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the-eng1ne · 4 months

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good god i am so sick rn

#engineposting #i basically just have a sore throat & a bad cough #i got the sore throat on saturday and it just got worse from there #but man. i went into college on monday and my teacher heard my voice and was like george GO HOME #i sound like i smoke a pack a day rn #and bc my sinuses are majorly clogged its giving me sooo many headaches #so. im working on my project from home this week. which is kind of scary bc its due NEXT WEEK.....#imean im basically almost done #although ive made peace with the fact that im never getting assets from saph so it will forever look like shit #i also need to put in some like . bare minimum audio and then write abt it in my design doc ugh #bc saph was also supposed to do audio but. well. suffice to say thats not happening #im so anxious abt the prohect tho. i really really want to actually go in to college to do work bc id get more done than being in my room #(im easily tempted by a 30min nap)#but i sound like ive contracted the plague so idk if my teacher would let me come back #maybe ill use a mask and bring hand sanitizer and just tell people to not come into my lil laptop cubicle #but yea im anxious #bc i REALLY Want to get a distinction on this project and i thiiiink i might do #but the grading criteria is so vague i literally have no idea if i will or not #i mean ive put a hell of a lot of work into both the coding and research and design doc so im praying its enough #this course might be the first time ive worked So hard at something simply bc i wanted it and not bc i felt like i should

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cathalbravecog · 1 year

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veep dad comfort art

#veep dad :]#i have Not been well mentally tbh the second im with friends i DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE anyways ill be VENTING A TINY BIT HERE #i need excitement in my life but im like #has no social life #oopsies...!#so i thought yknow what would make me happy rn. My Veep Dad #yea thats it #also ive been struggling with motivations to play ttcc and draw so....#apologies for being in the game less. especially as im in the post game with almost everything done #im usually kinda really goal oriented in games and yeah having no tasks or close friends to play with #im just kinda THERE and getting that initial push to do stuff is very hard #my motivation has just been at an all time zero (again) and it upsets me bc i do wanna do stuff...not bc ohh productivity but bc #i just wanna HAVE FUNNNN #anyways erm.... thanks for listening to my little rant here again. i dont know where else to express this sort of stuff. feels wrong to dum #it on strangers who i know are there for my art but. whatever. yknow #just wish i was more motivated in general but my life is Just Kinda Sad and im an Antisocial Anxious Wreck Dear Cog #senior vice president #sr vp #veep dad #personal tag if i dont wanna main tag....#doodles #traditional art #guz art #toontown

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rockoblanco · 4 days

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7 days sober wtf !!!!!!!!!!! :D

#genuinely would’ve thought this would’ve been IMPOSSIBLE last week #but im sleeping better anxiety is soooo down confidence is higher #and im not unbelievably unintelligibly fatigued every second of every day which is genuinely INSANE & so nice 🙂‍↕️😭#my emotions are a lil weird like im not in peaks & valleys anymore like I don’t feel BIGLY anymore #but tbh id rather feel a little less than feel so anxious & depressed & just like a walking zombie 99% of the time #so it’s a good trade off lol #& still a learning process too who knows what will happen as my brain adapts!!!!#the more I’m sober im like ohhhh yea i am 50% addict on my mom’s side like should’ve done this a minute ago😭😭😭😭#sorry for the rant just excited !!!!#hope y’all are having a good week ❤️

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xiuminscheeks · 4 months

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so far all the previews were misleading...

#lovely runner #like i KNOW we are gonna get a happy ending but im still anxious #cause why was ep16 preview so happy...#yea i have trust issues

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pickled-flowers · 1 year

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Genuinely freaked out rn the sky has been yellow all day, the air smells like barbecue, my throat hurts, the sun is bright red, and my neighborhood is apparently the most affected 😐 help

#:((#I'm so anxious about it too like the yellow light and all it's very strange #wildfires #yea should mention that’s what im talking about #but anyways!! not very fun today

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#head instructor to the TAs in the lab section i TA for: how r u guys feeling abt the workload?#me who hasnt graded anything since week 1 and spent an hr that morning filling out a patient safety plan: 🙃#listen. we r experiencing symptoms that make us shitty at our job. which is not helpful for a positive outlook #i was also experiencing horrible cramps at the time bc i lost my ibuprofen and 2 days ago i stopped the birth control in a desperate effort #to stop feeling terrible. but in this moment i feel alright. its wild to go from drastically unhappy to like lol wtf was that? anyway stop #being a bby loser. for no obvious reason. im gonna start the birth control again to see if i get depressed again or if that was just me lol #i dont think my therapist understands the depth of my executive functioning issues tho. bc im a grad student and can meet deadlines. like #let me tell u im a fucking disaster abt starting things. i will go back and forth and get nothing done forever. or i do things halfway and #make everything 30 times more difficult later bc no one else understands how my brain works #ah well. itll b fine. sometimes i just get freaked out that i wanna b better and i dont kno how to do that. so i spiral in despair a lil #ill b fine. im good at catching myself before i get too out of control. annoyingly tho i am not currently beating the bip0lar allagations #bc whatever tf is wrong with me i do probably fit the diagnostic criteria for bip0lar 2. i dont kno y that freaks me out so much. i guess #its bc it feels like something i cant just make better thru force of will and i grew up in a home that was very obsessively #health conscious to the point my dad gets anxious abt taking a single ibuprofen. so like ive been conditioned to get freaked out by #medication. literally my grandma will call me and tell me to b suspicious of doctors and to not take medicine unless absolutely necessary.#like lady u r the genetic reason i have 0cd shut the fuck up. also it feels like something that would more negatively affect how ppl think #of u than saying oh yea i get depressed or i have anxiety. like the connotation feels worse im used to just telling ppl whatever tf #my problem is. so the idea of holding something back feels weird. which annoys me bc i dont think there should b so much of a stigma. its #bullshit. anyway idk. im tired. i was trying to think of a comfort tv show with my therapist and all i could think was the terror #when im depressed i wanna watch those English mother fuckers suffer and die. i just lov that show so much. harry g00dsir my beloved. the #most me coded character to ever exist #unrelated

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kachimera · 6 months

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Tbh this post and the tag comments keeps making me think because; it truly seems like some fellas don't know how to control their own knee jerk reactions to weird people

And its like- I can be an asshole. I get Asshole thoughts all the time. I see an stranger being a bit weird or awkward in a way i dont like and monke brain goes "lmao we should maul this guy". But what is what one must do? Not just follow the natural instinct, but instead pause and reflect "oh but is this fella doing anything harmful? Are they insulting me or messing with me? Am i strongly disagreeing with an opinion of theirs? Or are they just being themselves and having fun in a way i don't vibe with?" Dont just act based on feelings but instead reflect on them and then figure out a way to react accordingly.

If a person is just living their life then the best thing to do is not to antagonize them but rather just let them do whatever, or communicate directly what the issue is and see how both of you can find a way to solve it and coexist peacefully, all while venting the frustration through a diff outlet that won't harm the other.

And like i know its not that simple- a lot of this branch of thought comes from me having nasty social anxiety, and also the fact that i do can slip and be, well, an asshole. I am absolutely no saint. But the point is that your discomfort with another person isn't a permision into attacking them and there are better solutions than that

#me rambles #this one turned out very rambly woops. but yea that post wouldnt leave my head #idk im on that funny diet autismos spot #where i both know the horrors of butchered social interactions to the point of nasty anxiety whenever i mess up the social script #but also can navigate them pretty well most of the time. and also have grown that sort of-#'well put more effort into it and get over it' mentality that comes with being told im 'normal' just 'lazy an anxious'#and tbh that stubborn mentality has helped me to push through. but it can also make me unempathetic with others struggles. even with my own #bc its frustrating to me that you cant just solve shit w willpower even when logically you cant. but i cant move that frustration to-#the ppl struggling bc it'd solve nothing and i'd be harming them further. it would be awful #so the point is to not just act on feels bc they can be harmful. but instead think before acting. not neglecting those feels but rerouting-#them into harmless or helpful actions #anyways. this turned into self reflection so yea that's why the self centered language. still; apologies if it gets grating #delete later #i guess?

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eldritchqueerture · 1 year

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i hate change. i hate the inevitability of things ending. biting and killing it

#:(((#im sad #and anxious #niki.rambles #yea thats it thats the post

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rucow · 4 months

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u know its serious when i see him in everything 😭 now im forever going to associate water, the sea/ocean, red roses, and the whole galaxy with him aaaaaaahhh

#im dead serious when i say i want to get tattoos of waves on my arms that would hide my scars #and its Because of him #im not gonna do it bc im too anxious about the Social Interaction aspect of it & also i dont have Money for it #but yea 🥹 maybe one day ......#sea waves would look nice on me though aahhh

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aria0fgold · 5 months

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Looking at my prepared dialogues of my 5 ocs for that oc dialogue meme and I immediately notice... the lengths... Alec and Ray have longer dialogues, honestly this is-- this is not intentional it just also happens that I realized 3 of 5 of those ocs are actually SO QUIET with those two being the most talkative ones and this is how I realize that like... I honestly didn't notice at all...

#aria rants #alec is the most talkative one tho with ray being second and then... the last three being pretty quiet #mel and seph are equally quiet. its just that text wise. mel gets to be REALLY talkative then but... speaking? barely #its cuz of the fact that mel doesnt like how monotonous his voice sounds now. hes a Really expressive person but cuz of an #Incident he ended up with flat affect. he hates not being able to express his emotions as well as he wanted now #seph? well... depression. BUT he is getting better now but yea hes not all that expressive even with texting #marcie??? hes... got anxiety. very anxious dude with a stutter altho his stutter becomes less when with ppl hes comfy with #but yea unless hes with either his mom or seph he rarely talks too so like-- didnt realize 3 of 5 is just That quiet when outside #of their comfort zones cuz im too used to thinkin bout em in their comfortable states

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forget-me-not-automaton · 1 year

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I wonder why people never want to stay around me and talk, and then I remember that my love language is like Never Ever Getting Rid Of Me from Waitress 💀

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monsterbisexual · 1 year

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i swear its like another day another fucked up body thing x_x

#p #as opposed to me being paranoid n there maybe not being a thing #folks. unfortunately the thing is real :((#its happened n then gone away before but now im googling n yea its a thing that happens #so at least its not my body being insane n inventing unique (derogatory!!) problems this time #but like. man :/#if anyones reading this far im not dying or anything just got a gross thing goin on. v cool 👍#being dramatic now but like medical/physical stuff makes me so anxious n i wanna be noncorporeal (spelled wrong i think)#soo bad :(

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magnoliamyrrh · 8 months

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wild that ive gone from being a pothead to being sober all the time. i do think i smoked too much and i wouldn't want to again that much but i rly wish i could figure out why weed started making me anxious. i miss just taking one or two hits and putting on some music and vibing or doing some art or sitting in the sun or just. feeling more chill but no pe now it has just the opposite effect. no idea how to fix this bc i dont understand why this is

#and its like yea ok one theory is that even if i smoke when im well it brings out the anxiety thats there #but i used to smoke way more when i was waaayy more anxious and feeling so much worse and itd calm me down so???

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blirpus · 8 months

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remembering how i went to see a nurse about social anxiety so i could get referred to a psychiatrist and they seemed so annoyed wit- never mind i do believe that the social anxiety may have skewed the way i was experiening that situation at the time👍

#at least i think so hhaha ive no clue honestly they might have been annoyed with me or not i genuinely dont know!#nor does it matter now #did not end up going to a psychiatrist because i felt so ashamed and anxious just based on that visit with the nurse #im better with it now and dont immediately assume the worst in every interaction #but yea its been a bit shit!#overall

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kissmefriendly · 2 years

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Oh god oh god so with Koslowski’s phoenix story, the introduction of Patience and Arthur again pressing the point that it may be the last time he’ll ever get to tell this story… Is Arthur gonna choose the same as Martha did and not take any more Patience??

#because if so I’ll be crying for days #yeah the funny fake death podcast is actually about medically assisted death!#at least that’s my reading #getting to choose for yourself how and when you die being the ultimate choice?? something you can control!?#im shocked at how gently this story is being told holy FUCK #I’m sorry I’m so tired #the amelia project #I haven’t stopped thinking about this #hell get to die on HIS terms #is Arthur the phoenixe from the story???#metatextually I think so yea #FUCK!#im unfortunately experiencing an emotion #medically assisted death is something I’m a) extremely passionate about talking about b) never brought up in fiction??#and I know that may not be the point AT ALL and I’m projecting my own feelings and experiences like a mf #but please just let this mf weep for a bit #I’m so anxious #tap spoilers #the amelia project spoilers #spoilers

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henbased · 1 year

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allowing myself to be and being nice to myself when im being vulnerable has been such a game changer. like. yes i kinda mess up in social interactions and i react weird sometimes. sorry my heads not on right. oh i was acting weird before? yeah sorry bro i got anxiety. its so humiliating at first but its sooo freeing lmao and people are just rlly kind about it.

#📌#i always try to Suppress It but idk. is it rlly That Bad to be known as the anxious one if u r?#i dont get on my friends asses 4 being anxious im just like. oh yea theyre just shivering lil guys #me doomspiraling thinking everyone actively hates me #and trying to be open emotionally so bring it up #and everyone giving me a Weird Expression and going 'no dumbass we adore u'#like. oh fr?#much to think about here #Zak Learns Vulnerability

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