LMAO

genuinely asks his fanartists to make ship art of you two because he loves seeing all the ideas and cute shit

they always draw you with one of his beanies or hats on, the occasional necklace

you reblog tumblr y/s/n fanart 24/7/365

karaoke streams are a must

you guys rank those "songs that all white people love" videos and rate the songs

dare or hot wing streams when youre literally anywhere but near each other>>

also playing just dance using vc and stream green screen>>>

[arendaes]

Fanwork Fridays

Back for another round of this, thank you @dujour13 for the reminder ❤️

Fanartist: @iwoszareba

Chimera has such a fun, irreverent style and focuses on characters who don't get anywhere near enough attention. I adore the way they draw Sosiel in particular.

Bonus shout out to this strip because I do love a good B99 reference.

Fanfic: A little adventurer meets the living night sky by @wonda-ch

Gen fic is another thing I think is criminally underrated in fanfic, and this piece by wonda is one of my favorites I've ever read. She connected her WOTR and Kingmaker characters is such a fun way, and this story about a very important moment in her Knight-Commander Tishlia's childhood has stayed with me since I first read it.

[waitimgoated]

shout out to picos school fanartists who draw cassandra really monstery and weird and give her alien features. the peanits alien.......

[riverrunscold]

Hackett's Quarry Summer Camp Tag (super late edition)

I was tagged by both @drylan and @wlwmages a month ago, sorry for the wait!

The original tag was created by @lowonmelatonin

Favourite counsellor and least favourite counsellor. Why?:

My favorite would have to be Dylan. I just love his awkward joking and backtracking when he realizes he maybe went a tad too far because it's just really fucking relatable. Also I want both his voice and gender.

My least favorite, even though I don't really dislike any of them, would probably be Jacob or Nick. Jacob because he's a kinda typical dude-bro early on and I just don't vibe with those characters often. Also he did get them all stuck there though he obviously didn't know there would be werewolves, still a dick move.

And Nick just because we don't get a lot of him and the bits we do get are mostly just angry werewolf.

Favourite chapter and least favourite chapter. Why?:

My favorite chapter would probably be 2 or 3 because the not only the gay kiss but also drama ensues. Plus I love just seeing all the counselors having fun and being the dorks they are.

Least favorite would probably be The Laura Chapter. I say this as a Laura lover, as well as a lauramax enjoyer, that chapter draaags. The first time through it's interesting and fun but the second you really start to feel the pacing slow and it stays that way for a while. And of course after that Laura takes over a majority of the game, which I don't hate, but I wish we could've had Ryan choose to go with Laura or not so maybe we could see more of Ryan and Dylan. Also Ryan and Kaitlyn because they barely had any scenes together. At this point I'm really hoping for The Quarry: Director's Cut.

Favourite ship (you can pick a maximum of 3)?:

Probably not at all a surprise but I love Dylan and Ryan (rylan or radioheads, whichever you prefer). The dynamic is delicious. Just two neurodivergent nerds, one more extroverted and one more introverted. It's a tale as old as time. Also they just find each other both so fascinating They are each other's blorbos. They both want to study each other in a lab. The best dynamic honestly.

Another one would be Blygbank because they have big cheerleader/nerd energy, which I love. Again one more introverted, another more extroverted. The sunshine (both of them) and the sunshine protector (both of them again). Their interactions in game are also really cute and wholesome and also of course I have to mention the first thing we see Abi do is draw Emma.

Honorable mention to Lauramax. Unhinged woman and babygirl malewife my beloved.

Biggest counsellor crush:

Dylan and Kaitlyn. Also Ryan and Laura. If you're making me pick though, I'd have to say Kaitlyn. Not only am I attracted to her badass energy, I've also had a crush on Brenda Song my whole life.

How would you survive The Quarry?:

Absolutely not. I am a fat queer person, the rules of the horror genre say I must die. But mostly because I'm bad at thinking on my feet at least 60% of the time so it'd really be a toss up on whether I'd survive at all. Maybe I'd just turn into a werewolf, who knows?

Favourite The Quarry fanfic writer and fanartist:

I of course have to tag @sh5 because his art is so soft and beautiful and he has only the most correct thoughts on these characters. Some more tags would have to go to @drylan and @queenofbaws, who are both so good at writing! Check them out!

Shoutout some friends you have made being involved in the fandom!

Definitely have to shout-out @wlwmages because they rule! As well as the people I have mentioned above!

I am tagging @indigothenonbinaryunus and @queenofbaws if you would like to join in! As well as the other people I've tagged

[kachulein]

Got tagged by @ultkyu to answer some questions! Thank you dear, I'm so excited for this~🥺💞

1. If you were an animal, what animal would you be and why?

× I'd be a cat, 100%. Cats are my love and my life, I've always wanted to be one, tbh (not in a furry type of way, but I feel like life would be easier if I was a cat, lmao). I love how cats take no shit and do whatever they want. They're very independent and individual and I'm all here for that.

2. What two anime characters or kpop idols are your type?

× Can I do both anime characters and kpop idols??

× As for anime characters, Jaeha from Akatsuki no Yona and Kirito from Sword Art Online are totally my type!!😍

× And in terms of kpop idols... omg,, how am I supposed to *only* name two?? Hmm, thinking about it, I guess not all of my biases are my "type" per se... but there's two that come to mind right now hhhh. One of them is Kevin Moon from The Boyz, he really ticks off (almost) every bullet point in my list for my "ideal type" and honestly, this list is freaking contradictory and has vvv high standards but Kevin is THAT boi, basically my imaginative ideal boyfriend personified. :') And the second one who I'd say is totally my type is Hwang Hyunjin from Stray Kids. I've always loved drawing him the most of all kpop idols and I still do tbh (but I can't fill my feed on my insta art account with JUST Hyunjin drawings,, you know,,,). His fashion!! I'm so here for it and vibe with it so well. Plus,,,idk,,, I feel like I could connect to him in some ways so ajxjsjdjjs yeah. There's just something about him and Kevin that inspires me so much, I really love these two bois.

3. Are there any writers or artists (art or music) that inspire you? If so, list 5.

× YES. I decided to name a few artists because I realize I've never talked about the artists whose artworks inspire me the most. They're all on Instagram, so I'll be naming their @'s

a.) @/shooky_dough: I'm probably not the only one who knows Nikki, hehe, but her art is SO amazing. She's got this really distinct style which I'd put into the category of semirealism. Her kpop fanart is soooo good and I used her tutorials to learn how to get better at sketching. If you look at the sketches I've been posting for the past few months on my insta art account, you'll notice that they're highly inspires by Nikki's art. She's definitely the artist I'm looking at most in terms of inspiration and improving on my own art.^-^

b.) @/angelganev: His art is sooo pretty. He does semirealism and I've found him by browsing through pinterest to find some art inspiration/references/tutorials. He also does drawing contests in which his followers can draw one of his work he selects in their own style and he gives a shout out to the ones he liked best. It's always interesting!!

c.) @/melmadedooks: This man can draw about ANYTHING, he's so talented. He used to draw lots of his 'dooks' and I've found him through seeing some of his works on pinterest (again, lol). I've actually redrawn two of his 'dooks' and posted them to my art account AND HE LIKED BOTH OF THEM, I WAS SO HAPPY OMG!!! He used to draw his dooks using only one coloured pencil, so I've also started experimenting with that and instead of using a graphite pencil, I used coloured pencils for my sketches and those gave off very different vibes that I really liked!!

d.) @/rezajeez: Probably *the* kpop fanartist I've been following for the longest of times. They are AMAZING!! They mainly do huge photorealistic portraits with INSANE details. It's funny actually, because their work is the complete opposite to shooky_dough's work. While Reza draws photorealism on a big surface (probably A3? maybe more??) and draws very detailed, Nikki focuses more on sketches/more semirealistic and "simplistic" art and it's usually drawn quite small, so seeing these opposites really broadens my horizon, I think^^

e.) Last but nor least, @/rossdraws: In my opinion, he's the modern day Bob Ross! His art is so freaking stunning, have you checked out his digital art landscape series?? The amount of talent this man holds in his pinky finger is more than I've got in my whole body like- OOF a huge inspiration to me!!~

4. If you could play any instrument, which would you play?

× The guitar!! I really want to learn how to play it~

5. If you could choose one anime to live in, which one would you choose and why?

× Either Ouran High School Host Club or Your Lie In April. The first one is just so much fun and I'd love hanging out with the host club members and as for the latter,,, I just really want to be here for Kousei and help him through his anxiety because I know so well how it feels like and I also wish I could sing while he plays the piano, we'd be a great duo✊🏻😔 (I'm sorry, I couldn't choose one)

6. This is a bit of an old DeviantArt fic trend, but if you received an Android of your favourite character from any anime/show/etc., who would it be?

× Hmmm... that's a great question omg there's so many amazing choices I could make😭😭 But I think I'd go with Kirito, I just really really love him ahhhhh

7. Is there anything you would like to do but haven't because your friends/family didn't want to do it with you?

× There's actually a few things I could name... first, I really want to go bungee jumping (preferably from the Macau Tower, as it's the highest bungee jump in the world😍) but my fam and friends think I'm crazy for wanting to do this but I'm actually quite an adventurous person which probably not many people know about me, so I love doing stuff like that.✊🏻😂

× I would also really like to travel with friends... it's not that I dislike travelling with my mom and stepdad but whenever I can't take someone with me, I feel like such a child ??? idk,, never travelling (I wanted to say "without adults" but then I realized I AM an adult) on my own with friends and always tagging along with my parents kind of make me feel like I'm not independent or mature/grown-up for it. But I feel like none of my friends want to travel with me... most of them have a travel buddy already but I just... don't akdjsjs

× and last but not least, getting more specific, I really want to travel to Hawaii and South Korea, but so far, I haven't made it there yet :c

8. What's your favourite flower?

× Cherry Blossoms all the way💞 but all flowers are beautiful and I really like roses, too.

9. What are some of your hobbies?

× My hobbies include singing, drawing, dancing, writing, reading, researching astrology, studying Korean, watching youtube videos/netflix, listening to music and OF COURSE DAYDREAMING✊🏻😔

10. If you were going to be stranded on a deserted island with nothing but the clothes on your back and a bag, what would you put in the bag?

× I'd definitely put food and water in the bag, my phone, earphones, a portable solar charger with a USB cable (so that my phone won't die and I could chill for however long I want while watching kpop mv's and then also use my phone to call for someone to rescue me from this island once I start running low on resources), all the books I still want to read, my art supplies and a few sketch books, some towels that I could use to lay on or use as blankets, a pillow and my teddy bear, and obviously a toothbrush and toothpaste, a hairbrush and a few hair ties and bobby pins (you don't want long sweaty hair stuck to your skin during a hot summer ewww), some soap to wash myself and my clothes, sunscreen and also some insect spray to keep the bugs away!! (it's a big bag, okay)

~

Sorry for writing such an essay omg!!

Here are my 10 questions:

1. What compliment you've received meant the most to you?

2. Would you rather meet your favourite celebrity/group/bias and realize they're not at all how you imagined them to be like (maybe they're not as kind as you thought, for example) or never meeting them in person but it turning out that they're actually the amazing, kind, sweet, generous, etc. person that you thought they were? (I hope that makes sense hhhh I think the ethics of this question are really interesting)

3. What's your current favourite song you always use to get hyped up to or a song currently stuck in your head?

4. If you had to write the book of your life, what genre would it be and what would you choose as a title?

5. Name your top 5 musical artists and your favourite song of each of them?

6. If you were invited to a big humanitarian event and had to give a speech on a topic you'd want to bring about a huge change for the better, what topic would you choose to speak about and voice your opinions/ideas? (Assume public speaking is one of your strongest assets and you'll ace this no matter what)

7. What is something (a skill, personality trait, or something appearance related, it can be whatever) you wish you had and/or you really admire in other people?

8. What's your favourite anime/show/youtuber (you can answer whichever you got an answer for, it can be all three options of course :D)?

9. In kpop, are you more into vocalists, dancers, rappers, maknaes, leaders, or visuals (or maybe a mix of some/all :'))?

10. What's your most beautiful/favourite memory?

oof I hope these questions will be interesting to answer🥺 hmm, Imma tag @littlefallenrebel @jinniesmeow @softpastelmx @yeonki @hanstagrams @marculees @chrryjin and anyone else who'd like to do this~💞💞💞

[raflovestuffs]

That is who you are: Chapter 12

First l Previous

“We're no longer safe here” ~ “We have to fight for their freedom”

Okay guys, here we go, here’s my theory for HTTYD3 end I made 3 years ago... 

Now the trailer came, I’ve seen a LOT OF SIMILARITIES with this fic so that’s why I want to share this chapter with you now. So please Guys, read it even if you don’t read the rest of my story. This chapter is really important to me and I want to know your opinion on it.

This will be my birthday gift to Mr. Dean DeBlois because this man inspires me so much...

I want to thanks my bestfriend because you’ll see his art in this chapter and also because this fiction is dedicated to him because like Toothless for Hiccup, he’s my bestfriend. I also want to thank all the HTTYD fanartists who illustrated this fiction @leffie-draws-fanart, @winxrus and also @raidesart ;) Thank you a lot guys! I also want to thanks all the people who helped me corrected it @wolfie-dragon-rider, @JoyOfBerK and @chiefhiccstrid who always supported me in this fic as well as @poppys-fanworld. A big thank you to my french friend @megtoons who helped me translate it! <3 And above all, a big thank you to my previous translators and to my dear translator @whosthatgal! Thank you so much girl <3

Now, enjoy it.

“Astrid, wake up!” I screamed, shaking her to force her to open her eyes.

She woke up, confused, and rubbed her eyes before the sound of the horns registered.

“Oh no…” she whispered.

She got up quickly and threw herself into my arms. We held each other tightly. I pushed her away gently and caressed her cheek with my thumb. I smiled bitterly to her. She held back a tear.

“We have to do it...”

“No, no! I don’t want us to be apart! Not again…” she cried while holding me really tight.

I rubbed her back to reassure her as best as I could, when my mom came in suddenly.

“Hiccup…” my mom began, but she faltered.

“Astrid, Astrid… Calm down,” I begged her. “Everything is gonna be okay…”

My words didn’t seem to comfort her much, and with regrets, I left her in my mom’s arms. I kissed her on the cheek.

“I love you, Astrid.”

“Me too, Hiccup,” she said sadly.

I addressed a grateful smile to my mother and got out of the house, taking Inferno with me. Toothless was not far behind. I had never seen the village so prepared; every person found their place and knew what they had to do. I ran to Heather’s hut and once there, I found her at Fishlegs’ side.

“Oh Hiccup, finally!” she exclaimed.

“We were waiting for you,” Fishlegs added.

“Sorry, I was with Astrid and—”

“It’s okay,” Heather said while putting her hand on my shoulder, understanding.

Snotlout and the twins joined us not too long after, coming from next door.

“So, how’s the situation?” I asked.

“Eret is leading the ships with his men, there are already a lot of casualties… and Drago’s army is almost at the village’s doors… Gobber and Erik are trying to slow them down as long as they can, but Drago will be here soon.”

“Thank you Fishlegs; we’ll be ready in time.” “Okay, so I’m going back now!”

Heather walked close to him and kissed him passionately— then Fishlegs climbed on Meatlug with clumsiness. He was a bit shook, poor guy.

“Follow me!” Heather ordered.

We moved towards the village square, very closely followed by our respective dragons. Hundred of vikings, men and women, were waiting for us.

“Your army,” she declared with a smirk.

“Heather, I—”

“Come on chief, go on now…”

I was afraid. Afraid of taking the floor, afraid for all these people who were ready to give their lives for Berk and were counting on me, afraid of taking my responsibilities. Then, I thought about Astrid; she would have wanted me to be strong and to take it. So I did it:

“Northern peoples, vikings, men and women, the fight we’re going to lead will be difficult, there will be blood, there will be tears but don’t forget the reason of this fight and remind yourself of Drago Bludvist’s acts… Don’t forget who you fight for and above all, don’t forget what we fight for! We fight for peace! For giving a better place to our children! So fight for peace! Fight for Berk!”

I had grown in strength over my speech and I had yelled my last sentences. I never thought I’d be able to be so confident. The crowd answered me with war cries and swinging of weapons. Heather, Snotlout and the twins started it too, they motivated the troops even more. And they all cried my name… It was a strange feeling.

Once this fuss ended, everyone took their positions, and I found myself at the helm of a whole army with Heather as my right-hand.

“Form ranks and get ready!” I ordered.

I turned and found myself facing Heather who was looking at me with a shifty look.

“What is it?” I asked.

“Seems like you’re enjoying it.”

“Enjoying what?”

“Leading armies, of course!” she exclaimed like it was obvious. “That’s not my thing Heather…”

“Oh come on Hiccup, admit that’s exciting!”

“I don’t see what’s exciting about leading a war, Heather. This is very serious.” She pouted and lowered her head then she turned around and put a hand on my shoulder.

“You don’t look well.”

I answered nothing, on the spot. Of course I didn’t look well! With all this pressure that was on my shoulders, I had a hard time to think straight. Plus, I was very worried about Astrid. I hoped above all that nothing happened to her. So yes, I was totally stressed and I obviously didn’t feel right. I ended shaking my head.

“Hiccup, you know, I can understand why you’re worried, but you have to ignore it during battle, for your men and for Berk’s sake.”

“No, Heather, you can’t understand. Astrid means everything to me, she’s the love of my life, don’t you see? And we’re going to be parents… so no, I can’t ignore it because if I do, I’m forgetting what I’m fighting for, Heather…”

“Excuse me… I shouldn’t have said that… I know Astrid and you are having a really hard time and I—sorry.”

This time, I was the one to put my hands on her shoulders.

“Heather, it’s okay. It’s me, I’m easy to tease these days…”

She smiled.

“Even worse than Astrid…”

Now, we just had to wait.

Valka led me with the other women and the children to the Great Hall. We were walking fast and agitation was at its peak; children were scared and wouldn’t let go of their mothers’ hands. We crossed the village which was outfitting the warriors with weapons, we saw the troops get co-ordinated and the dragons get prepared to fight. How I longed to be with them… We finally reached the Great Hall. Valka pulled me in a remote corner of the hall and asked me to sit down.

“Thanks but I’d rather stand,” I replied abruptly.

I already had a hard time dealing with staying behind—she wouldn’t force me to sit down either. I didn’t belong here with all those poor people. I was supposed to protect us and I couldn’t do it by staying here… I was suddenly reminded of Hiccup’s words:

“Astrid, please, for once in your life, be reasonable… If you won’t do it for me, then do it for the baby.”

And he had put his hands on my belly. I instinctively put mine on it. Hiccup was right, it was unreasonable—but at the same time, staying here to do nothing but wait was eating away at me. I walked between the villagers’ little groups; some women were singing hopeful songs while others were telling old heroic legends to children. I stopped sometimes to listen to the fables too. I was talking with people and trying to reassure them and give them hope. I continued strolling into the Great Hall until I returned to Valka.

“You really have the making of a chief’s wife,” she said.

I smiled at her and came sit next to her to hug her.

“Thank you Valka…” I whispered.

But we were interrupted by the sound of horns. Drago had just penetrated Berk’s compound.

“Toothless, are you okay bud?” I worried.

“What is it?” Heather asked.

“He felt something…”

“DRAGONS!” the troops shouted.

Heather and I raised our heads simultaneously. Armoured dragons were populating the sky. Gobber and Erik came running, followed by their men, yelling that Drago was coming. Heather and I reacted right away by commanding the dragon riders and managing the air attack. Snotlout and the twins did the same. Gobber and Erik took the lead of the land forces. Drago’s men moved by the hundreds towards the center of the village while destroying everything in their path. The fight had just begun.

I’ve never seen a war before and even less participated in one. The concept of battle was all new for me, so when I saw the thirty armoured dragons coming—that I had trained in Göteborg—it took me time before I gave my orders. I examined them for a moment and that’s when I knew something was wrong.

“Wait!” I cried, stopping my men with a hand signal.

“What? What is it again?” Snotlout grumbled.

“Their eyes… Look at their eyes! They’ve been conditioned!” I exclaimed.

“You mean—”

“Yes… They’ve been programmed to kill us…” I whispered.

I addressed all the dragon riders out loud. “Remember what we told you in training? Well… It’s is all the more true now! These dragons are fearsome so be even more vigilant!”

“Charge!” Heather finished.

And we leapt to the attack. We killed dragons. I followed Toothless in each of his movements, fighting against dragons deprived of soul and much stronger than I have imagined. However, I didn’t feel to be actor of the battle, Toothless was the one to fight to protect me. I was just a spectator of all this killing, it was all going so fast… I couldn’t analyse the situation anymore… until I fell.

Toothless and I fell down in the middle of the one-on-one skirmishes that separated our army from Drago’s. I was blown away by the violence I was seeing—I’d never seen men fighting like that before. A warrior didn’t hesitate to stab a sword into his opponent’s back or separate him from one of his limbs. Drago’s men and mine were killing each other in front of me. The smell of blood was everywhere and the warriors’ cries blended into those of their victims; the noise reverberated across the battlefield.

One of my enemies speed up to me, and dismounted me swiftly from my dragon. I could only count on myself to cope. He hit my arm with his arm, the shot was straight and so was the pain.

Thankfully, he had only slightly hit me thanks to my shoulder protection, which had cushioned the blow. I drew my sword in the second that followed, I needed to retaliate quickly before he could gain the upper hand. I struck at his arm and successfully freed myself from his grip. I ran through the fray, not without difficulty. I used my sword to push through the crowd and took a look to the right, to the left, looking for Toothless, but I didn’t see him anywhere. In my frantic sprint through the battlefield—inevitably—I fell. I really blamed my prosthetic leg at times. I started to get trampled when I felt a hand pulling my collar—this is it, this is the end.

“What are you doing here, Hiccup?!”

“Gobber?” I asked, opening my eyes.

He put me on the ground.

“So?” he insisted.

“Yeah… uh… I fell down and—Toothless he… I don’t know where he is…”

“Well then, let’s get some altitude, and we can find him, can’t we?”

I clambered onto Grump behind him, and we flew over Berk to find my dragon. The battle raged on, but from the air we could see that Berk was resisting well. However, the enemy troops weren’t backing down in the slightest—and I still couldn’t see Drago. But where was he hiding for Thor’ sake? I couldn’t have the time to think about this question, Toothless was there, right below us, and he was about to be shot down by Drago’s trappers.

“Right there!” I shouted while pointing the finger at him.

Grump steered us down to him right away. I stopped an arrow from hitting its target and shooting him in the heart. I ran to him to jump on his back and pat him affectionately on the head.

“It’s gonna be okay bud, I’m here… Come on, taking off!” I screamed.

Gobber did the same and we dodged a final barrage of arrows. He addressed me with a nod and went back with Toothless to the other riders. I examined my dragon on the way and didn’t find anything alarming, only a small notch on his left ear and some other scratches. He saved himself but for how long again? If we hadn’t arrived in time, he could have been dead by now… If I couldn’t protect my own dragon, how could I protect all the others from Drago? In all the commotion, I almost forgot the reason why he was fighting this war: he was attempting to cast the dragons from the surface of the Earth! So I noticed the battlefield where the men were blustering was covered by an infinite number of dead dragons’ carcasses. The battle had just begun.

It had been more than five hours since the battle began outside. My patience had its limits, and this situation was really pushing them. I stopped bouncing my leg and stood up and began walking round and round in the big room with my arms crossed.

“Astrid, please, sit down…”

“No, I don’t want to sit! It’s unbearable, I can’t take it anymore not knowing what is going on! I wanna know!” I said, fed up.

“Astrid… Calm down… you said you had cramps at the bottom of your belly, are they gone?”

“No… it’s still hurting… and the baby doesn’t want to stop kicking, it’s really annoying…”

“That’s because it can feel that you’re stressed… One more reason to sit down.”

“No! I don’t feel comfortable when I’m sitting… Ouch…”

I gritted my teeth, I didn’t want to be weak, I couldn’t be.

“Astrid…”

“It’s okay. I’m fine,” I said, catching my breath. “I’m gonna ask the men if they have more information outside.” “Astrid, you already asked them less than a hour ago and they told you they didn’t have any information…” “But maybe now they do?” I said, a little upset. I went in the direction of the middle of the Great Hall but before even walking two steps, I had a sudden wave of nausea due to the cramps getting closer and closer to each other. Adding to this, the kicking didn’t stop. I held my belly with one hand and leaned against a pillar with the other. My head started to spin, and I heard Valka’s voice calling me as she rushed to my side.

“Astrid! What’s wrong?” asked Valka, apparently really worried.

“My… my head hurts… the cramps are getting worse and worse,” I whimpered.

Valka took me by a shoulder and forced me to sit when we got close to a bench. She put her hand on my forehead and wiped it with a handkerchief.

“You are burning up and covered with sweat… maybe you’re—”

She didn’t have the time to finish that I screamed while holding onto her shoulders. It was like the pain was penetrating my stomach. I felt a hot fluid pouring down and wetting my legging.

“Oh my gods!” Valka cried, smiling. “Astrid! The baby is coming!”

I was hit by confusion.

“What? Now? Like right now?” I sobbed.

“I’m gonna bring Gothi!”

“No, no stay with me, Valka! I’m so sorry for earlier… stay!”

She stayed by my side and ordered someone else to bring Gothi.

“You’ll see, everything will be fine ”, she said with a calm voice. Only, I was more afraid than anything. I didn’t understand what was happening to me… I wasn’t usually that emotional. “But it’s too early! I’m not ready—and Hiccup should be here! Oh my gods, I won’t be able to do this without him… Valka, please, go bring Hiccup!” I sobbed.

“Astrid, calm down. I’m gonna go, okay?”

I nodded and Gothi arrived with two other women, healers maybe. Valka left me alone with them and went to find Hiccup.

“I’ll be back in no time! ” she said.

I stood not without difficulty and went to a corner of the hall, safe from any nosy looks. They put me on one of the hall’s tables where they had many layers of sheets.

“And now, breathe!”

“Snotlout!” I screamed.

I couldn’t see him through the flames that were eating the stables. Catapult attacks had set the stables on fire and we were trying to save trapped baby dragons inside who were too young to fly. Everybody got out with babies in their arms except Snotlout, who was still inside. I screamed his name again—no answer.

“Hiccup, we still need to evacuate all these dragons…” reminded Heather. “But we can’t just leave him!”

“Hiccup...”

Just then we saw a shape emerging in the midst of the flames—it was Snotlout, not without burns, but alive. “Snotlout! Oi, oi… oi!” he chanted, punctuating each word with a cough.

“Snotlout! I thought you were…” “Dead? Oh come on Hiccup…” he said dryly.

I was relieved—Snotlout was safe and we could continue our improvised rescue. We were making our way as fast as we could from the stables to the Dragon Academy, when suddenly I saw my mom riding Cloudjumper towards us at full speed.

“Hiccup!” she yelled.

She finally drew up by my side.

“Mom? What are you doing here?”

“Hiccup, you need to come. It’s urgent…” she began.

“But I can’t leave the battle! I’m commanding an army, and…”

“Astrid is giving birth!”

“Uh...what?”

“You’re gonna be a dad!” she smiled.

“What, now? But I…”

“Go, Hiccup!” Heather reassured me. “I’ll take the lead, don’t worry. Go!” I let my friends go under Heather’s command and I joined my mom. We headed in Astrid’s direction, flying once more over the battle that was under us. We finally arrived behind the Great Hall; my mom invited me inside and kept our dragons outside, not without Toothless’ disagreement. Dodging our way through the crowd of elders and children, we made our way to the back corners of the hall where curtains, made out of two sheets, were standing. I stopped before going in.

“Go on, go, she’s waiting for you,” said my mom before pushing me in.

Astrid was lying on a table, legs spread and her back raised; she was in pain. I ran to join her by her side. When she saw me, she let out her tears. I held her tightly against me.

“Hiccup… I was so scared for you… I’m sorry…”

“Shhh… I’m here now,” I whispered while caressing her face.

“Okay Astrid, let's go again,” ordered one of the women who were assisting Gothi. “One, two, three… push!”

Astrid’s face twitched when she did what the healers told her to do, but she shook her head left to right, completely helpless.

“I can’t!” she moaned.

I didn’t know what to do to help her, so I took her hand and I sustained her back to support her.

“Come on babe, you can do it!” I cheered.

So she pushed once again while tightening her hold on my hands, letting out a long painful scream before taking a breath again. “We can see its head!” said Valka.

Astrid turned her head to me with a smile, and I smiled back to her.

“Just a little more Astrid…” I said rubbing her back.

“One more time, push!”

Astrid pushed with all the strength she had, she yelled in pain and soon, her screams were joined by other, smaller cries—those of a baby, our baby.

“It’s a girl, congratulations!” said one of the women.

Gothi cut the last thing that linked our daughter to her mother and showed us a little newborn, dirty and covered in blood. Astrid didn’t even have time to catch her breath before Gothi put the little girl in her arms. Astrid took her carefully and held the child gently against her chest. A big smile drew on her lips, she was filled with joy.

“Hiccup… we made this…” she sighed, happy.

(art by @winxrus)

I caressed her hair and I kissed her cheek, I was the happiest man in the world.

“I’m so proud of you Astrid… you fought till the end.”

“Thank you Hiccup, thank you.”

I was about to answer when a massive sound echoed in the room—it was an explosion.

“I’m gonna see what that was.”

“Hiccup!” yelled Astrid. I got out and saw men trying to reinforce the main door which had just been damaged.

“Hiccup! What are you doing?” my mother exclaimed.

“I need to see what happened outside!”

I went out from the Great Hall and hurried to go before it. When I finally reached it, Heather was there with a few men to protect the Great Hall’s doors from… Drago’s attacks. He was on a huge dragon and was laughing out loud about my men’s fate. I joined them to help and Drago addressed me.

“Eh! Finally, here’s the Dragon Master! I thought you’d never come out of your hole…” he said.

“Drago…”

“Now, let’s finish it!”

He had yelled the last words. He started to shoot at anything that moved but his true target was me. I turned my head to see where Heather was when I heard her screaming:

“Hiccup! Watch out!”

She stood in front of me before I took Drago’s shot. The violence of the impact drove me about ten meters away, I searched to scout the area but I could barely see and then there was nothing.

It was dark, I hated the dark. I was afraid of the dark because I couldn’t see anything and it made me nervous so I lit a candle. I was alone at home. Daddy wasn’t home yet. So I waited for him while drawing. And one hour later, I heard the house’s heavy door opened, I hurried in the direction of the door to see Daddy.

“Daddy!” I yelled.

He took me in his arms and hugged me tightly. I loved when Daddy held me like that.

“I came to say goodbye, Son. Daddy’s leaving for a very long trip, okay?”

I sulked, I didn’t like when he was leaving for a long amounts of time.

“Why are you always leaving for a long time Daddy?”

“Hiccup, you know it’s to find the Dragons’ Nest. I have to go for a long time, that’s how it is. But Gobber will be here.”

“But I want you to stay with me!”

“Son…”

I didn’t want to listen to him anymore, I went back to my room to lock myself in it. I sat down on my bed, brought my legs against me and started to cry. I was sad Daddy left, he never listened to me…

After a while, I heard big footsteps on the stairs, Daddy was climbing. Quickly, I dried my tears with my arm and I put myself under the heavy blankets. Daddy entered with a candle in his hands. He knew I was afraid of the dark. He put it on the bedside table next to me. He leaned next to me and kissed my forehead. I took him in my little arms and held him very tight.

“Good night Daddy.”

“Good night Son.”

I put my head on the pillow and he tucked me in. Then he bounced back and left in the door’s direction but before he got outside, I addressed him one last time before he got away.

“I love you Daddy.”

I heard the door shut.

“Me too Hiccup, me too.”

I felt my eyes about to open but I fell into nothingness again.

Toothless was slowly moving towards me with those terrifying eyes. I begged him to stop but he kept going.

“Stop!”

That’s when my dad came out of nowhere.

“Son!” he cried out.

“Dad! No!” I screamed.

My dad jumped in front of me and took Toothless’ kill shot.

My dad had saved my life, and Heather had exactly done the same thing.

I opened my eyes. Toothless was over me and protecting me with his wings. I looked around me and saw Heather down, a few meters away. I stood up quickly and ran to her. I took her in my arms, she was still breathing but her face was pale and her eyes almost closed.

“Heather! Please, stay with me, Heather!” I shouted.

“Hiccup…” she whispered.

“Yes?” I sobbed.

“Thank you…” she said, closing her eyes.

“No! No, Heather! Don’t leave me! Heather!”

Heather was dead in my arms. No words could define my pain. She was like a sister to me. I cried while holding her her cold, dead body against me, inconsolable.

I was tired of always being protected, my dad, Heather, Gobber, Toothless, Astrid… I couldn’t let anything like that happen again, it was out of the question. I was going to put an end to this, once and for all.

Fishlegs and the other riders came shortly after the incident, he was distraught. Enough people were taking care of Heather now, so I could go. Some people tried to stop me, but I was more determined than ever. I mounted Toothless and took off at full speed. My goal: find Drago. 

Toothless and I looked around us, but Drago was not hard to find. He was nested on the edge of the island with his gigantic dragon. Once I was close enough to him, I asked Toothless to fire his most powerful plasma blast, and it made him fall from his dragon.

Toothless landed only few feet away from him. I climbed down and threw my fire sword on his cutting pike. I didn’t miss my target, I took his stake, got my sword back and threatened him with both, making him recoil. He raised his hands while laughing unrestrained, insanely.

“So? What’s the Dragon Master is gonna do now that he has weapons in his possession?” he sneered.

He could laugh as much as he wanted, but he didn’t scare me anymore. I moved towards him, more intimidating this time.

“You had no right! She didn’t do anything!” I shouted. “She was innocent!” I called out.

The rage tensed my words up.

“You will pay for what you’ve done Drago… For everything you’ve done…”

I rushed over to him and stabbed his stake right in his heart. He instinctively reached down to weapon that had sealed his fate, and staggered back. He fell down from the bank and sank into the ocean.

I had done it in anger, but part of me was still celebrating. I just put an end to the war.

I flew away on my dragon’s back to the Great Hall, where the doors were standing open. I rushed inside to meet Astrid, who was waiting for me in tears. We held each other tightly.

“Hiccup… What’ve you done?” she sobbed.

I put my head on her shoulder, powerless and lost, on the verge of tears.

“I killed Drago…” I confessed with an inaudible voice.

She slightly moved away from me to put her hands on my shoulders and read my face.

“Hiccup…”

“I know, I know… It wasn’t how I wanted it to end! But Astrid, I’m tired of being protected… I’m the one that has to protect you! A chief protects his own…”

She brought me back into her arms to hold me tight against her once again.

“What are you going to do now?” she asked after a while.

“I need to see our daughter first, then I’ll tell you.”

She took my hand and I followed her to the other side of the hall, my mother was waiting for us, our baby in her arms. She gave the baby to Astrid, who then gave her to me. I held her carefully, rocking her gently.

“Hello, you…” I said, gently whispering.

My nerves disappeared and a tear rolled down my cheek, I was so happy. “My little dragon…” I smiled. “I already love you so much if you only knew… Daddy will always be with you… always…” I said, leaving a small kiss on the top of her head.

“Heather. Her name is Heather,” Astrid inquired, bending over me while putting her head on my shoulder by holding me against her.

“Heather…” I smiled, moved.

…

“Are you sure about it?” she asked.

“Yeah, I’m sure Astrid. I will not go back on my decision.”

“All right, then.”

“Let’s go.”

I grasped her waist and we moved outside, hand in hand, to the village center. Astrid let me take the place on the small platform before the other villagers gathered around me. I waited for silence and I began.

“People of Berk, today is a day of mourning for all of us here. We’ve won the war against Drago, but the sadness and pain he brought us will be with us for a long time. A chief protects his own, and today, I failed to protect you. I’ve been told often that I was a peaceful man, but I killed a man today. I was supposed to bring our worlds together, but look at this mess! Hundreds dragons and men died today! This kind of bloodshed will never happen again, because I can still make one decision to protect us all.”

I paused.

“I declare dragons exiled.” Disagreements erupted immediately among the villagers, but I kept going, raising my voice.

“There have always been men like Drago and there always will be. If he’s not the one to exterminate the dragons, somebody else will! As long as dragons live with us, they won’t be safe and neither will we. That’s why I’m asking for this exile, for the common good. I know it’s hard for you—it’s hard for me too—but it’s for the best, believe-me.”

A deafening silence started to fall when, suddenly, they began to make a sign I easily recognized. It was my father’s sign, a fist raised to the top. Soon, the whole village made the Viking’ salute. They just approved my decision.

Farewells were extremely difficult to make. Every vikings and their dragons had met on the middle of the village to say goodbye one last time. It was very emotional to see the love we had for them expressed like that. I wasn’t exiling them for nothing, and my people knew it. If we wanted to save them from extinction, that was the right thing to do.

I arrived at Toothless’ side. Astrid and Stormfly were close to him, their arms full. I caressed the head of my dragon while looking straight in the eye, I smiled faintly at him. I presented him the auto-tail I made for him and Astrid had remade. He started to step back, I held him back.

“Hey… Toothless… I know you don’t like what is going on. But I’m doing this for your sake and you know it,” I sniffed.

He approached and rubbed up against me, then he licked my head. I slightly laughed and hugged him once again.

“Thanks Bud.”

I installed his new tail and made sure it was working before standing in front of him. “Here you go. It’ll serve you more than me…” I said, joking.

Astrid came behind me and moved towards Toothless, wrapping her arms around him.

“Goodbye Toothless, thank you for everything you’ve done for us…” she murmured.

She relaxed her grip and put her hand on my shoulder before stepping behind me again. I took Toothless in my arms one last time.

“I will never forget you, Bud. You’re my best friend… I’ll see you in Valhalla…”

He seemed to begrudge and made a sad noise. I finally released him and stepped back to find Astrid’s embrace. She grabbed my waist while holding me tight against her, supporting me as best she could.

Every dragon gathered around Toothless, who gave me a last look before flying away. All the others followed him and few wingbeats later, all the vikings were already at the island’s borders, calling to their dragons one last time while waving goodbye. Two tears rolled down my cheeks as I watched the dragons flying away forever.

...

Four years later…

“Daddy! Tell me more about dragons!” Heather exclaimed.

“Heather, it’s getting late…”

“Please!” insisted the brown-haired and blue-eyed girl.

Astrid came inside the room and sat down on the bed, next to her daughter.

“Come on Hiccup, if it makes her happy!” Astrid added.

I sighed. I couldn’t refuse anything to the two greatest women of my life.

“Fine, what do you want to know?”

“Tell me how you became friend with Toothle!”

I laughed heartily.

“Ah sweet heart, it’s Toothless…”

“Oops… Sorry,” she apologized while smiling.

I came closer to Astrid and her and started my tale.

“There were dragons when I was a boy…”

[holeybubushka]

D, L, P?

D) “What was the first thing you ever contributed to a fandom?”

Unfortunately I cannot draw, cannot make cool aesthetics or come up with clever memes. I mean I joked around with @sammygiddings a lot, but I guess my true first contribution (not counting the essays I sometimes I leave fan fic authors) would be this story, which I wrote for @imdisappointingmyparents. She loves Jemily, and I love Emily, and so this story eventuated from that.

L) Your favorite fanartist/author gives you one request, what do you ask for?

ANYTHING to do with Sath/Mannah, which are both my Until Dawn OTP pairings. Not to be cheeky, and I know the author has a LOT on her plate, and real life quite clearly supersedes real life, but once she’s free/more motivated, I’d love @onlyashremains to finish her Josh/Jess story (which, even unfinished, is truly brilliant and needs more love since it’s one of the best post game Josh lives story I have ever read. Shout out for a truly great Sam  characterisation too. Read it. You won’t regret it.). But yeah outside of whining at my fave authors I would say anything Sam/Beth or Matt/Hannah related.

P: Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas).

Well, this isn’t solely my idea, but @transchrishartley and I were shooting the breeze one day and came up with Sam-and-Ashley as sex positive friends. If your headcannon is Chris/Ash and Sam/Beth, then neither girl has anyone to gossip with about their relationship/their sex lives. I don’t think Matt wants to know what Ash gets up to, Josh is just as much Chris’ friend and I don’t think Ash is super close with the other girls/would trust Jess or Emily with juicy info. Sam, of course, can’t go on too much about Beth to Hannah, nor Josh, and I think she’d also be leery of telling Jess or Em too much either. Whereas Sam and Ash are friends, but with enough ‘distance’ within their group that it’s not too weird for them to discuss intimate details/or bitch about their partner (If Beth is annoying her, she can’t really take that to Hannah, for instance). It’s my favourite headcannon and I love the idea of them have their own secret dynamic between them. Plus female friendship is just fab in general.

Thank you for the ask!

[brianna-lei]

Butterfly Soup asks #13

More ask replies, including how Akarsha ended up being friends w/ Diya+Noelle! I was actually going to show this in the game, but it was cut because the Akarsha+Noelle classroom scene was funnier in my head than it was in visual novel format. 

Diya/Akarsha’s parents know each other because they live in the same neighborhood and decided, “our daughters are the same age! Perfect, they can walk to school together!!” without any regard for whether Diya and Akarsha would want this.

It was really awkward at first. Diya was mortified that her parents arranged for to to walk with this random outgoing girl (the fact that they were in the same grade made it even scarier because if Diya somehow messed up, and Akarsha could tell their classmates), and Akarsha definitely would not have pursued a friendship with this super quiet nervous girl 

Because they have to interact so often, over time they got used to each other and eventually do grow to care about each other. This is a CLASSIC type of friendship for me as someone who often carpooled w/ parents’ friends’ kids  

Since Noelle is Diya’s best friend and had classes together with them, Akarsha naturally saw her a lot. When they first met, Noelle’s personality led Akarsha to accuse her of being a robot (as Diya mentioned in-game)  

Noelle is a teacher’s pet who always raises her hand to answer questions, wrecks the curve every exam, etc. so she draws attention to herself without trying to. Akarsha decided to prank her by writing “boob” on a Post-It note every day and putting it somewhere Noelle would find it. Each time Noelle found one, she’d react the exact same way -- she’d hiss “..What?!” to herself under her breath, fold the Post-It note diagonally twice into a small triangle, and throw it away. After doing this every day for a few weeks Akarsha went the extra mile and put the Post-It inside the book Noelle would be reading for the day (she had to pay attention to the order the books were passed out in and count the number of desks to Noelle’s seat). Noelle was asked to read a passage aloud, flipped her book open, and saw it. This time she stared at it for a solid 5 seconds. Suddenly, she SHOUTED. She stood, held the Post-it up, and screamed "WHO IS DOING THIS????!!!" This was in the middle of class. Everyone was taken aback. The teacher asked Noelle to sit down and as she did, seething, she announced: 

“I KNOW YOU’RE WATCHING THIS, YOU IMMATURE CRETIN. I WILL FIND YOU, AND I WILL DESTROY YOU.“ That was the moment Akarsha decided to be friends with her 

It’s never explained in-game. She gets a lot of minor injuries from picking fights w/ people and generally making bad decisions

Interesting question! *throws a smoke bomb at her feet and disappears in a cloud of smoke*

Funny that you should ask! *throws a second smoke bomb at her feet and vanishes again*

Akarsha listens to a really wide range of music, so she’d likely have a few songs by them. Her iPod on shuffle is a rollercoaster like: YMCA -> No Widows by The Antlers -> anime opening -> anaconda by nicki minaj, etc.

Some songs I associate with her:

Daylight by Matt & Kim 

Gravel to Tempo by Hayley Kiyoko -- I love the music video, a few of the moments are so her (and Hayley is bi too!) 

Ok by Madeon

Die Right Now by Knower

Bad Girls by MIA

Don’t Stop (Fatrat remix) by Foster the People

You can support me by donating money through the Download now button on the game page! It’ll take you to a page where you can download the game and/or Bonus artbook if you want (it won’t automatically download anything!).

Other than donating, you can also support me by encouraging others to play my game!! Especially if you know any Youtubers who would like it! Because I don’t have much marketing power, I’ve literally gotten this far through word-of-mouth and I suspect lots of people who would enjoy the game still haven’t heard of it  Oh also, please show fanartists/editors/fic writers your love! This isn’t really supporting me as directly but will make me happy, haha

Min’s High Voltage jacket and black/grey hoodie from the future are both made up :(

The hoodie she wears as a smol child is based off this shirt, I added yellow to it...but yeah none of her jackets/hoodies really exist;;  

Ooh I’m glad you liked the Tamil! Akarsha’s known she was bi for about a year. Spending so much time on the internet definitely helped her become aware that early

The story takes place in the fall of 9th grade for Diya/Akarsha/Min/Noelle, so they’re 14 (Noelle is close to turning 15). Smol

I’m glad you feel that way--I really appreciate messages like this, thank you! 

Thanks!!! ;u; 

[groundramon]

Why does this website seem to function even worse every time i visit it

Any Ways su: future spoilers but 

SU discourse that’s like “steven is an abusive boyfriend” or whatever IS SO FUCKING FUNNY TO ME.  Like I know they’re probably SU crits who kept watching out of spite but I like to imagine that they were like “I can excuse Steven being the son/half-reincarnation and half-son of a genocidal dictator who came from a long line of genocidal dictators, but i draw the line at Steven being an idiot 16 y/o”

nyways the point was that those episodes were supposed to be extremely uncomfortable and you were supposed to side with Connie. Because there aren’t sides. Connie and Steven are on the same side.

The juxtaposition of almost every adult in Steven’s life complaining about how they failed him personally (even though its like “~three of these people are worse than the others, three of these people just dont fuckin belong~”) only for Connie to shout “STOP WALLOWING IN YOUR OWN MISERY AND JUST GO GIVE STEVEN A HUG DAMNIT” seems intentional to me. You could argue its the whole idea of kids being empowered in a story for kids (which is a fair thesis) but I think it goes deeper than that too.  I mean, smaller things weighed on Steven’s mind too - like Lars, Sadie, etc.  But they weren’t involved in this.  Things like Centipede traumatized him, but they weren’t involved in the final scene because they weren’t doing anything wrong now.  Steven cracked more with Connie than he did with many of the other situations but there’s a reason that, out of all the situations Steven was breaking under, Connie was the one to break him out of it.  And it’s not shipping bait, I mean you can call it a ship moment but the point of this, to me, is that Connie is emotionally mature.  Connie didn’t hurt Steven like the others did.  The others have something to “atone” for, if you want to be moralistic/super justice-based about it.  Connie doesn’t.  Connie just wants to help her boyfriend, her best friend.  Even though a situation between Connie and Steven caused Steven internal angst, I think this scene was meant to show that no, it wasn’t Connie’s fault, she didn’t do anything wrong.  The amount of “responsibility” she has in the matter doesn’t change with or without that situation - he’s her best friend and her boyfriend, of course she’s going to help him through his hard times regardless.

That being said. the episode was fucking HARD to sit through especially when being aro but still being very loving makes you form strong, relationship-like bonds with people, but obviously when a monogamous allo person finds an allo person they love, they’re going to gravitate towards that person instead, bc they have needs that I simply can’t satisfy and that’s no good. and also i have attachment issues so when they inevitably have less time to be with me 24/7 / im not their #1 priority it makes me a heckin depressed and it sucks so i always try to stop myself from getting close to people so that I Just Don’t Do That because it fucking sucks!!! its really bad!!! i hate feeling pain and I hate expressing pain and I hate expressing to people why what they did hurt me and I ESPECIALLY hate doing all that when the person didn’t even do anything wrong!! its not like they dumped me out of nowhere im just a clingy bitch!!! i feel like this rn

i forgot where I was going with this but- OH YEAH. adult steven is terrifying. especially because he was emotional and irrational for obvious reasons. please dont ever let him be any taller than 5′2 again I will Cry. why are men so scary when they yell ITS UPSETTING no i dont have trauma my dad Never Fucking Yells im just SO SCARED of the possibility and i DONT KNOW WHY its a PROBLEM.  Anyways Steven isnt allowed to be taller than me ok? ok. also draw steven fat again @ you cowardly fanartists, i know hes leaner but hes still meant to be big round huggable boy

Monster!Steven: exists Me: OH NO HES ADORABLE

Adult!Steven: exists Me: *screaming in fear*