#sobbing my eyes out hyperventilating in the movie theater

[elusive---ivory]

Circus Act - 11

Y'ALL THIS TOOK SOOO LONG I APOLOGIZE!! Like I said this thing is crazy, I hope y'all enjoy.

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11

Sandy drove Arthur up to his apartment. Arthur got out of her vehicle.

"Arthur, wait." Sandy called, stepping out of her car.

Arthur paused, turning his head.

"Could I stay with you? Just for tonight. I don't mean to be an inconvenience, but I just don't want to be alone." Sandy said. She looked stressed.

"Of course." Arthur said.

Arthur wanted Sandy around more. He had notice her unusual behavior, especially after she had told him about her medication.

Sandy had trouble sleeping in Arthur's apartment. Arthur had invited her to sleep in the bedroom with him, but she was too nervous of what he'd think of her night terrors.

Arthur couldn't sleep, mainly because his mind was yelling at him for things that were out of his control.

He embarrassed himself with that clip. He felt stupid. Sandy couldn't possibly still like him now. Insecurity filled his mind. It was unbearable.

Arthur walked out of the bedroom, hearing soft sobs from the living room.

Sandy was crying in her sleep. Soon, her cries turned into wailing. Arthur ran to her side, gently waking her up.

"Sandy." He whispered.

She woke up, distressed, holding onto Arthur.

Arthur kissed her forehead softly, leading her into his bedroom. He held her close throughout the night. Keeping Sandy close to him ms

Sandy felt safe as she laid with Arthur. She was able to slept with him snoring beside her.

She'd never felt this safe before. She couldn't possibly sleep with Dennis in the bed. Dennis would try to make advances on her, or pretend to be cuddly just to whisper mean and horrendous things to her.

Sandy woke up in Arthur's arms, staring at his angelic face. He looked so peaceful. His eyes fluttered open. Arthur smiled at Sandy kissing her lips gently.

Arthur still couldn't believe Sandy was in his arms. Even after the humiliation from last night didn't turn her away.

"Ugh, I just remembered something." Sandy groaned, breaking the kiss. Arthur pouted.

Sandy giggled. "I have to go to Thomas Wayne's Campaign gala tonight."

This peaked Arthur's interest. "I thought you hated Thomas Wayne?"

Sandy took one of Arthur's cigarettes from the bedside table, and lit it. "I do. I have to go for my cousin, Destiny."

Sandy took a long drag from the cigarette. It had been a while since she had one. She didn't have the mental capacity to really go to the store to buy cigarettes.

"Do you have to go?" Arthur asked, looking up at her with his green puppy dog eyes.

Sandy giggled. "Yes, I do. Or else, Des will guilt trip me for not going." Sandy handed her cigarette to Arthur.

Arthur was still concerned, but it seemed reasonable to go. He took a long drag from the cigarette, tasting Sandy's lips on the butt.

Sandy walked into the kitchen, seeing newspaper clippings tapped around the kitchen. She turned on the coffee pot, feeling a slight jump from Arthur, who was hugging her from behind.

"Thank you for letting me stay." Sandy said, hugging him back.

Arthur hummed, still holding her close.

Arthur clinged onto this moment for a while. It was so foreign to him that he even had Sandy in his arms. Arthur thought a lot about what he did during the subway murder. Half of him did feel guilty about it, but he couldn't feel guilty for Dennis.

It disgusted him, knowing that Dennis almost had a baby with Sandy.

Arthur couldn't feel sorry for the bastard, yet he pretended to feel pity for him. Pitiful that his girlfriend was so much happier with Arthur, then she ever was with him.

Sandy was his now. No one else. He was obsessed with that fact. After Sandy had left Arthur's apartment, she accidentally left her coat. It was smaller than Arthur, but he held onto it for a while.

It was like she was still there, holding him.

"Oh, Sandy." Arthur whispered. He needed to give her coat back, but she was at the gala.

'Thomas Wayne.' He thought. This was his chance.

The town hall was massive. Sandy couldn't believe her eyes.

"Sandy!" Des said, sipping on champagne. Her dress was long and flashy, along with that her perfume just smelled of money.

Des gave Sandy a light hug before eyeing her outfit.

"Your prom dress, huh? I wouldn't expect you to wear anything different." Des sneered.

Sandy rolled her eyes. She didn't come here to be insulted right off the back. "Where's Dee? You told me she'd be here."

"She's over there at the buffet table." Des scoffed, disappearing into the crowd.

Sandy struggled getting through the crowd. Her heart started racing as she pushed through all the rich people in the room.

Finally, Sandy met up Dee at the table.

"Talk about flashy, huh." Dee commented.

Sandy nodded. She hated crowds, especially crowds of hundreds of rich people who couldn't give two fucks about anyone, but themselves.

Des began to start the event by getting up on stage, and tapping on the microphone.

"I'd like to thank my cousin, Sandy, for coming. It's been so rough for her since her boyfriend, Dennis, died, but the good news is he doesn't have to look at her anymore." Des laughed, meanly.

Everyone laughed as well, except Dee.

Sandy should've expected this, but she went anyway. Her nerves were bouncing all over the place. How could a large hall feel so goddamn small?

"I think that we all agree that we're all going through a difficult time, but we're all here for Mr. Thomas Wayne, and we're here to support him as he starts his campaign for mayor. So everyone give it up for Thomas Wayne." Des got off the stage after she introduced Thomas Wayne.

Sandy could care less what Wayne was saying. It all was the same.

Throughout his speech, he'd mention the subway killings, giving Sandy the final straw.

She felt captive, suddenly. She felt like she couldn't breathe. Sandy pushed through the crowd, trying to escape the hall.

Sandy found herself in the nearest bathroom, hyperventilating as she was having an anxiety attack. Her makeup was ruined from the tears that feel down her face.

After a while of panicking and crying, Sandy finally composed herself. She had to retouch her makeup, so that Des didn't make fun of her more.

Sandy walked out of the bathroom, still feeling miserable. In corner of her eye, she saw a bell hopper that looked that Arthur, walk into the theater by himself.

Arthur snuck into the gala, wearing a clever bellhop disguise. He saw Sandy walking out of the bathroom. God, did she look like an angel. He needed to focus. He had to confront Thomas Wayne.

He walked into the theater. Playing on the screen was an old Charlie Chaplin movie that everyone really seemed to be enjoying.

Arthur laughed, not the painful laughter, but a genuine laugh. He laughed at Charlie's antics on screen.

This was a rare moment for Arthur. He was happy, and joyous.

He had noticed Thomas Wayne from across the aisle of the theater.

Arthur followed him to the bathroom. While he was in the bathroom, he undid his disguise.

It was just Arthur and Thomas in the bathroom.

"Can I help you, pal?" Thomas asked, while standing at a urinal.

Arthur paused for a second, nervousness overcome him.

"I don't know what to say." Arthur said, in disbelief.

Thomas flushed the urinal, and walked over to the line of sinks across from the urinals.

"Do you want an autograph or something?" Thomas seemed annoyed, and kind of dismissive of Arthur.

Arthur took a gulp, and gently said "no."

He walked up to Thomas, as nervous as he was. Arthur needed to know the truth.

"My name is Arthur," he said, "Penny Fleck is my mother."

Thomas stopped washing his hands. His expression changed from annoyed to a more concerned look.

"Jesus." Thomas said. "You're the guy that came to my house yesterday."

Then, his look turned annoyed again.

"I'm sorry I just showed up, but my mother told me everything. I had to talk to you." Arthur's voice cracked.

"Look, pal, I'm not your father." Thomas interrupted.

Then, Arthur stood there confused.

Thomas chuckled. "What's wrong with you?"

Arthur was still confused, and a little hurt that Thomas was denying the fact that he was his father.

"Look at us." Arthur whispered. "I think you are."

"Well, that's impossible because you're adopted, and I never slept with your mother." Thomas blatantly said.

Arthur was taken aback. He stuttered, nervously. "No, I wasn't adopted."

"Your mother adopted you while she was working for us." Wayne explained, but Arthur already heard enough.

"Why are you saying this?" This was news to Arthur.

Thomas was saying all these things that didn't even make sense to him. It was madness.

"I don't need you to tell me lies. I know it seems strange. I don't mean to make you uncomfortable I don't know why everyone is so rude. I don't know why you are. I don't want anything from you, maybe a little bit of warmth. Maybe just a hug, Dad." Arthur yelled, almost about to cry.

"She's crazy." Thomas said.

Arthur started laughing. His painful laugh.

"You think this is funny?" Thomas proceeded to punch Arthur in his face.

"Touch my son again. I'll fucking kill you." Those were Thomas Wayne's last words before he walked out of the bathroom.

Arthur's laugh turned into hiccups as he looked at himself in the mirror. He had a bloody nose

Sandy walked back into the hall. Des was already drunk out of her mind.

"Hey, I'm sorry about the introduction. It was dumb and I'm sorry." Des yelled, even though she didn't have to yell.

"Yeah, it's fine." Sandy muttered.

"But, yeah it's true though." Des slurred. "That's why he always came to me."

"What?" Sandy was confused.

"Yeah, Dennis started fucking me after you went to hospital because he didn't want your crazy." Des confessed. "I'm telling you now that he's dead, because I didn't want to hurt your feelings."

Sandy couldn't believe her ears. "Are you fucking serious? He fucked you while I was locked up on suicide watch."

"Yeah, but you understand right?" Des said.

"Oh, I understand." Sandy grabbed a wine bottle, breaking it on her head.

Sandy walked out of the hall, while Des was screaming with blood streaming down her head.

"What did you do, Sandy?" Dee demanded as she confronted her.

"I did what I had to do, Dee." Sandy mumbled, with a cigarette in her mouth.

"You didn't have to do that. Look, I understand that Des is a dick. She stirs up old drama all the time. Why is this any different?" Dee asked.

"It's different, because she slept with Dennis. I already knew Dennis never fucking loved me. He destroyed me, Dee. He destroyed me without a purpose." Sandy screamed at the top of her lungs.

"So what, Sandy? You need to fucking grow up. I have to take Des to the hospital." Dee ran into an ambulance, not before Des flipped Sandy off.

Sandy sighed as she lit the cigarette.

She looked over and saw Arthur sitting on the curb.

"Hey." Sandy said, walking up to him. "Let's get you home."

Taglist: @princessgeekface, @gloomyladyy, @joker-flecked-me, @jokerflecker, @memory-mortis, @mr--clown

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Avengers Infinity War: Warning Contains Spoilers

I did a previous review that has no spoilers, so go read that if you want no spoilers but here are my rantings that are full of spoilers! Like chock full. filled to the brim. Don’t continue under the cut if you haven’t seen Avengers Infinity War

About half way through the movie I truly thought it couldn’t get any worse. Like I knew it was going to be sad at the end like of course it’s gotta top everything else, but it was horrible. So horrible. The Russo brothers did not have to go that hard. I don’t think I’ve cried like that ever in my 20 years as a person. It was like my heart was ripped out piece by piece over a span of five minutes. This movie evoked such a powerful emotion out of me I sat in pained shock for 20 minutes as the credits rolled. And then the ending scene was fucking worse! So @ the russo brothers: I will fight you in the open street if you don’t,,,,,,do something i dont know fix it please. please god I’m begging please fucking fix it that was horrible how could you do this to me I gave you ten years of my life and you DID THAT. Anyway, I’m emotionally fragile but here are my thoughts:

When I first saw Heimdall on the floor all I could think was oh no cause I totally forgot about him for a while and then I remember that he’s in danger right as he dies and that was just a horrible way to start the movie I was in tears from minute one

And then they follow it with Loki dying???? why???? It didn’t hit me as hard cause I’m almost certain he isn’t dead forever but it was still horrible to watch

and Thor watching his brother die again was unnecessarily painful thank you

I felt like they could have handled Bruce’s reintroduction to the team better? Like he straight up doesn’t know some of these people and he’s kinda falling back into the team like he’s always been there. Where’s my awkward introduction of Sam and Bruce it’s what I want

Where’s Valkyrie???? IS SHE OKAY????

Wanda and Vision are so nice together! Like I low key don’t like they’re relationship cause she’s still a teenager but they really do care for each other which is so sweet

I kinda wish directors would stop portraying Vision as so weak though. He can wield an Infinity Stone and still manages to get taken down by just about everyone 

So many wizards. 

“That’s the wizard, Peter.” 

I loved Bruce and Steve’s reunion. soft bro hugs

The little one liners everyone kind of snuck in were so fun and cute. Distracted me briefly from the pain which was nice

I liked Rocket’s brief relationships with everyone? He’s a really under appreciated character and I loved how they got him to bond with Thor and Bucky

Teen Groot! My Angsty Teen Baby! Rest in Peace. 

Gamora’s relationship with Thanos was so unexpected and so sad??? Like Thanos had always been betrayed as this asshole behemoth and then we see that he actually cares about and loves Gamora? Like he was never a good father and he’s an asshole but he really loved her

Which made when he killed her so much worse. It made me angry, like he loves her and in some way Gamora loves him (seen when she was sobbing when she thought she killed him) and to know your dad is going to kill you and he won’t put your life above his selfish goals was heartbreaking and pissed me off so much 

Also I loved to see that Nebula and Gamora’s relationship evolved

Peter Dinklage was such a fun surprise! I didn’t know he was going to be in the movie and when I saw him I out loud said “Oh my god, Tyrion?!” 

the guy next to me thought that was funny

But anyway let’s get to my true feelings on this cause FUCK THE RUSSO BROTHERS

ALL THOSE FUCKING DEATHS

UNNECESSARY 

ABSOLUTELY UNNECESSARY

UNWANTED

DISREPECTFUL

HURTFUL

I WAS SOBBING SO HARD

Like hyperventilating I was so upset

I was lulled into a false comfort cause I honestly thought the power of all the infinity stones would kill Thanos and it would all be over but then he disappears and I’m like??? what’s gonna happen and then you hear Bucky’s soft “Steve” and he disintegrates and I just broke

I was absolutely gutted like you know all these people are about to start dying at random and no one can do anything about it and I kept expecting maybe something to stop it or sometime to stop this pain but NO Wanda fades away in pain after watching her boyfriend die not once BUT TWICE 

Rhodey is looking for Sam and Sam dies alone and Rhodey doesn’t even know what’s happening yet

Rocket looking into his best friend’s eyes as he dies yet again except this time Groot is still a fucking child

T’Challa thinking he has to save Okoye and Okoye having to watch her king and friend disappear. That scene hurt the most because the angle made you think Okoye was going to die (and she’s already my favorite character) and then it changes and T’Challa is GONE and god I thought my heart was being ripped out

And then the scene change to Planet Titan and I was like fuuuuck no there’s MORE and then Mantis is gone and Drax and Peter  is like oh fuck and Doctor Strange and they’re all gone but then,,,, Peter Parker

He knew he was going to die, his spider senses let him know and he was so fucking scared and Tony can’t do anything to help him and Peter is clinging to him and “I don’t want to go Mr. Stark I don’t want to go” and his voice is breaking and he’s crying and jesus that was horrible 

Tony was just talking about kids and now basically his son is dying in his arms and he just has to watch and comfort him as he dies

like that was so painful to watch I felt like I couldn’t breathe

Thankfully we know those deaths aren’t permanent and that’s probably why the director chose those characters, but we know at least one of them is dead forever and I’m so sad to think it might be Gamora

That ending scene was so unhelpful though??? Like I was just so done and sad and then Maria Hill is dying and I’m like really?? fuckin for real? and then Fury fades away as he contacts?? Who? Captain Marvel? What’s going to happen?!?!?! How are we gonna fix this?!?! Also, whats going to be the plot of Ant Man and Wasp now??? I’m so confused this is so new for me 

This group of teenagers was staring at me like I was crazy when I walked out of the theater cause I was still steadily crying and I looked them dead in the eye and told them “Get Ready” 

I’m sad and in a deep dark depression and if I don’t stop seeing sad Hamilton lyrics over gif sets of characters dying I’m gonna cry myself to death can y’all please spare me!

Come rant with me about this I’m sad