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yardsards · 11 months

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thinking about the fact that i was so socially awkward as a teen that the school wanted to me out of class to attend "social skills classes" once a week (to which i attended one and demanded i be removed from the program cuz it was just me and about a dozen equally uncomfortable probably-autistic kids who also probably did not want to be there, being forced to do icebreaker activities by deeply condescending special education teachers)

how did i not receive an autism diagnosis til i was nearly an adult and specifically advocated for myself to be taken to a professional to get checked out for autism and adhd???

#eliot posts #i'm really curious whose call it was to put me in there #it wasn't my parents because my mother was Outraged that her kid got put in a special ed type class and signed the papers so i could leave #so like. what teacher made that call.#and what exactly sparked that #was it my general being a loner or was there An Incident #i don't remember exactly what grade i was in. probably 8th or 9th?#so still kind of stuck in my ''convinced myself i was just Better than my peers and that's why i didn't have many friends'' phase #following that was a phase where i got over myself but was kinda just shy #and then a phase where i went okay fuck it we ball and acted weird but in a way intended to be funny #that annoyed some people but some people enjoyed. by then i figured ''eh i aint seeing most of these ppl ever again after graduation''#i had some friends in high school bc of marching band but they were all in different grades than me #tho even then i was only close w like 2 of them and the rest all seemed closer to each other than to me #edit: dug through my blog and it was 7th grade (yeah ive been on here that long)#so this was before i even had my marching band friends. but probably after my singular friend from elementary school moved away?#i forget if he left in 6th or 7th grade #(im still friends with that friend. he's great we love him)

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pitsazawr · 1 month

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new video on the totheark channel??????????

me and my pookie @meqtgrinder have an au where the guys are doing well, and Brian streams and records funny vlogs!!

#they are married #brim #happy brims #that's what I'll probably call this au #mh brim #marble hornets #mh #brian thomas #bwian #tim wright #and in this au Tim works as a middle school teacher #they're adults and I made Brian bigger than usual #SO UH I LIKE IT #mh brian thomas #mh tim wright #my art

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laesas · 3 months

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I don't know how much more explicit the message of "THIS IS GROOMING" could have been without Be On Cloud superimposing it in all-caps text over every one of Non and his teacher's scenes. People interpreting that as "cheating" are cracked in the fucking head.

#dead friend forever #dff the series #barcode fucking killed those scenes!!! the desperation and discomfort and resignation!?!!#the fact that Non was textually terrified of dying at the hands of Tee's uncles gang unless he found that money #and once he accepted it and Keng held that power over him did he lean in to kiss him.#theres a reason that even universoty professors are fired for having relationships with their ADULT students.#because holding a position of institutional power over someone like that in a relationship is deeply deeply disfunctional and bad #do you think that if you were a child that felt they had literally nowhere else to turn. not to parents. or friends. or partner.#and a teacher said they would fix all your problems in a room with a closed door and kissed you.#you wouldnt feel obligated to kiss back and offer yourself up in exchange???#because what?? you're too moral??? you'd rather die???#THIS IS HOW GROOMING HAPPENS. ITS ADULTS SEEKING OUT THE MOST VULNERABLE PEOPLE IN THEIR CLASSES AND HOLDING SOMETHING OVER THEM.#IF I SEE ANYONE CALLING NON A CHEATER AGAIN I AM GOING TO KILL.#ITS STATUTORY RAPE. YOU THICK FUCKS.#KENG MADE HIM KEEP HIS SCHOOL UNIFORM ON. HE'S A FUCKING PEDOPHILE.#IM GOING TO KILL.#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA SOME OF YALL ARE THE STUPIDEST MOTHERFUCKERS AROUND. YOURE STUPID. YOURE SO FUCKING DUMB. GODDDDDDDDDDDDD

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moonymauk · 1 year

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packaging designs for dnd themed teas

#for a college assignments #but I just realised my teacher changed the template so now I have to adjust these to fit and I wanna Scream hahaaa :')#art #dungeons and dragons #dnd character #moonyart #idk what else to tag I'm just gonna ramble #the drow is Lysarra and the green one is called Meadow idk what their deal is yet bc I made them up just for this drawing but I like em :D

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martyrbat · 2 months

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im so considerate.... (<- guy not ranting about a thing it hates before its friend is done with the media)

#can officially say i finished the arkhamverse. didnt watch anything about that suicide squad one but i read all comics #a d watched the complete story & side mission gameplay for origins asylum city and midway through my refresher for knight #the biggest takeaway i have is wow these people are weird about convicts and addicts and love their toxic masculinity #but the gameplay and nostalgia impacts peoples opinions on it. maybe an enjoyable experience but for the story or universe itself #its a complete failure in every regard i can think of—only having glimpses moments of quality that makes the rest of it #be frustrating because the potential can be there. theres interesting premises occasionally but the execution and payoff doesn't make it #even worthwhile to get to those premises because of what you must wade through to reach them #<- thats me being my nicest and most spoiler freeabout it btw.#my other big takeaway is that tim is canonically older than jason and i think a grown ass man saying fuck that kid is really funny #[SPOILERS LOOK AWAY CJ]#<- tim currently works as a highschool science teacher while jason was shown to be adopted and made robin at 15 #where he was then promptly captured and kidnapped by joker. he escaped half? a year later during asylum and AK takes place 2 years afterward #i think. the entire timeline for this shitty universe is awful and confusing. dick was robin for like 2 years its ridiculous.#and i think primarily so they can go noooo see bruce is a hot late 30 year old instead because you become dust at any older!!#but. back to the age thing. hes about 17 maybe early 18 during AK but because tim is a private school teacher he needs a bachelor's degree #and most people get it at 22/23ish and then theres the actual teacher application and being hired (or not because hes a nepo baby)#so hes early mid twenties or so. compared to a (presumably dead) teenager who he called a loser more or less.

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aleki-lives-here · 2 months

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I watched an mdzs animatic with a song from wicked, and something in my mind finally clicked and now I want to scream about how similar my current and my past hyperfixations are.

"Good news, the witch is dead!" like

"No good deeds" is such a "character pushed to their limits" song. Imagine it before the nightless city. The first scream, as Wen Ning and Wen Qing walk away. The chanting as he lies there, unable to move, praying for them to be well. Memories of people he loves: Jiang Cheng and Jiang Yanli, Lan Zhan, the Wen siblings.

"Was I really seeking good, or just seeking attention?" -- as he looks at the burial mounds and leaves.

"If I cannot succeed, Fiero, saving you, I promise no good deed will I attempt to do again." -- as he learns about Wen Qing and Wen Ning's death.

Ending with him arriving at Nightless city and pulling out the flute.

I want to see it animated so much!

My skills are so annoyingly not up to the task. Maybe if my hyperfixation survives long enough that I learn drawing and animating things well? It'll be the third mdzs animatic I really wish to do one day. Maybe one day.

#mdzs #wicked #my tastes do never change. all my favourite stories seem to have “dark evil” characters that are actually good #I am obsessed with this okay #mdzs did what I love about such stories the best tho. it's perfection. i love it so much oh my god #wicked has the advantage of being a musical. tho I have 60+ mdzs animatics saved so by now I arguably consume it as a musical.#maybe one day I'll write a comprehensive list of all animatics I've ever came across #wicked also has a slight advantage of the word “witch” being used. it is a fun word that makes me feel thing #it was what I was called in school #because I was weird and autistic #and wasn't afraid of blood and drew weird runes and made weird rituals I called “magic” that were rumored to actually work #because one day a boy annoyed me. I made weird hand gestures. and he immediately got hit by snow falling from the roof #i swear like five people from my class confessed they were scared of me #and later my uni teacher. she confessed there were rumors going around among teachers about how scary and terrible a student I was #I still can't get over this it's so funny. imagine being this annoying and weird. it's hilarious.#so yep. my love to stories about characters the are deemed “evil” by the world runs very deep #I love them so so so much ahah #now I just need to learn drawing and do my love some justice

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pastafossa · 2 years

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Alright! Got the TRT chapter written and some editing done. Hopefully I’ll be able to finish editing tomorrow evening (leaving at 11am and roughly 6 hour drive, will have time tomorrow night), or potentially Monday and Tues night if the editing’s not finished up tomorrow. Breakfast is usually at 8:30am at art camp, followed by ART until lunch, then MORE ART until dinner, and then we’re all done SURPRISE THE TEACHER GIVES ME HIS SHOP KEY EVERY YEAR SO I CAN GO CARVE MORE AFTER DINNER CAUSE I AM A MACHINE.

So we’ll see what I get done. Pre-editing, the chapter was about 4.5k words so I won’t have to edit a mountain at least, and I think I can do it. I’ll let ya’ll know if something changes!

#the red thread #i think i can make it without tooooo much trouble #i'm honestly planning on what i call the Dopamine Burst #because every time I go to art camp and do this #it's like the creativity button in my brain gets SLAMMED #something about being in a space devoted to art and being able to focus solely on that #makes my brain want to make *more* things #and not just carving - some of my biggest trt plot revelations came while i was at art camp #so i'm hoping the same thing will happen again and if so then inspo will hit and i'll literally WANT DESPERATELY to trt #in between my carving #at the very least I will HAVE THOUGHTS that require sharing every night in between pictures of whatever i made that day!#i haven't been to this place since just before covid so i'm excited to go back and see my teacher again and make more things

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ivnscribbles · 30 days

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leaving secondary school & no longer doing English classes has made me realise that I actually really like English Lit just the stress of a timed essay made me loose my shit so bad that I fully did not want to go to classes for 4 years.

#dyslexia #like i actually remember alot of the poems we did in the poetry unit & some of them do influence my ideas #and i do genuinly enjoy trying to understand media & characters n shit #like thats fun. i like that #i want to understand stories #just the idea of having to write an essay made me HURGH #(i did go to my classes anyway btw skipping was hard at my secondary & i was a goody two shoes)#like i remember during my yr11 i had the best english teacher ive ever had (wish id had her all 4 years)#(my teacher the year before somehow missed the memo i was dyslexic. ripped into an essay i did at parents evening-#- made me cry and then told my mum she should get me tested for dyslexia 😐)#we did 'an inspector calls' and i had so much fucking fun lmao. She'd have us all have discussions about the book - ask us what we thought #and would take our awnsers seriously! she was so fucking cool man.#ramble #i am rambling

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widevibratobitch · 1 month

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#im so tired of this lalalalalalalalaa #something is Wrong lol #i really need this therapy on wednesday but guess WHAT im not going. im going to a funeral instead 🤡#and ill be singing in that stupid fucking church because have to but i dont fucking wanna i hate doing it and i hate churches #all i feel rn is the overwhelming urge to selfdestruct and like obv im not gonna kms now #but im so fucking angry that im not even *allowed* to do that anymore. like it was such a comfort all this time to know that i can just Quit #and now i cant because guess what someone has to take care of my mother 🫠 and im so fucking tired of being someone people depend on #to handle THEIR feelings and THEIR emotions and just take it all with humility and acceptance and kindness and never snap and bite back #like i dont WANNA hear about your dead husband i dont wanna hear about your stupid fucking boyfriend #i dont wanna hear about the new guy/girl who's hitting on you because you're so hot and perfect #i dont wanna be responsible for how people feel. i should just shut up and take it and be humble and never ask or expect anything back #but when is it MY turn to call at 1 am crying about how im tired and want to kms #or to start expecting shit of people and allow myself to get properly angry at them for not meeting those expectations #or to braggingly 'complain' about something the other person clearly lacks without any consideration for their feelings #or to just openly cry and say deeply personal shit without any filter not caring if that other person is clearly uncomfortable af #because *i* need it right now and i need someone to listen and let them worry about how to even respond to that stuff #im just so tired of people expecting shit of me im tired of being made responsible even tho i clearly cannot handle that responsibility #i wanna be mean i wanna snap and get angry and openly say that i dont give a shit and am tired and cant listen to this rn #but i cant because i have to be a motherfucking mother theresa and never dare to demand something for myself #and idk where that comes from. idk if it's coming from the fanatic catholicism of my childhood or my mother or just from myself and idc #i just feel so horrible and guilty and wrong for wanting anything for myself #and it once again feels like im making myself the victim and the tortured martyr here when i should just shut up and take it #i just wanna lie down and die and not care about who'll get angry or judge or blame me for it im tired and i dont know what to do #i want someone to take care of ME and reassure ME and make ME feel like i matter and that they really will help me if i ever need it #and that they'd be kinda sad if i were gone not because i had a role to fulfill that i failed at by killing myself but because i am a person #<- math calculations flying around my head as i come to the terrible realisation #of just why exactly im so deeply obsessed with my voice teacher (aside from her being literally the most beautiful woman alive lol) 🤡#like babygirl stop being so utterly overwhelmingly kind to me my knees are weak i would do anything for you queen and I MEAN IT

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holyviolence · 2 months

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omg i spent the whole day cleaning my entire apartment because my family was coming to visit and 1) so so so happy my adhd is being medicated now it's literally changing my life and 2) i FINALLLY got through to my dad about how he probably has ADHD too!!!!! he finally said Yeah i think i might have adhd. and my mom was like Me too (we've had this talk privately before, she knows she has adhd too lol) And my brother is literally transferring to a different school because he can't concentrate and isn't disciplined at his current uni. adhd family.

#literally thank goodness my brother was here to like Perfectly describe in real time what happens to adhd people when they go to college for #the first time. there's less structure and you fall apart. i used that as an opportunity.#i've slowly slowly slowly been chipping away at my Entire family btw. i've finally convinced my dad that medication is a GOOD THING.#i said You know. there's a lot in life that you feel like you Have to live with. but being on meds has made life so much easier and happier.#and that's when my dad finally said it.#:^) sometimes i like..... think about my family and how complicated i feel because growing up was super tough with all of them but now they #are all better people..... and i can't help but feel proud because as much as it is ABSOLUTELY great job for THEM for getting there But i #also feel uhhh partly responsible because i was constantly calling them out for shit. not always in the best way #but always standing up for others and challenging them on their worldviews and just casually talking about more liberal (as in free. not #politically) things. yes i do feel like if it wasn't for me my family would be worse people #i KNOW one of my brothers would be because he literally told me so. and it makes me happy. it is proof that my life is worthy and i have a #good impact on the world. it doesn't have to be a big thing i do to change things..... because i believe in the Ripple Effect #my dad is a teacher and he uses the proper pronouns for his trans students without complaint now. that has a good impact on SO many people #the trans students and their classmates who hear their teacher respect them. my brother is no longer homophobic he's bi lol and #if i hadn't argued with him about what bisexuality meant bc he was Wrong when i was 18 and he was 16... i wonder....#my younger sister is one of the nicest kids i've ever met and i partly raised her. it feels great to see her be such a good kid #her best friend is a trans girl and when she first came out my sister was one of two people in their class who still wanted to be #her friend.#idk. just inspires me to keep being the best person i can be & always do what's right even if it makes people mad #bc no one can hurt me as much as my family has traumatized me (lol) and look what happened to them!! i didn't give up! and i see real change

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shinandlux · 1 year

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Yknow, the King killer chronicles would be much better if it didn't have entire chapters dedicated to our MINOR protagonist getting raped and sexually abused by a THOUSEND YEAR OLD MYTHICAL BEING

And if the author DIDN'T GLORIFY IT, yknow, taking out the whole "It made him a MAN" metaphor he put, and the "It made him irresistible to women" and all that shit

And if he... Idk... Maybe treated it like a GROWN WOMAN RAPING A 16 YEAR OLD

I would enjoy the book much more <3

#king killer chronicles #kingkiller chronicle #Tw rape #tw pedophila #Tw sa #SERIOUSLY #THE AUTHOR MADE FELURIAN #THE SERIAL RAPIST #RAPE KVOTHE AND MADE IT A GOOD THING??? HE WAS 16 #WHAT THE FUCK #THAT'S SO DAMAGING #AND IT EXPANDS CHAPRTERS AND CHAOTETS #NOT TO MENTION THE NATURE OF FELURIAN BIENG A SERIAL RAPIST AND IT WAS #'OH she can't help it 🥺🥺🥺'#I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT #IT'S LIKE THOSE MEN CALLING KIDS LUCKY FOR GETTING SEXUALLY ASSAULTEF BY TEACHERS #IT'S SO FUXIKUNG GROSS

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newtness532 · 1 year

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im going to attempt to ignore everything my anxiety filled brain is telling me

#for a start only when it comes to food #it would be easier if the stupid teacher hadn't made that comments today. why did she have to talk? i was happily living in a world where #packaged foods were not contaminated. why did she have to ruin this for me? anyway ive never died from drinking juice from a juicebox #or from not washing with water and soap the containers of milk and bread and i dont know what #so i dont see why i would die now #and I'll try to eat noodles again at some point. like it will have to be day and maybe while im video-calling my mom or sth #i even bought some very pretty chopsticks that i never got to use cause i started being scared of noodles before i got to unpack them #anyway im tired of my brain being fucked up and there are so many reasons i dont eat way too many foods #and if i let my anxiety stop me from eating the foods that i used to eat then there will be zero foods i can eat #and as they teach us at uni food is important for the being alive #god this feels embarrassing. panicking about the stupidest things #anyway were going to change that #from tomorrow. now im going to sleep #jo says stuff #personal ramblings

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dyingnights · 1 year

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my best guess is that tonight's flare up was caused by yesterday's 3 hour exercise? like there were moments where i could hardly catch my breath and also moments where i was absolutely panicking and actually got hurt so i figure that's why im feeling like this now

#like i had to do a somersault and a cartwheel and i used to be great at both but like i havent done it in years #so i landed on my back more than a few times #also had to do a headstand (if thats what it's called) and i kept falling and the teacher held my legs up and randomly let go #it was absolutely terrifying tbh #i dont think humans are made to keep our entire bodyweight on our head for multiple seconds #at least im not so let's not judge that okay

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guideaus · 7 months

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