#someone tell me what to do

[lexkent]

I've been accepted into grad school in a neighboring state and in the city I've lived in for the past 10 years, and I'm rotting from the inside out trying to come to a decision

pros for staying: I love my second floor apartment with a balcony and feel comfortable that the landlord isn't some monster. It would be so much easier to stay put. I have a summer and fall job secured here. the classes are regular M-F. there's a part time option if it gets to be too much. I have 1 cousin moving here for grad school (different school same city). there's a better chance of meeting fellow lgbt people here. this is a fun and diverse city with a never ending selection of things to do.

cons for staying: I already spent 4 years at this school so there isn't that thrill of going to a new university it would almost feel like returning to high school. I don’t feel a ton of school pride. it's not particularly safe here (I regularly hear gunshots, etc from my apartment.) I'm tired of the stress of the Mad Max driving situation here. I can't go on night walks without needing to be aware of my surroundings. I don't think I would want to be a Beginner social worker here (though I do want to return someday with more skills and experience). I feel like 10+ years is a long time to live in just one city. my therapist would be low key disappointed if I stayed. staying might feel like settling.

pros for leaving: it's exciting to go to a new school. smaller class sizes should mean a better chance to connect with professors and better chance to get an assistantship to help cover tuition. I could go on walks at night without needing to look over my shoulder. I would prefer to be a Beginner social worker in this city. new city means new places and parks to explore. my therapist seems to think going here and having a fresh start would be most beneficial to me. some cousins and friends are within 1.5 hours of this city. Ceno should be moving there soon!! I've been approved for an apartment with a deck.

cons for leaving: I hate moving more than anything in the world no matter how much I mentally prepare myself it's always 100x worse than I imagined. classes are Friday and Saturday (how am I supposed to drive home and see family/friends with 2 years of weekend classes?) middle of nowhere city. lack of diversity. I don't have a summer job lined up. there is always risk and uncertainty signing with new landlords because they can make your life total hell. it has been near impossible to find an apartment that allows cats I've been looking every day for months. I was just accepted for an apartment i like (though I learned it is ground floor despite the listed pictures which means my cats won't be able to freely enjoy the outdoor deck space like they could with a balcony and there could be a safety issue considering open windows) but with 1st month rent + security deposit + $600 cat fee + $70 cat rent, my bank account is going to wiped out to nothing (I've been crying lol)

[skateisawesome]

im gonna tell them today. i'm going to tell my parents that i need help.

long story version here:

this morning i slept in and woke up after class started, this is the third time i've done that this year. last time i did it they told me that it was never allowed to happen again.

i get it and i think its fair because i shouldn't be sleeping through school.

nine months ago i begged my mother to let me go to therapy. i told her that i had hurt myself and that sometimes i found it hard to eat. i told her everything and explained that i desperately wanted a diagnosis for what was wrong with me. she agreed and said we could do that. we never did.

its been nine months and she hasn't even asked me if i'm doing okay. not once.

so when she called me this morning and asked me why i wasn't at school yet i nearly screamed it down the phone.

but i'm a bit more calm now and i've decided i'm gonna tell her that i'm exhausted all of the time and i sleep at school and i sleep when i get home and no matter how long i sleep im so tired. i'm going to tell her that it's been nine months and that i meant it when i said i wanted to go to therapy.

im scared but i need help man. i can't keep doing this. i can barely keep doing anything.

anyway somebody give me advice please

[sars-wulf]

I came up with the most horrible idea and I can’t decide if I want to put it in Burn. 😭😭😭

So basically the Core drugs Anne with an aphrodisiac, hoping it will make her break down and become their mate “officially.”

The Core tempts her with Marcy’s body and voice, promising great pleasure if she gives in. Its touches grow salacious, and it becomes more affectionate.

However, Anne’s willpower is too great and she doesn’t give in. But her body is burning up and she needs water, something, some sort of relief. So she just curls up on the cool floor, and bites into her arm, hoping that the drug will run its course.

The heat grows too much and Anne basically passes out on the floor, tears staining her face, and drool spilling from her lips.

I swear I’m cooking up something 🙏🙏

[effervescentdragon]

should i order a burger

[absolutelybifurious]

for real how do yall handle mentioning people in those tags games? it looks like ppl just save off the ppl they tag regularly? is there a way to do this so it doesn't untag people after a certain limit?

also please god if you want me to tag you in tag games reply to this so i know who i'm bothering and who i'm not - i feel like it's so fun for me to get tagged but i know some ppl are prob like SHUT. the fuck up. so

please. i need help. I NEED HELP SOMEONE.

[gimpo-ranchero]

That torturous spot of wanting to cum but wanting to edge forever

[puppys-teeth]

Hmm. I don’t have any wips. I’ve got like a couple paragraphs that could turn into something more but man it’s tough finding the motivation for them. Idk what to work on next

[newtness532]

okay so i can either buy more yarn (and needles for the correct size) or keep this yarn for a different project and buy a different yarn that will be the correct size 🤔

[vcspucci]

what do i even say on here uhhhh hi

[eyeslikewatercoolers]

I can’t decide whether to pair Irene with Luxx or Sugar for this Cooking Channel Jasco fic ughhhhhh

what if its a poly ship

[labradorite-princess]

Do I do it?

[volkolak]

very cool of tumblr to implement the "reply as a sideblog" feature right after i remake this entire blog on a separate account purely so i could do that. thanks very awesome

[1427]

Any real opinions on releasing things in one big part or breaking it up? Preferences from reader OR writer standpoints?

When I have a story (like I do now) that’s BASICALLY a oneshot - I often feel like there’s a sort of natural part one and part 2; (part one really being the set up, building tension, ect)

Like I find myself so overcome with YES IM DONE with finishing the set up that I just want to post it as is and hope instead of annoyed people get hype for part two where the smut is?

That darylxsister!ofc is a little over 3k and it just feels like it’s at this natural part 1 conclusion but I also feel like maybe it annoys people to have things broken up??

[spodimusarts]

Help!

There are fake SPAM pages that keep following me and no matter how many I block they just keep coming. Can someone please tell me what I’m doing wrong? This only started about 2 weeks ago and won’t stop.

[mondfahrt]

tomorrow will be the third (fourth?) time i'll be trying to get rid of my bed. i'm already so nervous i could cry. someone hold my hand pls :(

[allhandsondeck1]

decision delemma

write new chapter for silly food fic. or write new chapter for not so silly werewolf fic. OR actually finish tacking my patches