#shut up no one cares

[boys-with-gunss]

Stop Rachel hate tbh

[mediocrity-incarnate]

Jonesboro, AR

Spur of the moment I decided to brave traffic and drive to the Totality Zone. It was worth it. I knew it would be. I've seen this before. But goddamn did I have to fight myself to go. Anxiety is a bitch and a half, especially at 7 a.m., apparently.

But I am sooooo glad I went. I know it's hard to let myself enjoy the things I love, my hobbies, my interests, anything that gives me joy. I don't know why that is. But it's there, and I'm growing more cognizant of it.

So I just ran with it. Shoes on, teeth brushed, water bottle, go. I didn't even eat, just a red bull and later a poptart. Because I knew if I didn't leave right then I would not go and I literally would not be able to stop crying once I missed it. Too often in my life I let things pass me by because, idfk, I'm anxious that I wouldn't enjoy it enough, or the right way, or something. Perfectionism applied to my own happiness, I fucking hate it. Why can I not just BE‽

But I went. Threw some music on and just watched the (endless, endless) fields go by. It's so weird to experience "a whole vibe" while sober. (that sounds bad) But I'm usually so deep in my thoughts that I can't experience anything in the present. Today was a rare exception to that.

I don't really have a point to this post, I just needed to get some words out of my head that I've been ruminating on all day. I went. I said I would, decided I wouldn't, then decided I would hate myself forever if I didn't go. So I went. It shouldn't be this hard but I'm getting better.

God that all sounds so trite.

[rantithesis]

“Tumblr and reddit putting aside their differences” for YOU maybe. I for one still consider every redditor past or present my mortal enemy

[whorenerdking]

also not me reporting and blocking someone for saying the bumblebee kiss was their last straw for rwby like lmao idiot getta load of this guy

[threeleggedcrow]

bro i might have to make a blog that's exclusively nsft because good lord some posts that i see on my dash... i could never rb them on here omg

[craycraybluejay]

Tbh I have so many drafts that I'm scared to post,,,

[fandoms-spamdom]

I hate to say this but

If you are loud during my TV time I will squash you like an ant

[whatthehekko]

Ah yes, my favorite Thanksgiving side-dish: Being Hit With The Sudden Realization that My Family Will Be Loving a Lie I’ve Concocted for My Survival for as Long as They’re Alive

[boys-with-gunss]

I watched Elephant, I take everything back, it's good.

[localgays2]

I'm literally so tired of talking to boomers about the housing market

[lesbian-ashe]

I hate all these posts going around saying "omg don't worry about reblogging likes are fine" like no shut up artists (me especially) need attention or we'll die I'm withering as we speak

[beanghostprincess]

Petition to give Usopp a gun. Not because of anything plot-related, I just think he looks extremely hot.

[akkpipitphattana]

rafe playing the victim like king i hate you

[munamania]

[ijltln]

hee honk i didnt think so

[beggingheaven]

In 12 days it will be my birthday and it will make it 9 years since the first time I wished to never wake up again as I blew out my candles