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yardsards · 5 months

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"i dunno, i don't think i have social anxiety or anything, i'm just awkward. like, i can do public speaking with no problem so long as i have a script, it's just that certain weird things make me nervous. it's fine, i just make it sound worse than it is when talking to my therapists." <=guy whose gut feelings are frequently convinced that basically everyone wants to beat him with hammers

#eliot posts #my mental issues just tend to manifest Weirdly lol #some things that make me socially anxious:#asking for things #approaching/talking to people individually when i previously only knew them in group settings #approaching ppl in general if i don't have a specific social script #talking one on one to much older adults #joining new groups of people where they know each other but i don't know all of them #also when ppl reference inside jokes to each other that im not in on i think they hate me and are leaving me out on purpose. bc they hate m #the middle stage between ''polite small talk acquaintances'' and ''actual close friends'' is both difficult and confusing AND scary #things that don't make me socially anxious that make most socially anxious ppl anxious:#public speaking #ordering food #making small talk when expected to #going places alone #so i'm totally mentally healthy see :)

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tibli · 4 months

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people treating either dirk or jake as the 'villain' of the relationship fundamentally misunderstand that they were isolated teenagers with social issues who both contributed to the relationship's problems, and neither of them are evil

#homestuck #dirkjake #dirk strider #jake english #im not a huge dirkjake person. i like it but not super actively or anything #but they BOTH did things wrong #dirk can be manipulative and overbearing #but hes not some evil mastermind hellbent on ruining jake lmao #his worst offense was like. building a fighting robot that jake explicitly asked for #and then going too far with it #on the reverse side #jake is not some unfeeling uncaring monster #hes socially anxious and has a hard time standing his ground on personal matters #his worst crime was mainly just. being kind of inattentive and unintentionally a little callous #i think postcanon (ignoring the epilogues and hs2) dirkjake could work fine if they both just like #got a little therapy and counseling #i think this is kinda why the epilogues make me bitter bc they really just like. completely bastardized the both of them #dirk is a hypercontrolling obsessive ultrabastard #and jake is a dumb thoughtless himbo who for some reason is a constant punching bag #also im p sure jake canonically has brain damage like i think thats stated in plain text in hs proper #i mean that could probably be healed but for a while he was kind of like. airheaded and unfocused #and i think its kinda insulting how hes treated in both timelines #im not a jake scholar like i am a dirk one tho so jake lovers i need someone to back me up on this pls

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agaricales · 22 days

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trying to practice drawing things i normally don't have the patience to draw

photo sources: 1 | 2 (not sure where this one came from) | 3 | 4

#my drawings #i enjoyed the first & last one most i think because they have some living things in them #i need to figure out how to make drawing objects fun for me because the kitchen one was excruciating :')#but anyway i decided not to go on twitter any more & replaced that time with drawing #and i can tell you these were ALL more enjoyable than scrolling social media & feeling anxious lol

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seventh-district · 27 days

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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

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shaniacsboogara · 1 year

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hey watcherinas!!! having a bit of a mental health time so i think i'm gonna try to step back from tumblr for a bit (by a bit i probably just mean tomorrow but i just wanted to let you know lol) <3

#average boog post #just think i'm getting overstimulated and thinking about tumblr too much isn't helping that so i think i need a little breather #sdndnd sunday is STILL ON!!!#dw ill still be here just maybe not as much (and maybe not at all tomorrow idk i think i need a social media break)#that and some time to just BE without feeling like i need to constantly be creating and posting #i know a lot of what i do here is post silly jokes but i do put pressure on myself to make em good enough so... yeah #just unlearning my anxious / perfectionistic behaviors and thought processes and trying to find healthier ways to deal with things #love you all you mean the world to me #i think i just need to focus less on boog for a minute and more on...#REDACTED #HA YOU THOUGHT A NAME REVEAL WAS COMING DIDN'T YOU #PSYCH #okay but in all seriousness thanks for reading this if you did <3

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toastsnaffler · 7 months

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sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests...#theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man #it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing #eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED #and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself #by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others #it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless #ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!)#but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking #and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk #oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao #and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3 #voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries #that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them #and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long #+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc #and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it #to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍#anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite #if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^)#.vent #.diaries

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transfloppa · 2 months

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yeah

#dekoposting #i promised myself i wohldnt vent on a public social media again but its like midnight and i just want to cry #its thst time of night again where i feel so fucking bad about him #and i kniw. i know he was awful to me but i miss how affectionate he was whenever it was just us #i stayed up all night just so i could talk to him and i self isolated because i wanted nothing more than him #and i dont. i dont know #i miss it #i miss that awful anxious curl he'd make me feel whenever we'd speak because at least he made me feel something #when i told him i didnt want a romantic relationship he was upset and st this point i almost get it #id be upset if i were him #and he said some things in anger but so did i #i hope he still misses me

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thethingything · 2 months

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I can already tell we're gonna get drop within the next couple of hours because we've had a lot of fun today so that's gonna be interesting to deal with because our brain's been doing weird stuff over the last few days, but I do appreciate that both last Monday and today we got to enjoy a big event that was fun enough to do that because wow we needed that.

I also appreciate that so far this month we've done really well with challenging our social anxiety and today we managed to get up and do chores and stuff relatively soon after waking up

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #happy posting #to be honest I think challenging our social anxiety might be part of why our brain has been doing some of the weird shit it's doing #I have done things that our brain did not like in the slightest that ended up being really fun and I'm really proud of myself for it #but holy shit our brain is not happy with me for doing that because it was stuff we're normally way too anxious to do #even though it ended up going really well and realistically I know the anxiety is irrational and doesn't make sense in this instance

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glitxd-shenanigan · 4 months

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People who could just come up to someone and talk to them

How do they do that? Like that's a really cool ability to have, to just talk to someone like they already knew each other

Do they feel awkward? No? How???? That kind of confidence blows my mind and it's inspiring, I must learn how to gain confidence

#gx speaks #Doing it IRL when I sell things at cons are easier for some reason #But it's harder to do at work.. though it usually takes me like one week to a month before I could get comfy w/ them #Making friends online is a diff. story.. I get anxious easier #I guess the lack of social cues scares me?#This is a sign for me to lurk in voice chats more

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introvert-celeste · 5 months

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#vent #i hung out with my friend today who has been dealing with chronic pain for a while and hasn't been able to really go anywhere #and it was a nice time but for some reason i just feel really anxious and borderline panicky #could be the junk food we had but also i feel like I've been letting him push my boundaries a lot lately #and while i know I'm not interested in him romantically and I'm pretty sure he isn't interested in me some of these things just feel weird #i think he's being kinda awkward and clingy bc he hasn't gotten much social interaction lately #but i don't want to tell him to stop and make him upset or depressed or something #he's been really down lately from the pain he's been in #and if it makes him feel better to hug me for too long or put his head on my chest then i guess i can stand to be uncomfortable #i just wish he wouldn't

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penisliker-moved · 2 years

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look how cute this outfit is

#th hair n shoes r both cc. and the eyes as well #i ended up deleting her bc she didnt fit with my Idea of the character but also ive completely flipflopped skull...#originally th person i made (jeanie) ws gonna be a highschooler but then i remember how Incredibly overwhelming highschool years is for me #like idk something abt it makes me so anxious. ithink its bc rh schools like.. So empty. yk #its weird. and the layouts weird af to me. it just makes me uncomfortable #and ikk that like. well 1 i dont have to go along 2 its like. they Cant pack the highschool with a normal amt of students it would #like. crash the game real bad real hard.but its scary why r there TWO classrooms and like 8 students in each.#also ik this is Also impossible but. man. i kinda wish we ciuld have different highschools for different locations....#TBVH. th only thing i rly like abt hsy is th clothes and even then only some of them. hehe.#i havent fucked around with boba shops or thrift stores yet thouygh...#but like i HATEEE socialbunny i hate it so bad #i rly rly rly wish they would like. Make up their minds on what the social media js #and obviously irl theres like. Multiple. duh #but having simstagram AND socialbunny and. i think theres another one. its so.#and every socialbunny post is so cringe 💀 theres lke NO subtance to socialbunny i dont get it at all. i hate it...#maybe with th influencer career.. they added that right idr. a little funny. no firemen? but we can be selling tummy tea? ok #UGHHH just like. idkidkidkk... sims 4 just. wellll im a hater lets say that #and it sucks bc i rly rly rly prefer the character creator + th buildbuy mode is Leagues easier rhan older games #obviously i have ISSUES with both . wood swatches 💀#like i undersrand why some ppl r glad abt the uhmm. create a style being gone #bc i understand it could get overwhelming for sure. but i think like. there could be a balance between swatches and create a style..#um anyways th baby update do we have any more info on that. i havent looked into it since the direct or whatever. im nervous but excited?#SRY FOR RAMBLING LOL #If u guys wanna see jeanie lmk ^-^ i think ill resrarther as a young adult + move in another sim i started making. and have them get #togerher bc i think theyd be cute..ok.

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abyssalpriest · 11 months

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I think whatever I end up doing the lesson is at its core "you need to stop seeing all attempts at saying you experience something as you taking up too much space and being dangerous, and you also need to understand everyone always makes mistakes sometimes (nothing anyone thinks is fully right) and you're not lesser and amateur at channelling because you aren't fully right, and also some third thing he says there is but idk what it is"