#some people dont want characters to be ACTUALLY flawed they just want perfect little angels who are occasionally sassy/sad

[hishighnesstheprincess]

Istg people will see that one Archie panel of Sonic saying he's more important to Tails than Tails own parents and disregard the entirety of Archie because of it

[nr1roagfan]

listen people i gotta talk to you about ralsei deltarune because this is criminal

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but first a little bit about the other members cuz we cant go without comparing the experiences. i want you to try and imagine an art youve seen if i mention some of the themes. to try and think how often it is.

yknow the portrayal of kris in fanworks. theyre bright. even tho you need to look into the flavor text a lot to get who they actually are behind the vessel situation, kris in fanart and fanfiction is colourful. theyre silly, theyre serious, theyre menacing, theyre Gender, theyre complex, theyre kind and flawed and beautiful fuckin stunnin in a way.

portrayal of susie. shes kind af, threatening in a hot way, cool, gender too, genuine, spooky, rude, funny, tired sometimes 3am ebonytails art my beloved, very emotionally intelligent and a good friend

i can talk about three dimensional portrayal of noelle and berdly in the fandom a lot too, but i dont wanna make this long. my main point is ralsei.

my boy, my beautiful boy. fuck people who dont like ralsei repost this if you like ralsei. do it for him meme n stuff. hes kind and cute and adorable, misterious and endearing, kind and genuine?, a good friend as well.

but dont you feel like this portrayal is different. we can all agree his second side is the mystery of roaring with player messing around it too, the legend, angels heaven and anything hes keeping from us. the mystery guy huh. ok, cool, but what else? we got some apeshit ralsei, we truly do. tho its either him being absolutely terrified of his doing, or unconscious, emotionless villain guy who laughs covering his smile with his hands gayly like a final boss in a game. but is there more? lets find his goofy side. there should be. some scenes from the game shoo, were talking fandom fantasies here. uhh ok hes. wait isnt ralsei the serious one, watching others do something weird, and being goofy only in a way when hes the one saying "what the fuck is going on here".

like. is this enough for you people? a cutie pie with a mystery for a flavour? we may argue that his character never had a spotlight which would show his other qualities but once more, were not talking canon here, we talkin communitys perception. we need ralsei to be flawed. hes too flat. why is he so perfect. we need to think more "if"s. mean ralsei. traumatized ralsei. strong af ralsei. edgy teen ralsei. that quiet ridiculously powerful character. the one doing goofyass stuff or committing arson for shits and giggles. maybe hes a little shit. maybe hes the normalest guy ever or the autism beast. a wet little meow meow. a megalomaniac. a fucking homestuck police member. a scared guy who helps you cover accidental murder of someone from your family. a guy who steps on your shoe, says it was an accident and continues. that thing which goes sfghfggFHFHDGSREFFJGKDFFR, shaking a pack of krisps with its eyes glowing red.

for having such a blorbo we dont have enough imagination and i think that is criminal. expand your mind, sunny

thatd be it lol. i just wanted to bring up the fact ralsei def deserves more variety in the ways we perceive him than he has now. this was written in like 2am so its all scribbly lmao i cant write shit

cherish ralsei fuck yourself if you dont like ralsei

goodbye

[shadowthestoryteller]

A Crosshair Analysis Because I Can

So

My thoughts have been on Twiggs recently (I mean when are the ever NOT on Crosshair) but that’s besides the point. 

What have I been thinking about? 

Why does Crosshair dislike Rex? Or, more broadly, why is Crosshair meaner than a snake at times?

I think the main reason he is so hostile with Rex is this: Rex pulled rank.

Here me out. 

If you watch that scene closely, the scene where Cody is down and Hunter is sniffing dirt, Crosshair is an abrasive little noodle but isn’t really outright hostile. He did taunt Jesse in the gunship, but another headcanon that I have is Crosshair purposefully pokes people with a stick to test their mettle (more on that later). Back to the Rex thing, Crosshair actually does not outright challenge Rex until Rex says “I’m in charge now”.

We know the Bad Batch only follows the orders of one person, and that’s Cody. The Bad Batch have never served under Rex, and now this random officer who doesn’t know them is trying to tell them what to do. Watch the scene closely and the moment Rex says “I’m in charge now” Crosshair’s eyes actually widen and his head rocks back a bit. He’s shocked at this, and spite quickly follows. THAT’S when he attacks Rex directly. And, much as I love Rex, looking through Crosshair’s eyes he’s got a point. If Rex is so capable, why were the Bad Batch called in? 

Now we all know what an absolute BAMF Rex is and how he’s not exactly shy about crazy plans (MF just up and ‘Then we’ll destroy the outpost instead!’ like bro wtf). But the Bad Batch does not know what he’s capable of. 

They are commandos, so basically space marines. From what I know about Marines, they are extremely dismissive of commanding figures immediately trying to take charage that they are not familiar with. Rank also doesn’t usually = respect for them either. They need to see what the officer is capable of first. In the case of Anakin, Cross seems to be chill with him (as a rifle owner, I know you dont let just anyone hold your rifle, that’s your baby) so my guess is either Cross knew of Anakin or Anakin didn’t pull rank the moment he met them. 

Crosshair needs proof the person he’s following is a capable fighter and wont endanger the squad. 

He wants to see if they’re weak willed or will stand up to him. And also that’s just who Crosshair is as a person, he enjoys getting people riled up because he knows Wrecker will defend him. But he does like to test people because you see a person’s true colors when they’re angry. Crosshair wants to figure if they’d be level headed in battle or if they’d jeopardize him and the team. 

This would translate into non-combat situations of course, but that’s a conversation for another time. 

I also theorize that Crosshair puts up his cold front kinda like an owl puffs up to make themselves bigger. Crosshair is not physically intimidating. He’s just not. So, he digs at someone first to let them know he’s not a pushover or weak. Only problem is he doesn’t know when to stop. 

Now, I am NOT trying to say “Oh Crosshair’s just misunderstood and is actually pure and a sweetheart!” No, he can be an outright asshole at times. His comments to Rex about Echo on Skakko Minor are completely and utterly uncalled for an the thud when Cross got knocked on his ass was immensely satisfying.  He’s also not some angel with an acidic tongue. 

He’s a complex character who’s got flaws and isn’t perfect, but a fun thing to remember in psychology is this: “The problem is never the problem”. Cross doesn’t get a free pass for his jackassery, I just like to think he’s got a deeper (even if subconscious) reason for his actions. 

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[mazojo]

Let’s Play

Sooo if you saw some of my previous posts, you know I've kinda gotten into webtoons and I binge-read another one called Let’s Play and I Looveeee. I will do a spoiler-ish review as of the chapters that have come out so far and and all the images and stuff included are from Mongie, the author of this baby.

Plot

So the plot basically revolves around Sam, who works for her fathers company coding and working on programming but her true passion is creating video games, more specially indie games. She creates this game called Ruminate and its all fine and dandy until super famous youtube Marshall Law plays it and jokingly says it kinda sucks so people and trolls go leave hate on her account so her developer score in this indie publishing website is almost 0.

Sam is disappointed nay this turn of events and tries contacting the company to help her score as its flawed but unfortunately nothing happens. Then we find out super Marshall Law is moving next door to Sam and she flops. He then later realizes how he messed up and as they start becoming friends (slowly but surely!) he is fixed on making it up to her becouse he is a cinnamon roll. There are also other characters involved, from Sam’s gaming crew which is hilarious, to her super hot and sexual tension boss, Charles who is trying to help her grow as a person and as a worker and we also have Lincoln which kinda has a crush in Sam and they’ve been friends for quite a while as Sam helped him overcome his dads death. 

The story is funny and filled with great moments, treating also mental health topics and the struggles of Sam discovering she may or may not have feelings for the hotties mentioned above ^^.

Characters

As I did with my Kiznaivers and I Love Yoo reviews, ill list the characters from my favourite to my least (I love them all so it sounds so bad to say the least!) including a song that reminds me of them. I won't list them all as their are many as you can see in the picture above but definitely the main ones <33

Sam

Angels - Owl City

Sam. is. such. a. mood. Like honestly, if you ever wish to know me and who I am as a person and how I work, read this and I am the literal reincarnation of Sam loll. She is very nerdy and suffers from anxiety, sometimes leading her to have asthma attacks. She really cares about those close to her and although she is quite shy and introverted, doesn't doubt the chance to jump in when someone she cares about is in danger. I have no words to describe her but I think I’ve found my long lost drawing form character.

Marshall

Lucky - Britney Spears

Yes, I choose a Britney Spears song for him, is it amazing? Y e s, do I regret it? N o p e. Marshall is just adorableeee. Like he is the literal reincarnation of a puppy and he is much more complex than what it seems? Yeah he’s got this bubbly exterior to himself but deep down he is dealing with depression and anxiety but hides it from anyone, to the point of literally breaking down. He is trying his best at making everyone happy and likes video games and ahhhh ??? I Stan Marshall.

Lincoln

Livin’ on a Prayer - Bon Jovi

Lincoln the embodiment of the dad friend, there I said it. He has such a pure soul and heart and protective aura around those he loves and he is so soft??? He struggled with his dads death and takes care of his brother (which makes a part of the guild Sam is with). He is a little oblivious but other than that Link must be protected at all cost and hopefully finds happiness at the end of the comic becouse if he doesn't I will riot.

Charles

Rude - MAGIC!

Charles is your typical cold but sexy filled with sexual tension moments boss character. He is Sam’s boss and what I love most about Charles is how he wants others to succeed, pushing them their limits to reach their full potential, something I think its quite admirable. Honestly in comparison to the other two boys I haven't connected much with Charles but I still really like his character and hopefully we are able to see more of him in the future!

Monika

Power - Little Mix

The image pretty much describes Monika lol. I decided to include her becouse although she is kindaaaa the antagonist, I feel like she isn't really that bad and honestly, her character is quite compelling. She is Marshall’s girlfriend and a beauty guru, so half of the time she talks about makeup-is things I quite honestly dont understand lolll. However she really cares about those near her and (cues alpha female aura) does her best to protect Marshall becouse she really does likes him, but due to the fame and their worlds they both manage, it makes things complicated at times. I hope she doesn't turn evil or something like that becouse I truly think she is good (or at least up till now) and hopefully she gets a happy ending too ~.

Ships

Sam x Marshall 

This was actually so hard to choose! Because I honestly ship Sam with Lincoln just as much but there’s just something about this couple that I just gahhh! They have this chemistry working over them and they complement each other so well too! Like Sam is very perceptive and a good listener while Marshall just fakes a smile every time and I believe she will be the one to notice something is wrong first <33 

Sam x Lincoln

AHhHHH I love Link so much?? And how he protects Sam and cares about her is so freaking adorable? I think their mutual support and understanding is what makes it one of the best and Sam clearly has some mixed feelings about him that she repressed for a while in order not to tarnish their friendship but now she knows that he likes her so ??? I hope Link and Sam end happy because they both have to be p r o t e c t e d.

Sam x Charles

As I mentioned before, I don't think I can compare Marshall and Link’s relationship to the one with Charles considering they have had more time together, I believe in the next chapters we will get to see their relationship increase. He is very protective and does whats best for Sam and they have this tension around them which gets Sam all flustered and its really cute. Its not my main ship but I’ll wait and see how things progress in the future.

Monika x Marshall

Okay so this is not one of the main ships and people often don't like this couple but I thought it was important to mention! As I said before, I think Monika is quite a complex character and they are both dealing with their own worlds and problems which may make it hard for the relationship to work and not seem toxic. Still, they both care deeply about the other and I know in the end, they would want to see the other happy soooo we’ll see how it ends ^^

Final Thoughts

I absolutely adoree this Webtoon! I’ll try to review the chapters as they go out like I love yoo giving my impressions and what nots. Here are some theories that I think may happen in future chapters too;

- I don't think I mentioned it but Marshall is really good at drawing and its kinda his passion but he hides it from everyone due to fearing failure. I think Sam in one way or another will encourage him to pursue his dream eventually drawing them closer, and as she needs an artist to help her with her next game, I am guessing Marshall will be perfect for that spot :333

- Charles will definitely appear more I think, most of the “romantic” moments have been with Link followed by Marshall leaving the Charles Stans in need of their baby <33

- I think Angela (one of Sam’s guild member and friend) likes Link?? I didn't talk about her much but in one of the latest chapters she gets flustered by him and I am not really sure? I'll definitely be on the look for that.

[flower-of-the-desert]

Why I hate Clare's writing ?She turned Jessamine into such a bitch that her desire to be married and a mother without being a "warrior" is unacceptable in her world. Why would she want to be mundane? They're worse than Downworlders. Clare writes her Shadowhunters like they're perfect, but I can't blame Jess for wanting out bc they are hypocrite who pretend to protect mundanes and despise them at the same time.

That is one of my biggest issue with CC’s writing in general. The narrative of her stories presents the SH as the heroes, the ones in the right, the morally superior ones, the rightuous angels, etc - the ones I’m supposed to cheer for and support in doing the right thing... except they are very rarely if ever actually doing the right thing. Even rarer still doing it for the right reasons.

And the narrative doesnt even shy away from showing us that so it’s not like they’re presented only in a good light. We see plenty of evidence of SH mistreating DWs and showing their racism and hatred towards people who are not... well, anglel-blooded (be it mundane or DW). But that is never presented as a problem that the story needs to deal. Or a flaw these characters have and need to overcome. Those scenes are just... there, it seems. For some reason.

One of the scenes in TID that left me completely aghast was when Gabriel and Cecily went to see that DW shot owner to buy ingredience from him and he asked Gabriel if  he was going to pay for his father’s purchases and Gabriel - because he got upset about it - not only attacked the man completely unprovoked, threw him out the window and into the river but also stole from his shop afterwards and the only “consequences” of this we got was... Gabriel and Cecily laughing about how he didnt ~really~ need to throw him in the river too. The hell???? These are the heroes I’m supposed to cheer for???

Or Tessa’s asshole of a great grandfather or whatever he is to her. Dont get m started on him because just thinking about it makes me sick. The dude was as bad as Valentine yet nobody ever stood up and said hey, you’re fucked up. None of the “good” SH stood against him when he was gleefuly telling how he loved killing DWs and hated that the Accords forbit it and how he jept doing it on the downlow anyway.

The narrative never really puts these SH in a bad light or has them punished for the things they have done in order to show that these characters are wrong for being and doing the wat they are. Or even has anyone challenge their beliefs on how DWs should be treated. That’s my biggest problem with CC’s and the show’s writing as well. If I’m supposed to see them as heroes then fucking show me how they’re being heroic and not just another part of the SH problem against DWs.

But I’m not quite sure what you mean about being worse than a DW? Do you mean that the SH view mundanes as worse than DWs? Or something else? Because yes, for all the talk about how it’s their duty to protect mundanes from the shadow world and whatnot, SH seem to think of them as little better than DWs and demons. And Jessamine’s desire absolutely makes sense though I dont think she wanted out because she saw the flaws in her own people but more so because she didnt feel like living a hard life and dying young.

[sonreiv]

i absolutely despise when ppl paint katsuki as an abuser when horikoshi doesn't even say he's an abuser. Bullying and Abusing has some similar aspects but they are different at the end of it. Katsuki is. a. bully. Izuku recognizes that Katsuki is a jerk and what he did was wrong/bad (and he actually has stated that he hates katsuki, twice) but still sees his strong qualities that make him admire him

(This ask has been sitting in my drafts for the longest time and I thought with the upcoming episodes it was the perfect time to stop procrastinating and finally finish it. Sorry for the wait, nony! I mostly agree with you, but I want to further discuss some points so I hope you don’t mind I got a bit lenghty. You got me an excuse to ramble up some meta haha.)

A TL;DR beforehand: canon analysis supports that Katsuki should not be interpreted as an abuser, but an early bully at most. I also did a little analysis on the early middle school chapter and how it shows BNHA’s society/the peers Deku and Katsuki grew up around set up a bullying enticing enviroment, and how bad translations have us interpret their relationship as more aggravating than it really is - Deku NEVER said he hates Katsuki, for instance. Not once.

I agree that Katsuki is not to be interpreted as an abuser. He does not want to pursue Deku in order to hurt him; instead, he wants to push Deku away from himself. There’s a difference between “I want to possess you, to make you stay around me and hurt you emotionally and physically” - and “I don’t want anything to do with you, go away, don’t interact with me or else”. The first one is abuse. The second one is what Katsuki felt about Deku for most of his life (albeit very simplified). At the times when Katsuki did hurt him - threatening him in middle school, getting out of hand during the heroes vs villains team trial, punching him during the end of the term exam, etc - was because he felt threatened; so his response was to push him away with violence, with an attempt at “teaching” Deku to stay away from his lane.

This is not to defend Katsuki’s actions; this is only a reasoning, not an excuse. His violent behavior towards Deku is still inexcusable. I only want to make clear there’s a difference between “I want to go out of my way to hurt you” and “I will smack you if you push me”, even if his concept of being pushed is distorted to his own experience and it still does not make his violent actions okay. He fears and despises what Deku did at those times: talking to Katsuki as if Katsuki isn’t on the pedestal he grew up believing he was on. This is the core of Katsuki’s feelings. He does not want to abuse Deku. He wanted him to go away, and he WOULD physically/verbally assault him if that meant pushing Deku away from him. And the rest of his threats/aggressive banter is just really how he talks to everyone else.

Even in canon it’s explicitly stated Deku was the one who insisted on following him because of his admiration, and that was what Katsuki couldn’t stand; he wanted him to be away.

And that was way before. The game is changing, and the development of their relationship is one of the core points of the series. Katsuki recognized him as someone who is not allowed to lose, someone worthy of All Might’s trust, and just very slowly started talking to Deku like he does to everyone else.

I also believe that affirming Katsuki would be an abuser in a romantic relationship with Deku misses the point if the person is okay with it if it’s a friendship/platonic relationship, or if they ship Katsuki with other people. Someone who is abusive does not isolate their behavior to one single person, nor does abuse happen only in romantic relationships. Abusive friendships exist. If one thinks katsudeku is okay as long as it’s platonic, if they believe in their growth and healing enough to believe they can start and share a healthy friendship, then the same should be applied to a romantic relationship. Also if Katsuki were to be an abusive partner to Deku, he’d be the same to other partners. If he were to be emotionally manipulative, possessive, constantly putting him down and hurting him while also keeping him - he’d do it to any other partners. The thing is people who ship katsudeku usually don’t ship it hc'ing that Katsuki keeps his ill behavior towards Deku in the relationship - we cherish the character’s growth and development. The canon Katsuki, the Katsuki with the bad behavior in the older chapters, as stated above, didn’t even wish to keep Deku around as a peer, let alone to form some kind of deeper bond. The romantic katsudeku ship I personally want is the kind where Katsuki grows and changes (as it’s slowly happening in canon) enough past his insecurities towards Deku to be okay with approaching him like he does to other peers. No possessiveness, no emotional abuse, because I personally don’t see that coming from him.

Since we got to this point, something interesting and relevant that I don’t usually see being pointed out is that in the very beginning of the story, it wasn’t only Katsuki opposing to the idea Deku could enter UA while being quirkless. The entire class laughed at him, and the teacher didn’t bat an eye.

This is not to gloss over the fact Katsuki did show unexcusable behavior towards Deku, but I think the scene was set up that way to show it was not only Katsuki’s isolated behavior, but the system, BNHA’s society is shaped to mock and discourage individuals who believe they can become heroes or achieve certain things despite the conditions of their quirk(lesness). The way the society is shaped was Deku’s childhood bully. He was mocked by his peers as young as 4, while at the same time Katsuki was put in a pedestal because of his quirk - which led to his massive ego complex. We can’t analyse their personalities and relationship without taking in account the context they grew up in. Many people frame Katsuki as the single-handed culprit for Deku’s bullying background without taking this whole context into account, while also casting Deku the role of a submissive, persecuted victim when he deliberately chose to stick around Katsuki, and just generally shows to be a character with a lot more agency than that.

And what’s interesting in this scene is that Katsuki didn’t laugh along with everyone else when Deku says he wants to apply and he might have a chance. Because Katsuki takes that seriously. He takes that as a personal offence. The whole point of Katsuki’s ill feelings towards Deku were always that he

feels as Deku is mocking his efforts by believing that himself, a quirkless boy who didn’t do any kind of physical preparation for a heroics course - has chances of becoming a hero as much as Katsuki, who is a born genius AND presumably prepared himself to apply to UA, with training and studying, going as far as scolding his colleague for smoking because he wanted a clean student record.

he feels threatened by Deku because ever since they were kids, as much as Deku admired him, he also saw Katsuki as someone who was able to get hurt and could have a hand offered to like anyone else; Deku saw him as superior in terms of skill, but an equal as a human being, while all the other kids did not. And that made Katsuki not stand him. Because he’s scared of being anything less than the very best, he’s scared of being someone who can be offered help - in his eyes, someone who can be pitied and looked down onto.

And that’s why he reacts with hostility. He wants to intimidate Deku out of even trying to apply to UA. It’s even stated by Katsuki’s colleagues he got out of hand this time, implying it’s not normal behavior for Katsuki (and I’ve seen people saying it was confirmed by Horikoshi himself, though I don’t have sources so don’t quote me on that). Again, he will only seriously smack Deku down if he feels threatened. He does not go out of his way to put him down on a daily basis because he doesn’t want to interact with Deku to begin with.

Also, Deku actually never stated he hates Katsuki. Not once. What he actually says is closer to “he may be a jerk, but-”, which is how the official english translation translated it, as seen above (stole the picture from this post by @kiraelric because it’s where I found it faster :P). Here’s a post explaining it, and I quote @sugarmagic who gently broke down the first panel - which FA translated as “I hate his guts” - for me:

Basically the word 嫌う, the verb form is “to hate” but 嫌な奴 is “unlikable/disagreeable guy.” So what I’m pretty sure happened is that they didn’t realize な was modifying the word to be an adjective. It’s not describing Deku’s feelings, it’s describing Kacchan’s character. The reading of the kanji is written as “iyana yatsu,” versus “Kacchan ga kurai” which really would be “I hate Kacchan”. Then again, even if they read it that way, the furigana explicitly shows the reading, so I don’t even know what they were thinking.

 The translation group Fallen Angels takes way too much freedom and completely distorts some lines, and the dislike of Bakugou/his relationship with Deku in the western fandom was heavily influenced by interpreting it via FA’s aggravated translations. I had people who know japanese tell me how gratuitously innacurate the translations are - as an example, FA translates Deku thinking Katsuki is difficult to deal with as Deku thinking Katsuki causes him to be aware of his own flaws (source). The translations paint Bakugou’s character and his relationships, specially with Deku, unnecessarily harsher than they really are. In fact, something the localisation usually fails to translate is how Bakugou’s “die!” and similar threats are not be taken as seriously in japanese as one would in english - but rather pretty immature and petty (source).

So! If you read up to this point and you’re interested in reading other meta on Katsuki and Deku’s characters and relationship, you should check @explodo-smash’s meta tag. They’re a pretty smart team and can explain/analyse things better than me - in fact their meta helped me a lot understand better their dynamics post my bloody Fallen Angel readings. That’s all for today, and thank you for taking the time to read.

[kyandice]

How I wish there were more of such humans that would do this and go the extra mile for their friends. It's not even like what, an extra mile, they are just doing what they should do and what a normal human being should do.

people should know how much impact they could have on other person’s life. As for me, those secondary school boys should know better.

I don't believe in God, but this is reassuring. If only people would say this to me. Maybe I should start believing in God. At least maybe for once, I know my worth. 13 reasons why may be not liked due to some controversial stuff like it's promoting suicide and what not. But we also can learn a thing or two from there.   Watch "13 Reasons Why" and you'll realize just how important every little thing you say to someone really is. be kind, it could save a life. 

We all tried to get help. It's just all about the people who listened, people who cared, people who made you feel loved, people who made you feel worthy of something. And you never know whats really going on with other peoples lives, so don't be mean. For all you know, they might die the next moment and words spread and people know it’s because of you, you'll live the rest your life with guilt. I would personally kill myself, and before I do that, ill spread the word about those who drive me into this. Sure, revenge will be made, they cant have a stable life, they'll live their lives with guilt. I'm not condoning suicide, I know it's wrong and people shouldn't do it. But I've been considering this as an option since I was in secondary school and the only things stopping me is just me having no courage to actually carry everything out. There's Bryan, I don't want to hurt him either.

Other people criticize the character of Hannah and say that she is as bad as the rest of them for pinning her death on them, knowing the devastating effects this will have on them for the rest of their lives. BUT YO, sometimes, revenge just had to be made to show the world the consequences of bullying or merely being mean. Hanna is not perfect, im not perfect, I would've done the same. she's not an angelic figure who does no wrong. Hannah is a flawed character. The show isn't about how the good girl got her revenge against the cruel bullies. The show is about how everything affects everyone. And if teenagers are able to take one message from the show, it's that their actions can have serious consequences, no matter how insignificant they may seem to them.  Hannah is bullied in the show, but not the way television and movies normally portray bullying. This isn't the big kids shoving the small kid in the locker. This isn't the jock robbing the nerd's lunch money. This is real. It's slut-shaming, it's being excluded, it's being treated like dirt and it's a lack of adequate mental health facilities at her disposal. It's real. Mine wasn't as bad. But how bad? that's all relative to the person. 

What we need you to understand is that suicide is not a light-hearted choice. It takes time and an indescribable amount of sadness. You would first need to break as a human being. The road to suicide is not paved with brick. It has mountains and cliffs and even road works sometimes when things get a little better in life. Sometimes people turn around and walk back the other way, sometimes they run towards the end, sometimes they wander around in the middle for a time. It is different for everyone. But all the while suicidal people fight to live. You only see Hannah's choice to kill herself, I see every day that she didn't. Even on the last day of her life Hannah went to the counsellor. She still tried to stay. No one wants to die, not really. We want the pain to stop. We want a way out. But even when the house is on fire and we have nothing but a cup of water in our hands to help we still tell ourselves "you can do this". But we can only fight for so long and maybe eventually we reach a moment where we give up. And it only takes a moment. Then it's too late. You can choose to die once but you choose to live every day. There is a lot of talk around the show planting the idea of suicide for revenge, which is a stretch. That's the stigma talking.

When I see Clay I don't see a victim, I see a bystander.I don't think being a bystander makes you a bad person, because Clay clearly isn't.But it does make you a weak one.When you are getting bullied and no one is there to stand up for you but yourself, it's incredibly isolating.Their silence acts as encouragement to the bullies by turning a blind eye to their behaviour.

For my story, Back in secondary 2, Beatrice was always bullied. People boys laughed about her acne, pimples. Called her ugly. Laughed at her whenever she had to answer a question in class she sat at the corner of the class, trying to get away from all these negative attention. At that point, I had no friends too. The class was against me and it started because of a group of popular girls were just salty that I had more attention from boys than them. I've always hung out with boys since I was in primary school and yeah I was sporty, I played soccer, the fastest runner in school. Damn right I definitely will be popular amongst the boys. But hey, those popular pretty girls hated it. They started to spread hate about me, and well things worked pretty well for them. i mean if you were a guy, which side would you be on? A big bunch of lovely pretty popular girls or a lone decent looking girl whos kinda a tomboy whos really good at many sports? of course those pretty ladies. Guys love the pretty ladies. A point extra if you're popular. And slowly, those guys turned against me, started laughing at me, making fun of me. And each time they laugh at me, my reputation lost, my friendships were lost.

And back to Beatrice. She was another girl bullied in the school. this was the mistake that made everything worst. I didn't not regret this but, it definitely made me feel worst about myself. When people made fun of her acne and said she was disgusting, i stood up for her and comforted her everytime. But the more i do that the more people started making fun of me for protecting her and being friends with her. so yeah. but she was a shy person. i dont blame her for like not trying to stand up for me but i was taking more blow than beatrice and i just dont know if i should be selfish and just care for myself.

I just want someone, who could emotionally support me, someone who would do exactly what I would do for people.