#sinisterlyliv

[sobeautifullyobsessed]

🎶✨️when u get this u have to put 5 songs u actually listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favourite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)🎶✨️

Thank you for asking, dear! This is both simple and fun enough for my tired mind to manage a relatively swift reply.😊

In Your Eyes - Peter Gabriel; a favorite since the first time I heard it in a regional theatre production of Twelth Night; the theme song of my WIP The One That Got Away

Willow - Taylor Swift; filled with Scarlett & Hennessy vibes, from my original erotic romance Scarlett and the Professor

Dancing Queen - ABBA: no matter what's going on in my life, playing it loud, then singing along and dancing, never fails to make me feel as though I'm that young again and on the cusp of so many beautiful possibilities

Love Me Like You Do - Ellie Goulding; fell in love with this one as my OFC Anni's theme song in my WIP A Time and Place for Misbehavior

Galway Girl - Ed Sheeran; upbeat, wonderful, harks back to a Celtic flavor, which I have a weakness for--and a little inspirational for my WIP Whiskey Kisses

Wow - gotta say, with four out of five of these connected to my writing, just sharing them here makes me ache to pick up my stories and give them the updates they deserve!

[antvnger]

🎶✨️when u get this u have to put 5 songs u actually listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favourite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)🎶✨️

(i feel like i'm playing tennis bc you're the one that sent this to me lol. if you don't want to do it again, that's okay :) )

I’ll totally do it again! No problem. Thanks for sending it back!

Okay okay let’s see. I’m gonna do Christmas songs this time and I don’t care if Thanksgiving is Thursday 😂

It’s Christmas Time Again by MercyMe

All I Want For Christmas Is You by Mariah Carey classic

Carol of the Bells - any version really

Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree by Brenda Lee

Little Drummer Boy by for KING & COUNTRY

[sobeautifullyobsessed]

For the associations thing:

Doctor Strange (obviously)

Sound of Music (I don't know why? Have you even posted anything about it before? I don't know, maybe it has to do with the very soft romances you write/rp (hopefully you understand what I mean by soft))

Brown curls and glasses (because of Beauty)

How to word this in the most coherent way possible because I'm genuinely worried I'll accidentally offend someone? I'm demiromantic and asexual. I have a very different relationship with romance and sex compared to most. I am sex-averse and have this disconnect with romance that's really hard to describe. As you might imagine, it can make fandom spaces difficult sometimes. I'm a responsible person and simply don't interact with content that I don't like. I use Tumblr because there's no algorithm so I won't see stuff just because I follow fandom blogs. So it's fine but a little isolating or overwhelming sometimes. Personally, the hardest thing for me isn't when people write smut. Generally, writers are very responsible, using the read more and tags to prevent accidental viewership. But when I see people casually talking about how sexy a character/actor is, that is much harder for me sometimes. And it's not like it's a bad thing to post about how Actor X is a hottie. I absolutely support people saying that sort of stuff. It is an irrational thing I have where I feel left out. I don't know if it's internalized aphobia I'm working through or a general anxiety of being forgotten or what, but I somehow get massive FOMO from it a lot of the time. Which is irrational and pointless, which makes it even more frustrating. Since that is generally not tagged (because there's not a major need for it to be tagged) and it's not explicit material, I actually see it. Means I end up following lots of aspec people because that's easier than dealing with FOMO and the negative self talk because of the irrationality. But occasionally I find people who are very much open about how sexually appealing characters/actors are but somehow I'm okay with it. It doesn't cause FOMO. I have no idea why. At first I thought it had to do with ratio of horny posts to other posts, ie analyzing story and character posts. Nope, even people that analyze a lot can be overwhelming. Before I knew about asexuality and aromanticism, I convinced myself I was attracted to different men and women because I felt the need to conform. I followed people who were vocal about how attractive different actors/characters are, forcing myself to look at it, convincing myself I was like that. As you can guess, that wasn't that good for my mental health. Thank heavens, I moved on from that. But I remember you being the first person I followed on my other acc that was vocal about it but somehow didn't overwhelm me. And, I don't read your smut, I may scroll past a post if I think it's going in the "this person is attractive" direction if I've had a rough day, but otherwise everything is completely fine. Again, no idea why you're different from so many other blogs in my head. Like I said, it's not like any of this is rational. But it means I have this interesting association with you in relationship to romance and sexual attractiveness that's hard to describe. Almost relieving because especially in the Doctor Strange fandom it can be hard for me sometimes (and I headcanon him as greysexual and I've never seen anyone else headcanon him as aspec. I'm apparently the lone wolf of the fandom lol). And it's weird. Like I said, no one is doing anything wrong, it's my brain being dumb and irrational for no good reason. But you've successfully got a good grade in local asexual being chill, and you should take that as a compliment. Sorry if this is weird, because it is definitely weird and hard to explain and I mean no harm. I just have a very different experience in fandom because of my orientations but I am comfortable with your blog.

TELL ME WHAT YOU ASSOCIATE WITH ME. COLORS, SONGS, AESTHETICS, PEOPLE, ANYTHING.

Darling, sorry for the delayed answer, I just wanted to be sure I understood as best I could what you were saying. I think I have it--and I absolutely DO take what you've explained as a compliment. 😊 And ofc, I wanted to reply before you went on hiatus (hope that all your health issues have checked out for your trip to go forward!). Let me comment in brief on a few things.

The Sound of Music - though you may not have seen them, I have posted about this movie as an early influence on my perception of Romance--as early as seven years old! After the first time I saw it, I kept telling people I wanted to be an Actress or a Nun (probably because Maria always looked so pretty). Only years later did I understand

that Christopher Plummer's Captain Von Trapp strongly contributed to my standard of ideal male beauty (tall, dark-haired, blue-eyed, aristocratic looking; make you think of anyone we know?😉). The scene where Maria & the Captain dance is my quintessential idea of slow-burn, pining romance, and I suppose it's softness colors my writing in most cases.

Beauty's dark hair & glasses - my face claim is Zooey Deschanel in her series The New Girl because, frankly, she's an idealized version of my real life appearance AND that character's personality embodies so much of what I wanted to build into Beauty. So I adore when anyone following me associates me with my Beauty. And lately, when I feel blue, I cheer myself up by watching the series to see the happy (and successfully romantic) adventures of a character that has become very like my alter ego.

As to your theory - YES. YES, I can see & I do believe I understand what you mean. Partly, I'm guessing you appreciate the fact that I'm a one Actor (and most of his characters) blog, rather than flitting from sexy celeb of the moment to the next. Loyalty trumps sex appeal, where the heart is truly invested. I wonder as well if my approach to characters falling in love is to have them gradually realize it's happening is appealing because there's 'no pressure' on the reader. And that the physical manifestations of their burdgeoning love are based in softness and awe and affection rather than lust and desire. It's always their hearts that guide the way--and that growing realization of 'oh, there you are! I guess I was waiting all along for YOU to come into my life.' I suppose that's soft and non-threatening and sincerely heart-based enough that makes it palatable for you. I am certainly glad for that!

Now...let me wish you a fabulous adventure in the months to come, and invite you to visit us here from time to time. I hope you will always find my blog a hospitable place to do so.🥰🥰

[antvnger]

Holy crap wow! That’s insane! Christmas stuff is out already and it’s September?!

That blows my mind honestly. Like I see that stuff all the time, and I don’t understand it. It seriously doesn’t make any sense to me why people throw this stuff out so early. Except to make a buck…or two or four or five….thousand.

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[antvnger]

That’s such a good episode!! I really like that episode very much.

Yes, @sinisterlyliv that’s a good choice. Episode and element

[antvnger]

To be fair, while we do complain about stores for having holiday stuff up so early, after working here during retail holiday season, I think we should focus less on the stores and more on the crazies that are making it profitable to have this stuff up so early. No store would have Christmas in September if it wasn't worth it. And we've already been having stuff sold and we aren't even done with the project! It makes me wonder who is actually buying them. Like, do people just grab a $100+ Halloween decor on the way out after grabbing some nails or whatever (I work at Lowe's), or are people actually planning out their holiday shopping for now?

If it’s Christmas, I guarantee there are plenty who are. I know people who are right now. I don’t understand it, but yeah, they are.

I guess the hardcore holiday decorators would to some level. Depending on how hardcore they are. Like me, I love to decorate for the holidays, and I feel like I go all out. But I don’t plan that far in advance. Now if I see something worth buying at the store while I’m there? Maybe. Not likely unless it was that good. But I guarantee there are lots who fit into this category.

[antvnger]

It does save time, and if I’m pushed for time, then I’ll have them help me with it.

But honestly, I love Halloween and Christmas so much, and I love going all out for them. So I usually do all of that stuff myself because it’s more fun if I do it myself.

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