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Five Songs I’ve been listening to a lot recently…!!

Tagged by @demonguts <3

Tagging @boyfriendtv @softboypassing @kontrapoetik @replicated @belalegoshi @spaceinvaders1 and anyone else who feels so inclined …

[vedurnan]

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Tag (5) people you'd like to know better! I'm tagging @ivalician @offspring @scootil @softboypassing @psygull

Last song: At Giza by OM. i listened to it while stocking yogurt inside the cooler at work and it was great. i felt like i was in communion with all people who have lost themselves in the motions of a thoughtless and repetitive task. my coworker was on the other side facing the stuff as i was stocking it and she waved to me through the yogurt, which made me remember how we planned to hang out and watch conan the destroyer later in the week, and i thought about how we would order chinese food to eat while we watch the movie, how i was looking forward to that, and how cool it was of her to ask to come over and watch it. the whole experience made me very glad for my life which is a feeling that OM provokes in me a lot!

Currently reading: THE BOOK OF THE NEW SUN, endlessly... i am now early in Citadel of the Autarch. where will fate bring Severian next? i think much has yet to be fulfilled. it just keeps getting better and better. the book of the new sun is something that to me is so good it's almost impossible to talk about.

i pass in and out of reading a few other things also. two big ones for me have been the Penguin Classics selected writings of Meister Eckhart and The Heart of the Buddha's Teaching by Thich Nhat Hanh. i enjoy both but both leave me wanting something. i also have a kindle sample downloaded for Paul Takes the Form of a Mortal Girl, which a few friends were talking about reading together as part of a book club... although i have not looked at the sample yet!

Currently watching: last night i really wanted to watch Children of Men but i didn't want to pay the 4 dollars to rent it on any kind of service so i just watched clips on youtube from the movie until i felt like i remembered enough of the rest of it that it was "refreshed" in my mind and i didn't need to watch it again. remembering this makes me feel some regret. i should have just rented and watched the movie.

today i was thinking that i should watch some of the star trek shows from the 80s and 90s again. i loved them as a kid and there's this toy store near work that has tons of the old action figures of all the characters. one of my coworkers is super into star trek and he showed me his collection of like every deep space 9 figure. i have such a fond, warm place for those shows in my memory!

Current obsession: wintertime! i keep thinking about autumn and winter and how eager i am for them to come. i want to walk around in the frigid and misty winter night and go downtown and really feel like i am in the absolute center of some kind of cold, austere, hierarchical structure. then i go back to my apartment and the warm light and comfortable things. today my friend asked me if i was doing anything for christmas this year. like five months in advance! how cute! when i was a child for some reason i had a playmobil playset of the three wise kings from the nativity story. just the kings and their camel and their supplies, no other nativity stuff included. i had no awareness of any bible stories as a child except the nativity scene and i only knew about it because my dad explained who the three toy kings were. because of that i always associated christmas with a feeling of extreme ancient mystery as a kid

[passengerpigeons]

Tagged by @softboypassing 5 songs I've been listening to lately

I'll tag @mossytrail @biomaterial @weggebobble @verycute

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reading em’s fic

And then he could not lurk in the greenery anymore, because his Kaiser was calling him forth, and he could not refuse his name said by that voice.

His Majesty Kaiser Reinhard von Lohengramm, King of Hauptplanet Odin, Reichsfürst of Phezzanland and Neue Land, Pontifex Maximus Midlandis, the Emperor of Humankind, sat relaxed in a gilded chair somewhere between a throne and a hospital bed.

UR LEAKING BITCH UR DESPICABLEKDKFKDKDKXKSKXKD OYMYGOD. hilda being considered ‘a threat’ NOT EVEN A PERSON. A THREAT IN A LILAC SUIT

His voice retained its imperious music, so gentle and commanding at once without any discordance between those two qualities. The velvet glove and the iron fist together. Reuenthal saw out of the corner of his eye a pale hand gesturing him to the couch behind. Sometimes, in private, the Kaiser offered that hand for him to kiss with a feline smile… no such luck with Mariendorf perched there watching.

reminds me so much of the ep66 line when hes like UR DOMINEERING LIGHT IS UR CHARM NEVER LOSE IT

HEALTHY LUST FOR BLOOD AGAIN. ISERLOHN UNMOLESTED. EM UR SICK UR A GENIUS

”Everything has changed. I was prepared to meet Yang Wenli,” said Reinhard, almost petulantly. “He proved himself a worthy opponent, battle-tested and blood-baptized as I have been. I know we would have understood each other; the same cannot be said for any of his successors.”

SO SO SO SO SICK. The mental imagery of hilde whispering in His ear like oberstein… the parallel of hilde & oberstein as ‘emasculated’ figures in the empire bc they dont ‘fight directly’ but theyre both pivotal to reinhard in such a way reinhard recognizes & the rest of his fanboys dont..reuenthal being ENVIOUS of hilde’s promotions!!!!

HAPPILY GOING HOME TO KISS HIS WIFE WHILE REUENTHAL FESTERED… UNLOVED AND UNTRUSTED

He can be so naive sometimes, Reuenthal thought, but he held his tongue. Of course we will fight over you.

HES SOO PERVERTED AND WEIRD I LIVE.

“He and I were the same,” Reinhard said eventually, calmer but still heated. “I admired him greatly. If he had submitted to me…”

pervert #2 reuenthal is 100% going to take it there will he!! stop it reinhard a little boy (24 year old man)

He had always taken comfort in the idea that his friendship and loyalty was, if not a true replacement for that lost love, at least had the potential to become such. He was so, so much like the Kaiser. But by the way Reinhard said it, he was not even in the running. So preoccupied and distressed was he by this thought that he almost missed his Kaiser’s golden head lolling back from the glass, like a cut blossom, his knees buckling.

NOW WE’RE JEALOUS OF DEAD MEN????? GIRL… GET IT TOGETHER OSKAR. TAKE OFF THAT ROBE AND DO WHAT⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

“Why should I bother with a wife, when I have you to wait on me?”

The image made him light-headed to contemplate.

this is his yaoi amphetamine.. just an isolde looking for her tristan. too bad that treacherous harlot blueballed him !!!!😂😂

REINHARD: dying

REUENTHAL: without me? :( (SOON. SOON U WILL PERISH!!!)

soooooo so freaky i love this oh my god… u will never be Her (kircheis)

[bisexualamy]

@softboypassing replied to your post:

there's a recap ive read that makes a very strong case that she shouldve died in that episode towards the end of the same season where she's on a mission with worf and gets wounded

i think that’s also a good place plot-wise to kill her, if the point is for her to die, but i don’t think it hits the same thematic point to have her die in that episode. because, imo, part of the point is it shakes sisko’s faith in the path the prophets want him to take. and jadzia dying on that trip wouldn’t do that, because it gets rid of the whole bit where prophets directly warned him not to leave the station and he did it anyway.

also, i am kind of enamored with the idea of jadzia dying defending the orb. in part because, out of our main cast, she’s one of the most vocal skeptics of the prophets as anything more than wormhole aliens. she has a lot of great scenes with both sisko and kira pushing back on the idea that they’re gods. and so the idea of her defending the orb against the pah-wraiths, not because she feels compelled to by religious rite, but just because it’s the right thing to do and this matters to people she loves feels very jadzia to me and i think it would’ve been a really in-character death.

[lefthandofscaevola]

Can’t stop thinking about @softboypassing​’s furry asoif post so I am adding my take... had I more courage this would include squid Asha as well, but alas.

[dionysus-complex]

@cithaerons tagged me to do this (thanks so much for the tag!!). first is 4 albums that made me the person I am and second is 4 albums I’m currently obsessed with.

First four: I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love - My Chemical Romance / In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth: 3 - Coheed and Cambria / Searching For A Former Clarity - Against Me! / The Holy Bible - Manic Street Preachers

Second four: Pressure Machine - The Killers / Infinite Granite - Deafheaven / Dark In Here - The Mountain Goats / Sinner Get Ready - Lingua Ignota

Tagging @home-made-dynamite @queenofnots @tisiphoness @adreamingofguns @queen-o-cryptidz @radiosaturday @sylveondreams @the-venereal-bede @softboypassing @shyredpanda @dirt-goth and anyone who feels like doing it!

[deermouth]

@softboypassing

Illustrations by Zdenek Burian

[librarycards]

was tagged for 17 questions, 17 people by the wonderful @despite 💕

zodiac: sagittarius sun, capricorn moon, cancer rising. make your judgements

height: 5′4 :( but I’ve been told I have taller energy

last thing i googled: “turn off sound messages facebook” lmao

song stuck in my head: “promises” by the cranberries...a classic

number of followers: 1,119!

amount of sleep: literally anywhere from 5-10 hours it varies so much

lucky number: 4 / 16 / 64 I like perfect squares

favorite song:  literally how do people pick one single favorite song.... i guess i’ll go with “cold war” by janelle monae but “body” by julia jacklin and “magpie to the morning” by neko case are also pretty perfect. also joan baez’s cover of “eleanor rigby” makes me weep it’s so beautiful

favorite instrument: mandolin & violin

dream job:  novelist/academic-theorist-professor !!

aesthetic: I’m so chaotic but like I’m a honeygoblinprep fagdyke who wears a lot of pins and patches and fun socks

favorite author: favorite classic authors are virginia woolf and toni morrison (z”l) and my favorite contemporary authors are helen oyeyemi, ali smith, colson whitehead, jeff vandermeer, jesmyn ward….eek I start and then I go on forever. also my favorite poet is kim hyesoon!

favorite animal noises: sheep baaas ofc!!!! I also love weird little alpaca bleats

random:  there are these tamarind candies I got recently from the local asian grocery and I fucking LOVE them….highly recommend

here are my 17 people, if they want to do it!: @llleighsmith @tefillah @pf2e@neopetsuser @gardenbi @virgo-dicks @broadlyaudrey @transannecarson @butchfatty @closet-keys @feaery @feypact @dykemettaton @punkkwix @metapianycist @capricorn-propaganda @softboypassing and anyone else who wants to!!!! 

[alienlifeform]

i was tagged by @divafit @broadlyaudrey and @linuxuser because i am wildly popular and a beloved fixture of this webbed site

rules: tag 10 people you want to know better

relationship status: @linuxuser so idk why they tagged me in this

three favourite foods: scotch egg, shrimp fettucine alfredo, quesadillas (made by me)

song stuck in my head: every glass animals song playing at once

last song i listened to: pools by . You Guesswd it. Its glass animald

last thing i googled: ...........“wyrd lyrics”

time: 9:41AM

dream trip: germany i wanna see my boyfriend

anything i want: my boyfriend and some water

im tagging @coloriages @transcube @cyprinodont @bireaucracy @skinfeeler @softboypassing @lucky-strabismus @shrimpylobster @regenderate @catrin-the-mediocre

[discworldwitches]

was tagged for 17 questions by @librarycards

zodiac: sagittarius sun, libra moon, leo rising

height: 5′11

last thing i googled: “hen mazzig” + “racism”

song stuck in my head: these days by nico

number of followers: 44 :( i lost most of my mutuals and followers bc i remade impulsively

amount of sleep: these days 6-8 hrs

lucky number: 3 / 5 / 7 / 9 i love odd numbers accept for 1 bc its sucks. 3 is the Perfect number

favorite song: rn it’s the partisan by leonard cohen but all time fave is i will by mitski

favorite instrument: guitar + drums bc im a basic punk bonch

dream job: i’m too scared to have one bc of my progressive chronic illness. my current mood is “succumbing to retail”

aesthetic: artsy tznius folk punk bitch

favorite author: ursula le guin + banana yoshimoto bring me back to myself (fave poets are danez smith, franny choi, and louise gluck)

favorite animal noises: those hybrid cat meow-purrs... angelic

random: i started learning russian two years ago + i stopped drinking summer 2020!!!

i tag @soft-ghoast @uglyspiralhead @virgofrogs @virgodicks @softboypassing @radio-charlie @zoja (im not tagging 17 ppl bc that is overwhelming but thank u and no pressure to anyone else to do this!!)

[corvidaedream]

some recent sketchbook pages, including drawings while watching logh because @softboypassing ‘s posts have convinced me

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@softboypassing

Lego dinosaur. You agree

[dying-suffering-french-stalkers]

(via @softboypassing)

i do think that worf is just living in the wrong genre and thats why hes like that. if you dropped him in like, downton abbey or game of thrones he would be totally fine and thriving that's his natural habitat

[lmages-remade]

@softboypassing here

how rancid are you quiz for people with lives outside the internet

[librarycards]

ok everyone i made one.....whom would like to subscribe just before i send my first email :0 it's free and the benefit is being exposed to my immaculate media taste

(@ ing people who expressed interest earlier - @namelesstunnelgrub @knicknack @mothvhs @yjams @chronic-punk @solaceinlies @llleighsmith @softboypassing @punkkwix @mechanicalsatanical @feypact @geshertzarmeod @lupinesays @lunaremo @jethrotulls)

i need to start a book subscription box where every month you pay for me to make you read books i personally think are good