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reformated and tweaked a thing i wrote on my phone's notes app and posted it on ao3, grant centric fanfiction that's part of my personal cv3 adaptation.

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Aaughughg I wanna actually finish anything and be ranting about transformers continuity stuff rn but I am so stressed I have a headache all the time and can’t do art for shit rn

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been a bit grantpilled lately n i wanna try a hand at designing monster grant (or as the booklet call him, nasty grant), u can pry the hc that grant doesn't fully go back to normal from my cold dead hands

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I am once again drawing fanart of the combiner that doesn’t exist :). And trying to redesign him so he has more elements of his components—

Just a couple doodles today, I’ll probs have more art in general eventually tho.

Aside from these doodles, I have a WIP of a larger drawing, but I’m putting it under a cut because ⚠️eyestrain⚠️.

It’s the pose from a Kiichi album cover :3!!! I saw it and instantly thought of the cool gun arm looking cool with it— and it does so far I think. Anyway lol, 10 million differently colored sketch layers.

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I was absolutely floored by your tags on the papyrus/Starscream post so I came to thank you and THEN saw in your pinned post you also like fear and hunger and it’s given me the horrible idea of a funger/transformers crossover somehow happening

Sacrifice that robot to the moon god and good wishes to you

Hehehe glad my rambling was appreciated, thank you :3!!!

I am now imagining Unicron in like funger boss battle sprite style. Alas, Enki, you have a new old god to add to the compendium lol—

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I feel like Papyrus and Starscream are the same flavor of guy on two VERY different sides of a scale

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GUESS WHO WAS IN STOCK AT THE WALGREENS 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

HEHEHEHE MY STUPID GUY ONLY I CARE ABOUT MWHAHAHAHAHAHAH

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reinhardt schneider fan art for all 1 castlevania 64 fans (me)

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Oh boy, so Google, Bing, Tineye, whatever other fucking search engine I’ve been on don’t work anymore for searching for similar images :/

Literally a couple months ago I could’ve looked up a character, clicked on one image, and found two bazillion versions of the exact same image and come up eventually with a backgroundless PNG to use in a PicMix. Stupid easy, stupid fast. Now, it doesn’t send you to that, it adds the image to your search directly and then gives you maybe six websites with vaguely similar images (if you’re on Bing, it’s not even the same character anymore), and fuck all nothing else. I looked up “Castlevania Julia Laforeze” and somehow Google wants me to believe that out of the entire fucking internet there isn’t a single instance of someone removing the background from her base fucking character portrait. Please, I’ve found PNGs of ROSALY before, bullshit there isn’t one of Julia on the sea of billions of fucking websites.

Anyway, I’m pissed! If I had the energy for it, I’d just make a side blog for PNGs, but I’m pissed off cause I typically DON’T. Picmixes take me like 4 hours and a ton of effort as it is, I shouldn’t have to open up GIMP, hope it doesn’t crash on me, and fight with the program to remove the backgrounds of every image ever by myself just because search engines don’t wanna do the thing they’re fucking made for.

Ughhgh, I’m tired. I’m tired of everything being unnecessarily difficult and enshittified. I just wanna have a hobby or a single action, slight notion of a choice even, in my life that isn’t interrupted by countless fucking extra steps, some kind of a paywall, advertisement, or chronic fucking fatigue! Fuck.

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cywhirlgate holoforms yay!!

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when a mutuals struggling but you know you can't say anything to help so you just like their post and hope they know they're not alone

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It’s truly hard to overstate just how much Spamton’s mere existence is a nightmare for himself. Like, arguably the life of everyone in the Deltarune universe, and especially the Darkners, is an existential nightmare. Spamton’s just on a whole other level. This is Advanced Existential Nightmare.

Cause yeah, on some level it’s always kinda depressing to think about the idea that all Darkners are bound to the fact that they are created from inanimate objects and the emotions Lightners associate with them. That this forms some sort of irrevocable inner essence and Purpose they can never change, even if they truly wanted to be something else. No one can choose who they are in this world and so on.

But like, at least most of the other Darkners we met can get some sort of contentment from following the role they have been given. Tasque Manager loves managing things (and Tasques), Lancer is a playing card who ultimately just wants to play around and have fun, Queen seems to truly love being a useful computer who can supply Lightners with endless hours of entertainment and knowledge in her own egoist way. Even King’s initial angst was based around no longer being able to fulfill his purpose.

But Spamton… as the living embodiment of Spam Mail, he was created with the desires of your typical spam-mail; advertising and/or scamming people. And he was created to be obsessed with the things that your typical Spam Mail talks about; success, fortune, status and [[BIG SHOT]]. But he was also created to be utterly terrible at accomplishing these things.

He’s Spam Mail, Spam Mail is weird, obviously scammy and generally gets ignored or thrown away. And no matter how much Spamton wants or how hard he tries, by the basic nature of his being, he can never actually be good at this. And he also can’t, like, understand that maybe salesmanship isn’t his thing and take up macramé or something. Because that obsession is also part of his basic nature. Spamton’s basic nature is to be forever frustrated, desperate and miserable.

And that’s exactly why he’s the first Darkner we’ve seen who’s truly set on cutting his puppet-strings. I think that a lot of the ‘Freedom’ he wants is freedom from that utterly miserable lot in life. To longer be bound by the rules of Being Spamton. On some level it’s probably about breaking the Rule of Nature that means he has to be a failure, that he can’t truly become a [[BIG SHOT]] on his own. He wants to overthrow God so he can get the financial success that feels he deserves.

(I know some people are angry at the Mysterious Voice on the Phone for abandoning Spamton, but I do wonder if it wasn’t basically inevitable. That the Mysterious Voice, regardless of what they wanted, could simply not subvert Spamton’s Failure-ness forever)

And that’s kinda tragic cause it’s shows that even when trying to break away, he’s still doing so through the lenses of the existential curse that’s causing him so much suffering. To be free is to get [[BIG]], and the only way to get [[BIG]] is by scamming and tricking and manipulating. Because as long as he’s Spamton, those are really the only things he can do.

But on some level, I think, he might also want to be free of that. Maybe it started as wanting to break away from the ‘script’ that means he’s bound to be a failure - but with time, I think he also grew to want to want different things. It’s clear Spamton is very distressed about losing the friendship of the Addisons and Swatch. He considers his own loneliness as one of the most defining traits of his own existence (he always start projecting on Kris on the basis of both of them being lonely). But he literally can’t put his obsessive quest for success aside and focus on his relationships. He literally can’t.

Outside of, I guess, the Pacifist ending to his NEO fight. That’s the one point where Spamton was able to put his ambitions aside for the sake of friendships.

If only for a moment.

But however brief it was, it still feel like it meant something to Spamton.

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I feel like everything I do fails.

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Why did I have to get attached to a guy who barely even has a decent wiki page and maybe two character traits listed on it I’m gonna crash out. Even worse this guy’s gotta be a Walgreens exclusive ughhhhhh just be in a store I have an excuse to go to 💀💀💀.

Explaining under here ⤵️

Sooo, hi Medix :3. I’ve been giving him a design for my own fan continuity stuff ig that just mixes elements of the only two figures he has lol and yeah, he’s pretty cool. I really like that his optics are so dark in his figures. It’s really ominous, like buddy have u thought of getting that checked out or—? I like to think they’re just never at full brightness and usually such a dark blue they’re damn near indistinguishable from black. Anyway, aside from just design stuff, the wiki page states that his job is as like a frontlines medic. Basically he’s the guy that stabilizes dying bots until someone like Ratchet can swoop in and take them back to the Ark. Again! Cool! He’s got a face guard on, so I drew my idea of what he looks like without it— the face guard hangs there like a mask would hehe— and I gave him a scar cause I figured someone with that kind of job would have some. He also has one lip piercing admittedly just for the It Would Look Cool value of it lmao

Oh yeah! Medix is also a Protectrobot technically! He’s basically a back up guy in case First Aid can’t combine for whatever reason. Soooooo I’m having him become friends with First Aid :3. Which brings me to another thing the wiki mentioned, he’s emotionally distant and has a dark, dry sense of humor. And yeah I can imagine being the dude who sees people die or gravely injured all the time would end up a little detached from people (x x ). But Aid is nice, he’d probably try to interact with the guy tbh. Also First Aid is so hard to draw I spent way longer than I thought I would just trying to get his head right while also still keeping him looking cute, it was so difficult 💀💀💀. And if u see the holoform chibis on the side there shhhh you don’t see Medix’s, that’s for later— you do see First Aid’s tho, I still need to make an actual larger fully body image of both of them but for now you get the idea of him having curly hair. And also probably being a redhead.

Hehehehe by the power of my transformers hyperfixation, they will be friends now—

Yay Medix holoform :). The front of his helm on his like forehead area is like a straight half circle shape and has these little lines in it and all I could think of was raccoon stripes and straight cut bangs so now he has raccoon stripes on straight cut bangs lol. He ended up looking very uh visual kei ish. Also ignore the mech pictures of him here, those are from before I decided on like a head shape 💀💀💀💀💀💀. I ended up making him look a little less cat ear shaped and more like uhhh idk they kinda look like two box cutter blades on his head in a way X,,,D. But yeahg— also dudes in pigtails/twintails do y’all agree

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Ok now for another deranged thing to add here for whoever actually read this far and wants to see it??? 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀

A couple days ago I had like a downright VIVID dream (has happened a couple times since getting intro Transformers, like ok thanks for the prophetic visions I guess, but the dreams before this had been entirely about my own OCs so this one was different) and woke up from it with like… an explanation of how sparks work that was somehow semi accurate to solar flares??? Like ya know not exactly, but enough to where it’d make sense in the Alien Car Robot™️ series lmao. But it came with a diagram and everything??????? It fucked me up for a while, I had to rant about it to some friends on a discord idk, wild shit cause I usually don’t dream all that often like that, I usually get lame nothing dreams 💀.

So anyway, the diagram and explanation went something like this: sparks do have a pulse, but they don’t move or contract or anything, so how? It’s gotta do with magnetism. On the inside of the spark capsule are little magnetic metal rods. These are heated up by the spark inside, absorb a ton of energy, and expel this in a charge, which goes right back to the spark and well— boom, a flare. It’s pretty similar to how the surface of the sun works, to my high key uneducated assumption and quick Google search after waking up here 💀, down to sparks having their own little swirl patterns and stuff :3. This also came with a “how that can go wrong” explanation, especially considering the actual story of the dream that I’m getting to I promise hahadkfjskhjk— too weak of a spark can cause delays in this process, ya know skipping beats (or I guess, flares?), going too slow, the rods losing their charge, etc. and too strong can damage the rods, go too fast, etc. etc.

Yeah so the actual plot of the dream itself was a vivid account of Ratchet having a spark attack.💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 uhhh all the doodles about it are incredibly out of order and probably misspelled cause I was half awake and just immediately started putting down whatever scenes I could remember from it d(TwT ). Ratchet’s ambulance siren goes off if he’s dying, fun fact. Also fun fact he survived. First Aid and Medix were the guys who had to save him which is why I put these doodles on this post in the first place. Also I cannot physically describe Medix’s voice and it’s driving me nuts cause I know what it sounds like 💀💀💀 augh.

There’s a couple close ups on some doodles, I especially like the one of Ratchet there hahdkfjskjkdkdjkdks. Ok yeah that’s it, incoherent ramblings over :3.

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𝐎𝐂 𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐉𝐈 𝐀𝐒𝐊𝐒!

feel free to tweak questions + all emojis r listed in text form bc i can't see some of them aAAaaAA! sorry if any of these questions are too similar i tried to avoid that but .. there's a lot lol! categorized by emoji type.

i wanted to make one because i could not find one on tumblr already that had a ton of questions. this was created by combining ones under the #oc ask game tag + my own contributions. hi charmymemes nation i'm back.

people

👁️ EYE - what colour are their eyes? do people notice their eyes? is there anything special about them (shows emotion easily, literally magical...)?

🤥 LYING - are they good liars? do they have tells to show they're lying?

👻 GHOST - do they believe in ghosts? what are their "ghostly experiences", if any?

💥 COLLISON - what emotions do they have trouble dealing with?

😭 CRYING - what makes them cry? do they cry easily?

👊 PUNCH - are they quick to violence?

💢 ANGER - what are some habits they have that will take some getting used to?

👪 FAMILY - what is their family like? what is your ocs relationship to them? does your oc have any siblings?

😨 FEARFUL - when scared, do they go into "flight" or "fight"?

💤 SLEEPING - do they fall asleep easily? what helps them sleep?

food & drinks

🥞 PANCAKE - what is their comfort breakfast?

🎂 BIRTHDAY CAKE - when is their birthday? do they like celebrating it?

🍩 DONUT - favourite sweet treat?

🍟 FRIES - do they order food often? or they prefer to cook their own food?

☕️ HOT BEVERAGE - do they prefer hot or cold drinks? what is their favourite drink?

🍓 STRAWBERRY - do they eat their fruit & veg? what is their favourite fruit or vegetable?

🍰 CAKE SLICE - favourite cake flavour? are they specific about types of cakes?

🍧 SHAVED ICE - do they still have any objects from their childhood? what significance does it have to them? what would their reaction be if they lost it?

plants & nature

💐 BOUQUET - create a bouqet for them! what do those flowers mean? are any of the flowers their particular favourite?

🌙 MOON - what is your oc's greatest wish? how far are they willing to go for it?

🌋 VOLCANO - how bad is their temper? is it a slow boil, or a instant explosion?

🌺 HIBISCUS - do they have any allergies?

🍁 MAPLE LEAF - what is their favourite season? why?

🍃 FALLING LEAF - do they enjoy being in nature? what is their favourite outdoor activity?

☀️ SUN - are they a morning person? what is the first thing they do in the morning?

🕷️ SPIDER - what is their biggest fear? do they have any irrational / mundane fears?

🌹 ROSE - do they like valentines day? have they been confessed to before? have they confessed to anyone before?

🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?

🙊 SPEAK-NO-EVIL - what is something your oc will refuse to stay quiet about?

🙉 HEAR-NO-EVIL - what is the worse thing your oc could hear from someone?

🌱 SEEDLING - what is their most vivid memory from childhood?

🍀 CLOVER - do they believe in luck? are they lucky?

🌏 EARTH - will they give up the world for someone they love? is this decision easy for them?

🌌 MILKY WAY - what was the inspiration behind your oc? what was the first thing you decided about them?

activity

⚾ BASEBALL - can they play sports? what is their best position if they play a team sport? what's their strong suit (speed, power etc.)?

🏊 SWIMMING - can they swim? or are they afraid of water? how well do they swim? how do they feel about swimming in the ocean?

objects

📣 MEGAPHONE - how loud are they? what do they speak like? got a voice claim?

📖 OPEN BOOK - do they like reading? what's their favourite genre?

🪤 MOUSE TRAP - what will always lure them into certain danger? a loved one in danger? a promise of something they are always searching for?

📸 CAMERA - do they enjoy having their picture taken? what's their go-to pose? do they like taking photos? what do they take photos of?

🎭 MASKS - do they act differently around certain people? what's different between the way they act around friends, family, strangers, etc.?

✂️ SCISSORS - what is the "last straw" for them to cut someone out of their life? how easily do they let go of people?

💡 LIGHTBULB - is your oc a planner? do they write down every small detail or just wing it?

💎 DIAMOND - how rich are they? can they live the lifestyle they want to?

🎁 PRESENT - what types of presents would they be most happy to receive? are they good at gift giving?

🍼 BABY BOTTLE - what are their thoughts on children?

🔪 KNIFE - how do they react to injury / misfortune befalling their loved ones (significant other, family, friends)? do they put themselves at blame?

👑 CROWN - what does your oc want to be remembered as? why?

✏️ PENCIL - is there a particular quote / lyric that you associate with them?

🎵 MUSIC NOTE - what is their playlist like? their favourite artists? do you associate a particular song with them?

🎤 MICROPHONE - are they good at singing? what is their go-to karaoke song?

🎷 SAXOPHONE - do they play any instruments? are they any good at it?

📚 BOOKS - how were they at school? what is their best subject? what is their worst subject? do they have a favourite subject?

👖 JEANS - what is their go-to outfit?

🎨 PALETTE - can they draw? what do they like to draw?

🎡 FERRIS WHEEL - are they someone who wants to kiss at the top of the ferris wheel?

⏳ HOURGLASS - are they usually late or on-time?

🔫 PISTOL - do they trust people easily? how easily will they turn their back to someone? have they been backstabbed before? will they betray someone if given an ultimatum?

🎀 RIBBON - how would they fit into other worlds / aus? what aus would you like to try out? what fictional world would they fit / not fit into?

📎 PAPERCLIP - a random fact.

📦 PACKAGE - what are some "most likely to..." that can apply to them?

🖍️ CRAYON - what advice would you give to them?

⚙️ GEAR - what are your ocs thoughts on science & art? which do they give more importance to? how much value do they place on each?

🔧 WRENCH - are they good at fixing relationships? or do they tend to avoid doing so?

❇️ SPARKLE - what is their most prized possession? what do they value?

📏 RULER - is your oc well educated? where did they get their learning from?

transport

🚆 TRAIN - what is their answer to the trolley problem?

🚲 BICYCLE - can they ride a bike? what do they remember from learning to ride a bicycle?

weather

🌩️ LIGHTNING - are they scared of lightning?

💧 DROPLET - random angst headcanon

❄️ SNOWFLAKE - do people consider them cold? if so, what made them this way?

🌪️ TORNADO - what is the biggest change you've ever made to them? how have they changed from their original version?

🌈 RAINBOW - what advice would they give to their younger self?

🔥 FIRE - do they have any self destructive tendencies? what habits do they have that hinder them from becoming their best self?

☁️ CLOUD - a soft headcanon

🌟 GLOWING STAR - what do they think about when they look at the night sky? is there someone they want to star gaze with?

🌠 SHOOTING STAR - if they could make any wish with no repercussions, what wish would they make?

☄️ COMET - what do people assume about them? are they right?

hearts

💓 BEATING HEART - what gets their heart racing?

💘 HEART W/ ARROW - what traits do they look for in a relationship? do they believe in love at first sight?

💗 GROWING HEART - if they have a crush, is it noticable? what changes when they're in love?

❤️ RED HEART - their love language(s)?

💙 BLUE HEART - do they miss their s/o easily? how do they act when their s/o isn't around?

💚 GREEN HEART - what things make your oc feel comforted? hugs, kisses, food?

💖 SPARKLING HEART - are they a subtle or a showy lover?

💌 LOVE LETTER - do they like love letters? what kind of messages do they leave for their partner?

💔 BROKEN HEART - what could their partner do that would absolutely break their heart?

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leon. go my stupid

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Lord help me this ref sheet has taken me 120 hours and I’m not even anywhere near done with it nor are all of the OCs drawn yet aaaaaaaaaa

Anyway uh the Transformers interest doesn’t play around. I have so many words typed already, it’s still just the pre-war ish prologue— they shoulda put a disclaimer on this series that it would make you write novels uh 💀💀💀. I’m still thinking of how I’m gonna post the fic on tumblr tbh, likely just in screenshots of my notes app or I’ll copy paste the text, but yeah, eventually I’ll be posting that once I get over the anxiety about it X,,,D.