#so gosh darnat get back together please

[kitkatwinchester]

OMG STOP

That closet scene with Allison and Scott was the FUNNIEST and CUTEST thing omg.

"A part of your body is doing something," and then the pure look of, like, horror and innocence and guilt that made its way onto Scott's face I CAN'T! XD XD

I honestly really want those two to get back together at some point.

Like, I understand why they aren't together right now, but dude, they are soooo cute.

AND THEY WERE SO CLOSE TO KISSING!! So you KNOW they both still love each other.

Just saying.

Also, since I'm now on this topic...Argents, what the h*ll? WHY are we hiding these things from each other?

I understand that Allison is hiding her involvement from her dad because her dad doesn't want her getting back into it, which I guess is probably the same reason he's hiding his findings from her, but SERIOUSLY?

Bruh.

You're both super smart, and you both know what you're doing, and you both have your own friends and connections.

So WORK TOGETHER GOD*MMIT.

Anyways.

Here's a Scott and Allison gif this time because I still ship them. <3

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15x18: Despair

Ahhhhh. 

Alright guys. I’m so pumped, but also so scared, because I couldn’t watch it live, and my mom and I are about to watch it on the app, but all of my friends sent me spoiler free reactions and I’m kind of freaking out now that I know how much they were dying. 

BUT ANYWAYS. 

Let’s do this. 

WAIT WAIT WAIT! 

That...that parallel...IS CAS GONNA FINALLY TELL THEM ABOUT HIS DEAL??!! 

MY POOR BABY AHHHH!!!! 

HE BETTER BE OKAY!!!! 

ARE THEY GONNA SHOW THE SPEECH??!! 

Oh boo. They didn’t show the speech. 

STOOOOOP! 

JUST RESOLVE IT ALREADY!! 

“Now.” 

Cas omg that’s not gonna help. I love you and I know you’re panicking, but no. That’s like when I’m having an anxiety attack and people are like “just calm down”. But anyways. 

Dean is panicking again OMG!! It’s nice to see him openly caring about his son again! <3 <3 <3 

I’m still a little upset with him, but that’s a good start. 

Jack noooo baby! We’re not doing that! 

Awww baby. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’(

“Don’t let me hurt you.” I’M ALREADY ABOUT TO CRY OH MY GOD! :’( :’( 

“We’re not giving up on you.” THERE’S THE DEAN I KNOW AND LOVE!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

BILLIE GO AWAY!!! 

Okay actually save Jack. 

But also SHUT UP! 

Yeah? And? 

HEY! NOT NICE!! 

It was SAVED because of them! Shut up! 

Cas is so desperate omg. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

UMMMMMMM

WHERE DID HE GO??!! 

They’re all so worried ahhhh.

IS THAT THE EMPTY??!! 

Noooooo no no no no. 

That’s bad. 

No likey. 

..........

...........!!!!

NO!!!

NO NO NO!!! 

PLEASE TELL ME THAT WASN’T REAL!!! 

PLEASE TELL ME THEY’RE GONNA FIX THAT!! 

I WASN’T EXPECTING THAT SO SOON NO!!! 

Their faces. :’( :’( :’(

...maybe? That’s a good thing, right? RIGHT?! 

God, I hate her so much, but da** Lisa Berry is good at playing the villain. 

Really? WONDER WHY!! 

Haha me too Dean. 

...they keep saying “not without being summoned” in regards to the Empty and it’s making me nervous. 

...oh. 

Frick. 

Just give it back if it means getting Jack back. 

TELL HER OFF SAM!! 

Ugh. Her sass is so good and I hate it but I love it. 

BILLIE SCREW YOU!!! 

LEAVE THEM ALONE!! JUST LET OUR FAMILY BE HAPPY!!! 

OH THANK GOD HE’S ALIVE!! 

I WAS HOPING!! 

And I kind of figured, but a part of me was nervous, okay? 

BABY! <3 <3 <3 

...oh no. 

Big uh-oh. 

BABY RUN!!! 

I DON’T KNOW WHERE, BUT RUN!!! 

RUN!!! 

RUN RUN RUN!!! 

HURRY UP BOYS!!!

JACK IS IN DANGER HURRY THE FRICK UP!!! 

HA!!! 

YAAAAS SAM!!! 

We be petty in this house. 

...okay AND??!! 

YAAAASSSS DEAN!!! I LOVE MY PROTECTIVE DAD DEAN AGAIN YAAAAAY!!!! 

NO NO NO NO NOOOO! LEAVE MY BABY ALONE!!! 

STOP IT!!! 

BILLIE HURRY UP!!! 

“Interesting”??? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN??!! 

OH THANK GOD! 

...that was close. 

Ummm...no. 

We’re not doing that. 

YAAAAASSSSSSS DEAN!!!! 

THAT’S MY BABY!!!! 

THAT’S THE DEAN I KNOW AND LOVE!!! I’VE MISSED YOU!!! 

YOU ARE OFFICIALLY FORGIVEN DEAN WINCHESTER!!! 

YOU ARE BACK TO SECOND FAVORITE FOR THAT MOVE RIGHT THERE!!! 

FREAKING YES!!! 

I LOVE THIS FAMILY!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

Awww...Jack. :’( 

Cas running right over to him. 

Most of Cas’s lines so far have been “Jack” oof. XD :’( <3 <3 <3 

Okay so...this is...kind of a good thing, right? Like, obviously, Billie is still an issue, and obviously, Chuck is still an issue, but the FAMILY is TOGETHER again!! This is GOOD!! Why are my friends so upset about this episode?? What could possibly happen? (Anything. Anything could happen. Why would I even ask that?) 

Wow. That’s an awesome camera shot.  <3 

The smoothness of that omg I love them.  

YES DEAN!!! 

I FORGIVE YOU!! SAM FORGIVES YOU!!! <3 <3 <3 

ALL BETTER!!! I FORGIVE EVERYONE!! THIS IS GOOD!! <3 <3 <3 

(I mean, he still kind of owes Jack an apology, but, like, based on his character, everything he just did for Jack was his biggest way of saying sorry. <3 <3) 

HE SNAPPED OUT OF IT BECAUSE OF YOU SAM! 

Also it’s true. 

OMG EVEN BETTER CAMERA SHOT NOW THAT THEY’RE BOTH IN IT!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

It’s okay! Because YOU GUYS are the heavy hitters! 

“To somehow.” <3 <3 <3 <3 

THAT SHOT! I CAN’T GET OVER IT!! <3 <3 <3 

...hoh boy. 

Billie is MAAAD. 

...no likey. 

AHHHH. 

HAVE I MENTIONED LISA BERRY IS REALLY GOOD AT PLAYING THE VILLAIN??!! 

CAUSE SHE’S REALLY GOOD AT PLAYING THE VILLAIN!!

OMG MY GIIIIIRL!!! <3 <3 <3 

AWWW!! SHE FOUND A GIRLFRIEND!!! 

THIS IS SO CUTE OMG!!! 

I know it’s AU!Charlie, but STILL!! <3 <3 <3 

“Like a date.” A date only hunters could do lol. 

I love it. <3 <3 

They’re the cutest omg. <3 <3 

“Rubbery trash eggs.” I LOVE HER!! XD XD <3 <3 

...what the...

...did she just...vanish?? 

....???? 

NOOO POOR CHARLIE!! She finally had another relationship! GOD DA**IT!! 

...poor Charlie. :’( :’( :’( 

I remember Stevie from the second episode of this season. I didn’t remember her name though. 

Awww...Charlie. 

...they don’t seem that surprised. Uh-oh...

...poor Charlie. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

SHE DESERVES A GOOD LIFE GOSH DARNAT!! 

Awww... <3 <3 

MY BABY LOOKS SO SAD!!! 

OMG THAT BANTER WAS ADORABLE!! XD XD <3 <3 <3 

PROMO PIC!! THESE ADORABLE LITTLE BOIS!! <3 <3 <3 

Awww...baby. :’( :’( :’( 

Baby it’s okay. We’d rather have you here, we promise. 

He’s choking up oh my goodness Alex how dare you be such a good actor. 

BABY YOU’RE HERE FOR US!! YOU’RE HERE FOR YOUR FAMILY!! <3 <3 

YAAAASSS CAS!!! 

“We care about you because you’re you.” OH MY GOD I’M GONNA CRY THAT’S SUCH A GOOD LINE!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

Jack that should’ve made you smile so much more than it did please stop beating yourself up you deserve happiness and love and they’re giving it to you because they love you gosh darnat. :’( <3 

...awww...

YOU CAN BE THERE!! THAT’S ALL THAT MATTERS!! 

AWWW!!! :’( :’( :’( 

“Me too.” AND THEN WITH THE HAND ON THE SHOULDER AHHH!!! <3 <3 <3 

They need to hug. 

Hug please. 

Dangat. 

That’s okay. I’ll still take that. Good scene. 

HA!

Well, okay, Sam. Don’t sugarcoat it. 

Okay but, like, gotta be honest...I don’t think it’s Billie. Cause...these people are vanishing just like Becky did...like Chuck made her. 

Charlie... :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Charlie no! It’s not like that. 

:’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

...no likey. 

NO NO NO NO NOOOO!!! 

She has to be fine. 

GO GO GO!!!

My ending has Sam ending up with Eileen at the end. She better not be dead. 

Oh thank goodness. That’s a text thread. Good. 

But, like...if people are vanishing, what do they do? How do they protect her? 

....it’s gonna stop isn’t it.

FRICK!!

NO NO NO NO NO!!!

NO!!!

DA**IT!!!

IS THIS GONNA KEEP HAPPENING??!! 

IS THIS WHAT MY FRIENDS WERE TALKING ABOUT??!! 

THE WAY DEAN JUST REVS IT AND SPEEDS UP OMG. <3 <3 <3 <3 

Please Eileen...please let it be a fluke. 

...she’s not standing there. 

It’s not a fluke. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

HER BACKGROUND IS SAM OH MY GOD!! 

THEY WERE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER!! :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 

GOD DA**IT SUPERNATURAL!! :’( :’( :’( :’( 

...poor Sam. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Dean’s little supportive “Sammy” oh my god. 

Oh my god Sam. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

I’m crying already ahhh. :’( :’( :’( 

Sam you’re so strong omg you poor thing. :’( :’( :’( 

HE DESERVES A GOOD LIFE TOO GOSH DARNAT!!

WAIT NO!! DON’T SPLIT THE PARTY!! BAD THINGS ALWAYS HAPPEN WHEN YOU SPLIT THE PARTY!!! 

Okay that’s awesome though. 

But also don’t split the party. 

Well frick. 

OOH!! DOES THIS MEAN WE’RE GONNA GET SOME GOOD OLD DEAN AND CAS CONTENT? CAUSE THAT’S BEEN LACKING RECENTLY! 

Oh frick. Something is SOO gonna go wrong, with a hug like that. 

But also DEAN GIVING HIS BRO A SUPPORTIVE HUG OMG I LOVE IT!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

And Sam just leaning into it because he totally needs it but he’s trying not to break down but also that’s such a beautiful, subtle thing and I love it. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

That little look and nod just made a tear slip down my cheek (as if I wasn’t already blurry-eyed and crying). 

“Let’s go reap a reaper.” PROMO LINE!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

DONNA!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

Sam being a protective dad and being distracted by checking in on his son I love it. <3 <3 

I love my three protective dads in this it’s adorable. 

DUDE!!! 

JACK DRIVE BABY!!! 

OMG SAM I LOVE YOU FOR DOING THAT!!! 

HE’S DOING WHAT HE KNOWS WILL DISTRACT HIM AND CHEER HIM UP BECAUSE IT’S WHAT HE DID WITH DEAN AND GIVES HIM SOMETHING TO DO OMG IT’S SO CUTE I LOVE IT!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

Whoa. That music change. That was intense. 

NICE SHOT OF DEAN!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

GO DEAN AND CAS GO! 

“Hiya kid.” “Hey.” So soft omg. <3 <3 <3 <3 

Awww baby... 

THAT HUG!!! 

IT WAS IN THE PROMO!!! 

AWWW DONNA!!! :’( :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

THEY BETTER BE OKAY!!! 

I’M GONNA BE REALLY MAD IF THEY’RE NOT OKAY!!! 

“Anything you need.” I freaking love Donna. She’s such an under-appreciated character. <3 <3 

MY GIRL! <3 <3 

YAAAASSS CHARLIE!! <3 <3 <3 

Poor thing...

But also I love you and I’m proud of you. 

God all of my favorite characters are suffering and losing so much I hate it. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

JUST LIKE BACK IN S14!!! 

Ha! Bobby omg. XD XD 

No. 

It probably won’t given our luck. 

Awww Sam.... :’( 

...there are kids in there. 

...which definitely means it isn’t gonna work. 

But I’m gonna be optimistic and let myself get crushed anyways. 

Awww Donna.... 

Awww Jack..... :’( 

UMMMMMM

....what?? 

What just happened?? 

That is so not cool. 

That is completely against everything Jack is what? 

No. 

Not okay. 

Don’t tell me he destroys anything he touches now. 

I don’t know how that would’ve happened. 

But no. 

....uh oh. 

That’s too easy. 

Run boys. 

OH MY GOD DID SHE JUST--

OH MY GOD SHE JUST--

“Hello boys.” HOLY FRICK I’M WHEEZING HOW DARE SHE MAKE ME LAUGH!! XD XD 

HA! 

GET HER DEAN! 

But also run because this is too easy. 

EEEEEE!! I DIG A BADA** DEAN!!! 

God she’s such a good villain, but also screw you Billie!! 

PROMO SCENE!!! 

DEAN HURRY!!!! 

YES!!!!

GO DEAN!!!!

GET HER!!!

IT’S CHUCK!!! 

I FREAKING KNEW IT!!! 

...dangat. 

We can’t do anything about that....

PROMO SCENE!!

SYMBOLS ARE GONNA LIGHT UP! 

YEP! I WAS RIGHT! 

I over-analyze those promos way too much lol. 

Wait...for what? 

It has to be! 

NOOOO. No likey. 

FRICK! 

DANGAT! 

I KNEW IT! 

NO NO NOOOO!!! 

OH MY GOD NO! 

THIS WAS IN THE PROMO! 

CHARLIE NOOOOO!!!! :’( :’( :’( 

BOBBY. NO!!!!

WE’RE LOSING EVERYBODY NOOO!!!

Oh no. 

No no no no no. 

Not Donna. 

Don’t you dare. 

Tell me it’s not true. 

NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

HA! 

WELL TAKE THAT BILLIE!! 

ATTABOY DEAN!!! 

Wait nooooooo. 

That’s bad! 

Nope nope nope. 

Run you two. 

OMG that little moment. 

Cas stepped protectively in front of Dean, and then Dean immediately pulled him back and out of harms way. <3 <3 <3 

PROMO! 

BILLIE IS SCARY AHHH!! 

RUN YOU GUYS!!! 

Good call. 

But also how do you run from a cosmic entity??

Oh my god...

Jack’s face... 

Sam’s face...

:’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

DOES THIS MEAN JODY AND THE GIRLS ARE GONE TOO??!! 

OH GOD I DON’T WANNA THINK ABOUT THAT. 

Dean talking to himself. <3 

HEY!!!

STOP THAT!!! 

PROTECTIVE CAS! <3 <3 <3 <3 

BILLIE GO AWAY!!! NO ONE LIKES YOU!! 

SCREW YOU BILLIE!!! 

YEAH IT DOES, AND IT BETTER F**ING STAY THAT WAY!!! 

HA! 

YES CAS! WAY TO GET HIM OUT OF THERE! <3 <3 <3 

“I’ve got you.” <3 <3 <3 <3 

PROMO!

No. 

It’s never time. 

Shut up Billie. 

NO! 

LEAVE THEM ALONE! 

YES CAS!! 

SO PROTECTIVE I LOVE IT!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

YES CAS!!! WAY TO GO YOU AMAZING ANGEL YOU!!! 

...uh oh. 

PROMO! 

....no likey. 

Come on you two...you can do this. 

YES CAS! <3 

Dean...don’t do that to yourself. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Not now baby. We need you. You need to be strong. You can do this. 

Awww Dean. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

I feel a big emotional scene coming. 

PROMO OMG NOOO! 

Dean honey. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Dean. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Cas’s look...

Dean’s so sad. :’( :’( :’( 

CAS HAS AN IDEA!!! 

The Empty??

Oh wait...

Is he...

HE’S GONNA TELL HIM!!

WAIT!!

WAIT HOLD ON A SECOND!!

WHAT ARE YOU THINKING CAS??!!

Dean’s face...

..........!!!!!

WAIT A MINUTE!!

WAIT!

A!

MINUTE!!

IS THIS DESTIEL??!!

IS! THIS?! DESTIEL?! 

OH MY GOD I’M GONNA CRY!! THE WAY HIS VOICE IS CRACKING!! 

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I’M CRYING!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

MISHA’S ACTING RIGHT NOW OMG!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

OH MY GOD CAS OH MY GOD MISHA OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!! 

“You raise your little brother for love.” :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

OH MY GOD CAS!!! :’( :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

....my reactions might wind up getting slim because I’m really starting to cry.... :’( :’( :’( :’( 

“Because of you.” :’( :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 

“You changed me, Dean.” <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

WAIT NOOO!!! CAS NOOOO!!! DON’T DO IT!! :’( :’( :’( :’(

HOLY FRICK!!!

HOLY FRICK HOLY FRICK HOLY FRICK!!! 

GUYS!!!! 

IT FINALLY HAPPENED!!! 

DESTIEL JUST BECAME CANON!!! 

“I love you.” <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

“The one thing I want, it’s something I can’t have.” <3 <3 <3 

THAT IS DESTIEL PEOPLE!! 

IT IS CANON!!! 

TWELVE YEARS!!! 

AND DESTIEL IS CANON!!!! 

I CAN’T BELIEVE IT OH MY GOD THIS IS AMAZING!!

WAIT NO NO NO I TAKE THAT BACK I DON’T LIKE WHERE THIS IS GOING!!!

“Don’t do this, Cas.” :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

OH MY GOD NOOOOO!!!! 

THE HANDPRINT!!!! :’( :’( :’( :’( 

WTF!!! 

OH MY GOD!!!!

....

I can’t...

I can’t type...

I’m hyperventilating.

There are tears just streaming. 

WTF??!! 

DID THEY SERIOUSLY JUST INFINITY WAR THIS SH**??!! 

ARE YOU F***ING KIDDING ME??!! 

YOU HIT ME WITH CAS??!! 

AND THEN THIS??!! 

I can’t type...

.....

HOLY. 

FRICK. 

Just so we’re clear. 

I am writing this review portion. 

A good two hours after watching that episode. 

And I’m still crying. 

Even thinking about everything that just happened. 

What. 

The. 

F**k. 

WTF WAS THAT??!! 

DID THEY JUST--

DID THEY ACTUALLY--

*SCREAMS* 

Okay, let me try this again, and I’m gonna try extra hard not to burst into tears this time. 

That. 

Was. 

Epic. 

Oh my god. 

Between all of the s**t that’s going down in the world (and yes, I saw all the memes), THIS was the LAST thing I was expecting. 

DESTIEL.

IS.

CANON. 

CAS.

IS.

DEAD.

GUYS!!!

SERIOUSLY HELP!!! 

I...I can’t even process. 

Destiel is canon. 

Supernatural is Avengers: Infinity War. 

Jack destroys anything he touches. 

And meanwhile, Nevada is still counting votes, and Putin stepped down. 

Man. This is a day.  

Everything hurts. 

And I’m still crying. 

Okay. 

Despite all of the emotional trauma that this has caused, I’m going to try really hard to analyze this episode like I usually do. 

Let me just start with: wow. 

The cinematography in this was incredible, and Richard Speight’s acting was genius. Everything about this episode--visuals, music, set, everything--was just so brilliantly done and flowed so beautifully together. The scene changes, the transitions, the build-up of tension--it was beautiful. 

They hit those emotions right from the start, in big ways and subtle ways. Between putting beloved characters in danger, to killing some of them off entirely, to little hugs and smiles and words spoken, I was just as shaky and teary-eyed as I was last week. 

And all of it--all of it--culminated into one of the most beautiful scenes that this show has ever created. The amount of raw emotion that was in that Destiel scene was beautiful. The facial expressions of Cas and Dean were so clearly conveying how they felt--how deep Cas’s love truly was, and how scared and confused Dean was. The script. Those lines. The delivery. All of it put meticulously together, piece by piece, in a terrifying, emotional, tension-filled sequence that made something happen that the show has needed for years.

We finally got Destiel. 

And then to have it ripped away, just like that, because Cas was finally happy. Cas was finally happy because he told Dean how he felt, and because he could go out doing the one thing he’d always wanted to do--love him so much that he had to save him. 

Holy. 

Freaking. 

Cow. 

Look.

I was not a Destiel shipper from Day 1, okay? I wasn’t. I always saw their relationship as a brotherhood, and a friendship, and a special bond. 

But as the years went on, and I continued re-watching old episodes and comparing them to new ones, I started to see the Destiel relationship for what it was. 

And let me tell you right now: this scene? This was the final icing on the cake. 

If you didn’t already see the Destiel, then this...this should’ve done it. 

Because wow.

And while we’re talking about “wow”...

Misha Collins. 

Misha. 

F***ing. 

Collins. 

Holy god almighty. 

That was an INCREDIBLE acting moment. 

That was an Oscar-winning, Emmy-winning, stardom performance from a true legend. 

The way he conveyed all of that raw emotion, and the way the tears fell as he just let it all out. Every pronunciation fo every word was so deliberate and done in just the right way. 

And to end it all with the most satisfied, happiest look as his character gave his life for the man he loved. 

As he pushed his lover away and left a bloody handprint behind. 

Misha F***ing Collins is a F***ing Rockstar. 

Holy sh**. 

That could not have a been a better ending for Castiel. 

All of the parallels, and all of the callbacks, and everything that has happened between Cas and Dean came to a head in that very moment. 

And as much as I cried, and as much as I will still be crying for a long, long time...

It was beautiful. 

Then, after all of that, to just top it all off with everyone disappearing, Infinity War style, and to end on that scene of Dean crying, head in his hands, on the floor, weeping, his only remnant of his lost love staining his shoulder. 

And Sam and Jack, just staring into the nothingness that is the rest of the world before staring at each other, lost, and confused, worried that the rest of their family is dead and gone and they’re the only ones left. 

I have no words. 

I cannot describe how incredibly horrifying, and hurtful, and emotional, and beautiful that entire episode was. 

From start to finish, it was a true masterpiece. And I cannot say that enough. 

With two episodes left, I have no idea where this is going to take us next. 

I don’t know if Cas is going to come back. 

I have a feeling he isn’t. Not with an ending like that. At least, not in a way we might expect. 

But I do think we’ll get a resolution to the Destiel moment. I think Dean will have a moment where he wishes he could’ve had the courage to say it back, or a moment where all we see is him grieving, just as Sam grieves Eileen. 

And I wonder if, when all is said and done, Cas will come back in some other way--in heaven, or in dreams, or in some form. Because that would be a good way to do it, in my opinion.

But beyond that, I don’t know what’s next for Sam and Dean and Jack. 

I have a feeling that, like Infinity War (I’m sorry, but that’s totally what it reminded me of), not everyone will stay dead. My hope is that they’ll be brought back somehow. After all, that’s what our boys are all about, right?

But honestly, I don’t know anymore. 

Any theories I had about the deaths of future characters or the survival of others was thrown out the window by Cas’s death in this episode, and honestly, I’m going to be crying about that for the foreseeable future. I’ll never get over it, but at the same time, I won’t even not love it, because it was perfect, and with it came Destiel. 

That’s honestly all I can say. The tears are still falling, and my heart is still aching, but god da**it, that was a good episode. 

My Rating: 25/10 (These numbers are just going to keep getting higher and higher, aren’t they? I probably should’ve started lower...) 

P.S. I honest to god am still trying to process all this, so I’ll react to the promo tomorrow night. <3 

[kitkatwinchester]

I hate everything about this.

...okay, that's a lie, because I DO love how concerned they all are about each other, and, as much as I hate to admit it, I love some good whump.

THAT SAID.

I'M SO WORRIED ABOUT OUR WHOLE PACK AHHHHH.

I hate that Rafael and Noah and Melissa are all stuck on the outside only VAGUELY aware of the current situation, but WELL aware that their kids have professional killers going after them at all times, which only adds to their worry.

I hate that our pack is all being affected in slightly different ways, which makes it impossible to know what the next set of symptoms will be, and even more impossible to know how to cure it.

I hate that, according to Satomi, and as evidenced by her DEAD PACK, this is FATAL to werewolves, and we have TWO OF THOSE actively affected right now, and that is REALLY NOT A GOOD SIGN.

I hate that Lydia is in her lake house, completely alone and unaware of what's going on, and so (validly) emotionally impacted by Meredith's death and trying so desperately to reconnect with her somehow, but without any support (though, as an aside, I freaking KNEW it. Her mom MUST know more than she's letting on, because Meredith was IN THAT ROOM.).

HOWEVER.

I love love LOVE how concerned our pack is for each other, and how much they're still helping each other and keeping an eye on each other and still so in sync. Plus, I am SUCH a sucker for a good ol' sick fic. ;)

I love that, when Ken came into the locker room to check on Scott, Scott's immediate response was "Get Stiles." (SCILES ALL THE WAY! <3 <3)

I love Kira's awkwardness when Malia asks her about the bag under Scott's bed. ("No, I've never been under Scott's bed. Or in it. Just on it. Wearing clothes." XD)

I love how Malia was so quick to reach out for Stiles in concern, even when she's pretty sick herself, when he started to fall over while trying to look at the map.

I love how concerned Ken is, and how he's doing his best to help these kids and keep an eye on them and make sure they're okay, since he's our only parental resource that can at the moment.

I love how quick they were to come up with a plan and find a place to hole up and protect themselves, but also protect others from them.

I love Sciles's silent conversation about getting Malia to open the vault.

I love Malia calling out Sciles for hiding something, only to save them from actually revealing the truth when she incorrectly assumed that the hidden information was her presence of the name on the list.

I love how quickly, and yet very not-smoothly, Scott and Stiles recovered, mostly because if Malia was j a little better at social cues, you know she would've picked up on it.

I love how concerned Stiles was when Malia found out how much she was worth, only for Malia to be pleased that she's the least likely target of the group ("It's progress." XD).

I love how much they still have each other's backs, and how much they care about each other, and I love that they at least have each other during such a terrifying and deadly time, and I REALLY hope they can work together to figure it out and save each other and get better, because I REFUSE TO LOSE ANY OF THEM GOSH DARNAT!

Anyways...

This is one of those episodes that I can already tell I'm gonna love to hate, hate to love, and I already know it's gonna make its way pretty high up on my favorite episodes list just from the whump and hurt/comfort alone.

Let's see even more of it. XD :( <3

(This was before all the bad stuff started happening, but it's all four of them, so it works. <3)

[kitkatwinchester]

LET'S F*CKING GOOOOOO!!!

YES SCOTT!!!

THAT'S OUR ALPHA!!!

THAT'S OUR GODD*MN TRUE ALPHA!!!

YES BABY!!!

YOU F*CKING DID IT!!!

And you CAME BACK FROM IT!!!

You CONTROLLED IT!!

Because you CAN!!!

Because you're AWESOME!!

Because you were MEANT TO!!

Because YOU ARE A TRUE ALPHA!!!

And the way EVERYONE reacted when he brought out that Alpha roar!!

Isaac being able to snap the trap in half!!

Lydia and her proud little smirk!!!

Stiles and his "that's what I'm talking about"!!!!

And MALIA! FINALLY herself again. And FINALLY getting REUNITED with her dad!!!

And now Stiles CAN READ AGAIN!!! Because he BELIEVES IN HIMSELF AGAIN!!

And his dad ISN'T GONNA LOSE HIS JOB!! Because he CLOSED A CASE and SAVED A LIFE!!!

And we WON!!!!

AHHHHH!!!

IT FEELS SO GOOD TO WIN!!!

THEY'RE DOING BETTER!!

Because they're TOGETHER!!

And they're ROCKING IT!!!

I LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH AHHHH!!!!

THAT WAS SO AMAZING I'M SO HAPPY!!!

...so of course they went and RUINED IT with whatever the f*ck just came out of the nemeton.

We can't ever just WIN, can we?

Also I REALLY gotta know what those hunters were trying so hard to hide. ESPECIALLY considering that it has Derek's tattoo on the top of it.

AHHHH I NEED ANSWERS!!

But you know what?? I can also be pleased for now, because WE WON GOSH DARNAT!! LET ME REVEL IN THAT FOR A MOMENT!

Because THAT was BEAUTIFUL!!

I LOVE OUR PACK SO MUCH!! <3 <3 <3

(Apparently I've decided to start putting enough gifs to more or less summarize these scenes that I love so much. Oh well. Deal with it. XD)

[kitkatwinchester]

OMG THOSE BASICALLY-COUPLE SCENES WERE SO CUTE!!

And they were so fitting for their various personalities.

Like, Kira and Scott are so adorably awkward with each other (Kira's dad is also an A++ parent, for the record), but also so sweet and understanding with each other.

The way she helped him with the chopsticks. And he was so awkward with them, and she was so hesitant to put her hand on his, but then once they were touching and working together it worked so well and he did it (well, sort of lol. That said, that girl's reflexes, holy sh*t.)

And then the way she fed it to him and her little smile and his little smile.

And then Scott with the wasabi OMG you poor baby. XD

"Scott what happened to your wasabi?" "*slowly dying* I thought it was guacamole."

THAT IS SUCH A COMMON MISTAKE IN MEDIA AND IT WILL NEVER NOT BE FUNNY! XD

Ahhhhh, they're just so cute and so awkward and so wholesome and so soft and I love it and I SHIP THEM SO HARD! SCIRA FOR THE WIN! <3

And then STYDIA!!! AHHHH I LOVE THOSE TWO SO MUCH!!!

The way Lydia just started slowly breaking down because she doesn't trust herself or her abilities and she genuinely felt so bad for getting Stiles in trouble because she feels like it was for no reason.

But then the way Stiles was so quick to tell her that she's definitely right, and she's always been right, and that he would never blame her and never doubt her because he will always trust her and always have her back.

And the symbolism in her wrapping her finger up in the red string, because she's an unsolved mystery, and Stiles just reaching over and unwrapping it, because as far as he's concerned, there's nothing to solve about her, because she's perfect exactly the way she is.

And then the fact that what she said was able to give Stiles the idea about the chemicals at the school, and then Lydia knowing the chemical symbols helping them put together the pieces of who Barrow's going after.

They're just both so smart and so easily guilt-ridden, but as a result, they understand each other so well, and they love and support and care about each other so much, and they're seriously the best power couple on this show and I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH WOULD YOU TWO JUST START DATING ALREADY PLEASE?! <3 <3 <3 <3

And then Allison and Isaac oh my god. XD XD

The sass and the smirking and the badassery.

The fact that Allison electrified the windows and very intentionally neglected to mention it.

The way the two of them tease each other, but also look at each other with so much love and affection.

The way they both clearly care about each other, but both tend to hide their emotions and keep their distance because their trauma plagues them too much.

I mean, I loved Scott and Allison. I did. But honestly, the more I see it, the more I feel like Allison and Isaac were just made for each other. Like, those two are truly meant to be.

Their personalities just mesh so much better. Their respective sassiness and bad boy/bad girl energy and "touch me and I'll kill you" vibe just blend so well and I love them so much. <3 <3 <3

Ahhhh I love my little couples. Please make them all go canon. Please please please???

(I mean LOOK AT THEM! How can you not love these couples?? <3 < <3)

UPDATE: WE NEED MORE GIFS!! ALLISAAC ALMOST KISSED!! FOLLOWED BY WHAT WAS BOUND TO BE A MAKE-OUT SESSION! (The way Isaac tried to pretend he wasn't gonna kiss her, and then the way Allison got all mad when she clearly wanted to kiss him as badly as he wanted to kiss her THEY WERE MADE FOR EACH OTHER GOSH DARNAT!) BUT INTERRUPTED BY... "Another werewolf?!" Poor Isaac OMG. The way Chris said "where I keep my guns". XD Just let them be happy, Chris. They love each other, okay? (That said...I do see where he's coming from. Anyways.) SCIRA ATE PIZZA TOGETHER!! All cute and sweet and the whole "no offense to sushi" and then "yeah we probably should've started you on California rolls" and just their general adorableness. AND THEN THEY WERE ALL FLIRTY!!! With the "you seem like a really nice guy" and Scott's little smile with the "what else did I do?" "You remembered my name." <3 <3 And then they got f*cking interrupted by f*cking Barrow so, like, that's f*cking great, thanks for that. I'm worried as all heck, but I have faith that they're gonna save her because THEY WOULDN'T DO ME DIRTY LIKE THAT WOULD THEY?! ...would they? :( :( :( :( Anyways. Cheering myself up. I don't really have any major cute updates of Stydia but I'll attach a new gif because apparently they basically held hands earlier in the episode and I missed it??? <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

[kitkatwinchester]

I TOLD YOU HE WASN'T DEAD!!

The second they flashed to the teacher's perspective I was like "Derek's gonna show up. He's gonna be here. He's going to her for help." And SURE ENOUGH!!!

Thank GOD! Now she can save him, they can kiss, and Scott can stop feeling guilty for crying out loud.

I mean, okay, seeing the full scene, I realize now why Scott feels so guilty, but it still WASN'T HIS FAULT. He was trying to help Derek. It's NOT HIS FAULT that the blow he landed made Derek tumble down with Ennis.

And either way, it doesn't matter, because DEREK IS ALIVE!! I KNEW IT!!

ALSO! Scott's eyes?? Flashing red??? I thought you had to KILL another Alpha to become an Alpha, but NOPE. Scott is just about to be an Alpha just by merit and honor and amazingness alone and I am HERE for it!! Cause he DESERVES IT!!!

Also also, I take it back. I ship Allison and Scott again, because gosh darnat they love and care about each other so much (and just like Scott said, thank GOD Allison was there that night, because PHEW that could've been EVEN WORSE without her there) and I would love to see them get back together.

That said, I can definitely see this love triangle very quickly turning into a Stancy vs. Jancy situation for me internally, because I see reasons she should be with both of them and I kind of don't hate her with either of them lol.

ANYWAYS.

When do we get to find out what Deaton and his little sister (whatever her name is) are?? When?? I would like to know please and thank you.

Also can we just appreciate that the only reason Deaton even helped them was to ultimately protect his boys? Cause, like, we stan Deaton, so much.

Anyways.

Stiles and Lydia working together to figure out the case is so cute and WHEN DO THEY GET TOGETHER GOSH DARNAT!

ANYWAYS! (How many times am I gonna say that? Lol.)

This season is so good and that episode was so good and I LOVE THIS SHOW SO MUCH AHHHH!!!

Catch me watching another episode later tonight lol.

Season 3, Episode 6 next time!