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#so. im working on my project from home this week. which is kind of scary bc its due NEXT WEEK.....
the-eng1ne · 4 months
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good god i am so sick rn
#engineposting#i basically just have a sore throat & a bad cough#i got the sore throat on saturday and it just got worse from there#but man. i went into college on monday and my teacher heard my voice and was like george GO HOME#i sound like i smoke a pack a day rn#and bc my sinuses are majorly clogged its giving me sooo many headaches#so. im working on my project from home this week. which is kind of scary bc its due NEXT WEEK.....#imean im basically almost done#although ive made peace with the fact that im never getting assets from saph so it will forever look like shit#i also need to put in some like . bare minimum audio and then write abt it in my design doc ugh#bc saph was also supposed to do audio but. well. suffice to say thats not happening#im so anxious abt the prohect tho. i really really want to actually go in to college to do work bc id get more done than being in my room#(im easily tempted by a 30min nap)#but i sound like ive contracted the plague so idk if my teacher would let me come back#maybe ill use a mask and bring hand sanitizer and just tell people to not come into my lil laptop cubicle#but yea im anxious#bc i REALLY Want to get a distinction on this project and i thiiiink i might do#but the grading criteria is so vague i literally have no idea if i will or not#i mean ive put a hell of a lot of work into both the coding and research and design doc so im praying its enough#this course might be the first time ive worked So hard at something simply bc i wanted it and not bc i felt like i should
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wardeningo · 3 years
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idk im cringe but im free here’s a submas hc post. no particular order. We love angst we also love projecting lets gooo
Both Ingo and Emmet are autistic, Emmet also has ADHD.
Emmet is a trans bi man and Ingo is genderfluid and unlabeled, though he’s fine with using gay or queer as umbrella terms to describe his attraction.
Their parents intended for their starters to be Klink, however Ingo ended up befriending a Litwick at school and brought it home, and Emmet snuck out and caught a Joltik about a week before their 10th birthday.
Their birthday is May 20th.
Ingo was planned, Emmet was not. 
Emmet’s generally a nice person, but if you tick him off he’s going to start throwing rocks. If you specifically target his brother, he’s going to start aiming for the head.
Ingo has brain damage from an incident involving construction work and wild Durants tunneling. Neither of the twins blame the Durants for the incident, Emmet eventually adopting one of them onto his team.
Ingo’s Fraxure evolved into Haxorus during the aforementioned incident.
Emmet will not go to sleep until Ingo does.
Emmet will also check on his brother throughout the night.
Their family has a history of addiction so Ingo has Emmet hold onto his painkillers as a precaution. Problem is Ingo’s stubborn as hell and will put off taking any until he’s incapacitated.
Both Ingo and Emmet are partially deaf, with Emmet’s being train related and Ingo’s being blunt force head trauma related.
Both boys have commitment issues but for entirely different reasons. 
Emmet got asked out a lot in middle school as a joke. Had a girl date him for a month in high school but only because she lost a bet. Turns out if you get told repeatedly that someone wanting to date you is “embarrassing” you start to believe you’re unlovable. 
Ingo struggles a lot with hypersexuality and being sex repulsed. He’s definitely slept around and has had a few flings, for better or for worse. The idea of someone wanting to stay in a relationship with him is scary.
Both boys have also been called “robotic” as an insult so they’ve internalized that shit too.
Ingo has cried about Daisy Bell and will cry again.
Ingo was a very sickly child but got better by his teens.
Emmet sometimes forgets that he’s the younger twin out of the two of them.
Ingo puts too much thought into how to express himself and it often comes off as ingenuine or strained, Emmet doesn’t have this problem, but he’s really good at repressing his emotions.
Emmet relies on Ingo to know how to respond to a social situation. Emmet only really laughs at a joke if Ingo laughs first, otherwise it just doesn’t occur to him that that’s how he’s “supposed” to react.
Emmet has. many. MANY problems with Clay’s gym layout.
Ingo has eisoptrophobia, which is horribly ironic given that he’s an identical twin. He tends to avoid elevators despite Emmet telling him not to.
Emmet on the other hand is deathly afraid of squirrels. He watched an emolga scurry off with the corpse of a patrat and he has not been the same since. Yes this affects his relationship with Elesa he cannot be in the same room as her pokemon he will v*mit and Cry.
Emmet had to go through speech therapy for a number of years. He's also selectively mute and knows sign language.
Ingo really likes theatre
Ingo also really enjoys fashion.
Ingo skipped a grade as he was the uhh Gifted Kid(tm) and this went well for a while until he had a mental breakdown in high school and his parents had to pull him from the system and essentially force him to drop out (he wouldve worked himself to death otherwise)
During their school years the boys were admittedly kind of distant. They didn't hate each other there just, wasnt really a bond between them at that point.
Both started working at gear station at 16, Emmet started first and Ingo joined him not too long after, which rekindled their bond.
This is all I can think of rn this has been in my drafts for months I'm just gonna post it.
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mythiccheroacademia · 4 years
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—pocket heroes headcanons
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mtha thots: it’s that time of year again where i start projecting my daily academic existential crises on the mha characters. i’ve had this idea in my head for months and got pages of brain rot fading away in my documents, so i’ve decided to stop being selfish and start sharing w some simple hcs. i hope you enjoy it <3
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context: pocket heroes are a new phenomenon to the world. the whispers that spread by ear say they are tiny humans dressed in hero-like costumes that support you when you need it most. many don’t believe in them and blame it on overactive imagination. but the very few who know the truth, say otherwise. they say you can’t find a pocket hero, but your pocket hero finds you when they’re ready. luckily for you, your tiny friend made an appearance and is stuck to you like glue! 
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Midoriya Izuku:
this little guy is the cutest thing you’ve ever seen
izu is on the shorter side standing only about 3 ¾ inches tall
but don’t let that height fool you bc he’s a ball of energy!
he’s a chatterbox so if that’s not your game, good luck sis
but he’s so cute and his voice is so tiny how could you not love him
your pocket hero is so encouraging of you
for every assignment, he’ll sit by your hand and cheer you on
it’s impossible to give in to temptation and skip an assignment/call off work bc he’ll puff his chubby cheeks out and pout
he knows it’s tough, but you can do it! there’s nothing you can’t do!
although, if you need to take a break for your mental health, he’ll immediately stop and climb up into your neck to comfort you
makes posters with sticky notes he finds around bc he’s your biggest fan
sits by you during class and takes his own notes so that you two can compare
he doesn’t want you to miss anything important
 you get such good grades bc of deku ong
izuku’s fav place to be is in your shirt pocket or in your cleavage, behind the collar of your shirt with his little head sticking out
it’s bc he likes to be near to your heart
it makes him feel safe and close to you
if you get really stressed out, izu will cry for you
he hates it when you’re distressed and won’t be able to think clearly until you’re okay
his whimpers are so sad it literally pains my heart
your pocket hero loves when you bring him up to your cheek so he can latch on and nuzzle you
he’s highkey attached to your hip
he’s not afraid to use puppy dog eyes if you tell him he needs to stay home when you go out
7 times out of 10, you give in
but when it’s necessary for him to stay, he’ll sadly mope around until he hears the door open and runs to you
deku’s got this huge smile on his face that could make the coldest man crack
his tiny footsteps are so cute ughhhh
uses ofa to jump to your face so you can catch him and give him cuddles until he’s satisfied
i adore him
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Bakugo Katsuki:
katuski stands at a whopping 4 ½ inches which is about average
but this particular pocket hero has a bad case of small dog syndrome
make fun of how small he is at your own risk
bc this little dude bites
bakugo’s a hardass about your responsibilities
like the man will not let you procrastinate!
over his dead body
if he catches you slipping, he’ll pull on your ear lobes
screams at you and threatens to blow you up with his tiny explosions too for good measure
you don’t have the heart to tell him his quirk feels like a flick from a two year old
his yelling is kinda scary tho despite sounding like a preschool kid on helium
nevertheless, pls trust that this little guy loves you and only wants the best for you
you don’t catch how he gets up extra early every morning and organizes your desk to the best of his abilities (some of your stuff is heavy)
or how he’ll spend hours going through your music and making playlists to help you study
bakugo complains about doing it, but he’s always down to go through flashcards with you
he’s a smart cookie and has got a keen memory so trust he won’t let you half-ass/forget any important assignments and exams
a mother hen
if you have at least three inches of hair, bakugo likes to stand on the top of your head and tug on your strands to “make you move” like you're under his control
yes, he has an evil laugh
you humor him every time
although, there was one time you threw your head to the side and he almost fell off bc he called you a bad word and you weren’t having it
it hasn’t happened again since
doesn’t go there often bc he wants to be all tough, but his fav place to be is in the crook of your neck where it’s warm and he can feel close to you
pls reward him for good behavior w a lil kiss
he’ll tell you you're being gross and make a big show of wiping your “germs” away
but he secretly loves it
there was one time you didn’t peck him for a week and he actually got nervous in an angry kind of way
asked if you were mad at him in the smallest voice you’ve ever heard him use  
also stomps when he’s angry
pls he’s like the cutest most annoying alarm clock
i love him
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Todoroki Shouto:
if izu and katsuki are the angel on your right, shouto’s the devil on your left
don’t get me wrong, the little guy will suggest you do your work
but…if you can still get the grade you want and skip out on a few things, who is he to say otherwise
a strong advocate of work smarter, not harder LMAOOO
you secretly think it’s bc he likes to take as many naps as he can with you
anyways, shouto is about 4 ¾ inches in height give or a take a couple centimeters
he’s got an unnaturally deep voice for a pocket hero
he’s very quiet, reserved most times, and will be your silent support as you go about your day
but pls don’t think he doesn’t have the slickest mouth known to man just bc he’s quiet
there was one time you asked your teacher a question and they were being difficult
you went back and forth for a few min, failing to notice the irritation growing on todoroki’s face
then he just blurted out, “and you’re supposed to have a degree in education?”
thankfully, your teacher didn’t hear him but when I tell you your heart dropped
you can’t take this man nowhere
he’s just a very sassy pocket hero
you get some lip from him too sometimes but threaten to take away his soba and he’ll shut up real quick
shouto likes to hang out on top of your head and lay there
also likes to sit on your shoulder and idly swing his legs
when you’re both bored in class, he’ll make little ice sculptures to get you more alert
you let him read articles out to you bc his voice is really soothing
todo lives for head pats or when you gently scratch his head with your finger
he’ll chase your finger if you pull away too soon
you think he purrs but shouto won’t admit to anything
when he’s feeling clingy, he’ll raise his arms up signaling for you to hold him in your hand
it’s annoying sometimes bc you need to take notes or something but does it look like this boy cares?
pick him up now!
if you get stressed, he makes you put down whatever you're doing and drink some water
forces you to take a nap if it’s really bad
all pocket heroes have a reserved “bed” so their caretaker doesn’t harm them when they sleep, but todoroki is wiling to risk death if it means curling up on your chest
your heartbeat helps him sleep easier
i wanna protect him at all costs
im no longer accepting requests!
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nillawrites · 5 years
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MACARONI & GLUE [Teacher!Henry]
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In which Mr.Cavill’s kindergartners come up with a master plan to set him and Ms.Y/L/N up.
— A/N: hi! this is the first oneshot im posting here, if you recognize it it’s because this is actually something i’d previously posted for somebody else on a diff acc but just rewrote it for henry haha. anyways, requests are open and i plan to fill them within the next week! thanks for reading!
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— WARNINGS: n/a
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Henry shuffled behind the wall as he eyed the woman just down the hall. Her legs looked great in her beige skirt as she bent down to give each of her first graders high fives as they walked into the classroom. Her smile was bright and her love for her students radiated throughout the entire school, brightening everyone’s day. Brightening his day.
When all of her students reentered the classroom, she stood to dust off her outfit and was about to follow behind them, but something caught her eye. A mysterious brown curl peeked out from the wall just a few feet away. She chuckled to herself and shook her head, crossing her arms over her chest.
“Good morning, Mr.Cavill.” Y/N called out, knocking him off his balance a little. He presumed he was being sneaky but that obviously wasn’t the case, and now embarrassed wasn’t nearly a good enough word to describe how he felt in this moment.
He pocketed his hands in his khakis and stepped out from behind the wall, a bashful smile on his lips to match hers. The blush on the burly man’s cheeks was impossible to miss and he swayed back and forth on his toes as he replied huskily, “Good morning to you too, Ms.Y/L/N.”
She considered teasing him a bit more but decided against it when one of Henry’s own students came up to tug on the side of his tucked-in button up shirt. Henry looked down at the brunette boy who was staring right back at him with expectant eyes considering he hadn’t come back to the classroom in all but a minute.
Henry lifted his head back to Y/N as he pointed towards his door and began to back away with a lopsided grin, insisting, “I should probably get back to my own class now, eh?”
Y/N shut her eyes and grinned, “Yeah, I think that’d be a good idea.”
By the time she’d finished her sentence the little boy had pulled him completely behind the wall but she didn’t fail to hear his “See you at lunch!” before his door was slammed shut. She rolled her eyes and laughed before ducking into her own classroom.
Henry tortured himself over that moment for the rest of that morning. His kindergartners were clever enough to realize something was wrong with him when they noticed him staring down at his demo macaroni art project, his face stoic. While the classroom buzzed with life around him, he remained sitting at the too-tiny table with a few of his other students, cheeks still ablaze.
And the brunette boy from earlier, Liam, knew exactly why.
“I think teacher has a crush on miss Y/L/N.” He said to his friend nonchalantly, hands messy as he attempted to expertly place a piece of macaroni onto his masterpiece.
His friend Jamia perked up at his claim, her eyes going wide and ginger curls bouncing. “How do you know?”
Liam shrugged, tipping his Elmer’s glue bottle and letting out a lot more than intended. “He acts weird around her!”
Jamia smiled and swooned, holding her hands to her heart. “Are they together?”
Liam only shook his head, peacefully continuing to add onto his art. It wasn’t until a few minutes later when Henry stood that he came up with an idea. The little boy ordered Jamia to get him some construction paper and stickers, the girl excitedly coming back with the “secret supplies” a minute later.
He explained the plan to his friend and they both got to work, Liam leading the operation. His tongue stuck out from his lips as he tried to keep his hands steady, writing out a few words to the best of his ability. He tried to sound out the words which helped him a little, and when they were done, the two folded the letter they’d created and placed a Thomas the Tank Engine sticker over it. Jamia added the final touch by gluing a random piece of macaroni to make it look more presentable.
Just in the nick of time, as well. Henry walked around the class to check that everyone was doing their work correctly, and when he got to the two’s table, excitement was written all over their faces. He should’ve known then and there that something was suspicious, his eyes flickering down to the sealed letter. However, he thought nothing of it, giving them a thumbs up and walking back to his desk.
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Y/N wiped her hands, sighing to herself as she looked over her empty classroom. Everyone had been dismissed to recess and it was rare that she experienced silence like this, so every time she did, she made sure to take advantage of it.
Leaning back in her seat, she rubbed over her eyes. She loved her students to death, but jeez, did they wear her out. Her silence was broken when she heard some kind of rustling, causing her to begrudgingly open her eyes. She did so just in time to notice a tiny finger pushing a pink folded piece of construction paper underneath the crack of her door.
This brought a small smile to her lips and she stood from her squeaky seat, short heels clicking against the marble flooring. She bent down to grab the paper with the Thomas the Tank Engine sticker, her manicured fingers peeling it back and carefully opening it.
DeEr Miss Y/L/N
Yu ar s o beeOtEfull and s mart. I lov yu.
Frum, mister Caveel
An uncontainable laugh ripped past her lips as she read over the letter that was so obviously written by one of Mr.Cavill’s kindergartners. The spelling gave that much away immediately.
She couldn’t deny how sweet it was, though.
A knock on her door caused her head to whip back up, meeting the eyes of none other than Mr.Cavill himself through the window of the door. He wore his signature good-guy smile that only got wider once he noticed that he’d startled Y/N the slightest bit, the woman holding a hand to her heart.
She quickly folded the letter back up and went to swing the door open, allowing Henry to walk into her classroom. He took the liberty of shutting it behind himself and admired the view as she walked back to her desk, plopping down in her chair again.
“Long day, huh?” Henry asked, walking over and pulling a chair up to the other side of her desk. 
“You have no idea.” Y/N sighed, biting her lip and watching as his perfect hands began to unpack the lunch he’d brought along. Her stomach growling was what jolted her from her trance and made her remember one of her current frustrations. “I forgot my lunch at home and the tiny bag of Cheetos I had isn’t really helping me either.”
Henry jumped into action at her words and he pushed one of his dishes her way, insisting that she take it. “It’s only two tacos, but it’s better than a bag of Cheetos.”
Y/N frowned and looked down at the food, “Are you sure? I could totally just get more chips.”
“I’m sure.” Henry reinforced, his heart racing at her reluctant, kind attitude. He brought his leftover restaurant chips and salsa out and set them down on her desk, the two beginning to eat in comfortable silence.
He would sometimes catch a glimpse of her when she wasn’t looking, admiring how she tried to eat politely in front of him while still unknowingly having a piece of beef on the corner of her lip. This made him chuckle and her gaze shifted back to him, confusion written over her face.
“What’s funny?”
“Nothing.” Henry quickly shook his head, sporting a playful grin which she reciprocated.
The two’s relationship was strange. It was a constant push and pull, an almost there but never really. He’d made it very clear from the first week of school that he thought she was amazing and she reciprocated those feelings, but no matter how the conversation went, it always ended with a “We’re co-workers, we can’t”.
Obviously, that never stopped Henry from trying.
“What’s this?” He cocked his head and wiped his mouth, recognizing the Thomas the Tank Engine stickered letter from his own classroom.
Y/N licked her fingers and laughed, nodding towards the paper. “Why don’t you see for yourself?”
Henry pursed his lips at her semi-scary words but reached to grab the paper anyways, opening it and quickly reading over the broken English. Y/N watched with a smirk once he set the letter down, trying to stifle his grin as he rubbed his temples.
“Anything you’d like to say for yourself?” She teased, leaning a little bit closer to him.
Henry let out a hearty laugh and shook his head. “Kids and their wild imaginations, right? But maybe it’s not wild. I heard kids are good at sensing things, ya’know? Like ghosts and stuff.”
Y/N gave him a puzzled look and Henry realized what he’d just rambled about was strange so in an attempt to redeem himself, he clarified.
“B-But maybe instead of ghosts, it’s love. They can sense love. Maybe.”
Y/N laughed at his desperate attempt to regain his composure and explain himself but it was fruitless and Henry realized this too, laughing along with her. This fit went on for about 30 seconds before she was wiping her eyes and leaning back in her seat, tapping on her desk with her nails.
Her rhythmic pace made him nervous as he leaned back as well, awaiting her next words. It was obvious that she wanted to say something but something was holding her back, and Henry knew exactly what it was.
“Y/N.” He whispered, not willing breaking their eye contact for a mere second. “Say it.”
She bit her lip and took a deep breath, scared to let the words leave her mouth. They’d been beating around the bush for so long and this isn’t the only time he’s offered her his lunch at all (She was a forgetful person), but today felt different and they both felt it. Everyone around them knew it- Even five year old kids, it seemed. It was time to stop the games.
“..Maybe it is love.” Y/N nodded, the corners of her mouth lifting ever so slightly. “I guess we’ll have to find out over dinner and a huge glass of wine, huh?”
Henry’s eyes widened as she finally allowed him in- gave him a chance at the one thing he’d been yearning after for so long. “A-Are you serious?” He stuttered out, his smile that of an excited child’s.
“Yes, I’m serious.” She confirmed happily, beginning to help him pack up his lunch. “I think I’m finally ready to put myself out there again.. And to be frank, I really like you.”
“Well duh. Who wouldn’t like me? I’m tall, funny, and incredibly handsome.” Henry jokingly rolled his eyes just as the bell rung, signifying the second half of their school day. When she scoffed, he continued, “So, uh, I’ll pick you up at seven?”
Y/N smiled widely and nodded, shooing the man out of her class just as kids began to pour back in.
“Sounds great. Now get to class, Mr.Cavill.”
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pbandjesse · 3 years
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It was a very rainy day. But the sun is coming out and things are drying off. And I feel really good. 
Last night was an adventure. Dinner we so nice but I was feeling a little weird. Finding the line between enjoying my own company and feeling excluded from the group. But it was storming really bad. It was a little frightening. Once it calmed down a little I went up to arts and cleaned my face and wiped myself down with a washcloth. I wasn't going to go shower and then walk back in the rain and mud. 
But I felt alright. I did some prep for groups. And finished my one book. I loved it. It was called Sleep Donation and it was very open ended and I thought that was the right way to go even if I would have liked to read 100 more pages. 
I started another book. This one a collection of short ghost stories from the early 20th century. Which then when two of the guys knocked on my door is scared me! 
But it was nice feeling a little included. We talked for a bit. About art and camp and stuff. It was fun. I felt good. 
Once they left I would read for a while longer. Have some snacks. And put on a movie. 
As I was falling asleep it must have started raining again. Very hard. Because the tin roof had had some small sounds for a long while. But then it was so loud I felt like I was in a tornado. It was so scary. But I knew I was safe inside, if not a little cold. And I slept pretty good after that. 
I woke up at 630 with my alarm. And felt alright. I got ready for the day. And prepared for how wet it was going to be. I went to get a bagel and sat with friends for a bit. It was nice. Im finding a place I think.
Honetsly I was sort of damp all day. It wasn't always bad. This morning it was fine. I have a soft men's shirt to wear. I thought I had a hoodie but I do not. Will have to add that next week. But I felt cute in a camp kind of way. 
I had two groups. But before that I would run crayons and paper to all the tent groups. I scanned dozens of coloring sheets. I had fun running around in my duck boots. I felt a little stressed but I felt happy. 
My groups today were great. I had a 3/4th grade group this morning. They did great with the project and then we played with squishes and musical instruments after that. It was so giggly and happy and I loved it. 
I had some downtime but it was quickly filled with building rainy day packs. It was sort of a crap shoot because I was making it up but I found some marbles and jumpropes and between that and art supplies it worked out. 
I had a little break. Had a lovely lunch. And then I had some time to just be quiet before I had my next group. 
They were really little and so so sweet. They needed some more hands on but they were so excited to be here so that was great. I loved their project and it was a lot of fun. Even if we were all muddy. 
I spent a while styling. I had more then I expected but that was alright. While I was sitting there though I found a dog!! I called the office and someone came over to call the owner and the guy came and got the very sweet black pitbull named Kenny and took him home. It was fun to pet a dog for a while.
I spent some time reading and chilling before setting up for tomorrow. I went down to the office to see if I could help but I ended up just talking to Ellen and it was just really chill and it felt good to talk to someone in a meaningful way. 
Dinner was pizza! And salad! And churros! It was really great food and I am really excited that the food service is so good this year. Because I have heard some horror stories. I have lucked out it seems. 
After dinner I went and got my laptop and now I am sitting on the porch. Enjoying the dusk. I have some people coming to art soon to learn embroidery. I hope its just another really fun day tomorrow to continue how good I feel today. 
Goodnight everyone!! 
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maergheritas-moved · 5 years
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S L A Y E R S, a novel by margarita p. g.
CHAPTER 00 - OLIVER
For being under Marco’s wing for a few weeks now, Oliver still hasn’t managed to master “the art of repair” even a little bit. He’s realized, instead, that he really isn’t good at this, that his nimble hands that once, in his younger years, served him for pickpocketing, for dumbkres with his mates, don’t work for handing tiny bot parts. It sucks, really… Marco thought Oliver would be of some use. And Oliver did, too. A part of him, a small part, maybe hoped that this stay would be permanent. 
But, like all things in his life, it soon proved to be nothing but momentary. He realized this on a burning hot summer morning, when the sun was high and the sulfur in the air even higher. He was only getting used to the life in Bajo then, trying to find a place amongst the renegades and runaways, and the many generations and cultural legacies found within the ancient walls of his new tiny town. The locals knew him as escurridizo, a nod to his late night appearances literally anywhere in town… he had the ability to slip out of where he was and be somewhere else in what looked like seconds. Lightning speed. Faster than a teleporter. Some people even thought he was one. He very much was not. That much he knew. 
Oliver woke up late that June morning, to the high-pitched whirring of centuries-old engines. He had hoped to get some rest after his rendezvous with Rory last night. But, as the heroes in video games would say, duty called. So, he got himself out of bed, put his sandals on, helped himself to burnt toast and already cold coffee, and headed to the taller. 
There lay Marco, working on his new project: the restoration of a humanoid bot found by some archeologists a couple of miles from here. It was clearly a very, very old model, and Marco had been promised a very large sum of money if he restored it back to working condition. Maybe the archeologists were planning to take it to a museum or a college or something like that, Oliver thought. 
It was very large, probably over three meters tall, and had a masculine shape. To Oliver, it looked like the military droids he saw on films. 
The military humanoid death machine thing lay with its stomach part open on the table, and by the smell of coltan in the air, Oliver knew Marco was dealing with the motherboard. It was definitely from the 22nd century, maybe early, when they still put moderboards on the torso and not the head. Marco had his microglasses on, and was very intently working on opening something really really small. There was soft jazz music playing somewhere, which, mixed with the birds chirping and the sound of schoolboys close, painted a picture in Oliver’s head that resembled a time when everyone was still together and life was easy. He let the memory wrap him under. 
An order from Marco pulls him back to reality. “Hey, nene,” he says, not even a hello beforehand, “can you check this wiring for me please?”
Without a word, Oliver walked over to the table, where the chemical smell is almost uncomfortable, and looked at the tangle of loose wires on the open motherboard. They were color coded, thank god. To Oliver, non-colored coded wires were the reason God left the Earth. Marcus and him always took hours to set them right. Almost instantly, he got a vague idea of how the circuits should go. They were like magnets, and he could feel where one ended and the other began, the many channels of energy running through the bot’s body, like blood rushing down veins. He had an instinct for this sort of things, a sixth sense, and it was hardly ever wrong. Oliver knew this wasn’t exactly normal, he knew it since he was a kid and could feel the many forces coming onto him way more than other people could, but he was not a might. Or at least, not a bolter (he’d already tried; sparks never came out of his palms). Whatever he was, he never gave it much thought. It would not do him good, especially not in this country.
Trusting his weird instinct, Oliver got to work, ordering Marco what went where, offering clear directions and vague explanations. Marco didn’t mind. To him, this boy was some sort of wizard, and not the “evil” kind. He did the work because he knew how to. If Oliver did it himself, he might as well cause a short circuit so strong it left the whole town with no power for a few hours. Oliver never understood why things like this seemed to happen, he guessed the wires just hated him. 
Thus, they fell into a steady rhythm of work, sorting circuits out, monotone actions, with problems coming up as they went along, which they solved together. Oliver and Marco were a good team in that sense, Marco’s vast knowledge mixing with Oliver’s knack for improvisation to come up with increasingly creative solutions. These came naturally to Oliver. No one had ever given him a book on how to life, so everything he’d learned, he learned it by doing. By figuring things out, just like they were at that moment. Maybe he could be of use there, he thought. The idea of having a place to stay, even if he didn’t realize it then, gave him comfort. 
Time passed quickly when you were at work, and soon it was time for lunch. Marco called a break, and Oliver lifted his head from the wiring of the bot’s eyes that he was attempting to figure out. 
“Hungry?” Marco asked. Oliver nodded. He was, indeed, starving, and had been for a while, but with the task in front of him, it had been a second thought in his mind. 
“Alright, then, uhhhh” Marco thought out loud. “Mara won’t be home until tonight, and there’s nothing from last night”. 
Bummer, Oliver thought. Would they have something to it until Mara came back? There were days like this, when Aymara, Marco’s wife, was out working twelve hours at the rest stop outside of town. They had to do with whatever leftover there was from breakfast. 
“So, we’re eating crackers, then?” Oliver asked, defeated. 
Marco’s eye brightened up, his torso straightening up a little. “Actually, I think there’s some money in my bedroom. Go get yourself a mixto or whatnot, kid.”
Oliver practically springed to his feet and rushed to Marco’s bedroom. Indeed, there was money in his dresser, enough to buy two mixtos and maybe a sugary. With that, Oliver rushed out of the house and into the secluded Clovel Street. 
The sun burned his skin, and he definitely should not have been out in this weather, but he was hungry and Lala’s tiny shop in the corner was open. There were a few neighbors having tartitas, who said hi to him. He went up to Arpy, the AI assistant, and ordered two mixtos, one for Marco and one for him. They would be ready in ten. 
Oliver sat on the counter, watching Arpy put the mixtos in the toaster, and looked out the door, where there was a small stray dog trying to catch a fly. That was when he saw him. 
His stare froze Oliver’s blood, made him paralyze all over. There was something about it…. something stomach-turning, revolting, repulsive, wrong. Like the man had crossed all of Oliver’s boundaries. It felt like a violation, but Oliver didn’t know of what. Or even how. 
He wanted to run away. As far as his legs allowed him. That’s what his mind told him to do, that the man was a predator just like the MIMIC or the police. But his body told him otherwise. His body told him to stay; he felt a pull to the man like those of his wires, he did not care what fate met him there, what the man might bring him, he just had to go. It was impertinent, urgent. Now. 
Yet, he stayed seated, watching his mixtos slowly get browner and cheesier, focusing on repelling that driving instinct within him, that… whatever he was doing to him. Sweat rolled down his brow and the people of the shop were completely unfazed or perhaps even unaware of whatever was going on between him and the man down the street, what strange energetic transaction was taking place Because it felt like that. It felt like electrons pushing down orbitals and moving, shifting, mixing, reacting, exploding. He felt like that: like a nuclear bomb that would go off if the man didn’t do anything about it first. He tried breathing. He tried focusing on anything else, on the smell of the food or the sound of cheese burning or the conversations taking place behind him. Nothing worked. 
When his mixtos were ready, he grabbed them and rushed outside, without even saying goodbye. Without thinking, he crossed the street, to the man. It felt eternal. And the man’s eyes…. they followed him. Wide and large and dark, open, focused… they felt, to Oliver, that they were feeding on his energy. 
Oliver let out a shaky breath when he got to him. He was at least a head taller than Oliver, could crash him in a split second, and very, very dark. His demeanor was unexpectedly calm. His eyes loosened for a bit, and Oliver was terrified for a half second. Then, his large hand wrapped over Oliver’s frail arm, and he hitched a breath in fear. He could not form words. The energy-sucking man started walking him down the street in double time. How is no one seeing this? Oliver thought. 
He wanted to ask so many things, who are you, where are you taking me, leave me alone, I have to get back home, but he couldn’t. If he did, what would this guy do to him? He was scary, villain-level scary. So, Oliver just went along. He got thrown into the back of a white transport. There was a brunette woman on the shotgun seat. Her eyes looked even more threatening than the man’s. 
They were kidnapping him. God, they were going to throw im on the sea or on a deep pit and let him die there. Immediately, Oliver started thinking up escape plans. He could still run. The didn’t bind his hands with anything. Dumbasses. 
The man got in the car. The woman was clutching her head, as if she had a migraine. They were discussing something, Oliver realized. But they were not talking. They were doing it through looks. Can she communicate with him in some sort of eye language? Or is it telepathy?
After a while, they both settled down and looked at him. Oliver was going to run. But he also couldn’t. Something kept him from running and this time it wasn’t any of their looks. 
“Sorry about that” the man said, “it’s pretty terrifying, i know, trust me” 
What the hell? Oliver thought. He was apologizing to him?
“I’m Drake, by the way” he said, with a smirk and friendly eyes. Oliver wanted to vomit. 
“And I’m Alyx” the woman said. Her eyes were warm and heavy-lidded, and Oliver had a feeling he should stay as far from her as she could. 
There was a beat of silence. “Who… Who are you and what… why…?” Oliver tried to speak, tried to form questions, but he didn’t know where to start. 
“Um, in short, kid,” Drake said, shifting in his seat. He opened his mouth, closed it again. “Okay, so: We are from the Cali Might Army. I’m Lieutenant Colonel Drake Emerson and she’s Officer Alyx Warren. That’s the important thing”.
Oliver gaped in awe at them. They were the Might Army. He had never met them, no one has, but he has certainly heard of them; in late night horror stories and headlines detailing tragedies. People spoke of them as violent, relentless insurgents who would abuse of their monstrous abilities to overtake the country. They almost seemed too powerful to be real. They couldn’t be real. This couldn’t be real. Is it a prank? 
Alyx looked at Drake. “He’s very confused, he’s saying… it’s a prank or something, um…”
Oliver panicked. Immediately he tried to open the door, tried to break the window, anything to get away from this… woman. She was reading his thoughts! Has she always been doing that? He didn’t even feel it, she just walked into his mind without even asking for permission. 
Drake reacted immediately, moving to pin him down, stop him. Oliver was on fire, his legs kicking to get away, powerless against Drake’s weight, screaming and panting and crying, he only now realized he was crying. 
“Oliver!” Alyx yelled. “Oliver. Please. Please calm down, I don’t want to calm you down, please don’t make me calm you down.” She was as panicked as he was. Oliver just failed to form curses at her and kept kicking. He was not going to calm down. He was going to get away, these people couldn’t mean well. He had to get back to Marco, to the work, have lunch. 
But he would never get there. 
With Drake Emerson pinning him down and Alyx  Warren in his mind, plus the thousand questions that grew by the second, he would never get there. Ever. 
After a while, Oliver sat in the car seat, unmoving and breathing heavily, powerless. Alyx and Drake were in their seats, panting. Alyx let out a curse. 
“Listen,” Drake said, softly, calm, “we won’t hurt you. Really.”
You already have, Oliver thought. “Then… why are you doing this? Why are you taking me?” he asked over shaky breaths.
“Because,” Alyx  started, voice trembling, “You have a very strange ability that no one has ever had before, and you might really, really, be of help for us.”
Oliver wasn’t sure he was breathing anymore. 
Alyx continued. “So, you’re coming with us, because, if you don’t, then someone else will take you, and you won’t be safe and neither will the world.”
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boymeetsweevil · 5 years
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Okay sorry but
Office life x Accidental marriage AU
BKGD:
OC who does bar trivia on some weeknights and weekends. It’s pretty hardcore and a good majority of the office does it. Lots of young knowledgable ppl using their niche/nerd interest facts to win some prizes. 
Enter: Jin who is the office’s wet blanket but also carries the trivia team when it comes to real life knowledge (AKA anything that can be taught as an AP class in a high school). it’s actually pretty serious and one day you win a competition at the end of the year with a trip to Las Vegas as the grand prize 
So Office!Jin is like weirdly stoic and shows like 0.001 emotions and when he does it’s him laughing at like...microsoft office memes or some shit. very dry eXTREMELY dry. Almost dwight schrute personality but for cooking and not farming, and less entertaining. Also scary beautiful, quiet, very much keeps to himself in a snooty way. Only comes to trivia, never goes on regular bar runs. Sits in the cubicle on the other side of the office so u don’t see him much.
 FUNFATX: you did do a project with him that was like kind of involved for two weeks once and he commended you on your work ethic once it was done. After those two weeks you learned to speak Jin so that was basically him telling you that he thought u were cool
MAIN STORY:
No one expected him to say yes to going on the trip. But he does, which is weird. and it’s so surreal seeing him outside of his beige three piece suit and instead in the most generic grey sweat shirt and pants set ever. Everyone is trying to sneak glances at him on the plane to LV and he’s just wrapped up in a blanket alone in the back sleeping like a mummy[ u know like body completely straight and hands crossed at his front like a corpse]. he sat away from everyone because he knew they’d interrupt his sleep schedule which he carefully crafted to avoid any form of jet lag
Somehow, one of the more boisterous guys from the office gets a first drink in Jin (he never drank at the bar trivia because he wanted to be focused™️) Lol. it turns out that he’s actually kind of funny but like definitely still not on purpose he just turns into this whiny pink giant. everyone teases him and he’s only like 12.5% more talkative but it’s still incredible to hear him talk/complain this much at all
More drinks, some gambling, more drinks. You end up thinking Jin is actually kind of fun even tho he just went from prissy stoic to whiny awkward drunk and you drag him places to watch him squirm.
Cut to wake up scene. 
Classiccliche omg-who-is-this-person-in-my-bed-that-I-didn’t-expect-to-be-there. It’s JIn-- who is knocked tf out and snoring but luckily ur clothes are all on and nothing hurts but....THERES A RING ON UR FINGER. And u scream and it wakes him up and lo and behold, there’s a ring on his finger too. The issue is that the chapel is closed and ur supposed to be flying back to school the next day so u can’t get it annulled but you figure u can always contact and do it remotely??? but lol u can’t and you wont have time/money to go back for at least two months.
u should have noted something was off when he sat next to you on the plane ride back. he sleeps like a mummy again and snaps at everyone so no one else sits next to you. ppl are trying to mime at your matching rings but ur too weirded out by the situation to say anything.
The odd thing is, u go back, Married to Jin and he’s like...unfazed. Completely fine with it. Like he’s chilling. You catch him eating chowder (in summer no less) in the break room and try to bring up an annulment but he just brushes u off and asks if you like soup and ur like uhhh yeah i like tomato soups i guess????
And then it starts. The husbanding
Jin starts bringing in soups that he made for you. Tomato soups. And he starts offering to drive you home after work in his boring little mid 2000′s sedan and at first ur clueless and ur like carpool is good ill go get some of the others and he’s flat out like “im only doing this because ur my wife and i dont want u taking the bus” and u think he’s joking so you laugh but you also get in anyway. And then u do the same thing the next day. And when your favorite blouse gets a hole in it, he loans you his suit jacket for the day and takes your blouse and sews up the hole and strengthens the button loops all during his lunch break.
suddenly he’s asking what other things you like to eat besides tomato soup and then he’s asking you to come with him to the grocery store this weekend so he knows what brands of stuff you like and ur like??? okay???? but why? because ur DUmb. 
And someone else in the office literally has to sit down and explain it to you because one day you’re not going dancing with the girls because: last week u rec’d a movie for Jin to watch and immediately he went “okay lets watch it at my house next friday” and when one of the other married ppl in the office ‘defends you’ by mentioning how date nights being important at the beginning of the marriage youre like Haha funny joke and she’s like girl...
you go to Jin’s place but ur confused the whole time like is this thing real???? u figured that jin and u were on the same page and that u were just gonna live ur lives like nothing changed until you could go back to LasVegas to cancel the marriage but then ur at his house and he’s cooked you some of your favorites again and he’s got some extra socks because u said ur feet get cold he actually puts them ON YOUR FEET FOR YOU and he’s telling you that his dad is coming to town and wants to meet u and ur like....oh shit im married
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fluidityandgiggles · 6 years
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Sleep Is For The Weak - Chapter 12
Previous Chapters: Prologue, Chapter 1, Chapter 5, Last Chapter
Writing Masterlist - for previous chapters not otherwise linked, Read on AO3
Notes (I guess): Thanks a lot to @ilovemygaydad for updating y’all about my wifi situation, the wifi works semi-well now, and... well...
WRITING THIS CHAPTER WAS HELL AND A HALF AND IM SO GLAD ITS FINALLY FINISHED.
Ahem. Excuse me. I have a couple of very important things to say, though.
If any of you haven't read the latest chapter of Keep Him Safe, which is right here, please go do so. I read it the moment it was posted and... I was at dinner with my family, so I had to hold in my squealing... to be perfectly honest with y'all, I already knew what was going to happen in that chapter since I started writing chapter three, I think...? So I have known about this for a very long time, but it still made me super happy to see it actually happen in writing. So... go read KHS, y'all. You really should. It's awesome.
(Quick update: I checked my screenshots and... yeah, I've known about that since July, which is when I started writing this fic. Again, I've known about what happened in sleep for six months, and surprisingly didn't spoil almost any of it to anyone around me. I deserve a fucking prize.)
To anyone who just came over from Eva's shameless plugging of me - hello, nice to have you here. In this fucked up piece of angst we discuss queer history as well as Remy's personal history, or - as I said to myself while reading and re-reading what Eva has to say about this fic - "well, this story is as much about queer history as it is about Remy, where he came from, where he's going, where he came from cotton eye joey'n". And to anyone who's a regular reader, I'm so glad you're sticking around to read this... this thing. It's become a monster in my head, I can promise you that much.
As always, thanks to @broadwaytheanimatedseries for the original idea, to @whatwashernameagain for the original fic (can you believe it’s been six months since we came up with chapter 23?), to @anony-phangirl and @asleepybisexual and @winglessnymph for the help wherever needed, and a special one to Morgan - again - for helping me get the word out. All of those people are my shining stars and I love them so much.
Tag list (sort of): @bunny222, @ab-artist, @sweet-and-sour-shadowling, @your-username-is-unavailable, @virgilcrofters, @why-things-go-boom, @ilovemygaydad (thanks again, kiddo!), @violetblossem. @maybe-i-like-the-misery, @book-of-charlie, @thatsanswitch
(Wanna be tagged? Just lemme know!)
Trigger warning: period appropriate transphobia (the early 00s were not exactly trans-friendly). This chapter discusses rape again, this time in a bit more detail (nothing graphic, it’ll never be graphic, I promise), and includes a... panic attack of sorts. Be warned.
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January 24th, 2003
Emile's smile faltered.
"...so what if I got raped?" He muttered, putting down the stack of chairs he was holding. "What's done is done. They had their fun—"
"They…?" India tilted her head. Oh shoot… "There was more than one person?"
"More like three… what? Why are you looking at me like—"
The stack India was holding fell to the floor.
"Did you tell anyone?" Emile stared at the floor. Maybe she'll go away if he doesn't cooperate. "Emile! Did you tell anyone?"
"I told the doctors…" Emile's voice faltered. "What's going on?"
"I'm surprised you're even alive right now!" India's pacing was… terrifying. For some reason… she suddenly just… turned so scary. "Mixing date rape drugs with alcohol, which is what I'm assuming happened to you, is so dangerous! And I'm only assuming that's what happened because I heard from Remy that they found GHB traces—"
"I'm not proud," Emile managed to stutter. "Of… all this. I just… I can drink, okay? I made some mistakes in the past—"
"You're seventeen!"
"I made some mistakes in the past, and… this one makes me feel like all those mistakes have been trying to tell me that I shouldn't exist…"
"No… no, peach, please." He already started crying by the time she stepped in to hug him. "I get that. I really do. Sometimes I think about how much better my life might've been if I pretended like I'm 'cured' of being transgender after conversion. My cousin wouldn't have done what she did, that's the biggest plus. But… I wouldn't have come here. I wouldn't have started on my way to become a statistics analyst. I wouldn't have met Jenna. I would probably be living a sad, closeted life back home, and that isn't such a nice thing."
"You were too…?"
"I was too, yeah… as victims, we gotta stick to each other."
The wet spots on India's sweater were getting larger by the second. But she didn't mind it.
"Like I was told when I was sixteen," she said, much quieter than before. "Nobody is going to believe a man who says he was raped. We gotta stick together, whether we like it or not."
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"Hey, isn't that that friend of yours?" Remy heard behind him about two minutes before the meeting started.
Oh, good.
"Hey, didn't you deliberately choose to forget that I live in the other side of the US from you because you wanted to be a little fuck?" Remy asked back, looking at Chris turn redder than a tomato.
"I swear to god, I had no idea!"
"Suck it and your excuses, Mendez."
"Hey, hey… come on, Remy. Won't you at least let me make it up to you?"
Remy couldn't stay angry… well, he could. But not as angry. It was a stupid reason, too…
"I will." Chris beamed at him. "But it'll take a very long time."
"...you have a week."
"I won't let you down," Chris said with the same wide, obnoxious grin, quickly kissing Remy's cheek and taking a seat.
Fuck him and his obnoxious self.
On the third of January, Remy and Emile sat down on the hotel bed in what was probably the fanciest hotel Remy's ever been to (though he never really visited any hotels in his life, no time or money for that). They were listening to Gustav Holst's The Planets as Emile performed a one-man dramatic reading of No Exit, and Remy couldn't feel more at peace.
This situation right here - all the people, all the tension, Chris right there a few steps away from him - was the exact opposite.
"Do you want me to leave?" A quiet voice said and Remy felt himself being squeezed so tight, he was sure his ribs would crack. Emile. "I can leave if you—"
"Come on, sit next to me," Remy said as quietly and took a rather far seat from Chris. Serves him right.
"Happy Friday, everyone," India opened the meeting. "I see that we got some new people after the break, so we're going to do another name round. Who wants to start?"
Emile raised his hand almost immediately.
"I'm Emile, I'm— do we mention our major?"
"If you want to."
"I'm Emile, I'm a psychology major, and I'm probably gay. Or asexual. I just… don't really know if I'm more gay or asexual yet."
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Monday, January 27th
"Look, I find some of what you teach suspect," Emile hummed to himself as he skipped behind Remy back to their building after a particularly entertaining sols 20 class. "Because I'm used to relying on intellect, but I try to open up to what I don't know, because reason says I should've died three years ago…"
"Em, stop it," Remy half-laughed. "I get it, you're still thinking about Rent."
"It was such a good show!" Emile whined - well, sort of. "Jai Rodriguez was really good!"
"I met Idina Menzel through this," Remy said with another chuckle. "She's nice… kind of a diva, if you ask me."
"So… like you?"
"What do you mean, like me?"
"Nice, but kind of a diva." Emile nudged him. "I'll bet you she's totally selfless and sweet but acts like she doesn't care about anything in the world—"
"No, actually… she isn't." Remy sighed. The memories were foggy - it was over eight years ago - but… "Dad is working on some project with her again. Her and Kristin Chenoweth…"
"Kristin?" Emile shrieked. "Good golly, I love her! She's so sweet and talented!"
"I'm really not supposed to tell you anything," Remy laughed, and then stopped.
A figure made him freeze at his doorstep. A small, shaking figure, with braided brown hair and an ill-fitting, black, puffy coat.
Leah was rapidly knocking on Remy's suite door.
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"Why did you think it was a good idea to come here?" Remy asked, careful not to scream. Leah sat in the living room, her hair dripping wet from the shower he made her take, wrapped up in the clothes she brought with her in her lime green schoolbag. She was waiting on her hot chocolate.
"I wanted to."
"How did you even get a bus ticket? You're seven!"
"I took money from mom and went to the bus station!" Leah huffed. "I know where the buses are, and I know how to—"
"I didn't say you don't know, Leah Mae," Remy chastised, putting the cup of hot chocolate on the table quite forcefully. "But you're seven years old! This was incredibly dangerous of you—"
"I don't wanna live at home anymore!" Leah screamed. "Mom was mean all of Christmas, and Lizzie wasn't being nice when we went back to school, she didn't want me to be her friend anymore, and Rachel was annoying—"
"Sweetie, they're going to think I kidnapped you!" Leah was taken aback. Remy was worried to the point of terrifying. "They're going to think I kidnapped you, Leah. It won't end well!"
"I didn't think…" the tears started coming out. Oh shit… "I didn't mean it! I just… I don't like being home! Don't be mad at me!"
"Oh, baby, no, I'm not mad at you!" Remy was quick to take her in for a hug. His poor baby sister… "I'm just worried, Leah. Extremely worried. Never do such a thing ever again, okay?" She nodded in his arms. "There's nothing we can do about this now, but—"
The door opened with a bang, and "I brought the bunnies!"
Leah immediately perked up. Mycroft tried to hop straight into her lap the moment he was close enough, since he already knew her and was very worried for the tiny human, but Lestrade took his time getting to know her. She was new, and he didn't know her yet, and what if she wasn't going to be nice?
"Leah, this is Lestrade," Emile said with a huge smile, closing the door and coming to cuddle them all - Remy included. "He's Mycroft's brother, and I adopted him after Christmas!"
"But you don't celebrate Christmas."
"No I don't, but you do." He booped her nose, making her giggle. "Lestrade is a nice boy. Give him a bit, he'll jump into your lap in no time."
As Leah entertained herself, playing with the bunnies and telling them stories, Remy pulled Emile to the side.
"She ran away from home!"
"I heard that when you asked me to go get the bunnies, Remy."
"She's seven years old! What do I do with a seven-year old runaway? Is it even a thing? A seven-year old runaway?"
Emile kisses Remy's cheek quicker than he could process it happening. "It's going to be fine. Call Linda, let her know that Leah is here—"
"Leah asked me not to tell anyone she's here," Remy sighed, rubbing his face in frustration.
"I understand, but… Linda is still your mom. Leah is still seven years old. She needs to go home, whether you like it or not." When Remy still seemed like he's having trouble processing it, Emile pulled him into a hug. "Do you want me to talk to her about it for you?"
Remy could only say a very weak "yes please" before Emile went back to the couch, to talk to Leah.
He was jittering. He was angry, and scared, and disappointed, and proud, and he felt everything so intensely and was so shocked and confused that he couldn't name it. He barely turned eighteen last July, he didn't even know how to drive yet, and he was absolutely, most definitely, going to be in trouble for this seven-year old child showing up at his door after running away from home.
He wasn't going to call Linda. But he couldn't keep Leah over. And he didn't know shit about raising children, for the period of time he was going to have Leah over, until he figures out what to do. Remy wanted to scream, how much he wanted to. But he couldn't.
So he did the next best thing he could do. He dropped to the floor and started crying.
He was too tired, physically and emotionally, to pick himself back up at that particular moment.
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fynneyseas · 6 years
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hey so....... i have a lot of the symptoms of adhd, but because i have good grades generally, my parents wont help me find help for it. im not sure what to do about that?
Oh my god, Anon, if you’re out there, I am SO sorry, you sent this three weeks ago, and I kept on forgetting about it like I was caught in some kind of ADHD hell-loop
I really don’t know if the answer will get back to you, but here goes!
Okay, so things like medication and therapy are FANTASTIC, but they’re only individual tools in the toolbox of treatment. Maybe later on in life, you can seek these out on your own, but not having access to them does not mean there is no hope. Here are some other tools that have helped me throughout the years:
Engage with your support system.Do not underestimate the difference a group of people working together can make. It sounds like your parents aren’t up for this, but you can also reach out to your teachers and friends for some extra accountability help. A lot of the adults won’t be able to offer you academic accommodations without an official diagnosis, but they can still help you with things like making schedules and checking in on you about project progress before the deadline gets too close. Try not to load everything onto one person though. It’s not fair for anyone involved, including you, and it just does not go well. Especially for friends, make sure that they feel loved and acknowledged and listened to. 
Phone alarmsSet multiple alarms on your phone to check your planner or bullet journal or what have you. Do you know how many times I would write assignments down, see in my planner that I had an assignment, look up from my planner, and promptly forget about that assignment? So many times.
Explore different productivity programsPlanners might not be for you. I tried using conventional planners for like a decade to no effect. I’d always forget about something, or just not write in them, and it was just a waste of paper and money. Now I have a configuration where I use the iCloud calendar sync with my phone and computer (Google calendar really upped their game recently too, but I didn’t like the format back in 2013 lol), a journal, and the app @habitica . Habitica literally changed my life, and is the ONLY thing that unfailingly helps me get my life back in order when I’ve let it get unruly. It’s free! One of my daily tasks on habitica is to check my calendar and my to-do list. there are a bunch of productivity tools out there, do some exploring!
Make a scheduleIt’s the actual worst thing but regimented schedules help me so much. Now that I’m not in high school, and I don’t have most of my day already planned out for me, it can be so easy to just....not do anything. What I do now is base my day around pomodoro time blocks. I like time blocking because there are breaks built in, and distinct end goals that are already set, so I don’t have to devote the brain space to figuring out at what point I’m going to stop. If I’m feeling really anxious, I shorten the blocks as needed. 20/10s are also good! When I’m in a Real Bad way, I’ll start the work segments at 5 minutes and work up from there.
Schedule breaks and rest timeDo it or burn out. It can be scary to allow yourself to rest, especially when it feels like there is so much to be done and so little time to do it in. However, I promise that allowing yourself to recouperate will help you be more productive in the long run. People with ADHD tend to burn out easier than those who don’t, thems are just the breaks. Pick a bed time, and stop working an hour and a half before whatever time you pick. Give yourself a day of the weekend.
Isolate tasksAlso the worst. Close everything that isn’t directly involved with the task at hand until the task is done. If you can’t focus or can’t start, you just have to be there and stare for 25 minutes. Usually, I end up starting the tasks out of like, boredom. Starting is the hardest part most of the time!
Divide and conquerDesignate things as work or free spaces. I use different browsers entirely for school/work and for everything else. My sister also does this, but she just uses different chrome accounts. Don’t work on your bed, that’s for sleeping! I have a hard time doing my work at home, so whenever possible, I work at the library. Splitting things up can help reduce distractions because you’re only allowing yourself to do certain things in certain contexts. Like how it can be easier to not swear around small children because there’s a Rule that you should not use swear words around small children. 
Deep breathing techniquesIt’s hokey but it’s one of the oldest tools in my toolbox. Target that reptile brain. I really like the in-four hold-seven out-eight one. The hokiest method, the one my mom taught me when I was a literal toddler, is christianity-based, but it’s my oldest and most effective technique: imagine the light and love of god coming down from above, entering through the base of your neck and forming a ball. That ball rolls up and down your spine in time with your breathing, spreading peace throughout your body as it goes. Tbh the magical light ball going up and down gives it a kinetic bent, which I think is where a lot of the efficacy lies.
Fidgetoh my god, just embrace it. Go to stimtastic, get a tangle or a chew. Buy that fidget spinner and/or cube. twiddle your thumbs. draw in your notebook. you are #valid
ExerciseRigorously for at least 30 minutes a day. I did karate in high school and was terrible at it, but it was a good way to center my thoughts on one task and punch out extra energy. like angry yoga. I do dance classes now! I know it’s cool and hip to be annoyed at exercise suggestions, but consistent exercise is what helps me divert my excess energy into something constructive, and it might help you too. If you aren’t used to exercising, start with something low-impact like walking around your neighborhood.
Let yourself fail. A lot of this has to come from you and your personal drive. It’s hard to hold yourself accountable, and it’s okay to not be perfect at it. You are allowed to struggle and learn and grow. Just keep going, you probably won’t die. 
TL;DR:
Engage with your support system.
Set multiple phone alarms to remind you to check for tasks
Explore different productivity programs
Make a schedule
Schedule breaks and rest time
Isolate tasks
Designate work spaces and play spaces, and stick to that division
Deep breathing techniques
Fidget
Exercise
Let yourself fail
Check out @habitica
Not in the main list, but also check out How to ADHD
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choisgirls · 7 years
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Could you write a scenario where RFA + V and Saeran decided to prank MC (because it’s haLLOWEN) by scaring her while she was wandering around 707’s bunker? Sorry for disturbing you. ^^"
A/N: You aren’tdisturbing me, love!!! hhmm im gonna do my best here! ^^ I’m gonna mix it upand do a fic for this because can you imagine all of them trying to do it ~atonce~
Words: 3,830
Pairings: None!
Theme: RFSpook!
Warnings: Um, slight gore mentions? But it’s all costumes, I swear! But it’s here as a warning!
Under a cut due to length!
Masterlist~
Of course Saeyoungwanted to have a personal party at his bunker, and of course he had to go allout and completely decorate it for Halloween. I’m talking the dark ambiance,the skeletons, the spider webs you were positive were real and probably droveVanderwood crazy- you were positive he even had his bunker renovated solely forthis party. You don’t remember him having a literaltrap door in front of his door before- password yes, trap door no.
When you arrived tothe front door, you knew better than to stand right in front of it. That doorin the floor was not subtle, not even in the slightest. You rang the bell andhoped he would hear it, considering you could hear his Spooky Mix Soundtrack, Tape 7 (you knew that was its name becausethat’s all he would mention in the group chat for weeks) blaring throughsurround sound speakers. The door seemed to creak open enough to show it haddone it on its own. You sighed, knowing that agreeing to this “party”was already a mistake. You pushed the door open all the way, peeking in andcalling out for Saeyoung. When there wasn’t an answer, you stepped in andclosed the door behind you. You debated turning around and leaving, honestly.
The inside of hisbunker looked nothing like it normally did. It looked like a completely newhouse. You thought he only decorated intensely outside- you were wrong. Youstood in the entryway, taking in the scene before you. The music switched tosomething ominous and a terrifyingly echo of a laugh traveled through thehouse. Saeyoung, what the fuck?
And with that, thescreen turned black and retracted back into the ceiling. You blinked inconfusion and shook your head in annoyance. ‘Why? Why can’t we have a nice,normal get together?’ You thought to yourself. You loved them all and normallyhad fun, but you weren’t the type to scare easily. Not to mention, you wereready from some treats, not this trick.
You moved forward,walking down a hall lined with old portraits. The eyes followed you as youwalked- but you paid them no mind. You figured it was Saeyoung attempting tohide his cameras to watch you. How long was this hallway? You’ve been walkingfor around 5 minutes, this is way too long. You stop and watch as you movebackwards without your feet lifting. You look down to find the floor had beenturned into a moving walkway. You give an unamused look to the closest paintingbefore taking large steps to make it to the end, jumping off of the walkway toventure on.
The room beyond thehallway held nothing but a large standing mirror in the middle of it and a dooropposite the one you came in from. You looked around, turning quickly when thedoor slammed shut behind you. Why would there just randomly be a mirror inhere? What kind of joke was this? Looking behind it, you see nothing and noone. After a few minutes of trying to open either door and trying to find anysort of clue on how to get out, you stand in front of this mirror.
You check out youroutfit- should you have worn a better costume? Did you make it too simple? Yourmundane thoughts were cut short when you start to notice the room filling withfog. The once clear image of yourself was quickly becoming a blur as the mirrorfogged up as well. Suddenly, a hand smacked from the other side of the mirror,dragging down to leave behind streaks- you watched as it fogged back up. ‘Isthat it?’ you thought to yourself, ‘Is it really just some weird projectionscreen? Do they think fog is gonna scare me?’ Words started to scribble out onthe mirror, you read them each out loud as they showed up.
“'Hello, MC. I’mwatching.. you… Would you… like to see… me? Just.. close your eyes.. andstep.. through.. I won’t.. bite…’ Wait- I know that handwriting,” yourealized, shooting a disgruntled look behind the mirror quickly to watch acertain small, blonde boy in a creepy, bloody monster costume jump and squealat your movement.
“MC! You weresupposed to be scared, not scare me!” he whined, “Were you even alittle afraid?” When you shook your head, he threw his hands up inexasperation before dropping them to cross his arms and curl his lip into apout. “That isn’t fair. I looked on the internet for weeks on how do this!I had to ask Saeyoung for help! ….Really, not even a little bit?” Youoffered him a sympathy shrug and had to pat the back of his head gently when hethrew his forehead against your shoulder to pout and cry a little about. Youheard mumbles of 'I’m a man’ and 'I can be scary too’. He sent you on your waythrough the door to move on to the next room. You had to give it to Saeyoung,he went all out in renovating just for this haunted house.
The next room was setup like an old school library- books lined the walls, floor to ceiling. A deskwith a large, cushion chair pushed towards the side of the room. Like theprevious room, the door slammed shut and you assumed it was already locked. Youlooked around, watching for the next so called 'scare’ so you could move on.The lights started to flicker and shut off. The window to the room screeched asthe wind and rain pounded against it. Lightning illuminated the room for meremoments, you knew how this was going to play out, so you stand and wait untilyou see a large, dark figure in front of you. With each crack of light, thefigure came closer and closer, until it was right in front of you and threwtheir arms open, revealing themselves from under their cape, letting out aloud, deep “boo”.
With the flick of yourwrist, you turn on your phone flashlight and find yourself face to face with acertain Jumin Han, with his tongue out between his face vampire fangs, lookingas unamused as you did.
“I will, uh, suckyour blood, MC. Bleh bleh bleh.” he said, bringing his hands up to make aslight 'rawr’ action. You stared at him, dead in the eye, face void of allemotion. He gave a soft shrug before standing up straight. “I made myattempt. I didn’t wish to really participate in this, but we know how Saeyoung canbe,” he elegantly produced a key from the sleeve of his shirt, offering itto you before gesturing to the large door behind him. “Feel free to keepgoing, MC. You’ve got quite a few to get through before we can have our party.I’ll make sure to keep a glass of wine just for you.”
The next room was setup like an eloquent dining room. A table dawned with a crisp white table clothand silver cloche in the middle of it, shiny and inviting. That would be whereyou’d have to go- but maybe they were tricky and did it to throw you off.
You don’t even botherwith the doors, anymore. You know you need to find the key to get out. The fasteryou’re out, the faster this party and go on, and the faster you can make ithome to eat that candy you tried convincing yourself you would share.
Looking through all ofthe napkins that lined different tables, you found nothing- you sighed. Youwere going to have to take it upon yourself to look under the cloche. Who’sroom was this? What was waiting under there?
You lifted it upquickly, already expecting something to jump out at you. Instead, you take alook at Jaehee’s head- bloody, pale, and a fountain pen right through her eye.You blinked, frowning a little bit. Reaching out, you touched a little bit ofthe blood dripping down her face.
Her hand shot out fromunder the table, grabbing onto your leg. You didn’t even flinch.
“Really, MC? Eventhat didn’t frighten you? Hmm. Was it the makeup? Was it not scaryenough?” She removed her head from the hole in the table and popped outfrom under the tablecloth. She was dressed in one of her older work suits.
“It’s hard tobelieve it when it smells like strawberry jam,” you remarked, licking offthe jam from your finger, “Dare I even ask about your costume? You’re in adining room, shouldn’t you be in more.. food related attire?”
“I have to workon paperwork after this party. I figured I’d make my costume realistic to whatmy emotions will be later on,” she answered without skipping a beat. Younodded in understanding and asked for the key to move on, which she was happyto supply if that meant she could go sit in an actual chair rather than crampedunder that table.
The next room held aring of full length mirrors- you had a feeling you knew who’s room this was.
“Zen!” youcalled, standing in the center of them, “Come here! I want to just getthis party going!” You watched as he walked up, in all 3 mirrors, tostrike a pose in his prince costume.
“MC! How did youknow it was me?” he asked, flicking his hair over his shoulder, “Wecan go to the party later! First! Let’s play~” he shot you a wink beforemoving closer to the mirrors, all four of them seemed to be looking you in theeye. “Time to play, Which is the Real Zen! Choose wisely,sweetheart~” he sang. You looked closely at all of them, stepping closerto the one in the middle- you stretched your hand out, reaching for him, whensuddenly his arm flew out of the one to your left, wrapping around your waistand pulling you through to a completely dark portion of the room. You sighedwhen the lights turned on and you found the room completely packed with fullbody, and extremely accurate, wax models of Zen. You knew he was taking theseall home at the end of the day- that is if Jaehee doesn’t get her hands on themfirst.
“I suppose I haveto come find you?” you ask loudly, hearing your voice echo- but were metwith no response. Great. This could take a little while. 'Everyone else triedto be scary,’ you thought to yourself, 'But nnooo Zen has to be overdramatic. Ijust want some pizza.’
Carefully examiningeach figure you pass by, one of them near the door catches your attention.Squinting in suspicion, you walk up to it, eyeing it up and down. You lean inclose as he jumps, throwing his hands out to grab you, yelling a loud 'boo’.You just stared at him, crossing your arms and tilting your head slightly tomatch the frown on your face.
“…MC do youhave a soul, at all. Does anything scare you? Anything?” you shook yourhead as he threw his hands up in exasperation before leading you through thenext door. With a swift bow, he closed the door behind you, leaving you in aroom decked out in children’s decor.
You have to admit toyourself that this room gave you the creeps- but only because it looked sosimilar to your own childhood bedroom… wait.. the.. the stuffed animals onthe bed, the stickers on the wall- this was completely a replica of yourchildhood bedroom. Well, isn’t that creepy. Who would recreate your bedroomjust for this stupid joke?
Out of the corner ofyour eye, the rocking chair started to move and a small shadow darted aroundbehind you. Turning towards the area where the ruckus had been, you ended upface to face with a creepy baby doll, suspended from the ceiling- it started togoo and cry, until the voice box started to die and it’s once sweet voiceturned more demonic. You frowned and yanked it off of its suspended wires,tossing it over your shoulder.
“Just come outalready! I’m so tired of all these stupid-” you started, before you werecut off by your knee giving out suddenly from a hard impact. You whipped yourhead around to find a tall figure sitting on a tiny tricycle, their face lookedporcelain and broken. A creepy, child-like laugh came from the person, as theysuddenly lunged at you, knocking you down and sitting over you. Leaning closeto your face, the creepy laugh continued as the person grabbed hold of the tearin their face, pulling down both sides. All that you could hear is a maniacallaugh, and the ripping sound of this person’s 'skin’. You could see the gluetearing and as the 'blood’ fell to your face, you could smell it was strawberryjam- Jaehee must have helped out there.
“Hi Vanderwood,”you stared completely unfazed by the scene above you. He finished taking offthe glued on mask and wiped part of his face off with his sleeve, shooting youa disapproving look.
“I spent thiswhole time trying to get the damn mask on. Do you know how sticky this is? Theglue and the jam? It’s fucking sticky, MC, this isn’t fun for me,” hespat, getting up and offering his hand to help you up. “I’m starting tothink you’re some sort of robot instead of human, we could use you in theagency,” he mused, crossing his arms and watching as you dusted yourselfoff, sneering at his offer.
“That’s probablythe scariest thing I’ve heard all day, thank you,” you held your hand outexpectantly, “give me the key and I’ll keep going so we can actually eatsomething.” With a roll of his eyes, you’ve got the key in the palm ofyour hand and you’re on your way to the next room.
This room had acomplete wall of screens, and you knew it was bound to be one of the Choitwins- now which one was it?
Deep, creepy laughtererupted from the screens, causing you to sigh for the forty seventh time today.Looking at the monitors, you’re met with the mask from earlier in the night-you definitely know which Choi it was this time.
“Saeyoung, youreally went all out for this party. I can’t believe you  spent all this time even renovating yourhouse-”
“I KNOW NOT OFTHIS 'SAEYOUNG’ YOU SPEAK ABOUT. MC, TELL ME, WILL YOU PLAY A GAME?” hecut you off, yelling into his voice changer. You crossed your arms and mutteredsome choice words under your breath before turning around to address the soundyou were hearing.
In the center of theroom, a single table rose from a secret floor compartment, dawning a clear boxwith a hole large enough to stick your arm in- the other end of the box heldthe key to the next door.
“The game issimple, MC- stick your hand inside the box, and answer a few questions. Youwin, you get the key!” he followed his explanation with a creepy, darkgiggle. You looked at the screens and raised an eyebrow, sticking your arm intothe box.
“And if Ilose?” you asked, watching him clap with glee.
“THEN YOU REALLYLOSE, AHAHAHA!” A locked clamp attached itself to your arm and your eyesfocused on the box as small saws in the side of the box activated and waited tomake their move. You frowned a little bit and turned back to him.
“Are you ready MC?No? Too bad!” he giggled, leaning close to the camera, “QUESTION ONE!We’ll keep it easy on this question- WHAT IS THE BINARY FOR 'SAEYOUNG IS THEBEST’? YOU HAVE FIVE SECONDS!” You stared at the screen, spacing outcompletely- you didn’t know this. If you did, five seconds wasn’t long enoughto recite it. He imitated an annoying buzzer sound before telling you time wasup- the saws in the box moved a bit closer to your arm as you just stared atthem, wondering just how much time this boy had on his hands to make this.
“ROUND TWO, DINGDING! What part of fish-shaped bread do I eat first?” he tapped hisfingers together, expectantly. Hell- you don’t remember! Most of the time, youforget he actually eats anything else besides chips…
“The…head?” you guessed. He’s a sadist, maybe he gets pleasure from ripping offthe poor fish-bread’s head off.
“DING DONG, YOUARE WRONG!” he yelled followed by an evil giggle, “The belly, MC! Thebelly is the best! You know that!” you sighed- you did know that. Whydidn’t you guess that? The sound of the saw got louder as you watched it dropeven closer to your arm.
“ONE MORE CHANCE,MC. OR YOU’LL HAVE TO WAVE GOODBYE TO YOUR ARM! Oh, but wait, you won’t be ableto, AHAHAHA!” Your previous frown deepened- he’s enjoying himself too muchhere. “FINAL QUESTION! What, in this world, makes our very own Jumin Hananxious?” Oh! You knew this! You looked him straight in the eyes andanswered.
“Diagonals insuits,” You answered with confidence, yet he hit the error button anyway.
“YOU’RE CORRECT!But, due to the circumstances, I’m going to deny the fact that you are correct.Say goodbye to your precious hand, MC!” You turned back to the box towatch the saws drop, almost touching your skin. You didn’t even flinch. Youknew he would never actually hurt you. You turned back to the screens, raisingan eyebrow at the redhead as he removed his mask. “Aw, MC! Not even a blink?Seriously? Those are real saws!” he sighed in defeat and turned them off,allowing you to remove your arm and open the other side that held the key.“I worked so hard for all of this and you haven’t been scared once! Not atall! You’re a robot. That’s it- I’ve cracked the code!” With a roll ofyour eyes and a flick of your hand, you waved him off and ventured to the nextroom.
Taking in the decor ofthe next room- it was almost as if you were outside in an actual graveyard. Younotice a ghostly figure walk through the wall- how did they set that up?
You looked above you-a projector, of course.
Opening above groundcoffins, looking at tombstones for any tricks, you searched for the key. Youwere getting real fucking tired of these ghosts screeching and walking throughyou. You felt a tap on your shoulder and sighed.
“I don’t know howyou got the projectors to actually tap me but I’m no longer in the mood forthis shit,” you called before taking a look over your shoulder. You sawSaeran dressed as a skeleton with an annoyed look on his face that rivals yourown- he was holding out his hand to help you off of the ground where you hadsat to think things through.
“Look, I’m not inthe mood either, I just fucking want some pizza,” he said pulling you toyour feet. Yes, finally, someone agrees with you. “Just take this and beover with it, please. Saeyoung will not let us eat until you walk through thatdoor and I’m real close to fighting him.” He held his other hand out toreveal a- dare you say it- skeleton key. You took it and turned, headingtowards the door, when a hand shot out of the dirt of a grave, grabbing yourankle and yanking you to the ground hard, as it starts to try and pull youthrough the dirt itself.
You look up at Saeranwith an unfazed look marking your face, as his expression mirrors yours beforehe kicks the hand off of your leg.
“I forgot to turnthe robots off,” he gave the lame excuse as you put your hands to yourhips, mocking him with a ridiculous imitation of him.
“I forgot to turnthe robots off,” you stuck your tongue out at him before walking towardsthe door again, this time avoiding the graves between. He followed behind,mumbling something along the lines of, 'You’re lucky I just want food,’ and, 'Ishould’ve pushed you into one of those graves’. Someone was hangry, but thenagain, so were you. Please, let the food be on the other side of this door.
Throwing the dooropen, you were greeted with the scent of the pizza that has been promised,amongst various other foods. Your friends stood around the room, welcoming youto the end of the line and congratulating you on your journey. You all spent atleast half an hour eating, describing how their pranks went, and how you seemedto not be afraid of anything. Laughter erupted from your chest, waving offtheir assumptions. You opened your eyes because you felt something crawling onyour arm.
With your heartbeating out of your chest and your eyes as wide as saucers, you slowly lookdown at your arm as everyone looks with you. There, crawling slowly to yourshoulder, was a gigantic spider. You stared for a moment, trying to processyour thoughts.
A loud, shrill screambubbled out of your throat as you swat at the spider to get it off. Yourepeatedly jumped in place, shaking, doing anything you could to make sure thespider was truly off of you. You even jumped into Jumin’s arms, knowing he wasthe tallest and therefore the furthest away you could get from that evil thing.
Everyone ran away fromthe furry thing, hiding behind any object they could. There was a soft gigglefrom under the food table. You watched as a familiar head of mint hair poppedout from under the table cloth, shooting one of his award-winning smiles at allof you. He gently coaxed his eight-legged friend back into his container andstood up, laughing again.
“You guys triedso hard to scare MC.. but you should have stuck to the classics,” he said,now shoving a cookie into his mouth to hide the sly smirk that spread acrosshis face. You looked at him, amazed that Jihyun, this sweet yet devilish man,could scare you. With a spider, of all things.
The good title of the“Undefeated Scare” was ruined. You have been bested by a mint man andhis spider companion. You couldn’t believe it.
Your heart was stillracing, and you could still feel the ghost of the creatures legs running upyour body.
Well, Happy Halloweento you.
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wrestlewriting · 7 years
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31 Little Wrestling Fics Challenge (October Wrestling Challenge)
Tagging: @running-ropes @tyferbebe @chasingeverybreakingwave @thegenericluchadora @theprestigious0ne @alexahood21 @castielscamander @spine-buster @heelturn-timesten @crookedmoonsaultpunk @nickysmum1909 @morgunsilver @wrasslin-rollins @morgancorbin @reigningambrollins @bbmbabe @allhailthe-demonking @rebelfleur22 @im-indestructible @heelstarla @sixdegreesofsamson @vixxyvampire @ihtscuddlesbeeetchx3 @valeonmars @pjanina13 @bolieve-that @therealfivefeetoffuckingfury @thewriterformerlytaggedas @fan-fiction-galore @songsofasirenqueen @sleeplessandcynical @thedeboniardevistation @thebadchic @cfloyd776 @spooky-spot-of-bother
Quote: 19. “Just focus on me. Everything will be fine.” 
Location: 1. Haunted House
Situation: 3. Trick or treating.
Supernatural element: 23. Stupidly accurate horoscope app
Finn Balor (this was my choice)
This is fluff. For not all spooky things need to be scary.
I hope you enjoy!!!
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“A rapid change is taking place in your life now, and it may be causing you some stress and worry. But isn’t this precisely the kind of change you figured you would need to resolve a few of your more pressing matters? Although this feels sudden and out of control, it will all fall into place rather quickly. And yes, this is exactly what you sought from the universe. It just seems to be taking place all at once, which can seem overwhelming. Just trust what you requested of the universe is unfolding, and let that be your comfort.”
Bennett was a smart girl, honestly. She didn’t believe everything she heard or read, not before doing her own research on the matter. She trusted science and knew better than to think her viewpoint was the only viewpoint.
That said, just for laughs, she always read her daily horoscope on an app on her phone. She didn’t put any faith in it, didn’t live her life by it, and if somehow it ever came true she just said ‘huh’ and moved on about her life. Most of the time, Bennett read it and decided it’s vagueness was a safe method to make it true for everyone.
The app she had downloaded was the highest rated. To her, that just meant it was the least-glitchy to use. The program, which included things like daily horoscopes and Chinese zodiac interpretations, was fun to flip through when she was bored.
And that’s how she found herself that morning. Well, not bored necessarily. But alone in the living room, a cup of coffee in her one hand, the TV on quietly projecting the local morning news. She’d already been through Facebook, Instagram, Twitter…the usual suspects for mindless morning activities before getting ready for work.
Her horoscope for the day made her smirk. What rapid change? This was the steadiest her life had ever been, ever. Six months ago, she had married Finn. He was regularly on the road wrestling, but even that had settled into a routine. He was gone, typically, the same days of the week, unless there was an overseas tour. And Bennett worked Monday through Friday at one of the local elementary schools as the secretary.
Everything was smooth sailing for them at this time. She knew it probably wouldn’t last entirely, because life, but she was going to enjoy it while she could.
Finn didn’t like her ‘horoscope commitment’ as he called it. He thought it was all hokey and cheesy, a true waste of time. Even though she wasn’t taking it seriously, he still felt she could do without it altogether. It probably didn’t help that she regularly read him his own predictions without prompting.
Putting down her phone and coffee, she stood up and stretched out her body. She needed to start getting ready for the day. Heading back upstairs, she quietly went back into the bedroom, where Finn was still partially under the covers, asleep. She went into the attached bathroom, shutting the door after herself.
By the time she’d finished showering, did her hair and makeup, and put on the clothes she’d laid out for herself the night before,  Finn was no longer in the bed.
Downstairs she found him in the kitchen, pouring himself a cup of coffee. He was dressed in just low-slung gym shorts, his hair messy. Just-woken-up-Finn was one of her top five favorite versions of her husband, honestly.
“Morning babe,” she greeted as she walked past him, her hand gliding across his lower back, a short kiss going to his shoulder.
“Mornin’,” he mumbled, clearly still trying to come to terms with being up for the day. Bennett smirked to herself, going into the living room to retrieve her phone and cup from earlier. Back in the kitchen, she went about putting her lunch together and getting her work bag from the nearby table. By the time she set the items on the counter, Finn appeared more awake.
“Horoscope today told me big changes are coming for me. So today should be momentous,” Bennett solemnly said, before a wide grin took over her face. She knew exactly what she was doing.
“You, need help,” Finn declared, shaking his head briefly, before sipping at his cup.
“Let’s see what you need to be focused on today,” she decided happily, her attention going to her phone.
“Benn, baby, please, no,” he all but whined.
“AHEM,” Bennett dramatically cleared her throat. “‘You are finally about to get something you have wanted. But now that it is close, you may feel another option that was less desirable is actually the better choice. Sometimes making a difficult decision can be as easy as seeing the best choice taken away. Only then does desperation kick in, and you recognize what’s really important to you. That may be the case now, Leo, and you must act quickly if you want to change direction. It is not too late to change your mind, and your path,’” Bennett read from her phone. When she was done, she looked up to meet Finn’s gaze. He was leaned over the counter now, his mug between both his hands. Neither said a word at first until Bennett raised her eyebrows and made a ‘what about that’-type face at him, which caused him to laugh.
“You got any big decision to be makin’?”
“Not that I can think of, no,” Finn humored her. “And even then, it would be ‘bout work most likely.”
“…mmhmm…” Bennett replied suspiciously, narrowing her eyes at him briefly. Finn rolled his own, not suppressing a bemused smile to go along with the action. “Well, whatever it is, I guess it’s out of your hands now.”
“Apparently,” he chuckled. Bennett came around the corner, leaning over to meet him in a kiss. “You’ll be home ‘bout 4, yea?”
“That’s the plan,” she confirmed, kissing him again, before going to pick up her bags from the counter. “I told Harper to bring the kids here around 6.”
“Got it.”
“Did you decide on your costume for the night?”
“…sure.” Bennett leveled a look at him, to which he raised one hand in a pacifying manner. “It’ll be sorted before the night, I promise.”
“It better be. The kids are super excited for this,” she said.
“Never done somethin’ like this before, so it’ll be interestin’ for sure,” Finn agreed.
Sometimes Bennett forgot that many of the US traditions and customs weren’t world-widely accepted and that Finn didn’t do these kinds of things growing up.
Which made the plan for the night even more fun, honestly. Getting to see him experience new things for the first time, sharing things with him that Bennett loved doing, was cool, to say the least. And Halloween was her absolute favorite holiday and they didn’t get to spend it together often.
Bennett and Finn had arranged to take her niece and nephew to a local shopping center where the stores were doing trick-or-treating for Halloween. Also in the plaza was a pop-up haunted house, which had five separate ‘houses’ within it.
Bennett adored her niece and nephew, of ages 9 and 11 years old, respectively. Their younger sister, only 5 years old, wasn’t coming on the excursion.
Jessa, in true middle child fashion, was the most vocal. Jordan, he played the stoic big brother role perfectly when he chose to.
They were both smart, intuitive, honest. It was sometimes to a fault, but endearing, after the fact.
And they loved their Uncle Finn. When Bennett had initially said she wanted to take the kids to the event, Finn had been the one to point out Halloween fell on a day he’d be home this year. After clearing the matter with her sister, who was honestly more than happy to not have to handle the two rambunctious kids on a holiday made for chaos, the plan had been set.
Both Jessa and Jordan had shrieked and tackled them when told they’d be doing trick-or-treating with their Aunt and Uncle, and also going to haunted houses. Honestly, Bennett couldn’t remember seeing them so excited before. And she was beyond ready for the awesome night to happen as well.
“OK, well, get your rest today. Chasing those two around is gonna be a lot of work,” Bennett advised, kissing him once again as she took out her car keys.
“I’ll consider it my cardio for the day,” Finn decided, making her laugh. “Love you, beautiful.”
“Love you,” she echoed before turning and leaving the house. Now all she had to do was survive Halloween in an elementary school for the day.
Bennett finally made it home, almost an hour after the time she had intended to. There had been two car accidents, and general bad traffic, holding her up on her commute.
She hated feeling rushed, but now she had no choice but to be.
While in traffic, she’d called Finn and told him to start getting ready and she would be home as soon as she could. Finn had been calm and relaxed about the matter, assuring her it would all be OK and they had plenty of time for the night.
He was, as always, the calm to her storm.
Bennett didn’t even spare a glance as she tossed her bags onto the kitchen counter, set on getting ready in her costume. She had less than an hour, and she knew her hair alone would take up half that time.
“Babe! Where are you?”
“In here,” Finn’s voice came from the living room. Bennett walked quickly in there, prepared to see him not at all ready for the night.
What she found standing before her, however, was anything but.
“Oh…oh…my fucking…FINN.” Bennett couldn’t finish a thought as she was having a hundred of them at once as she took in Finn’s appearance.
Starting at the top, his dark hair was gone, covered by a bald cap. He had on a black T-shirt, the large white lettering on it proudly displaying ‘Gallows & Anderson’ among other words. And his bottom half was adorned in black tights, the strange face-mask-with-swords logo clear on his thighs. His right arm even had drawings across it, imitating tattoos.
“Hey,” Finn greeted her with a nod of his head.
Her laughter was immediate and loud.
“Come ‘ere, and Too Sweet me,” he requested, holding his hand up, his American accent something special to hear.
Bennett was holding onto the back of the couch, shaking with hysterics, definitely unable to do anything he had just requested.
“Finn, oh…what the… hell?” She finally got out words between her laughs. Finn was just smiling brightly at her, clearly proud of himself.
“What? Told ya I had a costume worked out,” he stated, speaking back in his normal voice. Bennett managed to take in a few deep breaths, her laughter subsiding, but the bemused look on her face still just as strong.
“You look ridiculous,” she declared. Finn dramatically gasped, putting his hand on his heart.
“How dare you! I’m tellin’ Karl you said that,” he replied.
“Oh, I didn’t say Karl looks ridiculous. This look works for him. It’s you that this is a special kind of special for,” Bennett explained, waving her hand to indicate the costume. Finn looked down at himself, before shrugging his shoulders and looking back to her.
“It’s actually kinda nice wearin’ clothes.”
“I’m gonna have to strongly disagree with you.” Bennett wiggled her eyebrows, which made Finn laugh. “OK, this has been entertaining, and I know the rest of the family will say the same. But now it’s time for me to go get ready.”
“Can’t wait to see.”
“Oh, you have no idea,” she teased, before turning and quickly going upstairs.
Bennett had decided on her costume just last week, but it had been easy enough to put together, given a couple of the items were already in their house.
As she had predicted, doing her hair took the longest, followed by her make-up. The outfit was simple enough, something she could just slide into.
By the time she was done, her sister had texted stating they were on their way. As her family lived only a town over, she knew they would be there rather quickly.
Glancing over herself once more in the floor length mirror, she fluffed her hair and headed back downstairs to where she’d left Finn in the living room.
Bennett’s red heels clicked along their wooden floor as she came around the couch and stood in front of it, allowing Finn to take in her whole look.
And he was definitely taking it in, his eyes widening as they scanned over every inch of her. Her legs were encased in leather-look skintight leggings, her upper half covered with a black leather jacket. Her red-tinted hair was partially pinned up, but full of curls.
With a rehearsed confidence, Bennett trailed her hands down the lapels of the leather jacket slowly, before pulling it open, revealing her torso, which was covered in tight black material as well, a belt high on her waist.
“Tell me about it, stud,” she purred out, shifting her weight to one leg, cocking her hip just a bit.
“Damn, baby,” Finn finally spoke.
“Wanna see the best part?” He nodded quickly. Bennett smiled, and with a purposeful step, turned herself so her back was facing him, revealing the Balor Club logo embroidered on the back of her leather jacket.
“That is…amazin’,” he confirmed, with an awed-sounding laugh following his words. “…shit. You’re so hot.”
“If you’re good, maybe tonight you can meditate in my direction,” Bennett offered cheekily, turning back around to face him. Finn laughed outright, standing up to come to her. His arm slid around her waist, his hand pressing into the small of her back, bringing her body against his.
“I love you, ya know that?”
“Heard it a few times. Always nice to hear it more,” she whispered, as he came closer to put his lips to hers. “Lipstick.”
“Don’t care.” And he didn’t apparently, as he kissed her thoroughly.
The doorbell ringing, followed by the door opening, and little feet hitting the entrance way broke them apart quickly.
“AUNT NETTIE!” Jessa’s voice carried very easily through the house. Bennett and Finn stepped back from each other, turning to watch as the small zombie came barreling into the room. Dressed in a tattered and shredded black shirt, which was over equally tattered leggings, she looked like she’d been through the wringer. Her hair was in frizzed out pigtails, her face made-up to appear paler, with various bloody cuts and scrapes on her exposed skin.
The costume didn’t surprise Bennett one bit. Her niece was into gore and horror, as much as any 9 year old should be allowed to be. Her sister and brother-in-law did their best to not expose the girl to anything too terrible, but Jessa was a fearless little soul and found it all fascinating.
It took her a moment to realize the beat up t-shirt was a Bullet Club t-shirt. It made her grin internally.
“Look at you! You look amazing!” Bennett praised her niece as she came over, hugging her to her waist. “I love it, Jessie!”
“You look so pretty,” the little girl told her aunt. “And Uncle Finn, you look silly.”
“Thanks, kid,” Finn replied with a laugh, as Jessa giggled going to also hug him in greeting. “Nice shirt.”
“Hey everyone,” Harper greeted, entering the room.
“Where’s the other one?”
“Oh, you mean your husband?”
“What?” Bennett questioned, confused and almost concerned.
And then Jordan came into view and her jaw dropped.
He was Finn. Well, dressed like Finn Bálor, essentially.
On his head rested the headdress of red and black dangling fabrics. His face was painted, blacks and reds and whites, the illusion of teeth over his mouth.
Instead of being in wrestling gear, however, he had on one of Finn’s t-shirts, which had the simplistic design of also the white fangs. He was in black shorts, but his legs were mostly covered in shin pads. The pads had the teeth design on the knee, with red flames coming up his calves.
Bennett was truly speechless at first.
“Did you…did you know about this?” she finally questioned Finn.
“Where do you think he got some of the stuff?” Finn retorted with a laugh. “We have had this planned for weeks.”
“Yep,” Jordan confirmed, as he and Finn Two-Sweeted one another.
“Time. Out,” Bennett demanded. “So you’re telling me, you planned all of this with him? And Jessa’s shirt? Also on purpose?”
“Exactly,” Finn concurred with a wink. “It was actually Jordan’s idea that started the whole thing.”
Bennett looked down at her nephew, who was just staring back at her straight-faced. She assumed he was trying his hardest to play the part of ‘The Demon’.
“But…you didn’t know I was gonna be wearing your jacket? You didn’t know my costume!”
“…or did I?” Finn challenged, his tone mischievous.
And at that, it all clicked into place. Bennett’s eyes flashed to her sister’s, who was already grinning cheekily.
“Harper!”
“Oh come off it. This is adorable. And I know how excited you were for tonight, and how much you love Halloween, and I thought it would just be really special for you to have your family together as a unit.”
Bennett had no argument to that. And in fact, she was trying her hardest to keep the tears at bay, touched deeply at how much her family did for tonight to be so memorable.
“Alright! Let’s get some super awesome pictures that I’m highly tempted to use as my Christmas card, and send you all on your way!” Harper proclaimed.
The following half hour felt like a professional photo shoot. Pictures were taken of every possible combination of person; some serious, some silly. Bennett’s favorites she already knew would be of her and Finn with both the kids.
Bálor Club, represent.
“Is it time for the haunted houses?” Jessa asked for what felt like the hundredth time. From the moment they’d arrived at the shopping center, it was all she had been excited for. She enjoyed getting candy, as any kid did, but she really wanted to go see the horror show up close.
“Let’s first put your guys’ stuff in the car, and then yes, it is haunted house time,” Bennett explained, causing the little girl to cheer.
The trick-or-treating had been fun, and their group had received many looks and comments. Most of the comments came from little kids and their fathers, but some of the women present also understood the reference. That made Bennett happy.
After dropping off their items in the car, the group headed over to the haunted house storefront, standing in line to pay their admission. Once inside the large space, it was sensory overload. There were people everywhere, many in costume, and it was hard to tell who was visiting and who worked there. Along the perimeter were the entrances to the various houses, all having different themes.
“Where to first, guys?” Finn asked. Jordan just shrugged.
“I want…that one!” Jessa finally decided, pointing to the entrance that was directly in the middle. The outside façade of the maze was decorated with a large Crystal Ball, tarot cards, and glittering silver lights throughout. As they walked closer, there were also hands palm up painted on the wood, along with actual fake hands hanging. A couple swords were also present.
“Let’s do this then,” Bennett declared. “Before we go in though, you two need to stay with us, OK?” Both of the children nodded in understanding. Bennett wasn’t very worried about them wandering off, they’d been great about it all night. But she also knew how excited Jessa was, and sometimes excitement overrode common sense and safety.
As they wandered through the house, there were some jump-scares, and some creepy scenes to look at. But Bennett knew there was going to be the big thing at some point.
What she hadn’t expected was to be stopped at a room by a ‘guard’, who told them to wait. After a minute, he told them to enter the last room and “behold the wisdom of the woman prophet”.
The room they entered was dimly light, with fabrics draped all along. There were various objects tacked to the walls, creepy pictures, actual skulls, bloodied tarot cards. Candles were flickering throughout the space.
“Welcome, my children.” The woman was seated a table in the dead center of the room, dressed in typical ‘fortune teller’ fashion. Her clothes were flowing, various bits of jewelry on every part of her body possible. The table in front of her was covered in a rich fabric, a ball sitting in front of her. Beside it sat a clean deck of tarot cards, and on the other side, crystals and small vials of unknown things.
“Please, come closer,” the woman requested. Jessa didn’t even hesitate, and Bennett followed her. Jordan, who had repeatedly declared throughout the house how ‘dumb’ he found it, remained to the side with Finn.
“Please, tell me, what do you wish to know about?” But instead of waiting for Jessa to speak, the woman held up one of her hands sternly. “No, never mind. I do not need you to tell me, for the universe is telling me what you must know now.” She looked down at her ball, moving her hands around it. It lit up at her action, and Bennett had to appreciate the effects.
“Your existence is about to change,” the older woman stated, her gaze going from the crystal ball to Bennett’s face. “You’re going to bring more into this world.”
“OK?” Bennett laughed out.
“You, my dear, are made of the stars and the seas, of the heavens and the lands, and you are powerful in your finite existence. You are made to make, to extend, to expand, to create.” The women paused, making sure her eyes were with Bennett’s. “You are made to make something within in you that will change so many lives.”
Bennett looked at the woman for a moment longer, before turning to look at Finn who was already looking back at her with eyebrows raised.
“I bet you have a part in this, somehow,” she said, with a crooked smile. “You’re always involved in my biggest moments somehow.”
“What can I say darlin’, I’m here to assist,” Finn replied, with a short smirk.
“Wait, you have something in you? Like a baby?” Jessa asked, and Bennett’s head whipped around, her wide-eyes meeting her niece’s. “‘Cause that would be kinda cool.”
“I hope it’s a boy. I’m sick of being outnumbered in the family,” Jordan declared, crossing his arms over his chest. “Right, Uncle Finn?”
“Uh….” Your husband seemed just as surprised at the turn of the conversation as you were.
“Alright, cool, thanks,” Bennett diverted everyone’s attention, nodding towards the woman. “I think we are done here. Cool house. Nice work.”
“…this is not something to be ignored or belittled,” the woman replied sternly. “Embrace this, enjoy this. You are about to be everything you should be.”
“…wanna go to the next house?” Bennett didn’t even acknowledge the woman’s words, focusing only on Jordan.
“Yes, please,” he replied. And with that, she and Finn ushered the children through the last door, coming back out onto the open floor of the building.
“Aunt Nettie, are you pregnant?” Jessa asked directly.
“Not that I’m aware of,” Bennett answered flippantly.
“Can we help name the baby?” Her niece further questioned.
“There is no baby to name.”
“But what if there is? That lady seemed pretty sure,” Jordan argued, outnumbering Bennett in the conversation. She looked to Finn for help, but he too looked at a loss as to what to say.
“Listen, that woman, she is paid to act and spook us. That doesn’t mean what she says is real.”
“…OK.” Jordan conceded.
“Alright, so next house?” Finn finally spoke up, clapping his hands together. Jessa agreed enthusiastically, and Jordan chose for them to go through one that looked incredibly dark and gory.        
They went through the rest of the houses, which were far more outwardly scary, full of clowns and serial killers and weapons.
But for Bennett, that first house remained the most memorable and jarring.
Four days later, Bennett found herself feeling like total junk, spending her Saturday in bed. She’d been sick early that morning but hadn’t since. She just felt tired and achy and unhappy all around.
When her phone rang, she threw an arm out to grab it from nearby.
“Yo,” she grumbled.
“Still feeling crappy?” Harper asked.
“I’m just…tired and I hurt and I wanna sleep but I feel like shit so I can’t fall asleep.”
“Sounds like the flu.”
“Great,” Bennett sighed, readjusting her head on her pillow.
“OR maybe you're pregnant.”
“…shut up.”
“What? The symptoms are similar, and that fortune teller did tell you…”
“Stop,” Bennett demanded. “You are ridiculous.”
“Don’t ignore that woman’s wise words. She said you are to make something within you.”
“Right now all I’m making in me is more barf probably.”
“Gross, Bennie.”
“You started it, Harpie.” Her older sister just sighed.
“Listen, I’m about to go grocery shopping. So I’ll bring some stuff over for you, ginger ale, Pepto, all that stuff, OK?”
“You are the greatest.”
“I know.” They said their goodbyes, and Bennett put the phone down beside her again. She curled into the pillow, letting out a long breath as she closed her eyes. She just wanted to sleep away this awfulness.
Bennett woke up, confused in her groggy state. The bedroom was darker than when she last remembered it being. After a moment of blinking and coming around, she grabbed around on the bed until she picked up her phone. The time read several hours from the last she saw.
She had a few texts from Finn, and one from Harper.
The ones from Finn were sending her love and well-wishes, telling her to sleep and rest and call him when she had a chance.
Harper’s was a bit longer. It explained she had stopped over but Bennett had been asleep, so she had let her be. She detailed the food and drinks she’d left downstairs. It stated she had left medicine on the bedside table for her as well.
At that, Bennett looked up and did find various stomach and digestive aids.
But amongst all that was a very obvious box, a picture of a stick clear as day across the front.
She texted her sister back, simply writing ‘Really?”. Harper’s response was just an emoji thumbs up.
Bennett stared at the box for many minutes, eventually getting up and grabbing it. She realized there were three tests in the box. It was like her sister knew she’d need several attempts at this, almost like she’d done the same thing with Jordan.
She reread the simple instructions several times before taking the first test. She needed to know exactly what to do, what to look for. Bennett wouldn’t chance doing this wrong or misinterpreting the results.
After taking the first test, she waited ten minutes and took the second.
And then she waited several, jittery, anxious, stressful hours, before taking the third and last.
By that time, it was well into the night. And in the darkness of her bedroom, she finally called her sister.
“They are all positive!”
“I KNEW IT!” Harper exclaimed. “Man, you need to go back and tip that fortune teller lady or something.”
“Harper, shut up,” Bennett commanded, her feelings keeping her from seeing any lightness in the moment. “…these could be wrong though, right?”
“That’s rare anymore,” her sister disagreed. “The first time I got pregnant I said the same thing, but my doctor told me typically positive is positive for at home tests. There’s always a chance but if it walks like a duck, and quacks like a duck….”
“It’s a dog in disguise?”
“Nice try,” Harper replied with a laugh. “Oh, man Bennie! You’re pregnant! I’m finally gonna be an Aunt!”
“…I’m not…sure what to do? What to feel? What to say? Oh god, should I tell Finn right now? We weren’t planning for this! OH SHIT. This is gonna throw so much out of whack.”
“Hey, breathe,” her sister advised. “You both want kids, and that’s what matters. You’ll figure it out. Yea, it’ll probably be a bit harder given his work, but there is nothing the two of you can’t get through together.”
“…I just…”
“It’s a lot.”
“SO MUCH,” Bennett corrected. “Shit. Fuck. I’m probably pregnant.”
“Most likely definitely.”
“I just…I’m gonna eat something and go to bed, and handle this tomorrow.”
“OK.” Harper offered no argument, knowing her sister’s usual style of handling large changes involved time for her initial emotions to subside. “Call if you need anything.”
“Will do.” After saying their ‘I love yous’ and ‘goodbyes’, Bennett sent a quick text to Finn telling him she was still feeling ill and was gonna sleep more. She knew it was a bit of a coward’s move to not tell him right away, but she wanted to make peace with the matter before telling him.
Finn had wanted to wait until he was off the road to have kids. Which was OK, in some ways, as Bennett was five years younger than him. But she had no desire to be a 40 year-old-first-time mom, either. Biological clock, and life logistics, and all that.
She knew he didn’t want to miss things, wanted to be a truly present father. But she saw how things were managed by Karl and his family, and knew it wasn’t necessarily needed to be a good family.
Of course, Bennett also knew she was not really like Karl’s wife, and she wasn’t sure she could handle raising a baby the majority of the time on her own. She was far more high-strung than Finn was, and she knew she would need him to be around to be the level-headed parent. Because if there was one thing she knew from watching her sister and being an aunt, it was that things tended to get naturally crazy with kids.
Bennett decided it was time to just put herself to bed. She didn’t want to overthink the situation anymore and decided she needed to tell Finn when he was face-to-face with her.
Sleep didn’t come easily, so Bennett found herself doing her usual; mindlessly playing around on her phone. Facebook, Instagram, Twitter…the same routine as always. And eventually, she came to the horoscope app.
“Something wonderful is beginning to bloom for you now, Gemini. You may be wondering if this is a quirk of fate or a coincidence. But don’t start questioning and dissecting this gift from the universe. If you become cynical or doubtful, you won’t get the full effect of this auspicious happening. If you are receiving a blessing, then the universe has deemed you worthy of it. So enjoy the hopeful, positive vibes you are feeling, embrace the goodness, smile, and be grateful.”
Bennett shut her phone off without a second thought and tossed it away from herself onto the bed.
There was no way….
It was Tuesday morning, and Finn was due home sometime that afternoon after his usual travel and work days.
Yesterday morning she’d called her doctor, who had told her the same thing her sister had, that at home tests were incredibly accurate. He made her an initial appointment for that Thursday to get an idea of where she was at in her pregnancy.
Bennett had chosen to take the day off from work, her emotions far too amped up about Finn returning and the situation for her to be at work.
Every conversation she’d had with Finn from Sunday until now, had been odd. She knew it, and she knew he knew it. She wanted to tell him, she did, but she also thought it would be nice to have him come home to the surprise.
Bennett had scoured the internet, accepting and rejecting ideas every minute on cute ways to tell him about their expanding family. Finally, she’d settled on something fall themed and cute. So she’d spent all Sunday going to stores and pumpkin patches until she was able to secure two large pumpkins and a tiny one to her liking.
The plan was to hollow out one of the bigger pumpkins, then cut a heart in the front, placing the smaller pumpkin in it. It was meant to allude to a ‘pregnant pumpkin’. The saying that people usually used with it was ‘We’re adding another pumpkin to our patch’. Bennett loved it. But now came the task of actually doing it.
Bennett had never been as good with art and creativity as her sister. Harper could easily create things: paintings, gifts, crafts. Bennett, though, had to put all her concentration and focus possible into the task at hand, and even then, they never looked as good as they should.
Making the little sign with orange paint about their growing pumpkin patch was easy enough. Her writing wasn’t the greatest, but even she thought it was cute.
It quickly became clear, however, that her bad luck streak of craft creation was going strong. She’d managed to hollow out the pumpkin just fine, but she’d messed up on cutting out the front. In an effort to correct the heart, it had become lopsided. And then in an effort to correct that, she’d essentially cut out the entire front side of the pumpkin, with barely the top part of the heart obvious.
It was more like a…blob. It looked weird. It did not look like the picture she was using for inspiration. It looked dumb by comparison. She knew upon seeing it Finn would not know what it was supposed to be.
Why hadn’t she bought more pumpkins? She knew she wasn’t great at this stuff, she should have gotten backups for screw-ups. Looking at the clock on the microwave, she realized she didn’t have time to go out and get another pumpkin. Finn was due home soon. He had texted her before she’d started carving that his plane had just landed.
She tried really hard to not let the tears welling in her eyes fall down her cheeks.
Feeling defeated and frustrated, she just sat at the kitchen counter, staring at her pumpkins. There had to be a way to salvage this?
It was a frantic internet search later when Bennett realized she definitely wasn’t saving face here. But she could at least hopefully, maybe, still use the sign to tell him? 
Better than nothing.
Except when she heard the garage door open and watched Finn walk into the kitchen with his bags minutes later, she hated every idea she had. This was supposed to be something big, magical, meaningful…and a little crappy painted sign wasn’t that.
“Oh hey, pumpkin carving? Why didn’t you wait for me?” he asked, putting his bags down near the wall, coming over to her. He put his arm around her waist, kissing her temple, securing her against his side. With Bennett sitting on the stool, she just about at his height.
“This wasn’t for fun,” she explained.
“…OK?” Finn’s confusion was evident in his tone.
“I just…I wanted to surprise you and have something cute and memorable and I just…I fucked it up so bad. This was supposed to be this really cool, special moment, and I just ruined the most important pumpkin!” Bennett was trying to keep her emotions in check, but she was failing miserably.
“Hey, baby,” Finn stated, his fingers squeezing her side, his other hand coming up to turn her face towards his. “Just focus on me. Everythin’ will be fine. Whatever this is, it isn’t that big of a deal.”
“YES, IT IS!” Bennett argued, turning from him abruptly, causing his arm to fall down to his side. “You literally have no idea how big this is!”
“…ok?”
Bennett pushed off from the counter and got off the stool, walking around to where the other pumpkins sat, picking up the sign and the tiniest pumpkin. She kept the sign facing her, and with a deep breath, she walked back towards Finn. He was just watching her curiously as she stopped a foot away from him.
“Surprise,” she whispered, turning the sign around, holding the little pumpkin beside it in the palm of her hand.
Bennett waited with baited breath as Finn read her writing. At first, he seemed to not have any reaction, which made her feel even worse that her entire idea had fallen apart. This whole cute, sweet moment was ruined, and now she would have to explain to him everything.
But then, his eyes got huge and he looked directly at her.
“Benn…we…you…” He seemed unable to form words. “Bennett, oh my god. We’re having a baby?”
“Looks that way,” she replied, smiling slightly.
And the next thing she knew she was in his arms, her feet off the ground as he lifted her up. She barely managed to get her arms out to the side so as not to smash the sign or pumpkin against him.
“We’re having a BABY! Oh my god, this is awesome! I love you so much, you know that?” Finn was basically rambling as he held her against himself, causing her to giggle.
It was amazing how her failed plan no longer seemed important given his reaction. What mattered wasn’t how she told him, but them, their relationship, their family.
“This is, like, for sure, you know?” Finn asked, leaning back as he held her so he could see her face.
“Three tests positive,” Bennett affirmed. “We have a doctor’s appointment on Thursday to get the official word on the matter and how far along I am.”
“You, you are gonna be an amazing mum, ya know that?”
“Says the man practically molded to be the coolest dad alive,” she teased in response, causing a small blush to come to his face. She loved getting that kind of reaction from him. “This is…gonna be hard.”
“It’ll be work,” Finn corrected, setting her back on her feet, loosening his hold on her but not letting her go entirely. “But it’ll be the best kind of work. There’s no one else I would do this with than ya. I know my job doesn’t make it easy on ya…but I will be here every single solitary second I can through everythin’.”
“I know,” Bennett assured. She wanted to reach up and touch him, but her hands were still occupied with the sign and pumpkin. “…you’re gonna be a DILF.” Finn’s laughter was instant and loud.
“OK, then you’re Queen of the MILFs,” he replied, making her grin more. The humor fell to the wayside as they just gazed at one another, smiling. “Shit, I love ya, Bennett. Love ya more than anything.”
“I love you too,” she repeated back.
“Does anyone else know?”
“Just Harper.” Bennett went on to explain to Finn the events of the last few days, how her feeling ill had turned into pregnancy. When she mentioned Harper’s comments about the fortune teller from the haunted house, he huffed a laugh.
“Ya know, your silly horoscopes have been pretty in line with this too. Maybe you’ve been on to something all along. Maybe the supernatural does exist and the universe has been telling you all along what’s goin’ on.”
“…shut up,” she replied to his teasing, even though inside she was realizing how right he was. The more she thought about it, the more weirded out and amazed she became, so she stopped thinking about it.
“Can we tell my parents?”
“Well, yea,” Bennett answered coming out of her thoughts, as Finn finally released her. She immediately set the sign and pumpkin down on the counter. “I mean, we could wait until the doctor on Thursday to be sure. But that’s up to you.”
“…we have to tell them now.” His decision didn’t surprise her one bit. “And let’s use this stuff,” he motioned to indicate the items on the counter. “It’s cute. My mum will like it.”
Bennett’s heart swelled a bit at that. He was so sweet to make her think her little surprise wasn’t stupid.
Using the wonders of the internet and FaceTime, telling Finn’s parents about their news was super fun. They’d started the conversation normally enough, but Bennett just happened to pick up the tiny pumpkin. Finn had followed suit holding the sign.
His mom had cried, and his dad had beamed. They weren’t first-time grandparents by any means, but given this was their first grandchildren from Finn seemed to mean a lot to them.
After all of that, Bennett was exhausted. Today had been a rollercoaster of emotion. She wasn’t at all remorseful at deciding to go to bed by 8PM. Finn came with her, but she knew he wasn’t tired, and instead just didn’t want to be far from her.
He was going to be the most protective husband throughout this pregnancy, and she wasn’t complaining.
They went through their night time routines, before finally settling into bed together. Bennett decided to wind down doing her routine on her phone. Facebook, Instagram, Twitter. It was always the same.
And then came the horoscope app.
Given her current situation, she was almost hesitant at opening it. But curiosity won out, and she found herself scanning the words on the screen almost hungrily.
“You may be so focused on making something perfect today that you are missing out on all the magic that already exists. You are like an artist who just can’t walk away from a beautiful painting without putting on a few last brush strokes. But if you go too far, you may miss the forest for the trees. Take some time to quietly observe what you see, and relish what you already have. You are very lucky and very blessed, and recognizing that is the final step in finding true perfection.”
Bennett sighed, and with a small smile, closed out of the app.
Stupid horoscopes.
But not really.
Thank you to @thewriterformerlytaggedas & @fan-fiction-galore for allowing me to be apart of this and believing in me!
Thank you so very much to @chasingeverybreakingwave & @running-ropes & @spine-buster& @therealfivefeetoffuckingfury & anyone else who has provided support/love/inspiration/comfort/a-listening-ear-as-I-had-breakdowns/ideas/etc. over this story. The struggle got really real, but we made it.
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sadrien · 7 years
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wanna chat? pt.19
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so this is like...twice as long as a normal chapter. anyway i was in les mis the other week and i sent something and someone thought it was a les mis chapter of wanna chat. and @reyxa​ encouraged it so Here We Are
this chapter continues right off of the last one because i found a note with sick quotes on it. i kept the les mis as light and understandable as possible but just like..let me know if it makes 0 sense. i had to get this out of my system because ive been in a writing funk
(mari = cough cough, nino = space bro, alya = alys, adrien = glen coco)
enjoy? 
3:12 in boo you whore
cough cough: gmoring i cant brethe out of mynose rn Im not goin g ot be in school today :( Bu ti cant sleep anymore because I cnat breath e iim gonna go watch youtube videos
 6:37
space bro: my dude i hope youre feeling better when you wake up
6:43
glen coco: If you’re not turn on the shower really hot and sit in the bathroom with the steam
alys: or drown urself in cold medicine
glen coco: Don’t do that
space bro: never listen to alya
alys: dont listen to these traitors
PM between glen coco and cough cough
glen coco: I bet the akuma attack last night really didn’t help Don’t worry about anything today I can handle it unless it’s another akuma Just get some rest <3
10:03 in boo you whore
cough cough: Self care is chugging five cups of tea and astral projecting behind a mcdonalds to punch hawkmoth in the face
11:46
glen coco: Mari no
alys: mari yes
space bro: mari wtf
cough cough: Im dyin g
alys: tag urself im punching hm in the face
space bro: im astral projection
glen coco: Five c ups of tea
cough cough: Does that make me the mcdonalds
space bro: congrats mari
glen coco: I can’t believe Mari is the golden arches
alys has changed their name to punching hawkmoth in the face
punching hawkmoth in the face: im finally my True Self gang follwo suit
cough cough: Why shoul d I LISten to you
punching hawkmoth in the face: bc u love me and want me 2 b happy and also bc i still have ur jacket in my bedroom
cough cough: Fuck
cough cough has changed their name to mcdonalds
space bros: al youre ridic
punching hawkmoth in the face: just do it babe
space bros has changed their name to astral projection
astral projection: there ya go
glen coco: Rip Glen Coco
punching hawkmoth in the face: truly a her o of his generation :’(
mcdonalds: RIp
glen coco has changed their name to five cups of tea
five cups of tea: Rebirth
mcdonalds: I hate you all img oing ot bed
punching hawkmoth in the face: goodnight my darlign <3
astral projection: nap well bro hopefully you feel better when you wake up
 15:37
punching hawkmoth in the face: remind me to throw my bag in the seine i dont wanna do hw :(
astral projection: i feel you
punching hawkmoth in the face: wanna get togheter and do hw
astral projection: do homework or “do homework”
punching hawkmoth in the face: have u ever met me “””””””do homework”””””””
astral projection: i need to figure out physics my dude
punching hawkmoth in the face: D’:
five cups of tea: I can help you when I get home tonight
punching hawkmoth in the face: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
astral projection: the real mvp i love you
five cups of tea: I love you too Have fun Use protection
astral projection: alya please kick him out of the chat
punching hawkmoth in the face: no i like him
astral projection: fuck
 18:57 mcdonalds: Screens hurt my head irhgt now Im gonna watch reruns and keep sleepng
punching hawkmoth in the face: feel better babe <3
 22:15
five cups of tea: Ok so the other day instead of doing homework I started reading les mis ANd now instead of doing homework I’m reading les mis again I can’t believe this is how I’m procrastinating
astral projection: what
punching hawkmoth in the face: the musical????
five cups of tea: No the book Which the musical is based off of
astral projection: what a nerd
punching hawkmoth in the face: lmao how is it
five cups of tea: Old Long
punching hawkmoth in the face: how long?
five cups of tea: Uhhh 655,000 words
mcdonalds: jesus
astral projection: what the actual fuck
punching hawkmoth in the face: holllllly fuck
astral projection: you my dude are unreal
punching hawkmoth in the face: for fun???? r u sure this is for fun???????
five cups of tea: I think so? It’s kind of boring sometimes and hard to get through but other parts are really good Also if I’m reading I don’t have to practice chinese
punching hawkmoth in the face: touche
astral projection: have fun reading bro you are unbelievable
PM between five cups of tea and mcdonalds
five cups of tea: Hey why are you up? I thought you were heading off to bed a while ago?
mcdonalds: I didnt take nyquil tonight because I felt a little better and didnt want to pass the fuck out again but now Im awake and cant sleep because my head feels like its gonna explode And I regret So much
five cups of tea: Aw no poor bug
mcdonalds: Ugh
five cups of tea: Do you want anything?
mcdonalds: You dont have to
five cups of tea: Do you want anything? If you want soup I can get you some
mcdonalds: Its like???? Really late?????
five cups of tea: Mar its only 20:30
mcdonalds: Oh It feels like 1 But its still late
five cups of tea: Ok well Late night food is not a new thing Trust me
mcdonalds: … If you brought me soup Id love you forever
five cups of tea: I thought you already did
mcdonalds: Id love you even more
five cups of tea: I’ll be on my way soon
mcdonalds: I love you so much <3
23:35 in boo you whore
punching hawkmoth in the face: what if you took tea in shots like shot glasses
five cups of tea: Like with hot tea?
astral projection: i feel like thats a good way to burn your entire mouth
five cups of tea: *entire life
astral projection: ^^^
punching hawkmoth in the face: hmmm
five cups of tea: Alya no
astral projection: yeah bad idea
punching hawkmoth in the face: f i n e
 1:02
mcdonalds: sos Im dying I constantly feel like Im about to sneeze If I dont feel that way its cause Im sneezing
astral projection: rip my dude guessing you cnat sleep while sneezing
mcdonalds: Nope :’( End my suffering please
astral projection: no can do i can offer virtual hugs
mcdonalds: I guess thatll work for now
astral projection: <3
2:03
PM between five cups of tea and mcdonalds
five cups of tea: Hey Hey Marinette Hey I have something to show you
mcdonalds: Adrien its 2 in the morning
five cups of tea: So? You’re up too
mcdonalds: I slept all day
mcdonalds: Yeah but you’re awake right now
mcdonalds: … Fine Hit me
five cups of tea: “When they had finished, when they had told each other everything, she laid her head on his shoulder and asked him: ‘What is your name?’” Us
mcdonalds: Oh my go d This is les mis right??? What youw ere talking about before??
five cups of tea: Yup
mcdonalds: Omg Why are you like this
five cups of tea: Ok but am I wrong????
mcdonalds: I cant say you are tbh
five cups of tea: Man I feel like Marius am I like Marius??
mcdonalds: Whats he like?
five cups of tea: Kind of oblivious, pretty romantic but sort of in a weird way, awkward, usually confused but can be scary if he needs to, handsome as hell and love of my life that I would honestly leave all three of you for
mcdonalds: Wow Are you sure you havent already
five cups of tea: :P Actually….
mcdonalds: Are you suddenly realizing youve left us for a fictional character
five cups of tea: No I was oging to say I might be more like Bossuet
mcdonalds: Youre just saying words I dont know who that is
five cups of tea: He always has bad luck Like always Ummmm hold on
mcdonalds: K Who would I be???
five cups of tea: “He was the constant victim of mischance, hence his merriment. He said, ‘I spend my life walking under ladders.’”
mcdonalds: Ok you mgiht be this Bossuet you bad luck magnet
five cups of tea: For you Hmmmm Enjolras?
mcdonalds: Not cosette??  Shes the love interest right
five cups of tea: As much as I love you Enjolras is the leader in red And I just can’t help myself
mcdonalds: Nerd Are you goind to do alya and nino too?
five cups of tea: D u h
 2:34
mcdonalds: Adrien?? You ok? Youve been quiet for a while Or did you fall asleep on your computer again
five cups of tea: No I’m here I’m just Stuck This is haarrrrrdddddddddd Alya and Nino are just so deep and complex and awesome and I dont’ know how to place them???
mcdonalds: True But wow Slightly offended
five cups of tea: Hey yours is based on a pun I can pun easy
mcdonalds: G o to sleep kitten You can sort them in the mornign Later this morning
five cups of tea: Fine I hope you’re feeling better
mcdonalds: A little bit!! The soup definitely helped Night <3
five cups of tea: Night <3
10:25 in boo you whore
astral projection: saturdays are chill but my mom wants us to clean the entire apartment today and im not about that life
 12:12
mcdonalds has changed their name to enjolras
enjolras: I have no idea who thi s is but I hope it makes Adrien happy
punching hawkmoth in the face: ???? wahts ahppenign
enjolras: Adrien said I was this charactera t like 2
astral projection: why the fuck do none of you people value sleep
punching hawkmoth in the face: how theh ell did that even come up in conversation
enjolras: He was saying he thinks hes like Marius
astral projection: huh
five cups of tea: I’m not sure yet
astral projection: bro!!!
five cups of tea: I'm thinking either Marius or bossuet for myself
punching hawkmoth in the face: r we supposed 2 know the second one
enjolras: Hes got bad luck Thats what I got from our convo when no one else was awake
punching hawkmoth in the face: change ur name i want u2b the hopeless romantic
astral projection: isnt he already??
punching hawkmoth in the face: lmao
five cups of tea has changed their name to marius
punching hawkmoth in the face: awesome were u gonna do nino and i??
marius: Yeah I’m just having some trouble
astral projection: yeah were just too unique to be put into little boxes
marius: Exactly
astral projection: that was sarcasm but i love you so much
marius: <3
punching hawkmoth in the face: hey question not that im doubting maris badassary but why enjolras
marius: Enjolras is incredibly passionate and would do anything for his friends and the people of Paris Reminds me of how Marinette is as class president
PM between marius and enjolras
enjolras: Nice save
marius: Thanks
in boo you whore
astral projection: I see it
marius: Alya could be eponine?
punching hawkmoth in the face: shes the one who cries about marius right
marius: Well I was actually thinking her cause Ponine she knows her way around And all that stuff But yes she cries about Marius she does have a song about that
PM between punching hawkmoth in the face and astral projection
punching hawkmoth in the face: lmao did he just give me the character hopelessly in love with marius
astral projection: rip
punching hawkmoth in the face: end my life
in boo you whore
punching hawkmoth in the face: i cna work with that
punching hawkmoth in the face has changed their nickname to eponine
astral projection: and then tehre was one
marius: I’m struggling
enjolras: Arent we all
eponine: Id help but I know literally nothing other than some of the lyrics RED THE BLOOD OF BLOOD BLOOD BLOOD
astral projection: theres no way that isnt right im 100% sure those are the actual words
eponine: BLACK THE BLOOD OF BLOOD BLOOD BLOOD
enjolras: Period mood
eponine: general mood
enjolras: Ok same
eponine: mood: red and black but the only words are blood
enjolras renamed this conversation to “red the blood of blood blood blood”
eponine: yes exactly
astral projection: sometimes i wonder why im friends with you
eponine: because u love us and would be sad without us
astral projection: ok yes but also why
marius: I mean maybe Grantaire? He’s a jack of all trades? Nino you are…really hard to place But R might be the best bet
enjolras: Wait a minute R?
marius: Yes
enjolras: Get out of this chat
marius: </3
astral projection: that is amazing
astral projection has changed their nickname to grantaire
grantaire: in it for the puns
marius: So is Hugo
enjolras: Who
marius: The writer of les mis
eponine: tag yourself im les miserables all of them
grantaire: you cant be all the miserables
eponine: watch me try
marius: Sorry you must have no idea what’s going on
grantaire: not really we have nothing to contribute but keep going dude!!! i love to hear you ramble
eponine: oh oh i have something to contribute
enjolras: You do?
eponine: 24601? more like 246 so done with your shit
enjolras: Im leaving the country
grantaire: whos shit?
eponine: uh oh fuck whos the antagonist again
marius: Society
grantaire: deep
enjolras: Stop being fake deep
eponine: feep anyway no u butt the police dude
marius: The only evil in les mis IS society And the Thenardiers OH JAVERT
eponine: YES THANK YOU
marius: Javert: do not forget my name Alya: forgets his name
eponine: fuck you also 246 so done with your shit javert
grantaire: thank you for clarifying
eponine: no prob
enjolras: Ok so Im googling stuff to try and figure out whats happening And wow This is depressing ¾ of us die
marius has changed their nickname to bossuet
bossuet: Now all of us die
eponine: nope change back 2 lover boy ur not dying too
grantaire: um no one is dying my dudes
bossuet: We’re always dying But fine
bossuet has changed their nickname to marius
enjolras: Im pretty sure Im dying righ tnow I almost coughed up a lung
eponine: GO TAKE MEDICIN E
enjolras: You arent my mom!!!!!!!!!
eponine: THAT DOESNT MEAN I DONT CCARE ABOUT YOU AND YOUR HEALTH!!!!!!!!!
enjolras: AHHHHH
eponine: AHHHHHH
grantaire: Ahhhhh?
marius: Ahhhhh
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hvshbaby · 6 years
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    supposedly COLIN WILKES made it through the convergence. HE is SEVENTEEN and i hear they sometimes go by HUSH. it seems they tend to be EMPATHETIC, but VIOLENT. rumor has it they used to run with N/A, but do they have what it takes to keep up? mr. oz better keep an eye on this one going forward. 
someone told me you wanted to meet a tiny baby angel, or maybe i’m just projecting Again.  fair warning, colin has an extremely brief comic history, so a lot of what you’re about to read was either inferenced from the text, entirely my own decisions from playing him over the last couple years, and specific circumstances i’ve decided on just from this rp. 
CANONICALLY speaking, colin is a gotham boy.  he grew up in an orphanage where it was heavily implied that he was abused (as well as abused in a few of his foster homes).  he received very little care and attention from his supposed guardians.  he grew up a really angry kid and was notorious for bouncing around foster homes.  colin has always had some pretty significant mental health issues.  he’s got anger issues, intense paranoia, and multiple debilitating fears, including that of bats.
STILL CANONICALLY - colin was chosen by scarecrow, at the direction of hush/tommy elliot, to be a victim of one of his experiments.  colin was subjected to a heavy dose of fear toxin as well as pumped full of the same venom that gives bane his powers.  he was basically a mindless, terrified monster, unaware of what he was doing.  he was forced to attack batman, but batman realized that beneath whatever rage-y scary monster he was fighting, colin was just a child && was able to break the influence scarecrow had on him.
colin was saved, more or less, and healed from his encounter, but he was returned to the same orphanage he had been in before.  however, a couple years later it was discovered that colin had retained some of the ability the venom gave him.  he was able to harness that power and transform himself at will.  after discovering this, he took on the name ‘abuse’ and dedicated himself to helping other children who were also being abused. 
this put him in the path of batman and robin ( dick and damian, at the time ) while they were simultaneously tracking a ring of child trafficking conducted by victor zsasz.  long story short, colin revealed to them that he was also a hero (albiet a pretty low profile one).  damian then gave colin the equipment he needed to keep working in gotham city, including a motorcycle and base of operations.  they were buddies, guys. 
so here’s where the line between canon and headcanon get a little blurred.  it is heavily implied during streets of gotham that colin was chosen very intentionally by hush because he resembled a young tommy elliot.  a flashback lets us know that a lover of tommy elliot ( another villain, peyton riley ) possibly had a child about the same time colin would have been born.  at the very least, colin is meant to be sort of thought of as a stand in for tommy elliot in the story, but i tend to go with the headcanon that colin is the son of hush.  which is actually super important to colin in this particular rp. 
AND HERE’S WHERE THINGS GET ALL NON-CANON: after the point where damian died and colin felt he was without his support network, colin went looking for answers as to why he was targeted by crane and what hush’s involvement in the whole process was.  ya boy had....Questions.  so he went looking, followed a few trails, and that eventually lead him to Papa Hush.  
To be clear, Hush’s interest in Colin was never ever born out of any sort of paternal instinct/affection.  He didn’t see Colin as any sort of potential legacy, more as a tool that could help him.  Same as before.  Colin was a tool that could get at Batman, and tbh I think Colin always sort of knew that, but he also was desperate for an actual parent in his life, so he got manipulated a little.  Colin’s time w/ Tommy was a pretty tense time all around.  Colin was using Tommy to learn as much as he could and hone himself as a crime-fighter, Tommy was using Colin to do things he wouldn’t be able to do otherwise.  
So essentially, Abuse/Colin Wilkes dropped off the face of the planet, and there really weren’t a lot of people who would have cared that much in the first place.  So he was able to pretty seamlessly remove himself from the hero scene in gotham and become an extension of tommy elliot.  however, of course, since colin is a certified good boy, eventually he decided that he had learned all he wanted to from his father (also he couldn’t stomach it anymore tbh) and left.  this was only shortly before the events that made this RP happen transpired.  literally just a week or two after colin left hush’s company, a bunch of big heroes were wiped off the face of the planet, and that kind of changed colin’s plan.  up until that point, colin’s plan had been to remain a small-time hero in gotham, using any newfound skills he had to truly protect the people he perceived as powerless.  
but now he’s here, and he’s like a fully fledged little teenager instead of a ten year old and my heart is so full about it.  he’s adopted the name Hush as his own, but i’m sure tommy would beat his fool ass for trying to do that.  colin isn’t that worried.  if your character is someone who is/was gotham-based they’re more than welcome to recognize him, but he PROBABLY hasn’t seen them in four to five years, so keep that in mind.  if you wanna go w/ something else, tho, just message me and im sure we’ll be able to work something 
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thespanglydragon · 8 years
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a brief (not at all brief) update on my life until the next time I remember i have this blog and need to sort out my thoughts:
i got a 1st in my first project of the year. I find out my dissertation and second project marks next week, and if they’re both in the high 60s i might be able to graduate with a 1st overall. Which is scary, because if I could then I will feel really disappointed if i dont manage it. I cant tell how to deal with that... but a 2:1 is awesome and would be fitting. I expect that mark, I dont know if I expect a 1st. 
I’m fairly stressed in a preemptive way because of all of the work I need to be doing soon, I’m learning lots of things in these projects that I wish I’d learned last year (which I didnt learn because instead I was trying to direct a project which was another learning curve. I wish I had more time to fit in what I’m learning now, cause I wish I knew it now to make my input into my current projects all it could be). Another 6 months of this course would have done me well. 
The boy I like, I’m constantly between ‘hes cute and nice’ and ‘hes a friend’ because he is both - i’ve gotten to know him better and i like that regardless of whatever my romantic feelings are. I’m still not 100%, and it’s a crush, but I’m happy not doing anything much about it. I take the opportunity to spend more time with him, but I also do that more with my close friends anyway because I think i’m feeling that soon, once we graduate, we’ll all split off and I love these guys so much in such a gentle friendly way.
I’m feeling really good about having a crush because... for once, even though I’ve always been ‘im happy not doing anything about it’, it’s not preventing me from being the best I can be. I’m not avoiding him or feeling weird around him at all, if anything it’s making me feel more confident about myself because it just feels very nice and my life is culminating right now into a place where I feel good about myself and my friends, where I could go with my career, and having a crush is a part of life that is enjoyable, and i’m happy and surprised that i’m more confident around him than I ever was before I liked him (since we’ve been friends for almost 2 years).
That said, I’m annoyed because I’d told people a few months ago I liked him, but now another person gave away the game to another friend and it’s not something I want to go around. I know full well how I feel about him but that doesnt mean I want other people to know, mainly because of that first issue - I’m happy with him as a friend, and I dont want to disrupt that friendship because people find out and try to either force a situation, or let him know which could very easily disrupt a normal friendship. I’m getting to the point where I just want people to shut up about anything involving me and relationships - because there are also people who still bring up my ex being like ‘oh how’s he’ ‘oh what about ryan’ or making comments implying theres something there when there isn’t. Leave it. I’ve gotten over it, he has too, it was almost 2 years ago now, I dont see him much but you guys see him a lot because the friends group has gone that way. Just allow us to exist as people who arent involved in each others lives beyond being on the same course and having similar friends circles. It really pisses me off. 
However, I definitely dont help this point because I’ve developed a habit of being ruthlessly truthful as a defense mechanism, specifically about feelings. I think I got to the point where being totally accepting of my feelings, and not hiding that (in fact letting people know) about them was a good thing I got into when I was getting out of depression, cause I could accept any emotion I had at the time and do something about it, and was very unapologetic if people expressed any kind of intrigue. I used it when I was younger and depressed as a way to try to give blame to other people by making them feel guilty, but it turned into just not letting me blame myself for the illness. Growing out of that kind of means now, I’m overly happy to share my feelings or secrets, when in reality I dont really want people in on the situation. I’m slowly trying to learn about .... emotional modesty? I dont need people to know everything I’ve ever felt, I dont need to tell my every hearts desire or secret. I think acknowledging that is part of me feeling much better about myself and my life in general that’s been happening over the past year - I dont feel like I need other people’s validation to be happy (which is something that plagued me in first year). But I just need to get out of the habit of being so wanting of attention in that way. I’m good as I am, people do like me, I have awesome friends who love me, I dont need some kind of extra quirk or something that will make me interesting.
Oh, and my parents got a new puppy!!!! and i went to an AWESOME harry potter quiz with alcoholic (and delicious) butterbeer that was waaaaaay better than the stuff you get at the studios tbh, me and my sisters and co came 15th out of about 50 which isn’t bad considering some of the rounds were so hard I’m amazed people actually got any answers (such as naming the specific scene a short clip of music was from - and they were obscure like ‘the first time the staircase moves in the first film’ but not when they go into the out of bounds corridor etc)
I’ve also gotten into a routine (something I’m sure 16 year old me would attack me for) of being in uni by 10 (soon to turn to 9), staying tile 8 each night, doing work, not letting myself have facebook on my main computer screen, and i’m really... enjoying it? Posting my collaboration work on the group each evening to recieve feedback. We had two media weeks (bit like reading weeks) where I was in every day, and now lessons have started back again I’m getting annoyed cause I cant do as much work as usual because lectures are getting in the way! I’m really liking it!  It’s really nice to feel because the routine is making me feel better, sleep better, not so much eat better cause I’d rather cook for lunch than spend but ehh, but it’s just nice to feel like I’m now someone who can work in this kind of ‘working life’ routine, I will actually fit in and enjoy office work if it’s like my uni work life now (I’m not the only one spending days in our uni room doing work rather than staying at home - a core group of us are agreeing that separating home life and uni life is definitely beneficial to our work and keeping on track, and that being a good feeling rather than feeling like a chore). It’s nice to experience learning that, rather than having that idea forced on young people as it sometimes seems to be (ending up with people who isolate themselves and are unhappy and dont know why, because they’ve not learnt to have a working life balance) I dont know, everything’s really good right now, I actually feel like I want a career in this, I am enjoying my work, I’m doing well at uni, I have lovely friends, I cant get over how lovely and yet calm my life is. It’s like everything is happening in my life with this tinge of yellowy sunlight, bad things may happen but overall, my life is good and regular and I have aims and there are things that could be better, but that’s good because i can work to get them. 
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I had a bit of a panic about work this afternoon. Alexi emailed us that they were almost ready to open back up and needed a bunch of paperwork and I was like. Okay chill. Except it wasnt chill!! There were forms and they needed like. So much information. And paperwork from others?? And transcripts?? From my highschool?? Excuse me?? So I sent some panicked emails. 
But I think most of it will be fine? Mom sent me scans of my diplomas. I just had to pull out my masters degree. Which is ugly as sin and does not look like a diploma but what are you gonna do.  And I have a phone meeting with Alexi tomorrow to try to sort everything else out. 
But man it was stressful. I feel a little overwhelmed. I like being home, but it has been hard to be like chill, because I feel so much guilt. But also I know I needed the break. But also now I might be going back to work but I dont know when? So that makes me stressed. But it seems like thats just the way things are at this camp, we gotta just be ready and try our best? 
The rest of the day was alright. I slept better last night. But I still felt kind of bad and off when I woke up. I took a dayquil and that helped shake off the feelings. James was getting home from his ride as I was getting dressed. He made us breakfast and we hung out for a little while. But soon we were off. 
We went out to the county to go to a thrift store that wasnt savers. We went to a goodwill and a 2nd Ave. We had alright luck. We were specifically looking for shoes for him. And while we didnt find sneakers he did find some really nice restaurant shoes and some hiking type shoes. So he did good. I got a fleece that turned out to be super ugly on me and will now just be used for fabric. And I got a sports bra and some awesome snow pants. They arent like actually snow pants but they are like that wind breaker material on the outside and fuzzy on the inside. They are great and I like them a lot. 
But being out was a little weird. James did a little better not projecting uncomfortability, but I knew he wasnt happy with all the people. So I didnt have as nice or as calm of a time when he was near, and I had to tell him to stop following me and to go look for his own things when we were at the first store. Also the toy aisle there was a nightmare because a sound toy was going off but wouldnt turn off?? Very scary. 
The 2nd ave was a little more busy. And was farther in the county and had more people not wearing masks properly. Like this one guy had the skinniest mask that was just covering his nose?? Like what? And no one was really giving people space. Like I get having to go past someone but being 4 deep in a tight aisle isnt it. I may go back out there because they had so much stuff, but being there when it was busy wasnt super fun. 
I am a little sad because there was an LL bean jacket I would have liked to try on but James was ready and I was feeling weird. So I will just be a little sad. 
I signed up for their rewards program. And we headed out. We decided to get burger king for lunch and there was a long line. And James messed up and drove past the screen and then he didnt get something I wanted and I was just not happy with him. And he was upset because someone honked at him. But I think I was just tired and hungry and a little upset because of the emotions I was getting from James being uncomfortable out in the world. It was just a lot all at once. 
But we are mature and a good couple and we talked about it when we got home. We had lunch and put things away. I went through the camping stuff to try to pack it a little better, a little tighter. I also pushed it all into the living room. So now the studio feels a lot more open. Maybe next week Ill reorganize the space. Well see. 
James left for work and I decided to watch a documentary that was so sad. Its on youtube, its called My Brother Jordan and I highly recommend it. But prepare to cry. 
I went to get up after that and I fell?? And I cut my elbow on the zipper of one of the duffle bags!! And I was upset and mad at myself. I went and played animal crossing and moved things around. And then I got the email from Alexi and had my panic about the forms. 
But I spent about an hour filling them out best I could. But its a lot. I am hoping that its actually not as big a deal and it will all just be easy peasy but trying to get things from other people makes me so anxious. 
Once I was done with those though I felt a little better. I made ramen. And I have been hanging out with sweetP and texting with Jess for a while. I am going to go wash my face and try to start winding down for sleep. 
James has off tomorrow and we are going to get some stuff from his parents and then probably pack the car?? Im not sure about that. James told me we could check into our campsite on friday at 1 but I checked the website and its actually 3pm. So Im not sure exactly what the plan is. I kind of hope we still leave around noon and we can like. Enjoy some of the nature before we set up the camp site. But I dont exactly know the rules. So I guess well see what happens. 
I hope you all have a good night tonight. Be safe and take care of eachother.  
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lavenderglassgirl · 5 years
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1152 am thurs dec 19
Things are vastly better. Like. Wow.
First and foremost my weekend with Jesse was absolutely perfect and just what i needed. It was so validating and he is so so sweet and understanding and made sure to address all my major concerns without even asking. I always feel better after we talk, but I’m even starting to notice that our communication is improving when we do. Like, he pointed out that when i threw up i had a moment and let him know i was embarrassed and then we moved on. And he mentioned that a few months ago that would have been a whole thing that would have taken half an hour plus to get through. And i felt like i could be honest and tell him how i was feeling without it being a weight on him or incovient. It was just so wonderful to talk to be with him and not stress.
And more than that, I didn’t feel the overwhelming anxiety when i had to say goodbye, like i have honestly since we met. Now to explain a little its not like every time we part ways i get depressed or have an episode, but there were not many times Jesse would go that i would just feel it in a really negative way.
Saying goodbye is hard and i think, espeically after kind of reading attached and thinking about my triggers and all that, that there’s a part of me that worries it will be the last time i see someone. Its hard to explain but its that “not knowing when I’ll see you next” feeling that just makes me unsure and thus sets off my little anxiety sensors! But Jesse has been really wonderful about sticking to what we talked about with calls, and trying to communicate in between, and he really really really did so good with making sure we had as much time together on those two days. He even brought up scheduling next month without me saying a word! That super alleviates the anxiety, i know that it wont be easy to be apart but our time together is so much sweeter when its planned like this.
I even got to come see the boys for a little bit, it was so wonderful. I’m definitely pretty sad and anxious about not being able to spend as much time with them, but i know eventually ill be able to get my fill and I’m trying to just appreciate the time i am getting and the time Jesse is giving them too. He’s working really hard to make sure that at the end of all this they’ll be okay and that’s so so so important and I’m so glad.
I also feel like I’m getting better at handling Katie information- both in my reactions and responses. I think my responses to Jesse have been a lot better than they have in the past but its getting easier and easier to give appropriate ones. Like, i feel like I’m doing a lot better and regulating my own emotional reactions to information regarding her which is helping me be more supportive! Pretty sure its a combination of getting used to talking about it and normalizing the conversation as well as I am actively trying to focus on controlling my through trains especially in anger. Noticing it without giving it too much energy. I have this tendency to think into things, if that makes sense. Something will make me pissed (ex- Katie’s lovely Christmas present) and rather than continuing to think about how stupid and rude and awful it was I’m trying to acknowledge and move on- tell Jesse she’s an idiot and give it to the lawyer and then? Move the fuck on. THeres nothing i can do and i trust Jesse to do what he knows is best!
But yeah, Katie’s behavior is pretty triggering, its very similar to my parents except like... worse for sure. But it reminds me of like, the fear as a kid and the worst case scenarios i used to have to plan out in my head and i think its just really stressful because while I don’t know exactly what jesses feeling I remember how i felt in those situations and it was really really really bad and scary. I don’t want him to feel that way and my instinct is to fix and if i cant fix I’ve failed. I’m really trying to work on that one, because doing my best is always enough, and there are a lot of things in this world and espeically in this specific circunmstance that are completely out of my control and it does no one, espeically not me, any good to be stressed sick over things i cant do anything about.
Things are good, though, they feel good. Even this morning, i had a breakdown because my phone bill auto pulled out and I didn’t have a plug for my ballast and all but two bulbs were completely out of my long light. I wanted to cry hard. I cried medium and made a plan and kept myself from going over the edge and thinking the next two weeks would be like the last two. I made a grocery list and moved my lights so that i could keep the plants alive until i got paid again and i was ready to just make it work and let Jesse know and this man sent me 250! Because hes an angel! But i felt so bad i was sure i sounded like i was asking. He said I didn’t come across that way but i still feel like it, a little. I’m trying to not overthink though! I would have made it work but I’m so glad Jesse made it possible for me to just... make it happen. bless him
But yeah! This weekend was so good and i actually feel like i have a list of things to do and that i will continue to stay busy. This weekend I’m going to try to finish jesses gift because i would really like to get it to him on or before Christmas but I don’t know how much faith i have in myself 😅😅 I’m going to run some errands here this afternoon and then come home and work on it this evening! And this weekend its really my big to-do. I have a few other small things but that is my PROJECT so hopefully i can get it shipped out by Monday!!
And derby is going good, last night was even better than the last two times and MONDAY IM ON S K A T E S and I’m so fucking excited to get back out there. Things are good. I’m feeling better. Things are going in the upward direction!!
Here’s to keeping it that way
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