#so I stuck to the pattern

[icewindandboringhorror]

I made a few new wax seal stamps out of clay (like the ones I did for my worldbuilding stuff forever ago), this time just of random symbols that I thought might look good done in the style of painting over the raised part of the wax or etc. :0c Some of them aren't carved deep enough to really show up that well, but overall they worked okay for being clay lol

[echo-starflower]

I FINISHED THE GUY!!!!!!

(Pattern by @ghost-cinnamon)

He’s perfect and I love him

But Echo! some of you might ask, isn’t the body supposed to be red like his bones? To that I say! 1: I’m impressed you saw it under the layers of clothes! /silly and 2!

BAH BAM

Embroidery!!!!! (I’m so proud of this hehe it turned out way better than I expected. Also faceless doll jumpscare>:3)

And of course, credit must be given to my amazing little sibling whose immediate reaction to seeing my doll was “ooo he’s spooky! He needs a top hat!!!!”

(She proceeded to make not one but two top hats hehe)

[iraprince]

Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow

hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.

like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.

anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better

[eileensdress]

Long live Abigail Hobbs.

[Hannibal (2015)/What Was I Made For-Billie Eilish]

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

something heart-wrenching about the roman/gerri scene in 4.07 is that roman regretted firing gerri the instant he walked out of that room and he tried to get ken to undo it right away and he tried to get frank to smooth it over after, and when he approaches her, his technique, in lieu of acknowledging the awful way he treated her, is to pretend it never happened or wasn’t significant or wasn’t real and now they’re just back to their normal vibe, they’re still friends and she’s not fired. (he was just feeling fire-ish!) which is what happened every time logan was abusive to roman, and so roman’s used to rolling with reality kind of just rewriting itself around your suffering not mattering, and the bad things always going away. like you don’t look at it head-on, you just keep going. he teases her and asks her for advice because that’s the only way he can engage with her again, not because he’s oblivious to how monumentally he screwed up. (and it kinda surprised me that he was so determined to erase their recent fest of badness that he went all the way back to, like, their early-s3 relationship dynamic. going WAY back in time! gerri, please show off how smart and hot you are!) but gerri has the strength to draw boundaries and shut that shit down immediately -- although not soon enough to save herself from some heartbreak -- instead of giving him a pass for mimicking the abusive behavior of his father. roman is at his worst in this ep, but the reason behind it tracks so well with what’s shaped him psychologically and emotionally, and it’s so Bleak.

[yugiohz]

wallahi the fujoshi goggles are off (maybe even permanently, i fear), but i think dabi and hawks deserved one final confrontation. the question is, what kind of final interaction could they even have gotten? i have no idea tbh like i never gave it much thought let me think about it *pensive*

[smalltimidbean]

About a month ago someone asked if there would be a clone based on the secrets, and I have - once again - overthought the idea and ended up with too many kgklfd

So have some concepts while I try to finalise them! They will be just one character, but I might recycle unused concepts later

[kirisclangen]

Canarydrop and their two adopted kits, Ospreykit and Palekit

Canarydrop: Any pronouns, 73 moons, genderfluid

Ospreykit: he/him, 1 moon, cis tom

Palekit: he/him, 1 moon, cis tom

[pizzabookbuying]

sometimes I think it is the world’s teeniest tiniest tragedy that Jess Mariano does not have at least a LITTLE bit of a New York accent

[eldragon-x]

[ID: Five colored drawings of Bill Cipher from the show Gravity Falls, drawn in differently Flatland-like forms. He is always in the shape of an equillateral triangle, with a brick-like pattern criss-crossing his lower wide section, and a single eye.

From top to bottom and left to right they are:

A "kelly" green, with his eye on his thin top side, where his tophat floats, with his bowtie on the bottom side. His mouth is a curved line starting at his point to below his eye. His bricks are outlined in pale green.

The second is a yellow-green version with the same sort of configuration, with yellow outlined bricks. This time, he has simple floating hands with three pointed fingers, with his right hand, which we see on the left, holding a simple black cane with a curved handle.

The third is a yellow triangle with his eye now on the facing side, and arms with claws, holding up a hand of blue fire.

The last two are much smaller, black with white outlined bricks.

The first has the curved mouth at the point, the second has an eye poking up from the thin side.

End ID.]

more of post-arson, pre-nightmare realm bill (and bonus flatland bills)

[chibishortdeath]

He is made of glass, wears a necklace of teeth, smokes, and will try to mimic your appearance and replace you, but he is your friend!!! :D I love the X68000/Chronicles doppelgänger he’s one of the enemies of all time :3. Banger music in that level too, Tower of Dolls is one of my favorites!

[coffeeworldsasaki]

I need to start naming the things I'm crocheting because everyone gives them names to sell them and their patterns but I'm so bad with names. Please propose some names for this little guy, I'm writing its pattern and I need something for the title, like "'whatever name' the octopus"

[paperlovesadness]

I'm not saying anything. I'm not saying anything.

All I'm saying is:

-> 2007 french-countryside-shritless-bike rides-summer happened. (And then lots of making love eyes)

-> (then possibly along with their TLSP times ending they put a stop to not just the gigs... But maybe other ✨developments✨ too 👀)

-> But then? 2015 recording-of-their-second-album and moving-in-next-to-each-other-being-glued-together happened (resulting in even more of the love eyes)

And we got this:

And possibly this:

And then a lot of unknown things happened. (Possibly potential ✨developments✨ being stopped part 2.)

And in 2022 we got this:

That's all I'm saying.

[marklikely]

round

[abirddogmoment]

some thoughts about the pressures of trialing in dog sports and the emotional environment of trials, partially inspired by this post by the beautiful @mongrelization

this post happened to come at a time when I was at a decision point in my trial career with mav. he had just started refusing jumps (i thought it was a training issue at the time, i now know he was in pain) and he wasn't having fun. we were disconnected in the ring, with him choosing to go visit friends or just blow past obstacles without attempting them. it was frustrating and it was such a stark contrast from our training runs (not flawless but immeasurably better than our performances in the ring) and i was making jokes (as everyone does!) about mav being the worst, etc, etc.

except they weren't jokes.

they sounded like jokes and they even felt like jokes in the moment, but looking back i can confidently see that i was frustrated and resentful and the "lighthearted jokes" from other competitors and from myself were just fueling the fire. i saw darcies post shortly after a particularly frustrating trial where we just couldn't connect, i was trying to decide whether to push through and fix our issues or give up completely on agility.

her post wasn't an epiphany, i probably would've gotten there eventually, but her post that said, essentially hey its fucked up to make those jokes about your dog and its fucked up for people to make those jokes about your dog and thats not how a trial should be - something clicked. its NOT how it should be.

i took a break from trialing in everything and cut training way back and just took all the pressure off of mav while i got my internal emotional environment back on track. im a really competitive person and its hard to consciously dial that back, but more than that, it's legitimately embarrassing when things go wrong with people watching you. if your default is humor about it (like mine), its a hard shift to not make jokes about your dog when things go wrong. but its an important and necessary shift.

i started trialing him again after about 3 months off, very lightly. i stopped entering full weekends and opted to do half-days or only saturdays and he fucking THRIVED. i made time to meet all his needs before trials, i prioritized his happiness over technically correct courses, and i got over the embarrassment of excusing myself from a run if it was going downhill. i fixed my internal emotional environment and that fixed our disconnect and made every win more meaningful.

the thing is, i am 100% sure i would not have fixed my emotional environment if i was actively competing and practicing the same patterns. i absolutely had to take that step back to fix myself. you can't make meaningful change if youre still in the middle of it acting it out.

i lost out on trials with mav and that sucked so much in the moment. i had awful FOMO watching my friends compete and finish titles while we did little low-pressure walks at home. but ultimately i gained something so much more important, and looking back i can't bring myself to regret that at all.

[deservedgrace]

I don't know if I can say this in a way that doesn't come across as shaming (because that's really not my intent), but there's such a complicated feeling that comes from... intellectually knowing that no one comes out of the womb socially conscious, and because of the society we live in we all have to unlearn and deconstruct harmful explicit and implicit beliefs, and that everyone is in a different place in that journey and demanding perfection and shaming people for not being where they """should""" be is counterproductive at best and discourages people from continuing the work at worst

And also having the visceral disappointment of..... the only reason this statement or idea seems groundbreaking to people is because they don't choose to operate under a framework of intersectionality and choose to only listen to people who look like them