#so I avoid it when I can because I cannot control how other fans feel any more than they can control how I do

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I've also noticed that fans- like long term fans- have a tendency recently to throw Taylor under the bus. Like, as soon a she does something they don't like there will be a handful of post saying things like "she's victimizing herself just like with rep" and it gives me the ick! Especially when those same people act like they're better than new fans for being there before/when rep came out. They know how bad things were, they know she was a victim of large scale bullying and yet when they're upset with her, they throw that back in her face. I just think there is a way to criticize her without sounding like the people who hate her guts.

I mean, obviously it isn’t all long term fans, because as someone who has been supporting and loving her forever it isn’t my vibe, personally. I don’t enjoy seeing it, I don’t enjoy doing it. Which isn’t to say she’s above criticism, because of course she isn’t. She’s a flawed human being just like the rest of us. She said so herself in her NYU speech - that she’s going to inevitably fuck up and all she can do is try to learn from it.

But the need a subset of fans feel to criticize her to prove they are capable of it isn’t for me. Especially when it is treated as some sort of activism. This is tumblr dot com she doesn’t even go here. If it was actually about helping someone you love do better you’d do it where she would see it, but it isn’t, because you can only help someone you love do better if she actually knows you well enough to take your advice. I also think it just tends to escalate because social media becomes an echo chamber, and people feel the need to perform their agreement by not only liking and/or reblogging, but by adding their own thoughts that are just a copy/paste/tweak of the previous opinion.

It is up to everyone to decide to stan or not, and what criteria might make them change their mind, but it seems like despite picking many hills to die on people aren’t actually leaving, they’re just hanging around hoping she changes into who they wish she was and then getting mad when she doesn’t. I love her, flaws and all, and don’t expect her to change. I think she is a person trying her best and that’s good enough for me. If it isn’t for them, that’s cool, but I don’t feel any need to seek out opposing views about my emotional support pop star. I save that kind of thing for things that actually matter.

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Guide on how to not marry the Northern Duke [2/2] - End

Title [Guide on how to not marry the Northern Duke.]

Pairing [Northen Duke! Yoongi x Reincarnated! Reader]

Genre [Fantasy Romance, Reincarnation, World in a novel AU, smut, angst]

Summary [You might be a lady with a significant house backing you but Yoongi thinks he’s not lacking anything as a husband candidate. He could give you money, real estate, jewellery, dresses everything you wanted so why did you reject him so confidently? The Duke of the North is getting a stack of marriage proposals daily that could fuel the fire in the fireplace all day long in his office so why did YOU reject him again?]

Words [10,1k]

Warnings [harassment, mention of blood, mention of hunting animals, sexual content: oral sex, unprotected sex]

Rating [+18]

A/N: This is not perfect but I hope you guys will like the ending of this story.

Masterlist // part 1 // I don't do tag lists anymore I'm sorry!

As a quote “knight”, you wear your dress and accessories like armour on your way to the battlefield which is called idle chatting with the noble ladies. You feel like you got accustomed to your circumstances by now being in a new world in a stranger's body.

You completely merged yourself with Y/N. It gives you an advantage that some things come to you naturally but on the other hand, it’s scary because if you accept this as your reality then that means you’re stuck here forever. Don’t be mistaken after you died in your previous life and reincarnated this is something to be grateful for – this is your second chance at living. Even if you’re aware of all that you keep wondering if your family back there is ever missing you or if they are living well, or if your friends or coworkers think about you sometimes. It feels like you’re living a double life. The people around you have a conception of your personality they’ve seen you grow up with them but in the end – you’re not Y/N. If you think about that you feel miserable.

They don’t know you. They now Y/N.

Even if Y/N now is – you.

There’s only one person you can be truly yourself is surprisingly when you’re with Yoongi.

Can’t make much of an excuse today as you’ve avoided attending these events altogether. Avoiding Yoongi. There’s no fantasy romance novel without a hunting competition scene so you know these gatherings quite well. The men go out hunting and the person who gets the rarest animal as prey wins the competition. All this time women are dressing up and gossiping all day. You’re not too keen on joining them today but since you were personally invited you cannot refuse even if you wanted. The moment they set their eyes on you behind their fancy fans you know they are up to no good.

This is the time when the female lead is ridiculed and humiliated so why are you in this situation when you’re supposed to be the villain bullying people? They invite you to sit but their smiles tell you they’re not really happy to see you show up in their circles.

“It’s been a while Lady Y/N.” The first to speak is Duchess Hee; as far as you know, you’ve never talked before. You greeted each other in formal settings but that’s about it. Whilst her expression is controlled you could sense hostility from her. Even though you’re not going out much Y/N is still getting new enemies on top of the old ones – can you call this the buff of the villainess? You’re unsure how to assess the situation so you decided to grasp the atmosphere first and speak carefully for now.

“Yes Duchess Hee, have you been well?” You gracefully sit on the empty chair between two ladies who continuously glare at you. Y/N is a notorious troublemaker who disregards everyone under her status so the ladies seem surprised at how coordinated you are. You just wish things go well enough that no one tries to pull your hair today.

“Of course. I haven’t seen you much these days perhaps were you sick?” It’s obvious that she’s trying to mock you. Everyone knows that you were on probation by the order of the duke after the mishaps you created in the social circles.

You have no idea why she’s attacking you all of a sudden but you need to be smart about this.

The rule is that the one who gets angry first is the one who loses so you need to keep your cool no matter how they try to provoke you. If a reasonable amount of time passes then you can excuse yourself that you’re not feeling well and you can get out of here.

You need to hold out until then.

“No, I’ve been well thank you for asking. I’ve been reflecting on my actions during that time. If I caused trouble I hope the ladies could forgive me with a gracious heart.” Smooth. Some of them seem taken aback that you apologised so they are momentarily at loss of words. Some awkwardly laugh it off and some keep glaring. The duchess however keeps her eyes on you probably trying to find some fault in you to get started.

Since Y/N had a bad temper her visceral reaction was to get angry at the slightest disrespect but you’re different. You’re not that easy to provoke. You’re a modern woman who worked in a capitalistic company for years – some backhanded rude comment won’t do much.

“It feels like the lady is a different person. How unexpected. What could have made you change so much? Perhaps .. a new lover?” You almost spit out the tea when you hear the duchess’ inquiry. This is so unexpected that don’t know what to say for a moment.

“Ah, yes? Well, no I’m not seeing anyone at the moment.” You try to cover up your slip-up but the duchess’ smile is getting bigger but not in a good way. What is she up to?

Is she on the Min Yoongi fanclub as well; because that would explain so much.

“I see. I must have heard wrong then.” She let it go too easily, something smells fishy here. After that, the conversation finally drifted over to other topics like gem mines and dresses. It was clear they were talking in a way that you couldn’t contribute to the conversation but you’re not too sorry about that as you were not going to participate in the first place. Their plan to make you isolated in a conversation to make you feel bad is surprisingly mild. You’ve been expecting much worse.

“The tea is very fragrant. Recently my family imported jasmine tea so I hope the ladies enjoy this fresh taste.” To be honest the tea is pretty bland but everyone agrees and the marchioness looks pleased by the other's reaction. When you’re not saying anything they all look at you.

Since you feel pressured by their gazes you lift the cup to get another sip as you’ve not touched your tea all this time. You prefer coffee however, if you said that it would just be another thing to nitpick.

“Right, it’s delicious.” For some reason the ladies look impatient, they were sure this would work but you’re not reacting how they want you to. No matter how much backstabbing they are doing with their politely crafted insults you’re not budging.

It’s subtle but the lady on your right makes eye connect with the Duchess right before her hand slips and your dress is ruined by the dark liquid. She made it seem like an accident but there’s no way her hand would naturally slip like that – it was intentional.

It’s hot though. Your smile never falters after all this is a good opportunity to make your leave natural.

“Oh my, I’m so sorry my grip is feeble lately. I hope you forgive me.” You internally sigh at the bad acting; she’s even snickering under her nose behind that fan it’s clear what the intention was. She’s not really sorry she just needs an excuse to blame it all on you. If you get angry they will say you make a big deal out of a small mistake. They all saw it so there’s no way they don’t know it wasn’t an accident. There’s no point in proving or arguing.

“I see, maybe you should see a doctor about it it would be unfortunate if the lady gets sick. I will take my leave then I have to change my dress but I hope the ladies will enjoy the tea.” What you want to say is: – Eat shit all of you. You suppress a smirk as you take your leave it’s satisfying enough to see their angry faces since you dodged their attempts at bad-mouthing you. Many people witnessed the scene as you’re surrounded by noble ladies at each table – now they can’t spread false rumours as there are so many witnesses. If you got angry everyone would probably believe the twisted tales they told each other later but you managed to leave them with nothing.

This is pretty satisfying. Fufu.

Even if you’re drenched in tea Y/N is still pretty and eyes naturally follow you when you leave.

“Are you alright?” You’re surprised to meet Namjoon on your way back he holds up a handkerchief so you can clean your hands. You tried not to pay attention to him since earlier but you cannot ignore the fact that he’s been following you since this morning.

You didn’t think you could get away with rejecting the soon-to-be-blackened third male lead (as the second is your brother) but this is too much. What is Min Yoongi trying to do? Annoy you to death with his aid following you around unless you say yes or what?

“I’m not going to explain since you saw everything.” You narrow your eyes down on him but you accept the handkerchief nonetheless from his outstretched hands. Even as you start walking again he keeps following behind you.

“Do you want to say something Mr?” You stop abruptly if you have to listen to him anyway you will just listen to him now. You’re pretty tired from earlier you had to be on your best behaviour even though it was clear they were trying to provoke you.

“Ah, yes. I apologise but the Duke would like you to think about what happened last night and give him a positive answer.” You snort after hearing that – not too ladylike.

“You mean marry the duke?” Namjoon nods. “Ha, alright..” After a moment of followed silence,-“ I considered it again and I’m still saying no.” You turn around thinking that it was the end of it but Namjoon catches up with your steps in no time.

“Can I at least know the reason?” He asked timidly. Quite persistent, well he’s the only one who was with him till the end.

“Like I said I want love in a marriage. If the duke can’t love me then I can’t marry him.” This is good. If Namjoon tells him this he will probably give up now. You come up with such brilliant ideas today that you’re pleased with yourself. However – this was not the end.

Yoongi is riding a horse through the forest he already caught his prey so he’s not too interested in the scenery he’s already on his way back when his aid Namjoon appears.

“Did you tell her my message?” Namjoon bows in front of him as a greeting but looks nervous. He’s thinking about how could he tell the master that the lady rejected him again without a hint of hesitation in her voice. Reading his aid’s mind Yoongi’s brows furrow in distaste. She might be a lady with a significant house backing her but Yoongi thinks he’s not lacking anything as a husband candidate. He could give her money, real estate, jewellery, dresses everything she wanted so why did she reject him so confidently? The Duke of the North is getting a stack of marriage proposals daily that could fuel the fire in the fireplace all day long in his office so why did she reject him again?

“The lady told me to tell the duke she won’t marry you if you don’t love her. She wants a love marriage, not an arranged marriage.” Namjoon is carefully delivering her message to the duke who looks deep in thought after hearing that. Namjoon is also astonished by the fact that you don’t want to marry him. He has the wealth and authority which every woman is after. To think that she demeaned the duke to love her is insane.

He's afraid to see his master’s reaction. In all his years Yoongi never got interested in a woman before if anything it looked like he didn’t even see them. At Balls, he never danced no matter who asked or who tried to get close. The duke was never interested.

The duke didn’t answer but Namjoon thought that this was not the end of this. Yoongi seemed deep in his thoughts all the way back to the camp. The servants unloaded the bear he caught; a rare black bear that will probably ensure his win at the end of the hunting festival.

Back at his tent, he ordered a bunch of romance novels and while Namjoon found it a weird request he always did everything that his master ordered and then the research started.

He had once disinterested eyes but after your rejection he caught himself studying you whenever he could lay his eyes on you. His interest is rarely piqued but you keep showing him interesting things. The mystery of what you’re thinking in your head is driving him mad.

You softly hummed as you were getting ready for the award ceremony you’re in a good mood since you haven’t heard from Namjoon after that and when this is over you could go back to the mansion.

You only listened halfheartedly to the speech the king was giving as you already know who will become today’s winner. Or at least you thought so. In the original, the crown prince got first place with a deer but now everyone is celebrating Yoongi. He shines brightly his hair is perfectly styled and his dark uniform fits him perfectly he’s circled by nobles offering endless congratulations but he looks disinterested in them like always. He keeps looking over the faces when his eyes finally meet yours.

This is not how it was supposed to go. Whilst things deviated from the original little by little with your intervention this scene shouldn’t have changed. Yoongi didn’t have that many scenes within the novel as he usually showed disinterest in most things. You can’t imagine why he would win this competition when he hates bothersome things.

Oh. No, Why is he coming your way all of a sudden?

No one in the crowd expected him to stop right before you. No one actually believed he would accept the flower crown as Yoongi had never been involved with a woman before even if a lot of women desired him. But now he’s standing right in front of you handing you the flower crown. Your mouth would be hanging open by now if it hadn’t been for the large crowd that gathered around the two of you. Your father and brother who was standing next to you seem just as shocked as you are.

“What is the duke doing?” You try to push the crown away but Yoongi is relentless. If you won’t accept it gracefully he’s going to put it on your head with his own hands. This would be funny how he places the crown on you with a face that is devoid of any emotions.

“Are you going to reject me?” Hah! He knows well that you can’t. It’s tradition for the winner of the hunting competition to present the flower crown to the woman he wants to court or to a lover. With this Min Yoongi just announced to the world that he’s interested in you!

No matter what you say at this point the angry ladies whose eyes are stabbing you in the back with their intense gazes wouldn’t believe you in a million years that you’re not trying to covet their beloved duke. For a moment you wished you could be like him and read his thoughts for once.

You’re furious inside but you can’t show that. Even if you don’t like it you have to gracefully bow and accept his gift. Your eyes are a different story as you discreetly shoot arrows with your gaze. This means you have to attend the ball as his partner as well which is held on the last day. Originally you wouldn’t want to attend but now you’re obligated to.

Everyone’s attention was clearly on you and that made you sick.

You hurried away before anyone could ask you anything and you decided to rest at the family tent before you have to start getting ready for that bothersome ball. Who does he think he is? If you get entangled with the main leads no one can predict what will happen to you in the future. Normally you would be happy to be the centre of your favourite character’s attention but not when your life is on the line.

You can understand now when they say reading and experiencing something are two completely different things.

You’ve never thought that you would treat this way your favourite character to be honest you should be happy, even if he has an ulterior motive that is unknown to you for now, you’re the only woman he ever asked to marry and you actually thought about helping him somehow but the opportunity is too sudden. Also, what will you do if the story ends? If he lives and you live. You can’t live with him forever you know that this feeling and excitement and affection you have for him will fade away. You’ve always thought of him as a character you liked but he’s not in a book anymore; he’s right in front of your nose. There’s no way you can live in a loveless marriage for the rest of your life.

Can he even fall in love with you? Even at the last line he never looked at a woman. Maybe he falsely interpreted your words from before? Maybe he thought he had to show everyone he loves you like in a fake dating situation. Yes, if you talk to him he will definitely understand.

With a newfound determination, you left to look for him.

Namjoon doesn’t show outwardly that he’s surprised by your sudden visit but you could tell by the sudden hitch in his voice while greeting you.

“-Lady..” You ignore his greeting and go past him inside the inner tent. You’re perplexed for a moment when you see Yoongi’s shirtless back. He was in the middle of changing his clothes when you barged in but he doesn’t look fazed by it.

Namjoon hurriedly follows after you sweat is rolling down his temple as he apologises to his lord for letting you in. You’ve gone too far to back down now so you stand upright and cross your arms.

“Please, lady..” Namjoon struggles to try to get you out before his master unleashes his sword. He doesn’t like to be interrupted. You have no idea that Namjoon is fearing for your life but he actually admires you for your boldness not many can stand in front of his master without trembling in fear and you kept rejecting his marriage proposal. If anyone can be a match for his master it could be you.

“Go back I’ll handle it.” Yoongi dismisses Namjoon but he’s hesitant for a moment before he decides to leave the two of you alone. He has faith in his master that he won’t kill a noble.

During the flower crown ordeal you had so many things to say to him, curse him ask him why – so why is that you’re suddenly speechless in front of him? Yoongi drops the used shirt on the sofa. He can see anger in your eyes. He’s trying to figure out what you’re thinking.

He catches himself thinking that your reactions are quite amusing.

This is a first for him.

After you get over the initial shock of seeing his fit body you gather yourself to speak.

“Does the duke not care about my consent? The duke should know what it means to give out a flower crown. I don’t remember being the duke’s lover.” You’re fuming with both of your hands struggling in a fist.

Instead of replying the duke turned around and started looking for something on his messy desk. When he found it he approached you. Without realising you received it from him and when you looked at the book by the title alone you could tell it was a romance novel.

You can’t picture why the duke has that.

“You said you want love. I’m learning how to love you.” You’re rendered speechless by his words. He looks so serious that otherwise, you would think he’s joking. 

“Do you want to marry me that badly?” You ask in disbelief. This doesn’t make any sense.

“Yes.”

He didn’t even hesitate and your heart felt weird because of it.

“Why?”

You’re quite close. Probably as close to him as anyone was ever before. His face doesn’t show anything but you can’t just accept his words. “Why are you willing to go to such lengths to marry me?”

You look deeply into his eyes. Yoongi realises you’re not scared of him. This is also a first. Everyone who knows about his achievements fears him. He’s the Duke of the North, a war demon who never lost a single battle. His hands reach out to touch your face and as he expected you don’t flinch away if anything it looks like your eyes sparkle in the dim lights. He sees fire in them.

“I can’t tell you the reason unless you marry me.” Only family members can know about his powers, he can’t go against traditions. You’re smart and witty and that answer doesn’t satisfy you at all.

Shouldn’t you know everything before you marry someone? – Most of all the reason why they want to marry you.

“What is the duke thinking about? I can’t tell.” You sigh disappointed by his answer but you perk up when he replies.

“That’s what I want to know too.” At that moment his thumb runs over your lower lip feeling with his fingers how you take in a huge breath of fresh air. Your eyes go wide as if you come to a conclusion but before he could ask you about it Namjoon appears again making the two of you break up.

Suddenly conscious of the intimacy of your bodies you step back and Yoongi’s hand falls from your face.

“I’m sorry to interrupt but the lady’s maid is here. The maid said that the lady should start getting ready.” Right. You forgot about the banquet. Knowing that you can’t delay any longer you decide to leave for now but it’s clear that the conversation is not over and Yoongi could feel it too.

“Alright. Please pick me up when I’m done preparing.” Yoongi nods and you leave just like that.

He looks down at the thumb that touched your lips he read this inside the book that could be good to seduce you but he needs more practice. Feeling up your lips was not unpleasant like he thought it would though. You keep surprising him and his chest is starting to feel weird whenever he sees you.

You need to stick to him during the ball this is your best strategy if you don’t want to be chewed out by hungry wolves. Now all of Yoongi’s fanclub is going for your throat so you need to be as close as possible to ward them off. Thinking about how everyone’s eyes will be on you tonight is giving you a headache.

The maid selected a beautiful deep purple dress for you to wear with the appropriate heels and accessories. Your hair is in an updo with some locks framing your face. In this period it takes too long to get ready but there’s nothing you can do about it.

Even if you go while looking pretty or not everyone will try to find fault in you. You can hear it in your head how they will whisper that you somehow bewitched the duke.

No one can be ready when you step into the ballroom while holding Yoongi’s arm your outfits ridiculously matching despite the short notice. Everyone is gossiping like you expected.

They don’t even try to be subtle about it.

The first to approach you is your father and brother and your fingers unconsciously tighten around the duke’s sleeve. The three men exchange pleasantries but your father doesn’t like beating around the bush for long before he asks what everyone is curious about.

“I had no idea the duke was interested in my daughter.” You virtually facepalm yourself when hearing that. That is like saying to my face that I’m no match for the duke. You were known to be notorious but this is getting ridiculous. He should be saying that the duke is not good enough for you!

“I fell in love with her at first sight.” Everyone is silently eavesdropping and it looks like their ears and mouths are reaching the floor by now. Your reaction is not too far behind as well. You were thinking: ‘Don’t tell me that he read this in one of his romance novels as well’.

Can you even avoid getting married to him at this point now? Unlikely as how everyone is so focused on your life at the moment. It feels like you become the century’s sensation with this.

“Haha. The duke is just joking.” You try to lighten the mood but you can’t really get Yoongi and your father out of that weird exchange of looks. If he wants them to believe this he should say it with some emotion damn it. You want to yell this into his face but you don’t of course.

“No, I intend on marrying the lady.” Now he has done it. But seeing your father’s shocked expression is funny. You don’t think there’s anyone in the ballroom who’s not left in shock after hearing that. Even a lady from the Duke’s fan club fainted hearing that.

After your father left many noble couples approached you inquiring about you two was the first thing everyone did but Yoongi didn’t say much regarding the matter besides what he told your father and you were not going to elaborate further so soon after the men talked about business and the wife asked you some general polite questions. Going around for so long soon your feet started to hurt and the dress felt uncomfortable to wear. All you wanted to do was go back to your room and get some rest.

“I’m not feeling too well so I think I’m going to leave.” As a last resort, you interrupt the men’s conversation to get Yoongi’s attention. You reached your limit and just thinking about what happened today makes you feel exhausted. After you got your nanny kicked out you thought that things would calm down for a while but it seems like you were mistaken.

Now you have to deal with an even bigger trouble and his name is Min Yoongi.

“What’s wrong?” Yoongi scans your body looking for the cause of your unwellness which is surprising. You didn’t think he would ask about what’s wrong with you. You expected him to let you go with some curtesy words and while his face is as impassive as ever he is looking only at you.

Thinking about that makes a small shade of pink being introduced to your face. Maybe you have a fever. Yes. That’s probably it.

Reluctant to say it in front of the noble couple you reach for him to whisper into his ears so no one else could hear you. “My feet hurt my heels are uncomfortable to wear.” Thinking that it’s enough to explain why you want to leave you turn around to actually go when the duke holds you by the waist sliding one of his hands under your legs to pick you up. You almost let out an unladylike shriek but you manage to hold it in at the last minute. Your hands circle his neck to find stability.

“What are you doing?” Dropping the honorifics in your panic you whisper yell at him to let you down. This is so embarrassing.

 “I read it in a book if a lady tells you their feet hurt you need to carry them.” What kind of stupid book that is – you want to yell but you just lower your head so your eyes don’t meet with anyone as Yoongi carries you out.

Now you’re really not going to live this down. If some were skeptical now they are actually convinced that Yoongi is in love with you.

Can you even call this fake dating? He literally said he is going to make himself fall in love with you so you marry him!

You sit bonelessly on the sofa in Yoongi’s tent. He’s actually going to treat the wound on your feet as you try to grasp the situation. You feel exhausted now that you got to sit down.

If you think this through there’s no way you can claim it now that you have nothing to do with him. It might be your best bet to marry him. From your conversation earlier you keep thinking about what he said about wanting to know what you’re thinking. His sudden interest in you probably has something to do with his mind-reading powers. Could this be that he can’t read your thoughts? That could be possible.

He wouldn’t have asked otherwise so strangely and you keep thinking about being possessed in a novel and refer to him as your favourite character there’s no way he wouldn’t ask about it if he knew. Maybe…

Maybe he can’t read your thoughts because you’re not originally from this world?  – Y/N’s family’s power is to block powers so that could be a good explanation as well. You can’t really ask for confirmation since you’re not supposed to know that he can read minds.

You don’t realise you kept staring at him while you were deep in your thoughts. You wince when he puts the ointment on your wound roughly your hand goes to hold his wrist to stop him.

“Be gentle it hurts.” You look at him with a frown but he actually listens as he becomes more careful with his touches. His hand is full of callouses and cuts probably from wielding his sword. Now that you remember it he was called a war monster in the novel. Most times when he was mentioned he was looped in with his war achievements or his lack of interest in women. It’s interesting to know these little things that his desk is messy and that he’s not as scary as everyone makes him out to be. He can be quite gentle.

“Thank you.” This time you’re sincere.

This is the calmest tone you’ve ever spoken to him now that you’ve realised. You tried to keep your distance as much as you could you were quite rude to him until now. You’re not going to apologise though your anger was justified he did get you into this mess without your consent.

The silence that fills the space is not uncomfortable for some reason.

“It’s just a small cut you will be fine.” His tone is like usual but his actions cannot be told to be.

“W-What are you doing?” His lips are touching your feet. A small warm kiss is planted on your foot as if he’s wishing for your pain to subside. The duke is a rational man – this is probably another scene from that damn novel but why is your heart beating so loudly in your ears? After kissing it his eyes directly meet yours as if he’s searching for something in the depths.

“Did your pain go away? I want to know if the book had the facts right. It doesn’t seem medically accurate.” You’re too dumbfounded to reply but after regaining your senses you pull your feet away and the duke finally gets up from his kneeling position.

“This is not about the pain! It’s to make the girl’s heart flutter!” You avoid his gaze looking to the right after your sudden exclamation. You can’t believe you really have to explain this to him.

“Then did your heart flutter?” This is a dangerous thought – but maybe – just maybe his little head tilt looked a little cute. What should you do? Lie? Tell the truth?

“Everyone would be flustered in that kind of situation.” You try to rationalise what you’re feeling right now is not attraction. It’s going to fade away – he’s just a character you liked in a book. No need to get worked up.

“So – are you going to ask me again or not?” Trying to hide your embarrassment you get to the point. You decided not to run away from him – at least for now. You can come up with a plan later and if it doesn’t work out then divorce is still a thing in this period too.

“Will you marry me now?” He looks surprised. While it’s hard to read his expression you can disamble some of his emotions if you look for it hard enough. After all, he’s not that mysterious Duke of the North – but you don’t think the readers would be disappointed finding this out.

He’s still charming.

“Alright. Let’s get married.”

You said that but you still have some concerns. The novel’s development is truly out of hand this time. It’s also concerning that you haven’t seen the main protagonists yet. Taehyung is absent from the hunting competition but the main couple should meet during the imperial ball.

However – everyone only talks about your marriage with the duke. You were not sure if it was safe to marry the duke but to be honest, this could work in your favour. Now you can’t be the villainess who falls in love with Taehyung at first sight since you will be a married woman. If you don’t interfere they will have no reason to execute you and your favourite character won’t kill you because for some reason he needs you alive – so this is not so bad. Your reputation is slowly but rising among the aristocrats who witnessed your behaviour as you haven’t caused much trouble. If you exclude the scandal with Min Yoongi but it wasn’t even your fault.

Your father didn’t say a word when you said you were going to ride with Yoongi back to the capital. Your brother was a different story – he did try to object but failed as your father dismissed him. You don’t delude yourself that things will be that easy. Whilst your father didn’t object outwardly now because of the public eye it doesn’t mean he can’t reject the proposal when it’s inside the mansion. Wouldn’t be so bad to get out of that house either as you have mostly bad memories from that place.

The duke delayed his trip back to the north until your marriage is settled so now you’re on your way to the capital. Even if you don’t hold a big wedding both families have to agree to the marriage and then give the marriage application to the royal palace for registration only then it could be a legal marriage. It will take some time until everything is sorted out but that’s fine since you need to meet with Jungkook. You need to tell him the news but he probably knows about it by now. Still, you can’t rest until the house of Summer is taken down or someone else takes over his place preferably a better duke than him because a war would not help you survive here either.

“Will you tell me now why we have to be married?” The journey back to the capital will be quite long you decide to get some information out of him if you have to share the carriage with him anyway. The swaying of the carriage makes you uneasy so it’s better to focus on something else.

“We’re not married yet.” No shit Sherlock. You hold back the reflex to roll your eyes. He would look at you like a crazy woman if he could read your thoughts so you’re almost 100% sure this is the reason he wants to marry you.

“If you tell me doesn’t that mean I cannot take back my word since I would know your secret, Duke Min?” Your persuasion might work at least he’s thinking about telling you now.

It’s silent inside there’s no other sound than the carriage rattling on the road and when you’re about to give up trying to persuade him to tell you the atmosphere around the duke changes.

He’s always serious but he looks even more so now.

“Our family’s power is to read the human mind.” You take some fake time to process this – you can’t give him the suspicion that you already know about his powers. So you keep quiet and appear to be thinking before you speak up. Now – this is something to start with:

“So—you read minds. What does that have to do with me? Perhaps, you can’t read my thoughts?” It doesn’t seem like he suspects you he probably thinks you have good intuition. Hopefully.

“I can’t. But that’s not all.” Now you’re actually curious. You stay in your seat anticipating his answer when he instead touches your cheek again. This is not the time to recite some romance novel bullshit. “If I touch you like this I can’t read anyone's thoughts.”

This is crazy. Not just you – but no one. Do you really have some kind of power that you’re unaware of? Even if your family’s power is to deflect other powers that wouldn’t answer why touching you blocks out everything. In theory, it should only work on you.

“You really can’t hear anything?” You’re a bit excited this is new. You carelessly grab his hand that’s holding your cheek startling Yoongi in the process. Thanks to the bumpy road you lose your balance and land right on your companion’s lap. He grabbed you without thinking holding you by the waist both of your legs hanging off to the side your face excruciatingly close to his.

“Sorry, I lost my footing.” You try to get up but the road is really not letting you off the hook. If anything Yoongi has to pull you closer to not fall over with you in tow.

“Were your eyes always this pretty?” One hand goes to put some hair behind your ears. W-What is he saying now? You’re confused for only a moment before you realise. Romance novel.

After this trip is over you really want to know what kind of trashy romance novel he was reading as a reference and you would appreciate it if he did not try all of it out on you in such unexpected situations.

“I can’t believe the duke really said that with a straight face. If you want my heart to flutter you have to do better than that.” You were half joking and half serious but he doesn’t have to know that.

“Like what?” You didn’t expect him to ask but he found you in a playful mood. Since he wants to become your lover you’re going to prank him. After that, he will think twice before reciting such cheesy lines.

“A kiss probably.” You try to smile seductively with just the corners of your lips tilting upwards but that smile soon remains frozen on your face as warm chapped lips meet with yours.

It’s a kiss. The duke is actually kissing you.

It’s awkward your lips are touching but there’s nothing else. To think the duke doesn’t know how to kiss is funny.

You’re the first to pull back as you can’t keep back your laughter anymore. “I guess there’s one thing the duke is not good at.”

His face is as serious as ever but if you look closely he kinda looks offended by your statement. His hand tightens around you it looks like he has a competitive side to him as well. You keep learning new things about the duke.

It’s probably an impulse to prove you wrong but he pulls you back by holding the back of your head in place. It’s not just a peck now it’s transforming into a real kiss as he moves his lips over yours. It’s clumsy but somewhat charming. His tongue comes out unexpectedly but you’re not gonna stop now – you open your mouth to welcome his tongue and intertwine it with yours. It’s messy but it does make your heart flutter.

His breath on your face, his fingers in your hair you’re hyperaware of every little body part that touches his.

Before you get entirely lost in the sensation you pull back, stopping the kiss before it could devour you. You’re not the only one breathing hard the duke is panting as well. His hand is still around your head and his touch is especially gentle.

This weirdly romantic moment is interrupted by the trusted aid Namjoon yet again. It seems like he comes always at the worst moments.

The ride back home felt a lot shorter with Yoongi than when you were on your way to the hunting festival with your family. You feel shy. You get off Yoongi’s lap before the carriage door opens and someone sees you in a compromising position. The nation is shocked enough as it is.

“Maybe my heart did flutter a bit.” The words are quietly uttered but you’re sure the wind carried it away enough for the duke to hear it however, before he could register the hidden meaning behind your words then the carriage door opens and you accept Namjoon’s hand to get off first.

You’re too shy to watch his reaction or afraid to find the lack of it. Only Namjoon can see the rare sigh of his master looking somewhat flushed but he dismisses it, after all, the weather is quite hot here in the capital. He could be just feeling hot due to the long journey. The clothes they bought are not suitable for this warm weather but neither of them complained as this will be a mere visit so there’s no need to buy new clothes that would never be worn again after leaving for the north again.

The schedule suffered a setback as the duke suddenly proposed marriage and until everything was settled the departure was delayed. Yoongi offers you his arm to hold onto and you after a moment of thinking intertwine your arms going in the direction of your father’s office. You spotted the family carriage so they arrived by the time you got off. It’s not farfetched to think they expected your visit as both your father and brother seem to be waiting for the two of you. They are not visibly displeased but deep in their thoughts.

Your brother’s eyes automatically go to your joined hands wearing an uncomfortable expression. Of course, they wouldn’t want to let you go so soon. A part of you like to think selfishly and blame them. A thought enters your mind: they probably want to keep you here since you started to be useful lately. On the other hand, your calmer mind thinks more about the truth that they feel ashamed of their behaviour. If you leave them so early there’s no way they could amend their wrongdoings. Your brother feels guilty after everything that happened and there’s a hint of overprotectiveness in him as well as your brother. Even if you know all this you have no reason to provide them with forgiveness. A person needs to take responsibility for their actions.

You were not planning to leave this early but you decided to accept his proposal now that you know his secret they wouldn’t let you live if you suddenly tried to escape or go back on your word.

Even if you decided not too long ago to go through with it you’re shaking with nerves. You tried to make yourself feel better that you could divorce him once everything is over but now knowing the truth there’s no way you could cut ties so easily. While worrying won’t solve anything you’re still anxious. This is the best you can do for now since being his wife and him needing you means that he won’t kill you even if someone orders it. The plot has already changed but there’s no guarantee that the story won’t try to change back to its original.

Whilst your father looked reluctant to agree to this marriage he didn’t try to stop you surprisingly. He asked you if that’s what you want and when you answered with a yes he relented.

Your brother was a different matter – he kept glaring at Yoongi throughout the entire ordeal. Fortunately, Yoongi did not pay much attention to his animosity as they politely spoke about the preparations that needed to be done. There won’t be a big wedding that you are thankful for. You’re already the talk of the town there’s no need for more publicity.

In the last couple of days, everything seems to settle one by one quietly. The palace agreed to the marriage without objections however they set a condition which you were not expecting. The king wants to throw a ball before you head over to the north in honour of your marriage but you feel like there’s an ulterior motive behind this. Even if you suspect it you have no room to refuse the king so you and Yoongi agree to attend.

Leaving the house undetected in the meantime becomes quite challenging as the wedding preparations were reduced to be completed in two weeks you were moving in a tight schedule, dress fitting, and writing all the invitations you did not have much time on your hands to sleep not to tell about you private matters that you wanted to take care of before you permanently head to the north. The house staff also seemed busy with the preparations. A room was prepared for Yoongi and his men to stay in the house you couldn’t just let your future husband sleep in an inn whether your family liked him staying or not, there are enough rumours surrounding the two of you as is.

The preparations were not the only obstacle standing in your way sneaking out but the duke decided to follow you almost everywhere. While writing the invitations he used your office as his attending to his paperwork constantly being near you even if you were doing other things in the same room and when you asked why he had to work in your room he just answered with:

“Spending time together is a sign of affection.” He looks up from his stack of papers. That damn romance novel again.

“Have you heard of the line that ‘distance makes the heart grow fonder’ you should try it sometime.” You shake your head, murmuring it under your nose that he’s unable to hear you but when he looks at you questioningly you decide not to dare and repeat it.

One of these days you were feeling tempted to find that book and burn it so he cannot use it again as a reference. But you have to think about this, in worst case scenario he finds an even more romance infused book with ridiculous lines and plots to recreate. It’s not like you could learn romance through a book but you need to give credit where it’s due as he puts real effort into it at least. Looking at his unique circumstances as a child and as an adult you could see why he would want to learn romance from a book in a practical way. He was never showered with parental love and he had no means of growing fond of people too as he could hear their thoughts. He had no reason to. The means are clumsy but he’s trying hard to fall in love with you and making you fall for him as he put it. You never had a boyfriend who took dating this seriously before. It’s not that everything he does annoy you. You started to grow fond of the romancing lines that he recited with an indifferent face.

He's always honest which makes him a bit unapproachable at first but after spending time with him his honesty while it’s blunt he’s not saying anything out of malice. He’s just too sincere. It’s refreshing as you don’t have to look for underlying meaning. If you ask him something he answers without hesitation it’s good since you don’t have any misunderstandings. When you asked why he wanted you to fall in love with him he simply answered that ‘it means you won’t leave me’. You were so surprised that you started laughing his honesty was so absurd. It was kind of cute.

It took a considerable amount of time and scheming for you to finally be able to meet with the information guild in secret. Jungkook expected you to come by one of these days so he was not too surprised to see you. It felt like greeting an old friend he even teased you about suddenly getting married while having some good tea as company. Now that you both earned each other’s thrust you told him everything he needs to be wary of while operating secretly. Your purpose is to stop the war from happening and you need help to bring down the Duke of Summer but you need to be extra careful with your steps not to seem suspicious. You part ways with a wedding gift as Jungkook called it in your pockets. It’s a communication sphere that you could easily carry with you. It was a short meeting but you couldn’t help it as you had to go back to the wedding preparations.

You’re getting the jitters as you lay on your bed. Tomorrow is the d-day. You’re actually thankful for your brother for once. His purpose was probably just to separate you but that meant you had all day to yourself to get your thoughts in order before the grand wedding without Yoongi looming over your shoulders. It seemed at the last minute you had different opinions on small weddings as you had to send out tons of invitations. The maids made sure everything was perfect for the big day – this is the busiest and most carefree atmosphere this place ever got. It would have been a lot easier if you didn’t need to walk on eggshells all this time. Dodging the servant's rude comments and their ignorant behaviour they all changed when the masters started to change.

You’re only sorrowful that the real Y/N couldn’t experience this. The misunderstanding has been cleared but she’s nowhere to be found. Will she ever come back or you’re stuck as her forever? Time can only tell how things will work out in the end. But one thing is certain you’re not going to give up and you will live through this ending.

Yoongi is even more handsome when formally dressed he doesn’t look nervous unlike you. You join hands at the altar and the priest tells you your wows. The exchange ends like a blur with a light kiss on your lips. The rings on your fingers glisten in the bright light.

You’re pronounced as husband and wife. You’ve married your favourite character. This is crazy but this man in front of you is now your husband. You bit all ten of your nails by the time you’re done preparing for the wedding night. You were bathed very throughoutly and put in a nice nightgown that you haven’t seen before in your life.

Yoongi is already sitting at the edge of the bed when you enter the bedroom and he looks relaxed after his bath.

You later learn that he’s only relaxed because he has no idea what you should be doing on a wedding night.

You were aware of his unfortunate childhood and that the previous duchess and duke were not on the best terms with each other if you could call people who never met each other after getting married even ‘be in a relationship’ and now you’re convinced that their wedding night might have been the start of their miserable life.

Once the head of house Min gets engaged they get a script of how to produce an heir Yoongi explained but seeing the document yourself you feel sorry for the previous duchesses’ they had to endure a loveless marriage and probably a painful first time where their opinions were not even considered.

Sticking it in is not how a married couple should have sex. You don’t know who wrote this but this person clearly never had good sex. It’s weird to hold this piece of paper in your hand but since your marriage with Yoongi is not an ordinary one you learned that he got this paper this morning urgently to read before the ceremony. Even Namjoon were unaware of the contents as he was only the messenger. Arranged marriage is how house Min kept their bloodline going by getting sold daughters living miserable lives. You don’t want to be one of them. Thankfully you have an advantage that the previous duchess did not have; a power that could contain their madness.

You’re sure Yoongi will never try to hurt you if he wants you to be with him and provide him with blissful silence.

“If you try to do what this text says I’ll definitely never forgive you.” You toss the paper to the side after tearing it apart.

Yoongi’s in luck since he married a modern woman. You know enough about sex for the both of you to get a pleasant experience and you don’t think topping it would be much of a feat after reading what the previous heads were doing to their woman. No wonder without knowing or receiving love it would be hard to know about these things. The wives were too consumed by hate because of everything that had happened to them and the dukes had no idea how to love their wives at the brink of their madness. That is truly tragic.

You don’t believe however that Yoongi is not capable of feelings.

Even after spending this short time with him, you could see his character changing and you’re not only speaking about his determination to learn romance through those trashy romance novels. He actually listens, laughs and feels jealous. He used to be pretending to get close to you but you don’t think he did that kiss just to play out a scene. He does things impulsively too.

Initially, his interest was the only thing that fueled him to get closer and keep you by any means.

“What am I supposed to do then?”

This is crazy. Are you really allowed to corrupt your favourite character? Duh, you’re his wife now. The little you in your head reminds you. Y/N is you now even if you tried to deny it so many times this is your reality. You need to stop thinking that the life you’re living is someone else’s and you need to forget that these are characters in a novel.

You’re living in this novel now and this is your reality.

“You should kiss me.” A switch just flipped inside your brain. Just like in the carriage, you straddle Yoongi and his hands grip you through the small gown you wear that doesn’t conceal anything. It’s so thin he could feel your warmth. Yoongi sees your overall aura change, you suddenly look possessed. It stirs something in him seeing you riled up.

The consequences be damned you’re going to enjoy your wedding night with your favourite character.

– The war, the family struggle, the main characters that you haven’t met yet all of that can wait one more night at least. –

Yoongi kisses your lips gripping your bare thighs always listening so well. His tongue messily enters between your lips and you follow along with his rhythm the lack of his experience makes your job easier to dominate the kiss. Push and pull until both of you pant like dogs into each other’s open mouths. The blood from his head rushes to his lower regions. Unaware that he’s getting very aroused by your actions but you could feel the outline of his cock through your thin clothes. He might not know what to call what you do to him but he surely knows how that makes him feel.

That piece of paper definitely didn’t prepare him for you.

Your lips on his neck and your wandering hands are overwhelming him but he doesn’t dare to push you away, no, it feels too good to do that. You not only give him peace of mind without knowing what everyone thinks around him but show him new sensations and make him feel in a certain way. Feel loved. Even the slight pain that he feels as you mark him up is a pleasurable experience for him. Only after you get rid of his clothes that he sees his own cock fully hard. Your hand and mouth are already around it.

Sounds keep escaping his lips embarrassing whines and moans as your hot lips curve around his cock.

It’s warm wet and tight inside that Yoongi’s back arches off the bed shooting his load soon into your awaiting mouth seeing the signs of his orgasm. He cums embarrassingly fast. He doesn’t know what to do to contain this fire licking its way up inside his veins he follows your directions kissing you all over mimicking you hoping that it will feel good for you too, flipping you over as he hovers over your body kissing every inch of your skin making you moan as your fingers card through his messy hair. You hold his face close to your chest his lips kissing over your breasts and nipples. He reaches your pussy with your guidance his tongue first darts out to get a taste. Yoongi can feel his heart beat like crazy you’re wet and glistening for him. He keeps licking and flicking the tip of his tongue over your puffy bud loving how you say his name when he does something you especially like.

His lips are coated in your essence love how messy he gets with his licks. No matter what he does you keep shaking under him sighing his name. Your husband keeps your legs apart deflowering you sinfully with his tongue insistently rolling over and over your sensitive clit until you cum with a cry of his name. You pull him up for a heated kiss catching your breath but your hand impatiently aligns his cock with your wet opening.

Attempting to describe the feeling of how your warm walls hug him is futile but you can guess how good it feels for him when you see his eyes tightly shut and his mouth hanging open in a silent moan. His hips move on their own after you show him the way the initial discomfort after being stretched soon ebbed into a dull ache replaced with pleasure after some perfectly angled thrust on his part. He gets cockier and more confident with his movements as you moan louder when he finds a good spot he’s getting addicted to the feeling when you tighten around him.

He could do this all night with you. With your legs tightly wrapped around his torso or your leg on his shoulder hitting deeper in every position and angle your pussy feels tighter and wetter that he feels his orgasm build rapidly again. He keeps pushing inside you and pulling back until just the tip remains not caring if the bed shakes under you the wet squelch that your sexes make and the creaking of the bed is the song that you listen to all night long.

You lost count of how many times he finishes inside of you his cum dripping down your thighs when his passion finally subsides. The aftermath hits you hard feeling sore all over but utterly satisfied.

After sharing this heated night with your favourite you feel like you could accomplish anything in this life.

Novel. Or real life.

Yoongi got to experience many firsts with you. For the first time in his life, he desperately wants to cling to someone. Be loved and love in return. He welcomes your lazy kisses with his arms strongly holding you to his body. “If I can love, I promise to only love you.”

There’s nothing more you could ask for. Your smile reaches ear to ear and whilst Yoongi needs to learn a lot of things you’re ready to tackle this life with him and hopefully reach your happy ending.

[ask-codeearasure]

As I was writing the now posted Design Critique I brought up a quote from a YouTuber that I refused and still refuse to name to keep them from being harassed but it really puts into perspective as to how Sans likely views the player when they go on a Genocide Run.

Here's the quote:

“Even when I came away with very positive feelings about something, people still needed to desperately cope and make up fiction to avoid accepting the idea that... a person with ADHD doesn't want to reread the same quippy banter 12 times in a row?

It's so fucking weird. People did that with Undertale as well. I've seen people get harassed because they refuse to play the Genocide run, by fans who think it's necessary for a complete experience. Even though the Genocide run is one long running commentary about how you're only doing this because of an avaricious drive for more content, never being satisfied with a good ending. Even when the game takes you by the hand and walks you out of it in the True ending, you still have this insatiable need to wring more content out of it.”

I want you to absorb that information.

For one I'm very disappointed that a lot of people harassed YouTubers and others into playing the Genocide run. Shame on you. Also the comment this person made is fucking accurate.

As I said in my design critique, it's the most boring slog to get through as a "run" and your only reward is to be able to fight Sans who's entire attack style is straight out of TouHou Project. But using this quote as a way to view it through his eyes...

It's fucking horrifying.

Think about it. He's watching someone commit a literal genocide, single handedly because they're bored and want more content out of the game. And he can't do anything about it but either plead with you or try to make you give up.

Like I said before, I suck at playing bullet hell games. I cannot for the life of me keep track of all those projectiles so I have to rely on let's players to actually get the story of these types of games. And Sans's attack style is literally him trying to get control of the player themselves to throw them off and make them feel as helpless as he does.

Then there is the blue magic itself. The colors blue are tied to two different souls, that being Patience and Integrity. Sans (and Papyrus) uses the magic tied to both.

For one, Integrity is tied to the gravity magic he uses to control the player's movements to a degree, while Patience is tied to the inability to move through blue attacks without taking damage.

With the way Sans uses these two abilities together he is trying to constantly force the player to take damage by all of his attacks, even the blue ones. He not allowing you the choice of escape with all his might.

It's why he uses his strongest attack right away as an ultimate "fuck you" for forcing him to watch you tediously walk back and forth waiting for another encounter so you can kill every living thing in the underground.

And as a bigger insult he likely knows that you can reset to your last save point and memorize his attacks. He knows he's stuck at this particular point in time. But with his abilities tied to those two shades of blue it screams that he's trying to get some moniker of control of the situation.

The game said "this is bullet hell" and he took that beyond literally taking control of not only the player by forcing them from one end of the box to the other but also not allowing you any bit of rest by making every single attack overwhelming.

He is desperately trying to force you to give up and leave the underground alone.

If you got the True Ending by going True Pacifist, you got the best ending possible, but by resetting it you are essentially spitting on that ending in a desperate attempt to get more content.

In return all you get is Sans desperately fighting you off. By killing him, letting Chara delete the world, making a deal with them and then letting them delete the world again after getting the worst ending possible, you have essentially ruined the entire ending because you were too selfish.

You, the player, decided to fuck every single character you claimed to love over because you selfishly wanted more and more and more content.

And you dare say that everyone needs to play through the Genocide Route to have a "complete experience"?

More like you just loathe the characters wanting them to always have the worst ending possible.

It seems like the desperate need for more content is the actual villain here. That is what Chara truly is. The desperate need for more. The absolute embodiment of gluttony of the fandom.

It's not completionist, it's simply glutton.

Sans knew he wasn't going to win. He was desperate for a stalemate.

But if we look at the words those colors of magic are assigned to we get a very insightful look as to who Sans and Papyrus are as people.

Patience is self explanatory, however people forget what the word "Integrity" means.

Integrity means "a person's commitment to honesty and a willingness to do what's right"

This means that Sans and Papyrus have a strong commitment to their morals as a whole and they are honest about it. They will not lie about their moral values.

This explains the confrontation Papyrus has with the player in the Genocide Run. This also explains the confrontation that Sans with the player in Mettaton's restaurant along with his meeting with the player in Judgement Hall.

He is spelling it out to the player. He tells you that he doesn't trust you and would've killed you the moment you stepped out of the Ruins. How everything actually works from EXECUTION POINTS, to LEVEL OF VIOLENCE.

Papyrus was the hint we got as to what Sans was going to be like if we had the misfortune of fighting him.

The meeting that we got with Sans in the restaurant was a hint to how he knows for a fact the player would get bored and kill everyone.

He is desperate for a sense of control of the situation. And every time you have someone play the Genocide Run, every time YOU play the Genocide Run, you prove Sans right to not trust you.

"just give up. I did...."

-- Ouija

[rebornologist]

Hello, may I request you write some dirty talk headcanons for Reborn, Fon, Lal similar to the ones you did for Giotto, Tsuna, and Yamamoto?

Hiii anon! This was a fun prompt to ponder. I present to you.. thots brought to me by Breathe Carolina ♡♡

♡ Dirty Talk w/ Reborn, Fon, & Lal Mirch ✧ warnings: nsf/t content ahead, gnReader, dirty dirty language, some D/s dynamics, ropes mentioned, biting mentioned, I love women

✧ Reborn is so shameless and absolutely filthy with it. He’s such an asshole and cannot go without being a little mean and sometimes even mocking his partners. He is especially playful after the fact and enjoys teasing his partners in the most subtle ways, perhaps using some buzzwords that they would be familiar with in other contexts while in public. When you give him a look for it, he simply blinks and tilts his head in innocent questioning, knowing that you wouldn’t dare lose your cool outwardly. However, he’s fully aware that you’re reeling on the inside, and perhaps feeling heat pool in your nether regions like some kind of pavlovian response... It’s the best.

“Look at you.. so, beautifully, fucked out.. and drunk on my cock,” “Shhh… squirmy little one, sounds like you want them tighter, huh? No? Pleaseeee noo sir— you sound sooo pathetic,” he pouts, tilting his head as he mocks your tone sadistically. “Fine, but you’re going to thank me for this.” “They shoot well. I’ve shown them the ropes before,” he gestured towards you with a tilt of his head, explaining to your colleague that he’s at least taught you some firearm basics. He reads the lack of reaction on their face before his gaze shifts ever so quickly to you, making eye contact for a split second. You swear you may have imagined the lascivious tilt in the corners of his lips.

✧ Fon is full of flowery words and idioms you’ve never heard of. He’s a poet through and through and doesn’t ever waste a single word when he speaks. Sometimes he’s too quiet and you begin to wonder what’s on his mind. It could be everything and it could be nothing at all, honestly. However, he lets his thoughts be known when you’re making love, of course. There’s probably no better description for it.

“Don’t look away now,” he coos, calloused but gentle hands slipping over the sensitive flesh of your neck to cup your jaw and turn your gaze back to meet his. “Open up for me, my dove..” Everything he says in moments like these are barely above a whisper. Words meant only for your ears, or to be felt as ticklish vibrations against the nape of your neck, the curve of your waist, the plush of your thighs.. or what sits between them. “Absolutely breathtaking,” a wide grin grows on his handsome features, his long hair falling loose over his broad shoulders and sticking slightly to his moist skin. His chest heaves once, twice.. slower this third time, and he exhales a soft giggle with the next breath. You can’t help but notice how his radiant smile reaches his eyes, and he blinks at you a few times, expression almost frozen in this joyful afterglow. You tell him that you want to go again. “Oh, my love.. you know I have no qualms about taking all that you are willing to give me… come here,”

✧ Lal Mirch ashgdsjkhdfsdjf she can dish it but she can’t take it. She generally likes being in charge in the bedroom and takes very good care of her partners, but when you can convince her to let go of control for once, she gives you the most beautiful low groans and eventually melts into a whimpery mess. Another thing: she avoids name-calling because she doesn't like associating her partners with those words in any context, but will drop a few slightly degradation-tinted praises here and there.

“You like that? Oh, of course you do, filthy little thing,” she mumbles, clicking her tongue as you squirm under her searing gaze. Her long lashes fan over her flushed cheeks as a small smirk grows on her gorgeous features. Her calloused fingers ghost over the sensitive flesh inside your thigh, and you whine as she firmly grabs at the meat of your thigh. “Ah ah, no squirming, or I’ll stop,” she warns. And you heed that warning, knowing just how much she sticks to her word.

Subby Lal is such an achievement to unlock pleaseeee tuck her hair behind her ears and call her your woman, one and only, love of your life, gorgeous goddess, yeahhh….

“Wh-what-?!” Her lips, swollen from kissing you, press together firmly into a pout at the sound of your praises, and her face is beet red. She rolls her hips once again, pressing her wetness into your thigh. You chuckle and coo at her, letting another sweet praise fall from your lips. She grumbles in embarrassment and grips the hair at the nape of your neck, tugging softly for you to expose your throat to her. “Shut up..” she bites down and you yelp. You were in for a looong power struggle tonight.

[lieslab]

Have you seen the Chan thing? 👀

Are we talking about the Bubble thing where he basically told the fans to behave themselves and respect his choices? I'm pretty sure I've seen it. I was briefed on the situation by my best friend because it occurred when I was without Wi-Fi.

Does this mean you want my opinion on it? I hope so because I'm going to give it to you regardless 😀👍 In my humble opinion, he needed to do that. I don't know how deep you guys are in the fandom, but this fandom is a shit-show lately. I don't see it so much on Tumblr, but sometimes I come across things on TikTok that make me want to chuck my phone across the room and never be involved in this fandom ever again.

With all the entitlement and the bickering and the fighting, we're supposed to be supporting our favorite idols and instead, people are arguing over stupid stuff. Some people in this fandom are so delusional and entitled, it's ruining the fun a fandom is supposed to have. I'm actually so glad he opened up and said 'hey I'm not in a ton of content anymore because it's TRAUMATIZING for me. I get backlash for everything.'

Maybe some people will realize their actions have consequences. "But I wanna see him." Yeah most of us do, but he shouldn't have to suffer backlash over minor things from SO many people that it makes him feel miserable. If he's saying that out loud, do you know how many people must feel entitled to pick apart everything he does? That's fucking insane.

At the end of the day, those are eight dudes trying to live their dreams. They're not ours to morph and shape. They have their own bodily autonomy and I hope since they've been with the company for so long, they have a say in a lot of things.

Being an idol must be difficult. You have fans from multiple countries and each country is different. There are different takes, different opinions, different cultures, etc. There is absolutely NO way they can please every single person from every single place. I wish people could stop pretending they can. They are not barbie dolls, they are actual people.

Do you know how crazy it is? They gave up everything. They don't have normal lives. They're traveling all the time. When they're not traveling, they're dancing, they're planning, they're interviewing, they're singing, they're filming for other projects, they're writing different songs. All while trying to stay in contact with their family and friends. Plus, they're trying to avoid scandals. I can't imagine the creative burnout and the stress that must appear at times.

"But they chose that life."

They wanted to accomplish their dreams, not have strangers suck the fun and joy out of it. Let them have their fun. Let Hyunjin shave his head without needing to give your negative opinion in their comment sections. Let Jeongin wear his silly shoes without telling him he needs to get a better style. Let them wear whatever they want. Let them be silly and free.

I believe Hyunjin said it a few days ago on fans, he doesn't have time to paint. That man loves to paint and make art. That's devastating. When I don't have time to sit down and write, I'm miserable.

Honestly? I know they probably won't, but I wish they lectured the fandom more. Sometimes narratives spiral and they're out of control and when nobody says anything about it, the flames fan more. They shouldn't have to lecture us, but some of you need to be muzzled because you think you can say whatever, whenever, and you think you're entitled.

I think we can all agree that the idol world is insane. The lengths people go to accomplish their dreams in that industry, I don't know if it's foolish or incredibly smart. It's probably both. I don't know. As an American, I know some of us tend to be so opinionated. I love yapping and being me, so I cannot imagine giving up control and letting some random company full of strangers telling me what to do and how to please hundreds of people. I'd rather take a loaded shotgun and point it at my- I'm not going to finish that sentence, but I think you understand my point 😀

Maybe it's because I only have the viewpoint of an American and "you just don't get it because things are different in South Korea." Sure, maybe that's true, but I have my favorite idols. I'm not in their parasocial apps lecturing them over stupid shit. I'm not commenting on their posts that they should do one thing or another. I'm here to have a good time.

If the group feels miserable, they're not going to want to continue this. They're going to go away. They'll stop interacting with us. You're not special because you have a crush on your bias. Thousands of other people do, too. Just because you live in a delusion, it doesn't mean real people should have to fall victim to it.

I wish Stray Kids would tell some of you to leave them alone. If you have a fandom and you're not setting boundaries, people are going to do whatever the hell they feel like because you're not telling them otherwise. They shouldn't have to tell people how to act, but it's clear it's needed because some of you think you have some parasocial claim on them.

You have to be the change you want to see in the world. The world will chew you up and spit you out. You have to make boundaries for yourself. If Chan steps back from content and that makes him happier, good. Sure, it'll suck not being able to see him, but his happiness is SO important.

We're strangers to him. He already said he's going to attempt to be seen more in content, but in all seriousness, he shouldn't have to put himself in uncomfortable situations. I hope he continues to put himself first. I hope they all do.

At the end of the day, they only get one life. I hope they spend it doing the things that make them happy. That is the most important part of life. Pick happiness, pick yourself, and if that makes you selfish to some people, screw them.

This life is not about strangers, it's about you, so live it to the fullest before it's gone <3

[waywarrdsunshine]

I legit tried to write this out earlier and I stopped halfway through so let me try to get this out again it might not make sense but I just want to see if I'm the only one

so basically I've been hyper fixated on aftg recently, but that's not entirely the truth.

I'm hyper fixated on Andrew right now.

which doesn't make sense to me because based on my past character hyper-fixation archetypes It should be Neil. Not only that but I'm used to character hyper fixations, hell they're my most common kind I tend to get into (especially ones that feel like I physically cannot think of anything else and it becomes like a mental infestation) but I've never experienced one where I think about the character and everything they've been through and my stomach gets nauseous, or the hyper fixation becoming so bad I end up barely eating (and I have binge eating issues me rejecting food is rare.) But that is exactly what's been happening with Andrew. I've been off work for the last two days but the last time I was in I ended up getting so anxious because I couldn't stop thinking about him that I ended up asking my manger to take a 15 and switch tasks with someone so I didn't have to be on register anymore (I didn't straight up say what was going on in my head I played it off as just being overwhelmed with customers). I'm on summer break atm so I'm home from college and my mom has mentioned she knows somethings up and is a bit worried (she knows its a hyper fixation just not on what). I'll have moments where I can push it to the side and make an unrelated joke and actually manage to eat something but then I end up falling down the inevitable rabbit hole again. I also sometimes tend to engulf traits of the character I'm hyper fixated on when I get this way so I've been far more irritable and sarcastic as of late (which is also just part of me trying to deal with keeping my brain in control while navigating the world in a tunnel vision fog right now.) Music both helps and triggers it because my brain has something to focus on but that focus is a song reminding me of said character or how I feel about being hyper fixated on said character. I myself have tried to write lyrics down about this as well (some of which I'm actually pretty proud of). and I'm somewhat caught somewhere between avoiding any type of aftg (especially Andrew) fan content and checking every virtual stone I can to "unintentionally" come across an edit of him that will surely ruin my day by making me emotional over an "apathetic" little shit that's the same height as Sabrina fucking Carpenter.

I mostly just want to see of anyone else has ever felt this way because while some traits with this fixation are new and are somewhat concerning for me I've also had to deal with this kind of mental battle for control of my brain for years on and off and I don't know if this is a universal or even common experience for other ND folks. I'm also trying to justify why my brain decided Andrew Minyard of all characters was gonna be the one to come crashing into my summer break like a goddamn tidal wave but alas sometimes I just have to be in awe of my own tism.

I'm considering just vent-posting this hyper fixation out as a way to just talk about it so idk

[catmansquad]

Size-shifter! König

Headcanons both general and romantic.

General:

Hitting his head on low ceilings and having to duck through narrow doorways, and that was before anything weird started happening.

 No-one knows how or why it started. Just that one night the 6’10 Austrian man suddenly found himself 80’ tall with the rubble of his quarters all over him, and the eyes of the entire base upon him after being woken up. It did nothing to help his anxiety.

Even after figuring out how to return to a normal height, things were not smooth sailing for him. Half the base slept with one eye open in the event the Colonel would suffer another spontaneous growth spurt.

Only his tactical gear grows with him. He is very grateful that includes his comfort blanket of a hood.

Hates that he can only make himself bigger and cannot drop below his natural height. There are times he wishes he could just shrink down and hide from the world.

Learning to control his newfound power was another task altogether. Even the slightest sneeze would cause him to rocket up into the ceiling. He had taken to wearing a helmet to avoid any further concussions. Pitying smiles and “Gesundheit” from Horangi only went so far.

It wasn’t much better for the new recruits; being shouted at by a 6’10 Austrian man was scary enough. Being shouted at by the same man who was suddenly 9’ tall, in a deeper, louder voice was worse.

“Hey, if you ever become a Superhero, I get to write your origin story.” – Horangi.

Eventually had to resign from military service after he was considered too unstable with his new power.

As much as he hates being a civilian again, he enjoys the chance to get some proper sleep for once.

Once drove out into the middle of nowhere to figure out just how far his power stretched. He chickened out at five miles tall and decided he’d rather not know the answer after that.

Will make himself a little bit bigger if he needs to combat his anxiety. He feels better when all his problems look smaller.

Did eventually fall into the role of a rather clumsy Superhero. “Der König.” / “The King”.  Horangi held up his word about embellishing a heroic origin story. As attention grew, it became a bestseller. Horangi is already writing a sequel.

Romantic:

“Women love me. Men? Heh… They also love me. I am very fair that way, ja?”

You see him outside the window; towering over the streets, stepping carefully around traffic, silhouetted in the setting sun. You meet his huge, azure eyes just for a moment. He winks playfully and your heart skips because The King has seen you.

You get to see more than his public façade; you read the crinkling in his eyes, the smile hidden beneath his veil, where all his other fans make him retreat inside himself.

You get to see the goofball side of him, who tells silly jokes, and has the energy of an eager puppy.

Expect him to stammer and babble in German when he’s flustered. No amount of military training prepares for the turmoil of the heart.

Will steal your phone and put it somewhere too high for you to reach without a stool or ladder. He waits patiently for you to ask him for it back. He might just do it. Or just pick you up so you can grab it.

He will piggyback you around town, easily. It helps to calm his fanbase if they see he’s got a romantic interest. He’ll deal with the rabid, jealous ones personally, if they so much as touch a hair on your head.

You once started dozing off on his back one day, and he noticed. He smirked under his hood, and the next thing you knew, you were crashing up through tree branches and desperately scrambling to wrap your arms around his thickening neck as his huge hands reached back to steady you. "Enjoying the view, ja?! (Chuckle)"

He'll let you ride on his shoulder if he's feeling especially confident. Pick one.

“You will not like how I look under this hood, Schatz. I will spare you the pain of this ugly face.”

“Wha-? No… I am not some tentacled abomination. I.. I just… (sigh).”

He’ll kiss you back, but you have to shut your eyes first.

Big König gives bigger hugs. Having you in his lap, with your upper body swallowed in his big, strong arms. His heart melts for how lucky he feels.

You have a choice in the bedroom; he keeps the hood, or you wear the blindfold.

“Uh-uh! You know the rules, meine Liebe… Each time you beg, I get bigger. Aww… (Low chuckle).”

One day, he’ll tell you his real name. One day. But he still appreciates “My King”, in the meantime.

[mystic-lumber]

Gosh, I saw ur lizard teacher post on my dash and I'm so happy I legit might cry rn /srs (it's kinda late and I feel horrible so this might be dramatic).

Today I've seen THREE posts from people who kin a dude I'm trying to kinfirm and it feels horrible. I feel shaky and nauseous, cried once, and my heart feels like it's going to beat out of my chest. I don't even know if this means anything but I honestly feel almost possessive of the character and feel super out of my element when he's mentioned in a kin post.

I just don't have any memories, or very many feelings yet about the other characters from his point of view to speak. I see them through myself but maybe because he might be me that's what it seems like??? That's what it's like with my other kin as well.

I also have no exotrauma (yet), and it just makes me feel weird because the character is traumatized beyond comprehension tbh. And I can interact with the source and not like... Feel super bad for anything that happened, like obviously I feel bad, but not sickened, and I'm pretty sure I have to feel that way, that's the whole point of the game (or a big part of it at least). I just have like... Weirdly low empathy, though I have probably average amounts of sympathy. Though I could just be desensitized in general lmao.

I relate to him, but maybe not the story? Like yeah that happened but maybe I am him from a different universe where nothing bad happened..? Maybe I don't feel what he would in game because that never happened? It might also just be wishful fan thinking as well.

I just wonder if it'll go the same way like my other kin. Heavily, heavily relate, even if we're not completely similar, "he's legit my blorbo babygirl husband me!!"(woah that made no sense), then maybe relate a bit too much, find out about fictionkins [though I've already found out about them, so we can skip that step], kinsider for the LONGEST time, finally get mems or something like them, and finally kinfirm but still really, really feel like I'm faking it.

Anyways, what I'm going to do is try not to throw up, and keep ingesting the media to see what kinda feelings pop up.

-anon 🚀🪱

(I've never really submitted anything anonymously and it's okay if you don't wanna keep track of my emoji combos, it's more for me)

This one seems like a struggle for you, anon, and I’m so sorry to hear it’s causing you so much stress <3 Your feelings are valid. I’ll say it again, your feelings are valid. You cannot control your emotions, only how you handle them, and looking for help is an excellent way of doing that

I completely understand being defensive of your character, as you feel like they are or should be you. It’s okay to be troubled about that.

I know that you aren’t faking it because you are deliberately telling me that you’re scared of faking. That’s a clear sign that this is you genuinely trying to find yourself and I respect that a lot.

This character may not end up being a kin when you test them out a bit, or they could be like what my ocelot kin is to me; still there, but not as strong as my other kins. This happens and it’s valid to not have super strong emotions regarding them <3 I don’t have those emotions about my fictionkins’ negative experiences either

I think the best thing you could do here is regulate your screentime to avoid any panicking. See if you can figure things out on your own and, if you feel you can’t, come to alterhuman creators like me for help! We’ll be around <3

And yes, I will remember your anon signature! It’s goin in my notes >:3

[asinglemagpie]

The Golden Raven: Here Be Spoilers 6 (Once More With Feeling)(Chapter 11-12)

It's bedtime, which means it's reread time!

Wholesome Trojans warm my heart in a way few things ever will. Though the "look, he's scared of Rhemann, in no world is a danger to anyone" line of thought is kind of hilarious.

"did Jeremy and Kevin combust when they saw each other out of uniform"? Something was bust 👀 (No one can tell me Kevin is straight, sorry 😂)

Jean may hate exy but he sure retreats to it when he's uncomfortable.

I hate Hannah Bailey. I hate that she drew attention to Jean hurting himself - because he wasn't uncomfortable, he was trying to bite his tongue and not topple into flashbacks. Baby has PTSD, you cretin. I mean sure she can't have known that, but we'll adjusted people don't hurt themselves to keep themselves in control. It's common sense that maybe drawing attention to it is shitty.

The fact that double-D went "no he did nothing wrong, it's cool" when they realise they'd crossed a previously unknown line is just... It's part of why I love them.

Even if they didn't drop it, but did try to get his help so they wouldn't cross that line again.

Derrick, you live in such beautiful hope 😂

Poor Sebastian, I love that he's trying. Confused but trying! (Plus most bi people, myself included, used the phrase "chicks and dicks" back then, even if it was a gross simplification... And y'know, gross in general. Look if there's one thing AFTG should teach you is that we said a lot of reaaaaaally shitty things in the '00s and it was just so fucking normal.)

Kind of tempted by a Bourne rewatch. I should do that tomorrow! The end song annoys tf out of me though. Never been a Moby fan.

Oh, to be the fruit cradled so lovingly in Jean's hands *dreamy sigh*

I was so tempted to do exactly what Jeremy did with the sticky notes, I still am occasionally. Mostly they'd annoy me after five minutes, but he avoids home as much as possible so it can't be so bad for him.

Home 😭

Okay serious talk time. Jeremy is on academic scholarship, like everyone else, one has to assume because it's how they hook players to go to them. No matter what happens with his family his education is secure, as is his spot on the team. He is never going to get access to his share of the family money. If he let himself recognise that and let it sink in then he could leave. Because he can apply for legal reissues/copies of his paperwork and apply for a new passport. Heck he could wait until he needs his passport for a game and then officially never go back. He's an adult, they cannot legally make him stay. The ONLY thing I can think of that's forcing him to stay is that his step-father has assured him that his family in the forces would make his and his friends' lives hell if he tried. That is the only reason that he would stay and go through this imho. Guilt can only blind him so much.

I mean, Jean in bike leathers would get me all hot and bothered too. Jean checking out my sister when I'm hot for him would have broken the basket. After her comment I'd have broken it over her head.

That Mathilda wasn't used as kindling is the second tragedy of the house fire.

Jeremy accepts suffering quietly just the same way as Jean does, and urgh, my poor heart hates it.

It's okay, Jeremy, you can marry Jean and become a Moreau. Surname problem solved!

The postcard 😭 Reacted to with the Andrew Minyard book of romantic utterances.

Trojan horse pancakes, with thankfully no unpleasant surprises inside.

Bryson absent because he's too busy taping his artwork to Laila's door because his mother didn't want to sully the fridge with such sub par imagery.

"except us and the Foxes" AND BRYSON! How have you forgotten this so soon?!

Jean might be French but I bet he only knows that fact because of Kevin "history nerd" Day.

Look, mascots and cheerleaders are fun, but sports can exist without either and the crowd does just fine. Jean just has a very European stance on the matter.

Last year under the thumb of tyrants! Then freedom on a pro team! (Like to charge, reblog to cast!)

I wonder is the reporter said his name right or it was more "jeen ee-ves morrow".

The press starting to put shit together... I should link that amazing post about what Neil's been doing in the shadows, but I'm tired and lazy and I know where to find it (under all the same tags as this one lol).

The second reporter is so lucky Jean doesn't get the reference because his reputation might have been lived up to when he made that jackass swallow his own teeth.

I fucking love Cat.

Someone mentioned that the need for so much caffeine could be because of his former long-term drug use. I keep meaning to do some research on it.

Eli. Another hook-up. Honestly we are so lucky that Jean has the Raven mentality towards sex or TGR would be about Jean becoming a serial killer.

How no one considered pottery class might be messy and dressed appropriately does and doesn't surprise me 😂

Jean really was made to be a baker or professional chef in another life.

I love that all the fandom I've encountered all agreed that Jean would be a natural and Jeremy would be just short of a disaster, and we were dang right.

Jean and Cody please me. He needs friends, they make him better.

Anonymous tip, my ass. BRYSON!

(I've angrily screamed about this so many times that his name automatically comes in all caps.)

"I want you to stay." My heart 😔

[my-mt-heart]

Hi MT, maybe you or one of your followers are able to answer that. If a big acc with a social media manager or team, posts something, are they tracking their gain in followers or traffic directly? Sometimes they react immediately (like Valhalla last week), sometimes they continue as if nothing has happened.

Are they only checking if they got more followers or are they also checking if they lost a bunch and gained new ones? Again, it's about the Valhalla account who lost quite a few Carylers but gained ultimately more followers with Antis.

The official TWD account posted about friendship bracelets and 2/3 in the replies has M or R profile pics making fun of Caryl/Carol.

At this point, no one can tell me that's their strategy because obviously, it's out of control.

Why is no one reacting?

Depends on a lot of factors (type of company, account, follower count, engagement rate etc). Based on the types of posts TWDU accounts have, they're not really trying to "grow" their following. The companies behind the accounts already have a strong presence and big following.

Based on their posts, the social media accounts seem like they aren't meant to generate followers, but rather warm up the audience they have by encouraging engagement and promoting whichever show is coming up.

Different spinoffs means the core audience of the flagship show has been fragmented into 3 pieces.

*Caryl fans *Maggie and Negan fans *Richonne fans

Each group has their own distinct marketing strategy and all the strategies are going in opposite directions because all the fans are unique. Because TOWL just ended and we're heading into TBOC, the overlap is jarring. TBOC has had virtually no marketing through official channels, and it looks like they're currently promoting TOWL merch, so TBOC fans are getting whiplash.

Whoever is handling the SM is either recycling a strategy that no longer works after 2022 because of everything that happened with the original spinoff, or they're genuinely unaware of fandom dynamics and don't realize that they cannot afford to lose faith with TBOC's core audience, which... they kinda just did? Whatever the case is, it's baffling.

You can't please both audiences. Because one audience cheers when Carol is erased and Caryl is invalidated as a ship while TBOC's core audience want to raise Carol up and want Caryl's relationship to transition into the romance they've earned.

AMC/TWDU should be catering to the needs of the most reliable fanbases for each show, not just TWD community in general for every show because that won't give them numbers. In this case, we're talking about a Carol and Daryl show, so the audience most likely to keep tuning in are Carol and Daryl fans. The focus should be getting all of them on board which means being aware of shared desires as well as possible triggers. Pushing the friendship narrative is a big one at the moment because of how forceful it is. It's telling us how we, Daryl and Carol fans, are "supposed to" view their relationship instead of leaving room for what we, Daryl and Carol fans investing in a Daryl and Carol show, want it to be.

Like I said before, the SM engagement isn't the most reliable at the moment because a lot of fans are in survival mode. For some, that means deflecting to something more positive and for others, that means avoiding potentially harmful environments altogether and that post definitely generated a harmful environment where fighting was likely to break out.

The whole point of promoting a show is to build hype. If a significant portion of their target audience is feeling distressed, frustrated, or wary, they're doing it wrong. If their promotion is getting mixed reactions and/or attracting a conflicting market, they're doing it wrong.

(Credit to @indigoraysoflight for helping me with this post)

[the-good-bad-truth]

What do you think of his IG post??? I'm shocked he posted anything. Maybe he's avoiding the huge elephant in the room (over the internet). But if he cheated, why would he post a bandaged heart??? To me that means he's the one hurt and didn't hurt anyone.

I think he is avoiding the elephant in the room, really everyone is at least on his team. Which I find weird, because should they not be cleaning up this mess? His name is getting shitted on right now from people who only read that damn bias as fuck tmz article and shit from Brians mouth.

As for him, I think this may have been the reason he went to the desert, to hide and regroup mentally. He just disguised it as I'm working on the album when in reality, he was enjoying his last moments of silence before being tossed into the storm. He acted like this in 2023 breakup, he disappeared, didn't he?

He is also in a very tough position where he can't really say anything. She is the mother of his child and because of her being preggers, it makes people side and sympathize with her more. He can't win. If he releases a statement being like there was no cheating, they will say he is lying. If they appear together so soon, people will claim he manipulated her and feel bad for her. If he snaps, crashes out on her and exposes her abuse, no one will believe him, they will just see him as a man tearing down the woman carrying his child.

We can't really think too deep into the bandaged heart, cuz it could be just a reference to the song. But also, if we take it all in as whole, it could be either it was slight shade (I doubt it Tho) or that he is heartbroken but cannot say how he is feeling because his hands are tied.

Megan is the only one who can stop this. But she won't. She controls the narrative. She is the "victim" and such a master manipulator that she has all these other women/fans of hers, spewing out her bullshit story. All I'm hearing more on TikTok, is people being like M is so spiritually in tune, she loves this man, she is pregnant, and he did this to her, noooo!, she tried to fix him, and this is how he treats her, she has body dysmorphia. Pop crave, that has a large platform is being extremely biased as well.

Like can we all relax for a second, Megan has not been in her prime since 2009/10 that was it. Let's stop acting like she is fucking mother teresa, she is just the girl that put a lighter to her lips 15 years ago and was I'm a god in a squeaky as voice. They are really acting like she is a god. No, she is a monster and a washed-up actress.

I can't help but draw comparison to the last public breakup in 2023, everyone was hating on him, dragging him, and she sat back and watched. It did not even stop when sophie was dragged into it. It only ended and stopped when Megan released that half ass statement. Even then, it did not really stop people or do anything to correct the damage that had been done to colson public image. People were still being like he manipulated her into taking him back and poor megan, she needs help and to be free.

As far as I know, no one in his band or team has said anything or posted anything. He has also not said anything and I doubt he will. But we just got wait and see. Shit, I'll even stand in the storm with him, if need be.

[dnangelic]

What's the biggest lie dai / dark has every told? Was it to themselves or others?

@flybcll

imo, this one's subjective --- the easiest (most obvious, largest, immediate, what have you,) to say would be a shared "it's them lying about being each other," because very few can ever seem to swallow that dark would ever be daisuke (to the extent that dark is daisuke,) or daisuke would ever be dark, (to the extent that daisuke is dark) but that's the truth of it. i want to go for something different, so i will: in daisuke's case, one of the biggest lies he tells is lying to himself about what he wants, but for dark, it's lying to others about what they want.

to start off with, being a phantom thief means you're going to lie. a lot. it's daisuke's grandfather (and dark's 18th incarnation/tamer) who even says that the duty of a phantom thief is to sometimes lie to make people happy. daisuke's naturally very bad at this given his clumsy and sincere personality, dark is an absolute expert.

all of daisuke's issues can be summed up in the way that he initially blames, accuses, and tries to decry dark alone as "the bad thing" --- i specify that vaguely because ie in the vampire au drama cds, daisuke tries to cry out to dark that he isn't a vampire or a thief when he's literally been both a vampire and a thief for a while as he's talking. part of this stems from his dire lack of self confidence --- he's the only one who'll ever say that he's "not dark" when he's... literally dark. like transformed with dark's face and still got all his family training and crazy insane shounen level physical capacity and everything. saying he isn't dark is lying to himself on like six different dimensions. it takes him pretty much the entirety of the series to build both enough self-confidence and acceptance to get over the lie, but he does it in the end. up until then? he doesn't even realize just how much of dark's actions are either literally his, or outright controlled/influenced by him.

it's always dark's consciousness itself that scolds, insults, or smacks daisuke back into shape since dark automatically shares and therefore whatever daisuke is both feeling and thinking. daisuke can't hide anything from dark in that case, and it makes the lie of his(dark's) being rejected sting, though dark is deeply avoidant and never talks about his personal problems even with daisuke. dark is, however, someone who is exceptionally picky about his lies. for example, he doesn't want to lie to anybody he feels close to and that he trusts. he absolutely cannot lie to daisuke. (though he's still evasive and quickly changes topics if things grow uncomfortable.)

the ones that dark does lie to are those like girls or his eager fans who ask him for dates or to come see them again-- he lies to them and makes all sorts of empty promises, saying 'of course, i will.' again, time is something completely outside of dark's control. he doesn't have his own body, he can only borrow his tamer's, so there's absolutely no way he could go to anyone or anywhere in his free time even if he wanted to, and hell even THAT "want" is controlled/deeply influenced still by his tamer's heart and emotion.

dark says he does all of this so that 'every girl can be happy,' but daisuke recognizes it as problematic playboy behavior and hates it, so the two are at opposite ends in that regard. it's still a huge, enormous lie for dark to make promises that literally are outside of his own power to even be able to keep just so that people will keep swooning and dreaming/thinking of him, about as ridiculous as daisuke trying to insist that he's nothing like dark when he's everything like dark to anybody else in the audience paying attention.

[astrologanize]

have been in a massive funk (depressive episode?) that i haven’t experienced to this severity since 2016 and if anyone can relate then i figured i’d share what i have been doing to help with that

- invested in vitamins (magnesium glycinate, calcium, d3) since i’ve been having skin issues i have been avoiding the sun since i don’t want to go through the process of trialing sunscreens and seeing what does & doesn’t work, potentially worsening said issues smh. but i recently said fuck it and got some neutrogena  baby sunscreen that’s fragrance free and all that jazz because it’s supposed to be gentle and it is affordable and neutrogena has worked for me in the past so why not. i purchased another sunscreen months ago but i don’t think my skin was a fan of it because it was a lil burn-y and tingly after application, thankfully i tested it on my arms first and not my face. idk we’ll see. such is life

- also trying to take more notice in the foods that make me feel good and provide me with energy/mood boost! and mostly avoiding foods that aren’t worth the accompanying lethargy or upset stomach, but listen...your taste buds matter...so if a food is enjoyable for me and makes me happy then any *mild* discomfort in the aftermath is worth it in moderation from time to time 

- i’m doing a 30 day mindfulness challenge! and that’s lovely! you can look them up and pick whichever provides you with what you feel you’re most in need of. writing down what you are grateful for and focusing on the positives of what is happening in your life also never hurts

- i’ve been clearing out any spaces that need it. even on my annoying ass phone...i’ve been transferring anything i want to save onto a usb and it is a time consuming process that i’m trying to do in increments but i know it’s going to feel great once i have my phone as cleared out as possible so i can start saving new memories & momentos (: 

- choosing to shorten my work week by 1 day so that i am able to have a free day on the weekend to fill my personal cup of happiness!! because that is always worth it!!!!!! i shall budget accordingly but i am grateful to be doing so

- “look good feel good” except looking good to me is more about feeling comfortable in my own skin and clothing. i hate putting on a constricting outfit that may look good but makes me feel like i can’t move around freely and enjoy life. outfits that do make me feel good about the way i am presenting myself that also allow me to move freely are the goal! and hygiene is important. some days i feel lazy as hell and don’t want to do the stuff that i know makes me (feel) better but i do it because i know it makes me (feel) better...once in a while tho it’s like lol nah imma let myself be stagnant and not do that for a moment and the world will not end, i won’t feel as great but that’s okay...eventually i will resume maintaining what i need to and perk up. it’s okay to stop for a moment sometimes but ya gotta get back on it 

- really trying to keep in mind that every day is a new unlived day that is not meant to look exactly like the last and you cannot always expect your best to look the same. there’s always going to be emotions that come up, mishaps, life interference, and challenges that meet you along the way and that’s how it’s meant to be. we shall control what we can and adapt how we must. you just keep trying! some days we need to ask more of ourselves even when we don’t want to and other days we need to allow ourselves a true rest that offers nothing but peace; some days we make progress, some days are stagnant, some days we regress, and that’s all just...life

sometimes it’s nice to recognize that wow i’m sad today or today is hard for me and allowing yourself to simply have a sad, gentler day to yourself without feeling like things are shit forever - hell, sometimes it’s multiple days or weeks that are off but you gotta know your sun is going to shine again and maybe the off-ness is redirecting you for the best. follow your heart, breathe, take your time when you can and make time when you can, try to persevere without driving yourself up the wall, all the hard work you put in and progress needs to be enjoyed, your life is meant to be enjoyed, it’s okkkaaaayyyyyyyy. tend to your heart and express your heart and embolden yourself with an accepting & firm love - accept all that you are and are not but don’t let yourself believe that you are defined by what you think you lack and that there is no room for you to grow. stand strong in your heart and in your character 

[amemoire]

Vale Can't Shut Up About Scara pt 2

Finally doing my long overdue continuation of this. Last time I talked a bit about combat related things. This time, I'm finally going to touch on art and how important it is to my portrayal of Scara. His relationship to the world of art is something that will carry into any aus that I make because in my eyes, its just inseparable. I've separated these thoughts into sections this time for some ease.

As the Kabukimono, he was one of a few people that performed a sword dance and it was noted to be something beautiful. Because I hc that Ei didn't impart any knowledge of the world onto him when she sent him away, this means that someone else had to teach him the dance. But he caught on quickly and was able to perfect it in no time, eventually outshining his own mentor and crafting an act of his own. This would come to be a dance that he performed solo for the event. Dancing in itself is something extremely important to Scara. It comes naturally and has a freeing quality to it— something that could not be found in other practices. And truthfully, he's just made for this sort of thing. His movements in all that he does are elegant and precise, flowing from one seamlessly into the other. Whether he's locked in combat or simply walking down a street, its there, ingrained into his being.

It goes without saying that he could be extremely skilled in dancing if so desired. And he did in fact perfect several forms over the course of his long life. As a member of the Fatui, he knows a number of ballroom dances. Few have actually seen him take to the floor, ( he is an expert at avoiding socializing ), but ask any of those lucky enough and they would tell you that they've never seen anyone move so flawlessly. Were it not for his personality and reputation, many would regard him as a prince or even an angel. Apart from this, he knows many traditional Inazuman dances with his specialties being both the fan and sword. In modern aus, this fact remains the same as Ei would have him study and train in a number of traditional customs. However, he also picks up on street dancing in secret and becomes known for the high level of control he has over his body— to the extent that he appears robotic. This style of dance is called " popping ". ( 1 | 2 | 3 ) Jaja in the third example displays a smaller scale of the more robotic movements mentioned.

Overall, dance is one of the very few things that lets him feel free and in control of himself. It's something that allows him to vent his pent up emotions through his body in a non-violent manner, something desperately needed. However, in his canon verse he has not danced in several years and makes no effort to find an opportunity. Despite the effect it holds, he has no interest in indulging.

However, painting is something different. In the past, he was often drawn to the way a few brush strokes gave way to a beautiful landscape or somber portrait. And despite his best efforts, this remains to be true. He is sensitive to the feelings portrayed through works of art. Always able to connect with a piece and know just what the artist might have felt. After all, Scara is a character meant to be in tune with the human heart. Painting is something that he still partakes in though none are privy to this fact. He keeps the materials and sketches locked away in secret. Oftentimes, he will finish a piece simply to burn it in the end. He refuses to be attached to his own creations and never makes anything with the intention of it being seen or acknowledged. It's just something he channels " needless " feelings into. It calms him, makes him feel at peace, and when faced with the final product, sometimes he cannot bear to look at it for too long.

A few of his works can be found out in the world. In museums under no name. On the back wall of a tea house. In the household of a family that has lived there for generations. These are the ones that he abandoned in his travels or donated on a whim. Something he may still do, but it would be a rarity.

He primarily paints in a style known as sumi-e or ink washing ( 1 | 2 | 3 ) and watercolors. He keeps his palette extremely limited, almost never adding more than one color. Majority of his works will be landscapes of places he's traveled, perfectly recalled from memory. In modern verses, he would have also studied various other styles. While he has the skill to produce masterful, detailed works, his personal favorite here leans towards an impressionist style ( 1 | 2 | 3 ). On the opposite end of his canon verse, he loves to paint people and capture the emotion of a moment. Regardless of the verse, should he ever fall so deeply in love, he will paint portraits of his lover— and that would be the biggest proclamation of love he could offer.

Moving onto his connection with poetry. Far more scarce than painting but more likely than dancing. He prefers reading over writing and has purchased several books of which he has turned the pages of several times each. Many are stored word for word in his memory. On occasion, when he has the desire to paint but is at a loss as to what, he will opt to do calligraphy with a poem. Still, he has written some of his own. Rather than burn them like his paintings, he writes these in a small journal kept in his hat. Never to see anyone's eyes but his own. What is the same, however, is the way in which his lover will again become his muse in this medium.

Regarding the event about the Five Kasen, I am hesitant to think any of the tale real given its purpose was to reveal the truth of the Raiden Gokaden to Kazuha. As such, I don't believe that Scara had anything to do with the original Kuronushi as I've seen some of the fandom depict. Especially because they would have existed roughly some time before Scara was created.

Then there is his deep knowledge of theater. This is something that has grounds in a few places. Firstly, his constellations directly refer to Noh theater. They are named " first, second, third, etc. performance " and reference specific works. Secondly, his previous choice of the name Kunikuzushi. This is a stock character found in kabuki theater which we can safely assume served as his inspiration.

I hc that he attended many Inazuman plays in the past and now indulges in performances across all nations. Whether its a stage play, musical, or opera— all these bring him an odd sense of enjoyment if not amusement. Because of this, one could find collections of written plays hidden among his many other books.

Piggybacking off of this brings me to his singing ability. He seldom sings, but he does have a pleasant voice which may or may not be surprising to anyone who knows him. Though you're more likely to happen across him humming a tune to himself when he's alone. I hc this for a number of reasons. There is his EN va Patrick Pedraza, who actually has a band of his own and has put out songs with Childe's va ! In regards to his boss theme, they purposely chose someone who sounded like his CN va so that they could convey the idea of Scara singing it himself. His title of the Balladeer which literally means someone who sings ballads. And lastly, we go back to his theater inspirations— where song, music, and dance play strong roles in the two. Granted the styles are very different from his own, but it further cements the importance of each of these things to his character. At least in my opinion.

Finally, to wrap things up is music. This is something that admittedly would matter more in modern aus simply because of easier access. Regardless, he does have a deep appreciation for music and has learned a few instruments over time. I don't have a lot of knowledge in this area and can't read a note to save my life, so I can't talk at length about this unfortunately. But I will say that he has perfect pitch and it does bother him greatly to hear when someone or something is offkey. In modern verse, Ei would have him take lessons for a few different instruments to find at least one he would be best with. Eventually, he chooses the flute for himself.

I'll add another instrument here if they include him in the art for a future orchestra.

I don't know how to wrap this up since its already so long and I'm tired out myself. If you read all this thank you SO much. This one is actually really personal and dear to me, particularly the painting section. So thanks for indulging me by reading ♡

[judasofsuburbia]

how the light gets in: a fan playlist

"You're a monster."

"You're Nancy Wheeler."

read here.

listen to the playlist here.

fell in absolute love with the series How The Light Gets In by my lovely pal @fastcardotmp3 and decided to make a fan playlist!! seriously this series is so special and so poetic. it is about chrissy cunningham coming back from the dead as a vampire and nancy wheeler finding her out while she's visiting barb's grave. together, they go on a journey of self-discovery and girlhood through monstrosity. and of course, fall for each other in the meanwhile. GO READ THIS SERIES i cannot recommend it enough!

song explanations below the cut!

anthem by leonard cohen: where the fic title comes from! a slow song about life continuing to move forward even after tragedy. very fitting for this series.

just a girl (cover) by florence + the machine: of course this had to go on here! chrissy has "come back wrong" and has to rethink and relearn what it means to be a girl again and the horrors associated with girlhood.

all the things she said (cover) by poppy: there is a moment at the beginning where chrissy can't communicate to nancy yet because vecna can hear everything. but she starts to make a list of all the things she will tell her once she can speak freely again.

talk to you by ricky montgomery: kind of the same as before! they wish they could communicate with each other and eventually figure out that vecna (who is possessing chrissy, so to speak) can only hear what they're saying. not see or read. so they end up writing down notes to each other to avoid vecna ruining their plans.

seventeen by sharon van etten: this one is kind of more vibes but basically reminscing on the girl chrissy once was and how she's growing.

way of nature, way of grace by aly and aj and joy oladokun: soft love song that explores the growing fascination the girls have with each other and the admiration of beauty through the pain/ the horrors.

girls against god by florence + the machine: ONCE AGAIN of course this had to go on here. florence just gets troubled girls<3 something about taking the reins of your life even when everything feels out of control.

please, please, please let me get what i want by the smiths: it's explored in this fic that chrissy struggling to want things and nancy being so giving to her, unselfishly. it's so beautiful :,)

hungry eyes by eric carmen: WOO MONSTER SONG basically here for the vibes of monster girl finally getting to consume. and definitely looking at nancy with hungry eyes.

i'll be here in the morning by townes van zandt: nancy promising that she will be back for chrissy time and time again :,))

leonard cohen by boygenius: kind of just for vibes but because the title song is leonard cohen, i thought it fit! it's about that particular song and getting lost in your happiness<3

waiting for a girl like you by foreigner: some 80's vibes now!! basically following chrissy never understanding her attraction to men but everything finally starting to make sense once she gets close to nancy.

me and the devil by soap&skin: nancy's defense song! it takes a lot of convincing from her to the group to let her take care of chrissy. this song explores following the devil and not being able to explain why you need to<3

lay all your love on me (cover) by pale honey: felt fitting for their first kiss in the woods up against a tree. dot wrote the emotion and desperation in this scene SO WELL!!

i will follow you into the dark by death cab for cutie: kind of an overall vibe song but also relates to chrissy going through the upside down again to help save max and destroy vecna. willing to go back to hell in order to find her autonmy again<3

NFWMB by hozier: also a first kiss song after chrissy tears apart a demogorgan to save nancy phewwww<3 but also just general vibes of them protecting each other from the others who don't understand!!!

fade into you by mazzy star: ties into the irreplaceable bond that chrissy and nancy are making with each passing day. they're fading into each other.

to be alone with you by sufjan stevens: chrissy is craving genuine alone time with nancy like how it was when she first found her<3

like lovers do by hey violet: sexy spooky song ooo!!! i would relate this one to the way they can't keep their hands off each other once they get a taste you know ;) that's just how lovers do!!!

the way i feel inside by the zombies: a soft love song about deciding whether or not to speak their feelings. nancy and chrissy spend time in this fic finally being able to speak their mind and their desires (esp for each other! eep!) and being frightened by the power but also enlightened.

[seaweedbraens]

This is in part a response to the 3/10 reviewer.

Adaptations obviously cannot have every single thing perfect to the book, just time wise it's impossible. But I think this series was made with a lot of love by everyone involved and it shows. Every interview I've seen and the show itself make it clear it's also important to them, and they want to make a good version.

A lot of issues that I read I think can be solved with having more of the story. Like, his mom has given him blue candy, explanation might come later, like in the talks the trio has during the quest. Or the council of the cloven elders doesn't even appear in the books until the Battle of the Labryinth. We don't need an explanation yet. Without knowledge of the books I would assume oh the visually important nature ppl are the ppl in charge of the satyrs. Which like.. yeah good enough for now. And it gives Grover more depth from the start. And there are hints of Luke's bitterness, such as "They like the smell of begging" when they go for offerings. We also haven't even left camp yet, there's time to develop that.

Luke's emphasis on glory was more about from other campers, I took it as a hint of Luke's desire to feel powerful. Luke also clearly values glory in the books as well - he failed to attain glory by completing his quest and it eats at him. Two, the addition makes sense if you're familiar with the Iliad, glory is heavily emphasized and a complex theme throughout, but I will not be digging out any college essays lol. I think it's definitely something that is going to be developed as a theme throughout.

Luke is a supportive counselor in the book. He's literally the head counselor in charge of shepherding the kids once they get there and likely spend their first night in the Hermes cabin. Plus in Ch. 7, he talks to Percy about being new and warns Percy not to take the offerings lightly, in Ch. 8 trains him on the sword, saying "No laughing at Percy" during the demo, and is thrilled when Percy disarms him.

A word about Gabe, we see Gabe for 9 pages in the beginning of the book. He harasses Percy, demands food from Sally, and is grumpy about them using the car. I was at first bothered by Gabe looking just kinda like a couch potato, but it was pointed out to me that abusers don't just all wear wife beaters and are streaked with grime. In the show he answers, Sally's phone, a controlling behavior. He harasses Percy when he gets in the door, and is almost pleased that Percy got kicked out for assault, a violent behavior. I'm still interested with how they are going to bring in the "Smelly Gabe" covering Percy's scent (which I always was a bit confused how that worked really well if Percy was at boarding school 90% of the time.) And I'm wondering how they are going to make him be deemed worthy of being murdered with Medusa's head by the audience. He appears on the news telling lies about Percy throughout the book and Percy doesn't realize that Sally has been hit before by Gabe until the end of the book. So, those are more ways to bring that in.

While I watched it, it didn't feel very rushed, but that might be because I had context from the books. Looking back it's a fast, but I'd rather have a longer time questing, and that's a trade-off. It's just unfortunate that even an established property can't get a longer run time.

One of my biggest worries was that the fighting would be cringe but I think they pulled it off Really well. It's visually great, and while I have my personal vision of CHB that didn't stop me from loving the show's version. It's also funny! I laughed out loud multiple times. There's tons of little details you get to hunt for from the book. The actors make you believe they are the characters. I've been living with versions in my head for over 15 years and I fully accept these guys as the trio. An open mind and ability to allow multiple versions to live in your head are definitely key to enjoying it as a long time fan.

I'm doing my best to avoid ppls garbage opinions, especially people new to the fandom, but I've seen enough lousy opinions from people who have been in the fandom forever to think it's a problem only in new ppl. Twitter has just been a lot of great edits and memes which is super fun.

Sorry for the length, that I got the book out, and that this was way too in depth for what you originally asked.

sorry for getting to this a little late! personally, i feel like i can't comment on the show yet, since i haven't watched it, but everyone's entitled to their own opinion as long as we're all being respectful here, as you're being. i hope 3/10 anon sees your version of things, and i'm glad you enjoyed the show!